下载辰思小说免费APP
"Comehere,Philippe,kissyourmother.Tellme,child,doyouloveyourmamma?You,Rose,takecareofyourlittlesisterwhileIamaway.Anddon’tleaveheralone.Don’tplaywithmatches!"
Shestoppedforawhile,then,inaloudervoice,asthoughshewerecallingsomeone:"Henriette!"thenwaitedamomentandcontinued:
"TellyourfatherthatIwishtospeaktohimbeforehegoestobusiness."Andsuddenly:"Iamnotfeelingverywellto—day,darling;
promisenottocomehomelate.TellyouremployerthatIamsick.
Youknow,itisn’tsafetoleavethechildrenalonewhenIaminbed.
FordinnerIwillfixyouupanicedishofrice.Thelittleoneslikethatverymuch.Won’tClairebehappy?"
Andshebrokeintoahappy,joyouslaugh,suchastheyhadneverheard:
"LookatJean,howfunnyhelooks!Hehassmearedjamalloverhisface,thelittlepig!Look,sweetheart,look;isn’thefunny?"
Colombel,whowascontinuallyliftinghistiredlegfromplacetoplace,muttered:
"Sheisdreamingthatshehaschildrenandahusband;itisthebeginningofthedeathagony."
Thetwosistershadnotyetmoved,surprised,astounded.
Thelittlemaidexclaimed:
"Youmusttakeoffyourshawlsandyourhits!Wouldyouliketogointotheparlor?"
Theywentoutwithouthavingsaidaword.AndColombelfollowedthem,limping,oncemoreleavingthedyingwomanalone.
Whentheywererelievedoftheirtravellinggarments,thewomenfinallysatdown.Thenoneofthecatsleftitswindow,stretched,jumpedintotheroomandontoMme.Cimme’sknees.Shebegantopetit.
Inthenextroomcouldbeheardthevoiceofthedyingwoman,living,inthislasthour,thelifeforwhichshehaddoubtlesshoped,livingherdreamsthemselvesjustwhenallwasoverforher.
Cimme,inthegarden,wasplayingwithlittleJosephandthedog,enjoyinghimselfinthewholeheartedmannerofacountryman,havingcompletelyforgottenthedyingwoman.
Butsuddenlyheenteredthehouseandsaidtothegirl:
"Isay,mygirl,arewenotgoingtohaveluncheon?Whatdoyouladieswishtoeat?"
Theyfinallyagreedonanomelet,apieceofsteakwithnewpotatoes,cheeseandcoffee.
AsMme.Colombelwasfumblinginherpocketforherpurse,Cimmestoppedher,and,turningtothemaid:"Haveyougotanymoney?"
Sheanswered:
"Yes,monsieur."
"Howmuch?"
"Fifteenfrancs."
"That’senough.Hustle,mygirl,becauseIambeginningtogetveryhungry:"
Mme.Cimme,lookingoutovertheclimbingvinesbathedinsunlight,andatthetwoturtle—dovesontheroofopposite,saidinanannoyedtoneofvoice:
"Whatapitytohavehadtocomeforsuchasadoccasion.Itissoniceinthecountryto—day."
Hersistersighedwithoutanswering,andColombelmumbled,thinkingperhapsofthewalkaheadofhim:
"Mylegcertainlyisbotheringmeto—day:"
LittleJosephandthedogweremakingaterriblenoise;onewasshriekingwithpleasure,theotherwasbarkingwildly.Theywereplayinghide—and—
seekaroundthethreeflowerbeds,runningaftereachotherlikemad.
Thedyingwomancontinuedtocallherchildren,talkingwitheachone,imaginingthatshewasdressingthem,fondlingthem,teachingthemhowtoread:"Comeon!Simonrepeat:A,B,C,D.Youarenotpayingattention,listen——D,D,D;doyouhearme?Nowrepeat——"
Cimmeexclaimed:"Funnywhatpeoplesaywheninthatcondition."
Mme.Colombelthenasked:
"Wouldn’titbebetterifweweretoreturntoher?"
ButCimmedissuadedherfromtheidea:
"What’stheuse?Youcan’tchangeanything.Wearejustascomfortablehere."
Nobodyinsisted.Mme.Cimmeobservedthetwogreenbirdscalledlove—
birds.Inafewwordsshepraisedthissingularfaithfulnessandblamedthemenfornotimitatingtheseanimals.Cimmebegantolaugh,lookedathiswifeandhummedinateasingway:"Tra—la—la,tra—la—la"asthoughtocastagooddealofdoubtonhisown,Cimme’s,faithfulness:
Colombelwassufferingfromcrampsandwasrappingthefloorwithhiscane.
Theothercat,itstailpointinguprighttothesky,nowcamein.
Theysatdowntoluncheonatoneo’clock.
Assoonashehadtastedthewine,Colombel,forwhomonlythebestofBordeauxhadbeenprescribed,calledtheservantback:
"Isay,mygirl,isthisthebeststuffthatyouhaveinthecellar?"
"No,monsieur;thereissomebetterwine,whichwasonlybroughtoutwhenyoucame."
"Well,bringusthreebottlesofit."
Theytastedthewineandfounditexcellent,notbecauseitwasofaremarkablevintage,butbecauseithadbeeninthecellarfifteenyears.
Cimmedeclared:
"Thatisregularinvalid’swine."
Colombel,filledwithanardentdesiretogainpossessionofthisBordeaux,oncemorequestionedthegirl:
"Howmuchofitisleft?"
"Oh!Almostall,monsieur;mamz’ellenevertouchedit.It’sinthebottomstack."
Thenheturnedtohisbrother—in—law:
"Ifyouwish,Cimme,Iwouldbewillingtoexchangesomethingelseforthiswine;itsuitsmystomachmarvellously."
Thechickenhadnowappearedwithitsregimentofyoungones.Thetwowomenwereenjoyingthemselvesthrowingcrumbstothem.
Josephandthedog,whohadeatenenough,weresentbacktothegarden.
QueenHortensewasstilltalking,butinalow,hushedvoice,sothatthewordscouldnolongerbedistinguished.
Whentheyhadfinishedtheircoffeeallwentintoobservetheconditionofthesickwoman.Sheseemedcalm.
Theywentoutsideagainandseatedthemselvesinacircleinthegarden,inordertocompletetheirdigestion.
Suddenlythedog,whowascarryingsomethinginhismouth,begantorunaroundthechairsatfullspeed.Thechildwaschasinghimwildly.Bothdisappearedintothehouse.
Cimmefellasleep,hiswell—roundedpaunchbathedintheglowoftheshiningsun.
Thedyingwomanoncemorebegantotalkinaloudvoice.Thensuddenlysheshrieked.
ThetwowomenandColombelrushedintoseewhatwasthematter.Cimme,wakingup,didnotbudge,because,hedidnotwishtowitnesssuchascene.
Shewassittingup,withhaggardeyes.Herdog,inordertoescapebeingpursuedbylittleJoseph,hadjumpeduponthebed,runoverthesickwoman,andentrenchedbehindthepillow,waslookingdownathisplaymatewithsnappingeyes,readytojumpdownandbeginthegameagain.Hewasholdinginhismouthoneofhismistress’slippers,whichhehadtorntopiecesandwithwhichhehadbeenplayingforthelasthour.
Thechild,frightenedbythiswomanwhohadsuddenlyriseninfrontofhim,stoodmotionlessbeforethebed.
Thehenhadalsocomein,andfrightenedbythenoise,hadjumpeduponachairandwaswildlycallingherchicks,whowerechirpingdistractedlyaroundthefourlegsofthechair.
QueenHortensewasshrieking:
"No,no,Idon’twanttodie,Idon’twantto!Idon’twantto!Whowillbringupmychildren?Whowilltakecareofthem?Whowilllovethem?No,Idon’twantto!——Idon’t————"
Shefellback.Allwasover.
Thedog,wildwithexcitement,jumpedabouttheroom,barking.
Colombelrantothewindow,callinghisbrother—in—law:
"Hurryup,hurryup!Ithinkthatshehasjustgone."
ThenCimme,resigned,aroseandenteredtheroom,mumbling"Itdidn’ttakeaslongasIthoughtitwould!"
TIMBUCTOO
Theboulevard,thatriverofhumanity,wasalivewithpeopleinthegoldenlightofthesettingsun.Thewholeskywasred,blinding,andbehindtheMadeleineanimmensebankofflamingcloudscastashoweroflightthewholelengthoftileboulevard,vibrantastheheatfromabrazier.
Thegay,animatedcrowdwentbyinthisgoldenmistandseemedtobeglorified.Theirfacesweregilded,theirblackhatsandclothestookonpurpletints,thepatentleatheroftheirshoescastbrightreflectionsontheasphaltofthesidewalk.
Beforethecafesamassofmenweredrinkingopalescentliquidsthatlookedlikepreciousstonesdissolvedintheglasses.
Inthemidstofthedrinkerstwoofficersinfulluniformdazzledalleyeswiththeirglitteringgoldlace.Theychatted,happywithoutaskingwhy,inthisgloryoflife,inthisradiantlightofsunset,andtheylookedatthecrowd,theleisurelymenandthehurryingwomenwholeftabewilderingodorofperfumeastheypassedby.
Allatonceanenormousnegro,dressedinblack,withapaunchbeneathhisjeanwaistcoat,whichwascoveredwithcharms,hisfaceshiningasifithadbeenpolished,passedbeforethemwithatriumphantair.Helaughedatthepassers—by,atthenewsvenders,atthedazzlingsky,atthewholeofParis.Hewassotallthatheovertoppedeveryoneelse,andwhenhepassedalltheloungersturnedroundtolookathisback.
Buthesuddenlyperceivedtheofficersanddartedtowardsthem,jostlingthedrinkersinhispath.Assoonashereachedtheirtablehefixedhisgleaminganddelightedeyesuponthemandthecornersofhismouthexpandedtohisears,showinghisdazzlingwhiteteethlikeacrescentmooninablacksky.Thetwomenlookedinastonishmentatthisebonygiant,unabletounderstandhisdelight.
Withavoicethatmadealltheguestslaugh,hesaid:
"Good—day,mylieutenant."
Oneoftheofficerswascommanderofabattalion,theotherwasacolonel.Theformersaid:
"Idonotknowyou,sir.Iamatalosstoknowwhatyouwantofme."
"Melikeyoumuch,LieutenantVedie,siegeofBezi,muchgrapes,findme."
Theofficer,utterlybewildered,lookedatthemanintently,tryingtorefreshhismemory.Thenhecriedabruptly:
"Timbuctoo?"
Thenegro,radiant,slappedhisthighasheutteredatremendouslaughandroared:
"Yes,yes,mylieutenant;yourememberTimbuctoo,ya.Howdoyoudo?"
Thecommandantheldouthishand,laughingheartilyashedidso.ThenTimbuctoobecameserious.Heseizedtheofficer’shandand,beforetheothercouldpreventit,hekissedit,accordingtonegroandArabcustom.
Theofficerembarrassed,saidinaseveretone:
"Comenow,Timbuctoo,wearenotinAfrica.SitdownthereandtellmehowitisIfindyouhere."
Timbuctooswelledhimselfoutand,hiswordsfallingoveroneanother,repliedhurriedly:
"Makemuchmoney,much,bigrestaurant,goodfood;Prussians,me,muchsteal,much,Frenchcooking;Timbuctoocooktotheemperor;twothousandfrancsmine.Ha,ha,ha,ha!"
Andhelaughed,doublinghimselfup,roaring,withwilddelightinhisglances.
Whentheofficer,whounderstoodhisstrangemannerofexpressinghimself,hadquestionedhimhesaid:
"Well,aurevoir,Timbuctoo.Iwillseeyouagain."
Thenegrorose,thistimeshakingthehandthatwasextendedtohimand,smilingstill,cried:
"Good—day,good—day,mylieutenant!"
Hewentoffsohappythathegesticulatedashewalked,andpeoplethoughthewascrazy.
"Whoisthatbrute?"askedthecolonel.
"Afinefellowandabravesoldier.IwilltellyouwhatIknowabouthim.Itisfunnyenough.
"Youknowthatatthecommencementofthewarof1870IwasshutupinBezieres,thatthisnegrocallsBezi.Wewerenotbesieged,butblockaded.ThePrussianlinessurroundedusonallsides,outsidethereachofcannon,notfiringonus,butslowlystarvingusout.
"Iwasthenlieutenant.Ourgarrisonconsistedofsoldierofalldescriptions,fragmentsofslaughteredregiments,somethathadrunaway,freebootersseparatedfromthemainarmy,etc.Wehadallkinds,infactevenelevenTurcos[AlgeriansoldiersintheserviceofFrance],whoarrivedoneeveningnooneknewwhenceorhow.Theyappearedatthegatesofthecity,exhausted,inrags,starvinganddirty.Theywerehandedovertome.
"Isawverysoonthattheywereabsolutelyundisciplined,alwaysinthestreetandalwaysdrunk.Itriedputtingtheminthepolicestation,eveninprison,butnothingwasofanyuse.Theywoulddisappear,sometimesfordaysatatime,asiftheyhadbeenswallowedupbytheearth,andthencomebackstaggeringdrunk.Theyhadnomoney.Wheredidtheybuydrinkandhowandwithwhat?
"Thisbegantoworrymegreatly,allthemoreasthesesavagesinterestedmewiththeireverlastinglaughandtheircharacteristicsofovergrownfrolicsomechildren.
"Ithennoticedthattheyblindlyobeyedthelargestamongthem,theoneyouhavejustseen.Hemadethemdoashepleased,plannedtheirmysteriousexpeditionswiththeall—powerfulandundisputedauthorityofaleader.Isentforhimandquestionedhim.Ourconversationlastedfullythreehours,foritwashardformetounderstandhisremarkablegibberish.Asforhim,poordevil,hemadeunheard—ofeffortstomakehimselfintelligible,inventedwords,gesticulated,perspiredinhisanxiety,moppinghisforehead,puffing,stoppingandabruptlybeginningagainwhenhethoughthehadfoundanewmethodofexplainingwhathewantedtosay.
"Igatheredfinallythathewasthesonofabigchief,asortofnegrokingoftheregionaroundTimbuctoo.Iaskedhimhisname.Herepeatedsomethinglike’Chavaharibouhalikranafotapolara.’Itseemedsimplertometogivehimthenameofhisnativeplace,’Timbuctoo.’Andaweeklaterhewasknownbynoothernameinthegarrison.
"ButwewereallwildlyanxioustofindoutwherethisAfricanex—princeprocuredhisdrinks.Idiscovereditinasingularmanner.
"Iwasontherampartsonemorning,watchingthehorizon,whenI
perceivedsomethingmovingaboutinavineyard.Itwasnearthetimeofvintage,thegrapeswereripe,butIwasnotthinkingofthat.Ithoughtthataspywasapproachingthetown,andIorganizedacompleteexpeditiontocatchtheprowler.Itookcommandmyself,afterobtainingpermissionfromthegeneral.
"Isentoutbythreedifferentgatesthreelittlecompanies,whichweretomeetatthesuspectedvineyardandformacordonroundit.Inordertocutoffthespy’sretreat,oneofthesedetachmentshadtomakeatleastanhour’smarch.AwatchonthewallssignalledtomethatthepersonIhadseenhadnotlefttheplace.Wewentalonginprofoundsilence,creeping,almostcrawling,alongtheditches.Atlastwereachedthespotassigned.
"Iabruptlydisbandedmysoldiers,whodartedintothevineyardandfoundTimbuctooonhandsandkneestravellingaroundamongthevinesandeatinggrapes,orratherdevouringthemasadogeatshissop,snatchingtheminmouthfulsfromthevinewithhisteeth.
"Iwantedhimtogetup,buthecouldnotthinkofit.Ithenunderstoodwhyhewascrawlingonhishandsandknees.Assoonaswestoodhimonhisfeethebegantowabble,thenstretchedouthisarmsandfelldownonhisnose.HewasmoredrunkthanIhaveeverseenanyone.
"Theybroughthimhomeontwopoles.Heneverstoppedlaughingallthewayback,gesticulatingwithhisarmsandlegs.
"Thisexplainedthemystery.Mymenalsodrankthejuiceofthegrapes,andwhentheyweresointoxicatedtheycouldnotstirtheywenttosleepinthevineyard.AsforTimbuctoo,hisloveofthevineyardwasbeyondallbeliefandallbounds.Helivedinitasdidthethrushes,whomhehatedwiththejealoushateofarival.Herepeatedincessantly:’Thethrusheseatallthegrapes,captain!’
"OneeveningIwassentfor.Somethinghadbeenseenontheplaincominginourdirection.Ihadnotbroughtmyfield—glassandIcouldnotdistinguishthingsclearly.Itlookedlikeagreatserpentuncoilingitself——aconvoy.HowcouldItell?
"Isentsomementomeetthisstrangecaravan,whichpresentlymadeitstriumphalentry.Timbuctooandnineofhiscomradeswerecarryingonasortofaltarmadeofcampstoolseightsevered,grinningandbleedingheads.TheAfricanwasdraggingalongahorsetowhosetailanotherheadwasfastened,andsixotheranimalsfollowed,adornedinthesamemanner.
"ThisiswhatIlearned:Havingstartedouttothevineyard,myAfricanshadsuddenlyperceivedadetachmentofPrussiansapproachingavillage.
Insteadoftakingtotheirheels,theyhidthemselves,andassoonasthePrussianofficersdismountedataninntorefreshthemselves,theelevenrascalsrushedonthem,puttoflightthelancers,whothoughttheywerebeingattackedbythemainarmy,killedthetwosentries,thenthecolonelandthefiveofficersofhisescort.
"ThatdayIkissedTimbuctoo.Isaw,however,thathewalkedwithdifficultyandthoughthewaswounded.Helaughedandsaid:
"’Meprovisionsformycountry.’
"Timbuctoowasnotfightingforglory,butforgain.Everythinghefoundthatseemedtohimtobeoftheslightestvalue,especiallyanythingthatglistened,heputinhispocket.Whatapocket!Anabyssthatbeganathishipsandreachedtohisankles.Hehadretainedanoldtermusedbythetroopersandcalledithis’profonde,’anditwashis’profonde’infact.
"HehadtakenthegoldlaceoffthePrussianuniforms,thebrassofftheirhelmets,detachedtheirbuttons,etc.,andhadthrownthemallintohis’profonde,’whichwasfulltooverflowing.
"Eachdayhepocketedeveryglisteningobjectthatcamebeneathhisobservation,piecesoftinorpiecesofsilver,andsometimeshiscontourwasverycomical.
"Heintendedtocarryallthatbacktothelandofostriches,whosebrotherhemighthavebeen,thissonofaking,tormentedwiththelongingtogobbleupallobjectsthatglistened.Ifhehadnothadhis’profonde’whatwouldhehavedone?Hedoubtlesswouldhaveswallowedthem.
"Eachmorninghispocketwasempty.Hehad,then,somegeneralstorewherehisricheswerepiledup.Butwhere?Icouldnotdiscoverit.
"Thegeneral,onbeinginformedofTimbuctoo’smightyactofvalor,hadtheheadlessbodiesthathadbeenleftintheneighboringvillageinterredatonce,thatitmightnotbediscoveredthattheyweredecapitated.ThePrussiansreturnedthitherthefollowingday.Themayorandsevenprominentinhabitantswereshotonthespot,bywayofreprisal,ashavingdenouncedthePrussians.
"Winterwashere.Wewereexhaustedanddesperate.Therewereskirmishesnoweveryday.Thefamishedmencouldnolongermarch.Theeight’Turcos’alone(threehadbeenkilled)remainedfatandshiny,vigorousandalwaysreadytofight.Timbuctoowasevengettingfatter.
Hesaidtomeoneday:
"’Youmuchhungry;megoodmeat.’
"Andhebroughtmeanexcellentfilet.Butofwhat?Wehadnomorecattle,norsheep,norgoats,nordonkeys,norpigs.Itwasimpossibletogetahorse.IthoughtofallthisafterIhaddevouredmymeat.
Thenahorribleideacametome.Thesenegroeswerebornclosetoacountrywheretheyeathumanbeings!Andeachdaysuchanumberofsoldierswerekilledaroundthetown!IquestionedTimbuctoo.Hewouldnotanswer.Ididnotinsist,butfromthattimeonIdeclinedhispresents.
"Heworshippedme.Onenightsnowtookusbysurpriseattheoutposts.
Wewereseated,ontheground.Ilookedwithpityatthosepoornegroesshiveringbeneaththiswhitefrozenshower.Iwasverycoldandbegantocough.AtonceIfeltsomethingfallonmelikealargewarmquilt.ItwasTimbuctoo’scapethathehadthrownonmyshoulders.
"Iroseandreturnedhisgarment,saying:
"’Keepit,myboy;youneeditmorethanIdo.’
"’Non,mylieutenant,foryou;menoneed.Mehot,hot!’
"Andhelookedatmeentreatingly.
"’Come,obeyorders.Keepyourcape;Iinsist,’Ireplied.
"Hethenstoodup,drewhissword,whichhehadsharpenedtoanedgelikeascythe,andholdinginhisotherhandthelargecapewhichIhadrefused,said:
"’Ifyounotkeepcape,mecut.Noonecape.’
"Andhewouldhavedoneit.SoIyielded.
"Eightdayslaterwecapitulated.Someofushadbeenabletoescape,therestweretomarchoutofthetownandgivethemselvesuptotheconquerors.
"Iwenttowardstheexercisingground,wherewewerealltomeet,whenI
wasdumfoundedatthesightofagiganticnegrodressedinwhiteduckandwearingastrawhat.ItwasTimbuctoo.Hewasbeamingandwaswalkingwithhishandsinhispocketsinfrontofalittleshopwheretwoplatesandtwoglassesweredisplayed.
"’Whatareyoudoing?’Isaid.
"’Menotgo.Megoodcook;memakefoodforColonelAlgeria.MeeatPrussians;muchsteal,much.’
"Thereweretendegreesoffrost.Ishiveredatsightofthisnegroinwhiteduck.Hetookmebythearmandmademegoinside.Inoticedanimmenseflagthathewasgoingtoplaceoutsidehisdoorassoonaswehadleft,forhehadsomeshame.
Ireadthissign,tracedbythehandofsomeaccomplice"’ARMYKITCHENOFM.TIMBUCTOO,"’FormerlyCooktoH.M.theEmperor.
"’AParisianArtist.ModeratePrices.’
"Inspiteofthedespairthatwasgnawingatmyheart,Icouldnothelplaughing,andIleftmynegrotohisnewenterprise.
"Wasnotthatbetterthantakinghimprisoner?
"Youhavejustseenthathemadeasuccessofit,therascal.
"Bezieresto—daybelongstotheGermans.The’RestaurantTimbuctoo’isthebeginningofaretaliation."
TOMBSTONES
Thefivefriendshadfinisheddinner,fivemenoftheworld,mature,rich,threemarried,thetwoothersbachelors.Theymetlikethiseverymonthinmemoryoftheiryouth,andafterdinnertheychatteduntiltwoo’clockinthemorning.Havingremainedintimatefriends,andenjoyingeachother’ssociety,theyprobablyconsideredthesethepleasantesteveningsoftheirlives.Theytalkedoneverysubject,especiallyofwhatinterestedandamusedParisians.Theirconversationwas,asinthemajorityofsalonselsewhere,averbalrehashofwhattheyhadreadinthemorningpapers.
OneofthemostlivelyofthemwasJosephdeBardon,acelibatelivingtheParisianlifeinitsfullestandmostwhimsicalmanner.Hewasnotadebauchenordepraved,butasingular,happyfellow,stillyoung,forhewasscarcelyforty.Amanoftheworldinitswidestandbestsense,giftedwithabrilliant,butnotprofound,mind,withmuchvariedknowledge,butnotrueerudition,readycomprehensionwithouttrueunderstanding,hedrewfromhisobservations,hisadventures,fromeverythinghesaw,metwithandfound,anecdotesatoncecomicalandphilosophical,andmadehumorousremarksthatgavehimagreatreputationforclevernessinsociety.
Hewastheafterdinnerspeakerandhadhisownstoryeachtime,uponwhichtheycounted,andhetalkedwithouthavingtobecoaxed.
Ashesatsmoking,hiselbowsonthetable,apetitverrehalffullbesidehisplate,halftorpidinanatmosphereoftobaccoblendedwithsteamingcoffee,heseemedtobeperfectlyathome.Hesaidbetweentwowhiffs:
"Acuriousthinghappenedtomesometimeago."
"Tellittous,"theyallexclaimedatonce.
"Withpleasure.YouknowthatIwanderaboutParisagreatdeal,likebookcollectorswhoransackbookstalls.Ijustlookatthesights,atthepeople,atallthatispassingbyandallthatisgoingon.
"TowardthemiddleofSeptember——itwasbeautifulweather——Iwentoutoneafternoon,notknowingwhereIwasgoing.Onealwayshasavaguewishtocallonsomeprettywomanorother.Onechoosesamongtheminone’smentalpicturegallery,comparestheminone’smind,weighstheinterestwithwhichtheyinspireyou,theircomparativecharmsandfinallydecidesaccordingtotheinfluenceoftheday.Butwhenthesunisverybrightandtheairwarm,ittakesawayfromyoualldesiretomakecalls.
"Thesunwasbright,theairwarm.Ilightedacigarandsaunteredaimlesslyalongtheouterboulevard.Then,asIstrolledon,itoccurredtometowalkasfarasMontmartreandgointothecemetery.
"Iamveryfondofcemeteries.Theyrestmeandgivemeafeelingofsadness;Ineedit.And,besides,Ihavegoodfriendsinthere,thosethatonenolongergoestocallon,andIgotherefromtimetotime.
"ItisinthiscemeteryofMontmartrethatisburiedaromanceofmylife,asweetheartwhomadeagreatimpressiononme,averyemotional,charminglittlewomanwhosememory,althoughitcausesmegreatsorrow,alsofillsmewithregrets——regretsofallkinds.AndIgotodreambesidehergrave.Shehasfinishedwithlife.
"AndthenIlikecemeteriesbecausetheyareimmensecitiesfilledtooverflowingwithinhabitants.Thinkhowmanydeadpeoplethereareinthissmallspace,thinkofallthegenerationsofParisianswhoarehousedthereforever,veritabletroglodytesenclosedintheirlittlevaults,intheirlittlegravescoveredwithastoneormarkedbyacross,whilelivingbeingstakeupsomuchroomandmakesomuchnoise——
imbecilesthattheyare"Then,again,incemeteriestherearemonumentsalmostasinterestingasinmuseums.ThetombofCavaignacremindedme,Imustconfesswithoutmakinganycomparison,ofthechefd’oeuvreofJeanGoujon:therecumbentstatueofLouisdeBrezeinthesubterraneanchapeloftheCathedralofRouen.Allmodernandrealisticarthasoriginatedthere,messieurs.
Thisdeadman,LouisdeBreze,ismorereal,moreterrible,morelikeinanimatefleshstillconvulsedwiththedeathagonythanallthetorturedcorpsesthataredistortedto—dayinfuneralmonuments.
"ButinMontmartreonecanyetadmireBaudin’smonument,whichhasadegreeofgrandeur;thatofGautier,ofMurger,onwhichIsawtheotherdayasimple,paltrywreathofimmortelles,yellowimmortelles,broughtthitherbywhom?Possiblybythelastgrisette,veryoldandnowjanitressintheneighborhood.ItisaprettylittlestatuebyMillet,butruinedbydirtandneglect.Singofyouth,OMurger!
"Well,thereIwasinMontmartreCemetery,andwasallatoncefilledwithsadness,asadnessthatisnotallpain,akindofsadnessthatmakesyouthinkwhenyouareingoodhealth,’Thisplaceisnotamusing,butmytimehasnotcomeyet.’
"Thefeelingofautumn,ofthewarmmoisturewhichisredolentofthedeathoftheleaves,andtheweakened,weary,anaemicsunincreased,whilerenderingitpoetical,thesensationofsolitudeandoffinalitythathoveredoverthisspotwhichsavorsofhumanmortality.
"Iwalkedalongslowlyamidthesestreetsoftombs,wheretheneighborsdonotvisiteachother,donotsleeptogetheranddonotreadthenewspapers.AndIbegantoreadtheepitaphs.Thatisthemostamusingthingintheworld.NeverdidLabicheorMeilhacmakemelaughasIhavelaughedatthecomicalinscriptionsontombstones.Oh,howmuchsuperiortothebooksofPauldeKockforgettingridofthespleenarethesemarbleslabsandthesecrosseswheretherelativesofthedeceasedhaveunburdenedtheirsorrow,theirdesiresforthehappinessofthevanishedonesandtheirhopeofrejoiningthem——humbugs!
"ButIloveaboveallinthiscemeterythedesertedportion,solitary,fullofgreatyewsandcypresses,theolderportion,belongingtothosedeadlongsince,andwhichwillsoonbetakenintouseagain;thegrowingtreesnourishedbythehumancorpsescutdowninordertoburyinrowsbeneathlittleslabsofmarblethosewhohavediedmorerecently.
"WhenIhadsaunteredaboutlongenoughtorefreshmymindIfeltthatI
wouldsoonhavehadenoughofitandthatImustplacethefaithfulhomageofmyremembranceonmylittlefriend’slastrestingplace.I
feltatighteningoftheheartasIreachedhergrave.Poordear,shewassodainty,solovingandsowhiteandfresh——andnow——ifoneshouldopenthegrave————
"Leaningovertheirongrating,Itoldherofmysorrowinalowtone,whichshedoubtlessdidnothear,andwasmovingawaywhenIsawawomaninblack,indeepmourning,kneelingonthenextgrave.Hercrapeveilwasturnedback,uncoveringaprettyfairhead,thehairinMadonnabandslookinglikeraysofdawnbeneathhersombreheaddress.Istayed.
"Surelyshemustbeinprofoundgrief.Shehadcoveredherfacewithherhandsand,standingthereinmeditation,rigidasastatue,givenuptohergrief,tellingthesadrosaryofherremembranceswithintheshadowofherconcealedandclosedeyes,sheherselfseemedlikeadeadpersonmourninganotherwhowasdead.Allatoncealittlemotionofherback,likeaflutterofwindthroughawillow,ledmetosupposethatshewasgoingtocry.Sheweptsoftlyatfirst,thenlouder,withquickmotionsofherneckandshoulders.Suddenlysheuncoveredhereyes.Theywerefulloftearsandcharming,theeyesofabewilderedwoman,withwhichsheglancedaboutherasifawakingfromanightmare.Shelookedatme,seemedabashedandhidherfacecompletelyinherhands.Thenshesobbedconvulsively,andherheadslowlybentdowntowardthemarble.Sheleanedherforeheadonit,andherveilspreadingaroundher,coveredthewhitecornersofthebelovedtomb,likeafreshtokenofmourning.
Iheardhersigh,thenshesankdownwithhercheekonthemarbleslabandremainedmotionless,unconscious.
"Idartedtowardher,slappedherhands,blewonhereyelids,whileI
readthissimpleepitaph:’HereliesLouis—TheodoreCarrel,CaptainofMarineInfantry,killedbytheenemyatTonquin.Prayforhim.’
"Hehaddiedsomemonthsbefore.Iwasaffectedtotearsandredoubledmyattentions.Theyweresuccessful.Sheregainedconsciousness.
Iappearedverymuchmoved.Iamnotbadlooking,Iamnotforty.Isawbyherfirstglancethatshewouldbepoliteandgrateful.Shewas,andamidmoretearsshetoldmeherhistoryindetachedfragmentsaswellashergaspingbreathwouldallow,howtheofficerwaskilledatTonquinwhentheyhadbeenmarriedayear,howshehadmarriedhimforlove,andbeinganorphan,shehadonlytheusualdowry.
"Iconsoledher,Icomfortedher,raisedherandliftedheronherfeet.
ThenIsaid:
"’Donotstayhere.Come.’
"’Iamunabletowalk,’shemurmured.
"’Iwillsupportyou.’
"’Thankyou,sir;youaregood.Didyoualsocometomournforsomeone?’
"’Yes,madame.’
"’Adeadfriend?’
"’Yes,madame.’
"’Yourwife?’
"’Afriend.’
"’Onemayloveafriendasmuchastheylovetheirwife.Lovehasnolaw.’
"’Yes,madame.’
"Andwesetofftogether,sheleaningonmyarm,whileIalmostcarriedheralongthepathsofthecemetery.Whenwegotoutsideshefaltered:
"’IfeelasifIweregoingtobeill.’
"’Wouldyouliketogoinanywhere,totakesomething?’
"’Yes,monsieur.’
"Iperceivedarestaurant,oneofthoseplaceswherethemournersofthedeadgotocelebratethefuneral.Wewentin.Imadeherdrinkacupofhottea,whichseemedtoreviveher.Afaintsmilecametoherlips.
Shebegantotalkaboutherself.Itwassad,sosadtobealwaysaloneinlife,aloneinone’shome,nightandday,tohavenooneonwhomonecanbestowaffection,confidence,intimacy.
"Thatsoundedsincere.Itsoundedprettyfromhermouth.Iwastouched.
Shewasveryyoung,perhapstwenty.Ipaidhercompliments,whichshetookingoodpart.Then,astimewaspassing,Isuggestedtakingherhomeinacarriage.Sheaccepted,andinthecabwesatsoclosethatourshoulderstouched.
"Whenthecabstoppedatherhouseshemurmured:’Idonotfeelequaltogoingupstairsalone,forIliveonthefourthfloor.Youhavebeensogood.Willyouletmetakeyourarmasfarasmyowndoor?’
"Iagreedwitheagerness.Sheascendedthestairsslowly,breathinghard.Then,aswestoodatherdoor,shesaid:
"’ComeinafewmomentssothatImaythankyou.’
"And,byJove,Iwentin.Everythingwasmodest,evenratherpoor,butsimpleandingoodtaste.
"Wesatdownsidebysideonalittlesofaandshebegantotalkagainaboutherloneliness.Sherangforhermaid,inordertooffermesomewine.Themaiddidnotcome.Iwasdelighted,thinkingthatthismaidprobablycameinthemorningonly,whatonecallsacharwoman.
"Shehadtakenoffherhat.Shewasreallypretty,andshegazedatmewithhercleareyes,gazedsohardandhereyesweresoclearthatIwasterriblytempted.Icaughtherinmyarmsandrainedkissesonhereyelids,whichsheclosedsuddenly.
"Shefreedherselfandpushedmeaway,saying:
"’Havedone,havedone.’
"ButInextkissedheronthemouthandshedidnotresist,andasourglancesmetafterthusoutragingthememoryofthecaptainkilledinTonquin,Isawthatshehadalanguid,resignedexpressionthatsetmymindatrest.
"Ibecameveryattentiveand,afterchattingforsometime,Isaid:
"’Wheredoyoudine?’
"’Inalittlerestaurantintheneighborhood:
"’Allalone?’
"’Why,yes.’
"’Willyoudinewithme?’
"’Where?’
"’InagoodrestaurantontheBoulevard.’
"Shedemurredalittle.Iinsisted.Sheyielded,sayingbywayofapologytoherself:’Iamsolonely——solonely.’Thensheadded:
"’Imustputonsomethinglesssombre,andwentintoherbedroom.Whenshereappearedshewasdressedinhalf—mourning,charming,daintyandslenderinaverysimplegraydress.Sheevidentlyhadacostumeforthecemeteryandoneforthetown.
"Thedinnerwasveryenjoyable.Shedranksomechampagne,brightenedup,grewlivelyandIwenthomewithher.
"Thisfriendship,begunamidthetombs,lastedaboutthreeweeks.Butonegetstiredofeverything,especiallyofwomen.Ileftherunderpretextofanimperativejourney.ShemademepromisethatIwouldcomeandseeheronmyreturn.Sheseemedtobereallyratherattachedtome.
"Otherthingsoccupiedmyattention,anditwasaboutamonthbeforeI
thoughtmuchaboutthislittlecemeteryfriend.However,Ididnotforgether.Therecollectionofherhauntedmelikeamystery,likeapsychologicalproblem,oneofthoseinexplicablequestionswhosesolutionbafflesus.
"Idonotknowwhy,butonedayIthoughtImightpossiblymeetherintheMontmartreCemetery,andIwentthere.
"Iwalkedaboutalongtimewithoutmeetinganybuttheordinaryvisitorstothisspot,thosewhohavenotyetbrokenoffallrelationswiththeirdead.ThegraveofthecaptainkilledatTonquinhadnomourneronitsmarbleslab,noflowers,nowreath.
"ButasIwanderedinanotherdirectionofthisgreatcityofthedeadI
perceivedsuddenly,attheendofanarrowavenueofcrosses,acoupleindeepmourningwalkingtowardme,amanandawoman.Oh,horrors!AstheyapproachedIrecognizedher.Itwasshe!
"Shesawme,blushed,andasIbrushedpasthershegavemealittlesignal,atinylittlesignalwithhereye,whichmeant:’Donotrecognizeme!’andalsoseemedtosay,’Comebacktoseemeagain,mydear!’
"Themanwasagentleman,distingue,chic,anofficeroftheLegionofHonor,aboutfiftyyearsold.HewassupportingherasIhadsupportedhermyselfwhenwewereleavingthecemetery.
"Iwentmyway,filledwithamazement,askingmyselfwhatthisallmeant,towhatraceofbeingsbelongedthishuntressofthetombs?Wasshejustacommongirl,onewhowenttoseekamongthetombsformenwhowereinsorrow,hauntedbytherecollectionofsomewoman,awifeorasweetheart,andstilltroubledbythememoryofvanishedcaresses?Wassheunique?Aretheremanysuch?Isitaprofession?Dotheyparadethecemeteryastheyparadethestreet?Orelsewassheonlyimpressedwiththeadmirable,profoundlyphilosophicalideaofexploitingloverecollections,whicharerevivedinthesefunerealplaces?
"AndIwouldhavelikedtoknowwhosewidowshewasonthatspecialday."
MADEMOISELLEPEARL
I
WhatastrangeideaitwasformetochooseMademoisellePearlforqueenthatevening!
EveryyearIcelebrateTwelfthNightwithmyoldfriendChantal.Myfather,whowashismostintimatefriend,usedtotakemeroundtherewhenIwasachild.Icontinuedthecustom,andIdoubtlessshallcontinueitaslongasIliveandaslongasthereisaChantalinthisworld.
TheChantalsleadapeculiarexistence;theyliveinParisasthoughtheywereinGrasse,Evetot,orPont—a—Mousson.
Theyhaveahousewithalittlegardenneartheobservatory.Theylivethereasthoughtheywereinthecountry.OfParis,therealParis,theyknownothingatall,theysuspectnothing;theyaresofar,sofaraway!
However,fromtimetotime,theytakeatripintoit.MademoiselleChantalgoestolayinherprovisions,asitiscalledinthefamily.
Thisishowtheygotopurchasetheirprovisions:
MademoisellePearl,whohasthekeystothekitchencloset(forthelinenclosetsareadministeredbythemistressherself),MademoisellePearlgiveswarningthatthesupplyofsugarislow,thatthepreservesaregivingout,thatthereisnotmuchleftinthebottomofthecoffeebag.
Thuswarnedagainstfamine,MademoiselleChantalpasseseverythinginreview,takingnotesonapad.ThensheputsdownalotoffiguresandgoesthroughlengthycalculationsandlongdiscussionswithMademoisellePearl.Atlasttheymanagetoagree,andtheydecideuponthequantityofeachthingofwhichtheywilllayinathreemonths’provision;sugar,rice,prunes,coffee,preserves,cansofpeas,beans,lobster,saltorsmokedfish,etc.,etc.Afterwhichthedayforthepurchasingisdeterminedonandtheygoinacabwitharailingroundthetopanddrivetoalargegrocerystoreontheothersideoftheriverinthenewsectionsofthetown.
MadameChantalandMademoisellePearlmakethistriptogether,mysteriously,andonlyreturnatdinnertime,tiredout,althoughstillexcited,andshakenupbythecab,theroofofwhichiscoveredwithbundlesandbags,likeanexpresswagon.
FortheChantalsallthatpartofParissituatedontheothersideoftheSeineconstitutesthenewquarter,asectioninhabitedbyastrange,noisypopulation,whichcareslittleforhonor,spendsitsdaysindissipation,itsnightsinrevelry,andwhichthrowsmoneyoutofthewindows.Fromtimetotime,however,theyounggirlsaretakentotheOpera—ComiqueortheTheatreFrancais,whentheplayisrecommendedbythepaperwhichisreadbyM.Chantal.
Atpresenttheyoungladiesarerespectivelynineteenandseventeen.
Theyaretwoprettygirls,tallandfresh,verywellbroughtup,infact,toowellbroughtup,somuchsothattheypassbyunperceivedliketwoprettydolls.NeverwouldtheideacometometopaytheslightestattentionortopaycourttooneoftheyoungChantalladies;theyaresoimmaculatethatonehardlydaresspeaktothem;onealmostfeelsindecentwhenbowingtothem.
Asforthefather,heisacharmingman,welleducated,frank,cordial,buthelikescalmandquietaboveallelse,andhasthuscontributedgreatlytothemummifyingofhisfamilyinordertoliveashepleasedinstagnantquiescence.Hereadsalot,lovestotalkandisreadilyaffected.Lackofcontactandofelbowingwiththeworldhasmadehismoralskinverytenderandsensitive.Theslightestthingmoveshim,exciteshim,andmakeshimsuffer.
TheChantalshavelimitedconnectionscarefullychosenintheneighborhood.Theyalsoexchangetwoorthreeyearlyvisitswithrelativeswholiveinthedistance.
Asforme,ItakedinnerwiththemonthefifteenthofAugustandonTwelfthNight.ThatisasmuchoneofmydutiesasEastercommunionisforaCatholic.
OnthefifteenthofAugustafewfriendsareinvited,butonTwelfthNightIamtheonlystranger.
Well,thisyear,aseveryformeryear,IwenttotheChantals’formyEpiphanydinner.
Accordingtomyusualcustom,IkissedM.Chantal,MadameChantalandMademoisellePearl,andImadeadeepbowtotheMissesLouiseandPauline.Iwasquestionedaboutathousandandonethings,aboutwhathadhappenedontheboulevards,aboutpolitics,abouthowmattersstoodinTong—King,andaboutourrepresentativesinParliament.MadameChantal,afatlady,whoseideasalwaysgavemetheimpressionofbeingcarvedoutsquarelikebuildingstones,wasaccustomedtoexclaimingattheendofeverypoliticaldiscussion:"Allthatisseedwhichdoesnotpromisemuchforthefuture!"WhyhaveIalwaysimaginedthatMadameChantal’sideasaresquare?Idon’tknow;buteverythingthatshesaystakesthatshapeinmyhead:abigsquare,withfoursymmetricalangles.
Thereareotherpeoplewhoseideasalwaysstrikemeasbeingroundandrollinglikeahoop.Assoonastheybeginasentenceonanysubjectitrollsonandon,comingoutinten,twenty,fiftyroundideas,largeandsmall,whichIseerollingalong,onebehindtheother,totheendofthehorizon.Otherpeoplehavepointedideas——butenoughofthis.
Wesatdownasusualandfinishedourdinnerwithoutanythingoutoftheordinarybeingsaid.AtdesserttheTwelfthNightcakewasbroughton.
Now,M.Chantalhadbeenkingeveryyear.Idon’tknowwhetherthiswastheresultofcontinuedchanceorafamilyconvention,butheunfailinglyfoundthebeaninhispieceofcake,andhewouldproclaimMadameChantaltobequeen.Therefore,Iwasgreatlysurprisedtofindsomethingveryhard,whichalmostmademebreakatooth,inamouthfulofcake.GentlyItookthisthingfrommymouthandIsawthatitwasalittleporcelaindoll,nobiggerthanabean.Surprisecausedmetoexclaim:
"Ah!"Alllookedatme,andChantalclappedhishandsandcried:"It’sGaston!It’sGaston!Longlivetheking!Longlivetheking!"
Alltookupthechorus:"Longlivetheking!"AndIblushedtothetipofmyears,asoneoftendoes,withoutanyreasonatall,insituationswhicharealittlefoolish.Isattherelookingatmyplate,withthisabsurdlittlebitofpotteryinmyfingers,forcingmyselftolaughandnotknowingwhattodoorsay,whenChantaloncemorecriedout:"Now,youmustchooseaqueen!"
ThenIwasthunderstruck.Inasecondathousandthoughtsandsuppositionsflashedthroughmymind.DidtheyexpectmetopickoutoneoftheyoungChantalladies?WasthatatricktomakemesaywhichoneI
prefer?Wasitagentle,light,directhintoftheparentstowardapossiblemarriage?Theideaofmarriageroamscontinuallyinhouseswithgrown—upgirls,andtakeseveryshapeanddisguise,andemployseverysubterfuge.AdreadofcompromisingmyselftookholdofmeaswellasanextremetimiditybeforetheobstinatelycorrectandreservedattitudeoftheMissesLouiseandPauline.Tochooseoneoftheminpreferencetotheotherseemedtomeasdifficultaschoosingbetweentwodropsofwater;andthenthefearoflaunchingmyselfintoanaffairwhichmight,inspiteofme,leadmegentlyintomatrimonialties,bymeansaswaryandimperceptibleandascalmasthisinsignificantroyalty——thefearofallthishauntedme.
SuddenlyIhadaninspiration,andIheldouttoMademoisellePearlthesymbolicalemblem.Atfirsteveryonewassurprised,thentheydoubtlessappreciatedmydelicacyanddiscretion,fortheyapplaudedfuriously.
Everybodywascrying:"Longlivethequeen!Longlivethequeen!"
Asforherself,pooroldmaid,shewassoamazedthatshecompletelylostcontrolofherself;shewastremblingandstammering:"No——no——oh!no——
notme——please——notme——Ibegofyou————"
ThenforthefirsttimeinmylifeIlookedatMademoisellePearlandwonderedwhatshewas.
Iwasaccustomedtoseeingherinthishouse,justasoneseesoldupholsteredarmchairsonwhichonehasbeensittingsincechildhoodwithoutevernoticingthem.Oneday,withnoreasonatall,becausearayofsunshinehappenstostriketheseat,yousuddenlythink:"Why,thatchairisverycurious";andthenyoudiscoverthatthewoodhasbeenworkedbyarealartistandthatthematerialisremarkable.IhadnevertakenanynoticeofMademoisellePearl.
ShewasapartoftheChantalfamily,thatwasall.Buthow?Bywhatright?Shewasatall,thinpersonwhotriedtoremaininthebackground,butwhowasbynomeansinsignificant.Shewastreatedinafriendlymanner,betterthanahousekeeper,notsowellasarelative.
IsuddenlyobservedseveralshadesofdistinctionwhichIhadnevernoticedbefore.MadameChantalsaid:"Pearl."Theyoungladies:
"MademoisellePearl,"andChantalonlyaddressedheras"Mademoiselle,"
withanairofgreaterrespect,perhaps.
Ibegantoobserveher.Howoldcouldshebe?Forty?Yes,forty.Shewasnotold,shemadeherselfold.Iwassuddenlystruckbythisfact.
Shefixedherhairanddressedinaridiculousmanner,and,notwithstandingallthat,shewasnotintheleastridiculous,shehadsuchsimple,naturalgracefulness,veiledandhidden.Truly,whatastrangecreature!HowwasitIhadneverobservedherbefore?Shedressedherhairinagrotesquemannerwithlittleoldmaidcurls,mostabsurd;butbeneaththisonecouldseealarge,calmbrow,cutbytwodeeplines,twowrinklesoflongsadness,thentwoblueeyes,largeandtender,sotimid,sobashful,sohumble,twobeautifuleyeswhichhadkepttheexpressionofnaivewonderofayounggirl,ofyouthfulsensations,andalsoofsorrow,whichhadsoftenedwithoutspoilingthem.
Herwholefacewasrefinedanddiscreet,afacetheexpressionofwhichseemedtohavegoneoutwithoutbeinguseduporfadedbythefatiguesandgreatemotionsoflife.
Whatadaintymouth!andsuchprettyteeth!Butonewouldhavethoughtthatshedidnotdaresmile.
SuddenlyIcomparedhertoMadameChantal!UndoubtedlyMademoisellePearlwasthebetterofthetwo,ahundredtimesbetter,daintier,prouder,morenoble.Iwassurprisedatmyobservation.Theywerepouringoutchampagne.Iheldmyglassuptothequeenand,withawell—
turnedcompliment,Idranktoherhealth.Icouldseethatshefeltinclinedtohideherheadinhernapkin.Then,asshewasdippingherlipsintheclearwine,everybodycried:"Thequeendrinks!thequeendrinks!"Shealmostturnedpurpleandchoked.Everybodywaslaughing;
butIcouldseethatalllovedher.
AssoonasdinnerwasoverChantaltookmebythearm.Itwastimeforhiscigar,asacredhour.Whenalonehewouldsmokeitoutinthestreet;whenguestscametodinnerhewouldtakethemtothebilliardroomandsmokewhileplaying.ThateveningtheyhadbuiltafiretocelebrateTwelfthNight;myoldfriendtookhiscue,averyfineone,andchalkeditwithgreatcare;thenhesaid:
"Youbreak,myboy!"
Hecalledme"myboy,"althoughIwastwenty—five,buthehadknownmeasayoungchild.
Istartedthegameandmadeafewcarroms.Imissedsomeothers,butasthethoughtofMademoisellePearlkeptreturningtomymind,Isuddenlyasked:
"Bytheway,MonsieurChantal,isMademoisellePearlarelativeofyours?"
Greatlysurprised,hestoppedplayingandlookedatme:
"What!Don’tyouknow?Haven’tyouheardaboutMademoisellePearl?"
"No."
"Didn’tyourfatherevertellyou?"
"No."
"Well,well,that’sfunny!Thatcertainlyisfunny!Why,it’saregularromance!"
Hepaused,andthencontinued:
"Andifyouonlyknewhowpeculiaritisthatyoushouldaskmethatto—
day,onTwelfthNight!"
"Why?"
"Why?Well,listen.Forty—oneyearsagotoday,thedayoftheEpiphany,thefollowingeventsoccurred:WewerethenlivingatRoiiy—le—
Tors,ontheramparts;butinorderthatyoumayunderstand,Imustfirstexplainthehouse.Roilyisbuiltonahill,or,rather,onamoundwhichoverlooksagreatstretchofprairie.Wehadahousetherewithabeautifulhanginggardensupportedbytheoldbattlementedwall;sothatthehousewasinthetownonthestreets,whilethegardenoverlookedtheplain.Therewasadoorleadingfromthegardentotheopencountry,atthebottomofasecretstairwayinthethickwall——thekindyoureadaboutinnovels.Aroadpassedinfrontofthisdoor,whichwasprovidedwithabigbell;forthepeasants,inordertoavoidtheroundaboutway,wouldbringtheirprovisionsupthisway.
"Younowunderstandtheplace,don’tyou?Well,thisyear,atEpiphany,ithadbeensnowingforaweek.Onemighthavethoughtthattheworldwascomingtoanend.Whenwewenttotherampartstolookovertheplain,thisimmensewhite,frozencountry,whichshonelikevarnish,wouldchillourverysouls.OnemighthavethoughtthattheLordhadpackedtheworldincottontoputitawayinthestoreroomforoldworlds.Icanassureyouthatitwasdrearylooking.
"Wewereaverynumerousfamilyatthattimemyfather,mymother,myuncleandaunt,mytwobrothersandfourcousins;theywereprettylittlegirls;Imarriedtheyoungest.Ofallthatcrowd,thereareonlythreeofusleft:mywife,I,andmysister—in—law,wholivesinMarseilles.
Zounds!howquicklyafamilylikethatdwindlesaway!ItremblewhenI
thinkofit!Iwasfifteenyearsoldthen,sinceIamfifty—sixnow.
"WeweregoingtocelebratetheEpiphany,andwewereallhappy,veryhappy!Everybodywasintheparlor,awaitingdinner,andmyoldestbrother,Jacques,said:’Therehasbeenadoghowlingoutintheplainforabouttenminutes;thepoorbeastmustbelost.’
"Hehadhardlystoppedtalkingwhenthegardenbellbegantoring.Ithadthedeepsoundofachurchbell,whichmadeonethinkofdeath.A
shiverranthrougheverybody.Myfathercalledtheservantandtoldhimtogooutsideandlook.Wewaitedincompletesilence;wewerethinkingofthesnowwhichcoveredtheground.Whenthemanreturnedhedeclaredthathehadseennothing.Thedogkeptupitsceaselesshowling,andalwaysfromthesamespot.
"Wesatdowntodinner;butwewerealluneasy,especiallytheyoungpeople.Everythingwentwelluptotheroast,thenthebellbegantoringagain,threetimesinsuccession,threeheavy,longstrokeswhichvibratedtothetipsofourfingersandwhichstoppedourconversationshort.Wesattherelookingateachother,forkintheair,stilllistening,andshakenbyakindofsupernaturalfear.
"Atlastmymotherspoke:’It’ssurprisingthattheyshouldhavewaitedsolongtocomeback.Donotgoalone,Baptiste;oneofthesegentlemenwillaccompanyyou.’
"MyUncleFrancoisarose.HewasakindofHercules,veryproudofhisstrength,andfearednothingintheworld.Myfathersaidtohim:’Takeagun.Thereisnotellingwhatitmightbe.’
"Butmyuncleonlytookacaneandwentoutwiththeservant.
"Weothersremainedtheretremblingwithfearandapprehension,withouteatingorspeaking.Myfathertriedtoreassureus:’Justwaitandsee,’
hesaid;’itwillbesomebeggarorsometravellerlostinthesnow.
Afterringingonce,seeingthatthedoorwasnotimmediatelyopened,heattemptedagaintofindhisway,andbeingunableto,hehasreturnedtoourdoor.’
"Ouruncleseemedtostayawayanhour.Atlasthecameback,furious,swearing:’Nothingatall;it’ssomepracticaljoker!Thereisnothingbutthatdamneddoghowlingawayataboutahundredyardsfromthewalls.
IfIhadtakenagunIwouldhavekilledhimtomakehimkeepquiet.’
"Wesatdowntodinneragain,buteveryonewasexcited;wefeltthatallwasnotover,thatsomethingwasgoingtohappen,thatthebellwouldsoonringagain.
"ItrangjustastheTwelfthNightcakewasbeingcut.Allthemenjumpeduptogether.MyUncle,Francois,whohadbeendrinkingchampagne,sworesofuriouslythathewouldmurderit,whateveritmightbe,thatmymotherandmyauntthrewthemselvesonhimtopreventhisgoing.Myfather,althoughverycalmandalittlehelpless(helimpedeversincehehadbrokenhislegwhenthrownbyahorse),declared,inturn,thathewishedtofindoutwhatwasthematterandthathewasgoing.Mybrothers,agedeighteenandtwenty,rantogettheirguns;andasnoonewaspayinganyattentiontomeIsnatchedupalittleriflethatwasusedinthegardenandgotreadytoaccompanytheexpedition.
"Itstartedoutimmediately.MyfatherandunclewerewalkingaheadwithBaptiste,whowascarryingalantern.Mybrothers,JacquesandPaul,followed,andItrailedonbehindinspiteoftheprayersofmymother,whostoodinfrontofthehousewithhersisterandmycousins.
"Ithadbeensnowingagainforthelasthour,andthetreeswereweighteddown.Thepineswerebendingunderthisheavy,whitegarment,andlookedlikewhitepyramidsorenormoussugarcones,andthroughthegraycurtainsofsmallhurryingflakescouldbeseenthelighterbusheswhichstoodoutpaleintheshadow.Thesnowwasfallingsothickthatwecouldhardlyseetenfeetaheadofus.Butthelanternthrewabrightlightaroundus.WhenwebegantogodownthewindingstairwayinthewallIreallygrewfrightened.Ifeltasthoughsomeonewerewalkingbehindme,weregoingtograbmebytheshouldersandcarrymeaway,andIfeltastrongdesiretoreturn;but,asIwouldhavehadtocrossthegardenallalone,Ididnotdare.Iheardsomeoneopeningthedoorleadingtotheplain;myunclebegantoswearagain,exclaiming:’By———!
Hehasgoneagain!IfIcancatchsightofevenhisshadow,I’lltakecarenottomisshim,theswine!’
"Itwasadiscouragingthingtoseethisgreatexpanseofplain,or,rather,tofeelitbeforeus,forwecouldnotseeit;wecouldonlyseeathick,endlessveilofsnow,above,below,oppositeus,totheright,totheleft,everywhere.Myunclecontinued:
’Listen!Thereisthedoghowlingagain;IwillteachhimhowIshoot.
Thatwillbesomethinggained,anyhow.’
"Butmyfather,whowaskind—hearted,wenton:
’Itwillbemuchbettertogoonandgetthepooranimal,whoiscryingforhunger.Thepoorfellowisbarkingforhelp;heiscallinglikeamanindistress.Letusgotohim.’
"Sowestartedoutthroughthismist,throughthisthickcontinuousfallofsnow,whichfilledtheair,whichmoved,floated,fell,andchilledtheskinwithaburningsensationlikeasharp,rapidpainaseachflakemelted.Weweresinkinginuptoourkneesinthissoft,coldmass,andwehadtoliftourfeetveryhighinordertowalk.Asweadvancedthedog’svoicebecameclearerandstronger.Myunclecried:’Hereheis!’
Westoppedtoobservehimasonedoeswhenhemeetsanenemyatnight.
"Icouldseenothing,soIranuptotheothers,andIcaughtsightofhim;hewasfrightfulandweird—looking;hewasabigblackshepherd’sdogwithlonghairandawolf’shead,standingjustwithinthegleamoflightcastbyourlanternonthesnow.Hedidnotmove;hewassilentlywatchingus.
"Myunclesaid:’That’speculiar,heisneitheradvancingnorretreating.
Ifeelliketakingashotathim.’
"Myfatheransweredinafirmvoice:’No,wemustcapturehim.’
"ThenmybrotherJacquesadded:’Butheisnotalone.Thereissomethingbehindhim."
"Therewasindeedsomethingbehindhim,somethinggray,impossibletodistinguish.Westartedoutagaincautiously.Whenhesawusapproachingthedogsatdown.Hedidnotlookwicked.Instead,heseemedpleasedathavingbeenabletoattracttheattentionofsomeone.
"Myfatherwentstraighttohimandpettedhim.Thedoglickedhishands.Wesawthathewastiedtothewheelofalittlecarriage,asortoftoycarriageentirelywrappedupinthreeorfourwoolenblankets.
Wecarefullytookoffthesecoverings,andasBaptisteapproachedhislanterntothefrontofthislittlevehicle,whichlookedlikearollingkennel,wesawinitalittlebabysleepingpeacefully.
"Weweresoastonishedthatwecouldn’tspeak.
Myfatherwasthefirsttocollecthiswits,andashehadawarmheartandabroadmind,hestretchedhishandovertheroofofthecarriageandsaid:’Poorlittlewaif,youshallbeoneofus!’AndheorderedmybrotherJacquestorollthefoundlingaheadofus.Thinkingoutloud,myfathercontinued:
"’SomechildoflovewhosepoormotherrangatmydooronthisnightofEpiphanyinmemoryoftheChildofGod.’
"Heoncemorestoppedandcalledatthetopofhislungsthroughthenighttothefourcornersoftheheavens:’Wehavefoundit!’Then,puttinghishandonhisbrother’sshoulder,hemurmured:’Whatifyouhadshotthedog,Francois?’
"Myuncledidnotanswer,butinthedarknesshecrossedhimself,for,notwithstandinghisblusteringmanner,hewasveryreligious.
"Thedog,whichhadbeenuntied,wasfollowingus.
"Ah!Butyoushouldhaveseenuswhenwegottothehouse!Atfirstwehadalotoftroubleingettingthecarriageupthroughthewindingstairway;butwesucceededandevenrolleditintothevestibule.
"Howfunnymammawas!Howhappyandastonished!Andmyfourlittlecousins(theyoungestwasonlysix),theylookedlikefourchickensaroundanest.Atlastwetookthechildfromthecarriage.Itwasstillsleeping.Itwasagirlaboutsixweeksold.Initsclotheswefoundtenthousandfrancsingold,yes,myboy,tenthousandfrancs!——
whichpapasavedforherdowry.Therefore,itwasnotachildofpoorpeople,but,perhaps,thechildofsomenoblemanandalittlebourgeoiseofthetown——oragain——wemadeathousandsuppositions,butweneverfoundoutanything—nevertheslightestclue.Thedoghimselfwasrecognizedbynoone.Hewasastrangerinthecountry.Atanyrate,thepersonwhorangthreetimesatourdoormusthaveknownmyparentswell,tohavechosenthemthus.
"Thatishow,attheageofsixweeks,MademoisellePearlenteredtheChantalhousehold.
"ItwasnotuntillaterthatshewascalledMademoisellePearl.Shewasatfirstbaptized’MarieSimonneClaire,’Clairebeingintended,forherfamilyname.
"Icanassureyouthatourreturntothediningroomwasamusing,withthisbabynowawakeandlookingroundheratthesepeopleandtheselightswithhervaguebluequestioningeyes.
"Wesatdowntodinneragainandthecakewascut.Iwasking,andforqueenItookMademoisellePearl,justasyoudidto—day.Onthatdayshedidnotappreciatethehonorthatwasbeingshownher.
"Well,thechildwasadoptedandbroughtupinthefamily.Shegrew,andtheyearsflewby.Shewassogentleandlovingandmindedsowellthateveryonewouldhavespoiledherabominablyhadnotmymotherpreventedit.
"Mymotherwasanorderlywomanwithagreatrespectforclassdistinctions.SheconsentedtotreatlittleClaireasshedidherownsons,but,nevertheless,shewishedthedistancewhichseparatedustobewellmarked,andourpositionswellestablished.Therefore,assoonasthechildcouldunderstand,sheacquaintedherwithherstoryandgently,eventenderly,impressedonthelittleone’smindthat,fortheChantals,shewasanadopteddaughter,takenin,but,nevertheless,astranger.
Claireunderstoodthesituationwithpeculiarintelligenceandwithsurprisinginstinct;sheknewhowtotaketheplacewhichwasallottedher,andtokeepitwithsomuchtact,gracefulnessandgentlenessthatsheoftenbroughttearstomyfather’seyes.Mymotherherselfwasoftenmovedbythepassionategratitudeandtimiddevotionofthisdaintyandlovinglittlecreaturethatshebegancallingher:’Mydaughter.’Attimes,whenthelittleonehaddonesomethingkindandgood,mymotherwouldraiseherspectaclesonherforehead,athingwhichalwaysindicatedemotionwithher,andshewouldrepeat:’Thischildisapearl,aperfectpearl!’ThisnamestucktothelittleClaire,whobecameandremainedforusMademoisellePearl."
II
M.Chantalstopped.Hewassittingontheedgeofthebilliardtable,hisfeethanging,andwasplayingwithaballwithhislefthand,whilewithhisrighthecrumpledaragwhichservedtorubthechalkmarksfromtheslate.Alittleredintheface,hisvoicethick,hewastalkingawaytohimselfnow,lostinhismemories,gentlydriftingthroughtheoldscenesandeventswhichawokeinhismind,justaswewalkthrougholdfamilygardenswherewewerebroughtupandwhereeachtree,eachwalk,eachhedgeremindsusofsomeoccurrence.
Istoodoppositehimleaningagainstthewall,myhandsrestingonmyidlecue.
Afteraslightpausehecontinued:
"ByJove!Shewasprettyateighteen——andgraceful——andperfect.Ah!
Shewassosweet——andgoodandtrue——andcharming!Shehadsucheyes—
blue—transparent——clear——sucheyesasIhaveneverseensince!"
Hewasoncemoresilent.Iasked:"Whydidshenevermarry?"
Heanswered,nottome,buttotheword"marry"whichhadcaughthisear:
"Why?why?Sheneverwould——sheneverwould!Shehadadowryofthirtythousandfrancs,andshereceivedseveraloffers——butsheneverwould!
Sheseemedsadatthattime.ThatwaswhenImarriedmycousin,littleCharlotte,mywife,towhomIhadbeenengagedforsixyears."
IlookedatM.Chantal,anditseemedtomethatIwaslookingintohisverysoul,andIwassuddenlywitnessingoneofthosehumbleandcrueltragediesofhonest,straightforward,blamelesshearts,oneofthosesecrettragediesknowntonoone,noteventhesilentandresignedvictims.Arashcuriositysuddenlyimpelledmetoexclaim:
"Youshouldhavemarriedher,MonsieurChantal!"
Hestarted,lookedatme,andsaid:
"I?Marrywhom?"
"MademoisellePearl."
"Why?"
"Becauseyoulovedhermorethanyourcousin."
Hestaredatmewithstrange,round,bewilderedeyesandstammered:
"Ilovedher——I?How?Whotoldyouthat?"
"Why,anyonecanseethat——andit’sevenonaccountofherthatyoudelayedforsolongyourmarriagetoyourcousinwhohadbeenwaitingforyouforsixyears."
Hedroppedtheballwhichhewasholdinginhislefthand,and,seizingthechalkraginbothhands,heburiedhisfaceinitandbegantosob.
Hewasweepingwithhiseyes,noseandmouthinaheartbreakingyetridiculousmanner,likeaspongewhichonesqueezes.Hewascoughing,spittingandblowinghisnoseinthechalkrag,wipinghiseyesandsneezing;thenthetearswouldagainbegintoflowdownthewrinklesonhisfaceandhewouldmakeastrangegurglingnoiseinhisthroat.
Ifeltbewildered,ashamed;Iwantedtorunaway,andInolongerknewwhattosay,do,orattempt.
SuddenlyMadameChantal’svoicesoundedonthestairs."Haven’tyoumenalmostfinishedsmokingyourcigars?"
Iopenedthedoorandcried:"Yes,madame,wearecomingrightdown."
ThenIrushedtoherhusband,and,seizinghimbytheshoulders,Icried:
"MonsieurChantal,myfriendChantal,listentome;yourwifeiscalling;
pullyourselftogether,wemustgodownstairs."
Hestammered:"Yes——yes——Iamcoming——poorgirl!Iamcoming——tellherthatIamcoming."
Hebeganconscientiouslytowipehisfaceontheclothwhich,forthelasttwoorthreeyears,hadbeenusedformarkingoffthechalkfromtheslate;thenheappeared,halfwhiteandhalfred,hisforehead,nose,cheeksandchincoveredwithchalk,andhiseyesswollen,stillfulloftears.
Icaughthimbythehandsanddraggedhimintohisbedroom,muttering:"I
begyourpardon,Ibegyourpardon,MonsieurChantal,forhavingcausedyousuchsorrow——but——Ididnotknow——you——youunderstand."
Hesqueezedmyhand,saying:"Yes——yes——therearedifficultmoments."
Thenheplungedhisfaceintoabowlofwater.Whenheemergedfromithedidnotyetseemtometobepresentable;butIthoughtofalittlestratagem.Ashewasgrowingworried,lookingathimselfinthemirror,Isaidtohim:"Allyouhavetodoistosaythatalittledustflewintoyoureyeandyoucancrybeforeeverybodytoyourheart’scontent."
Hewentdownstairsrubbinghiseyeswithhishandkerchief.Allwereworried;eachonewishedtolookforthespeck,whichcouldnotbefound;
andstoriesweretoldofsimilarcaseswhereithadbeennecessarytocallinaphysician.
IwentovertoMademoisellePearlandwatchedher,tormentedbyanardentcuriosity,whichwasturningtopositivesuffering.Shemustindeedhavebeenpretty,withhergentle,calmeyes,solargethatitlookedasthoughsheneverclosedthemlikeothermortals.Hergownwasalittleridiculous,arealoldmaid’sgown,whichwasunbecomingwithoutappearingclumsy.
ItseemedtomeasthoughIwerelookingintohersoul,justasIhadintoMonsieurChantal’s;thatIwaslookingrightfromoneendtotheotherofthishumblelife,sosimpleanddevoted.Ifeltanirresistiblelongingtoquestionher,tofindoutwhethershe,too,hadlovedhim;
whethershealsohadsuffered,ashehad,fromthislong,secret,poignantgrief,whichonecannotsee,know,orguess,butwhichbreaksforthatnightinthelonelinessofthedarkroom.Iwaswatchingher,andIcouldobserveherheartbeatingunderherwaist,andIwonderedwhetherthissweet,candidfacehadweptonthesoftpillowandshehadsobbed,herwholebodyshakenbytheviolenceofheranguish.
Isaidtoherinalowvoice,likeachildwhoisbreakingatoytoseewhatisinside:"IfyoucouldhaveseenMonsieurChantalcryingawhileagoitwouldhavemovedyou."
Shestarted,asking:"What?Hewasweeping?"
"Ah,yes,hewasindeedweeping!"
"Why?"
Sheseemeddeeplymoved.Ianswered:
"Onyouraccount."
"Onmyaccount?"
"Yes.Hewastellingmehowmuchhehadlovedyouinthedaysgoneby;
andwhatapangithadgivenhimtomarryhiscousininsteadofyou."
Herpalefaceseemedtogrowalittlelonger;hercalmeyes,whichalwaysremainedopen,suddenlyclosedsoquicklythattheyseemedshutforever.
Sheslippedfromherchairtothefloor,andslowly,gentlysankdownaswouldafallengarment.
Icried:"Help!help!MademoisellePearlisill."
MadameChantalandherdaughtersrushedforward,andwhiletheywerelookingfortowels,waterandvinegar,Igrabbedmyhatandranaway.
Iwalkedawaywithrapidstrides,myheartheavy,mymindfullofremorseandregret.AndyetsometimesIfeltpleased;IfeltasthoughIhaddoneapraiseworthyandnecessaryact.Iwasaskingmyself:"DidIdowrongorright?"Theyhadthatshutupintheirhearts,justassomepeoplecarryabulletinaclosedwound.Willtheynotbehappiernow?
Itwastoolatefortheirtorturetobeginoveragainandearlyenoughforthemtorememberitwithtenderness.
Andperhapssomeeveningnextspring,movedbyabeamofmoonlightfallingthroughthebranchesonthegrassattheirfeet,theywilljoinandpresstheirhandsinmemoryofallthiscruelandsuppressedsuffering;and,perhaps,alsothisshortembracemayinfuseintheirveinsalittleofthisthrillwhichtheywouldnothaveknownwithoutit,andwillgivetothosetwodeadsouls,broughttolifeinasecond,therapidanddivinesensationofthisintoxication,ofthismadnesswhichgivestoloversmorehappinessinaninstantthanothermencangatherduringawholelifetime!
THETHIEF
Whileapparentlythinkingofsomethingelse,Dr.SorbierhadbeenlisteningquietlytothoseamazingaccountsofburglariesanddaringdeedsthatmighthavebeentakenfromthetrialofCartouche.
"Assuredly,"heexclaimed,"assuredly,Iknowofnovilerfaultnoranymeaneractionthantoattackagirl’sinnocence,tocorrupther,toprofitbyamomentofunconsciousweaknessandofmadness,whenherheartisbeatinglikethatofafrightenedfawn,andherpurelipsseekthoseofhertempter;whensheabandonsherselfwithoutthinkingoftheirremediablestain,norofherfall,norofthemorrow.
"Themanwhohasbroughtthisaboutslowly,viciously,whocantellwithwhatscienceofevil,andwho,insuchacase,hasnotsteadinessandself—restraintenoughtoquenchthatflamebysomeicywords,whohasnotsenseenoughfortwo,whocannotrecoverhisself—possessionandmastertherunawaybrutewithinhim,andwholoseshisheadontheedgeoftheprecipiceoverwhichsheisgoingtofall,isascontemptibleasanymanwhobreaksopenalock,orasanyrascalonthelookoutforahouseleftdefencelessandunprotectedorforsomeeasyanddishoneststrokeofbusiness,orasthatthiefwhosevariousexploitsyouhavejustrelatedtous.
"I,formypart,utterlyrefusetoabsolvehim,evenwhenextenuatingcircumstancespleadinhisfavor,evenwhenheiscarryingonadangerousflirtation,inwhichamantriesinvaintokeephisbalance,nottoexceedthelimitsofthegame,anymorethanatlawntennis;evenwhenthepartsareinvertedandaman’sadversaryissomeprecocious,curious,seductivegirl,whoshowsyouimmediatelythatshehasnothingtolearnandnothingtoexperience,exceptthelastchapteroflove,oneofthosegirlsfromwhommayfatealwayspreserveoursons,andwhomapsychologicalnovelwriterhaschristened’TheSemi—Virgins.’
"Itis,ofcourse,difficultandpainfulforthatcoarseandunfathomablevanitywhichischaracteristicofeveryman,andwhichmightbecalled’malism’,nottostirsuchacharmingfire,difficulttoacttheJosephandthefool,toturnawayhiseyes,and,asitwere,toputwaxintohisears,likethecompanionsofUlysseswhentheywereattractedbythedivine,seductivesongsoftheSirens,difficultonlytotouchthatprettytablecoveredwithaperfectlynewcloth,atwhichyouareinvitedtotakeaseatbeforeanyoneelse,insuchasuggestivevoice,andarerequestedtoquenchyourthirstandtotastethatnewwine,whosefreshandstrangeflavoryouwillneverforget.Butwhowouldhesitatetoexercisesuchself—restraintif,whenherapidlyexamineshisconscience,inoneofthoseinstinctivereturnstohissoberselfinwhichamanthinksclearlyandrecovershishead,heweretomeasurethegravityofhisfault,considerit,thinkofitsconsequences,ofthereprisals,oftheuneasinesswhichhewouldalwaysfeelinthefuture,andwhichwoulddestroythereposeandhappinessofhislife?
"Youmayguessthatbehindallthesemoralreflections,suchasagraybeardlikemyselfmayindulgein,thereisastoryhidden,and,sadasitis,Iamsureitwillinterestyouonaccountofthestrangeheroismitshows."
Hewassilentforafewmoments,asiftoclassifyhisrecollections,and,withhiselbowsrestingonthearmsofhiseasy—chairandhiseyeslookingintospace,hecontinuedintheslowvoiceofahospitalprofessorwhoisexplainingacasetohisclassofmedicalstudents,atabedside:
"Hewasoneofthosemenwho,asourgrandfathersusedtosay,nevermetwithacruelwoman,thetypeoftheadventurousknightwhowasalwaysforaging,whohadsomethingofthescampabouthim,butwhodespiseddangerandwasboldeventorashness.Hewasardentinthepursuitofpleasure,andhadanirresistiblecharmabouthim,oneofthosemeninwhomweexcusethegreatestexcessesasthemostnaturalthingsintheworld.Hehadrunthroughallhismoneyatgamblingandwithprettygirls,andsobecame,asitwere,asoldieroffortune.Heamusedhimselfwheneverandhoweverhecould,andwasatthattimequarteredatVersailles.
"Iknewhimtotheverydepthsofhischildlikeheart,whichwasonlytooeasilyseenthroughandsounded,andIlovedhimassomeoldbachelorunclelovesanephewwhoplayshimtricks,butwhoknowshowtocoaxhim.
Hehadmademehisconfidantratherthanhisadviser,keptmeinformedofhisslightestpranks,thoughhealwayspretendedtobespeakingaboutoneofhisfriends,andnotabouthimself;andImustconfessthathisyouthfulimpetuosity,hiscarelessgaiety,andhisamorousardorsometimesdistractedmythoughtsandmademeenvythehandsome,vigorousyoungfellowwhowassohappyatbeingalive,thatIhadnotthecouragetocheckhim,toshowhimtherightroad,andtocallouttohim:’Takecare!’aschildrendoatblindman’sbuff.
"Andoneday,afteroneofthoseinterminablecotillons,wherethecouplesdonotleaveeachotherforhours,andcandisappeartogetherwithoutanybodythinkingofnoticingthem,thepoorfellowatlastdiscoveredwhatlovewas,thatreallovewhichtakesupitsabodeintheverycentreoftheheartandinthebrain,andisproudofbeingthere,andwhichruleslikeasovereignandatyrannousmaster,andhebecamedesperatelyenamoredofaprettybutbadlybroughtupgirl,whowasasdisquietingandwaywardasshewaspretty.
"Shelovedhim,however,orrathersheidolizedhimdespotically,madly,withallherenrapturedsoulandallherbeing.Lefttodoasshepleasedbyimprudentandfrivolousparents,sufferingfromneurosis,inconsequenceoftheunwholesomefriendshipswhichshecontractedattheconventschool,instructedbywhatshesawandheardandknewwasgoingonaroundher,inspiteofherdeceitfulandartificialconduct,knowingthatneitherherfathernorhermother,whowereveryproudoftheirraceaswellasavaricious,wouldeveragreetolethermarrythemanwhomshehadtakenalikingto,thathandsomefellowwhohadlittlebesidesvision,ideasanddebts,andwhobelongedtothemiddle—class,shelaidasideallscruples,thoughtofnothingbutofbecominghis,nomatterwhatmightbethecost.
"Bydegrees,theunfortunateman’sstrengthgaveway,hisheartsoftened,andheallowedhimselftobecarriedawaybythatcurrentwhichbuffetedhim,surroundedhim,andlefthimontheshorelikeawaifandastray.
"Theywrotelettersfullofmadnesstoeachother,andnotadaypassedwithouttheirmeeting,eitheraccidentally,asitseemed,oratpartiesandballs.Shehadyieldedherlipstohiminlong,ardentcaresses,whichhadsealedtheircompactofmutualpassion."
Thedoctorstopped,andhiseyessuddenlyfilledwithtears,astheseformertroublescamebacktohismind;andthen,inahoarsevoice,hewenton,fullofthehorrorofwhathewasgoingtorelate:
"Formonthshescaledthegardenwall,and,holdinghisbreathandlisteningfortheslightestnoise,likeaburglarwhoisgoingtobreakintoahouse,hewentinbytheservants’entrance,whichshehadleftopen,slunkbarefootdownalongpassageandupthebroadstaircase,whichcreakedoccasionally,tothesecondstory,wherehissweetheart’sroomwas,andstayedthereforhours.
"Onenight,whenitwasdarkerthanusual,andhewashurryinglestheshouldbelaterthanthetimeagreedon,heknockedupagainstapieceoffurnitureintheanteroomandupsetit.Itsohappenedthatthegirl’smotherhadnotgonetosleep,eitherbecauseshehadasickheadache,orelsebecauseshehadsatuplateoversomenovel,and,frightenedatthatunusualnoisewhichdisturbedthesilenceofthehouse,shejumpedoutofbed,openedthedoor,sawsomeoneindistinctlyrunningawayandkeepingclosetothewall,and,immediatelythinkingthattherewereburglarsinthehouse,shearousedherhusbandandtheservantsbyherfranticscreams.Theunfortunatemanunderstoodthesituation;and,seeingwhataterriblefixhewasin,andpreferringtobetakenforacommonthieftodishonoringhisadoredone’sname,heranintothedrawing—room,feltonthetablesandwhat—nots,filledhispocketsatrandomwithvaluablebric—a—brac,andthencowereddownbehindthegrandpiano,whichbarredthecornerofalargeroom.
"Theservants,whohadruninwithlightedcandles,foundhim,and,overwhelminghimwithabuse,seizedhimbythecollaranddraggedhim,pantingandapparentlyhalfdeadwithshameandterror,tothenearestpolicestation.Hedefendedhimselfwithintentionalawkwardnesswhenhewasbroughtupfortrial,keptuphispartwiththemostperfectself—
possessionandwithoutanysignsofthedespairandanguishthathefeltinhisheart,and,condemnedanddegradedandmadetosuffermartyrdominhishonorasamanandasoldier——hewasanofficer——hedidnotprotest,butwenttoprisonasoneofthosecriminalswhomsocietygetsridoflikenoxiousvermin.
"Hediedthereofmiseryandofbitternessofspirit,withthenameofthefair—hairedidol,forwhomhehadsacrificedhimself,onhislips,asifithadbeenanecstaticprayer,andheintrustedhiswill’tothepriestwhoadministeredextremeunctiontohim,andrequestedhimtogiveittome.Init,withoutmentioninganybody,andwithoutintheleastliftingtheveil,heatlastexplainedtheenigma,andclearedhimselfofthoseaccusationstheterribleburdenofwhichhehadborneuntilhislastbreath.
"Ihavealwaysthoughtmyself,thoughIdonotknowwhy,thatthegirlmarriedandhadseveralcharmingchildren,whomshebroughtupwiththeausterestrictnessandintheseriouspietyofformerdays!"
CLAIRDELUNE
AbbeMarignan’smartialnamesuitedhimwell.Hewasatall,thinpriest,fanatic,excitable,yetupright.Allhisbeliefswerefixed,nevervarying.HebelievedsincerelythatheknewhisGod,understoodHisplans,desiresandintentions.
Whenhewalkedwithlongstridesalongthegardenwalkofhislittlecountryparsonage,hewouldsometimesaskhimselfthequestion:"WhyhasGoddonethis?"Andhewoulddwellonthiscontinually,puttinghimselfintheplaceofGod,andhealmostinvariablyfoundananswer.Hewouldneverhavecriedoutinanoutburstofpioushumility:"Thyways,OLord,arepastfindingout."
Hesaidtohimself:"IamtheservantofGod;itisrightformetoknowthereasonofHisdeeds,ortoguessitifIdonotknowit."
Everythinginnatureseemedtohimtohavebeencreatedinaccordancewithanadmirableandabsolutelogic.The"whys"and"becauses"alwaysbalanced.Dawnwasgiventomakeourawakeningpleasant,thedaystoripentheharvest,therainstomoistenit,theeveningsforpreparationforslumber,andthedarknightsforsleep.
Thefourseasonscorrespondedperfectlytotheneedsofagriculture,andnosuspicionhadevercometothepriestofthefactthatnaturehasnointentions;that,onthecontrary,everythingwhichexistsmustconformtotheharddemandsofseasons,climatesandmatter.
Buthehatedwoman——hatedherunconsciously,anddespisedherbyinstinct.HeoftenrepeatedthewordsofChrist:"Woman,whathaveItodowiththee?"andhewouldadd:"ItseemsasthoughGod,Himself,weredissatisfiedwiththisworkofHis."Shewasthetempterwholedthefirstmanastray,andwhosincethenhadeverbeenbusywithherworkofdamnation,thefeeblecreature,dangerousandmysteriouslyaffectingone.
Andevenmorethantheirsinfulbodies,hehatedtheirlovinghearts.
Hehadoftenfelttheirtendernessdirectedtowardhimself,andthoughheknewthathewasinvulnerable,hegrewangryatthisneedoflovethatisalwaysvibratinginthem.
Accordingtohisbelief,Godhadcreatedwomanforthesolepurposeoftemptingandtestingman.Onemustnotapproachherwithoutdefensiveprecautionsandfearofpossiblesnares.Shewas,indeed,justlikeasnare,withherlipsopenandherarmsstretchedouttoman.
Hehadnoindulgenceexceptfornuns,whomtheirvowshadrenderedinoffensive;buthewassternwiththem,nevertheless,becausehefeltthatatthebottomoftheirfetteredandhumbleheartstheeverlastingtendernesswasburningbrightly——thattendernesswhichwasshowneventohim,apriest.
Hefeltthiscursedtenderness,evenintheirdocility,inthelowtonesoftheirvoiceswhenspeakingtohim,intheirloweredeyes,andintheirresignedtearswhenhereprovedthemroughly.Andhewouldshakehiscassockonleavingtheconventdoors,andwalkoff,lengtheninghisstrideasthoughflyingfromdanger.
Hehadaniecewholivedwithhermotherinalittlehousenearhim.Hewasbentuponmakingasisterofcharityofher.
Shewasapretty,brainlessmadcap.Whentheabbepreachedshelaughed,andwhenhewasangrywithhershewouldgivehimahug,drawinghimtoherheart,whilehesoughtunconsciouslytoreleasehimselffromthisembracewhichneverthelessfilledhimwithasweetpleasure,awakeninginhisdepthsthesensationofpaternitywhichslumbersineveryman.
Often,whenwalkingbyherside,alongthecountryroad,hewouldspeaktoherofGod,ofhisGod.Sheneverlistenedtohim,butlookedaboutheratthesky,thegrassandflowers,andonecouldseethejoyoflifesparklinginhereyes.Sometimesshewoulddartforwardtocatchsomeflyingcreature,cryingoutasshebroughtitback:"Look,uncle,howprettyitis!Iwanttohugit!"Andthisdesireto"hug"fliesorlilacblossomsdisquieted,angered,androusedthepriest,whosaw,eveninthis,theineradicabletendernessthatisalwaysbuddinginwomen’shearts.
Thentherecameadaywhenthesexton’swife,whokepthouseforAbbeMarignan,toldhim,withcaution,thathisniecehadalover.