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Itwashishabit,inthesecasesofBacchanalianemergency,tostaggerobstinatelyintohisroomontheground-floor,totakethemodel-shipoutofthecupboard,andtotryifhecouldproceedwiththenever-to-be-completedemploymentofsettinguptherigging。Whenhehadsmashedthetinyspars,andsnappedasunderthedelicateropes——then,andnottillthen,theveteranadmittedfactsastheywere,ontheauthorityofpracticalevidence。“Ay!ay!“heusedtosayconfidentiallytohimself,“thewomenareright。Drunkagain,Mazey——drunkagain!“Havingreachedthisdiscovery,itwashishabittowaitcunninglyinthelowerregionsuntiltheadmiralwassafeinhisroom,andthentoascendindiscreetlistslipperstohispost。Toowarytoattemptgettingintothetruckle-bed(whichwouldhavebeenonlyinvitingthecatastropheofafallagainsthismaster\'sdoor),healwayswalkedhimselfsoberupanddownthepassage。MorethanonceMagdalenhadpeepedroundthescreen,andhadseentheoldsailorunsteadilykeepinghiswatch,andfancyinghimselfoncemoreathisdutyonboardship。“Thisisanuncommonlylivelyvesselinasea-way,“heusedtomutterunderhisbreath,whenhislegstookhimdownthepassageinzigzagdirections,orlefthimforthemomentstudyingthe“PintsoftheCompass“onhisownsystem,withhisbackagainstthewall。“Anastynight,mindyou,“hewouldmaunderon,takinganotherturn。“Asdarkasyourpocket,andthewindheadingusagainfromtheoldquarter。“OnthenextdayoldMazey,likethedogs,waskeptdownstairsindisgrace。Onthedayafter,likethedogsagain,hewasreinstatedinhisprivileges;andanotherchangewasintroducedintheafter-dinnerformula。Onenteringtheroom,theoldsailorstoppedshortandmadehisexcusesinthisbriefyetcomprehensiveformofwords,withhisbackagainstthedoor:“Pleaseyourhonor,I\'mashamedofmyself。“Sotheapologybeganandended。“Thismustn\'thappenagain,Mazey,“theadmiralusedtoanswer。“Itshan\'thappenagain,yourhonor。““Verygood。Comehere,anddrinkyourglassofwine。GodblesstheQueen,Mazey。“Theveterantossedoffhisport,andthedialogueendedasusual。
Sothedayspassed,withnoincidentsmoreimportantthanthesetorelievetheirmonotony,untiltheendofthefourthweekwasathand。
Onthelastday,aneventhappened;onthelastday,thelongdeferredpromiseofthefutureunexpectedlybegantodawn。WhileMagdalenwasspreadingtheclothinthedining-room,asusual,Mrs。Drakelookedin,andinstructedheronthisoccasion,forthefirsttime,tolaythetablefortwopersons。Theadmiralhadreceivedaletterfromhisnephew。EarlythateveningMr。GeorgeBartramwasexpectedtoreturntoSt。Crux。
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AFTERplacingthesecondcover,Magdalenawaitedtheringingofthedinner-bell,withaninterestandimpatiencewhichshefounditnoeasytasktoconceal。ThereturnofMr。Bartramwould,inallprobability,produceachangeinthelifeofthehouse;andfromchangeofanykind,nomatterhowtrifling,somethingmightbehoped。Thenephewmightbeaccessibletoinfluenceswhichhadfailedtoreachtheuncle。Inanycase,thetwowouldtalkoftheiraffairsovertheirdinner;andthroughthattalk——proceedingdayafterdayinherpresence——thewaytodiscovery,nowabsolutelyinvisible,might,soonerorlater,showitself。
Atlastthebellrang,thedooropened,andthetwogentlemenenteredtheroomtogether。
Magdalenwasstruck,ashersisterhadbeenstruck,byGeorgeBartram\'sresemblancetoherfather——judgingbytheportraitatCombe-Raven,whichpresentedthelikenessofAndrewVanstoneinhisyoungerdays。Thelighthairandfloridcomplexion,thebrightblueeyesandhardyuprightfigure,familiartoherinthepicture,wereallrecalledtohermemory,asthenephewfollowedtheuncleacrosstheroomandtookhisplaceattable。Shewasnotpreparedforthissuddenrevivalofthelostassociationsofhome。Herattentionwanderedasshetriedtoconcealitseffectonher;andshemadeablunderinwaitingattable,forthefirsttimesinceshehadenteredthehouse。
Aquaintreprimandfromtheadmiral,halfinjest,halfinearnest,gavehertimetorecoverherself。SheventuredanotherlookatGeorgeBartram。Theimpressionwhichheproducedonherthistimerousedhercuriosityimmediately。Hisfaceandmannerplainlyexpressedanxietyandpreoccupationofmind。Helookedoftenerathisplatethanathisuncle,andatMagdalenherself(exceptonepassinginspectionofthenewparlor-maid,whentheadmiralspoketoher)heneverlookedatall。Someuncertaintywasevidentlytroublinghisthoughts;someoppressionwasweighingonhisnaturalfreedomofmanner。Whatuncertainty?whatoppression?Wouldanypersonalrevelationscomeout,littlebylittle,inthecourseofconversationatthedinner-table?
No。Onesetofdishesfollowedanothersetofdishes,andnothingintheshapeofapersonalrevelationtookplace。Theconversationhaltedonirregularly,betweenpublicaffairsononesideandtriflingprivatetopicsontheother。Politics,homeandforeign,tooktheirturnwiththesmallhouseholdhistoryofSt。Crux;theleadersoftherevolutionwhichexpelledLouisPhilippefromthethroneofFrancemarchedsidebyside,inthedinner-tablereview,witholdMazeyandthedogs。Thedessertwasputonthetable,theoldsailorcamein,drankhisloyaltoast,paidhisrespectsto“MasterGeorge,“andwentoutagain。Magdalenfollowedhim,onherwaybacktotheservants\'offices,havingheardnothingintheconversationoftheslightestimportancetothefurtheranceofherowndesign,fromthefirstwordofittothelast。Shestruggledhardnottoloseheartandhopeonthefirstday。Theycouldhardlytalkagainto-morrow,theycouldhardlytalkagainthenextday,oftheFrenchRevolutionandthedogs。Timemightdowondersyet;andtimewasallherown。
Lefttogetherovertheirwine,theuncleandnephewdrewtheireasy-chairsoneithersideofthefire;and,inMagdalen\'sabsence,begantheveryconversationwhichitwasMagdalen\'sinteresttohear。
“Claret,George?“saidtheadmiral,pushingthebottleacrossthetable。“Youlookoutofspirits。“
“Iamalittleanxious,sir,“repliedGeorge,leavinghisglassempty,andlookingstraightintothefire。
“Iamgladtohearit,“rejoinedtheadmiral。“Iammorethanalittleanxiousmyself,Icantellyou。HereweareatthelastdaysofMarch——andnothingdone!YourtimecomestoanendonthethirdofMay;andthereyousit,asifyouhadyearsstillbeforeyou,toturnroundin。“
Georgesmiled,andresignedlyhelpedhimselftosomewine。
“AmIreallytounderstand,sir,“heasked,“thatyouareseriousinwhatyousaidtomelastNovember?Areyouactuallyresolvedtobindmetothatincomprehensiblecondition?“
“Idon\'tcallitincomprehensible,“saidtheadmiral,irritably。
“Don\'tyou,sir?Iamtoinherityourestate,unconditionally——asyouhavegenerouslysettleditfromthefirst。ButIamnottotouchafarthingofthefortunepoorNoelleftyouunlessIammarriedwithinacertaintime。Thehouseandlandsaretobemine(thankstoyourkindness)underanycircumstances。ButthemoneywithwhichImightimprovethembothistobearbitrarilytakenawayfromme,ifIamnotamarriedmanonthethirdofMay。Iamsadlywantinginintelligence,Idaresay,butamoreincomprehensibleproceedingIneverheardof!“
“Nosnappingandsnarling,George!Sayyoursayout。Wedon\'tunderstandsneeringinHerMajesty\'sNavy!“
“Imeannooffense,sir。ButIthinkit\'salittlehardtoastonishmebyachangeofproceedingonyourpart,entirelyforeigntomyexperienceofyourcharacter——andthen,whenInaturallyaskforanexplanation,toturnroundcoollyandleavemeinthedark。IfyouandNoelcametosomeprivatearrangementtogetherbeforehemadehiswill,whynottellme?Whysetupamysterybetweenus,wherenomysteryneedbe?“
“Iwon\'thaveit,George!“criedtheadmiral,angrilydrummingonthetablewiththenutcrackers。“Youaretryingtodrawmelikeabadger,butIwon\'tbedrawn!I\'llmakeanyconditionsIplease;andI\'llbeaccountabletonobodyforthemunlessIlike。It\'squitebadenoughtohaveworriesandresponsibilitieslaidonmyunluckyshouldersthatIneverbargainedfor——nevermindwhatworries:they\'renotyours,they\'remine——withoutbeingquestionedandcross-questionedasifIwasawitnessinabox。Here\'saprettyfellow!“continuedtheadmiral,apostrophizinghisnephewinred-hotirritation,andaddressinghimselftothedogsonthehearth-rugforwantofabetteraudience。“Here\'saprettyfellow?Heisaskedtohelphimselftotwouncommonlycomfortablethingsintheirway——afortuneandawife;heisallowedsixmonthstogetthewifein(weshouldhavegother,intheNavy,bagandbaggage,insixdays);hehasarounddozenofnicegirls,tomycertainknowledge,inonepartofthecountryandanother,allathisdisposaltochoosefrom,andwhatdoeshedo?Hesitsmonthaftermonth,withhislazylegscrossedbeforehim;heleavesthegirlstopineonthestem,andhebothershisuncletoknowthereasonwhy!Ipitythepoorunfortunatewomen。Menweremadeoffleshandblood,andplentyofit,too,inmytime。They\'remadeofmachinerynow。“
“Icanonlyrepeat,sir,Iamsorrytohaveoffendedyou,“saidGeorge。
“Pooh!pooh!youneedn\'tlookatmeinthatlanguishingwayifyouare,“retortedtheadmiral。“Sticktoyourwine,andI\'llforgiveyou。Yourgoodhealth,George。I\'mgladtoseeyouagainatSt。Crux。Lookatthatplatefulofsponge-cakes!Thecookhassentthemupinhonorofyourreturn。Wecan\'thurtherfeelings,andwecan\'tspoilourwine。Here!“——Theadmiraltossedfoursponge-cakesinquicksuccessiondowntheaccommodatingthroatsofthedogs。“Iamsorry,George,“theoldgentlemangravelyproceeded;“Iamreallysorryyouhaven\'tgotyoureyeononeofthosenicegirls。Youdon\'tknowwhatalossyou\'reinflictingonyourself;youdon\'tknowwhattroubleandmortificationyou\'recausingmebythisshilly-shallyconductofyours。“
“Ifyouwouldonlyallowmetoexplainmyself,sir,youwouldviewmyconductinatotallydifferentlight。Iamreadytomarryto-morrow,iftheladywillhaveme。“
“Thedevilyouare!Soyouhavegotaladyinyoureye,afterall?WhyinHeaven\'snamecouldn\'tyoutellmesobefore?Nevermind,I\'llforgiveyoueverything,nowIknowyouhavelaidyourhandonawife。Fillyourglassagain。Here\'sherhealthinabumper。By-the-by,whoisshe?“
“I\'lltellyoudirectly,admiral。Whenwebeganthisconversation,ImentionedthatIwasalittleanxious——“
“She\'snotoneofmyrounddozenofnicegirls——aha,MasterGeorge,Iseethatinyourfacealready!Whyareyouanxious?“
“Iamafraidyouwilldisapproveofmychoice,sir。“
“Don\'tbeataboutthebush!HowthedeucecanIsaywhetherIdisapproveornot,ifyouwon\'ttellmewhosheis?“
“SheistheeldestdaughterofAndrewVanstone,ofCombe-Raven。“
“Who!!!“
“MissVanstone,sir。“
Theadmiralputdownhisglassofwineuntasted。
“You\'reright,George,“hesaid。“Idodisapproveofyourchoice——stronglydisapproveofit。“
“Isitthemisfortuneofherbirth,sir,thatyouobjectto?“
“Godforbid!themisfortuneofherbirthisnotherfault,poorthing。YouknowaswellasIdo,George,whatIobjectto。“
“Youobjecttohersister?“
“Certainly!Themostliberalmanalivemightobjecttohersister,Ithink。“
“It\'shard,sir,tomakeMissVanstonesufferforhersister\'sfaults。“
“Faults,doyoucallthem?Youhaveamightyconvenientmemory,George,whenyourowninterestsareconcerned。“
“Callthemcrimesifyoulike,sir——Isayagain,it\'shardonMissVanstone。MissVanstone\'slifeispureofallreproach。Fromfirsttolastshehasborneherhardlotwithsuchpatience,andsweetness,andcourageasnotonewomaninathousandwouldhaveshowninherplace。AskMissGarth,whohasknownherfromchildhood。AskMrs。Tyrrel,whoblessesthedaywhenshecameintothehouse——“
“Askafiddlestick\'send!Ibegyourpardon,George,butyouareenoughtotrythepatienceofasaint。Mygoodfellow,Idon\'tdenyMissVanstone\'svirtues。I\'lladmit,ifyoulike,she\'sthebestwomanthateverputonapetticoat。Thatisnotthequestion——“
“Excuseme,admiral——itisthequestion,ifsheistobemywife。“
“Hearmeout,George;lookatitfrommypointofview,aswellasyourown。WhatdidyourcousinNoeldo?YourcousinNoelfellavictim,poorfellow,tooneofthevilestconspiraciesIeverheardof,andtheprimemoverofthatconspiracywasMissVanstone\'sdamnablesister。Shedeceivedhiminthemostinfamousmanner;andassoonasshewasdownforahandsomelegacyinhiswill,shehadthepoisonreadytotakehislife。Thisisthetruth;weknowitfromMrs。Lecount,whofoundthebottlelockedupinherownroom。IfyoumarryMissVanstone,youmakethiswretchyoursister-in-law。Shebecomesamemberofourfamily。Allthedisgraceofwhatshehasdone;allthedisgraceofwhatshemaydo——andtheDevil,whopossessesher,onlyknowswhatlengthsshemaygotonext——becomesourdisgrace。Goodheavens,George,considerwhatapositionthatis!Considerwhatpitchyoutouch,ifyoumakethiswomanyoursister-in-law。“
“Youhaveputyoursideofthequestion,admiral,“saidGeorgeresolutely;“nowletmeputmine。AcertainimpressionisproducedonmebyayoungladywhomImeetwithunderveryinterestingcircumstances。Idon\'tactheadlongonthatimpression,asImighthavedoneifIhadbeensomeyearsyounger;Iwait,andputittothetrial。EverytimeIseethisyoungladytheimpressionstrengthens;herbeautygrowsonme,hercharactergrowsonme;whenIamawayfromher,Iamrestlessanddissatisfied;whenIamwithher,Iamthehappiestmanalive。AllIhearofherconductfromthosewhoknowherbestmorethanconfirmsthehighopinionIhaveformedofher。TheonedrawbackIcandiscoveriscausedbyamisfortuneforwhichsheisnotresponsible——themisfortuneofhavingasisterwhoisutterlyunworthyofher。Doesthisdiscovery——anunpleasantdiscovery,Igrantyou——destroyallthosegoodqualitiesinMissVanstoneforwhichIloveandadmireher?Nothingofthesort——itonlymakeshergoodqualitiesallthemoreprecioustomebycontrast。IfIamtohaveadrawbacktocontendwith——andwhoexpectsanythingelseinthisworld?——Iwouldinfinitelyratherhavethedrawbackattachedtomywife\'ssisterthantomywife。Mywife\'ssisterisnotessentialtomyhappiness,butmywifeis。Inmyopinion,sir,Mrs。NoelVanstonehasdonemischiefenoughalready。Idon\'tseethenecessityoflettingherdomoremischief,bydeprivingmeofagoodwife。Rightorwrong,thatismypointofview。Idon\'twishtotroubleyouwithanyquestionsofsentiment。AllIwishtosayisthatIamoldenoughbythistimetoknowmyownmind,andthatmymindismadeup。Ifmymarriageisessentialtotheexecutionofyourintentionsonmybehalf,thereisonlyonewomanintheworldwhomIcanmarry,andthatwomanisMissVanstone。“
Therewasnoresistingthisplaindeclaration。AdmiralBartramrosefromhischairwithoutmakinganyreply,andwalkedperturbedlyupanddowntheroom。
Thesituationwasemphaticallyaseriousone。Mrs。Girdlestone\'sdeathhadalreadyproducedthefailureofoneofthetwoobjectscontemplatedbytheSecretTrust。IfthethirdofMayarrivedandfoundGeorgeasingleman,thesecond(andlast)oftheobjectswouldthenhavefailedinitsturn。Inlittlemorethanafortnight,attheverylatest,theBannsmustbepublishedinOssorychurch,orthetimewouldfailforcompliancewithoneofthestipulationsinsistedonintheTrust。Obstinateastheadmiralwasbynature,stronglyashefelttheobjectionswhichattachedtohisnephew\'scontemplatedalliance,herecoiledinspiteofhimself,ashepacedtheroomandsawthefactsoneithersideimmovablystaringhimintheface。
“AreyouengagedtoMissVanstone?“heasked,suddenly。
“No,sir,“repliedGeorge。“Ithoughtitduetoyouruniformkindnesstometospeaktoyouonthesubjectfirst。“
“Muchobliged,I\'msure。Andyouhaveputoffspeakingtometothelastmoment,justasyouputoffeverythingelse。DoyouthinkMissVanstonewillsayyeswhenyouaskher?“
Georgehesitated。
“Thedeviltakeyourmodesty!“shoutedtheadmiral。“Thisisnotatimeformodesty;thisisatimeforspeakingout。Willsheorwon\'tshe?“
“Ithinkshewill,sir。“
Theadmirallaughedsardonically,andtookanotherturnintheroom。Hesuddenlystopped,puthishandsinhispockets,andstoodstillinacorner,deepinthought。Afteranintervalofafewminutes,hisfaceclearedalittle;itbrightenedwiththedawningofanewidea。HewalkedroundbrisklytoGeorge\'ssideofthefire,andlaidhishandkindlyonhisnephew\'sshoulder。
“You\'rewrong,George,“hesaid;“butitistoolatenowtosetyouright。OnthesixteenthofnextmonththeBannsmustbeputupinOssorychurch,oryouwilllosethemoney。HaveyoutoldMissVanstonethepositionyoustandin?Orhaveyouputthatofftotheeleventhhour,likeeverythingelse?“
“Thepositionissoextraordinary,sir,anditmightleadtosomuchmisapprehensionofmymotives,thatIhavefeltunwillingtoalludetoit。IhardlyknowhowIcantellherofitatall。“
“Trytheexperimentoftellingherfriends。Letthemknowit\'saquestionofmoney,andtheywillovercomeherscruples,ifyoucan\'t。ButthatisnotwhatIhadtosaytoyou。Howlongdoyouproposestoppingherethistime?“
“Ithoughtofstayingafewdays,andthen——“
“AndthenofgoingbacktoLondonandmakingyouroffer,Isuppose?WillaweekgiveyoutimeenoughtopickyouropportunitywithMissVanstone——aweekoutofthefortnightorsothatyouhavetospare?“
“Iwillstayhereaweek,admiral,withpleasure,ifyouwishit。“
“Idon\'twishit。Iwantyoutopackupyourtrapsandbeoffto-morrow。“
Georgelookedathisuncleinsilentastonishment。
“Youfoundsomeletterswaitingforyouwhenyougothere,“proceededtheadmiral。“Wasoneofthoselettersfrommyoldfriend,SirFranklinBrock?“
“Yes,sir。“
“WasitaninvitationtoyoutogoandstayattheGrange?“
“Yes,sir。“
“Togoatonce?“
“Atonce,ifIcouldmanageit。“
“Verygood。Iwantyoutomanageit;IwantyoutostartfortheGrangeto-morrow。“
Georgelookedbackatthefire,andsighedimpatiently。
“Iunderstandyounow,admiral,“hesaid。“Youareentirelymistakeninme。MyattachmenttoMissVanstoneisnottobeshakeninthatmanner。“
AdmiralBartramtookhisquarter-deckwalkagain,upanddowntheroom。
“Onegoodturndeservesanother,George,“saidtheoldgentleman。“IfIamwillingtomakeconcessionsonmyside,theleastyoucandoistomeetmehalf-way,andmakeconcessionsonyours。“
“Idon\'tdenyit,sir。“
“Verywell。Nowlistentomyproposal。Givemeafairhearing,George——afairhearingiseveryman\'sprivilege。Iwillbeperfectlyjusttobeginwith。Iwon\'tattempttodenythatyouhonestlybelieveMissVanstoneistheonlywomanintheworldwhocanmakeyouhappy。Idon\'tquestionthat。WhatIdoquestionis,whetheryoureallyknowyourownmindinthismatterquitesowellasyouthinkyouknowityourself。Youcan\'tdeny,George,thatyouhavebeeninlovewithagoodmanywomeninyourtime?Amongtherestofthem,youhavebeeninlovewithMissBrock。Nolongeragothanthistimelastyeartherewasasneakingkindnessbetweenyouandthatyounglady,tosaytheleastofit。Andquiteright,too!MissBrockisoneofthatrounddozenofdarlingsImentionedoverourfirstglassofwine。“
“Youareconfusinganidleflirtation,sir,withaseriousattachment,“saidGeorge。“Youarealtogethermistaken——youare,indeed。“
“Likelyenough;Idon\'tpretendtobeinfallible——Ileavethattomyjuniors。ButIhappentohaveknownyou,George,sinceyouweretheheightofmyoldtelescope;andIwanttohavethisseriousattachmentofyoursputtothetest。IfyoucansatisfymethatyourwholeheartandsoulareasstronglysetonMissVanstoneasyousupposethemtobe,Imustknockundertonecessity,andkeepmyobjectionstomyself。ButImustbesatisfiedfirst。GototheGrangeto-morrow,andstaythereaweekinMissBrock\'ssociety。Givethatcharminggirlafairchanceoflightinguptheoldflameagainifshecan,andthencomebacktoSt。Crux,andletmeheartheresult。Ifyoutellme,asanhonestman,thatyourattachmenttoMissVanstonestillremainsunshaken,youwillhaveheardthelastofmyobjectionsfromthatmoment。WhatevermisgivingsImayfeelinmyownmind,Iwillsaynothing,anddonothing,adversetoyourwishes。Thereismyproposal。Idaresayitlookslikeanoldman\'sfolly,inyoureyes。Buttheoldmanwon\'ttroubleyoumuchlonger,George;anditmaybeapleasantreflection,whenyouhavegotsonsofyourown,torememberthatyouhumoredhiminhislastdays。“
Hecamebacktothefire-placeashesaidthosewords,andlaidhishandoncemoreonhisnephew\'sshoulder。Georgetookthehandandpresseditaffectionately。Inthetenderestandbestsenseoftheword,hisunclehadbeenafathertohim。
“Iwilldowhatyouaskme,sir,“hereplied,“ifyouseriouslywishit。Butitisonlyrighttotellyouthattheexperimentwillbeperfectlyuseless。However,ifyouprefermypassingaweekattheGrangetomypassingithere,totheGrangeIwillgo。“
“Thankyou,George,“saidtheadmiral,bluntly。“Iexpectedasmuchfromyou,andyouhavenotdisappointedme——IfMissBrockdoesn\'tgetusoutofthismess,“thoughtthewilyoldgentleman,asheresumedhisplaceatthetable,“mynephew\'sweather-cockofaheadhasturnedsteadywithavengeance!——We\'llconsiderthequestionsettledforto-night,George,“hecontinued,aloud,“andcallanothersubject。Thesefamilyanxietiesdon\'timprovetheflavorofmyoldclaret。Thebottlestandswithyou。WhataretheydoingatthetheatersinLondon?Wealwayspatronizedthetheaters,inmytime,intheNavy。Weusedtolikeagoodtragedytobeginwith,andahornpipetocheerusupattheendoftheentertainment。“
Fortherestoftheevening,thetalkflowedintheordinarychannels。AdmiralBartramonlyreturnedtotheforbiddensubjectwhenheandhisnephewpartedforthenight。
“Youwon\'tforgetto-morrow,George?“
“Certainlynot,sir。I\'lltakethedog-cart,anddrivemyselfoverafterbreakfast。“
BeforenoonthenextdayMr。GeorgeBartramhadleftthehouse,andthelastchanceinMagdalen\'sfavorhadleftitwithhim。
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WHENtheservants\'dinner-bellatSt。CruxrangasusualonthedayofGeorgeBartram\'sdeparture,itwasremarkedthatthenewparlor-maid\'splaceattableremainedempty。Oneoftheinferiorservantswassenttoherroomtomakeinquiries,andreturnedwiththeinformationthat“Louisa“feltalittlefaint,andbeggedthatherattendanceattablemightbeexcusedforthatday。Uponthis,thesuperiorauthorityofthehousekeeperwasinvoked,andMrs。Drakewentupstairsimmediatelytoascertainthetruthforherself。Herfirstlookofinquirysatisfiedherthattheparlor-maid\'sindisposition,whateverthecauseofitmightbe,wascertainlynotassumedtoserveanyidleorsullenpurposeofherown。Sherespectfullydeclinedtakinganyoftheremedieswhichthehousekeeperoffered,andmerelyrequestedpermissiontotrytheefficacyofawalkinthefreshair。
“Ihavebeenaccustomedtomoreexercise,ma\'am,thanItakehere,“shesaid。“MightIgointothegarden,andtrywhattheairwilldoforme?“
“Certainly。Canyouwalkbyyourself,orshallIsendsomeonewithyou?“
“Iwillgobymyself,ifyouplease,ma\'am。“
“Verywell。Putonyourbonnetandshawl,and,whenyougetout,keepintheeastgarden。Theadmiralsometimeswalksinthenorthgarden,andhemightfeelsurprisedatseeingyouthere。Cometomyroom,whenyouhavehadairandexerciseenough,andletmeseehowyouare。“
InafewminutesmoreMagdalenwasoutintheeastgarden。Theskywasclearandsunny;butthecoldshadowofthehouserestedonthegardenwalkandchilledthemiddayair。Shewalkedtowardtheruinsoftheoldmonastery,situatedonthesouthsideofthemoremodernrangeofbuildings。Heretherewerelonelyopenspacestobreatheinfreely;herethepaleMarchsunshinestolethroughthegapsofdesolationanddecay,andmetherinvitinglywiththegenialpromiseofspring。
Sheascendedthreeorfourrivenstonesteps,andseatedherselfonsomeruinedfragmentsbeyondthem,fullinthesunshine。Theplaceshehadchosenhadoncebeentheentrancetothechurch。Incenturieslonggoneby,thestreamofhumansinandhumansufferinghadflowed,dayafterday,totheconfessional,overtheplacewhereshenowsat。Ofallthemiserablewomenwhohadtroddenthoseoldstonesinthebygonetime,nomoremiserablecreaturehadtouchedthemthanthewomanwhosefeetrestedonthemnow。
Herhandstrembledassheplacedthemoneithersideofher,tosupportherselfonthestoneseat。Shelaidthemonherlap;theytrembledthere。Sheheldthemout,andlookedatthemwonderingly;theytrembledasshelooked。“Likeanoldwoman!“shesaid,faintly,andletthemdropagainatherside。
Forthefirsttime,thatmorning,thecrueldiscoveryhadforceditselfonhermind——thediscoverythatherstrengthwasfailingher,atthetimewhenshehadmostconfidentlytrustedtoit,atthetimewhenshewanteditmost。ShehadfeltthesurpriseofMr。Bartram\'sunexpecteddeparture,asifithadbeentheshockoftheseverestcalamitythatcouldhavebefallenher。Thatonechecktoherhopes——acheckwhichatothertimeswouldonlyhaverousedtheresistingpowerinhertonewefforts——hadstruckherwithassuffocatingaterror,hadprostratedherwithasall-masteringadespair,asifshehadbeenoverwhelmedbythecrowningdisasterofexpulsionfromSt。Crux。Butonewarningcouldbereadinsuchachangeasthis。Intothespaceoflittlemorethanayearshehadcrowdedthewearingandwastingemotionsofalife。Thebountifulgiftsofhealthandstrength,soprodigallyheapedonherbyNature,solongabusedwithimpunity,werefailingheratlast。
Shelookedupatthefarfaintblueofthesky。Sheheardthejoyoussingingofbirdsamongtheivythatclothedtheruins。Ohthecolddistanceoftheheavens!Ohthepitilesshappinessofthebirds!Ohthelonelyhorrorofsittingthere,andfeelingoldandweakandworn,intheheydayofheryouth!Sherosewithalasteffortofresolution,andtriedtokeepbackthehystericalpassionswellingatherheartbymovingandlookingabouther。Rapidlyandmorerapidlyshewalkedtoandfrointhesunshine。Theexercisehelpedher,throughtheveryfatiguethatshefeltfromit。Sheforcedtherisingtearsdesperatelybacktotheirsources;shefoughtwiththeclingingpain,andwrencheditfromitshold。Littlebylittlehermindbegantoclearagain:thedespairingfearofherselfgrewlessvividlypresenttoherthoughts。Therewerereservesofyouthandstrengthinherstilltobewasted;therewasaspiritsorelywounded,butnotyetsubdued。
Shegraduallyextendedthelimitsofherwalk;shegraduallyrecoveredtheexerciseofherobservation。
Atthewesternextremitytheremainsofthemonasterywereinalessruinousconditionthanattheeastern。Incertainplaces,wherethestoutoldwallsstillstood,repairshadbeenmadeatsomeformertime。Roofsofredtilehadbeenlaidroughlyoverfouroftheancientcells;woodendoorshadbeenadded;andtheoldmonasticchambershadbeenusedasshedstoholdthemultifariouslumberofSt。Crux。Nopadlocksguardedanyofthedoors。Magdalenhadonlytopushthemtoletthedaylightinonthelitterinside。Sheresolvedtoinvestigatetheshedsoneaftertheother——notfromcuriosity,notwiththeideaofmakingdiscoveriesofanysort。Heronlyobjectwastofillupthevacanttime,andtokeepthethoughtsthatunnervedherfromreturningtohermind。
Thefirstshedsheopenedcontainedthegardener\'sutensils,largeandsmall。Thesecondwaslitteredwithfragmentsofbrokenfurniture,emptypicture-framesofworm-eatenwood,shatteredvases,boxeswithoutcovers,andbookstornfromtheirbindings。AsMagdalenturnedtoleavetheshed,afteronecarelessglanceroundheratthelumberthatitcontained,herfootstrucksomethingonthegroundwhichtinkledagainstafragmentofchinalyingnearit。Shestooped,anddiscoveredthatthetinklingsubstancewasarustykey。
Shepickedupthekeyandlookedatit。Shewalkedoutintotheair,andconsideredalittle。Moreoldforgottenkeyswereprobablylyingaboutamongthelumberinthesheds。Whatifshecollectedallshecouldfind,andtriedthem,oneafteranother,inthelocksofthecabinetsandcupboardsnowclosedagainsther?Wastherechanceenoughthatanyoneofthemmightfittojustifyherinventuringontheexperiment?IfthelocksatSt。Cruxwereasold-fashionedasthefurniture——iftherewerenoprotectivenicetiesofmoderninventiontocontendagainst——therewaschanceenoughbeyondallquestion。Whocouldsaywhethertheverykeyinherhandmightnotbethelostduplicateofoneofthekeysontheadmiral\'sbunch?Inthedearthofallothermeansoffindingthewaytoherend,theriskwasworthrunning。Aflashoftheoldspiritsparkledinherwearyeyesassheturnedandre-enteredtheshed。
Halfanhourmorebroughthertothelimitsofthetimewhichshecouldventuretoallowherselfintheopenair。Inthatintervalshehadsearchedtheshedsfromfirsttolast,andhadfoundfivemorekeys。“Fivemorechances!“shethoughttoherself,asshehidthekeys,andhastilyreturnedtothehouse。
Afterfirstreportingherselfinthehousekeeper\'sroom,shewentupstairstoremoveherbonnetandshawl;takingthatopportunitytohidethekeysinherbed-chamberuntilnightcame。Theywerecrustedthickwithrustanddirt;butshedarednotattempttocleanthemuntilbed-timesecludedherfromthepryingeyesoftheservantsinthesolitudeofherroom。
Whenthedinnerhourbroughther,asusual,intopersonalcontactwiththeadmiral,shewasatoncestruckbyachangeinhim。Forthefirsttimeinherexperiencetheoldgentlemanwassilentanddepressed。Heatelessthanusual,andhehardlysaidfivewordstoherfromthebeginningofthemealtotheend。Someunwelcomesubjectofreflectionhadevidentlyfixeditselfonhismind,andremainedtherepersistently,inspiteofhiseffortstoshakeitoff。Atintervalsthroughtheevening,shewonderedwithanever-growingperplexitywhatthesubjectcouldbe。
Atlastthelagginghoursreachedtheirend,andbed-timecame。BeforeshesleptthatnightMagdalenhadcleanedthekeysfromallimpurities,andhadoiledthewards,tohelpthemsmoothlyintothelocks。Thelastdifficultythatremainedwasthedifficultyofchoosingthetimewhentheexperimentmightbetriedwiththeleastriskofinterruptionanddiscovery。Aftercarefullyconsideringthequestionovernight,Magdalencouldonlyresolvetowaitandbeguidedbytheeventsofthenextday。
Themorningcame,andforthefirsttimeatSt。Cruxeventsjustifiedthetrustshehadplacedinthem。Themorningcame,andtheoneremainingdifficultythatperplexedherwasunexpectedlysmoothedawaybynolessapersonthantheadmiralhimself!Tothesurpriseofeveryoneinthehouse,heannouncedatbreakfastthathehadarrangedtostartforLondoninanhour;thatheshouldpassthenightintown;andthathemightbeexpectedtoreturntoSt。Cruxintimefordinneronthenextday。Hevolunteerednofurtherexplanationstothehousekeeperortoanyoneelse,butitwaseasytoseethathiserrandtoLondonwasofnoordinaryimportanceinhisownestimation。Heswallowedhisbreakfastinaviolenthurry,andhewasimpatientlyreadyforthecarriagebeforeitcametothedoor。
ExperiencehadtaughtMagdalentobecautious。Shewaitedalittle,afterAdmiralBartram\'sdeparture,beforesheventuredontryingherexperimentwiththekeys。Itwaswellshedidso。Mrs。Draketookadvantageoftheadmiral\'sabsencetoreviewtheconditionoftheapartmentsonthefirstfloor。Theresultsoftheinvestigationbynomeanssatisfiedher;broomsanddustersweresettowork;andthehouse-maidswereinandoutoftheroomsperpetually,aslongasthedaylightlasted。
Theeveningpassed,andstillthesafeopportunityforwhichMagdalenwasonthewatchneverpresenteditself。Bed-timecameagain,andfoundherplacedbetweenthetwoalternativesoftrustingtothedoubtfulchancesofthenextmorning,oroftryingthekeysboldlyinthedeadofnight。Informertimesshewouldhavemadeherchoicewithouthesitation。Shehesitatednow;butthewreckofheroldcouragestillsustainedher,andshedeterminedtomaketheventureatnight。
TheykeptearlyhoursatSt。Crux。Ifshewaitedinherroomuntilhalf-pasteleven,shewouldwaitlongenough。Atthattimeshestoleoutontothestaircase,withthekeysinherpocket,andthecandleinherhand。
Onpassingtheentrancetothecorridoronthebedroomfloor,shestoppedandlistened。Nosoundofsnoring,noshufflingofinfirmfootstepswastobeheardontheothersideofthescreen。Shelookedrounditdistrustfully。Thestonepassagewasasolitude,andthetruckle-bedwasempty。HerowneyeshadshownheroldMazeyonhiswaytotheupperregions,morethananhoursince,withacandleinhishand。Hadhetakenadvantageofhismaster\'sabsencetoenjoytheunaccustomedluxuryofsleepinginaroom?Asthethoughtoccurredtoher,asoundfromthefurtherendofthecorridorjustcaughtherear。Shesoftlyadvancedtowardit,andheardthroughthedoorofthelastandremotestofthesparebed-chamberstheveteran\'slustysnoringintheroominside。Thediscoverywasstartling,inmoresensesthanone。Itdeepenedtheimpenetrablemysteryofthetruckle-bed;foritshowedplainlythatoldMazeyhadnobarbarouspreferenceofhisownforpassinghisnightsinthecorridor;heoccupiedthatstrangeandcomfortlesssleeping-placepurelyandentirelyonhismaster\'saccount。
Itwasnotimefordwellingonthereflectionswhichthisconclusionmightsuggest。Magdalenretracedherstepsalongthepassage,anddescendedtothefirstfloor。Passingthedoorsnearesttoher,shetriedthelibraryfirst。Onthestaircaseandinthecorridorsshehadfeltherheartthrobbingfastwithanunutterablefear;butasenseofsecurityreturnedtoherwhenshefoundherselfwithinthefourwallsoftheroom,andwhenshehadclosedthedoorontheghostlyquietoutside。
Thefirstlockshetriedwasthelockofthetable-drawer。Noneofthekeysfittedit。Hernextexperimentwasmadeonthecabinet。Wouldthesecondattemptfail,likethefirst?
No!Oneofthekeysfitted;oneofthekeys,withalittlepatientmanagement,turnedthelock。Shelookedineagerly。Therewereopenshelvesabove,andonelongdrawerunderthem。Theshelvesweredevotedtospecimensofcuriousminerals,neatlylabeledandarranged。Thedrawerwasdividedintocompartments。Twoofthecompartmentscontainedpapers。Inthefirst,shediscoverednothingbutacollectionofreceiptedbills。Inthesecond,shefoundaheapofbusinessdocuments;butthewriting,yellowwithage,wasenoughofitselftowarnherthattheTrustwasnotthere。Sheshutthedoorsofthecabinet,and,afterlockingthemagainwithsomelittledifficulty,proceededtotrythekeysinthebookcasecupboardsnext,beforeshecontinuedherinvestigationsintheotherrooms。
Thebookcasecupboardswereunassailable,thedrawersandcupboardsinalltheotherroomswereunassailable。Oneafteranothershetriedthempatientlyinregularsuccession。Itwasuseless。Thechancewhichthecabinetinthelibraryhadofferedinherfavorwasthefirstchanceandthelast。
Shewentbacktoherroom,seeingnothingbutherownglidingshadow,hearingnothingbutherownstealthyfootfallinthemidnightstillnessofthehouse。Aftermechanicallyputtingthekeysawayintheirformerhiding-place,shelookedtowardherbed,andturnedawayfromit,shuddering。Thewarningremembranceofwhatshehadsufferedthatmorninginthegardenwasvividlypresenttohermind。“Anotherchancetried,“shethoughttoherself,“andanotherchancelost!IshallbreakdownagainifIthinkofit;andIshallthinkofitifIlieawakeinthedark。“Shehadbroughtawork-boxwithhertoSt。Crux,asoneofthemanylittlethingswhichinhercharacterofaservantitwasdesirabletopossess;andshenowopenedtheboxandappliedherselfresolutelytowork。Herwantofdexteritywithherneedleassistedtheobjectshehadinview;itobligedhertopaytheclosestattentiontoheremployment;itforcedherthoughtsawayfromthetwosubjectsofallotherswhichshenowdreadedmost——herselfandthefuture。
Thenextday,ashehadarranged,theadmiralreturned。HisvisittoLondonhadnotimprovedhisspirits。Theshadowofsomeunconquerabledoubtstillcloudedhisface;hisrestlesstonguewasstrangelyquiet,whileMagdalenwaitedonhimathissolitarymeal。Thatnightthesnoringresoundedoncemoreontheinnersideofthescreen,andoldMazeywasbackagaininthecomfortlesstruckle-bed。
Threemoredayspassed——Aprilcame。Onthesecondofthemonth——returningasunexpectedlyashehaddepartedaweekbefore——Mr。GeorgeBartramre-appearedatSt。Crux。
Hecamebackearlyintheafternoon,andhadaninterviewwithhisuncleinthelibrary。Theinterviewover,heleftthehouseagain,andwasdriventotherailwaybythegroomintimetocatchthelasttraintoLondonthatnight。Thegroomnoticed,ontheroad,that“Mr。GeorgeseemedtoberatherpleasedthanotherwiseatleavingSt。Crux。“Healsoremarked,onhisreturn,thattheadmiralsworeathimforoverdrivingthehorses——anindicationofill-temper,onthepartofhismaster,whichhedescribedasbeingentirelywithoutprecedentinallhisformerexperience。Magdalen,inherdepartmentofservice,hadsufferedinlikemannerundertheoldman\'sirritablehumor:hehadbeendissatisfiedwitheverythingshedidinthedining-room;andhehadfoundfaultwithallthedishes,oneafteranother,fromthemutton-brothtothetoastedcheese。
Thenexttwodayspassedasusual。Onthethirddayaneventhappened。Inappearance,itwasnothingmoreimportantthanaringatthedrawing-roombell。Inreality,itwastheforerunnerofapproachingcatastrophe——theformidableheraldoftheend。
ItwasMagdalen\'sbusinesstoanswerthebell。Onreachingthedrawing-roomdoor,sheknockedasusual。Therewasnoreply。Afteragainknocking,andagainreceivingnoanswer,sheventuredintotheroom,andwasinstantlymetbyacurrentofcoldairflowingfullonherface。Theheavyslidingdoorintheoppositewallwaspushedback,andtheArcticatmosphereofFreeze-your-Boneswaspouringunhinderedintotheemptyroom。
Shewaitednearthedoor,doubtfulwhattodonext;itwascertainlythedrawing-roombellthathadrung,andnoother。Shewaited,lookingthroughtheopendoorwayopposite,downthewildernessofthedismantledHall。
Alittleconsiderationsatisfiedherthatitwouldbebesttogodownstairsagain,andwaitthereforasecondsummonsfromthebell。Onturningtoleavetheroom,shehappenedtolookbackoncemore,andexactlyatthatmomentshesawthedooropenattheoppositeextremityoftheBanqueting-Hall——thedoorleadingintothefirstoftheapartmentsintheeastwing。Atallmancameout,wearinghisgreatcoatandhishat,andrapidlyapproachedthedrawing-room。Hisgaitbetrayedhim,whilehewasstilltoofaroffforhisfeaturestobeseen。Beforehewasquitehalf-wayacrosstheHall,Magdalenhadrecognized——theadmiral。
Helooked,notirritatedonly,butsurprisedaswell,atfindinghisparlor-maidwaitingforhiminthedrawing-room,andinquired,sharplyandsuspiciously,whatshewantedthere?Magdalenrepliedthatshehadcometheretoanswerthebell。Hisfaceclearedalittlewhenheheardtheexplanation。“Yes,yes;tobesure,“hesaid。“Ididring,andthenIforgotit。“Hepulledtheslidingdoorbackintoitsplaceashespoke。“Coals,“heresumed,impatiently,pointingtotheemptyscuttle。“Irangforcoals。“
Magdalenwentbacktothekitchenregions。Aftercommunicatingtheadmiral\'sordertotheservantwhosespecialdutyitwastoattendtothefires,shereturnedtothepantry,and,gentlyclosingthedoor,satdownalonetothink。
Ithadbeenherimpressioninthedrawing-room——anditwasherimpressionstill——thatshehadaccidentallysurprisedAdmiralBartramonavisittotheeastrooms,which,forsomeurgentreasonofhisown,hewishedtokeepasecret。Haunteddayandnightbytheonedominantideathatnowpossessedher,sheleapedalllogicaldifficultiesatabound,andatonceassociatedthesuspicionofasecretproceedingontheadmiral\'spartwiththekindredsuspicionwhichpointedtohimasthedepositaryoftheSecretTrust。Uptothistimeithadbeenhersettledbeliefthathekeptallhisimportantdocumentsinoneorotherofthesuiteofroomswhichhehappenedtobeoccupyingforthetimebeing。Why——shenowaskedherself,withasuddendistrustoftheconclusionwhichhadhithertosatisfiedhermind——whymighthenotlocksomeofthemupintheotherroomsaswell?Theremembranceofthekeysstillconcealedintheirhiding-placeinherroomsharpenedhersenseofthereasonablenessofthisnewview。Withoneunimportantexception,thosekeyshadallfailedwhenshetriedthemintheroomsonthenorthsideofthehouse。Mighttheynotsucceedwiththecabinetsandcupboardsintheeastrooms,onwhichshehadnevertriedthem,orthoughtoftryingthem,yet?Iftherewasachance,howeversmall,ofturningthemtobetteraccountthanshehadturnedthemthusfar,itwasachancetobetried。Iftherewasapossibility,howeverremote,thattheTrustmightbehiddeninanyoneofthelockedrepositoriesintheeastwing,itwasapossibilitytobeputtothetest。When?Herownexperienceansweredthequestion。Atthetimewhennopryingeyeswereopen,andnoaccidentsweretobefeared——whenthehousewasquiet——inthedeadofnight。
Sheknewenoughofherchangedselftodreadtheenervatinginfluenceofdelay。Shedeterminedtoruntheriskheadlongthatnight。
Moreblundersescapedherwhendinner-timecame;theadmiral\'scriticismsonherwaitingattableweresharperthanever。Hishardestwordsinflictednopainonher;shescarcelyheardhim——hermindwasdulltoeverysensebutthesenseofthecomingtrial。Theeveningwhichhadpassedslowlytoheronthenightofherfirstexperimentwiththekeyspassedquicklynow。Whenbed-timecame,bed-timetookherbysurprise。
Shewaitedlongeronthisoccasionthanshehadwaitedbefore。Theadmiralwasathome;hemightalterhismindandgodownstairsagain,afterhehadgoneuptohisroom;hemighthaveforgottensomethinginthelibraryandmightreturntofetchit。Midnightstruckfromtheclockintheservants\'hallbeforesheventuredoutofherroom,withthekeysagaininherpocket,withthecandleagaininherhand。
Atthefirstofthestairsonwhichshesetherfoottodescend,anall-masteringhesitation,anunintelligibleshrinkingfromsomeperilunknown,seizedheronasudden。Shewaited,andreasonedwithherself。Shehadrecoiledfromnosacrifices,shehadyieldedtonofears,incarryingoutthestratagembywhichshehadgainedadmissiontoSt。Crux;andnow,whenthelongarrayofdifficultiesattheoutsethadbeenpatientlyconquered,now,whenbysheerforceofresolutionthestarting-pointwasgained,shehesitatedtoadvance。“Ishrankfromnothingtogethere,“shesaidtoherself。“WhatmadnesspossessesmethatIshrinknow?“
Everypulseinherquickenedatthethought,withananimatingshamethatnervedhertogoon。Shedescendedthestairs,fromthethirdfloortothesecond,fromthesecondtothefirst,withouttrustingherselftopauseagainwithineasyreachofherownroom。Inanotherminute,shehadreachedtheendofthecorridor,hadcrossedthevestibule,andhadenteredthedrawing-room。Itwasonlywhenhergraspwasontheheavybrasshandleoftheslidingdoor——itwasonlyatthemomentbeforeshepushedthedoorback——thatshewaitedtotakebreath。TheBanqueting-Hallwascloseontheothersideofthewoodenpartitionagainstwhichshestood;herexcitedimaginationfeltthedeath-likechillofitflowingoverheralready。
Shepushedbacktheslidingdoorafewinches——andstoppedinmomentaryalarm。Whentheadmiralhadcloseditinherpresencethatday,shehadheardnonoise。WhenoldMazeyhadopenedittoshowhertheroomsintheeastwing,shehadheardnonoise。Now,inthenightsilence,shenoticedforthefirsttimethatthedoormadeasound——adull,rushingsound,likethewind。
Sherousedherself,andpusheditfurtherback——pushedithalfwayintothehollowchamberinthewallconstructedtoreceiveit。Sheadvancedboldlyintothegap,andmetthenightviewoftheBanqueting-Hallfacetoface。
Themoonwasroundingthesouthernsideofthehouse。Herpalingbeamsstreamedthroughthenearerwindows,andlayinlongstripsofslantinglightonthemarblepavementoftheHall。Theblackshadowsofthepedimentsbetweeneachwindow,alternatingwiththestripsoflight,heightenedthewanglareofthemoonshineonthefloor。Towarditslowerend,theHallmeltedmysteriouslyintodarkness。Theceilingwaslosttoview;theyawningfire-place,theoverhangingmantel-piece,thelongrowofbattlepicturesabove,wereallswallowedupinnight。Butonevisibleobjectwasdiscernible,besidesthegleamingwindowsandthemoon-stripedfloor。Midwayinthelastandfurthestofthestripsoflight,thetripodroseerectonitsgauntblacklegs,likeamonstercalledtolifebythemoon——amonsterrisingthroughthelight,andmeltinginvisiblyintotheuppershadowsoftheHall。Farandnear,allsoundlaydead,drownedinthestagnantcold。Thesoothinghushofnightwasawfulhere。Thedeepabyssesofdarknesshidabyssesofsilencemoreimmeasurablestill。
Shestoodmotionlessinthedoor-way,withstrainingeyes,withstrainingears。Shelookedforsomemovingthing,shelistenedforsomerisingsound,andlookedandlistenedinvain。Aquickceaselessshiveringranthroughherfromheadtofoot。Theshiveringoffear,ortheshiveringofcold?Thebaredoubtrousedherresolutewill。“Now,“shethought,advancingastepthroughthedoor-way,“ornever!I\'llcountthestripsofmoonlightthreetimesover,andcrosstheHall。“
“One,two,three,four,five。One,two,three,four,five。One,two,three,four,five。“
Asthefinalnumberpassedherlipsatthethirdtimeofcounting,shecrossedtheHall。Lookingfornothing,listeningfornothing,onehandholdingthecandle,theothermechanicallygraspingthefoldsofherdress,shesped,ghost-like,downthelengthoftheghostlyplace。Shereachedthedoorofthefirstoftheeasternrooms,openedit,andranin。Thesuddenreliefofattainingarefuge,thesuddenentranceintoanewatmosphere,overpoweredherforthemoment。Shehadjusttimetoputthecandlesafelyonatablebeforeshedroppedgiddyandbreathlessintothenearestchair。
Littlebylittleshefelttherestquietingher。Inafewminutesshebecameconsciousofthetriumphofhavingwonherwaytotheeastrooms。Inafewminutesshewasstrongenoughtorisefromthechair,totakethekeysfromherpocket,andtolookroundher。
Thefirstobjectsoffurnitureintheroomwhichattractedherattentionwereanoldbureauofcarvedoak,andaheavybuhltablewithacabinetattached。Shetriedthebureaufirst;itlookedthelikeliestreceptacleforpapersofthetwo。Threeofthekeysprovedtobeofasizetoenterthelock,butnoneofthemwouldturnit。Thebureauwasunassailable。Sheleftit,andpausedtotrimthewickofthecandlebeforeshetriedthebuhlcabinetnext。
Atthemomentwhensheraisedherhandtothecandle,sheheardthestillnessoftheBanqueting-Hallshudderwiththeterrorofasound——asoundfaintandmomentary,likethedistantrushingofthewind。
Theslidingdoorinthedrawing-roomhadmoved。
Whichwayhaditmoved?Hadanunknownhandpusheditbackinitssocketfurtherthanshehadpushedit,orpulledittoagain,andclosedit?Thehorrorofbeingshutoutallnight,bysomeundiscoverableagency,fromthelifeofthehouse,wasstrongerinherthanthehorroroflookingacrosstheBanqueting-Hall。Shemadedesperatelyforthedooroftheroom。
Ithadfallentosilentlyafterherwhenshehadcomein,butitwasnotclosed。Shepulleditopen,andlooked。
Thesightthatmethereyesrootedher,panic-stricken,tothespot。
Closetothefirstoftherowofwindows,countingfromthedrawing-room,andfullinthegleamofit,shesawasolitaryfigure。Itstoodmotionless,risingoutofthefurtheststripofmoonlightonthefloor。Asshelooked,itsuddenlydisappeared。Inanotherinstantshesawitagain,inthesecondstripofmoonlight——lostitagain——sawitinthethirdstrip——lostitoncemore——andsawitinthefourth。Momentbymomentitadvanced,nowmysteriouslylostintheshadow,nowsuddenlyvisibleagaininthelight,untilitreachedthefifthandneareststripofmoonlight。Thereitpaused,andstrayedasideslowlytothemiddleoftheHall。Itstoppedatthetripod,andstood,shiveringaudiblyinthesilence,withitshandsraisedoverthedeadashes,intheactionofwarmingthematafire。Itturnedbackagain,movingdownthepathofthemoonlight,stoppedatthefifthwindow,turnedoncemore,andcameonsoftlythroughtheshadowstraighttotheplacewhereMagdalenstood。
Hervoicewasdumb,herwillwashelpless。Everysenseinherbuttheseeingsensewasparalyzed。Theseeingsense——heldfastinthefettersofitsownterror——lookedunchangeablystraightforward,asithadlookedfromthefirst。Thereshestoodinthedoor-way,fullinthepathofthefigureadvancingonherthroughtheshadow,nearerandnearer,stepbystep。
Itcameclose。
Thebondsofhorrorthatheldherburstasunderwhenitwaswithinarm\'s-length。Shestartedback。Thelightofthecandleonthetablefellfullonitsface,andshowedher——AdmiralBartram。
Along,graydressing-gownwaswrappedroundhim。Hisheadwasuncovered;hisfeetwerebare。Inhislefthandhecarriedhislittlebasketofkeys。HepassedMagdalenslowly,hislipswhisperingwithoutintermission,hisopeneyesstaringstraightbeforehimwiththeglassystareofdeath。Hiseyesrevealedtohertheterrifyingtruth。Hewaswalkinginhissleep。
Theterrorofseeinghimasshesawhimnowwasnottheterrorshehadfeltwhenhereyesfirstlightedonhim——anapparitioninthemoon-light,aspecterintheghostlyHall。Thistimeshecouldstruggleagainsttheshock;shecouldfeelthedepthofherownfear。
Hepassedher,andstoppedinthemiddleoftheroom。Magdalenventurednearenoughtohimtobewithinreachofhisvoiceashemutteredtohimself。Sheventurednearerstill,andheardthenameofherdeadhusbandfalldistinctlyfromthesleep-walker\'slips。
“Noel!“hesaid,inthelowmonotonoustonesofadreamertalkinginhissleep,“mygoodfellow,Noel,takeitbackagain!Itworriesmedayandnight。Idon\'tknowwhereit\'ssafe;Idon\'tknowwheretoputit。Takeitback,Noel——takeitback!“
Asthosewordsescapedhim,hewalkedtothebuhlcabinet。Hesatdowninthechairplacedbeforeit,andsearchedinthebasketamonghiskeys。Magdalensoftlyfollowedhim,andstoodbehindhischair,waitingwiththecandleinherhand。Hefoundthekey,andunlockedthecabinet。Withoutaninstant\'shesitation,hedrewoutadrawer,thesecondofarow。Theonethinginthedrawerwasafoldedletter。Heremovedit,andputitdownbeforehimonthetable。“Takeitback,Noel!“herepeated,mechanically;“takeitback!“
Magdalenlookedoverhisshoulderandreadtheselines,tracedinherhusband\'shandwriting,atthetopoftheletter:Tobekeptinyourownpossession,andtobeopenedbyyourselfonlyonthedayofmydecease。NoelVanstone。Shesawthewordsplainly,withtheadmiral\'snameandtheadmiral\'saddresswrittenunderthem。
TheTrustwithinreachofherhand!TheTrusttracedtoitshiding-placeatlast!
Shetookonestepforward,tostealroundhischairandtosnatchtheletterfromthetable。Attheinstantwhenshemoved,hetookituponcemore,lockedthecabinet,and,rising,turnedandfacedher。
Intheimpulseofthemoment,shestretchedoutherhandtowardthehandinwhichheheldtheletter。Theyellowcandle-lightfellfullonhim。Theawfuldeath-in-lifeofhisface——themysteryofthesleepingbody,movinginunconsciousobediencetothedreamingmind——dauntedher。Herhandtrembled,anddroppedagainatherside。
Heputthekeyofthecabinetbackinthebasket,andcrossedtheroomtothebureau,withthebasketinonehandandtheletterintheother。Magdalensetthecandleonthetableagain,andwatchedhim。Ashehadopenedthecabinet,sohenowopenedthebureau。OncemoreMagdalenstretchedoutherhand,andoncemoresherecoiledbeforethemysteryandtheterrorofhissleep。Heputtheletterinadraweratthebackofthebureau,andclosedtheheavyoakenlidagain。“Yes,“hesaid。“Saferthere,asyousay,Noel——saferthere。“Sohespoke。So,timeaftertime,thewordsthatbetrayedhimrevealedthedeadmanlivingandspeakingagaininthedream。
Hadhelockedthebureau?Magdalenhadnotheardthelockturn。Asheslowlymovedaway,walkingbackoncemoretowardthemiddleoftheroom,shetriedthelid。Itwaslocked。Thatdiscoverymade,shelookedtoseewhathewasdoingnext。Hewasleavingtheroomagain,withthebasketofkeysinhishand。Whenherfirstglanceovertookhim,hewascrossingthethresholdofthedoor。
Someinscrutablefascinationpossessedher,somemysteriousattractiondrewherafterhim,inspiteofherself。Shetookupthecandleandfollowedhimmechanically,asifshetoowerewalkinginhersleep。Onebehindtheother,inslowandnoiselessprogress,theycrossedtheBanqueting-Hall。Onebehindtheother,theypassedthroughthedrawing-room,andalongthecorridor,andupthestairs。Shefollowedhimtohisowndoor。Hewentin,andshutitbehindhimsoftly。Shestopped,andlookedtowardthetruckle-bed。Itwaspushedasideatthefoot,somelittledistanceawayfromthebedroomdoor。Whohadmovedit?Sheheldthecandlecloseandlookedtowardthepillow,withasuddencuriosityandasuddendoubt。
Thetruckle-bedwasempty。
Thediscoverystartledherforthemoment,andforthemomentonly。Plainastheinferencesweretobedrawnfromit,sheneverdrewthem。Hermind,slowlyrecoveringtheexerciseofitsfaculties,wasstillundertheinfluenceoftheearlierandthedeeperimpressionsproducedonit。Hermindfollowedtheadmiralintohisroom,asherbodyhadfollowedhimacrosstheBanqueting-Hall。
Hadhelaindownagaininhisbed?Washestillasleep?Shelistenedatthedoor。Notasoundwasaudibleintheroom。Shetriedthedoor,and,findingitnotlocked,softlyopeneditafewinchesandlistenedagain。Theriseandfallofhislow,regularbreathinginstantlycaughtherear。Hewasstillasleep。
Shewentintotheroom,and,shadingthecandle-lightwithherhand,approachedthebedsidetolookathim。Thedreamwaspast;theoldman\'ssleepwasdeepandpeaceful;hislipswerestill;hisquiethandwaslaidoverthecoverletinmotionlessrepose。Helaywithhisfaceturnedtowardtheright-handsideofthebed。Alittletablestoodtherewithinreachofhishand。Fourobjectswereplacedonit;hiscandle,hismatches,hiscustomarynightdrinkoflemonade,andhisbasketofkeys。
Theideaofpossessingherselfofhiskeysthatnight(ifanopportunityofferedwhenthebasketwasnotinhishand)hadfirstcrossedhermindwhenshesawhimgointohisroom。Shehadlostitagainforthemoment,inthesurpriseofdiscoveringtheemptytruckle-bed。Shenowrecoveredittheinstantthetableattractedherattention。Itwasuselesstowastetimeintryingtochoosetheonekeywantedfromtherest——theonekeywasnotwellenoughknowntohertobereadilyidentified。Shetookallthekeysfromthetable,inthebasketastheylay,andnoiselesslyclosedthedoorbehindheronleavingtheroom。
Thetruckle-bed,asshepassedit,obtrudeditselfagainonherattention,andforcedhertothinkofit。Afteramoment\'sconsideration,shemovedthefootofthebedbacktoitscustomarypositionacrossthedoor。Whetherhewasinthehouseoroutofit,theveteranmightreturntohisdesertedpostatanymoment。Ifhesawthebedmovedfromitsusualplace,hemightsuspectsomethingwrong,hemightrousehismaster,andthelossofthekeysmightbediscovered。
Nothinghappenedasshedescendedthestairs,nothinghappenedasshepassedalongthecorridor;thehousewasassilentandassolitaryasever。ShecrossedtheBanqueting-Hallthistimewithouthesitation;theeventsofthenighthadhardenedhermindagainstallimaginaryterrors。“Now,Ihavegotit!“shewhisperedtoherself,inanirrepressibleoutburstofexaltation,assheenteredthefirstoftheeastroomsandputhercandleonthetopoftheoldbureau。
Evenyettherewasatrialinstoreforherpatience。Someminuteselapsed——minutesthatseemedhours——beforeshefoundtherightkeyandraisedthelidofthebureau。Atlastshedrewouttheinnerdrawer!Atlastshehadtheletterinherhand!
Ithadbeensealed,butthesealwasbroken。Sheopeneditonthespot,tomakesurethatshehadactuallypossessedherselfoftheTrustbeforeleavingtheroom。Theendoftheletterwasthefirstpartofitsheturnedto。Itcametoitsconclusionhighonthethirdpage,anditwassignedbyNoelVanstone。Belowthenametheselineswereaddedintheadmiral\'shandwriting:
“Thisletterwasreceivedbymeatthesametimewiththewillofmyfriend,NoelVanstone。Intheeventofmydeath,withoutleavinganyotherdirectionsrespectingit,IbegmynephewandmyexecutorstounderstandthatIconsidertherequestsmadeinthisdocumentasabsolutelybindingonme。
“ARTHUREVERARDBARTRAM。“
Sheleftthoselinesunread。ShejustnoticedthattheywerenotinNoelVanstone\'shandwriting;and,passingovertheminstantly,asimmaterialtotheobjectinview,turnedtheleavesoftheletter,andtransferredherattentiontotheopeningsentencesonthefirstpage。Shereadthesewords:
“DEARADMIRALBARTRAM——WhenyouopenmyWill(inwhichyouarenamedmysoleexecutor),youwillfindthatIhavebequeathedthewholeresidueofmyestate——afterpaymentofonelegacyoffivethousandpounds——toyourself。ItisthepurposeofmylettertotellyouprivatelywhattheobjectisforwhichIhaveleftyouthefortunewhichisnowplacedinyourhands。
“Ibegyoutoconsiderthislargelegacyasintended——“
Shehadproceededthusfarwithbreathlesscuriosityandinterest,whenherattentionsuddenlyfailedher。Something——shewastoodeeplyabsorbedtoknowwhat——hadgotbetweenherandtheletter。WasitasoundintheBanqueting-Hallagain?Shelookedoverhershoulderatthedoorbehindher,andlistened。Nothingwastobeheard,nothingwastobeseen。Shereturnedtotheletter。
Thewritingwascrampedandclose。Inherimpatientcuriositytoreadmore,shefailedtofindthelostplaceagain。Hereyes,attractedbyablot,lightedonasentencelowerinthepagethanthesentenceatwhichshehadleftoff。Thefirstthreewordsshesawrivetedherattentionanew——theywerethefirstwordsshehadmetwithintheletterwhichdirectlyreferredtoGeorgeBartram。Inthesuddenexcitementofthatdiscovery,shereadtherestofthesentenceeagerly,beforeshemadeanysecondattempttoreturntothelostplace:
“Ifyournephewfailstocomplywiththeseconditions——thatistosay,if,beingeitherabachelororawidoweratthetimeofmydecease,hefailstomarryinallrespectsasIhavehereinstructedhimtomarry,withinsixcalendarmonthsfromthattime——itismydesirethatheshallnotreceive——“
Shehadreadtothatpoint,tothatlastwordandnofurther,whenahandpassedsuddenlyfrombehindherbetweentheletterandhereye,andgrippedherfastbythewristinaninstantSheturnedwithashriekofterror,andfoundherselffacetofacewitholdMazey。
Theveteran\'seyeswerebloodshot;hishandwasheavy;hislistslippersweretwistedcrookedlyonhisfeet;andhisbodyswayedtoandfroonhiswidelypartedlegs。Ifhehadtestedhisconditionthatnightbytheunfailingcriterionofthemodelship,hemusthaveinevitablypronouncedsentenceonhimselfintheusualform:“Drunkagain,Mazey;drunkagain。“
“YouyoungJezebel!“saidtheoldsailor,withaleerononesideofhisface,andafrownontheother。“Thenexttimeyoutaketonight-walkingintheneighborhoodofFreeze-your-Bones,usethosesharpeyesofyoursfirst,andmakesurethere\'snobodyelsenightwalkinginthegardenoutside。Dropit,Jezebel!dropit!“
KeepingfastholdofMagdalen\'sarmwithonehand,hetooktheletterfromherwiththeother,putitbackintotheopendrawer,andlockedthebureau。Sheneverstruggledwithhim,sheneverspoke。Herenergywasgone;herpowersofresistancewerecrushed。Theterrorsofthathorriblenight,followingonecloseontheotherinreiteratedshocks,hadstruckherdownatlast。Sheyieldedassubmissively,shetrembledashelplessly,astheweakestwomanliving。
OldMazeydroppedherarm,andpointedwithdrunkensolemnitytoachairinaninnercorneroftheroom。Shesatdown,stillwithoututteringaword。Theveteran(breathingveryhardoverit)steadiedhimselfonbothelbowsagainsttheslantingtopofthebureau,andfromthatcommandingpositionaddressedMagdalenoncemore。
“Comeandbelockedup!“saidoldMazey,wagginghisvenerableheadwithjudicialseverity。“There\'llbeacourtofinquiryto-morrowmorning,andI\'mwitness——worseluck!——I\'mwitness。Youyoungjade,you\'vecommittedburglary——that\'swhatyou\'vedone。Hishonortheadmiral\'skeysstolen;hishonortheadmiral\'sdeskransacked;andhishonortheadmiral\'sprivatelettersbrokeopen。Burglary!Burglary!Comeandbelockedup!“Heslowlyrecoveredanuprightposition,withtheassistanceofhishands,backedbythesolidresistingpowerofthebureau;andlapsedintolachrymosesoliloquy。“Who\'dhavethoughtit?“saidoldMazey,paternallywateringattheeyes。“Taketheoutsideofher,andshe\'sasstraightasapoplar;taketheinsideofher,andshe\'sascrookedasSin。Suchafine-growngirl,too。Whatapity!whatapity!“
“Don\'thurtme!“saidMagdalen,faintly,asoldMazeystaggereduptothechair,andtookherbythewristagain。“I\'mfrightened,Mr。Mazey——I\'mdreadfullyfrightened。“
“Hurtyou?“repeatedtheveteran。“I\'madealtoofondofyou——andmoreshameformeatmyage!——tohurtyou。IfIletgoofyourwrist,willyouwalkstraightbeforeme,whereIcanseeyoualltheway?Willyoubeagoodgirl,andwalkstraightuptoyourowndoor?“
Magdalengavethepromiserequiredofher——gaveitwithaneagerlongingtoreachtherefugeofherroom。Sherose,andtriedtotakethecandlefromthebureau,butoldMazey\'scunninghandwastooquickforher。“Letthecandlebe,“saidtheveteran,winkinginmomentaryforgetfulnessofhisresponsibleposition。“You\'reatriflequickeronyourlegsthanIam,mydear,andyoumightleavemeinthelurch,ifIdon\'tcarrythelight。“
Theyreturnedtotheinhabitedsideofthehouse。StaggeringafterMagdalen,withthebasketofkeysinonehandandthecandleintheother,oldMazeysorrowfullycomparedherfigurewiththestraightnessofthepoplar,andherdispositionwiththecrookednessofSin,allthewayacross“Freeze-your-Bones,“andallthewayupstairstoherowndoor。Arrivedatthatdestination,heperemptorilyrefusedtogiveherthecandleuntilhehadfirstseenhersafelyinsidetheroom。Theconditionsbeingcompliedwith,heresignedthelightwithonehand,andmadeadashwiththeotheratthekey,drewitfromtheinsideofthelock,andinstantlyclosedthedoor。Magdalenheardhimoutsidechucklingoverhisowndexterity,andfittingthekeyintothelockagainwithinfinitedifficulty。Atlasthesecuredthedoor,withadeepgruntofrelief。“Theresheissafe!“Magdalenheardhimsay,inregretfulsoliloquy。“AsfineagirlaseverIsateyeson。Whatapity!whatapity!“
Thelastsoundsofhisvoicediedoutinthedistance;andshewasleftaloneinherroom。
Holdingfastbythebanister,oldMazeymadehiswaydowntothecorridoronthesecondfloor,inwhichanightlightwasalwaysburning。Headvancedtothetruckle-bed,and,steadyinghimselfagainsttheoppositewall,lookedatitattentively。Prolongedcontemplationofhisownresting-placeforthenightapparentlyfailedtosatisfyhim。Heshookhisheadominously,and,takingfromtheside-pocketofhisgreat-coatapairofoldpatchedslippers,surveyedthemwithanaspectofillimitabledoubt。“I\'mallabroadto-night,“hemumbledtohimself。“Troubledinmymind——that\'swhatitis——troubledinmymind。“
Theoldpatchedslippersandtheveteran\'sexistingperplexitieshappenedtobeintimatelyassociatedonewiththeother,intherelationofcauseandeffect。Theslippersbelongedtotheadmiral,whohadtakenoneofhisunreasonablefanciestothisparticularpair,andwhostillpersistedinwearingthemlongaftertheywereunfitforhisservice。EarlythatafternoonoldMazeyhadtakentheslipperstothevillagecobblertogetthemrepairedonthespot,beforehismastercalledforthemthenextmorning;hesatsuperintendingtheprogressandcompletionoftheworkuntileveningcame,whenheandthecobblerbetookthemselvestothevillageinntodrinkeachother\'shealthsatparting。Theyhadprolongedthissocialceremonytillfarintothenight,andtheyhadparted,asanecessaryconsequence,inafinishedandperfectstateofintoxicationoneitherside。
Ifthedrinking-bouthadledtonootherresultthanthosenightwanderingsinthegroundsofSt。Crux,whichhadshownoldMazeythelightintheeastwindows,hismemorywouldunquestionablyhavepresentedittohimthenextmorningintheaspectofoneofthepraiseworthyachievementsofhislife。Butanotherconsequencehadsprungfromit,whichtheoldsailornowsawdimly,throughtheinterposingbewildermentleftinhisbrainbythedrink。Hehadcommittedabreachofdiscipline,andabreachoftrust。Inplainerwords,hehaddesertedhispost。
TheonesafeguardagainstAdmiralBartram\'sconstitutionaltendencytosomnambulismwasthewatchandwardwhichhisfaithfuloldservantkeptoutsidehisdoor。Noentreatieshadeverprevailedonhimtosubmittotheusualprecautiontakeninsuchcases。Heperemptorilydeclinedtobelockedintohisroom;heevenignoredhisownliability,wheneveradreamdisturbedhim,towalkinhissleep。Overandoveragain,oldMazeyhadbeenrousedbytheadmiral\'sattemptstopushpastthetruckle-bed,ortostepoverit,inhissleep;andoverandoveragain,whentheveteranhadreportedthefactthenextmorning,hismasterhaddeclinedtobelievehim。Astheoldsailornowstood,staringinvacantinquiryatthebed-chamberdoor,theseincidentsofthepastroseconfusedlyonhismemory,andforcedonhimtheseriousquestionwhethertheadmiralhadlefthisroomduringtheearlierhoursofthenight。Ifbyanymischancethesleep-walkingfithadseizedhim,theslippersinoldMazey\'shandpointedstraighttotheconclusionthatfollowed——hismastermusthavepassedbarefootinthecoldnightoverthestonestairsandpassagesofSt。Crux。“Lordsendhe\'sbeenquiet!“mutteredoldMazey,daunted,boldashewasanddrunkashewas,bythebarecontemplationofthatprospect。“Ifhishonor\'sbeenwalkingto-night,itwillbethedeathofhim!“
Herousedhimselfforthemomentbymainforce——stronginhisdog-likefidelitytotheadmiral,thoughstronginnothingelse——andfoughtoffthestuporofthedrink。Helookedatthebedwithsteadiereyesandaclearermind。Magdalen\'sprecautioninreturningittoitscustomarypositionpresentedittohimnecessarilyintheaspectofabedwhichhadneverbeenmovedfromitsplace。Henextexaminedthecounterpanecarefully。Notthefaintestvestigeappearedoftheindentationwhichmusthavebeenleftbyfootstepspassingoverit。Therewastheplainevidencebeforehim——theevidencerecognizableatlastbyhisownbewilderedeyes——thattheadmiralhadnevermovedfromhisroom。
“I\'lltakethePledgeto-morrow!“mumbledoldMazey,inanoutburstofgratefulrelief。Thenextmomentthefumesoftheliquorfloatedbackinsidiouslyoverhisbrain;andtheveteran,returningtohiscustomaryremedy,pacedthepassageinzigzagasusual,andkeptwatchonthedeckofanimaginaryship。
Soonaftersunrise,Magdalensuddenlyheardthegratingofthekeyfromoutsideinthelockofthedoor。Thedooropened,andoldMazeyre-appearedonthethreshold。Thefirstfeverofhisintoxicationhadcooled,withtime,intoamild,penitentialglow。Hebreathedharderthanever,inasuccessionoflowgrowls,andwaggedhisvenerableheadathisowndelinquencieswithoutintermission。
“Howareyounow,youyoungland-sharkinpetticoats?“inquiredtheoldsailor。“Hasyourconsciencebeenquietenoughtoletyougotosleep?“
“Ihavenotslept,“saidMagdalen,drawingbackfromhimindoubtofwhathemightdonext。“Ihavenoremembranceofwhathappenedafteryoulockedthedoor——IthinkImusthavefainted。Don\'tfrightenmeagain,Mr。Mazey!Ifeelmiserablyweakandill。Whatdoyouwant?“
“Iwanttosaysomethingserious,“repliedoldMazey,withimpenetrablesolemnity。“It\'sbeenonmymindtocomehereandmakeacleanbreastofit,forthelasthourormore。Markmywords,youngwoman。I\'mgoingtodisgracemyself。“
Magdalendrewfurtherandfurtherback,andlookedathiminrisingalarm。
“Iknowmydutytohishonortheadmiral,“proceededoldMazey,wavinghishanddrearilyinthedirectionofhismaster\'sdoor。“But,tryashardasImay,Ican\'tfinditinmyheart,youyoungjade,tobewitnessagainstyou。Ilikedthemakeofyou(especiallyaboutthewaist)whenyoufirstcameintothehouse,andIcan\'thelplikingthemakeofyoustill——thoughyouhavecommittedburglary,andthoughyouareascrookedasSin。I\'vecasttheeyesofindulgenceonfine-growngirlsallmylife,andit\'stoolateinthedaytocasttheeyesofseverityon\'emnow。I\'mseventy-seven,orseventy-eight,Idon\'trightlyknowwhich。I\'mabatteredoldhulk,withmyseamsopening,andmypumpschoked,andthewatersofDeathpoweringinonmeasfastastheycan。I\'masmiserableasinnerasyou\'llmeetwithanywhereintheseparts——ThomasNagle,thecobbler,onlyexcepted;andhe\'sworsethanIam,forhe\'stheyoungerofthetwo,andheoughttoknowbetter。Butthelongandshortoritis,Ishallgodowntomygravewithaneyeofindulgenceforafine-growngirl。Moreshameforme,youyoungJezebel——moreshameforme!“
Theveteran\'sunmanageableeyesbegantoleeragaininspiteofhim,asheconcludedhisharangueintheseterms:thelastreservesofausterityleftinhisfaceentrenchedthemselvesdismallyroundthecornersofhismouth。Magdalenapproachedhimagain,andtriedtospeak。Hesolemnlymotionedherbackwithanotherdrearywaveofhishand。
“Nocarneying!“saidoldMazey;“I\'mbadenoughalready,withoutthat。It\'smydutytomakemyreporttohishonortheadmiral,andIwillmakeit。Butifyouliketogivethehousetheslipbeforetheburglary\'sreported,andthecourtofinquirybegins,I\'lldisgracemyselfbylettingyougo。It\'smarketmorningatOssory,andDawkeswillbedrivingthelightcartoverinaquarterofanhour\'stime。DawkeswilltakeyouifIaskhim。Iknowmyduty——mydutyistoturnthekeyonyou,andseeDawkesdamnedfirst。ButIcan\'tfinditinmyhearttobehardonafinegirllikeyou。It\'sbredinthebone,anditwuntcomeoutoftheflesh。Moreshameforme,Itellyouagain——moreshameforme!“
TheproposalthusstrangelyandsuddenlypresentedtohertookMagdalencompletelybysurprise。Shehadbeenfartooseriouslyshakenbytheeventsofthenighttobecapableofdecidingonanysubjectatamoment\'snotice。“Youareverygoodtome,Mr。Mazey,“shesaid。“MayIhaveaminutebymyselftothink?“
“Yes,youmay,“repliedtheveteran,facingaboutforthwithandleavingtheroom。“They\'reallalike,“proceededoldMazey,withhisheadstillrunningonthesex。“Whateveryouoffer\'em,theyalwayswantsomethingmore。Tallandshort,nativeandforeign,sweetheartsandwives,they\'reallalike!“
Leftbyherself,Magdalenreachedherdecisionwithfarlessdifficultythanshehadanticipated。
Ifsheremainedinthehouse,therewereonlytwocoursesbeforeher——tochargeoldMazeywithspeakingundertheinfluenceofadrunkendelusion,ortosubmittocircumstances。Thoughsheowedtotheoldsailorherdefeatintheveryhourofsuccess,hisconsiderationforheratthatmomentforbadetheideaofdefendingherselfathisexpense——evensupposing,whatwasinthelastdegreeimprobable,thatthedefensewouldbecredited。Inthesecondofthetwocases(thecaseofsubmissiontocircumstances),butoneresultcouldbeexpected——instantdismissal,andperhapsdiscoveryaswell。Whatobjectwastobegainedbybravingthatdegradation——byleavingthehousepubliclydisgracedintheeyesoftheservantswhohadhatedanddistrustedherfromthefirst?TheaccidentwhichhadliterallysnatchedtheTrustfromherpossessionwhenshehaditinherhandwasirreparable。Theoneapparentcompensationunderthedisaster——inotherwords,thediscoverythattheTrustactuallyexisted,andthatGeorgeBartram\'smarriagewithinagiventimewasoneoftheobjectscontainedinit——wasacompensationwhichcouldonlybeestimatedatitstruevaluebyplacingitunderthelightofMr。Loscombe\'sexperience。Everymotiveofwhichshewasconsciouswasamotivewhichurgedhertoleavethehousesecretlywhilethechancewasatherdisposal。Shelookedoutintothepassage,andcalledsoftlytooldMazeytocomeback。
“Iacceptyourofferthankfully,Mr。Mazey,“shesaid。“Youdon\'tknowwhathardmeasureyoudealtouttomewhenyoutookthatletterfrommyhand。Butyoudidyourduty,andIcanbegratefultoyouforsparingmethismorning,hardasyouwereuponmelastnight。Iamnotsuchabadgirlasyouthinkme——Iamnot,indeed。“
OldMazeydismissedthesubjectwithanotherdrearywaveofhishand。
“Letitbe,“saidtheveteran;“letitbe!Itmakesnodifference,mygirl,tosuchanoldrascalasIam。Ifyouwerefiftytimesworsethanyouare,Ishouldletyougoallthesame。Putonyourbonnetandshawl,andcomealong。I\'madisgracetomyselfandawarningtoothers——that\'swhatIam。Noluggage,mind!Leaveallyourrattle-trapsbehindyou:tobeoverhauled,ifnecessary,athishonortheadmiral\'sdiscretion。Icanbehardenoughonyourboxes,youyoungJezebel,ifIcan\'tbehardonyou。“
Withthesewords,oldMazeyledthewayoutoftheroom。“ThelessIseeofherthebetter——especiallyaboutthewaist,“hesaidtohimself,ashehobbleddownstairswiththehelpofthebanisters。
Thecartwasstandinginthebackyardwhentheyreachedthelowerregionsofthehouse,andDawkes(otherwisethefarm-bailiff\'sman)wasfasteningthelastbuckleofthehorse\'sharness。Thehoar-frostofthemorningwasstillwhiteintheshade。ThesparklingpointsofitglistenedbrightlyontheshaggycoatsofBrutusandCassius,astheyidledabouttheyard,waiting,withsteamingmouthsandslowlywaggingtails,toseethecartdriveoff。OldMazeywentoutaloneandusedhisinfluencewithDawkes,who,staringinstolidamazement,putaleathercushiononthecart-seatforhisfellow-traveler。Shiveringinthesharpmorningair,Magdalenwaited,whilethepreliminariesofdeparturewereinprogress,consciousofnothingbutagiddybewildermentofthought,andahelplesssuspensionoffeeling。Theeventsofthenightconfusedthemselveshideouslywiththetrivialcircumstancespassingbeforehereyesinthecourtyard。ShestartedwiththesuddenterrorofthenightwhenoldMazeyre-appearedtosummonherouttothecart。Shetrembledwiththehelplessconfusionofthenightwhentheveterancasttheeyesofindulgenceonherforthelasttime,andgaveherakissonthecheekatparting。Thenextminuteshefelthimhelpherintothecart,andpatherontheback。Thenext,sheheardhimtellherinaconfidentialwhisperthat,sittingorstanding,shewasasstraightasapoplareitherway。Thentherewasapause,inwhichnothingwassaid,andnothingdone;andthenthedrivertookthereinsinhandandmountedtohisplace。
Sherousedherselfatthepartingmomentandlookedback。ThelastsightshesawatSt。CruxwasoldMazeywagginghisheadinthecourtyard,withhisfellow-profligates,thedogs,keepingtimetohimwiththeirtails。Thelastwordssheheardwerethewordsinwhichtheveteranpaidhisfarewelltributetohercharms:
“Burglaryornoburglary,“saidoldMazey,“she\'safine-growngirl,ifevertherewasafineoneyet。Whatapity!whatapity!“