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ItseemedthatRachelherselfhadnosuspicionthatshewaswatched，orthattherewasanythinginhermannerlikelytodrawattentiontoher。
Whathadhappenedtohershedidnotknow。HermindwasverymuchintheconditionoftheracingwatertowhichHelencomparedit。
ShewantedtoseeTerence；shewasperpetuallywishingtoseehimwhenhewasnotthere；itwasanagonytomissseeinghim；
agonieswerestrewnallaboutherdayonaccountofhim，butsheneveraskedherselfwhatthisforcedrivingthroughherlifearosefrom。
Shethoughtofnoresultanymorethanatreeperpetuallypresseddownwardsbythewindconsiderstheresultofbeingpresseddownwardsbythewind。
Duringthetwoorthreeweekswhichhadpassedsincetheirwalk，halfadozennotesfromhimhadaccumulatedinherdrawer。Shewouldreadthem，andspendthewholemorninginadazeofhappiness；
thesunnylandoutsidethewindowbeingnolesscapableofanalysingitsowncolourandheatthanshewasofanalysinghers。Inthesemoodsshefounditimpossibletoreadorplaythepiano，eventomovebeingbeyondherinclination。Thetimepassedwithouthernoticingit。
Whenitwasdarkshewasdrawntothewindowbythelightsofthehotel。
AlightthatwentinandoutwasthelightinTerence’swindow:
therehesat，readingperhaps，ornowhewaswalkingupanddownpullingoutonebookafteranother；andnowhewasseatedinhischairagain，andshetriedtoimaginewhathewasthinkingabout。
ThesteadylightsmarkedtheroomswhereTerencesatwithpeoplemovingroundhim。Everyonewhostayedinthehotelhadapeculiarromanceandinterestaboutthem。Theywerenotordinarypeople。
ShewouldattributewisdomtoMrs。Elliot，beautytoSusanWarrington，asplendidvitalitytoEvelynM。，becauseTerencespoketothem。
Asunreflectingandpervasivewerethemoodsofdepression。
Hermindwasasthelandscapeoutsidewhendarkbeneathcloudsandstraitlylashedbywindandhail。Againshewouldsitpassiveinherchairexposedtopain，andHelen’sfantasticalorgloomywordswerelikesomanydartsgoadinghertocryoutagainstthehardnessoflife。Bestofallwerethemoodswhenfornoreasonagainthisstressoffeelingslackened，andlifewentonasusual，onlywithajoyandcolourinitseventsthatwasunknownbefore；
theyhadasignificancelikethatwhichshehadseeninthetree:
thenightswereblackbarsseparatingherfromthedays；
shewouldhavelikedtorunallthedaysintoonelongcontinuityofsensation。AlthoughthesemoodsweredirectlyorindirectlycausedbythepresenceofTerenceorthethoughtofhim，sheneversaidtoherselfthatshewasinlovewithhim，orconsideredwhatwastohappenifshecontinuedtofeelsuchthings，sothatHelen’simageoftheriverslidingontothewaterfallhadagreatlikenesstothefacts，andthealarmwhichHelensometimesfeltwasjustified。
Inhercuriousconditionofunanalysedsensationsshewasincapableofmakingaplanwhichshouldhaveanyeffectuponherstateofmind。
Sheabandonedherselftothemercyofaccidents，missingTerenceoneday，meetinghimthenext，receivinghislettersalwayswithastartofsurprise。Anywomanexperiencedintheprogressofcourtshipwouldhavecomebycertainopinionsfromallthiswhichwouldhavegivenheratleastatheorytogoupon；butnoonehadeverbeeninlovewithRachel，andshehadneverbeeninlovewithanyone。
Moreover，noneofthebookssheread，from_Wuthering__Heights_
to_Man__and__Superman_，andtheplaysofIbsen，suggestedfromtheiranalysisoflovethatwhattheirheroinesfeltwaswhatshewasfeelingnow。Itseemedtoherthathersensationshadnoname。
ShemetTerencefrequently。Whentheydidnotmeet，hewasapttosendanotewithabookoraboutabook，forhehadnotbeenableafteralltoneglectthatapproachtointimacy。Butsometimeshedidnotcomeordidnotwriteforseveraldaysatatime。
Againwhentheymettheirmeetingmightbeoneofinspiritingjoyorofharassingdespair。Overalltheirparting
