Lord Jim

第35章

toldmefurtherthathedidn’tknowwhatmadehimhangon——butofcoursewemayguess。Hesympathizeddeeplywiththedefencelessgirl,atthemercyofthat“mean,cowardlyscoundrel。“ItappearsCorneliusledheranawfullife,stoppingonlyshortofactualill-usage,forwhichhehadnotthepluck,Isuppose。Heinsisteduponhercallinghimfather——“andwithrespect,too——withrespect,“hewouldscream,shakingalittleyellowfistinherface。“Iamarespectableman,andwhatareyou?Tellme——whatareyou?YouthinkIamgoingtobringupsomebodyelse’schildandnottobetreatedwithrespect?YououghttobegladIletyou。

Come——say,Yes,father……No?……Youwaitabit。“Thereuponhewouldbegintoabusethedeadwoman,tillthegirlwouldrunoffwithherhandstoherhead。Hepursuedher,dashinginandoutandroundthehouseandamongstthesheds,woulddriveherintosomecorner,whereshewouldfallonherkneesstoppingherears,andthenhewouldstandatadistanceanddeclaimfilthydenunciationatherbackforhalfanhouratastretch。

“Yourmotherwasadevil,adeceitfuldevil——andyou,too,areadevil,“

hewouldshriekinafinaloutburst,pickupabitofdryearthorahandfulofmud(therewasplentyofmudaroundthehouse),andflingitintoherhair。Sometimes,though,shewouldholdoutfullofscorn,confrontinghiminsilence,herfacesombreandcontracted,andonlynowandthenutteringawordortwothatwouldmaketheotherjumpandwrithewiththesting。

Jimtoldmethesesceneswereterrible。Itwasindeedastrangethingtocomeuponinawilderness。Theendlessnessofsuchasubtlycruelsituationwasappalling——ifyouthinkofit。TherespectableCornelius(Inchi’NelyustheMalayscalledhim,withagrimacethatmeantmanythings)wasamuchdisappointedman。Idon’tknowwhathehadexpectedwouldbedoneforhiminconsiderationofhismarriage;butevidentlythelibertytosteal,andembezzle,andappropriatetohimselfformanyyearsandinanywaythatsuitedhimbest,thegoodsofStein’sTradingCompany(Steinkeptthesupplyupunfalteringlyaslongashecouldgethisskipperstotakeitthere)

didnotseemtohimafairequivalentforthesacrificeofhishonourablename。JimwouldhaveenjoyedexceedinglythrashingCorneliuswithinaninchofhislife;ontheotherhand,thesceneswereofsopainfulacharacter,soabominable,thathisimpulsewouldbetogetoutofearshot,inordertosparethegirl’sfeelings。Theyleftheragitated,speeches,clutchingherbosomnowandthenwithastony,desperateface,andthenJimwouldloungeupandsayunhappily,“Now——come——really——what’stheuse——youmusttrytoeatabit,“orgivesomesuchmarkofsympathy。Corneliuswouldkeeponslinkingthroughthedoorways,acrosstheverandaandbackagain,asmuteasafish,andwithmalevolent,mistrustful,underhandglances。

“Icanstophisgame,“Jimsaidtoheronce。“Justsaytheword。“Anddoyouknowwhatsheanswered?Shesaid——Jimtoldmeimpressively——thatifshehadnotbeensurehewasintenselywretchedhimself,shewouldhavefoundthecouragetokillhimwithherownhands。“Justfancythat!Thepoordevilofagirl,almostachild,beingdriventotalklikethat,“

heexclaimedinhorror。Itseemedimpossibletosavehernotonlyfromthatmeanrascalbutevenfromherself!Itwasn’tthathepitiedhersomuch,heaffirmed;itwasmorethanpity;itwasasifhehadsomethingonhisconscience,whilethatlifewenton。Toleavethehousewouldhaveappearedabasedesertion。Hehadunderstoodatlastthattherewasnothingtoexpectfromalongerstay,neitheraccountsnormoney,nortruthofanysort,buthestayedon,exasperatingCorneliustotheverge,Iwon’tsayofinsanity,butalmostofcourage。Meantimehefeltallsortsofdangersgatheringobscurelyabouthim。DoraminhadsentovertwiceatrustyservanttotellhimseriouslythathecoulddonothingforhissafetyunlesshewouldrecrosstheriveragainandliveamongsttheBugisasatfirst。Peopleofeveryconditionusedtocall,ofteninthedeadofnight,inordertodisclosetohimplotsforhisassassination。Hewastobepoisoned。Hewastobestabbedinthebath-house。Arrangementswerebeingmadetohavehimshotfromaboatontheriver。Eachoftheseinformantsprofessedhimselftobehisverygoodfriend。Itwasenough——hetoldme——tospoilafellow’srestforever。Somethingofthekindwasextremelypossible——may,probable——butthelyingwarningsgavehimonlythesenseofdeadlyscheminggoingonallaroundhim,onallsides,inthedark。Nothingmorecalculatedtoshakethebestofnerve。Finally,onenight,Corneliushimself,withagreatapparatusofalarmandsecrecy,unfoldedinsolemnwheedlingtonesalittleplanwhereinforonehundreddollars——orevenforeighty;let’ssayeighty——he,Cornelius,wouldprocureatrustworthymantosmuggleJimoutoftheriver,allsafe。Therewasnothingelseforitnow——ifJimcaredapinforhislife。What’seightydollars?Atrifle。Aninsignificantsum。Whilehe,Cornelius,whohadtoremainbehind,wasabsolutelycourtingdeathbyhisproofofdevotiontoMr。Stein’syoungfriend。Thesightofhisabjectgrimacingwas——Jimtoldme——veryhardtobear:heclutchedathishair,beathisbreast,rockedhimselftoandfrowithhishandspressedt

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