The Voyage Out

第48章

Asifwashedbytheairhervoicesoundedmorespiritualandsofterthanusual。Voicesatalittledistanceansweredher,“Yes。“

Throughthedarknessshewaslookingatthemboth,andtryingtodistinguishhim。Whatwasthereforhertosay?Rachelhadpassedbeyondherguardianship。Avoicemightreachherears,butneveragainwoulditcarryasfarasithadcarriedtwenty-fourhoursago。

Nevertheless,speechseemedtobeduefromherbeforeshewenttobed。

Shewishedtospeak,butshefeltstrangelyoldanddepressed。

“D’yourealisewhatyou’redoing?“shedemanded。“She’syoung,you’rebothyoung;andmarriage——“Heresheceased。Theybeggedher,however,tocontinue,withsuchearnestnessintheirvoices,asiftheyonlycravedadvice,thatshewasledtoadd:

“Marriage!well,it’snoteasy。“

“That’swhatwewanttoknow,“theyanswered,andsheguessedthatnowtheywerelookingateachother。

“Itdependsonbothofyou,“shestated。HerfacewasturnedtowardsTerence,andalthoughhecouldhardlyseeher,hebelievedthatherwordsreallycoveredagenuinedesiretoknowmoreabouthim。

Heraisedhimselffromhissemi-recumbentpositionandproceededtotellherwhatshewantedtoknow。Hespokeaslightlyashecouldinordertotakeawayherdepression。

“I’mtwenty-seven,andI’veaboutsevenhundredayear,“hebegan。

“Mytemperisgoodonthewhole,andhealthexcellent,thoughHirstdetectsagoutytendency。Well,then,IthinkI’mveryintelligent。“

Hepausedasifforconfirmation。

Helenagreed。

“Though,unfortunately,ratherlazy。IintendtoallowRacheltobeafoolifshewantsto,and——Doyoufindmeonthewholesatisfactoryinotherrespects?“heaskedshyly。

“Yes,IlikewhatIknowofyou,“Helenreplied。

“Butthen——oneknowssolittle。“

“WeshallliveinLondon,“hecontinued,“and——“Withonevoicetheysuddenlyenquiredwhethershedidnotthinkthemthehappiestpeoplethatshehadeverknown。

“Hush,“shecheckedthem,“Mrs。Flushing,remember。She’sbehindus。“

Thentheyfellsilent,andTerenceandRachelfeltinstinctivelythattheirhappinesshadmadehersad,and,whiletheywereanxioustogoontalkingaboutthemselves,theydidnotliketo。

“We’vetalkedtoomuchaboutourselves,“Terencesaid。“Tellus——“

“Yes,tellus——“Rachelechoed。Theywerebothinthemoodtobelievethateveryonewascapableofsayingsomethingveryprofound。

“WhatcanItellyou?“Helenreflected,speakingmoretoherselfinaramblingstylethanasaprophetessdeliveringamessage。

Sheforcedherselftospeak。

“Afterall,thoughIscoldRachel,I’mnotmuchwisermyself。

I’molder,ofcourse,I’mhalf-waythrough,andyou’rejustbeginning。

It’spuzzling——sometimes,Ithink,disappointing;thegreatthingsaren’tasgreat,perhaps,asoneexpects——butit’sinteresting——

Oh,yes,you’recertaintofinditinteresting——Andsoitgoeson,“

theybecameconscioushereoftheprocessionofdarktreesintowhich,asfarastheycouldsee,Helenwasnowlooking,“andtherearepleasureswhereonedoesn’texpectthem(youmustwritetoyourfather),andyou’llbeveryhappy,I’venodoubt。ButImustgotobed,andifyouaresensibleyouwillfollowintenminutes,andso,“

sheroseandstoodbeforethem,almostfeaturelessandverylarge,“Good-night。“Shepassedbehindthecurtain。

Aftersittinginsilenceforthegreaterpartofthetenminutessheallowedthem,theyroseandhungovertherail。Beneaththemthesmoothblackwaterslippedawayveryfastandsilently。

Thesparkofacigarettevanishedbehindthem。“Abeautifulvoice,“

Terencemurmured。

Rachelassented。Helenhadabeautifulvoice。

Afterasilencesheasked,lookingupintothesky,“AreweonthedeckofasteameronariverinSouthAmerica?AmIRachel,areyouTerence?“

Thegreatblackworldlayroundthem。Astheyweredrawnsmoothlyalongitseemedpossessedofimmensethicknessandendurance。

Theycoulddiscernpointedtree-topsandbluntroundedtree-tops。

Raisingtheireyesabovethetrees,

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