下载辰思小说免费APP
Inthedistancetherewasagroupofwhite,unequal,flat,orpointedmountainsummits,whichglistenedinthesun;theMischabelwithitstwopeaks,thehugegroupoftheWeisshorn,theheavyBrunegghorn,theloftyandformidablepyramidofMountCervin,thatslayerofmen,andtheDent—
Blanche,thatmonstrouscoquette.
Thenbeneaththem,inatremendoushole,atthebottomofaterrificabyss,theyperceivedLoeche,wherehouseslookedasgrainsofsandwhichhadbeenthrownintothatenormouscrevicethatisendedandclosedbytheGemmiandwhichopens,downbelow,ontheRhone.
Themulestoppedattheedgeofthepath,whichwindsandturnscontinually,doublingbackward,then,fantasticallyandstrangely,alongthesideofthemountainasfarasthealmostinvisiblelittlevillageatitsfeet.Thewomenjumpedintothesnowandthetwooldmenjoinedthem."Well,"fatherHausersaid,"good—by,andkeepupyourspiritstillnextyear,myfriends,"andoldHarireplied:"Tillnextyear."
TheyembracedeachotherandthenMadameHauserinherturnofferedhercheek,andthegirldidthesame.
WhenUlrichKunsi’sturncame,hewhisperedinLouise’sear,"Donotforgetthoseupyonder,"andshereplied,"No,"insuchalowvoicethatheguessedwhatshehadsaidwithouthearingit."Well,adieu,"JeanHauserrepeated,"anddon’tfallill."Andgoingbeforethetwowomen,hecommencedthedescent,andsoonallthreedisappearedatthefirstturnintheroad,whilethetwomenreturnedtotheinnatSchwarenbach.
Theywalkedslowly,sidebyside,withoutspeaking.Itwasover,andtheywouldbealonetogetherforfourorfivemonths.ThenGaspardHaribegantorelatehislifelastwinter.HehadremainedwithMichaelCanol,whowastoooldnowtostandit,foranaccidentmighthappenduringthatlongsolitude.Theyhadnotbeendull,however;theonlythingwastomakeupone’smindtoitfromthefirst,andintheendonewouldfindplentyofdistraction,gamesandothermeansofwhilingawaythetime.
UlrichKunsilistenedtohimwithhiseyesontheground,forinhisthoughtshewasfollowingthosewhoweredescendingtothevillage.Theysooncameinsightoftheinn,whichwas,however,scarcelyvisible,sosmalldiditlook,ablackspeckatthefootofthatenormousbillowofsnow,andwhentheyopenedthedoorSam,thegreatcurlydog,begantoromproundthem.
"Come,myboy,"oldGaspardsaid,"wehavenowomennow,sowemustgetourowndinnerready.Goandpeelthepotatoes."Andtheybothsatdownonwoodenstoolsandbegantopreparethesoup.
ThenextmorningseemedverylongtoKunsi.OldHarismokedandspatonthehearth,whiletheyoungmanlookedoutofthewindowatthesnow—
coveredmountainoppositethehouse.
Intheafternoonhewentout,andgoingoveryesterday’sgroundagain,helookedforthetracesofthemulethathadcarriedthetwowomen.ThenwhenhehadreachedtheGemmiPass,helaidhimselfdownonhisstomachandlookedatLoeche.
Thevillage,initsrockypit,wasnotyetburiedunderthesnow,fromwhichitwasshelteredbythepinewoodswhichprotecteditonallsides.
Itslowhouseslookedlikepavingstonesinalargemeadowfromabove.
Hauser’slittledaughterwastherenowinoneofthosegray—coloredhouses.Inwhich?UlrichKunsiwastoofarawaytobeabletomakethemoutseparately.Howhewouldhavelikedtogodownwhilehewasyetable!
ButthesunhaddisappearedbehindtheloftycrestoftheWildstrubelandtheyoungmanreturnedtothechalet.DaddyHariwassmoking,andwhenhesawhismatecomeinheproposedagameofcardstohim,andtheysatdownoppositeeachother,oneithersideofthetable.Theyplayedforalongtimeasimplegamecalledbrisqueandthentheyhadsupperandwenttobed.
Thefollowingdayswerelikethefirst,brightandcold,withoutanyfreshsnow.OldGaspardspenthisafternoonsinwatchingtheeaglesandotherrarebirdswhichventuredonthosefrozenheights,whileUlrichreturnedregularlytotheGemmiPasstolookatthevillage.Thentheyplayedcards,diceordominoesandlostandwonatrifle,justtocreateaninterestinthegame.
OnemorningHari,whowasupfirst,calledhiscompanion.Amoving,deepandlightcloudofwhitespraywasfallingonthemnoiselesslyandwasbydegreesburyingthemunderathick,heavycoverletoffoam.Thatlastedfourdaysandfournights.Itwasnecessarytofreethedoorandthewindows,todigoutapassageandtocutstepstogetoverthisfrozenpowder,whichatwelvehours’frosthadmadeashardasthegraniteofthemoraines.
Theylivedlikeprisonersanddidnotventureoutsidetheirabode.Theyhaddividedtheirduties,whichtheyperformedregularly.UlrichKunsiundertookthescouring,washingandeverythingthatbelongedtocleanliness.HealsochoppedupthewoodwhileGaspardHarididthecookingandattendedtothefire.Theirregularandmonotonousworkwasinterruptedbylonggamesatcardsordice,andtheyneverquarrelled,butwerealwayscalmandplacid.Theywereneverseenimpatientorill—
humored,nordidtheyeverusehardwords,fortheyhadlaidinastockofpatiencefortheirwinteringonthetopofthemountain.
SometimesoldGaspardtookhisrifleandwentafterchamois,andoccasionallyhekilledone.ThentherewasafeastintheinnatSchwarenbachandtheyrevelledinfreshmeat.Onemorninghewentoutasusual.Thethermometeroutsidemarkedeighteendegreesoffrost,andasthesunhadnotyetrisen,thehunterhopedtosurprisetheanimalsattheapproachestotheWildstrubel,andUlrich,beingalone,remainedinbeduntilteno’clock.Hewasofasleepynature,buthewouldnothavedaredtogivewaylikethattohisinclinationinthepresenceoftheoldguide,whowaseveranearlyriser.HebreakfastedleisurelywithSam,whoalsospenthisdaysandnightsinsleepinginfrontofthefire;thenhefeltlow—spiritedandevenfrightenedatthesolitude,andwas—seizedbyalongingforhisdailygameofcards,asoneisbythecravingofaconfirmedhabit,andsohewentouttomeethiscompanion,whowastoreturnatfouro’clock.
Thesnowhadlevelledthewholedeepvalley,filledupthecrevasses,obliteratedallsignsofthetwolakesandcoveredtherocks,sothatbetweenthehighsummitstherewasnothingbutanimmense,white,regular,dazzlingandfrozensurface.ForthreeweeksUlrichhadnotbeentotheedgeoftheprecipicefromwhichhehadlookeddownonthevillage,andhewantedtogotherebeforeclimbingtheslopeswhichledtoWildstrubel.Loechewasnowalsocoveredbythesnowandthehousescouldscarcelybedistinguished,coveredastheywerebythatwhitecloak.
Then,turningtotheright,hereachedtheLoemmernglacier.Hewentalongwithamountaineer’slongstrides,strikingthesnow,whichwasashardasarock,withhisironpointedstick,andwithhispiercingeyeshelookedforthelittleblack,movingspeckinthedistance,onthatenormous,whiteexpanse.
Whenhereachedtheendoftheglacierhestoppedandaskedhimselfwhethertheoldmanhadtakenthatroad,andthenhebegantowalkalongthemoraineswithrapidanduneasysteps.Thedaywasdeclining,thesnowwasassumingarosytint,andadry,frozenwindblewinroughgustsoveritscrystalsurface.Ulrichutteredalong,shrill,vibratingcall.
Hisvoicespedthroughthedeathlikesilenceinwhichthemountainsweresleeping;itreachedthedistance,acrossprofoundandmotionlesswavesofglacialfoam,likethecryofabirdacrossthewavesofthesea.
Thenitdiedawayandnothingansweredhim.
Hebegantowalkagain.Thesunhadsunkyonderbehindthemountaintops,whichwerestillpurplewiththereflectionfromthesky,butthedepthsofthevalleywerebecominggray,andsuddenlytheyoungmanfeltfrightened.Itseemedtohimasifthesilence,thecold,thesolitude,thewinterdeathofthesemountainsweretakingpossessionofhim,weregoingtostopandtofreezehisblood,tomakehislimbsgrowstiffandtoturnhimintoamotionlessandfrozenobject,andhesetoffrunning,fleeingtowardhisdwelling.Theoldman,hethought,wouldhavereturnedduringhisabsence.Hehadtakenanotherroad;hewould,nodoubt,besittingbeforethefire,withadeadchamoisathisfeet.
Hesooncameinsightoftheinn,butnosmokerosefromit.Ulrichwalkedfasterandopenedthedoor.Samranuptohimtogreethim,butGaspardHarihadnotreturned.Kunsi,inhisalarm,turnedroundsuddenly,asifhehadexpectedtofindhiscomradehiddeninacorner.
Thenherelightedthefireandmadethesoup,hopingeverymomenttoseetheoldmancomein.Fromtimetotimehewentouttoseeifhewerenotcoming.Itwasquitenightnow,thatwan,lividnightofthemountains,lightedbyathin,yellowcrescentmoon,justdisappearingbehindthemountaintops.
Thentheyoungmanwentinandsatdowntowarmhishandsandfeet,whilehepicturedtohimselfeverypossibleaccident.Gaspardmighthavebrokenaleg,havefallenintoacrevasse,takenafalsestepanddislocatedhisankle.And,perhaps,hewaslyingonthesnow,overcomeandstiffwiththecold,inagonyofmind,lostand,perhaps,shoutingforhelp,callingwithallhismightinthesilenceofthenight
Butwhere?Themountainwassovast,sorugged,sodangerousinplaces,especiallyatthattimeoftheyear,thatitwouldhaverequiredtenortwentyguidestowalkforaweekinalldirectionstofindamaninthatimmensespace.UlrichKunsi,however,madeuphismindtosetoutwithSamifGasparddidnotreturnbyoneinthemorning,andhemadehispreparations.
Heputprovisionsfortwodaysintoabag,tookhissteelclimbingiron,tiedalong,thin,strongroperoundhiswaist,andlookedtoseethathisironshodstickandhisaxe,whichservedtocutstepsintheice,wereinorder.Thenhewaited.Thefirewasburningonthehearth,thegreatdogwassnoringinfrontofit,andtheclockwasticking,asregularlyasaheartbeating,initsresoundingwoodencase.
Hewaited,withhisearsonthealertfordistantsounds,andheshiveredwhenthewindblewagainsttheroofandthewalls.Itstrucktwelveandhetrembled:Then,frightenedandshivering,heputsomewateronthefire,sothathemighthavesomehotcoffeebeforestarting,andwhentheclockstruckonehegotup,wokeSam,openedthedoorandwentoffinthedirectionoftheWildstrubel.Forfivehourshemounted,scalingtherocksbymeansofhisclimbingirons,cuttingintotheice,advancingcontinually,andoccasionallyhaulingupthedog,whoremainedbelowatthefootofsomeslopethatwastoosteepforhim,bymeansoftherope.
Itwasaboutsixo’clockwhenhereachedoneofthesummitstowhicholdGaspardoftencameafterchamois,andhewaitedtillitshouldbedaylight.
Theskywasgrowingpaleoverhead,andastrangelight,springingnobodycouldtellwhence,suddenlyilluminatedtheimmenseoceanofpalemountainsummits,whichextendedforahundredleaguesaroundhim.Onemighthavesaidthatthisvaguebrightnessarosefromthesnowitselfandspreadabroadinspace.Bydegreesthehighestdistantsummitsassumedadelicate,pinkfleshcolor,andtheredsunappearedbehindtheponderousgiantsoftheBerneseAlps.
UlrichKunsisetoffagain,walkinglikeahunter,bentover,lookingfortracks,andsayingtohisdog:"Seek,oldfellow,seek!"
Hewasdescendingthemountainnow,scanningthedepthsclosely,andfromtimetotimeshouting,utteringaloud,prolongedcry,whichsoondiedawayinthatsilentvastness.Thenheputhiseartothegroundtolisten.Hethoughthecoulddistinguishavoice,andhebegantorunandshoutedagain,butheheardnothingmoreandsatdown,exhaustedandindespair.TowardmiddayhebreakfastedandgaveSam,whowasastiredashimself,somethingtoeatalso,andthenherecommencedhissearch.
Wheneveningcamehewasstillwalking,andhehadwalkedmorethanthirtymilesoverthemountains.Ashewastoofarawaytoreturnhomeandtootiredtodraghimselfalonganyfurther,hedugaholeinthesnowandcrouchedinitwithhisdogunderablanketwhichhehadbroughtwithhim.Andthemanandthedoglaysidebyside,tryingtokeepwarm,butfrozentothemarrownevertheless.Ulrichscarcelyslept,hismindhauntedbyvisionsandhislimbsshakingwithcold.
Daywasbreakingwhenhegotup.Hislegswereasstiffasironbarsandhisspiritssolowthathewasreadytocrywithanguish,whilehisheartwasbeatingsothathealmostfelloverwithagitation,whenhethoughtheheardanoise.
Suddenlyheimaginedthathealsowasgoingtodieofcoldinthemidstofthisvastsolitude,andtheterrorofsuchadeathrousedhisenergiesandgavehimrenewedvigor.Hewasdescendingtowardtheinn,fallingdownandgettingupagain,andfollowedatadistancebySam,whowaslimpingonthreelegs,andtheydidnotreachSchwarenbachuntilfouro’clockintheafternoon.Thehousewasemptyandtheyoungmanmadeafire,hadsomethingtoeatandwenttosleep,sowornoutthathedidnotthinkofanythingmore.
Hesleptforalongtime,foraverylongtime,anirresistiblesleep.
Butsuddenlyavoice,acry,aname,"Ulrich!"arousedhimfromhisprofoundtorporandmadehimsitupinbed.Hadhebeendreaming?Wasitoneofthosestrangeappealswhichcrossthedreamsofdisquietedminds?No,hehearditstill,thatreverberatingcry—whichhadenteredhisearsandremainedinhisflesh—tothetipsofhissinewyfingers.
Certainlysomebodyhadcriedoutandcalled"Ulrich!"Therewassomebodytherenearthehouse,therecouldbenodoubtofthat,andheopenedthedoorandshouted,"Isityou,Gaspard?"withallthestrengthofhislungs.Buttherewasnoreply,nomurmur,nogroan,nothing.Itwasquitedarkandthesnowlookedwan.
Thewindhadrisen,thaticywindthatcrackstherocksandleavesnothingaliveonthosedesertedheights,anditcameinsuddengusts,whichweremoreparchingandmoredeadlythantheburningwindofthedesert,andagainUlrichshouted:"Gaspard!Gaspard!Gaspard."Andthenhewaitedagain.Everythingwassilentonthemountain.
Thenheshookwithterrorandwithaboundhewasinsidetheinn,whenheshutandboltedthedoor,andthenhefellintoachairtremblingallover,forhefeltcertainthathiscomradehadcalledhimatthemomenthewasexpiring.
Hewassureofthat,assureasoneisofbeingaliveorofeatingapieceofbread.OldGaspardHarihadbeendyingfortwodaysandthreenightssomewhere,insomehole,inoneofthosedeep,untroddenravineswhosewhitenessismoresinisterthansubterraneandarkness.Hehadbeendyingfortwodaysandthreenightsandbehadjustthendied,thinkingofhiscomrade.Hissoul,almostbeforeitwasreleased,hadtakenitsflighttotheinnwhereUlrichwassleeping,andithadcalledhimbythatterribleandmysteriouspowerwhichthespiritsofthedeadhavetohaunttheliving.Thatvoicelesssoulhadcriedtotheworn—outsoulofthesleeper;ithaduttereditslastfarewell,oritsreproach,oritscurseonthemanwhohadnotsearchedcarefullyenough.
AndUlrichfeltthatitwasthere,quiteclosetohim,behindthewall,behindthedoorwhichbehadjustfastened.Itwaswanderingabout,likeanightbirdwhichlightlytouchesalightedwindowwithhiswings,andtheterrifiedyoungmanwasreadytoscreamwithhorror.Hewantedtorunaway,butdidnotdaretogoout;hedidnotdare,andheshouldneverdaretodoitinthefuture,forthatphantomwouldremaintheredayandnight,roundtheinn,aslongastheoldman’sbodywasnotrecoveredandhadnotbeendepositedintheconsecratedearthofachurchyard.
WhenitwasdaylightKunsirecoveredsomeofhiscourageatthereturnofthebrightsun.Hepreparedhismeal,gavehisdogsomefoodandthenremainedmotionlessonachair,torturedatheartashethoughtoftheoldmanlyingonthesnow,andthen,assoonasnightoncemorecoveredthemountains,newterrorsassailedhim.Henowwalkedupanddownthedarkkitchen,whichwasscarcelylightedbytheflameofonecandle,andhewalkedfromoneendofittotheotherwithgreatstrides,listening,listeningwhethertheterriblecryoftheothernightwouldagainbreakthedrearysilenceoutside.Hefelthimselfalone,unhappyman,asnomanhadeverbeenalonebefore!HewasaloneinthisimmensedesertofSnow,alonefivethousandfeetabovetheinhabitedearth,abovehumanhabitation,abovethatstirring,noisy,palpitatinglife,aloneunderanicysky!Amadlongingimpelledhimtorunaway,nomatterwhere,togetdowntoLoechebyflinginghimselfovertheprecipice;buthedidnotevendaretoopenthedoor,ashefeltsurethattheother,thedeadman,wouldbarhisroad,sothathemightnotbeobligedtoremainuptherealone:
Towardmidnight,tiredwithwalking,wornoutbygriefandfear,heatlastfellintoadozeinhischair,forhewasafraidofhisbedasoneisofahauntedspot.Butsuddenlythestridentcryoftheothereveningpiercedhisears,anditwassoshrillthatUlrichstretchedouthisarmstorepulsetheghost,andhefellbackwardwithhischair.
Sam,whowasawakenedbythenoise,begantohowlasfrighteneddogsdohowl,andhewalkedallaboutthehousetryingtofindoutwherethedangercamefrom.Whenhegottothedoor,hesniffedbeneathit,smellingvigorously,withhiscoatbristlingandhistailstiff,whilehegrowledangrily.Kunsi,whowasterrified,jumpedup,and,holdinghischairbyoneleg,hecried:"Don’tcomein,don’tcomein,orIshallkillyou."Andthedog,excitedbythisthreat,barkedangrilyatthatinvisibleenemywhodefiedhismaster’svoice.Bydegrees,however,hequieteddownandcamebackandstretchedhimselfinfrontofthefire,buthewasuneasyandkepthisheadupandgrowledbetweenhisteeth.
Ulrich,inturn,recoveredhissenses,butashefeltfaintwithterror,hewentandgotabottleofbrandyoutofthesideboard,andhedrankoffseveralglasses,oneafteranther,atagulp.Hisideasbecamevague,hiscouragerevivedandafeverishglowranthroughhisveins.
Heatescarcelyanythingthenextdayandlimitedhimselftoalcohol,andsohelivedforseveraldays,likeadrunkenbrute.AssoonashethoughtofGaspardHari,hebegantodrinkagain,andwentondrinkinguntilhefelltotheground,overcomebyintoxication.Andthereheremainedlyingonhisface,deaddrunk,hislimbsbenumbed,andsnoringloudly.Butscarcelyhadhedigestedthemaddeningandburningliquorthanthesamecry,"Ulrich!"wokehimlikeabulletpiercinghisbrain,andhegotup,stillstaggering,stretchingouthishandstosavehimselffromfalling,andcallingtoSamtohelphim.Andthedog,whoappearedtobegoingmadlikehismaster,rushedtothedoor,scratcheditwithhisclawsandgnaweditwithhislongwhiteteeth,whiletheyoungman,withhisheadthrownbackdrankthebrandyindraughts,asifithadbeencoldwater,sothatitmightbyandbysendhisthoughts,hisfranticterror,andhismemorytosleepagain.
Inthreeweekshehadconsumedallhisstockofardentspirits.Buthiscontinualdrunkennessonlylulledhisterror,whichawokemorefuriouslythaneverassoonasitwasimpossibleforhimtocalmit.Hisfixedideathen,whichhadbeenintensifiedbyamonthofdrunkenness,andwhichwascontinuallyincreasinginhisabsolutesolitude,penetratedhimlikeagimlet.Henowwalkedaboutthehouselikeawildbeastinitscage,puttinghiseartothedoortolisteniftheotherwerethereanddefyinghimthroughthewall.Then,assoonashedozed,overcomebyfatigue,heheardthevoicewhichmadehimleaptohisfeet.
Atlastonenight,ascowardsdowhendriventoextremities,hesprangtothedoorandopenedit,toseewhowascallinghimandtoforcehimtokeepquiet,butsuchagustofcoldwindblewintohisfacethatitchilledhimtothebone,andheclosedandboltedthedooragainimmediately,withoutnoticingthatSamhadrushedout.Then,ashewasshiveringwithcold,hethrewsomewoodonthefireandsatdowninfrontofittowarmhimself,butsuddenlyhestarted,forsomebodywasscratchingatthewallandcrying.Indesperationhecalledout:"Goaway!"butwasansweredbyanotherlong,sorrowfulwail.
Thenallhisremainingsensesforsookhimfromsheerfright.Herepeated:"Goaway!"andturnedroundtotrytofindsomecornerinwhichtohide,whiletheotherpersonwentroundthehousestillcryingandrubbingagainstthewall.Ulrichwenttotheoaksideboard,whichwasfullofplatesanddishesandofprovisions,andliftingitupwithsuperhumanstrength,hedraggedittothedoor,soastoformabarricade.Thenpilingupalltherestofthefurniture,themattresses,palliassesandchairs,hestoppedupthewindowsasonedoeswhenassailedbyanenemy.
Butthepersonoutsidenowutteredlong,plaintive,mournfulgroans,towhichtheyoungmanrepliedbysimilargroans,andthusdaysandnightspassedwithouttheirceasingtohowlateachother.Theonewascontinuallywalkingroundthehouseandscrapedthewallswithhisnailssovigorouslythatitseemedasifhewishedtodestroythem,whiletheother,inside,followedallhismovements,stoopingdownandholdinghiseartothewallsandreplyingtoallhisappealswithterriblecries.
Oneevening,however,Ulrichheardnothingmore,andhesatdown,soovercomebyfatigue,thathewenttosleepimmediatelyandawokeinthemorningwithoutathought,withoutanyrecollectionofwhathadhappened,justasifhisheadhadbeenemptiedduringhisheavysleep,buthefelthungry,andheate.
ThewinterwasoverandtheGemmiPasswaspracticableagain,sotheHauserfamilystartedofftoreturntotheirinn.Assoonastheyhadreachedthetopoftheascentthewomenmountedtheirmuleandspokeaboutthetwomenwhomtheywouldmeetagainshortly.Theywere,indeed,rathersurprisedthatneitherofthemhadcomedownafewdaysbefore,assoonastheroadwasopen,inordertotellthemallabouttheirlongwintersojourn.Atlast,however,theysawtheinn,stillcoveredwithsnow,likeaquilt.Thedoorandthewindowwereclosed,butalittlesmokewascomingoutofthechimney,whichreassuredoldHauser.Ongoinguptothedoor,however,hesawtheskeletonofananimalwhichhadbeentorntopiecesbytheeagles,alargeskeletonlyingonitsside.
Theyalllookedcloseatitandthemothersaid:
"ThatmustbeSam,"andthensheshouted:"Hi,Gaspard!"Acryfromtheinteriorofthehouseansweredherandasharpcrythatonemighthavethoughtsomeanimalhadutteredit.OldHauserrepeated,"Hi,Gaspard!"
andtheyheardanothercrysimilartothefirst.
Thenthethreemen,thefatherandthetwosons,triedtoopenthedoor,butitresistedtheirefforts.Fromtheemptycow—stalltheytookabeamtoserveasabattering—ramandhurleditagainstthedoorwithalltheirmight.Thewoodgavewayandtheboardsflewintosplinters.Thenthehousewasshakenbyaloudvoice,andinside,behindthesideboardwhichwasoverturned,theysawamanstandingupright,withhishairfallingonhisshouldersandabearddescendingtofallingonhisshouldersandabearddescendingto
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George’sfatherwassittinginanironchair,watchinghislittlesonwithconcentratedaffectionandattention,aslittleGeorgepiledupthesandintoheapsduringoneoftheirwalks.Hewouldtakeupthesandwithbothhands,makeamoundofit,andputachestnutleafontop.
Hisfathersawnoonebuthiminthatpublicparkfullofpeople.
ThesunwasjustdisappearingbehindtheroofsoftheRueSaint—Lazare,butstillsheditsraysobliquelyonthatlittle,overdressedcrowd.
Thechestnuttreeswerelightedupbyitsyellowrays,andthethreefountainsbeforetheloftyporchofthechurchhadtheappearanceofliquidsilver.
MonsieurParent,accidentallylookingupatthechurchclock,sawthathewasfiveminuteslate.Hegotup,tookthechildbythearm,shookhisdress,whichwascoveredwithsand,wipedhishands,andledhiminthedirectionoftheRueBlanche.Hewalkedquickly,soasnottogetinafterhiswife,andthechildcouldnotkeepupwithhim.Hetookhimupandcarriedhim,thoughitmadehimpantwhenhehadtowalkupthesteepstreet.Hewasamanofforty,alreadyturninggray,andratherstout.
Atlasthereachedhishouse.Anoldservantwhohadbroughthimup,oneofthosetrustedservantswhoarethetyrantsoffamilies,openedthedoortohim.
"Hasmadamecomeinyet?"heaskedanxiously.
Theservantshruggedhershoulders:
"Whenhaveyoueverknownmadametocomehomeathalf—pastsix,monsieur?"
"Verywell;allthebetter;itwillgivemetimetochangemythings,forIamverywarm."
Theservantlookedathimwithangryandcontemptuouspity."Oh,Icanseethatwellenough,"shegrumbled."Youarecoveredwithperspiration,monsieur.Isupposeyouwalkedquicklyandcarriedthechild,andonlytohavetowaituntilhalf—pastseven,perhaps,formadame.Ihavemadeupmymindnottohavedinnerreadyontime.Ishallgetitforeighto’clock,andif,youhavetowait,Icannothelpit;roastmeatoughtnottobeburnt!"
MonsieurParentpretendednottohear,butwentintohisownroom,andassoonashegotin,lockedthedoor,soastobealone,quitealone.Hewassousednowtobeingabusedandbadlytreatedthatheneverthoughthimselfsafeexceptwhenhewaslockedin.
Whatcouldhedo?TogetridofJulieseemedtohimsuchaformidablethingtodothathehardlyventuredtothinkofit,butitwasjustasimpossibletoupholdheragainsthiswife,andbeforeanothermonththesituationwouldbecomeunbearablebetweenthetwo.Heremainedsittingthere,withhisarmshangingdown,vaguelytryingtodiscoversomemeanstosetmattersstraight,butwithoutsuccess.Hesaidtohimself:"ItisluckythatIhaveGeorge;withouthimIshould—beverymiserable."
Justthentheclockstruckseven,andhestartedup.Seveno’clock,andhehadnotevenchangedhisclothes.Nervousandbreathless,heundressed,putonacleanshirt,hastilyfinishedhistoilet,asifhehadbeenexpectedinthenextroomforsomeeventofextremeimportance,andwentintothedrawing—room,happyathavingnothingtofear.Heglancedatthenewspaper,wentandlookedoutofthewindow,andthensatdownagain,whenthedooropened,andtheboycamein,washed,brushed,andsmiling.Parenttookhimupinhisarmsandkissedhimpassionately;
thenhetossedhimintotheair,andheldhimuptotheceiling,butsoonsatdownagain,ashewastiredwithallhisexertion.Then,takingGeorgeonhisknee,hemadehimridea—cock—horse.Thechildlaughedandclappedhishandsandshoutedwithpleasure,asdidhisfather,wholaugheduntilhisbigstomachshook,foritamusedhimalmostmorethanitdidthechild.
Parentlovedhimwithalltheheartofaweak,resigned,ill—usedman.
Helovedhimwithmadburstsofaffection,withcaressesandwithallthebashfultendernesswhichwashiddeninhim,andwhichhadneverfoundanoutlet,evenattheearlyperiodofhismarriedlife,forhiswifehadalwaysshownherselfcoldandreserved.
JustthenJuliecametothedoor,withapalefaceandglisteningeyes,andsaidinavoicewhichtrembledwithexasperation:"Itishalf—pastseven,monsieur."
Parentgaveanuneasyandresignedlookattheclockandreplied:"Yes,itcertainlyishalf—pastseven."
"Well,mydinnerisquitereadynow."
Seeingthestormwhichwascoming,hetriedtoturnitaside."ButdidyounottellmewhenIcameinthatitwouldnotbereadybeforeeight?"
"Eight!whatareyouthinkingabout?Yousurelydonotmeantoletthechilddineateighto’clock?Itwouldruinhisstomach.Justsupposethatheonlyhadhismothertolookafterhim!Shecaresagreatdealaboutherchild.Oh,yes,wewillspeakabouther;sheisamother!
Whatapityitisthatthereshouldbeanymotherslikeher!"
Parentthoughtitwastimetocutshortathreatenedscene."Julie,"hesaid,"Iwillnotallowyoutospeaklikethatofyourmistress.Youunderstandme,doyounot?Donotforgetitinthefuture."
Theoldservant,whowasnearlychokedwithsurprise,turnedandwentout,slammingthedoorsoviolentlyafterherthatthelustresonthechandelierrattled,andforsomesecondsitsoundedasifanumberoflittleinvisiblebellswereringinginthedrawing—room.
Eighto’clockstruck,thedooropened,andJuliecameinagain.Shehadlostherlookofexasperation,butnowsheputonanairofcoldanddeterminedresolution,whichwasstillmoreformidable.
"Monsieur,"shesaid,"Iservedyourmotheruntilthedayofherdeath,andIhaveattendedtoyoufromyourbirthuntilnow,andIthinkitmaybesaidthatIamdevotedtothefamily."Shewaitedforareply,andParentstammered:
"Why,yes,certainly,mygoodJulie."
"Youknowquitewell,"shecontinued,"thatIhaveneverdoneanythingforthesakeofmoney,butalwaysforyoursake;thatIhaveneverdeceivedyounorliedtoyou,thatyouhaveneverhadtofindfaultwithme——"
"Certainly,mygoodJulie."
"Verywell,then,monsieur;itcannotgoonanylongerlikethis.Ihavesaidnothing,andleftyouinyourignorance,outofrespectandlikingforyou,butitistoomuch,andeveryoneintheneighborhoodislaughingatyou.Everybodyknowsaboutit,andsoImusttellyoualso,althoughIdonotliketorepeatit.Thereasonwhymadamecomesinatanytimeshechoosesisthatsheisdoingabominablethings."
Heseemedstupefiedandnottounderstand,andcouldonlystammerout:
"Holdyourtongue;youknowIhaveforbiddenyou————"
Butsheinterruptedhimwithirresistibleresolution."No,monsieur,I
musttellyoueverythingnow.ForalongtimemadamehasbeencarryingonwithMonsieurLimousin.Ihaveseenthemkissscoresoftimesbehindthedoor.Ah!youmaybesurethatifMonsieurLimousinhadbeenrich,madamewouldneverhavemarriedMonsieurParent.Ifyourememberhowthemarriagewasbroughtabout,youwouldunderstandthematterfrombeginningtoend."
Parenthadrisen,andstammeredout,hisfacelivid:"Holdyourtongue—
holdyourtongue,or————"
Shewenton,however:"No,Imeantotellyoueverything.Shemarriedyoufrominterest,andshedeceivedyoufromtheveryfirstday.Itwasallsettledbetweenthembeforehand.Youneedonlyreflectforafewmomentstounderstandit,andthen,asshewasnotsatisfiedwithhavingmarriedyou,asshedidnotloveyou,shehasmadeyourlifemiserable,somiserablethatithasalmostbrokenmyheartwhenIhaveseenit."
Hewalkedupanddowntheroomwithhandsclenched,repeating:"Holdyourtongue——holdyourtongue————"Forhecouldfindnothingelsetosay.
Theoldservant,however,wouldnotyield;sheseemedresolvedoneverything.
George,whohadbeenatfirstastonishedandthenfrightenedatthoseangryvoices,begantouttershrillscreams,andremainedbehindhisfather,withhisfacepuckeredupandhismouthopen,roaring.
Hisson’sscreamsexasperatedParent,andfilledhimwithrageandcourage.HerushedatJuliewithbotharmsraised,readytostrikeher,exclaiming:"Ah!youwretch.Youwilldrivethechildoutofhissenses."Healreadyhadhishandonher,whenshescreamedinhisface:
"Monsieur,youmaybeatmeifyoulike,mewhorearedyou,butthatwillnotpreventyourwifefromdeceivingyou,oralterthefactthatyourchildisnotyours————"
Hestoppedsuddenly,lethisarmsfall,andremainedstandingoppositetoher,sooverwhelmedthathecouldunderstandnothingmore.
"Youneedonlytolookatthechild,"sheadded,"toknowwhoisitsfather!HeistheveryimageofMonsieurLimousin.Youneedonlylookathiseyesandforehead.Why,ablindmancouldnotbemistakeninhim."
Hehadtakenherbytheshoulders,andwasnowshakingherwithallhismight."Viper,viper!"hesaid."Goouttheroom,viper!Goout,orI
shallkillyou!Goout!Goout!"
Andwithadesperateefforthethrewherintothenextroom.Shefellacrossthetable,whichwaslaidfordinner,breakingtheglasses.Then,risingtoherfeet,sheputthetablebetweenhermasterandherself.
Whilehewaspursuingher,inordertotakeholdofheragain,sheflungterriblewordsathim.
"Youneedonlygooutthiseveningafterdinner,andcomeinagainimmediately,andyouwillsee!YouwillseewhetherIhavebeenlying!
Justtryit,andyouwillsee."Shehadreachedthekitchendoorandescaped,butheranafterher,upthebackstairstoherbedroom,intowhichshehadlockedherself,andknockingatthedoor,hesaid:
"Youwillleavemyhousethisveryinstant!"
"Youmaybecertainofthat,monsieur,"washerreply."Inanhour’stimeIshallnotbehereanylonger."
Hethenwentslowlydownstairsagain,holdingontothebanistersoasnottofall,andwentbacktothedrawing—room,wherelittleGeorgewassittingonthefloor,crying.Hefellintoachair,andlookedatthechildwithdulleyes.Heunderstoodnothing,knewnothingmore;hefeltdazed,stupefied,mad,asifhehadjustfallenonhishead,andhescarcelyevenrememberedthedreadfulthingstheservanthadtoldhim.
Then,bydegrees,hismind,likemuddywater,becamecalmerandclearer,andtheabominablerevelationsbegantoworkinhisheart.
HewasnolongerthinkingofGeorge.Thechildwasquietnowandsittingonthecarpet;but,seeingthatnonoticewasbeingtakenofhim,hebegantocry.Hisfatherrantohim,tookhiminhisarms,andcoveredhimwithkisses.Hischildremainedtohim,atanyrate!Whatdidtherestmatter?Heheldhiminhisarmsandpressedhislipstohislighthair,and,relievedandcomposed,hewhispered:
"George——mylittleGeorge——mydearlittleGeorge————"ButhesuddenlyrememberedwhatJuliehadsaid!Yes,shehadsaidthathewasLimousin’schild.Oh!itcouldnotbepossible,surely.Hecouldnotbelieveit,couldnotdoubt,evenforamoment,thathewashisownchild.Itwasoneofthoselowscandalswhichspringfromservants’brains!Andherepeated:"George——mydearlittleGeorge."Theyoungsterwasquietagain,nowthathisfatherwasfondlinghim.
Parentfeltthewarmthofthelittlechestpenetratethroughhisclothes,anditfilledhimwithlove,courage,andhappiness;thatgentlewarmthsoothedhim,fortifiedhimandsavedhim.Thenheputthesmall,curlyheadawayfromhimalittle,andlookedatitaffectionately,stillrepeating:"George!Oh,mylittleGeorge!"Butsuddenlyhethought:
"SupposeheweretoresembleLimousin,afterall!"Helookedathimwithhaggard,troubledeyes,andtriedtodiscoverwhethertherewasanylikenessinhisforehead,inhisnose,mouth,orcheeks.Histhoughtswanderedastheydowhenapersonisgoingmad,andhischild’sfacechangedinhiseyes,andassumedastrangelookandimprobableresemblances.
Thehallbellrang.Parentgaveaboundasifabullethadgonethroughhim."Theresheis,"hesaid."WhatshallIdo?"Andheranandlockedhimselfupinhisroom,tohavetimetobathehiseyes.Butinafewmomentsanotherringatthebellmadehimjumpagain,andthenherememberedthatJuliehadleft,withoutthehousemaidknowingit,andsonobodywouldgotoopenthedoor.Whatwashetodo?Hewenthimself,andsuddenlyhefeltbrave,resolute,readyfordissimulationandthestruggle.Theterribleblowhadmaturedhiminafewmoments.Hewishedtoknowthetruth,hedesireditwiththerageofatimidman,andwiththetenacityofaneasy—goingmanwhohasbeenexasperated.
Nevertheless,hetrembled.Doesoneknowhowmuchexcitedcowardicethereoftenisinboldness?Hewenttothedoorwithfurtivesteps,andstoppedtolisten;hisheartbeatfuriously.Suddenly,however,thenoiseofthebelloverhisheadstartledhimlikeanexplosion.Heseizedthelock,turnedthekey,andopeningthedoor,sawhiswifeandLimousinstandingbeforehimonthestairs.
Withanairofastonishment,whichalsobetrayedalittleirritation,shesaid:
"Soyouopenthedoornow?WhereisJulie?"
Histhroatfelttightandhisbreathingwaslaboredashetriedto.
reply,withoutbeingabletoutteraword.
"Areyoudumb?"shecontinued."IaskedyouwhereJulieis?"
"She——she——has——gone————"hemanagedtostammer.
Hiswifebegantogetangry."Whatdoyoumeanbygone?Wherehasshegone?Why?"
Bydegreesheregainedhiscoolness.Hefeltanintensehatredriseupinhimforthatinsolentwomanwhowasstandingbeforehim.
"Yes,shehasgonealtogether.Isentheraway."
"YouhavesentawayJulie?Why,youmustbemad."
"Yes,Isentherawaybecauseshewasinsolent,andbecause——becauseshewasill—usingthechild."
"Julie?"
"Yes——Julie."
"Whatwassheinsolentabout?"
"Aboutyou."
"Aboutme?"
"Yes,becausethedinnerwasburnt,andyoudidnotcomein."
"Andshesaid————"
"Shesaid——offensivethingsaboutyou——whichIoughtnot——whichIcouldnotlistento————"
"Whatdidshe,say?"
"Itisnogoodrepeatingthem."
"Iwanttohearthem."
"Shesaiditwasunfortunateforamanlikemetobemarriedtoawomanlikeyou,unpunctual,careless,disorderly,abadmother,andabadwife."
Theyoungwomanhadgoneintotheanteroom,followedbyLimousin,whodidnotsayawordatthisunexpectedconditionofthings.Sheshutthedoorquickly,threwhercloakonachair,andgoingstraightuptoherhusband,shestammeredout:
"Yousay?Yousay?ThatIam————"
Verypaleandcalm,hereplied:"Isaynothing,mydear.IamsimplyrepeatingwhatJuliesaidtome,asyouwantedtoknowwhatitwas,andI
wishyoutoremarkthatIturnedheroffjustonaccountofwhatshesaid."
Shetrembledwithaviolentlongingtotearouthisbeardandscratchhisface.Inhisvoiceandmannershefeltthathewasassertinghispositionasmaster.Althoughshehadnothingtosaybywayofreply,shetriedtoassumetheoffensivebysayingsomethingunpleasant."Isupposeyouhavehaddinner?"sheasked.
"No,Iwaitedforyou."
Sheshruggedhershouldersimpatiently."Itisverystupidofyoutowaitafterhalf—pastseven,"shesaid."YoumighthaveguessedthatI
wasdetained,thatIhadagoodmanythingstodo,visitsandshopping,"
Andthen,suddenly,shefeltthatshewantedtoexplainhowshehadspenthertime,andtoldhiminabrupt,haughtywordsthat,havingtobuysomefurnitureinashopalongdistanceoff,veryfaroff,intheRuedeRennes,shehadmetLimousinatpastseveno’clockontheBoulevardSaint—Germain,andthatthenshehadgonewithhimtohavesomethingtoeatinarestaurant,asshedidnotliketogotoonebyherself,althoughshewasfaintwithhunger.ThatwashowshehaddinedwithLimousin,ifitcouldbecalleddining,fortheyhadonlysomesoupandhalfachicken,astheywereinagreathurrytogetback.
Parentrepliedsimply:"Well,youwerequiteright.Iamnotfindingfaultwithyou."
ThenLimousin,who,hadnotspokentillthen,andwhohadbeenhalfhiddenbehindHenriette,cameforwardandputouthishand,saying:"Areyouverywell?"
Parenttookhishand,andshakingitgently,replied:"Yes,Iamverywell."
Buttheyoungwomanhadfeltareproachinherhusband’slastwords.
"Findingfault!Whydoyouspeakoffindingfault?Onemightthinkthatyoumeanttoimplysomething."
"Notatall,"hereplied,bywayofexcuse."IsimplymeantthatIwasnotatallanxiousalthoughyouwerelate,andthatIdidnotfindfaultwithyouforit."
She,however,tookthehighhand,andtriedtofindapretextforaquarrel."AlthoughIwaslate?Onemightreallythinkthatitwasoneo’clockinthemorning,andthatIspentmynightsawayfromhome."
"Certainlynot,mydear.IsaidlatebecauseIcouldfindnootherword.
Yousaidyoushouldbebackathalf—pastsix,andyoureturnedathalf—
pasteight.Thatwassurelybeinglate.Iunderstanditperfectlywell.
Iamnotatallsurprised,even.But——but——Icanhardlyuseanyotherword."
"ButyoupronouncethemasifIhadbeenoutallnight."
"Oh,no—oh,no!"
Shesawthathewouldyieldoneverypoint,andshewasgoingintoherownroom,whenatlastshenoticedthatGeorgewasscreaming,andthensheasked,withsomefeeling:"Whatisthematterwiththechild?"
"ItoldyouthatJuliehadbeenratherunkindtohim."
"Whathasthewretchbeendoingtohim?"
"Ohnothingmuch.Shegavehimapush,andhefelldown."
Shewantedtoseeherchild,andranintothediningroom,butstoppedshortatthesightofthetablecoveredwithspiltwine,withbrokendecantersandglassesandoverturnedsaltcellars."Whodidallthatmischief?"sheasked.
"ItwasJulie,who————"Butsheinterruptedhimfuriously:
"Thatistoomuch,really!JuliespeaksofmeasifIwereashamelesswoman,beatsmychild,breaksmyplatesanddishes,turnsmyhouseupsidedown,anditappearsthatyouthinkitallquitenatural."
"Certainlynot,asIhavegotridofher."
"Really!Youhavegotridofher!Butyououghttohavegivenherincharge.Insuchcases,oneoughttocallintheCommissaryofPolice!"
"But——mydear——Ireallycouldnot.Therewasnoreason.Itwouldhavebeenverydifficult————"
Sheshruggedhershouldersdisdainfully."There!youwillneverbeanythingbutapoor,wretchedfellow,amanwithoutawill,withoutanyfirmnessorenergy.Ah!shemusthavesaidsomenicethingstoyou,yourJulie,tomakeyouturnherofflikethat.Ishouldliketohavebeenhereforaminute,onlyforaminute."Thensheopenedthedrawing—roomdoorandrantoGeorge,tookhimintoherarmsandkissedhim,andsaid:
"Georgie,whatisit,mydarling,myprettyone,mytreasure?"
Then,suddenlyturningtoanotheridea,shesaid:"Butthechildhashadnodinner?Youhavehadnothingtoeat,mypet?"
"No,mamma."
Thensheagainturnedfuriouslyuponherhusband."Why,youmustbemad,utterlymad!Itishalf—pasteight,andGeorgehashadnodinner!"
Heexcusedhimselfasbesthecould,forhehadnearlylosthiswitsthroughtheoverwhelmingsceneandtheexplanation,andfeltcrushedbythisruinofhislife."But,mydear,wewerewaitingforyou,asIdidnotwishtodinewithoutyou.Asyoucomehomelateeveryday,I
expectedyoueverymoment."
Shethrewherbonnet,whichshehadkeptontillthen,intoaneasy—
chair,andinanangryvoiceshesaid:"Itisreallyintolerabletohavetodowithpeoplewhocanunderstandnothing,whocandivinenothinganddonothingbythemselves.So,Isuppose,ifIweretocomeinattwelveo’clockatnight,thechildwouldhavehadnothingtoeat?Justasifyoucouldnothaveunderstoodthat,asitwasafterhalf—pastseven,I
waspreventedfromcominghome,thatIhadmetwithsomehindrance!"
Parenttrembled,forhefeltthathisangerwasgettingtheupperhand,butLimousininterposed,andturningtowardtheyoungwoman,said:
"Mydearfriend,you,arealtogetherunjust.Parentcouldnotguessthatyouwouldcomeheresolate,asyouneverdoso,andthen,howcouldyouexpecthimtogetoverthedifficultyallbyhimself,afterhavingsentawayJulie?"
ButHenriettewasveryangry,andreplied:
"Well,atanyrate,hemustgetoverthedifficultyhimself,forIwillnothelphim,"shereplied."Lethimsettleit!"Andshewentintoherownroom,quiteforgettingthatherchildhadnothadanythingtoeat.
Limousinimmediatelysettoworktohelphisfriend.Hepickedupthebrokenglasseswhichstrewedthetableandtookthemout,replacedtheplatesandknivesandforks,andputthechildintohishighchair,whileParentwenttolookforthechambermaidtowaitattable.Thegirlcamein,ingreatastonishment,asshehadheardnothinginGeorge’sroom,whereshehadbeenworking.Shesoon,however,broughtinthesoup,aburntlegofmutton,andmashedpotatoes.
Parentsatbythesideofthechild,verymuchupsetanddistressedatallthathadhappened.Hegavetheboyhisdinner,andendeavoredtoeatsomethinghimself,buthecouldonlyswallowwithaneffort,ashisthroatfeltparalyzed.BydegreeshewasseizedwithaninsanedesiretolookatLimousin,whowassittingoppositetohim,makingbreadpellets,toseewhetherGeorgewaslikehim,buthedidnotventuretoraisehiseyesforsometime.Atlast,however,hemadeuphismindtodoso,andgaveaquick,sharplookatthefacewhichheknewsowell,althoughhealmostfanciedthathehadneverexamineditcarefully.Itlookedsodifferenttowhathehadimagined.FromtimetotimehelookedatLimousin,tryingtorecognizealikenessinthesmallestlinesofhisface,intheslightestfeatures,andthenhelookedathisson,underthepretextoffeedinghim.
Twowordsweresoundinginhisears:"Hisfather!hisfather!hisfather!"Theybuzzedinhistemplesateverybeatofhisheart.Yes,thatman,thattranquilmanwhowassittingontheothersideofthetable,was,perhaps,thefatherofhisson,ofGeorge,ofhislittleGeorge.Parentleftoffeating;hecouldnotswallowanymore.A
terriblepain,oneofthoseattacksofpainwhichmakemenscream,rollontheground,andbitethefurniture,wastearingathisentrails,andhefeltinclinedtotakeaknifeandplungeitintohisstomach.
Hestartedwhenheheardthedooropen.Hiswifecamein."Iamhungry,"shesaid;"arenotyou,Limousin?"
Hehesitatedalittle,andthensaid:"Yes,Iam,uponmyword."
Shehadthelegofmuttonbroughtinagain.Parentaskedhimself"Havetheyhaddinner?Oraretheylatebecausetheyhavehadalovers’
meeting?"
Theybothatewithaverygoodappetite.Henriettewasverycalm,butlaughedandjoked.Herhusbandwatchedherfurtively.Shehadonapinkteagowntrimmedwithwhitelace,andherfairhead,herwhiteneckandherplumphandsstoodoutfromthatcoquettishandperfumeddressasthoughitwereaseashelledgedwithfoam.
Whatfuntheymustbemakingofhim,ifhehadbeentheirdupesincethefirstday!Wasitpossibletomakeafoolofaman,ofaworthyman,becausehisfatherhadlefthimalittlemoney?Whycouldonenotseeintopeople’ssouls?Howwasitthatnothingrevealedtouprightheartsthedeceitsofinfamoushearts?Howwasitthatvoiceshadthesamesoundforadoringasforlying?Whywasafalse,deceptivelookthesameasasincereone?Andhewatchedthem,waitingtocatchagesture,aword,anintonation.Thensuddenlyhethought:"Iwillsurprisethemthisevening,"andhesaid:
"Mydear,asIhavedismissedJulie,Iwillseeaboutgettinganothergirlthisveryday.Iwillgoatoncetoprocureonebyto—morrowmorning,soImaynotbeinuntillate."
"Verywell,"shereplied;"go.Ishallnotstirfromhere.Limousinwillkeepmecompany.Wewillwaitforyou."Then,turningtothemaid,shesaid:"YouhadbetterputGeorgetobed,andthenyoucanclearawayandgouptoyourroom."
Parenthadgotup;hewasunsteadyonhislegs,dazedandbewildered,andsaying,"Ishallseeyouagainlateron,"hewentout,holdingontothewall,forthefloorseemedtorolllikeaship.Georgehadbeencarriedoutbyhisnurse,whileHenrietteandLimousinwentintothedrawing—
room.
Assoonasthedoorwasshut,hesaid:"Youmustbemad,surely,totormentyourhusbandasyoudo?"
Sheimmediatelyturnedonhim:"Ah!DoyouknowthatIthinkthehabityouhavegotintolately,oflookinguponParentasamartyr,isveryunpleasant?"
Limousinthrewhimselfintoaneasy—chairandcrossedhislegs."Iamnotsettinghimupasamartyrintheleast,butIthinkthat,situatedasweare,itisridiculoustodefythismanasyoudo,frommorningtillnight."
Shetookacigarettefromthemantelpiece,lightedit,andreplied:"ButIdonotdefyhim;quitethecontrary.Onlyheirritatesmebyhisstupidity,andItreathimashedeserves."
Limousincontinuedimpatiently:"Whatyouaredoingisveryfoolish!I
amonlyaskingyoutotreatyourhusbandgently,becausewebothofusrequirehimtotrustus.Ithinkthatyououghttoseethat."
Theywereclosetogether:he,tall,dark,withlongwhiskersandtherathervulgarmannersofagood—lookingmanwhoisverywellsatisfiedwithhimself;she,small,fair,andpink,alittleParisian,borninthebackroomofashop,halfcocotteandhalfbourgeoise,broughtuptoenticecustomerstothestorebyherglances,andmarried,inconsequence,toasimple,unsophisticatedman,whosawheroutsidethedooreverymorningwhenhewentoutandeveryeveningwhenhecamehome.
"Butdoyounotunderstand;yougreatbooby,"shesaid,"thatIhatehimjustbecausehemarriedme,becauseheboughtme,infact;becauseeverythingthathesaysanddoes,everythingthathethinks,actsonmynerves?Heexasperatesmeeverymomentbyhisstupidity,whichyoucallhiskindness;byhisdullness,whichyoucallhisconfidence,andthen,aboveall,becauseheismyhusband,insteadofyou.Ifeelhimbetweenus,althoughhedoesnotinterferewithusmuch.Andthen———andthen!
No,itis,afterall,tooidioticofhimnottoguessanything!Iwishhewould,atanyrate,bealittlejealous.TherearemomentswhenI
feelinclinedtosaytohim:’Doyounotsee,youstupidcreature,thatPaulismylover?’
"Itisquiteincomprehensiblethatyoucannotunderstandhowhatefulheistome,howheirritatesme.Youalwaysseemtolikehim,andyoushakehandswithhimcordially.Menareveryextraordinaryattimes."
"Onemustknowhowtodissimulate,mydear."
"Itisnoquestionofdissimulation,butoffeeling.Onemightthinkthat,whenyoumendeceiveoneanother,youlikeeachotherbetteronthataccount,whilewewomenhateamanfromthemomentthatwehavebetrayedhim."
"Idonotseewhyoneshouldhateanexcellentfellowbecauseoneisfriendlywithhiswife."
"Youdonotseeit?Youdonotseeit?Youallofyouarewantinginrefinementoffeeling.However,thatisoneofthosethingswhichonefeelsandcannotexpress.Andthen,moreover,oneoughtnot.No,youwouldnotunderstand;itisquiteuseless!Youmenhavenodelicacyoffeeling."
Andsmiling,withthegentlecontemptofanimpurewoman,sheputbothherhandsonhisshouldersandheldupherlipstohim.Hestoopeddownandclaspedhercloselyinhisarms,andtheirlipsmet.Andastheystoodinfrontofthemantelmirror,anothercoupleexactlylikethemembracedbehindtheclock.
Theyhadheardnothing,neitherthenoiseofthekeynorthecreakingofthedoor,butsuddenlyHenriette,withaloudcry,pushedLimousinawaywithbothherarms,andtheysawParentlookingatthem,lividwithrage,withouthisshoesonandhishatoverhisforehead.Helookedateach,oneaftertheother,withaquickglanceofhiseyesandwithoutmovinghishead.Heappearedbesidehimself.Then,withoutsayingaword,hethrewhimselfonLimousin,seizedhimasifheweregoingtostranglehim,andflunghimintotheoppositecorneroftheroomsoviolentlythattheotherlosthisbalance,and,beatingtheairwithhishand,struckhisheadviolentlyagainstthewall.
WhenHenriettesawthatherhusbandwasgoingtomurderherlover,shethrewherselfonParent,seizedhimbytheneck,anddigginghertendelicate,rosyfingersintohisneck,shesqueezedhimsotightly,withallthevigorofadesperatewoman,thatthebloodspurtedoutunderhernails,andshebithisshoulder,asifshewishedtotearitwithherteeth.Parent,half—strangledandchoking,loosenedhisholdonLimousin,inordertoshakeoffhiswife,whowashangingtohisneck.
Puttinghisarmsroundherwaist,heflungheralsototheotherendofthedrawing—room.
Then,ashispassionwasshort—lived,likethatofmostgood—temperedmen,andhisstrengthwassoonexhausted,heremainedstandingbetweenthetwo,panting,wornout,notknowingwhattodonext.Hisbrutalfuryhadexpendeditselfinthateffort,likethefrothofabottleofchampagne,andhisunwontedenergyendedinagaspingforbreath.Assoonashecouldspeak,however,hesaid:
"Goaway——bothofyou——immediately!Goaway!"
Limousinremainedmotionlessinhiscorner,againstthewall,toostartledtounderstandanythingasyet,toofrightenedtomoveafinger;
whileHenriette,withherhandsrestingonasmall,roundtable,herheadbentforward,herhairhangingdown,thebodiceofherdressunfastened,waitedlikeawildanimalwhichisabouttospring.Parentcontinuedinastrongervoice:"Goawayimmediately.Getoutofthehouse!"
Hiswife,however,seeingthathehadgotoverhisfirstexasperationgrewbolder,drewherselfup,tooktwostepstowardhim,and,grownalmostinsolent,shesaid:"Haveyoulostyourhead?Whatisthematterwithyou?Whatisthemeaningofthisunjustifiableviolence?"
Butheturnedtowardher,andraisinghisfisttostrikeher,hestammeredout:"Oh——oh——thisistoomuch,toomuch!Iheardeverything!
Everything——doyouunderstand?Everything!Youwretch——youwretch!Youaretwowretches!Getoutofthehouse,bothofyou!Immediately,orI
shallkillyou!Leavethehouse!"
Shesawthatitwasallover,andthathekneweverything;thatshecouldnotproveherinnocence,andthatshemustcomply.Butallherimpudencehadreturnedtoher,andherhatredfortheman,whichwasaggravatednow,drovehertoaudacity,madeherfeeltheneedofbravado,andofdefyinghim,andshesaidinaclearvoice:"Come,Limousin;asheisgoingtoturnmeoutofdoors,Iwillgotoyourlodgingswithyou."
ButLimousindidnotmove,andParent,inafreshaccessofrage,criedout:"Go,willyou?Go,youwretches!Orelse——orelse————"Heseizedachairandwhirleditoverhishead.
Henriettewalkedquicklyacrosstheroom,tookherloverbythearm,draggedhimfromthewall,towhichheappearedfixed,andledhimtowardthedoor,saying:"Docome,myfriend——youseethatthemanismad.Docome!"
Asshewentoutsheturnedroundtoherhusband,tryingtothinkofsomethingthatshecoulddo,somethingthatshecouldinventtowoundhimtotheheartassheleftthehouse,andanideastruckher,oneofthosevenomous,deadlyideasinwhichallawoman’sperfidyshowsitself,andshesaidresolutely:"Iamgoingtotakemychildwithme."
Parentwasstupefied,andstammered:"Your——your——child?Youdaretotalkofyourchild?Youventure——youventuretoaskforyourchild——
after—after——Oh,oh,thatistoomuch!Go,youvilecreature!Go!"
Shewentuptohimagain,almostsmiling,almostavengedalready,anddefyinghim,standingclosetohim,andfacetoface,shesaid:"Iwantmychild,andyouhavenorighttokeephim,becauseheisnotyours——doyouunderstand?Heisnotyours!HeisLimousin’s!"
AndParentcriedoutinbewilderment:"Youlie——youlie——worthlesswoman!"
Butshecontinued:"Youfool!Everybodyknowsitexceptyou.Itellyou,thisishisfather.Youneedonlylookathimtoseeit."
Parentstaggeredbackward,andthenhesuddenlyturnedround,tookacandle,andrushedintothenextroom;returningalmostimmediately,carryinglittleGeorgewrappedupinhisbedclothes.Thechild,whohadbeensuddenlyawakened,wascryingfromfright.Parentthrewhimintohiswife’sarms,andthen,withoutspeaking,hepushedherroughlyouttowardthestairs,whereLimousinwaswaiting,frommotivesofprudence.
Thenheshutthedooragain,double—lockedandboltedit,buthadscarcelygotbackintothedrawing—roomwhenhefelltotheflooratfulllength.
Parentlivedalone,quitealone.Duringthefiveweeksthatfollowedtheirseparation,thefeelingofsurpriseathisnewlifepreventedhimfromthinkingmuch.Hehadresumedhisbachelorlife,hishabitsoflounging,about,andtookhismealsatarestaurant,ashehaddoneformerly.Ashewishedtoavoidanyscandal,hemadehiswifeanallowance,whichwasarrangedbytheirlawyers.Bydegrees,however,thethoughtofthechildbegantohaunthim.Often,whenhewasathomealoneatnight,hesuddenlythoughtheheardGeorgecallingout"Papa,"
andhisheartwouldbegintobeat,andhewouldgetupquicklyandopenthedoor,toseewhether,bychance,thechildmighthavereturned,asdogsorpigeonsdo.Whyshouldachildhavelessinstinctthanananimal?Onfindingthathewasmistaken,hewouldsitdowninhisarmchairagainandthinkoftheboy.Hewouldthinkofhimforhoursandwholedays.Itwasnotonlyamoral,butstillmoreaphysicalobsession,anervouslongingtokisshim,toholdandfondlehim,totakehimonhiskneesanddancehim.Hefeltthechild’slittlearmsaroundhisneck,hislittlemouthpressingakissonhisbeard,hissofthairticklinghischeeks,andtheremembranceofallthosechildishwaysmadehimsufferasamanmightforsomebelovedwomanwhohaslefthim.
TwentyorahundredtimesadayheaskedhimselfthequestionwhetherhewasorwasnotGeorge’sfather,andalmostbeforehewasinbedeverynightherecommencedthesameseriesofdespairingquestionings.
Heespeciallydreadedthedarknessoftheevening,themelancholyfeelingofthetwilight.Thenafloodofsorrowinvadedhisheart,atorrentofdespairwhichseemedtooverwhelmhimanddrivehimmad.Hewasasafraidofhisownthoughtsasmenareofcriminals,andhefledbeforethemasonedoesfromwildbeasts.Aboveallthings,hefearedhisempty,dark,horribledwellingandthedesertedstreets,inwhich,hereandthere,agaslampflickered,wheretheisolatedfootpassengerwhomonehearsinthedistanceseemstobeanightprowler,andmakesonewalkfasterorslower,accordingtowhetherheiscomingtowardyouorfollowingyou.
Andinspiteofhimself,andbyinstinct,Parentwentinthedirectionofthebroad,well—lighted,populousstreets.Thelightandthecrowdattractedhim,occupiedhismindanddistractedhisthoughts,andwhenhewastiredofwalkingaimlesslyaboutamongthemovingcrowd,whenhesawthefootpassengersbecomingmorescarceandthepavementslesscrowded,thefearofsolitudeandsilencedrovehimintosomelargecafefullofdrinkersandoflight.Hewentthereasfliesgotoacandle,andhewouldsitdownatoneofthelittleroundtablesandaskfora"bock,"
whichhewoulddrinkslowly,feelinguneasyeverytimeacustomergotuptogo.Hewouldhavelikedtotakehimbythearm,holdhimback,andbeghimtostayalittlelonger,somuchdidhedreadthetimewhenthewaitershouldcomeuptohimandsaysharply:"Come,monsieur,itisclosingtime!"
Hethusgotintothehabitofgoingtothebeerhouses,wherethecontinualelbowingofthedrinkersbringsyouincontactwithafamiliarandsilentpublic,wheretheheavycloudsoftobaccosmokelulldisquietude,whiletheheavybeerdullsthemindandcalmstheheart.
Healmostlivedthere.Hewasscarcelyupbeforehewenttheretofindpeopletodistracthisglancesandhisthoughts,andsoon,ashefelttoolazytomove,hetookhismealsthere.
Aftereverymeal,duringmorethananhour,hesippedthreeorfoursmallglassesofbrandy,whichstupefiedhimbydegrees,andthenhisheaddroopedonhischest,heshuthiseyes,andwenttosleep.Then,awaking,heraisedhimselfontheredvelvetseat,straightenedhiswaistcoat,pulleddownhiscuffs,andtookupthenewspapersagain,thoughhehadalreadyseentheminthemorning,andreadthemallthroughagain,frombeginningtoend.Betweenfourandfiveo’clockhewentforawalkontheboulevards,togetalittlefreshair,asheusedtosay,andthencamebacktotheseatwhichhadbeenreservedforhim,andaskedforhisabsinthe.Hewouldtalktotheregularcustomerswhoseacquaintancehehadmade.Theydiscussedthenewsofthedayandpoliticalevents,andthatcarriedhimontilldinnertime;andhespenttheeveningashehadtheafternoon,untilitwastimetoclose.Thatwasateriblemomentforhimwhenhewasobligedtogooutintothedark,intohisemptyroomfullofdreadfulrecollections,ofhorriblethoughts,andofmentalagony.Henolongersawanyofhisoldfriends,noneofhisrelatives,nobodywhomightremindhimofhispastlife.Butashisapartmentswereahelltohim,hetookaroominalargehotel,agoodroomonthegroundfloor,soastoseethepassers—by.Hewasnolongeraloneinthatgreatbuilding.Hefeltpeopleswarmingroundhim,heheardvoicesintheadjoiningrooms,andwhenhisformersufferingstormentedhimtoomuchatthesightofhisbed,whichwasturneddown,andofhissolitaryfireplace,hewentoutintothewidepassagesandwalkedupanddownthemlikeasentinel,beforeallthecloseddoors,andlookedsadlyattheshoesstandingincouplesoutsidethem,women’slittlebootsbythesideofmen’sthickones,andhethoughtthat,nodoubt,allthesepeoplewerehappy,andweresleepingintheirwarmbeds.
Fiveyearspassedthus;fivemiserableyears.Butoneday,whenhewastakinghisusualwalkbetweentheMadeleineandtheRueDrouot,hesuddenlysawaladywhosebearingstruckhim.Atallgentlemanandachildwerewithher,andallthreewerewalkinginfrontofhim.Heaskedhimselfwherehehadseenthembefore,whensuddenlyherecognizedamovementofherhand;itwashiswife,hiswifewithLimousinandhischild,hislittleGeorge.
Hisheartbeatasifitwouldsuffocatehim,buthedidnotstop,forhewishedtoseethem,andhefollowedthem.Theylookedlikeafamilyofthebettermiddleclass.HenriettewasleaningonPaul’sarm,andspeakingtohiminalowvoice,andlookingathimsidewaysoccasionally.
Parentgotasideviewofherandrecognizedherprettyfeatures,themovementsofherlips,hersmile,andhercoaxingglances.Butthechildchieflytookuphisattention.Howtallandstronghewas!Parentcouldnotseehisface,butonlyhislong,faircurls.Thattallboywithbarelegs,whowaswalkingbyhismother’ssidelikealittleman,wasGeorge.
Hesawthemsuddenly,allthree,astheystoppedinfrontofashop.
Limousinhadgrownverygray,hadagedandwasthinner;hiswife,onthecontrary,wasasyounglookingasever,andhadgrownstouter.Georgehewouldnothaverecognized,hewassodifferentfromwhathehadbeenformerly.
TheywentonagainandParentfollowedthem.Hewalkedonquickly,passedthem,andthenturnedround,soastomeetthemfacetoface.Ashepassedthechildhefeltamadlongingtotakehimintohisarmsandrunoffwithhim,andheknockedagainsthimasifbyaccident.Theboyturnedroundandlookedattheclumsymanangrily,andParenthurriedaway,shocked,hurt,andpursuedbythatlook.Hewentofflikeathief,seizedwithahorriblefearlestheshouldhavebeenseenandrecognizedbyhiswifeandherlover.Hewenttohiscafewithoutstopping,andfellbreathlessintohischair.Thateveninghedrankthreeabsinthes.
Forfourmonthshefeltthepainofthatmeetinginhisheart.Everynighthesawthethreeagain,happyandtranquil,father,mother,andchildwalkingontheboulevardbeforegoingintodinner,andthatnew.
visioneffacedtheoldone.Itwasanothermatter,anotherhallucinationnow,andalsoafreshpain.LittleGeorge,hislittleGeorge,thechildhehadsomuchlovedandsooftenkissed,disappearedinthefardistance,andhesawanewone,likeabrotherofthefirst,alittleboywithbarelegs,whodidnotknowhim!Hesufferedterriblyatthatthought.Thechild’slovewasdead;therewasnobondbetweenthem;thechildwouldnothaveheldouthisarmswhenhesawhim.Hehadevenlookedathimangrily.
Then,bydegreeshegrewcalmer,hismentaltorturediminished,theimagethathadappearedtohiseyesandwhichhauntedhisnightsbecamemoreindistinctandlessfrequent.Hebeganoncemoretolivenearlylikeeverybodyelse,likeallthoseidlepeoplewhodrinkbeeroffmarble—
toppedtablesandwearouttheirclothesonthethreadbarevelvetofthecouches.
Hegrewoldamidthesmokefrompipes,losthishairunderthegaslights,lookeduponhisweeklybath,onhisfortnightlyvisittothebarber’stohavehishaircut,andonthepurchaseofanewcoatorhatasanevent.Whenhegottohiscafeinanewhathewouldlookathimselfintheglassforalongtimebeforesittingdown,andtakeitoffandputitonagainseveraltimes,andatlastaskhisfriend,theladyatthebar,whowaswatchinghimwithinterest,whethershethoughtitsuitedhim.
Twoorthreetimesayearhewenttothetheatre,andinthesummerhesometimesspenthiseveningsatoneoftheopen—airconcertsintheChampsElysees.Andsotheyearsfollowedeachotherslow,monotonous,andshort,becausetheywerequiteuneventful.
Heveryrarelynowthoughtofthedreadfuldramawhichhadwreckedhislife;fortwentyyearshadpassedsincethatterribleevening.Butthelifehehadledsincethenhadwornhimout.Thelandlordofhiscafewouldoftensaytohim:"Yououghttopullyourselftogetheralittle,MonsieurParent;youshouldgetsomefreshairandgointothecountry.
Iassureyouthatyouhavechangedverymuchwithinthelastfewmonths."
Andwhenhiscustomerhadgoneoutbeusedtosaytothebarmaid:"ThatpoorMonsieurParentisbookedforanotherworld;itisbadnevertogetoutofParis.Advisehimtogooutoftownforadayoccasionally;hehasconfidenceinyou.Summerwillsoonbehere;thatwillputhimstraight."
Andshe,fullofpityandkindnessforsucharegularcustomer,saidtoParenteveryday:"Come,monsieur,makeupyourmindtogetalittlefreshair.Itissocharminginthecountrywhentheweatherisfine.
Oh,ifIcould,Iwouldspendmylifethere!"
Bydegreeshewasseizedwithavaguedesiretogojustonceandseewhetheritwasreallyaspleasantthereasshesaid,outsidethewallsofthegreatcity.Onemorninghesaidtoher:
"DoyouknowwhereonecangetagoodluncheonintheneighborhoodofParis?"
"GototheTerraceatSaint—Germain;itisdelightfulthere!"
Hehadbeenthereformerly,justwhenhebecameengaged.Hemadeuphismindtogothereagain,andhechoseaSunday,fornospecialreason,butmerelybecausepeoplegenerallydogooutonSundays,evenwhentheyhavenothingtodoalltheweek;andsooneSundaymorninghewenttoSaint—
Germain.Hefeltlow—spiritedandvexedathavingyieldedtothatnewlonging,andathavingbrokenthroughhisusualhabits.Hewasthirsty;
hewouldhavelikedtogetoutateverystationandsitdowninthecafewhichhesawoutsideanddrinka"bock"ortwo,andthentakethefirsttrainbacktoParis.Thejourneyseemedverylongtohim.Hecouldremainsittingforwholedays,aslongashehadthesamemotionlessobjectsbeforehiseyes,buthefounditverytryingandfatiguingtoremainsittingwhilehewasbeingwhirledalong,andtoseethewholecountryflyby,whilehehimselfwasmotionless.
However,hefoundtheSeineinterestingeverytimehecrossedit.UnderthebridgeatChatouhesawsomesmallboatsgoingatgreatspeedunderthevigorousstrokesofthebare—armedoarsmen,andhethought:"Therearesomefellowswhoarecertainlyenjoyingthemselves!"ThetrainenteredthetunneljustbeforeyougettothestationatSaint—Germain,andpresentlystoppedattheplatform.Parentgotout,andwalkedslowly,forhealreadyfelttired,towardtheTerrace,withhishandsbehindhisback,andwhenhegottotheironbalustrade,stoppedtolookatthedistanthorizon.Theimmenseplainspreadoutbeforehimvastasthesea,greenandstuddedwithlargevillages,almostaspopulousastowns.Thesunbathedthewholelandscapeinitsfull,warmlight.TheSeinewoundlikeanendlessserpentthroughtheplain,flowedroundthevillagesandalongtheslopes.Parentinhaledthewarmbreeze,whichseemedtomakehisheartyoungagain,toenlivenhisspirits,andtovivifyhisblood,andsaidtohimself:
"Why,itisdelightfulhere."
Thenhewentonafewsteps,andstoppedagaintolookabouthim.Theuttermiseryofhisexistenceseemedtobebroughtintofullreliefbytheintenselightwhichinundatedthelandscape.Hesawhistwentyyearsofcafelife——dull,monotonous,heartbreaking.Hemighthavetraveledasothersdid,havegoneamongforeigners,tounknowncountriesbeyondthesea,haveinterestedhimselfsomewhatineverythingwhichothermenarepassionatelydevotedto,inartsandscience;hemighthaveenjoyedlifeinathousandforms,thatmysteriouslifewhichiseithercharmingorpainful,constantlychanging,alwaysinexplicableandstrange.Now,however,itwastoolate.Hewouldgoondrinking"bock"after"bock"
untilhedied,withoutanyfamily,withoutfriends,withouthope,withoutanycuriosityaboutanything,andhewasseizedwithafeelingofmiseryandawishtorunaway,tohidehimselfinParis,inhiscafeandhislethargy!Allthethoughts,allthedreams,allthedesireswhicharedormantinthesloughofstagnatingheartshadreawakened,broughttolifebythoseraysofsunlightontheplain.
Parentfeltthatifheweretoremainthereanylongerheshouldlosehisreason,andhemadehastetogettothePavilionHenriIVforlunch,totryandforgethistroublesunder——theinfluenceofwineandalcohol,andatanyratetohavesomeonetospeakto.
Hetookasmalltableinoneofthearbors,fromwhichonecanseeallthesurroundingcountry,orderedhislunch,andaskedtobeservedatonce.Thensomemorepeoplearrivedandsatdownattablesnearhim.Hefeltmorecomfortable;hewasnolongeralone.Threepersonswereeatingluncheonnearhim.Helookedatthemtwoorthreetimeswithoutseeingthemclearly,asonelooksattotalstrangers.Suddenlyawoman’svoicesentashiverthroughhimwhichseemedtopenetratetohisverymarrow.
"George,"itsaid,"willyoucarvethechicken?"
Andanothervoicereplied:"Yes,mamma."
Parentlookedup,andheunderstood;heguessedimmediatelywhothosepeoplewere!Heshouldcertainlynothaveknownthemagain.Hiswifehadgrownquitewhiteandverystout,anelderly,serious,respectablelady,andsheheldherheadforwardassheateforfearofspottingherdress,althoughshehadatablenapkintuckedunderherchin.Georgehadbecomeaman.Hehadaslightbeard,thatunevenandalmostcolorlessbeardwhichadornsthecheeksofyouths.Heworeahighhat,awhitewaistcoat,andamonocle,becauseitlookedswell,nodoubt.Parentlookedathiminastonishment.WasthatGeorge,hisson?No,hedidnotknowthatyoungman;therecouldbenothingincommonbetweenthem.
Limousinhadhisbacktohim,andwaseating;withhisshouldersratherbent.
Allthreeofthemseemedhappyandsatisfied;theycameandtookluncheoninthecountryatwell—knownrestaurants.Theyhadhadacalmandpleasantexistence,afamilyexistenceinawarmandcomfortablehouse,filledwithallthosetrifleswhichmakelifeagreeable,withaffection,withallthosetenderwordswhichpeopleexchangecontinuallywhentheyloveeachother.Theyhadlivedthus,thankstohim,Parent,onhismoney,afterhavingdeceivedhim,robbedhim,ruinedhim!Theyhadcondemnedhim,theinnocent,simple—minded,jovialman,toallthemiseriesofsolitude,tothatabominablelifewhichhehadled,betweenthepavementandabar—room,toeverymentaltortureandeveryphysicalmisery!Theyhadmadehimauseless,aimlessbeing,awaifintheworld,apooroldmanwithoutanypleasures,anyprospects,expectingnothingfromanybodyoranything.Forhim,theworldwasempty,becausehelovednothingintheworld.Hemightgoamongothernations,orgoaboutthestreets,gointoallthehousesinParis,openeveryroom,buthewouldnotfindinsideanydoorthebelovedface,thefaceofwifeorchildwhichsmileswhenitseesyou.Thisideaworkeduponhimmorethananyother,theideaofadoorwhichoneopens,toseeandtoembracesomebodybehindit.
Andthatwasthefaultofthosethreewretches!Thefaultofthatworthlesswoman,ofthatinfamousfriend,andofthattall,light—hairedladwhoputoninsolentairs.Nowhefeltasangrywiththechildashedidwiththeothertwo.WashenotLimousin’sson?WouldLimousinhavekepthimandlovedhimotherwise?WouldnotLimousinveryquicklyhavegotridofthemotherandofthechildifhehadnotfeltsurethatitwashis,positivelyhis?Doesanybodybringupotherpeople’schildren?
Andnowtheywerethere,quiteclosetohim,thosethreewhohadmadehimsuffersomuch.
Parentlookedatthem,irritatedandexcitedattherecollectionofallhissufferingsandofhisdespair,andwasespeciallyexasperatedattheirplacidandsatisfiedlooks.Hefeltinclinedtokillthem,tothrowhissiphonofSeltzerwateratthem,tosplitopenLimousin’sheadasheeverymomentbentitoverhisplate,raisingitagainimmediately.
Hewouldhavehisrevengenow,onthespot,ashehadthemunderhishand.Buthow?Hetriedtothinkofsomemeans,hepicturedsuchdreadfulthingsasonereadsofinthenewspapersoccasionally,butcouldnothitonanythingpractical.Andhewentondrinkingtoexcitehimself,togivehimselfcouragenottoallowsuchanopportunitytoescapehim,ashemightneverhaveanother.
Suddenlyanideastruckhim,aterribleidea;andheleftoffdrinkingtomatureit.Hesmiledashemurmured:"Ihavethem,Ihavethem!Wewillsee;wewillsee!"
Theyfinishedtheirluncheonslowly,conversingwithperfectunconcern.
Parentcouldnothearwhattheyweresaying,buthesawtheirquietgestures.Hiswife’sfaceespeciallyexasperatedhim.Shehadassumedahaughtyair,theairofacomfortable,devoutwoman,ofanunapproachable,devoutwoman,sheathedinprinciples,iron—cladinvirtue.Theypaidtheirbillandgotupfromtable.ParentthennoticedLimousin.Hemighthavebeentakenforaretireddiplomat,forhelookedamanofgreatimportance,withhissoftwhitewhiskers,thetipsofwhichtouchedhiscoatcollar.
Theywalkedaway.Parentroseandfollowedthem.Firsttheywentupanddowntheterrace,andcalmlyadmiredthelandscape,andthentheywent.
intotheforest.Parentfollowedthematadistance,hidinghimselfsoasnottoexcitetheirsuspiciontoosoon.
Parentcameuptothembydegrees,breathinghardwithemotionandfatigue,forhewasunusedtowalkingnow.Hesooncameuptothem,butwasseizedwithfear,aninexplicablefear,andhepassedthem,soastoturnroundandmeetthemfacetoface.Hewalkedon,hisheartbeating,feelingthattheywerejustbehindhimnow,andhesaidtohimself:
"Come,nowisthetime.Courage!courage!Nowisthemoment!"
Heturnedround.Theywereallthreesittingonthegrass,atthefootofahugetree,andwerestillchatting.Hemadeuphismind,andwalkedbackrapidly;stoppinginfrontoftheminthemiddleoftileroad,hesaidabruptly,inavoicebrokenbyemotion:
"ItisI!HereIam!Isupposeyoudidnotexpectme?"
Theyallthreestaredatthisman,whoseemedtobeinsane.
Hecontinued:
"Onewouldsupposethatyoudidnotknowmeagain.Justlookatme!I
amParent,HenriParent.Youthoughtitwasallover,andthatyouwouldneverseemeagain.Ah!buthereIamoncemore,yousee,andnowwewillhaveanexplanation."
Henriette,terrified,hidherfaceinherhands,murmuring:"Oh!Goodheavens!"
Seeingthisstranger,whoseemedtobethreateninghismother,Georgesprangup,readytoseizehimbythecollar.Limousin,thunderstruck,lookedinhorroratthisapparition,who,aftergaspingforbreath,continued:
"Sonowwewillhaveanexplanation;thepropermomenthascome!Ah!
youdeceivedme,youcondemnedmetothelifeofaconvict,andyouthoughtthatIshouldnevercatchyou!"
Theyoungmantookhimbytheshouldersandpushedhimback.
"Areyoumad?"heasked."Whatdoyouwant?Goonyourwayimmediately,orIshallgiveyouathrashing!"
"WhatdoIwant?"repliedParent."Iwanttotellyouwhothesepeopleare."
George,however,wasinarage,andshookhim;andwasevengoingtostrikehim.
"Letmego,"saidParent."Iamyourfather.There,seewhethertheyrecognizemenow,thewretches!"
Theyoungman,thunderstruck,unclenchedhisfistsandturnedtowardhismother.Parent,assoonashewasreleased,approachedher.
"Well,"hesaid,"tellhimyourselfwhoIam!TellhimthatmynameisHenriParent,thatIamhisfatherbecausehisnameisGeorgeParent,becauseyouaremywife,becauseyouareallthreelivingonmymoney,ontheallowanceoftenthousandfrancswhichIhavemadeyousinceIdroveyououtofmyhouse.WillyoutellhimalsowhyIdroveyouout?
BecauseIsurprisedyouwiththisbeggar,thiswretch,yourlover!TellhimwhatIwas,anhonorableman,whomyoumarriedformoney,andwhomyoudeceivedfromtheveryfirstday.Tellhimwhoyouare,andwhoI
am————"
Hestammeredandgaspedforbreathinhisrage.Thewomanexclaimedinaheartrendingvoice:
"Paul,Paul,stophim;makehimbequiet!Donotlethimsaythisbeforemyson!"
Limousinhadalsorisentohisfeet.Hesaidinaverylowvoice:
"Holdyourtongue!Holdyourtongue!Doyouunderstandwhatyouaredoing?"
"IquiteknowwhatIamdoing,"resumedParent,"andthatisnotall.
ThereisonethingthatIwillknow,somethingthathastormentedmefortwentyyears."Then,turningtoGeorge,whowasleaningagainstatreeinconsternation,hesaid:
"Listentome.Whensheleftmyhouseshethoughtitwasnotenoughtohavedeceivedme,butshealsowantedtodrivemetodespair.Youweremyonlyconsolation,andshetookyouwithher,swearingthatIwasnotyourfather,but,thathewasyourfather.Wasshelying?Idonotknow.Ihavebeenaskingmyselfthequestionforthelasttwentyyears."
Hewentcloseuptoher,tragicandterrible,and,pullingawayherhands,withwhichshehadcoveredherface,hecontinued:
"Well,now!Icalluponyoutotellmewhichofustwoisthefatherofthisyoungman;heorI,yourhusbandoryourlover.Come!Come!tellus."
Limousinrushedathim.Parentpushedhimback,and,sneeringinhisfury,hesaid:"Ah!youarebravenow!YouarebraverthanyouwerethatdaywhenyourandownstairsbecauseyouthoughtIwasgoingtomurderyou.Verywell!Ifshewillnotreply,tellmeyourself.Yououghttoknowaswellasshe.Tellme,areyouthisyoungfellow’sfather?Come!Come!Tellme!"
Heturnedtohiswifeagain."Ifyouwillnottellme,atanyratetellyourson.Heisaman,now,andhehastherighttoknowwhohisfatheris.Idonotknow,andIneverdidknow,never,never!Icannottellyou,myboy."
Heseemedtobelosinghissenses;hisvoicegrewshrillandheworkedhisarmsaboutasifhehadanepileptic’fit.
"Come!Givemeananswer.ShedoesnotknowIwillmakeabetthatshedoesnotknowNoshedoesnotknow,byJove!Ha!ha!ha!NobodyknowsnobodyHowcanoneknowsuchthings?
Youwillnotknoweither,myboy,youwillnotknowanymorethanIdoneverLookhereAskheryouwillfindthatshedoesnotknowIdonotknoweithernordoeshe,nordoyou,nobodyknows.YoucanchooseYoucanchoose
yes,youcanchoosehimormeChoose.
GoodeveningItisallover.Ifshemakesuphermindtotellyou,youwillcomeandletmeknow,willyounot?IamlivingattheHoteldesContinentsIshouldbegladtoknowGoodeveningIhopeyouwillenjoyyourselvesverymuch"
Andhewentawaygesticulating,talkingtohimselfunderthetalltrees,inthequiet,thecoolair,whichwasfullofthefragranceofgrowingplants.Hedidnotturnroundtolookatthem,butwentstraighton,walkingunderthestimulusofhisrage,underastormofpassion,withthatonefixedideainhismind.Allatoncehefoundhimselfoutsidethestation.Atrainwasabouttostartandhegotin.Duringthejourneyhisangercalmeddown,heregainedhissensesandreturnedtoParis,astonishedathisownboldness,fullofachesandpainsasifhehadbrokensomebones.Nevertheless,hewenttohavea"bock"athisbrewery.
Whenshesawhimcomein,MademoiselleZoeaskedinsurprise:"What!
backalready?areyoutired?"
"Yes——yes,IamtiredverytiredYouknow,whenoneisnotusedtogoingoutI’vehadenoughofit.Ishallnotgointothecountryagain.Itwouldhavebeenbettertohavestayedhere.Forthefuture,Ishallnotstirout."
Shecouldnotpersuadehimtotellherabouthislittleexcursion,muchasshewishedto.
Forthefirsttimeinhislifehegotthoroughlydrunkthatnight,andhadtobecarriedhome.
QUEENHORTENSE
InArgenteuilshewascalledQueenHortense.Nooneknewwhy.Perhapsitwasbecauseshehadacommandingtoneofvoice;perhapsbecauseshewastall,bony,imperious;perhapsbecauseshegovernedakingdomofservants,chickens,dogs,cats,canaries,parrots,allsodeartoanoldmaid’sheart.Butshedidnotspoilthesefamiliarfriends;shehadforthemnoneofthoseendearingnames,noneofthefoolishtendernesswhichwomenseemtolavishonthesoftfurofapurringcat.Shegovernedthesebeastswithauthority;shereigned.
Shewasindeedanoldmaid——oneofthoseoldmaidswithaharshvoiceandangularmotions,whoseverysoulseemstobehard.Sheneverwouldstandcontradiction,argument,hesitation,indifference,lazinessnorfatigue.
Shehadneverbeenheardtocomplain,toregretanything,toenvyanyone.
Shewouldsay:"Everyonehashisshare,"withtheconvictionofafatalist.Shedidnotgotochurch,shehadnouseforpriests,shehardlybelievedinGod,callingallreligiousthings"weeper’swares."
Forthirtyyearsshehadlivedinherlittlehouse,withitstinygardenrunningalongthestreet;shehadneverchangedherhabits,onlychangingherservantspitilessly,assoonastheyreachedtwenty—oneyearsofage.
Whenherdogs,catsandbirdswoulddieofoldage,orfromanaccident,shewouldreplacethemwithouttearsandwithoutregret;withalittlespadeshewouldburythedeadanimalinastripofground,throwingafewshovelfulsofearthoveritandstampingitdownwithherfeetinanindifferentmanner.
Shehadafewfriendsintown,familiesofclerkswhowenttoPariseveryday.Onceinawhileshewouldbeinvitedout,intheevening,totea.
Shewouldinevitablyfallasleep,andshewouldhavetobeawakened,whenitwastimeforhertogohome.Sheneverallowedanyonetoaccompanyher,fearingneitherlightnordarkness.Shedidnotappeartolikechildren.
Shekeptherselfbusydoingcountlessmasculinetasks——carpentering,gardening,sawingorchoppingwood,evenlayingbrickswhenitwasnecessary.
Shehadrelativeswhocametoseehertwiceayear,theCimmesandtheColombels,hertwosistershavingmarried,oneofthemafloristandtheotheraretiredmerchant.TheCimmeshadnochildren;theColombelshadthree:Henri,PaulineandJoseph.Henriwastwenty,PaulineseventeenandJosephonlythree.
Therewasnolovelostbetweentheoldmaidandherrelatives.
Inthespringoftheyear1882QueenHortensesuddenlyfellsick.
Theneighborscalledinaphysician,whomsheimmediatelydroveout.
Apriestthenhavingpresentedhimself,shejumpedoutofbed,inordertothrowhimoutofthehouse.
Theyoungservant,indespair,wasbrewinghersometea.
Afterlyinginbedforthreedaysthesituationappearedsoseriousthatthebarrel—maker,wholivednextdoor,totheright,actingonadvicefromthedoctor,whohadforciblyreturnedtothehouse,tookituponhimselftocalltogetherthetwofamilies.
Theyarrivedbythesametrain,towardsteninthemorning,theColombelsbringinglittleJosephwiththem.
Whentheygottothegardengate,theysawtheservantseatedinthechairagainstthewall,crying.
Thedogwassleepingonthedoormatinthebroilingsun;twocats,whichlookedasthoughtheymightbedead,werestretchedoutinfrontofthetwowindows,theireyesclosed,theirpawsandtailsstretchedoutatfulllength.
Abigcluckinghenwasparadingthroughthegardenwithawholeregimentofyellow,downychicks,andabigcagehangingfromthewallandcoveredwithpimpernel,containedapopulationofbirdswhichwerechirpingawayinthewarmthofthisbeautifulspringmorning.
Inanothercage,shapedlikeachalet,twolovebirdssatmotionlesssidebysideontheirperch.
M.Cimme,afat,puffingperson,whoalwaysenteredfirsteverywhere,pushingasideeveryoneelse,whethermanorwoman,whenitwasnecessary,asked:
"Well,Celeste,aren’tthingsgoingwell?"
Thelittleservantmoanedthroughhertears:
"Shedoesn’tevenrecognizemeanymore.Thedoctorsaysit’stheend."
Everybodylookedaround.
Mme.CimmeandMme.Colombelimmediatelyembracedeachother,withoutsayingaword.Theylockedverymuchalike,havingalwaysworntheirhairinMadonnabands,andloudredFrenchcashmereshawls.
Cimmeturnedtohisbrother—in—law,apale,sal,low—complexioned,thinman,wastedbystomachcomplaints,wholimpedbadly,andsaidinaserioustoneofvoice:
"Gad!Itwashightime."
Butnoonedaredtoenterthedyingwoman’sroomonthegroundfloor.
EvenCimmemadewayfortheothers.Colombelwasthefirsttomakeuphismind,and,swayingfromsidetosidelikethemastofaship,theironferuleofhiscaneclatteringonthepavedhall,heentered.
Thetwowomenwerethenexttoventure,andM.Cimmesclosedtheprocession.
LittleJosephhadremainedoutside,pleasedatthesightofthedog.
Arayofsunlightseemedtocutthebedintwo,shiningjustonthehands,whichweremovingnervously,continuallyopeningandclosing.
Thefingersweretwitchingasthoughmovedbysomethought,asthoughtryingtopointoutameaningoridea,asthoughobeyingthedictatesofawill.Therestofthebodylaymotionlessunderthesheets.Theangularframeshowednotasinglemovement.Theeyesremainedclosed.
Thefamilyspreadoutinasemi—circleand,withoutaword,theybegantowatchthecontractedchestandtheshort,gaspingbreathing.Thelittleservanthadfollowedthemandwasstillcrying.
AtlastCimmeasked:
"Exactlywhatdidthedoctorsay?"
Thegirlstammered:
"Hesaidtoleaveheralone,thatnothingmorecouldbedoneforher."
Butsuddenlytheoldwoman’slipsbegantomove.Sheseemedtobeutteringsilentwords,wordshiddeninthebrainofthisdyingbeing,andherhandsquickenedtheirpeculiarmovements.
Thenshebegantospeakinathin,highvoice,whichnoonehadeverheard,avoicewhichseemedtocomefromthedistance,perhapsfromthedepthsofthisheartwhichhadalwaysbeenclosed.
Cimme,findingthisscenepainful,walkedawayontiptoe.Colombel,whosecrippledlegwasgrowingtired,satdown.
Thetwowomenremainedstanding.
QueenHortensewasnowbabblingaway,andnoonecouldunderstandaword.
Shewaspronouncingnames,manynames,tenderlycallingimaginarypeople.