下载辰思小说免费APP
Then,asthebloodwasmakingapoolonthedeckoftheboat,oneofthesailorscried:"Hewillbleedtodeath,wemustbindthevein."
Sotheytookacord,athick,brown,tarrycord,andtwistingitaroundthearmabovethewound,tighteneditwithalltheirmight.Thebloodceasedtospurtbyslowdegrees,and,presently,stoppedaltogether.
YoungJavelrose,hisarmhangingathisside.Hetookholdofitwiththeotherhand,raisedit,turneditover,shookit.Itwasallmashed,thebonesbroken,themusclesaloneholdingittogether.Helookedatitsadly,reflectively.Thenhesatdownonafoldedsailandhiscomradesadvisedhimtokeepwettingthearmconstantlytopreventitfrommortifying.
Theyplacedapailofwaterbesidehim,andeveryfewminuteshedippedaglassintoitandbathedthefrightfulwound,lettingtheclearwatertrickleontoit.
"Youwouldbebetterinthecabin,"saidhisbrother.Hewentdown,butcameupagaininanhour,notcaringtobealone.And,besides,hepreferredthefreshair.Hesatdownagainonhissailandbegantobathehisarm.
Theymadeagoodhaul.Thebroadfishwiththeirwhitebellieslaybesidehim,quiveringinthethroesofdeath;helookedatthemashecontinuedtobathehiscrushedflesh.
AstheywereabouttoreturntoBoulognethewindsprangupanew,andthelittleboatresumeditsmadcourse,boundingandtumblingabout,shakingupthepoorwoundedman.
Nightcameon.Thesearanhighuntildawn.AsthesunrosetheEnglishcoastwasagainvisible,but,astheweatherhadabatedalittle,theyturnedbacktowardstheFrenchcoast,tackingastheywent.
TowardseveningJavel,junior,calledhiscomradesandshowedthemsomeblackspots,allthehorribletokensofmortificationintheportionofthearmbelowthebrokenbones.
Thesailorsexaminedit,givingtheiropinion.
"Thatmightbethe’Black,’"thoughtone.
"Heshouldputsaltwateronit,"saidanother.
Theybroughtsomesaltwaterandpoureditonthewound.Theinjuredmanbecamelivid,groundhisteethandwrithedalittle,butdidnotexclaim.
Then,assoonasthesmartinghadabated,hesaidtohisbrother:
"Givemeyourknife."
Thebrotherhandedittohim.
"Holdmyarmup,quitestraight,andpullit."
Theydidasheaskedthem.
Thenhebegantocutoffhisarm.Hecutgently,carefully,severingalthetendonswiththisbladethatwassharpasarazor.And,presently,therewasonlyastumpleft.Hegaveadeepsighandsaid:
"Ithadtobedone.Itwasdonefor."
Heseemedrelievedandbreathedloud.Hethenbeganagaintopourwateronthestumpofarmthatremained.
Theseawasstillroughandtheycouldnotmaketheshore.
Whenthedaybroke,Javel,junior,tooktheseveredportionofhisarmandexamineditforalongtime.Gangrenehadsetin.Hiscomradesalsoexamineditandhandeditfromonetotheother,feelingit,turningitover,andsniffingatit.
"Youmustthrowthatintotheseaatonce,"saidhisbrother.
ButJavel,junior,gotangry.
"Oh,no!Oh,no!Idon’twantto.Itbelongstome,doesitnot,asitismyarm?"
Andhetookandplaceditbetweenhisfeet.
"Itwillputrefy,justthesame,"saidtheolderbrother.Thenanideacametotheinjuredman.Inordertopreservethefishwhentheboatwaslongatsea,theypackeditinsalt,inbarrels.Heasked:
"WhycanInotputitinpickle?"
"Why,that’safact,"exclaimedtheothers.
Thentheyemptiedoneofthebarrels,whichwasfullfromthehaulofthelastfewdays;andrightatthebottomofthebarreltheylaidthedetachedarm.Theycovereditwithsalt,andthenputbackthefishonebyone.
Oneofthesailorssaidbywayofjoke:
"Ihopewedonotsellitatauction."
Andeveryonelaughed,exceptthetwoJavels.
Thewindwasstillboisterous.TheytackedwithinsightofBoulogneuntilthefollowingmorningatteno’clock.YoungJavelcontinuedtobathehiswound.Fromtimetotimeheroseandwalkedfromoneendtotheotheroftheboat.
Hisbrother,whowasatthetiller,followedhimwithglances,andshookhishead.
Atlasttheyranintoharbor.
Thedoctorexaminedthewoundandpronouncedittobeingoodcondition.
Hedresseditproperlyandorderedthepatienttorest.ButJavelwouldnotgotobeduntilhegotbackhisseveredarm,andhereturnedatoncetothedocktolookforthebarrelwhichhehadmarkedwithacross.
Itwasemptiedbeforehimandheseizedthearm,whichwaswellpreservedinthepickle,hadshrunkandwasfreshened.Hewrappeditupinatowelhehadbroughtforthepurposeandtookithome.
Hiswifeandchildrenlookedforalongtimeatthisfragmentoftheirfather,feelingthefingers,andremovingthegrainsofsaltthatwereunderthenails.Thentheysentforacarpentertomakealittlecoffin.
Thenextdaytheentirecrewofthetrawlingsmackfollowedthefuneralofthedetachedarm.Thetwobrothers,sidebyside,ledtheprocession;
theparishbeadlecarriedthecorpseunderhisarm.
Javel,junior,gaveupthesea.Heobtainedasmallpositiononthedock,andwhenhesubsequentlytalkedabouthisaccident,hewouldsayconfidentiallytohisauditors:
"Ifmybrotherhadbeenwillingtocutawaythenet,Ishouldstillhavemyarm,thatissure.Buthewasthinkingonlyofhisproperty."
MINUET
Greatmisfortunesdonotaffectmeverymuch,saidJohnBridelle,anoldbachelorwhopassedforasceptic.Ihaveseenwaratquiteclosequarters;Iwalkedacrosscorpseswithoutanyfeelingofpity.Thegreatbrutalfactsofnature,orofhumanity,maycallforthcriesofhorrororindignation,butdonotcauseusthattighteningoftheheart,thatshudderthatgoesdownyourspineatsightofcertainlittleheartrendingepisodes.
Thegreatestsorrowthatanyonecanexperienceiscertainlythelossofachild,toamother;andthelossofhismother,toaman.Itisintense,terrible,itrendsyourheartandupsetsyourmind;butoneishealedoftheseshocks,justaslargebleedingwoundsbecomehealed.Certainmeetings,certainthingshalfperceived,orsurmised,certainsecretsorrows,certaintricksoffatewhichawakeinusawholeworldofpainfulthoughts,whichsuddenlyunclosetousthemysteriousdoorofmoralsuffering,complicated,incurable;allthedeeperbecausetheyappearbenign,allthemorebitterbecausetheyareintangible,allthemoretenaciousbecausetheyappearalmostfactitious,leaveinoursoulsasortoftrailofsadness,atasteofbitterness,afeelingofdisenchantment,fromwhichittakesalongtimetofreeourselves.
Ihavealwayspresenttomymindtwoorthreethingsthatotherswouldsurelynothavenoticed,butwhichpenetratedmybeinglikefine,sharpincurablestings.
YoumightnotperhapsunderstandtheemotionthatIretainedfromthesehastyimpressions.Iwilltellyouoneofthem.Shewasveryold,butaslivelyasayounggirl.Itmaybethatmyimaginationaloneisresponsibleformyemotion.
Iamfifty.Iwasyoungthenandstudyinglaw.Iwasrathersad,somewhatofadreamer,fullofapessimisticphilosophyanddidnotcaremuchfornoisycafes,boisterouscompanions,orstupidgirls.Iroseearlyandoneofmychiefenjoymentswastowalkaloneabouteighto’clockinthemorninginthenurserygardenoftheLuxembourg.
Youpeopleneverknewthatnurserygarden.Itwaslikeaforgottengardenofthelastcentury,asprettyasthegentlesmileofanoldlady.
Thickhedgesdividedthenarrowregularpaths,——peacefulpathsbetweentwowallsofcarefullytrimmedfoliage.Thegardener’sgreatshearswerepruningunceasinglytheseleafypartitions,andhereandthereonecameacrossbedsofflowers,linesoflittletreeslookinglikeschoolboysoutforawalk,companiesofmagnificentrosebushes,orregimentsoffruittrees.
Anentirecornerofthischarmingspotwasinhabitedbybees.Theirstrawhivesskillfullyarrangedatdistancesonboardshadtheirentrances——aslargeastheopeningofathimble——turnedtowardsthesun,andallalongthepathsoneencounteredthesehummingandgildedflies,thetruemastersofthispeacefulspot,therealpromenadersofthesequietpaths.
Icametherealmosteverymorning.Isatdownonabenchandread.
SometimesIletmybookfallonmyknees,todream,tolistentothelifeofParisaroundme,andtoenjoytheinfinitereposeoftheseold—
fashionedhedges.
ButIsoonperceivedthatIwasnottheonlyonetofrequentthisspotassoonasthegateswereopened,andIoccasionallymetfacetoface,ataturninthepath,astrangelittleoldman.
Heworeshoeswithsilverbuckles,knee—breeches,asnuff—coloredfrockcoat,alacejabot,andanoutlandishgrayhatwithwidebrimandlong—
hairedsurfacethatmighthavecomeoutoftheark.
Hewasthin,verythin,angular,grimacingandsmiling.Hisbrighteyeswererestlessbeneathhiseyelidswhichblinkedcontinuously.Healwayscarriedinhishandasuperbcanewithagoldknob,whichmusthavebeenforhimsomeglorioussouvenir.
Thisgoodmanastonishedmeatfirst,thencausedmetheintensestinterest.Iwatchedhimthroughtheleafywalls,Ifollowedhimatadistance,stoppingataturninthehedgesoasnottobeseen.
Andonemorningwhenhethoughthewasquitealone,hebegantomakethemostremarkablemotions.Firsthewouldgivesomelittlesprings,thenmakeabow;then,withhisslimlegs,hewouldgivealivelyspringintheair,clappinghisfeetashedidso,andthenturnroundcleverly,skippingandfriskingaboutinacomicalmanner,smilingasifhehadanaudience,twistinghispoorlittlepuppet—likebody,bowingpatheticandridiculouslittlegreetingsintotheemptyair.Hewasdancing.
Istoodpetrifiedwithamazement,askingmyselfwhichofuswascrazy,heorI.
Hestoppedsuddenly,advancedasactorsdoonthestage,thenbowedandretreatedwithgracioussmiles,andkissinghishandasactorsdo,histremblinghand,tothetworowsoftrimmedbushes.
Thenhecontinuedhiswalkwithasolemndemeanor.
AfterthatIneverlostsightofhim,andeachmorninghebegananewhisoutlandishexercises.
Iwaswildlyanxioustospeaktohim.Idecidedtoriskit,andoneday,aftergreetinghim,Isaid:
"Itisabeautifulday,monsieur."
Hebowed.
"Yes,sir,theweatherisjustasitusedtobe."
AweeklaterwewerefriendsandIknewhishistory.Hehadbeenadancingmasterattheopera,inthetimeofLouisXV.HisbeautifulcanewasapresentfromtheComtedeClermont.Andwhenwespokeaboutdancingheneverstoppingtalking.
Onedayhesaidtome:
"ImarriedLaCastris,monsieur.Iwillintroduceyoutoherifyouwishit,butshedoesnotgetheretilllater.Thisgarden,yousee,isourdelightandourlife.Itisallthatremainsofformerdays.Itseemsasthoughwecouldnotexistifwedidnothaveit.Itisoldanddistingue,isitnot?IseemtobreatheanairherethathasnotchangedsinceIwasyoung.MywifeandIpassallourafternoonshere,butI
comeinthemorningbecauseIgetupearly."
AssoonasIhadfinishedluncheonIreturnedtotheLuxembourg,andpresentlyperceivedmyfriendofferinghisarmceremoniouslytoaveryoldlittleladydressedinblack,towhomheintroducedme.ItwasLaCastris,thegreatdancer,belovedbyprinces,belovedbytheking,belovedbyallthatcenturyofgallantrythatseemstohaveleftbehinditintheworldanatmosphereoflove.
Wesatdownonabench.ItwasthemonthofMay.Anodorofflowersfloatedintheneatpaths;ahotsunglideditsraysbetweenthebranchesandcovereduswithpatchesoflight.TheblackdressofLaCastrisseemedtobesaturatedwithsunlight.
Thegardenwasempty.Weheardtherattlingofvehiclesinthedistance.
"Tellme,"Isaidtotheolddancer,"whatwastheminuet?"
Hegaveastart.
"Theminuet,monsieur,isthequeenofdances,andthedanceofqueens,doyouunderstand?Sincethereisnolongeranyroyalty,thereisnolongeranyminuet."
AndhebeganinapompousmanneralongdithyrambiceulogywhichIcouldnotunderstand.Iwantedtohavethesteps,themovements,thepositions,explainedtome.Hebecameconfused,wasamazedathisinabilitytomakemeunderstand,becamenervousandworried.
Thensuddenly,turningtohisoldcompanionwhohadremainedsilentandserious,hesaid:
"Elise,wouldyoulike——say——wouldyoulike,itwouldbeveryniceofyou,wouldyouliketoshowthisgentlemanwhatitwas?"
Sheturnedeyesuneasilyinalldirections,thenrosewithoutsayingawordandtookherpositionoppositehim.
ThenIwitnessedanunheard—ofthing.
Theyadvancedandretreatedwithchildlikegrimaces,smiling,swingingeachother,bowing,skippingaboutliketwoautomatondollsmovedbysomeoldmechanicalcontrivance,somewhatdamaged,butmadebyacleverworkmanaccordingtothefashionofhistime.
AndIlookedatthem,myheartfilledwithextraordinaryemotions,mysoultouchedwithanindescribablemelancholy.Iseemedtoseebeforemeapatheticandcomicalapparition,theout—of—dateghostofaformercentury.
Theysuddenlystopped.Theyhadfinishedallthefiguresofthedance.
Forsomesecondstheystoodoppositeeachother,smilinginanastonishingmanner.Thentheyfelloneachother’sneckssobbing.
Ileftfortheprovincesthreedayslater.Ineversawthemagain.
WhenIreturnedtoParis,twoyearslater,thenurseryhadbeendestroyed.Whatbecameofthem,deprivedofthedeargardenofformerdays,withitsmazes,itsodorofthepast,andthegracefulwindingsofitshedges?
Aretheydead?Aretheywanderingamongmodernstreetslikehopelessexiles?Aretheydancing——grotesquespectres——afantasticminuetinthemoonlight,amidthecypressesofacemetery,alongthepathwaysborderedbygraves?
Theirmemoryhauntsme,obsessesme,tormentsme,remainswithmelikeawound.Why?Idonotknow.
Nodoubtyouthinkthatveryabsurd?
THESON
Thetwooldfriendswerewalkinginthegardeninbloom,wherespringwasbringingeverythingtolife.
Onewasasenator,theotheramemberoftheFrenchAcademy,bothseriousmen,fullofverylogicalbutsolemnarguments,menofnoteandreputation.
Theytalkedfirstofpolitics,exchangingopinions;notonideas,butonmen,personalitiesinthisregardtakingthepredominanceoverability.
Thentheyrecalledsomememories.Thentheywalkedalonginsilence,enervatedbythewarmthoftheair.
Alargebedofwallflowersbreathedoutadelicatesweetness.Amassofflowersofallspeciesandcolorflungtheirfragrancetothebreeze,whileacytisuscoveredwithyellowclustersscattereditsfinepollenabroad,agoldencloud,withanodorofhoneythatboreitsbalmyseedacrossspace,similartothesachet—powdersofperfumers.
Thesenatorstopped,breathedinthecloudoffloatingpollen,lookedatthefertileshrub,yellowasthesun,whoseseedwasfloatingintheair,andsaid:
"Whenoneconsidersthattheseimperceptiblefragrantatomswillcreateexistencesatahundredleaguesfromhere,willsendathrillthroughthefibresandsapoffemaletreesandproducebeingswithroots,growingfromagerm,justaswedo,mortallikeourselves,andwhowillbereplacedbyotherbeingsofthesameorder,likeourselvesagain!"
And,standinginfrontofthebrilliantcytisus,whoselivepollenwasshakenoffbyeachbreathofair,thesenatoradded:
"Ah,oldfellow,ifyouhadtokeepcountofallyourchildrenyouwouldbemightilyembarrassed.Hereisonewhogeneratesfreely,andthenletsthemgowithoutapangandtroubleshimselfnomoreaboutthem."
"Wedothesame,myfriend,"saidtheacademician.
"Yes,Idonotdenyit;weletthemgosometimes,"resumedthesenator,"butweareawarethatwedo,andthatconstitutesoursuperiority."
"No,thatisnotwhatImean,"saidtheother,shakinghishead.
"Yousee,myfriend,thatthereisscarcelyamanwhohasnotsomechildrenthathedoesnotknow,children——’fatherunknown’——whomhehasgeneratedalmostunconsciously,justasthistreereproduces.
"Ifwehadtokeepaccountofouramours,weshouldbejustasembarrassedasthiscytisuswhichyouapostrophizedwouldbeincountinguphisdescendants,shouldwenot?
"Fromeighteentofortyyears,infact,countingineverychancecursoryacquaintanceship,wemaywellsaythatwehavebeenintimatewithtwoorthreehundredwomen.
"Well,then,myfriend,amongthisnumbercanyoubesurethatyouhavenothadchildrenbyatleastoneofthem,andthatyouhavenotinthestreets,orinthebagnio,someblackguardofasonwhostealsfromandmurdersdecentpeople,i.e.,ourselves;orelseadaughterinsomedisreputableplace,or,ifshehasthegoodfortunetobedesertedbyhermother,ascookinsomefamily?
"Consider,also,thatalmostallthosewhomwecall’prostitutes’haveoneortwochildrenofwhosepaternalparentagetheyareignorant,generatedbychanceatthepriceoftenortwentyfrancs.Ineverybusinessthereisprofitandloss.Thesewildingsconstitutethe’loss’
intheirprofession.Whogeneratedthem?You——I——wealldid,themencalled’gentlemen’!Theyaretheconsequencesofourjoviallittledinners,ofourgayevenings,ofthosehourswhenourcomfortablephysicalbeingimpelsustochanceliaisons.
"Thieves,marauders,allthesewretches,infact,areourchildren.
Andthatisbetterforusthanifweweretheirchildren,forthosescoundrelsgeneratealso!
"IhaveinmymindaveryhorriblestorythatIwillrelatetoyou.Ithascausedmeincessantremorse,and,furtherthanthat,acontinualdoubt,adisquietinguncertainty,that,attimes,tormentsmefrightfully.
"WhenIwastwenty—fiveIundertookawalkingtourthroughBrittanywithoneofmyfriends,nowamemberofthecabinet.
"AfterwalkingsteadilyforfifteenortwentydaysandvisitingtheCotes—du—NordandpartofFinisterewereachedDouarnenez.FromtherewewentwithouthaltingtothewildpromontoryofRazbythebayofLesTrepaases,andpassedthenightinavillagewhosenameendsin’of.’
Thenextmorningastrangelassitudekeptmyfriendinbed;Isaybedfromhabit,forourcouchconsistedsimplyoftwobundlesofstraw.
"Itwouldneverdotobeillinthisplace.SoImadehimgetup,andwereachedAndierneaboutfourorfiveo’clockintheevening.
"Thefollowingdayhefeltalittlebetter,andwesetoutagain.Butontheroadhewasseizedwithintolerablepain,andwecouldscarcelygetasfarasPontLabbe.
"Here,atleast,therewasaninn.Myfriendwenttobed,andthedoctor,whohadbeensentforfromQuimper,announcedthathehadahighfever,withoutbeingabletodetermineitsnature.
"DoyouknowPontLabbe?No?Well,then,itisthemostBretonofallthisBretonBrittany,whichextendsfromthepromontoryofRaztotheMorbihan,ofthislandwhichcontainstheessenceoftheBretonmanners,legendsandcustoms.Evento—daythiscornerofthecountryhasscarcelychanged.Isay’evento—day,’forInowgothereeveryyear,alas!
"Anoldchateaulavesthewallsofitstowersinagreatmelancholypond,melancholyandfrequentedbyflightsofwildbirds.Ithasanoutletinariveronwhichboatscannavigateasfarasthetown.Inthenarrowstreetswiththeirold—timehousesthemenwearbighats,embroideredwaistcoatsandfourcoats,oneontopoftheother;theinsideone,aslargeasyourhand,barelycoveringtheshoulder—blades,andtheoutsideonecomingtojustabovetheseatofthetrousers.
"Thegirls,tall,handsomeandfreshhavetheirbosomscrushedinaclothbodicewhichmakesanarmor,compressesthem,notallowingoneeventoguessattheirrobustandtorturedneck.Theyalsowearastrangeheaddress.Ontheirtemplestwobandsembroideredincolorsframetheirface,inclosingthehair,whichfallsinashoweratthebackoftheirheads,andisthenturnedupandgatheredontopoftheheadunderasingularcap,oftenwovenwithgoldorsilverthread.
"Theservantatourinnwaseighteenatmost,withveryblueeyes,apalebluewithtwotinyblackpupils,shortteethclosetogether,whichsheshowedcontinuallywhenshelaughed,andwhichseemedstrongenoughtogrindgranite.
"ShedidnotknowawordofFrench,speakingonlyBreton,asdidmostofhercompanions.
"Asmyfrienddidnotimprovemuch,andalthoughhehadnodefinitemalady,thedoctorforbadehimtocontinuehisjourneyyet,orderingcompleterest.Ispentmydayswithhim,andthelittlemaidwouldcomeinincessantly,bringingeithermydinnerorsomeherbtea.
"Iteasedheralittle,whichseemedtoamuseher,butwedidnotchat,ofcourse,aswecouldnotunderstandeachother.
"Butonenight,afterIhadstayedquitelatewithmyfriendandwasgoingbacktomyroom,Ipassedthegirl,whowasgoingtoherroom.
Itwasjustoppositemyopendoor,and,withoutreflection,andmoreforfunthananythingelse,Iabruptlyseizedherroundthewaist,andbeforesherecoveredfromherastonishmentIhadthrownherdownandlockedherinmyroom.Shelookedatme,amazed,excited,terrified,notdaringtocryoutforfearofascandalandofbeingprobablydrivenout,firstbyheremployersandthen,perhaps,byherfather.
"Ididitasajokeatfirst.Shedefendedherselfbravely,andatthefirstchancesherantothedoor,drewbacktheboltandfled.
"Iscarcelysawherforseveraldays.Shewouldnotletmecomenearher.ButwhenmyfriendwascuredandweweretogetoutonourtravelsagainIsawhercomingintomyroomaboutmidnightthenightbeforeourdeparture,justafterIhadretired.
"Shethrewherselfintomyarmsandembracedmepassionately,givingmealltheassurancesoftendernessanddespairthatawomanca