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`Idon’tknowwhetheritwasthedemoralizationofmyutterdefeatinmyencounterwithaspectreoffearlessthananhourago，butIlethimcapturemewithoutevenashowofresistance。Iwasdoomedtobetherecipientofconfidences，andtobeconfrontedwithunanswerablequestions。Itwastrying；butthecontempt，theunreasonedcontempt，theman’sappearanceprovoked，madeiteasiertobear。Hecouldn’tpossiblymatter。Nothingmattered，sinceIhadmadeupmymindthatJim，forwhomaloneIcared，hadatlastmasteredhisfate。Hehadtoldmehewassatisfied……nearly。
Thisisgoingfurtherthanmostofusdare。I——whohavetherighttothinkmyselfgoodenough——darenot。Neitherdoesanyofyouhere，Isuppose？……’
Marlowpaused，asifexpectingananswer。Nobodyspoke。
`Quiteright，’hebeganagain。`Letnosoulknow，sincethetruthcanbewrungoutofusonlybysomecruel，little，awfulcatastrophe。Butheisoneofus，andhecouldsayhewassatisfied……nearly。Justfancythis!Nearlysatisfied。Onecouldalmostenvyhimhiscatastrophe。Nearlysatisfied。Afterthisnothingcouldmatter。Itdidnotmatterwhosuspectedhim，whotrustedhim，wholovedhim，whohatedhim——especiallyasitwasCorneliuswhohatedhim。
`Yetafterallthiswasakindofrecognition。Youshalljudgeofamanbyhisfoesaswellasbyhisfriends，andthisenemyofJimwassuchasnodecentmanwouldbeashamedtoown，without，however，makingtoomuchofhim。ThiswastheviewJimtook，andinwhichIshared；butJimdisregardedhimongeneralgrounds。“MydearMarlow，“hesaid，“IfeelthatifIgostraightnothingcantouchme。IndeedIdo。Nowyouhavebeenlongenoughheretohaveagoodlookround——and，frankly，don’tyouthinkIamprettysafe？Italldependsuponme，and，byJove!Ihavelotsofconfidenceinmyself。Theworstthinghecoulddowouldbetokillme，Isuppose。Idon’tthinkforamomenthewould。Hecouldn’t，youknow——notifIweremyselftohandhimaloadedrifleforthepurpose，andthenturnmybackonhim。That’sthesortofthingheis。Andsupposehewould——supposehecould？Well——whatofthat？Ididn’tcomehereflyingformylife——didI？Icameheretosetmybackagainstthewall，andIamgoingtostayhere……
“`Tillyouarequitesatisfied，“Istruckin。
`Weweresittingatthetimeundertheroofinthesternofhisboat；
twentypaddlesflashedlikeone，tenonaside，strikingthewaterwithasinglesplash，whilebehindourbacksTamb’Itamdippedsilentlyrightandleft，andstaredrightdownthetheriver，attentivetokeepthelongcanoesinthegreateststrengthofthecurrent。Jimbowedhishead，andourlasttalkseemedtoflickeroutforgood。Hewasseeingmeoffasfarasthemouthoftheriver。Theschoonerhadleftthedaybefore，workingdownanddriftingontheebb，whileIhadprolongedmystayovernight。
Andnowhewasseeingmeoff。
`JimhadbeenalittleangrywithmeformentioningCorneliusatall。
Ihadnot，intruth，saidmuch。Themanwastooinsignificanttobedangerous，thoughhewasasfullofhateashecouldhold。Hehadcalledme“honourablesir“ateverysecondsentence，andhadwhinedatmyelbowashefollowedmefromthegraveofhis“latewife“tothegateofJim’scompound。Hedeclaredhimselfthemostunhappyofmen，avictim，crushedlikeaworm；
heentreatedmetolookathim。Iwouldn’tturnmyheadtodoso；butI
couldseeoutofthecornerofmyeyehisobsequiousshadowglidingaftermine，whilethemoon，suspendedonourrighthand，seemedtogloatserenelyuponthespectacle。Hetriedtoexplain——asI’vetoldyou——hisshareintheeventsofthememorablenight。Itwasamatterofexpediency。Howcouldheknowwhowasgoingtogettheupperhand？“Iwouldhavesavedhim，honourablesir!Iwouldhavesavedhimforeightydollars，“heprotestedindulcettones，keepingapacebehindme。“Hehadsavedhimself，“Isaid，“andhehasforgivenyou。“Iheardasortoftittering，andturneduponhim；atonceheappearedreadytotaketohisheels。“Whatareyoulaughingat？“
Iasked，standingstill。“Don’tbedeceived，honourablesir!“heshrieked，seeminglylosingallcontroloverhisfeelings。“Hesavehimself!
Heknowsnothing，honourablesir——nothingwhatever。Whoishe？Whatdoeshewanthere——thebigthief？Whatdoeshewanthere？Hethrowsdustintoeverybody’seyes；hethrowsdustintoy
