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`Andthisquestionwasputwithanoteofpersonalpridethatmademesmile，asthoughhehadhadahandinregulatingthatuniquespectacle。
HehadregulatedsomanythingsinPatusan!Thingsthatwouldhaveappearedasmuchbeyondhiscontrolasthemotionsofthemoonandthestars。
`Itwasinconceivable。ThatwasthedistinctivequalityofthepartintowhichSteinandIhadtumbledhimunwittingly，withnoothernotionthantogethimoutoftheway；outofhisownway，beitunderstood。Thatwasourmainpurpose，though，Iown，Imighthavehadanothermotivewhichhadinfluencedmealittle。Iwasabouttogohomeforatime；anditmaybeIdesired，morethanIwasawareofmyself，todisposeofhim——todisposeofhim，youunderstand——beforeIleft。Iwasgoinghome，andhehadcometomefromthere，withhismiserabletroubleandhisshadowyclaim，likeamanpantingunderaburdeninamist。IcannotsayIhadeverseenhimdistinctly——noteventothisday，afterIhadmylastviewofhim；butitseemedtomethatthelessIunderstoodthemoreIwasboundtohiminthenameofthatdoubtwhichistheinseparablepartofourknowledge。
Ididnotknowsomuchmoreaboutmyself。Andthen，Irepeat，Iwasgoinghome——tothathomedistantenoughforallitshearthstonestobelikeonehearthstone，bywhichthehumblestofushastherighttosit。Wewanderinourthousandsoverthefaceoftheearth，theillustriousandtheobscure，earningbeyondtheseasourfame，ourmoney，oronlyacrustofbread；
butitseemstomethatforeachofusgoinghomemustbelikegoingtorenderanaccount。Wereturntofaceoursuperiors，ourkindred，ourfriends——thosewhomweobey，andthosewhomwelove；buteventheywhohaveneither，themostfree，lonely，irresponsible，andbereftofties——eventhoseforwhomhomeholdsnodearface，nofamiliarvoice——eventheyhavetomeetthespiritthatdwellswithintheland，underitssky，initsair，initsvalleys，andonitsrises，initsfields，initswatersanditstrees——amutefriend，judge，andinspirer。Saywhatyoulike，togetitsjoy，tobreatheitspeace，tofaceitstruth，onemustreturnwithaclearconsciousness。Allthismayseemtoyousheersentimentalism；andindeedveryfewofushavethewillorthecapacitytolookconsciouslyunderthesurfaceoffamiliaremotions。Therearethegirlswelove，themenwelookupto，thetenderness，thefriendships，theopportunities，thepleasures!Butthefactremainsthatyoumusttouchyourrewardwithcleanhands，lestitturntodeadleaves，tothorns，inyourgrasp。Ithinkitisthelonely，withoutafiresideoranaffectiontheymaycalltheirown，thosewhoreturnnottoadwellingbuttothelanditself，tomeetitsdisembodied，eternal，andunchangeablespirit——itisthosewhounderstandbestitsseverity，itssavingpower，thegraceofitssecularrighttoourfidelity，toourobedience。Yes!
fewofusunderstand，butweallfeelitthough，andIsayallwithoutexception，becausethosewhodonotfeeldonotcount。Eachbladeofgrasshasitsspotonearthwhenceitdrawsitslife，itsstrength；andsoismanrootedtothelandfromwhichhedrawshisfaithtogetherwithhislife。Idon’tknowhowmuchJimunderstood；butIknowhefelt，hefeltconfusedlybutpowerfully，thedemandofsomesuchtruthorsomesuchillusion——I
don’tcarehowyoucallit，thereissolittledifference，andthedifferencemeanssolittle。Thethingisthatinvirtueofhisfeelinghemattered。
Hewouldnevergohomenow。Nothe。Never。Hadhebeencapableofpicturesquemanifestationshewouldhaveshudderedatthethoughtandmadeyoushudder，too。Buthewasnotofthatsort，thoughhewasexpressiveenoughinhisway。Beforetheideaofgoinghomehewouldgrowdesperatelystiffandimmovable，withloweredchinandpoutedlips，andwithinthosecandidblueeyesofhisgloweringdarklyunderafrown，asifbeforesomethingunbearable，asifbeforesomethingrevolting。Therewasimaginationinthathardskullofhis，overwhichthethickclusteringhairfittedlikeacap。Astome，Ihavenoimagination(Iwouldbemorecertainabouthimto-day，ifIhad)，andIdonotmeantoimplythatIfiguredtomyselfthespiritofthelanduprisingabovethewhitecliffsofDover，toaskmewhatI——returningwithnobonesbroken，sotospeak——haddonewithmyveryyoungbrother。Icouldnotmakesuchamistake。Iknewverywellhewasofthoseaboutwhomthereisnoinquiry；Ihadseenbettermengoout，disappear，vanishutterly，withoutprovokingasoundofcuriosityorsorrow。
