下载辰思小说免费APP
"AndthenalsoIfeltsomethingintheair,somethingIcouldnotexpress,oneofthosemysteriouspremonitionsthatwarnoneofanotherperson’ssecretintentionsinregardtoyourself,whethertheybegoodorevil.
"Thatpainfulsilencelastedsometime,andthenBerthasaidtome:
"’Willyoukindlyputalogonthefireforitisgoingout.’
"SoIopenedtheboxwherethewoodwaskept,whichwasplacedjustwhereyoursis,tookoutthelargestlogandputitontopoftheothers,whichwerethreepartsburned,andthensilenceagainreignedintheroom.
"Inafewminutesthelogwasburningsobrightlythatitscorchedourfaces,andtheyoungwomanraisedhereyestomine——eyesthathadastrangelooktome.
"’Itistoohotnow,’shesaid;’letusgoandsitonthesofaoverthere.’
"Sowewentandsatonthesofa,andthenshesaidsuddenly,lookingmefullintheface:
"’Whatwouldyoudoifawomanweretotellyouthatshewasinlovewithyou?’
"’Uponmyword,’Ireplied,verymuchatalossforananswer,’Icannotforeseesuchacase;butitwoulddependverymuchuponthewoman.’
"Shegaveahard,nervous,vibratinglaugh;oneofthosefalselaughswhichseemasiftheymustbreakthinglass,andthensheadded:’Menarenevereitherventuresomeorspiteful.’And,afteramoment’ssilence,shecontinued:’Haveyoueverbeeninlove,MonsieurPaul?’IwasobligedtoacknowledgethatIcertainlyhad,andsheaskedmetotellherallaboutit.WhereuponImadeupsomestoryorother.Shelistenedtomeattentively,withfrequentsignsofdisapprovalandcontempt,andthensuddenlyshesaid:
"’No,youunderstandnothingaboutthesubject.Itseemstomethatreallovemustunsettlethemind,upsetthenervesanddistractthehead;thatitmust——howshallIexpressit?——bedangerous,eventerrible,almostcriminalandsacrilegious;thatitmustbeakindoftreason;Imeantosaythatitisboundtobreaklaws,fraternalbonds,sacredobligations;
whenloveistranquil,easy,lawfulandwithoutdangers,isitreallylove?’
"Ididnotknowwhatanswertogiveher,andImadethisphilosophicalreflectiontomyself:’Oh!femalebrain,here;indeed,youshowyourself!’
"Whilespeaking,shehadassumedademuresaintlyair;and,restingonthecushions,shestretchedherselfoutatfulllength,withherheadonmyshoulder,andherdresspulledupalittlesoastoshowherredstockings,whichthefirelightmadelookstillbrighter.Inaminuteortwoshecontinued:
"’IsupposeIhavefrightenedyou?’Iprotestedagainstsuchanotion,andsheleanedagainstmybreastaltogether,andwithoutlookingatme,shesaid:’IfIweretotellyouthatIloveyou,whatwouldyoudo?’
"AndbeforeIcouldthinkofananswer,shehadthrownherarmsaroundmyneck,hadquicklydrawnmyheaddown,andputherlipstomine.
"Oh!Mydearfriend,IcantellyouthatIdidnotfeelatallhappy!
What!deceiveJulien?becometheloverofthislittle,silly,wrong—
headed,deceitfulwoman,whowas,nodoubt,terriblysensual,andwhomherhusbandnolongersatisfied.
Tobetrayhimcontinually,todeceivehim,toplayatbeinginlovemerelybecauseIwasattractedbyforbiddenfruit,bythedangerincurredandthefriendshipbetrayed!No,thatdidnotsuitme,butwhatwasItodo?ToimitateJosephwouldbeactingaverystupidand,moreover,difficultpart,forthiswomanwasenchantinginherperfidy,inflamedbyaudacity,palpitatingandexcited.Letthemanwhohasneverfeltonhislipsthewarmkissofawomanwhoisreadytogiveherselftohimthrowthefirststoneatme.
"Well,aminutemore——youunderstandwhatImean?Aminutemore,and——I
shouldhavebeen——no,shewouldhavebeen!——Ibegyourpardon,hewouldhavebeen——whenaloudnoisemadeusbothjumpup.Theloghadfallenintotheroom,knockingoverthefireironsandthefender,andontothecarpet,whichithadscorched,andhadrolledunderanarmchair,whichitwouldcertainlysetalight.
"Ijumpeduplikeamadman,and,asIwasreplacingonthefirethatlogwhichhadsavedme,thedooropenedhastily,andJuliencamein.
"’Iamfree,’hesaid,withevidentpleasure.’ThebusinesswasovertwohourssoonerthanIexpected!’
"Yes,mydearfriend,withoutthatlog,Ishouldhavebeencaughtintheveryact,andyouknowwhattheconsequenceswouldhavebeen!
"YoumaybesurethatItookgoodcarenevertobefoundinasimilarsituationagain,never,never.SoonafterwardIsawthatJulienwasgivingmethe’coldshoulder,’astheysay.Hiswifewasevidentlyunderminingourfriendship.Bydegreeshegotridofme,andwehavealtogetherceasedtomeet.
"Inevermarried,whichoughtnottosurpriseyou,Ithink."
JULIEROMAIN
TwoyearsagothisspringIwasmakingawalkingtouralongtheshoreoftheMediterranean.Isthereanythingmorepleasantthantomeditatewhilewalkingatagoodpacealongahighway?Onewalksinthesunlight,throughthecaressingbreeze,atthefootofthemountains,alongthecoastofthesea.Andonedreams!Whatafloodofillusions,loves,adventurespassthroughapedestrian’smindduringatwohours’march!
Whatacrowdofconfusedandjoyoushopesenterintoyouwiththemild,lightair!Youdrinktheminwiththebreeze,andtheyawakeninyourheartalongingforhappinesswhichincreaseswiththehungerinducedbywalking.Thefleeting,charmingideasflyandsinglikebirds.
IwasfollowingthatlongroadwhichgoesfromSaintRaphaeltoItaly,or,rather,thatlong,splendidpanoramichighwaywhichseemsmadefortherepresentationofallthelove—poemsofearth.AndIthoughtthatfromCannes,whereoneposes,toMonaco,whereonegambles,peoplecometothisspotoftheearthforhardlyanyotherpurposethantogetembroiledortothrowawaymoneyonchancegames,displayingunderthisdeliciousskyandinthisgardenofrosesandorangesallbasevanitiesandfoolishpretensionsandvilelusts,showingupthehumanmindsuchasitis,servile,ignorant,arrogantandfullofcupidity.
SuddenlyIsawsomevillasinoneofthoseravishingbaysthatonemeetsateveryturnofthemountain;therewereonlyfourorfivefrontingtheseaatthefootofthemountains,andbehindthemawildfirwoodslopesintotwogreatvalleys,thatwereuntraversedbyroads.Istoppedshortbeforeoneofthesechalets,itwassopretty:asmallwhitehousewithbrowntrimmings,overrunwithramblerrosesuptothetop.
Thegardenwasamassofflowers,ofallcolorsandallkinds,mixedinacoquettish,well—planneddisorder.Thelawnwasfullofthem,bigpotsflankedeachsideofeverystepoftheporch,pinkoryellowclustersframedeachwindow,andtheterracewiththestonebalustrade,whichenclosedthisprettylittledwelling,hadagarlandofenormousredbells,likedropsofblood.BehindthehouseIsawalongavenueoforangetreesinblossom,whichwentuptothefootofthemountain.
Overthedoorappearedthename,"Villad’Antan,"insmallgoldletters.
Iaskedmyselfwhatpoetorwhatfairywaslivingthere,whatinspired,solitarybeinghaddiscoveredthisspotandcreatedthisdreamhouse,whichseemedtonestleinanosegay.
Aworkmanwasbreakingstonesupthestreet,andIwenttohimtoaskthenameoftheproprietorofthisjewel.
"ItisMadameJulieRomain,"hereplied.
JulieRomain!Inmychildhood,longago,Ihadheardthemspeakofthisgreatactress,therivalofRachel.
Nowomaneverwasmoreapplaudedandmoreloved——especiallymoreloved!
Whatduetsandsuicidesonheraccountandwhatsensationaladventures!
Howoldwasthisseductivewomannow?Sixty,seventy,seventy—five!
JulieRomainhere,inthishouse!Thewomanwhohadbeenadoredbythegreatestmusicianandthemostexquisitepoetofourland!Istillrememberthesensation(Iwasthentwelveyearsofage)whichherflighttoSicilywiththelatter,afterherrupturewiththeformer,causedthroughoutFrance.
Shehadleftoneevening,afterapremiere,wheretheaudiencehadapplaudedherforawholehalfhour,andhadrecalledhereleventimesinsuccession.Shehadgoneawaywiththepoet,inapost—chaise,aswasthefashionthen;theyhadcrossedthesea,toloveeachotherinthatantiqueisland,thedaughterofGreece,inthatimmenseorangewoodwhichsurroundsPalermo,andwhichiscalledthe"ShellofGold."
PeopletoldoftheirascensionofMountEtnaandhowtheyhadleanedovertheimmensecrater,arminarm,cheektocheek,asiftothrowthemselvesintotheveryabyss.
Nowhewasdead,thatmakerofversessotouchingandsoprofoundthattheyturned,theheadsofawholegeneration,sosubtleandsomysteriousthattheyopenedanewworldtotheyoungerpoets.
Theotheronealsowasdead——thedesertedone,whohadattainedthroughhermusicalperiodsthatarealiveinthememoriesofall,periodsoftriumphandofdespair,intoxicatingtriumphandheartrendingdespair.
Andshewasthere,inthathouseveiledbyflowers.
Ididnothesitate,butrangthebell.
Asmallservantanswered,aboyofeighteenwithawkwardmienandclumsyhands.Iwroteinpencilonmycardagallantcomplimenttotheactress,begginghertoreceiveme.Perhaps,ifsheknewmyname,shewouldopenherdoortome.
Thelittlevalettookitin,andthencameback,askingmetofollowhim.
Heledmetoaneatanddecoroussalon,furnishedintheLouis—Philippestyle,withstiffandheavyfurniture,fromwhichalittlemaidofsixteen,slenderbutnotpretty,tookoffthecoversinmyhonor.
ThenIwasleftalone.
Onthewallshungthreeportraits,thatoftheactressinoneofherroles,thatofthepoetinhisclose—fittinggreatcoatandtheruffledshirttheninstyle,andthatofthemusicianseatedatapiano.
She,blond,charming,butaffected,accordingtothefashionofherday,wassmiling,withherprettymouthandblueeyes;thepaintingwascareful,fine,elegant,butlifeless.
Thosefacesseemedtobealreadylookinguponposterity.
Thewholeplacehadtheairofabygonetime,ofdaysthatweredoneandmenwhohadvanished.
Adooropenedandalittlewomanentered,old,veryold,verysmall,withwhitehairandwhiteeyebrows,averitablewhitemouse,andasquickandfurtiveofmovement.
Sheheldoutherhandtome,sayinginavoicestillfresh,sonorousandvibrant:
"Thankyou,monsieur.Howkinditisofthemenofto—daytorememberthewomenofyesterday!Sitdown."
Itoldherthatherhousehadattractedme,thatIhadinquiredfortheproprietor’sname,andthat,onlearningit,Icouldnotresistthedesiretoringherbell.
"Thisgivesmeallthemorepleasure,monsieur,"shereplied,"asitisthefirsttimethatsuchathinghashappened.WhenIreceivedyourcard,withthegraciousnote,Itrembledasifanoldfriendwhohaddisappearedfortwentyyearshadbeenannouncedtome.Iamlikeadeadbody,whomnooneremembers,ofwhomnoonewillthinkuntilthedaywhenIshallactuallydie;thenthenewspaperswillmentionJulieRomainforthreedays,relatinganecdotesanddetailsofmylife,revivingmemories,andpraisingmegreatly.Thenallwillbeoverwithme."
Afterafewmomentsofsilence,shecontinued:
"Andthiswillnotbesoverylongnow.Inafewmonths,inafewdays,nothingwillremainbutalittleskeletonofthislittlewomanwhoisnowalive."
Sheraisedhereyestowardherportrait,whichsmileddownuponthiscaricatureofherself;thenshelookedatthoseofthetwomen,thedisdainfulpoetandtheinspiredmusician,whoseemedtosay:"Whatdoesthisruinwantofus?"
Anindefinable,poignant,irresistiblesadnessoverwhelmedmyheart,thesadnessofexistencesthathavehadtheirday,butwhoarestilldebatingwiththeirmemories,likeapersondrowningindeepwater.
FrommyseatIcouldseeonthehighroadthehandsomecarriagesthatwerewhirlingfromNicetoMonaco;insidethemIsawyoung,pretty,richandhappywomenandsmiling,satisfiedmen.Followingmyeye,sheunderstoodmythoughtandmurmuredwithasmileofresignation:
"Onecannotbothbeandhavebeen."
"Howbeautifullifemusthavebeenforyou!"Isaid.
Sheheavedagreatsigh.
"Beautifulandsweet!AndforthatreasonIregretitsomuch."
Isawthatshewasdisposedtotalkofherself,soIbegantoquestionher,gentlyanddiscreetly,asonemighttouchbruisedflesh.
Shespokeofhersuccesses,herintoxicationsandherfriends,ofherwholetriumphantexistence.
"Wasitonthestagethatyoufoundyourmostintensejoys,yourtruehappiness?"Iasked.
"Oh,no!"sherepliedquickly.
Ismiled;then,raisinghereyestothetwoportraits,shesaid,withasadglance:
"Itwaswiththem."
"Whichone?"Icouldnothelpasking.
"Both.Ievenconfusethemupalittlenowinmyoldwoman’smemory,andthenIfeelremorse."
"Then,madame,youracknowledgmentisnottothem,buttoLoveitself.
Theyweremerelyitsinterpreters."
"Thatispossible.Butwhatinterpreters!"
"Areyousurethatyouhavenotbeen,orthatyoumightnothavebeen,lovedaswellorbetterbyasimpleman,butnotagreatman,whowouldhaveofferedtoyouhiswholelifeandheart,allhisthoughts,allhisdays,hiswholebeing,whilethesegaveyoutworedoubtablerivals,MusicandPoetry?"
"No,monsieur,no!"sheexclaimedemphatically,withthatstillyouthfulvoice,whichcausedthesoultovibrate."Anotheronemightperhapshavelovedmemore,buthewouldnothavelovedmeasthesedid.Ah!thosetwosangtomeofthemusicofloveasnooneelseintheworldcouldhavesungofit.Howtheyintoxicatedme!Couldanyothermanexpresswhattheyknewsowellhowtoexpressintonesandinwords?Isitenoughmerelytoloveifonecannotputallthepoetryandallthemusicofheavenandearthintolove?Andtheyknewhowtomakeawomandeliriouswithsongsandwithwords.Yes,perhapstherewasmoreofillusionthanofrealityinourpassion;buttheseillusionsliftyouintotheclouds,whilerealitiesalwaysleaveyoutrailinginthedust.
Ifothershavelovedmemore,throughthesetwoIhaveunderstood,feltandworshippedlove."
Suddenlyshebegantoweep.
Sheweptsilently,sheddingtearsofdespair.
Ipretendednottosee,lookingoffintothedistance.Sheresumed,afterafewminutes:
"Yousee,monsieur,withnearlyeveryonetheheartageswiththebody.
Butthishasnothappenedwithme.Mybodyissixty—nineyearsold,whilemypoorheartisonlytwenty.AndthatisthereasonwhyIliveallalone,withmyflowersandmydreams."
Therewasalongsilencebetweenus.Shegrewcalmerandcontinued,smiling:
"Howyouwouldlaughatme,ifyouknew,ifyouknewhowIpassmyevenings,whentheweatherisfine.IamashamedandIpitymyselfatthesametime."
BegasImight,shewouldnottellmewhatshedid.ThenIrosetoleave.
"Already!"sheexclaimed.
AndasIsaidthatIwishedtodineatMonteCarlo,sheaskedtimidly:
"Willyounotdinewithme?Itwouldgivemeagreatdealofpleasure."
Iacceptedatonce.Sherang,delighted,andaftergivingsomeorderstothelittlemaidshetookmeoverherhouse.
Akindofglass—enclosedveranda,filledwithshrubs,openedintothedining—room,revealingatthefartherendthelongavenueoforangetreesextendingtothefootofthemountain.Alowseat,hiddenbyplants,indicatedthattheoldactressoftencametheretositdown.
Thenwewentintothegarden,tolookattheflowers.Eveningfellsoftly,oneofthosecalm,moisteveningswhentheearthbreathesforthallherperfumes.Daylightwasalmostgonewhenwesatdownattable.
Thedinnerwasgoodanditlastedalongtime,andwebecameintimatefriends,sheandI,whensheunderstoodwhataprofoundsympathyshehadarousedinmyheart.Shehadtakentwothimblefulsofwine,asthephrasegoes,andhadgrownmoreconfidingandexpansive.
"Come,letuslookatthemoon,"shesaid."Iadorethegoodmoon.Shehasbeenthewitnessofmymostintensejoys.Itseemstomethatallmymemoriesarethere,andthatIneedonlylookathertobringthemallbacktome.Andeven——sometimes——intheevening——Ioffertomyselfaprettyplay——yes,pretty——ifyouonlyknew!Butno,youwouldlaughatme.Icannot——Idarenot——no,no——really——no."
Iimploredhertotellmewhatitwas.
"Come,now!come,tellme;IpromiseyouthatIwillnotlaugh.Iswearittoyou——come,now!"
Shehesitated.Itookherhands——thosepoorlittlehands,sothinandsocold!——andIkissedthemoneaftertheother,severaltimes,asherlovershadoncekissedthem.Shewasmovedandhesitated.
"Youpromisemenottolaugh?"
"Yes,Iswearittoyou."
"Well,then,come."
Sherose,andasthelittledomestic,awkwardinhisgreenlivery,removedthechairbehindher,shewhisperedquicklyafewwordsintohisear.
"Yes,madame,atonce,"hereplied.
Shetookmyarmandledmetotheveranda.
Theavenueoforangeswasreallysplendidtosee.Thefullmoonmadeanarrowpathofsilver,alongbrightline,whichfellontheyellowsand,betweentheround,opaquecrownsofthedarktrees.
Asthesetreeswereinbloom,theirstrong,sweetperfumefilledthenight,andswarmingamongtheirdarkfoliageIsawthousandsoffireflies,whichlookedlikeseedsfallenfromthestars.
"Oh,whatasettingforalovescene!"Iexclaimed.
Shesmiled.
"Isitnottrue?Isitnottrue?Youwillsee!"
Andshemademesitdownbesideher.
"Thisiswhatmakesonelongformorelife.Butyouhardlythinkofthesethings,youmenofto—day.Youarespeculators,merchantsandmenofaffairs.
Younolongerevenknowhowtotalktous.WhenIsay’you,’Imeanyoungmeningeneral.Lovehasbeenturnedintoaliaisonwhichveryoftenbeginswithanunpaiddressmaker’sbill.Ifyouthinkthebillisdearerthanthewoman,youdisappear;butifyouholdthewomanmorehighly,youpayit.Nicemorals——andanicekindoflove!"
Shetookmyhand.
"Look!"
Ilooked,astonishedanddelighted.Downthereattheendoftheavenue,inthemoonlight,weretwoyoungpeople,withtheirarmsaroundeachother’swaist.Theywerewalkingalong,interlaced,charming,withshort,littlesteps,crossingtheflakesoflight;whichilluminatedthemmomentarily,andthensinkingbackintotheshadow.Theyouthwasdressedinasuitofwhitesatin,suchasmenworeintheeighteenthcentury,andhadonahatwithanostrichplume.Thegirlwasarrayedinagownwithpanniers,andthehigh,powderedcoiffureofthehandsomedamesofthetimeoftheRegency.
Theystoppedahundredpacesfromus,andstandinginthemiddleoftheavenue,theykissedeachotherwithgracefulgestures.
SuddenlyIrecognizedthetwolittleservants.Thenoneofthosedreadfulfitsoflaughterthatconvulseyoumademewritheinmychair.
ButIdidnotlaughaloud.Iresisted,convulsedandfeelingalmostill,asamanwhoselegiscutoffresiststheimpulsetocryout.
Astheyoungpairturnedtowardthefartherendoftheavenuetheyagainbecamedelightful.Theywentfartherandfartheraway,finallydisappearingasadreamdisappears.Inolongersawthem.Theavenueseemedasadplace.
Itookmyleaveatonce,soasnottoseethemagain,forIguessedthatthislittleplaywouldlastalongtime,awakening,asitdid,awholepastofloveandofstagescenery;theartificialpast,deceitfulandseductive,falsebutcharming,whichstillstirredtheheartofthisamorousoldcomedienne.
THERONDOLISISTERS
I
IsetouttoseeItalythoroughlyontwooccasions,andeachtimeIwasstoppedatthefrontierandcouldnotgetanyfurther.SoIdonotknowItaly,saidmyfriend,CharlesJouvent.Andyetmytwoattemptsgavemeacharmingideaofthemannersofthatbeautifulcountry.Sometime,however,Imustvisititscities,aswellasthemuseumsandworksofartwithwhichitabounds.Iwillmakeanotherattempttopenetrateintotheinterior,whichIhavenotyetsucceededindoing.
Youdon’tunderstandme,soIwillexplain:Inthespringof1874IwasseizedwithanirresistibledesiretoseeVenice,Florence,RomeandNaples.Iam,asyouknow,notagreattraveller;itappearstomeauselessandfatiguingbusiness.Nightsspentinatrain,thedisturbedslumbersoftherailwaycarriage,withtheattendantheadache,andstiffnessineverylimb,thesuddenwakinginthatrollingbox,theunwashedfeeling,withyoureyesandhairfullofdust,thesmellofthecoalonwhichone’slungsfeed,thosebaddinnersinthedraughtyrefreshmentroomsare,accordingtomyideas,ahorriblewayofbeginningapleasuretrip.
Afterthisintroduction,wehavethemiseriesofthehotel;ofsomegreathotelfullofpeople,andyetsoempty;thestrangeroomandthedoubtfulbed!
Iammostparticularaboutmybed;itisthesanctuaryoflife.Weentrustouralmostnakedandfatiguedbodiestoitsothattheymaybereanimatedbyreposingbetweensoftsheetsandfeathers.
Therewefindthemostdelightfulhoursofourexistence,thehoursofloveandofsleep.Thebedissacred,andshouldberespected,veneratedandlovedbyusasthebestandmostdelightfulofourearthlypossessions.
Icannotliftupthesheetsofahotelbedwithoutashudderofdisgust.
Whohasoccupieditthenightbefore?Perhapsdirty,revoltingpeoplehavesleptinit.Ibegin,then,tothinkofallthehorriblepeoplewithwhomonerubsshoulderseveryday,peoplewithsuspicious—lookingskinwhichmakesonethinkofthefeetandalltherest!Icalltomindthosewhocarryaboutwiththemthesickeningsmellofgarlicorofhumanity.Ithinkofthosewhoaredeformedandunhealthy,oftheperspirationemanatingfromthesick,ofeverythingthatisuglyandfilthyinman.
Andallthis,perhaps,inthebedinwhichIamabouttosleep!ThemereideaofitmakesmefeelillasIgetintoit.
Andthenthehoteldinners——thosedrearytabled’hotedinnersinthemidstofallsortsofextraordinarypeople,orelsethoseterriblesolitarydinnersatasmalltableinarestaurant,feeblylightedbyawretchedcompositecandleunderashade.
Again,thoseterriblydulleveningsinsomeunknowntown!Doyouknowanythingmorewretchedthantheapproachof.duskonsuchanoccasion?
Onegoesaboutasifalmostinadream,lookingatfacesthatoneneverhasseenbeforeandneverwillseeagain;listeningtopeopletalkingaboutmatterswhicharequiteindifferenttoyouinalanguagethatperhapsyoudonotunderstand.Youhaveaterriblefeeling,almostasifyouwerelost,andyoucontinuetowalkonsoasnottobeobligedtoreturntothehotel,whereyouwouldfeelmoreloststillbecauseyouareathome,inahomewhichbelongstoanyonewhocanpayforit;andatlastyousinkintoachairofsomewell—lightedcafe,whosegildingandlightsoppressyouathousandtimesmorethantheshadowsinthestreets.
Thenyoufeelsoabominablylonelysittinginfrontoftheglassofflatbockbeerthatakindofmadnessseizesyou,thelongingtogosomewhereorother,nomatterwhere,aslongasyouneednotremaininfrontofthatmarbletableamidthosedazzlinglights.
Andthen,suddenly,youareawarethatyouarereallyaloneintheworld,alwaysandeverywhere,andthatinplaceswhichweknow,thefamiliarjostlingsgiveustheillusiononlyofhumanfraternity.Atsuchmomentsofself—abandonmentandsombreisolationindistantcitiesonethinksbroadly,clearlyandprofoundly.Thenonesuddenlyseesthewholeoflifeoutsidethevisionofeternalhope,apartfromthedeceptionsofourinnatehabits,andofourexpectationsofhappiness,whichweindulgeindreamsnevertoberealized.
Itisonlybygoingalongdistancefromhomethatwecanfullyunderstandhowshort—livedandemptyeverythingnearathandis;bysearchingfortheunknown,weperceivehowcommonplaceandevanescenteverythingis;onlybywanderingoverthefaceoftheearthcanweunderstandhowsmalltheworldis,andhowverymuchalikeitiseverywhere.
HowwellIknow,andhowIhateandalmostfear,thosehaphazardwalksthroughunknownstreets;andthiswasthereasonwhy,asnothingwouldinducemetoundertakeatourinItalybymyself,ImadeupmymindtoaccompanymyfriendPaulPavilly.
YouknowPaul,andhowheidealizeswomen.Tohimtheearthishabitableonlybecausetheyarethere;thesungiveslightandiswarmbecauseitshinesuponthem;theairissoftandbalmybecauseitblowsupontheirskinandrufflesthesofthairontheirtemples;andthemoonischarmingbecauseitmakesthemdreamandimpartsalanguorouscharmtolove.
EveryactandactionofPaul’shaswomanforitsmotive;allhisthoughts,allhiseffortsandhopesarecenteredinthem.
WhenImentionedItalytoPaulheatfirstabsolutelyrefusedtoleaveParis.I,however,begantotellhimoftheadventuresIhadonmytravels.IassuredhimthatallItalianwomenarecharming,andImadehimhopeforthemostrefinedpleasuresatNaples,thankstocertainlettersofintroductionwhichIhad;andsoatlastheallowedhimselftobepersuaded.
II
WetooktheexpressoneThursdayevening,PaulandI.Hardlyanyonegoessouthatthattimeoftheyear,sothatwehadthecarriagestoourselves,andbothofuswereinabadtemperonleavingParis,sorryforhavingyieldedtothetemptationofthisjourney,andregrettingMarly,theSeine,andourlazyboatingexcursions,andallthosepleasuresinandnearPariswhicharesodeartoeverytrueParisian.
AssoonasthetrainstartedPaulstuckhimselfinhiscorner,andsaid,"Itismostidiotictogoallthatdistance,"andasitwastoolateforhimtochangehismindthen,Isaid,"Well,youshouldnothavecome."
Hemadenoanswer,andIfeltverymuchinclinedtolaughwhenIsawhowfurioushelooked.Heiscertainlyalwaysratherlikeasquirrel,buttheneveryoneofushasretainedthetypeofsomeanimalorotherasthemarkofhisprimitiveorigin.Howmanypeoplehavejawslikeabulldog,orheadslikegoats,rabbits,foxes,horses,oroxen.Paulisasquirrelturnedintoaman.Hehasitsbright,quickeyes,itshair,itspointednose,itssmall,fine,supple,activebody,andacertainmysteriousresemblanceinhisgeneralbearing;infact,asimilarityofmovement,ofgesture,andofbearingwhichmightalmostbetakenforarecollection.
Atlastwebothwenttosleepwiththatuncomfortableslumberoftherailwaycarriage,whichisinterruptedbyhorriblecrampsinthearmsandneck,andbythesuddenstoppagesofthetrain.
WewokeupaswewerepassingalongtheRhone.Soonthecontinuednoiseofcricketscameinthroughthewindows,thatcrywhichseemstobethevoiceofthewarmearth,thesongofProvence;andseemedtoinstillintoourlooks,ourbreasts,andoursoulsthelightandhappyfeelingofthesouth,thatodoroftheparchedearth,ofthestonyandlightsoiloftheolivewithitsgray—greenfoliage.
Whenthetrainstoppedagainarailwayguardranalongthetraincallingout"Valence"inasonorousvoice,withanaccentthatagaingaveusatasteofthatProvencewhichtheshrillnoteofthecricketshadalreadyimpartedtous.
NothingfreshhappenedtillwegottoMarseilles,wherewealightedforbreakfast,butwhenwereturnedtoourcarriagewefoundawomaninstalledthere.
Paul,withadelightedglanceatme,gavehisshortmustacheamechanicaltwirl,andpassedhisfingersthroughhis,hair,which.hadbecomeslightlyoutoforderwiththenight’sjourney.Thenhesatdownoppositethenewcomer.
WheneverIhappentoseeastrikingnewface,eitherintravellingorinsociety,Ialwayshavethestrongestinclinationtofindoutwhatcharacter,mind,andintellectualcapacitiesarehiddenbeneaththosefeatures.
Shewasayoungandprettywoman,certainlyanativeofthesouthofFrance,withsplendideyes,beautifulwavyblackhair,whichwassothickandlongthatitseemedalmosttooheavyforherhead.Shewasdressedwithacertainsouthernbadtastewhichmadeherlookalittlevulgar.
Herregularfeatureshadnoneofthegraceandfinishoftherefinedraces,ofthatslightdelicacywhichmembersofthearistocracyinheritfromtheirbirth,andwhichisthehereditarymarkofthinnerblood.
Herbraceletsweretoobigtobeofgold;sheworeearringswithlargewhitestonesthatwerecertainlynotdiamonds,andshebelongedunmistakablytothePeople.Onesurmisedthatshewouldtalktooloud,andshoutoneveryoccasionwithexaggeratedgestures.
Whenthetrainstartedsheremainedmotionlessinherplace,intheattitudeofawomanwhowasindignant,withoutevenlookingatus.
Paulbegantotalktome,evidentlywithaneyetoeffect,tryingtoattractherattention,asshopkeepersexposetheirchoicewarestocatchthenoticeofpassersby.
She,however,didnotappeartobepayingtheleastattention.
"Toulon!Tenminutestowait!Refreshmentroom!"theportersshouted.
Paulmotionedtometogetout,andassoonaswehaddoneso,hesaid:
"Iwonderwhoonearthshecanbe?"
Ibegantolaugh."IamsureIdon’tknow,andIdon’tintheleastcare."
Hewasquiteexcited.
"Sheisanuncommonlyfreshandprettygirl.Whateyesshehas,andhowcrossshelooks.Shemusthavebeendreadfullyworried,forshetakesnonoticeofanything."
"Youwillhaveallyourtroublefornothing,"Igrowled.
Hebegantolosehistemper.
"Iamnottakinganytrouble,mydearfellow.Ithinkheranextremelyprettywoman,thatisall.Ifonecouldonlyspeaktoher!ButIdon’tknowhowtobegin.Cannotyougivemeanidea?Can’tyouguesswhosheis?"
"Uponmyword,Icannot.However,Ishouldratherthinksheissomestrollingactresswhoisgoingtorejoinhercompanyafteraloveadventure."
Heseemedquiteupset,asifIhadsaidsomethinginsulting.
"Whatmakesyouthinkthat?Onthecontrary,Ithinkshelooksmostrespectable."
"Justlookatherbracelets,"Isaid,"herearringsandherwholedress.
Ishouldnotbetheleastsurprisedifshewereadanceroracircusrider,butmostlikelyadancer.Herwholestylesmacksverymuchofthetheatre."
Heevidentlydidnotliketheidea.
"Sheismuchtooyoung,Iamsure;why,sheishardlytwenty."
"Well,"Ireplied,"therearemanythingswhichonecandobeforeoneistwenty;dancingandelocutionareamongthem."
"TakeyourseatsforNice,Vintimiglia,"theguardsandporterscalled.
Wegotin;ourfellowpassengerwaseatinganorange,andcertainlyshedidnotdoitelegantly.Shehadspreadherpocket—handkerchiefonherknees,andthewayinwhichshetoreoffthepeelandopenedhermouthtoputinthepieces,andthenspatthepipsoutofthewindow,showedthathertraininghadbeendecidedlyvulgar.
Sheseemed,also,moreputoutthanever,andswallowedthefruitwithanexceedinglycomicairofrage.
Pauldevouredherwithhiseyes,andtriedtoattractherattentionandexcitehercuriosity;butinspiteofhistalk,andofthemannerinwhichhebroughtinwell—knownnames,shedidnotpaytheleastattentiontohim.
AfterpassingFrejusandSt.Raphael,thetrainpassedthroughaveritablegarden,aparadiseofroses,andgrovesoforangesandlemonscoveredwithfruitsandflowersatthesametime.ThatdelightfulcoastfromMarseillestoGenoaisakingdomofperfumesinahomeofflowers.
Juneisthetimetoseeitinallitsbeauty,whenineverynarrowvalleyandoneveryslope,themostexquisiteflowersaregrowingluxuriantly.
Andtheroses!fields,hedges,grovesofroses.Theyclimbupthewalls,blossomontheroofs,hangfromthetrees,peepoutfromamongthebushes;theyarewhite,red,yellow,largeandsmall,single,withasimpleself—coloreddress,orfullandheavyinbrillianttoilettes.
Theirbreathmakestheairheavyandrelaxing,andthestillmorepenetratingodoroftheorangeblossomssweetenstheatmospheretillitmightalmostbecalledtherefinementofodor.
Theshore,withitsbrownrocks,wasbathedbythemotionlessMediterranean.Thehotsummersunstretchedlikeafieryclothoverthemountains,overthelongexpansesofsand,andoverthemotionless,apparentlysolidbluesea.Thetrainwentonthroughthetunnels,alongtheslopes,abovethewater,onstraight,wall—likeviaducts,andasoft,vague,saltishsmell,asmellofdryingseaweed,mingledattimeswiththestrong,heavyperfumeoftheflowers.
ButPaulneithersaw,lookedat,norsmelledanything,forourfellowtravellerengrossedallhisattention.
WhenwereachedCannes,ashewishedtospeaktomehesignedtometogetout,andassoonasIdidso,hetookmebythearm.
"Doyouknow,sheisreallycharming.Justlookathereyes;andIneversawanythinglikeherhair."
"Don’texciteyourself,"Ireplied,"orelseaddressher,ifyouhaveanyintentionsthatway.Shedoesnotlookunapproachable;Ifancy,althoughsheappeartobealittlebitgrumpy."
"Whydon’tyouspeaktoher?"hesaid.
"Idon’tknowwhattosay,forIamalwaysterriblystupidatfirst;I
cannevermakeadvancestoawomaninthestreet.Ifollowthem,goroundandroundthem,andquiteclosetothem,butneverknowwhattosayatfirst.Ionlyoncetriedtoenterintoconversationwithawomaninthatway.AsIclearlysawthatshewaswaitingformetomakeovertures,andasIfeltboundtosaysomething,Istammeredout,’Ihopeyouarequitewell,madame?’Shelaughedinmyface,andImademyescape."
IpromisedPaultodoallIcouldtobringaboutaconversation,andwhenwehadtakenourplacesagain,Ipolitelyaskedourneighbor:
"Haveyouanyobjectiontothesmelloftobacco,madame?"
Shemerelyreplied,"Noncapisco."
SoshewasanItalian!Ifeltanabsurdinclinationtolaugh.AsPauldidnotunderstandawordofthatlanguage,Iwasobligedtoactashisinterpreter,soIsaidinItalian:
"Iaskedyou,madame,whetheryouhadanyobjectiontotobaccosmoke?"
Withanangrylookshereplied,"Chemifa!"
Shehadneitherturnedherheadnorlookedatme,andIreallydidnotknowwhethertotakethis"WhatdoIcare"foranauthorization,arefusal,arealsignofindifference,orforamere"Letmealone."
"Madame,"Ireplied,"ifyoumindthesmelloftobaccointheleast——"
Sheagainsaid,"Mica,"inatonewhichseemedtomean,"Iwishtogoodnessyouwouldleavemealone!"Itwas,however,akindofpermission,soIsaidtoPaul:
"Youmaysmoke."
Helookedatmeinthatcurioussortofwaythatpeoplehavewhentheytrytounderstandotherswhoaretalkinginastrangelanguagebeforethem,andaskedme:
"Whatdidyousaytoher?"
"Iaskedwhetherwemightsmoke,andshesaidwemightdowhateverweliked."
WhereuponIlightedmycigar.
"Didshesayanythingmore?"
"Ifyouhadcountedherwordsyouwouldhavenoticedthatsheusedexactlysix,twoofwhichgavemetounderstandthatsheknewnoFrench,sofourremained,andmuchcanbesaidinfourwords."
Paulseemedquiteunhappy,disappointed,andatsea,sotospeak.
ButsuddenlytheItalianaskedme,inthattoneofdiscontentwhichseemedhabitualtoher,"DoyouknowatwhattimeweshallgettoGenoa?"
"Ateleveno’clock,"Ireplied.ThenafteramomentIwenton:
"MyfriendandIarealsogoingtoGenoa,andifwecanbeofanyservicetoyou,weshallbeveryhappy,asyouarequitealone."Butsheinterruptedwithsucha"Mica!"thatIdidnotventureonanotherword.
"Whatdidshesay?"Paulasked.
"Shesaidshethoughtyouwerecharming."
Buthewasinnohumorforjoking,andbeggedmedrylynottomakefunofhim;soItranslatedherquestionandmypoliteoffer,whichhadbeensorudelyrejected.
Thenhereallybecameasrestlessasacagedsquirrel.
"Ifweonlyknew,"hesaid,"whathotelshewasgoingto,wewouldgotothesame.Trytofindoutsoastohaveanotheropportunitytomakehertalk."
Itwasnotparticularlyeasy,andIdidnotknowwhatpretexttoinvent,desirousasIwastomaketheacquaintanceofthisunapproachableperson.
WepassedNice,Monaco,Mentone,andthetrainstoppedatthefrontierfortheexaminationofluggage.
AlthoughIhatethoseill—bredpeoplewhobreakfastanddineinrailway—
carriages,Iwentandboughtaquantityofgoodthingstomakeonelastattackonherbytheirmeans.Ifeltsurethatthisgirlmust,ordinarily,bebynomeansinaccessible.Somethinghadputheroutandmadeherirritable,butverylittlewouldsuffice,amerewordorsomeagreeableoffer,todecideherandvanquishher.
Westartedagain,andwethreewerestillalone.Ispreadmyeatablesontheseat.Icutupthefowl,puttheslicesofhamneatlyonapieceofpaper,andthencarefullylaidoutourdessert,strawberries,plums,cherriesandcakes,closetothegirl.
Whenshesawthatwewereabouttoeatshetookapieceofchocolateandtwolittlecrispcakesoutofherpocketandbegantomunchthem.
"Askhertohavesomeofours,"Paulsaidinawhisper.
"ThatisexactlywhatIwishtodo,butitisratheradifficultmatter."
Asshe,however,glancedfromtimetotimeatourprovisions,Ifeltsurethatshewouldstillbehungrywhenshehadfinishedwhatshehadwithher;so,assoonasherfrugalmealwasover,Isaidtoher:
"Itwouldbeverykindofyouifyouwouldtakesomeofthisfruit."
Againshesaid"Mica!"butlesscrosslythanbefore.
"Well,then,"Isaid,"mayIofferyoualittlewine?Iseeyouhavenotdrunkanything.ItisItalianwine,andaswearenowinyourowncountry,weshouldbeverypleasedtoseesuchaprettyItalianmouthaccepttheofferofitsFrenchneighbors."
Sheshookherheadslightly,evidentlywishingtorefuse,butverydesirousofaccepting,andhermicathistimewasalmostpolite.Itooktheflask,whichwascoveredwithstrawintheItalianfashion,andfillingtheglass,Iofferedittoher.
"Pleasedrinkit,"Isaid,"tobiduswelcometoyourcountry."
Shetooktheglasswithherusuallook,andemptieditatadraught,likeawomanconsumedwiththirst,andthengaveitbacktomewithoutevensaying"Thankyou."
Ithenofferedherthecherries."Pleasetakesome,"Isaid;"weshallbesogladifyouwill."
Outofhercornershelookedatallthefruitspreadoutbesideher,andsaidsorapidlythatIcouldscarcelyfollowher:"Amenonpiacciononeleciriegienelesusine;amosoltanolefragole."
"Whatdoesshesay?"Paulasked.
"Thatshedoesriotcareforcherriesorplums,butonlyforstrawberries."
Iputanewspaperfullofwildstrawberriesonherlap,andsheatethemquickly,tossingthemintohermouthfromsomedistanceinacoquettishandcharmingmanner.
Whenshehadfinishedthelittleredheap,whichsoondisappearedundertherapidactionofherhands,Iaskedher:
"WhatmayIofferyounow?"
"Iwilltakealittlechicken,"shereplied.
Shecertainlydevouredhalfofit,tearingittopieceswiththerapidmovementsofherjawslikesomecarnivorousanimal.Thenshemadeuphermindtohavesomecherries,whichshe"didnotlike,"andthensomeplums,thensomelittlecakes.Thenshesaid,"Ihavehadenough,"andsatbackinhercorner.
Iwasmuchamused,andtriedtomakehereatmore,insisting,infact,tillshesuddenlyflewintoarage,andflungsuchafuriousmicaatme,thatIwouldnolongerruntheriskofspoilingherdigestion.
Iturnedtomyfriend."MypoorPaul,"Isaid,"Iamafraidwehavehadourtroublefornothing."
Thenightcameon,oneofthosehotsummernightswhichextendtheirwarmshadeovertheburningandexhaustedearth.Hereandthere,inthedistance,bythesea,oncapesandpromontories,brightstars,whichI
was,attimes,almostinclinedtoconfoundwithlighthouses,begantoshineonthedarkhorizon:
Thescentoftheorangetreesbecamemorepenetrating,andwebreathedwithdelight,distendingourlungstoinhaleitmoredeeply.Thebalmyairwassoft,delicious,almostdivine.
SuddenlyInoticedsomethinglikeashowerofstarsunderthedenseshadeofthetreesalongtheline,whereitwasquitedark.Itmighthavebeentakenfordropsoflight,leaping,flying,playingandrunningamongtheleaves,orforsmallstarsfallenfromtheskiesinordertohaveanexcursionontheearth;buttheywereonlyfirefliesdancingastrangefieryballetintheperfumedair.
Oneofthemhappenedtocomeintoourcarriage,andsheditsintermittentlight,whichseemedtobeextinguishedonemomentandtobeburningthenext.Icoveredthecarriage—lampwithitsblueshadeandwatchedthestrangeflycareeringaboutinitsfieryflight.Suddenlyitsettledonthedarkhairofourneighbor,whowashalfdozingafterdinner.Paulseemeddelighted,withhiseyesfixedonthebright,sparklingspot,whichlookedlikealivingjewelontheforeheadofthesleepingwoman.
TheItalianwokeupabouteleveno’clock,withthebrightinsectstillinherhair.WhenIsawhermove,Isaid:"WearejustgettingtoGenoa,madame,"andshemurmured,withoutansweringme,asifpossessedbysomeobstinateandembarrassingthought:
"WhatamIgoingtodo,Iwonder?"
Andthenshesuddenlyasked:
"Wouldyoulikemetocomewithyou?"
IwassotakenabackthatIreallydidnotunderstandher.
"Withus?Howdoyoumean?"
Sherepeated,lookingmoreandmorefurious:
"Wouldyoulikemetobeyourguidenow,assoonaswegetoutofthetrain?"
"Iamquitewilling;butwheredoyouwanttogo.
Sheshruggedhershoulderswithanairofsupremeindifference.
"Whereveryoulike;whatdoesitmattertome?"Sherepeatedher"Chemifa"twice.
"Butwearegoingtothehotel."
"Verywell,letusallgotothehotel,"shesaid,inacontemptuousvoice.
IturnedtoPaul,andsaid:
"Shewishestoknowwhetherweshouldlikehertocomewithus."
Myfriend’suttersurpriserestoredmyself—possession.Hestammered:
"Withus?Whereto?Whatfor?How?"
"Idon’tknow,butshemadethisstrangeproposaltomeinamostirritatedvoice.Itoldherthatweweregoingtothehotel,andshesaid:’Verywell,letusallgothere!’Isupposesheiswithoutapenny.
Shecertainlyhasaverystrangewayofmakingacquaintances."
Paul,who’wasverymuchexcited,exclaimed:
"Iamquiteagreeable.Tellherthatwewillgowherevershelikes."
Then,afteramoment’shesitation,hesaiduneasily:
"Wemustknow,however,withwhomshewishestogo——withyouorwithme?"
IturnedtotheItalian,whodidnotevenseemtobelisteningtous,andsaid:
"Weshallbeveryhappytohaveyouwithus,butmyfriendwishestoknowwhetheryouwilltakemyarmorhis?"
Sheopenedherblackeyeswidewithvaguesurprise,andsaid,"Chenifa?"
Iwasobligedtoexplainmyself."InItaly,Ibelieve,whenamanlooksafterawoman,fulfilsallherwishes,andsatisfiesallhercaprices,heiscalledapatito.Whichofustwowillyoutakeforyourpatito?"
Withouttheslightesthesitationshereplied:
"You!"
IturnedtoPaul."Yousee,myfriend,shechoosesme;youhavenochance."
"Allthebetterforyou,"herepliedinarage.Then,afterthinkingforafewmoments,hewenton:
"Doyoureallycareabouttakingthiscreaturewithyou?Shewillspoilourjourney.Whatarewetodowiththiswoman,wholookslikeIdon’tknowwhat?Theywillnottakeusinatanydecenthotel."
I,however,justbegantofindtheItalianmuchnicerthanIhadthoughtheratfirst,andIwasnowverydesiroustotakeherwithus.Theideadelightedme.
Ireplied,"Mydearfellow,wehaveaccepted,anditistoolatetorecede.Youwerethefirsttoadvisemetosay’Yes.’"
"Itisverystupid,"hegrowled,"butdoasyouplease."
Thetrainwhistled,slackenedspeed,andweranintothestation.
Igotoutofthecarriage,andofferedmynewcompanionmyhand.Shejumpedoutlightly,andIgavehermyarm,whichshetookwithanairofseemingrepugnance.Assoonaswehadclaimedourluggagewesetoffintothetown,Paulwalkinginuttersilence.
"Towhathotelshallwego?"Iaskedhim."ItmaybedifficulttogetintotheCityofPariswithawoman,especiallywiththisItalian."
Paulinterruptedme."Yes,withanItalianwholooksmorelikeadancerthanaduchess.However,thatisnobusinessofmine.Dojustasyouplease."
Iwasinastateofperplexity.IhadwrittentotheCityofParistoretainourrooms,andnowIdidnotknowwhattodo.
Twocommissionairesfolloweduswithourluggage.Icontinued:"Youmightaswellgoonfirst,andsaythatwearecoming;andgivethelandlordtounderstandthatIhavea——afriendwithmeandthatweshouldlikeroomsquitebythemselvesforusthree,soasnottobebroughtincontactwithothertravellers.Hewillunderstand,andwewilldecideaccordingtohisanswer."
ButPaulgrowled,"Thankyou,suchcommissionsandsuchpartsdonotsuitme,byanymeans.Ididnotcomeheretoselectyourapartmentsortoministertoyourpleasures."
ButIwasurgent:"Lookhere,don’tbeangry.Itissurelyfarbettertogotoagoodhotelthantoabadone,anditisnotdifficulttoaskthelandlordforthreeseparatebedroomsandadining—room."
Iputastressonthree,andthatdecidedhim.
Hewentonfirst,andIsawhimgointoalargehotelwhileIremainedontheothersideofthestreet,withmyfairItalian,whodidnotsayaword,andfollowedtheporterswiththeluggage.
Paulcamebackatlast,lookingasdissatisfiedasmycompanion.
"Thatissettled,"hesaid,"andtheywilltakeusin;buthereareonlytwobedrooms.Youmustsettleitasyoucan."
Ifollowedhim,ratherashamedofgoinginwithsuchastrangecompanion.
Thereweretwobedroomsseparatedbyasmallsitting—room.Iorderedacoldsupper,andthenIturnedtotheItalianwithaperplexedlook.
"Wehaveonlybeenabletogettworooms,soyoumustchoosewhichyoulike."
Sherepliedwithhereternal"Chemifa!"Ithereupontookupherlittleblackwoodentrunk,suchasservantsuse,andtookitintotheroomontheright,whichIhadchosenforher.Abitofpaperwasfastenedtothebox,onwhichwaswritten,MademoiselleFrancescaRondoli,Genoa.
"YournameisFrancesca?"Iasked,andshenoddedherhead,withoutreplying.
"Weshallhavesupperdirectly,"Icontinued."Meanwhile,Idaresayyouwouldliketoarrangeyourtoilettealittle?"
Sheansweredwitha’mica’,awordwhichsheemployedjustasfrequentlyas’Chemefa’,butIwenton:"Itisalwayspleasantafterajourney."
ThenIsuddenlyrememberedthatshehadnot,perhaps,thenecessaryrequisites,forsheappearedtomeinaverysingularposition,asifshehadjustescapedfromsomedisagreeableadventure,andIbroughthermydressing—case.
Iputoutallthelittleinstrumentsforcleanlinessandcomfortwhichitcontained:anail—brush,anewtoothbrush——Ialwayscarryaselectionofthemaboutwithme——mynail—scissors,anail—file,andsponges.I
uncorkedabottleofeaudecologne,oneoflavender—water,andalittlebottleofnew—mownhay,sothatshemighthaveachoice.ThenIopenedmypowder—box,andputoutthepowder—puff,placedmyfinetowelsoverthewater—jug,andapieceofnewsoapnearthebasin.
Shewatchedmymovementswithalookofannoyanceinherwide—openeyes,withoutappearingeitherastonishedorpleasedatmyforethought.
"Hereisallthatyourequire,"Ithensaid;"Iwilltellyouwhensupperisready."
WhenIreturnedtothesitting—roomIfoundthatPaulhadshuthimselfintheotherroom,soIsatdowntowait.
Awaiterwenttoandfro,bringingplatesandglasses.Helaidthetableslowly,thenputacoldchickenonit,andtoldmethatallwasready.
IknockedgentlyatMademoiselleRondoli’sdoor."Comein,"shesaid,andwhenIdidsoIwasstruckbyastrong,heavysmellofperfumes,asifIwereinahairdresser’sshop.
TheItalianwassittingonhertrunkinanattitudeeitherofthoughtfuldiscontentorabsent—mindedness.Thetowelwasstillfoldedoverthewaterjugthatwasfullofwater,andthesoap,untouchedanddry,waslyingbesidetheemptybasin;butonewouldhavethoughtthattheyoungwomanhadusedhalfthecontentsofthebottlesofperfume.Theeaudecologne,however,hadbeenspared,asonlyaboutathirdofithadgone;
buttomakeupforthatshehadusedasurprisingamountoflavender—
waterandnew—mownhay.Acloudofvioletpowder,avaguewhitemist,seemedstilltobefloatingintheair,fromtheeffectsofherover—
powderingherfaceandneck.Itseemedtocoverhereyelashes,eyebrows,andthehaironhertempleslikesnow,whilehercheekswereplasteredwithit,andlayersofitcoveredhernostrils,thecornersofhereyes,andherchin.
Whenshegotupsheexhaledsuchastrongodorofperfumethatitalmostmademefeelfaint.
Whenwesatdowntosupper,IfoundthatPaulwasinamostexecrabletemper,andIcouldgetnothingoutofhimbutblame,irritablewords,anddisagreeableremarks.
MademoiselleFrancescaatelikeanogre,andassoonasshehadfinishedhermealshethrewherselfuponthesofainthesitting—room.Sittingdownbesideher,Isaidgallantly,kissingherhand:
"ShallIhavethebedprepared,orwillyousleeponthecouch?"
"Itisallthesametome.’Chemifa’!"
Herindifferencevexedme.
"Shouldyouliketoretireatonce?"
"Yes;Iamverysleepy."
Shegotup,yawned,gaveherhandtoPaul,whotookitwithafuriouslook,andIlightedherintothebedroom.Adisquietingfeelinghauntedme."Hereisallyouwant,"Isaidagain.
Thenextmorningshegotupearly,likeawomanwhoisaccustomedtowork.Shewokemebydoingso,andIwatchedherthroughmyhalf—closedeyelids.
Shecameandwentwithouthurryingherself,asifshewereastonishedathavingnothingtodo.Atlengthshewenttothedressing—table,andinamomentemptiedallmybottlesofperfume.Shecertainlyalsousedsomewater,butverylittle.
Whenshewasquitedressed,shesatdownonhertrunkagain,andclaspingonekneebetweenherhands,sheseemedtobethinking.
AtthatmomentIpretendedtofirstnoticeher,andsaid:
"Good—morning,Francesca."
Withoutseeminginatallabettertemperthanthepreviousnight,shemurmured,"Good—morning!"
WhenIaskedherwhethershehadsleptwell,shenoddedherhead,andjumpingoutofbed,Iwentandkissedher.
Sheturnedherfacetowardmelikeachildwhoisbeingkissedagainstitswill;butItookhertenderlyinmyarms,andgentlypressedmylipsonhereyelids,whichsheclosedwithevidentdistasteundermykissesonherfreshcheekandfulllips,whichsheturnedaway.
"Youdon’tseemtolikebeingkissed,"Isaidtoher.
"Mica!"washeronlyanswer.
Isatdownonthetrunkbyherside,andpassingmyarmthroughhers,I
said:"Mica!mica!mica!inreplytoeverything.IshallcallyouMademoiselleMica,Ithink."
ForthefirsttimeIfanciedthatIsawtheshadowofasmileonherlips,butitpassedbysoquicklythatImayhavebeenmistaken.
"ButifyouneversayanythingbutMica,Ishallnotknowwhattodotopleaseyou.Letmesee;whatshallwedoto—day?"
Shehesitatedamoment,asifsomefancyhadflittedthroughherhead,andthenshesaidcarelessly:"Itisallthesametome;whateveryoulike."
"Verywell,MademoiselleMica,wewillhaveacarriageandgoforadrive."
"Asyouplease,"shesaid.
Paulwaswaitingforusinthedining—room,lookingasboredasthirdpartiesusuallydoinloveaffairs.Iassumedadelightedair,andshookhandswithhimwithtriumphantenergy.
"Whatareyouthinkingofdoing?"heasked.
"Firstofall,wewillgoandseealittleofthetown,andthenwemightgetacarriageandtakeadriveintheneighborhood."
Webreakfastedalmostinsilence,andthensetout.IdraggedFrancescafrompalacetopalace,andsheeitherlookedatnothingormerelyglancedcarelesslyatthevariousmasterpieces.Paulfollowedus,growlingallsortsofdisagreeablethings.Thenweallthreetookadriveinsilenceintothecountryandreturnedtodinner.
Thenextdayitwasthesamethingandthenextdayagain;andonthethirdPaulsaidtome:"Lookhere,Iamgoingtoleaveyou;Iamnotgoingtostophereforthreeweekswatchingyoumakelovetothiscreature."
Iwasperplexedandannoyed,fortomygreatsurpriseIhadbecomesingularlyattachedtoFrancesca.Amanisbutweakandfoolish,carriedawaybythemeresttrifle,andacowardeverytimethathissensesareexcitedormastered.Iclungtothisunknowngirl,silentanddissatisfiedasshealwayswas.Ilikedhersomewhatill—temperedface,thedissatisfieddroopofhermouth,thewearinessofherlook;Ilikedherfatiguedmovements,thecontemptuouswayinwhichsheletmekissher,theveryindifferenceofhercaresses.Asecretbond,thatmysteriousbondofphysicallove,whichdoesnotsatisfy,boundmetoher.ItoldPaulso,quitefrankly.HetreatedmeasifIwereafool,andthensaid:
"Verywell,takeherwithyou."
ButsheobstinatelyrefusedtoleaveGenoa,withoutgivinganyreason.
Ibesought,Ireasoned,Ipromised,butallwasofnoavail,andsoI
stayedon.
Pauldeclaredthathewouldgobyhimself,andwentsofarastopackuphisportmanteau;butheremainedallthesame.
Thusafortnightpassed.Francescawasalwayssilentandirritable,livedbesidemeratherthanwithme,respondedtoallmyrequirementsandallmypropositionswithherperpetualChemifa,orwithhernolessperpetualMica.
Myfriendbecamemoreandmorefurious,butmyonlyanswerwas,"Youcangoifyouaretiredofstaying.Iamnotdetainingyou."
Thenhecalledmenames,overwhelmedmewithreproaches,andexclaimed:
"WheredoyouthinkIcangonow?Wehadthreeweeksatourdisposal,andhereisafortnightgone!Icannotcontinuemyjourneynow;and,inanycase,IamnotgoingtoVenice,FlorenceandRomeallbymyself.Butyouwillpayforit,andmoredearlythanyouthink,mostlikely.YouarenotgoingtobringamanallthewayfromParisinordertoshuthimupatahotelinGenoawithanItalianadventuress."
WhenItoldhim,verycalmly,toreturntoParis,heexclaimedthatheintendedtodosotheverynextday;butthenextdayhewasstillthere,stillinarageandswearing.
Bythistimewebegantobeknowninthestreetsthroughwhichwewanderedfrommorningtillnight.SometimesFrenchpeoplewouldturnroundastonishedatmeetingtheirfellow—countrymeninthecompanyofthisgirlwithherstrikingcostume,wholookedsingularlyoutofplace,nottosaycompromising,besideus.
Sheusedtowalkalong,leaningonmyarm,withoutlookingatanything.
Whydidsheremainwithme,withus,whoseemedtodosolittletoamuseher?Whowasshe?Wheredidshecomefrom?Whatwasshedoing?Hadsheanyplanoridea?Wheredidshelive?Asanadventuress,orbychancemeetings?Itriedinvaintofindoutandtoexplainit.ThebetterIknewherthemoreenigmaticalshebecame.Sheseemedtobeagirlofpoorfamilywhohadbeentakenaway,andthencastasideandlost.Whatdidshethinkwouldbecomeofher,orwhomwasshewaitingfor?Shecertainlydidnotappeartobetryingtomakeaconquestofme,ortomakeanyrealprofitoutofme.
Itriedtoquestionher,tospeaktoherofherchildhoodandfamily;butshenevergavemeananswer.Istayedwithher,myheartunfetteredandmysensesenchained,neverweariedofholdingherinmyarms,thatproudandquarrelsomewoman,captivatedbymysenses,orrathercarriedaway,overcomebyayouthful,healthy,powerfulcharm,whichemanatedfromherfragrantpersonandfromthewell—moldedlinesofherbody.
Anotherweekpassed,andthetermofmyjourneywasdrawingon,forIhadtobebackinParisbytheeleventhofJuly.BythistimePaulhadcometotakehispartintheadventure,thoughstillgrumblingatme,whileI
inventedpleasures,distractionsandexcursionstoamuseFrancescaandmyfriend;andinordertodothisIgavemyselfagreatamountoftrouble.
OnedayIproposedanexcursiontoStaMargarita,thatcharminglittletowninthemidstofgardens,hiddenatthefootofaslopewhichstretchesfarintotheseauptothevillageofPortofino.Wethreewalkedalongtheexcellentroadwhichgoesalongthefootofthemountain.SuddenlyFrancescasaidtome:"Ishallnotbeabletogowithyouto—morrow;Imustgoandseesomeofmyrelatives."
Thatwasall;Ididnotaskheranyquestions,asIwasquitesureshewouldnotanswerme.
Thenextmorningshegotupveryearly.Whenshespoketomeitwasinaconstrainedandhesitatingvoice:
"IfIdonotcomebackagain,shallyoucomeandfetchme?"
"MostcertainlyIshall,"wasmyreply."WhereshallIgotofindyou?"
Thensheexplained:"YoumustgointotheStreetVictor—Emmanuel,downtheFalconeroadandthesidestreetSan—Rafaelandintothefurnitureshopinthebuildingattherightattheendofacourt,andthereyoumustaskforMadameRondoli.Thatistheplace."
Andsoshewentaway,leavingmeratherastonished.
WhenPaulsawthatIwasalone,hestammeredout:"Where;isFrancesca?"
AndwhenItoldhimwhathadhappened,heexclaimed:
"Mydearfellow,letusmakeuseofouropportunity,andbolt;asitis,ourtimeisup.Twodays,moreorless,makenodifference.Letusgoatonce;goandpackupyourthings.Offwego!"
ButIrefused.Icouldnot,asItoldhim,leavethegirlinthatmanneraftersuchcompanionshipfornearlythreeweeks.Atanyrate,Ioughttosaygood—bytoher,andmakeheracceptapresent;Icertainlyhadnointentionofbehavingbadlytoher.
Buthewouldnotlisten;hepressedandworriedme,butIwouldnotgiveway.
Iremainedindoorsforseveralhours,expectingFrancesca’sreturn,butshedidnotcome,andatlast,atdinner,Paulsaidwithatriumphantair:
"Shehasflown,mydearfellow;itiscertainlyverystrange."
ImustacknowledgethatIwassurprisedandrathervexed.Helaughedinmyface,andmadefunofme.
"Itisnotexactlyabadwayofgettingridofyou,thoughratherprimitive.’Justwaitforme,Ishallbebackinamoment,’theyoftensay.Howlongareyougoingtowait?Ishouldnotwonderifyouwerefoolishenoughtogoandlookforherattheaddressshegaveyou.’DoesMadameRondolilivehere,please?’’No,monsieur.’I’llbetthatyouarelongingtogothere."
"Notintheleast,"Iprotested,"andIassureyouthatifshedoesnotcomebackto—morrowmorningIshallleavebytheexpressateighto’clock.Ishallhavewaitedtwenty—fourhours,andthatisenough;myconsciencewillbequiteclear."
Ispentanuneasyandunpleasantevening,forIreallyhadatheartaverytenderfeelingforher.Iwenttobedattwelveo’clock,andhardlysleptatall.Igotupatsix,calledPaul,packedupmythings,andtwohourslaterwesetoutforFrancetogether.
III
Thenextyear,atjustaboutthesameperiod,Iwasseizedasoneiswithaperiodicalfever,withanewdesiretogotoItaly,andIimmediatelymadeupmymindtocarryitintoeffect.Thereisnodoubtthateveryreallywell—educatedmanoughttoseeFlorence,VeniceandRome.Thistravelhas,also,theadditionaladvantageofprovidingmanysubjectsofconversationinsociety,andofgivingoneanopportunityforbringingforwardartisticgeneralitieswhichappearprofound.
ThistimeIwentalone,andIarrivedatGenoaatthesametimeastheyearbefore,butwithoutanyadventureontheroad.Iwenttothesamehotel,andactuallyhappenedtohavethesameroom.
IwashardlyinbedwhentherecollectionofFrancescawhich,sincetheeveningbefore,hadbeenfloatingvaguelythroughmymind,hauntedmewithstrangepersistency.Ithoughtofhernearlythewholenight,andbydegreesthewishtoseeheragainseizedme,aconfuseddesireatfirst,whichgraduallygrewstrongerandmoreintense.AtlastImadeupmymindtospendthenextdayinGenoatotrytofindher,andifI
shouldnotsucceed,totaketheeveningtrain.
EarlyinthemorningIsetoutonmysearch.Irememberedthedirectionsshehadgivenmewhensheleftme,perfectly——Victor—EmmanuelStreet,houseofthefurniture—dealer,atthebottomoftheyardontheright.
Ifounditwithouttheleastdifficulty,andIknockedatthedoorofasomewhatdilapidated—lookingdwelling.Itwasopenedbyastoutwoman,whomusthavebeenveryhandsome,butwhoactuallywasonlyverydirty.
Althoughshehadtoomuchembonpoint,shestillborethelinesofmajesticbeauty;heruntidyhairfelloverherforeheadandshoulders,andonefanciedonecouldseeherfloatingaboutinanenormousdressing—
gowncoveredwithspotsofdirtandgrease.Roundhernecksheworeagreatgiltnecklace,andonherwristsweresplendidbraceletsofGenoafiligreework.
InratherahostilemannersheaskedmewhatIwanted,andIrepliedbyrequestinghertotellmewhetherFrancescaRondolilivedthere.
"Whatdoyouwantwithher?"sheasked.
"Ihadthepleasureofmeetingherlastyear,andIshouldliketoseeheragain."
Theoldwomanlookedatmesuspiciously.
"Wheredidyoumeether?"sheasked.
"Why,hereinGenoaitself."
"Whatisyourname?"
Ihesitatedamoment,andthenItoldher.IhadhardlydonesowhentheItalianputoutherarmsasiftoembraceme."Oh!youaretheFrenchmanhowgladIamtoseeyou!Butwhatgriefyoucausedthepoorchild!Shewaitedforyouamonth;yes,awholemonth.Atfirstshethoughtyouwouldcometofetchher.Shewantedtoseewhetheryoulovedher.Ifyouonlyknewhowshecriedwhenshesawthatyouwerenotcoming!Shecriedtillsheseemedtohavenotearsleft.Thenshewenttothehotel,butyouhadgone.ShethoughtthatmostlikelyyouweretravellinginItaly,andthatyouwouldreturnbyGenoatofetchher,asshewouldnotgowithyou.Andshewaitedmorethanamonth,monsieur;
andshewassounhappy;sounhappy.Iamhermother."
Ireallyfeltalittledisconcerted,butIregainedmyself—possession,andasked:
"Whereisshenow?"
"ShehasgonetoPariswithapainter,adelightfulman,wholovesherverymuch,andwhogiveshereverythingthatshewants.Justlookatwhatshesentme;theyareverypretty,aretheynot?"
Andsheshowedme,withquitesouthernanimation,herheavybraceletsandnecklace."Ihavealso,"shecontinued,"earringswithstonesinthem,asilkdress,andsomerings;butIonlywearthemongrandoccasions.
Oh!sheisveryhappy,monsieur,veryhappy.ShewillbesopleasedwhenItellheryouhavebeenhere.Butpraycomeinandsitdown.Youwilltakesomethingorother,surely?"
ButIrefused,asInowwishedtogetawaybythefirsttrain;butshetookmebythearmandpulledmein,saying:
"Please,comein;Imusttellherthatyouhavebeeninhere."
Ifoundmyselfinasmall,ratherdarkroom,furnishedwithonlyatableandafewchairs.
Shecontinued:"Oh,sheisveryhappynow,veryhappy.Whenyoumetherinthetrainshewasverymiserable;shehadhadanunfortunateloveaffairinMarseilles,andshewascominghome,poorchild.Butshelikedyouatonce,thoughshewasstillrathersad,youunderstand.Nowshehasallshewants,andshewritesandtellsmeeverythingthatshedoes.
HisnameisBellemin,andtheysayheisagreatpainterinyourcountry.
Hefellinlovewithheratfirstsight.Butyouwilltakeaglassofsirup?—itisverygood.Areyouquitealone,thisyear?"
"Yes,"Isaid,"quitealone."
Ifeltanincreasinginclinationtolaugh,asmyfirstdisappointmentwasdispelledbywhatMotherRondolisaid.Iwasobliged;however,todrinkaglassofhersirup.
"Soyouarequitealone?"shecontinued."HowsorryIamthatFrancescaisnotherenow;shewouldhavebeencompanyforyouallthetimeyoustayed.Itisnotveryamusingtogoaboutallbyoneself,andshewillbeverysorryalso."
Then,asIwasgettinguptogo,sheexclaimed:
"ButwouldyounotlikeCarlottatogowithyou?Sheknowsallthewalksverywell.Sheismyseconddaughter,monsieur."
Nodoubtshetookmylookofsurpriseforconsent,forsheopenedtheinnerdoorandcalledoutupthedarkstairswhichIcouldnotsee:
"Carlotta!Carlotta!makehastedown,mydearchild."
Itriedtoprotest,butshewouldnotlisten.
"No;shewillbeverygladtogowithyou;sheisverynice,andmuchmorecheerfulthanhersister,andsheisagoodgirl,averygoodgirl,whomIloveverymuch."
Inafewmomentsatall,slender,darkgirlappeared,herhairhangingdown,andheryouthfulfigureshowingunmistakablybeneathanolddressofhermother’s.
Thelatteratoncetoldherhowmattersstood.
"ThisisFrancesca’sFrenchman,youknow,theonewhomsheknewlastyear.Heisquitealone,andhascometolookforher,poorfellow;soItoldhimthatyouwouldgowithhimtokeephimcompany."
Thegirllookedatmewithherhandsomedarkeyes,andsaid,smiling:
"Ihavenoobjection,ifhewishesit"
Icouldnotpossiblyrefuse,andmerelysaid:
"Ofcourse,Ishallbeverygladofyourcompany."
Hermotherpushedherout."Goandgetdresseddirectly;putonyourbluedressandyourhatwiththeflowers,andmakehaste."
Assoonasshehadlefttheroomtheoldwomanexplainedherself:"Ihavetwoothers,buttheyaremuchyounger.Itcostsalotofmoneytobringupfourchildren.Luckilytheeldestisoffmyhandsatpresent."
Thenshetoldallaboutherself,aboutherhusband,whohadbeenanemployeeontherailway,butwhowasdead,andsheexpatiatedonthegoodqualitiesofCarlotta,hersecondgirl,whosoonreturned,dressed,ashersisterhadbeen,inastriking,peculiarmanner.
Hermotherexaminedherfromheadtofoot,and,afterfindingeverythingright,shesaid:
"Now,mychildren,youcango."Thenturningtothegirl,shesaid:"Besureyouarebackbyteno’clockto—night;youknowthedoorislockedthen."Theanswerwas:
"Allright,mamma;don’talarmyourself."
Shetookmyarmandwewentwanderingaboutthestreets,justasIhadwanderedthepreviousyearwithhersister.
Wereturnedtothehotelforlunch,andthenItookmynewfriendtoSantaMargarita,justasIhadtakenhersistertheyearpreviously.
DuringthewholefortnightwhichIhadatmydisposal,ItookCarlottatoalltheplacesofinterestinandaboutGenoa.Shegavemenocausetoregrethersister.
ShecriedwhenIlefther,andthemorningofmydepartureIgaveherfourbraceletsforhermother,besidesasubstantialtokenofmyaffectionforherself.
OneofthesedaysIintendtoreturntoItaly,andIcannothelprememberingwithacertainamountofuneasiness,mingledwithhope,thatMadameRondolihastwomoredaughters.
EndOriginalShortStories,Vol.7.
ByGuydeMaupassantVOLUMEVII.
THEFALSEGEMS
FASCINATION
YVETTESAMORIS
AVENDETTA
MYTWENTY—FIVEDAYS
"THETERROR"
LEGENDOFMONTST.MICHEL
ANEWYEAR’SGIFT
FRIENDPATIENCE
ABANDONED
THEMAISONTELLIER
DENNIS
MYWIFE
THEUNKNOWN
THEAPPARITION
THEFALSEGEMS
MonsieurLantinhadmettheyounggirlatareceptionatthehouseofthesecondheadofhisdepartment,andhadfallenheadoverheelsinlovewithher.
Shewasthedaughterofaprovincialtaxcollector,whohadbeendeadseveralyears.SheandhermothercametoliveinParis,wherethelatter,whomadetheacquaintanceofsomeofthefamiliesinherneighborhood,hopedtofindahusbandforherdaughter.
Theyhadverymoderatemeans,andwerehonorable,gentle,andquiet.
Theyounggirlwasaperfecttypeofthevirtuouswomaninwhosehandseverysensibleyoungmandreamsofonedayintrustinghishappiness.
Hersimplebeautyhadthecharmofangelicmodesty,andtheimperceptiblesmilewhichconstantlyhoveredaboutthelipsseemedtobethereflectionofapureandlovelysoul.Herpraisesresoundedoneveryside.Peoplenevertiredofrepeating:"Happythemanwhowinsherlove!Hecouldnotfindabetterwife."
MonsieurLantin,thenchiefclerkintheDepartmentoftheInterior,enjoyedasnuglittlesalaryofthreethousandfivehundredfrancs,andheproposedtothismodelyounggirl,andwasaccepted.
Hewasunspeakablyhappywithher.Shegovernedhishouseholdwithsuchclevereconomythattheyseemedtoliveinluxury.Shelavishedthemostdelicateattentionsonherhusband,coaxedandfondledhim;andsogreatwashercharmthatsixyearsaftertheirmarriage,MonsieurLantindiscoveredthathelovedhiswifeevenmorethanduringthefirstdaysoftheirhoneymoon.
Hefoundfaultwithonlytwoofhertastes:Herloveforthetheatre,andhertasteforimitationjewelry.Herfriends(thewivesofsomepettyofficials)frequentlyprocuredforheraboxatthetheatre,oftenforthefirstrepresentationsofthenewplays;andherhusbandwasobligedtoaccompanyher,whetherhewisheditornot,totheseentertainmentswhichboredhimexcessivelyafterhisday’sworkattheoffice.
Afteratime,MonsieurLantinbeggedhiswifetorequestsomeladyofheracquaintancetoaccompanyher,andtobringherhomeafterthetheatre.
Sheopposedthisarrangement,atfirst;but,aftermuchpersuasion,finallyconsented,totheinfinitedelightofherhusband.
Now,withherloveforthetheatre,camealsothedesireforornaments.
Hercostumesremainedasbefore,simple,ingoodtaste,andalwaysmodest;butshesoonbegantoadornherearswithhugerhinestones,whichglitteredandsparkledlikerealdiamonds.Aroundhernecksheworestringsoffalsepearls,onherarmsbraceletsofimitationgold,andcombssetwithglassjewels.
Herhusbandfrequentlyremonstratedwithher,saying:
"Mydear,asyoucannotaffordtobuyrealjewelry,yououghttoappearadornedwithyourbeautyandmodestyalone,whicharetherarestornamentsofyoursex."
Butshewouldsmilesweetly,andsay:
"WhatcanIdo?Iamsofondofjewelry.Itismyonlyweakness.Wecannotchangeournature."
Thenshewouldwindthepearlnecklaceroundherfingers,makethefacetsofthecrystalgemssparkle,andsay:
"Look!aretheynotlovely?Onewouldsweartheywerereal."
MonsieurLantinwouldthenanswer,smilingly:
"Youhavebohemiantastes,mydear."
Sometimes,ofanevening,whentheywereenjoyingatete—a—totebythefireside,shewouldplaceontheteatablethemoroccoleatherboxcontainingthe"trash,"asMonsieurLantincalledit.Shewouldexaminethefalsegemswithapassionateattention,asthoughtheyimpartedsomedeepandsecretjoy;andsheoftenpersistedinpassinganecklacearoundherhusband’sneck,and,laughingheartily,wouldexclaim:"Howdrollyoulook!"Thenshewouldthrowherselfintohisarms,andkisshimaffectionately.
Oneevening,inwinter,shehadbeentotheopera,andreturnedhomechilledthroughandthrough.Thenextmorningshecoughed,andeightdayslatershediedofinflammationofthelungs.
MonsieurLantin’sdespairwassogreatthathishairbecamewhiteinonemonth.Heweptunceasingly;hisheartwasbrokenasherememberedhersmile,hervoice,everycharmofhisdeadwife.
Timedidnotassuagehisgrief.Often,duringofficehours,whilehiscolleagueswerediscussingthetopicsoftheday,hiseyeswouldsuddenlyfillwithtears,andhewouldgiveventtohisgriefinheartrendingsobs.Everythinginhiswife’sroomremainedasitwasduringherlifetime;allherfurniture,evenherclothing,beingleftasitwasonthedayofherdeath.Herehewaswonttosecludehimselfdailyandthinkofherwhohadbeenhistreasure—thejoyofhisexistence.
Butlifesoonbecameastruggle.Hisincome,which,inthehandsofhiswife,coveredallhouseholdexpenses,wasnownolongersufficientforhisownimmediatewants;andhewonderedhowshecouldhavemanagedtobuysuchexcellentwineandtheraredelicacieswhichhecouldnolongerprocurewithhismodestresources.
Heincurredsomedebts,andwassoonreducedtoabsolutepoverty.Onemorning,findinghimselfwithoutacentinhispocket,heresolvedtosellsomething,andimmediatelythethoughtoccurredtohimofdisposingofhiswife’spastejewels,forhecherishedinhisheartasortofrancoragainstthese"deceptions,"whichhadalwaysirritatedhiminthepast.Theverysightofthemspoiled,somewhat,thememoryofhislostdarling.
Tothelastdaysofherlifeshehadcontinuedtomakepurchases,bringinghomenewgemsalmosteveryevening,andheturnedthemoversometimebeforefinallydecidingtoselltheheavynecklace,whichsheseemedtoprefer,andwhich,hethought,oughttobeworthaboutsixorsevenfrancs;foritwasofveryfineworkmanship,thoughonlyimitation.
Heputitinhispocket,andstartedoutinsearchofwhatseemedareliablejeweler’sshop.Atlengthhefoundone,andwentin,feelingalittleashamedtoexposehismisery,andalsotooffersuchaworthlessarticleforsale.
"Sir,"saidhetothemerchant,"Iwouldliketoknowwhatthisisworth."
Themantookthenecklace,examinedit,calledhisclerk,andmadesomeremarksinanundertone;hethenputtheornamentbackonthecounter,andlookedatitfromadistancetojudgeoftheeffect.
MonsieurLantin,annoyedatalltheseceremonies,wasonthepointofsaying:"Oh!Iknowwell’enoughitisnotworthanything,"whenthejewelersaid:"Sir,thatnecklaceisworthfromtwelvetofifteenthousandfrancs;butIcouldnotbuyit,unlessyoucantellmeexactlywhereitcamefrom."
Thewidoweropenedhiseyeswideandremainedgaping,notcomprehendingthemerchant’smeaning.Finallyhestammered:"Yousay——areyousure?’
Theotherreplied,drily:"Youcantryelsewhereandseeifanyonewillofferyoumore.Iconsideritworthfifteenthousandatthemost.Comeback;here,ifyoucannotdobetter."
MonsieurLantin,besidehimselfwithastonishment,tookupthenecklaceandleftthestore.Hewishedtimeforreflection.
Onceoutside,hefeltinclinedtolaugh,andsaidtohimself:"Thefool!
Oh,thefool!HadIonlytakenhimathisword!Thatjewelercannotdistinguishrealdiamondsfromtheimitationarticle."
Afewminutesafter,heenteredanotherstore,intheRuedelaPaix.Assoonastheproprietorglancedatthenecklace,hecriedout:
"Ah,parbleu!Iknowitwell;itwasboughthere."
MonsieurLantin,greatlydisturbed,asked:
"Howmuchisitworth?"
"Well,Isolditfortwentythousandfrancs.Iamwillingtotakeitbackforeighteenthousand,whenyouinformme,accordingtoourlegalformality,howitcametobeinyourpossession."
Thistime,MonsieurLantinwasdumfounded.Hereplied:
"But——but——examineitwell.UntilthismomentIwasundertheimpressionthatitwasimitation."
Thejewelerasked:
"Whatisyourname,sir?"
"Lantin——IamintheemployoftheMinisteroftheInterior.IliveatnumbersixteenRuedesMartyrs."
Themerchantlookedthroughhisbooks,foundtheentry,andsaid:"ThatnecklacewassenttoMadameLantin’saddress,sixteenRuedesMartyrs,July20,1876."
Thetwomenlookedintoeachother’seyes——thewidowerspeechlesswithastonishment;thejewelerscentingathief.Thelatterbrokethesilence.
"Willyouleavethisnecklaceherefortwenty—fourhours?"saidhe;"I
willgiveyouareceipt."
MonsieurLantinansweredhastily:"Yes,certainly."Then,puttingtheticketinhispocket,heleftthestore.