第22章

`Thenyouhaven’tgivenuptheidea？-Ithoughtthatperhapsyouhadbythistime。’

`Ofcoursenot。IfondlythoughtatfirstthatyoufeltasIdoaboutthat，asyouweresomixedupinChristminsterAnglicanism。AndMr。

Phillotson——’

`IhavenorespectforChristminsterwhatever，except，inaqualifieddegree，onitsintellectualside，’saidSueBrideheadearnestly。`MyfriendIspokeoftookthatoutofme。HewasthemostirreligiousmanIeverknew，andthemostmoral。AndintellectatChristminsterisnewwineinoldbottles。ThemediaevalismofChristminstermustgo，besloughedoff，orChristminsteritselfwillhavetogo。Tobesure，attimesonecouldn’thelphavingasneakinglikingforthetraditionsoftheoldfaith，aspreservedbyasectionofthethinkersthereintouchingandsimplesincerity；butwhenIwasinmysaddest，rightestmindIalwaysfelt，`Oghastlygloriesofsaints，deadlimbsofgibbetedGods！’’……`Sue，youarenotagoodfriendofminetotalklikethat！’

`ThenIwon’t，dearJude！’Theemotionalthroat-notehadcomeback，andsheturnedherfaceaway。

`IstillthinkChristminsterhasmuchthatisglorious；thoughIwasresentfulbecauseIcouldn’tgetthere。’Hespokegently，andresistedhisimpulsetopiqueherontotears。

`Itisanignorantplace，exceptastothetownspeople，artizans，drunkards，andpaupers，’shesaid，perversestillathisdifferingfromher。`theyseelifeasitis，ofcourse；butfewofthepeopleinthecollegesdo。Youproveitinyourownperson。YouareoneoftheverymenChristminsterwasintendedforwhenthecollegeswerefounded；amanwithapassionforlearning，butnomoney，oropportunities，orfriends。

Butyouwereelbowedoffthepavementbythemillionaires’sons。’

`Well，Icandowithoutwhatitconfers。Icareforsomethinghigher。’

`AndIforsomethingbroader，truer，’sheinsisted。`AtpresentintellectinChristminsterispushingoneway，andreligiontheother；

andsotheystandstock-still，liketworamsbuttingeachother。’

`WhatwouldMr。Phillotson——’

`Itisaplacefulloffetishistsandghost-seers！’

Henoticedthatwheneverhetriedtospeakoftheschoolmastersheturnedtheconversationtosomegeneralizationsabouttheoffendinguniversity。Judewasextremely，morbidly，curiousaboutherlifeasPhillotson’sproté；gé；eandbetrothed；yetshewouldnotenlightenhim。

`Well，that’sjustwhatIam，too，’hesaid。`Iamfearfuloflife，spectre-seeingalways。’

`Butyouaregoodanddear！’shemurmured。

Hisheartbumped，andhemadenoreply。

`YouareintheTractarianstagejustnow，areyounot？’sheadded，puttingonflippancytohiderealfeeling，acommontrickwithher。`Letmesee-whenwasIthere？Intheyeareighteenhundredand——’

`There’sasarcasminthatwhichisratherunpleasanttome，Sue。

NowwillyoudowhatIwantyouto？AtthistimeIreadachapter，andthensayprayers，asItoldyou。Nowwillyouconcentrateyourattentiononanybookoftheseyoulike，andsitwithyourbacktome，andleavemetomycustom？Youaresureyouwon’tjoinme？’

`I’lllookatyou。’

`No。Don’ttease，Sue！’

`Verywell-I’lldojustasyoubidme，andIwon’tvexyou，Jude，’shereplied，inthetoneofachildwhowasgoingtobegoodforeverafter，turningherbackuponhimaccordingly。AsmallBibleotherthantheonehewasusinglaynearher，andduringhisretreatshetookitup，andturnedovertheleaves。

`Jude，’shesaidbrightly，whenhehadfinishedandcomebacktoher；`willyouletmemakeyouanewNewTestament，liketheoneImadeformyselfatChristminster？’

`Ohyes。Howwasthatmade？’

`IalteredmyoldonebycuttingupalltheEpistlesandGospelsintoseparatebrochures，andrearrangingtheminchronologicalorderaswritten，beginningthebookwithThessalonians，followingonwiththeEpistles，andputtingtheGospelsmuchfurtheron。ThenIhadthevolumerebound。MyuniversityfriendMr——butneve