Vailima Letters

第30章

Yesterday,Sunday,theRev。Dr。Browne,secretarytotheWesleyanMission,andthemanwhomadethewarintheWesternIslandsandwastriedforhislifeinFiji,cameup,andwehadalong,importanttalkaboutSamoa。O,ifIcouldonlytalktothehomemen!Butwhatwoulditmatter?noneofthemknow,noneofthemcare。IfwecouldonlyhaveMacgregorherewithhisschooner,youwouldhearofnomoretroublesinSamoa。Thatiswhatwewant;amanthatknowsandlikesthenatives,QUIPAYEDESAPERSONNE,ANDisnotafraidofhangingwhennecessary。Wedon’twantblandSwedishhumbugs,andfussy,fosteringGermanbarons。Thatwaythemaelstromlies,andweshallsoonbeinit。

Ihaveto-daywritten103and104,allperfectlywrong,andshallhavetorewritethem。Thistaleisdevilish,andChapterXI。theworstofthelot。ThetruthisofcoursethatIamwhollyworkedout;butit’snearlydone,andshallgosomehowaccordingtopromise。Igoagainstallmygods,andsayitisNOTWORTHWHILEtomassacreyourselfoverthelastfewpagesofarancidyarn,thatthereviewerswillquitejustlyteartobits。AsforD。B。,nohope,Ifear,thismail,butwe’llseewhattheafternoondoesforme。

Well,it’sdone。Thosetragic16pp。areatlastfinished,andIhaveputawaythirty-twopagesofchips,andhavespentthirteendaysaboutasnearlyinHellasamancouldexpecttolivethrough。It’sdone,andofcourseitain’tworthwhile,andwhocares?Thereitis,andaboutasgrimataleaswaseverwritten,andasgrimy,andashateful。

J。L。HUISH,BORN1856,ATHACKNEY,LONDON,AccidentallykilleduponthisIsland,10thSeptember,1889。

Iamexultingtodonothing。Itpourswithrainfromthewestward,veryunusualkindofweather;Iwasstandingoutonthelittleverandahinfrontofmyroomthismorning,andtherewentthroughmeorovermeawaveofextraordinaryandapparentlybaselessemotion。Iliterallystaggered。Andthentheexplanationcame,andIknewIhadfoundaframeofmindandbodythatbelongedtoScotland,andparticularlytotheneighbourhoodofCallander。Veryoddtheseidentitiesofsensation,andtheworldofconnotationsimplied;highlandhuts,andpeatsmoke,andthebrown,swirlingrivers,andwetclothes,andwhiskey,andtheromanceofthepast,andthatindescribablebiteofthewholethingataman’sheart,whichis-orratherliesatthebottomof-astory。

Idon’tknowifyouareaBarbeyd’Aurevilly-an。Iam。I

haveagreatdelightinhisNormanstories。DoyouknowtheCHEVALIERDESTOUCHESandL’ENSORCELEE?Theyareadmirable,theyreekofthesoilandthepast。ButIwasratherthinkingjustnowofLERIDEAUCRAMOISI,anditsadorablesettingofthestoppedcoach,thedarkstreet,thehome-goingintheinnyard,andtheredblindilluminated。Withoutdoubt,THEREwasanidentityofsensation;oneofthoseconjunctionsinlifethathadfilledBarbeyfulltothebrim,andpermanentlybenthismemory。

IwonderexceedinglyifIhavedoneanythingatallgood;andwhocantellme?andwhyshouldIwishtoknow?Insolittleawhile,I,andtheEnglishlanguage,andthebonesofmydescendants,willhaveceasedtobeamemory!Andyet-andyet-onewouldliketoleaveanimageforafewyearsuponmen’sminds-forfun。Thisisaverydarkframeofmind,consequentonoverworkandtheconclusionoftheexcruciatingEBBTIDE。Adieu。

WhatdoyousupposeshouldbedonewithTHEEBBTIDE?Itwouldmakeavolumeof200pp。;ontheotherhand,Imightlikelyhavesomemorestoriessoon:THEOWL,DEATHINTHE

POT,THESLEEPERAWAKENED;allthesearepossible。THEOWL

mightbehalfaslong;THESLEEPERAWAKENED,ditto;DEATHIN

THEPOTadealshorter,Ibelieve。Thenthere’stheGO-

BETWEEN,whichisnotimpossiblealtogether。THEOWL,THE

SLEEPERAWAKENED,andtheGO-BETWEENendreasonablywell;

DEATHINTHEPOTisanungodlymassacre。O,well,THEOWL

onlyendswellinsofarassomeloverscometogether,andnobodyiskilledatthemoment,butyouknowtheyarealldoomed,theyareChouanfellows。

FRIDAY,9TH。

Well,themailisin;noBlue-book,depressingletterfromC。;along,amusingramblefrommymother;vastmassesofRomeike;theyAREgoingtowarnow;andwhatwillthatleadto?andwhathasdriven,themtoitbutthepersistentmisconductofthesetwoofficials?IknowIoughttorewritetheendofthisbluidyEBBTIDE:well,Ican’t。CESTPLUS

FORTQUEMOI;ithastogothewayitis,andbe

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