Lord Jim

第21章

“Andgetotherstoseeit,too,“Iinsinuated,withaglanceatthebowedbackbyhisside。Chestersnortedatme。“Hiseyesarerightenough——don’tyouworry。Heain’tapuppy。““Oh,dear,no!“Isaid。“Comealong,CaptainRobinson,“heshouted,withasortofbullyingdeferenceundertherimoftheoldman’shat;theHolyTerrorgaveasubmissivelittlejump。Theghostofasteamerwaswaitingforthem,Fortuneonthatfairisle!TheymadeacuriouspairofArgonauts。Chesterstrodeonleisurely,wellsetup,portly,andofconqueringmien;theother,long,wasted,drooping,andhookedtohisarm,shuffledhiswitheredshankswithdesperatehaste。’

notstartinsearchofJimatonce,onlybecauseIhadreallyanappointmentwhichIcouldnotneglect。Then,asill-luckwouldhaveit,inmyagent’sofficeIwasfasteneduponbyafellowfreshfromMadagascarwithalittleschemeforawonderfulpieceofbusiness。

IthadsomethingtodowithcattleandcartridgesandaPrinceRavonalosomething;butthepivotofthewholeaffairwasthestupidityofsomeadmiral——AdmiralPierre,Ithink。Everythingturnedonthat,andthechapcouldn’tfindwordsstrongenoughtoexpresshisconfidence。Hehadglobulareyesstartingoutofhisheadwithafishyglitter,bumpsonhisforehead,andworehislonghairbrushedbackwithoutaparting。Hehadafavouritephrasewhichhekeptonrepeatingtriumphantly:“Theminimumofriskwiththemaximumofprofitismymotto。What?“Hemademyheadache,spoiledmytiffin,butgothisownoutofmeallright;andassoonasIhadshakenhimoff,Imadestraightforthewaterside。IcaughtsightofJimleaningovertheparapetofthequay。Threenativeboatmenquarrellingoverfiveannasweremakinganawfulrowathiselbow。Hedidn’thearmecomeup,butspunroundasiftheslightcontactofmyfingerhadreleasedacatch。

“Iwaslooking,“hestammered。Idon’trememberwhatIsaid,notmuchanyhow,buthemadenodifficultyinfollowingmetothehotel。

`Hefollowedmeasmanageableasalittlechild,withanobedientair,withnosortofmanifestation,ratherasthoughhehadbeenwaitingformetheretocomealongandcarryhimoff。IneednothavebeensosurprisedasIwasathistractability。Onalltheroundearth,whichtosomeseemssobigandthatothersaffecttoconsiderasrathersmallerthanamustard-seed,hehadnoplacewherehecould——whatshallIsay?——wherehecouldwithdraw。

That’sit!Withdraw——bealonewithhisloneliness。Hewalkedbymysideverycalm,glancinghereandthere,andonceturnedhisheadtolookafteraSidiboyfiremaninacutawaycoatandyellowishtrousers,whoseblackfacehadsilkygleamslikealumpofanthracitecoal。Idoubt,however,whetherhesawanything,orevenremainedallthetimeawareofmycompanionship,becauseifIhadnotedgedhimtothelefthere,orpulledhimtotherightthere,Ibelievehewouldhavegonestraightbeforehiminanydirectiontillstoppedbyawallorsomeotherobstacle。Isteeredhimintomybedroom,andsatdownatoncetowriteletters。Thiswastheonlyplaceintheworld(unless,perhaps,theWalpoleReef——butthatwasnotsohandy)wherehecouldhaveitoutwithhimselfwithoutbeingbotheredbytherestoftheuniverse。Thedamnedthing——ashehadexpressedit——hadnotmadehiminvisible,butIbehavedexactlyasthoughhewere。NosoonerinmychairIbentovermywriting-desklikeamedievalscribe,and,butforthemovementofthehandholdingthepen,remainedanxiouslyquiet。Ican’tsayIwasfrightened;

butIcertainlykeptasstillasiftherehadbeensomethingdangerousintheroom,thatatthefirsthintofamovementonmypartwouldbeprovokedtopounceuponme。Therewasnotmuchintheroom——youknowhowthesebedroomsare——asortoffour-posterbedsteadunderamosquito-net,twoorthreechairs,thetableIwaswritingat,abarefloor。Aglassdooropenedonanupstairsveranda,andhestoodwithhisfacetoit,havingahardtimewithallpossibleprivacy。Duskfell;Ilitacandlewiththegreatesteconomyofmovementandasmuchprudenceasthoughitwereanillegalproceeding。

Thereisnodoubtthathehadaveryhardtimeofit,andsohadI,eventothepoint,Imustown,ofwishinghimtothedevil,oronWalpoleReefatleast。Itoccurredtomeonceortwicethat,afterall,Chesterwas,perhaps,themantodealeffectivelywithsuchadisaster。Thatstrangeidealisthadfoundapracticaluseforitatonce——unerringly,asitwere。

Itwasenoughtomakeonesuspectthat,maybe,hereallycouldseethetrueaspectofthingsthatappearedmysteriousorutterlyhopeles

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