Desperate Remedies

第2章

III。THEEVENTSOFEIGHTDAYS

1。FROMTHETWENTY-SECONDTOTHETWENTY-SEVENTHOFJULY

Butthingsarenotwhattheyseem。AresponsiveloveforEdwardSpringrovehadmadeitsappearanceinCytherea\'sbosomwithallthefascinatingattributesofafirstexperience,notsucceedingtoordisplacingotheremotions,asinolderhearts,buttakingupentirelynewground;aswhengazingjustaftersunsetatthepaleblueskyweseeastarcomeintoexistencewherenothingwasbefore。

Hispartingwords,\'Don\'tforgetme,\'sherepeatedtoherselfahundredtimes,andthoughshethoughttheirimportwasprobablycommonplace,shecouldnothelptoyingwiththem,——lookingatthemfromallpoints,andinvestingthemwithmeaningsofloveandfaithfulness,——ostensiblyentertainingsuchmeaningsonlyasfableswherewithtopassthetime,yetinherheartadmitting,fordetachedinstants,apossibilityoftheirdeepertruth。Andthus,forhoursafterhehadlefther,herreasonflirtedwithherfancyasakittenwillsportwithadove,pleasantlyandsmoothlythrougheasyattitudes,butdisclosingitscruelandunyieldingnatureatcrises。

Toturnnowtothemorematerialmediathroughwhichthisstorymoves,itsohappenedthattheverynextmorningbroughtroundacircumstancewhich,slightinitself,tookuparelevantandimportantpositionbetweenthepastandthefutureofthepersonshereinconcerned。

Atbreakfasttime,justasCythereahadagainseenthepostmanpasswithoutbringingherananswertotheadvertisement,asshehadfullyexpectedhewoulddo,Owenenteredtheroom。

\'Well,\'hesaid,kissingher,\'youhavenotbeenalarmed,ofcourse。

SpringrovetoldyouwhatIhaddone,andyoufoundtherewasnotrain?\'

\'Yes,itwasallclear。Butwhatisthelamenessowingto?\'

\'Idon\'tknow——nothing。Ithasquitegoneoffnow……Cytherea,IhopeyoulikeSpringrove。Springrove\'sanicefellow,youknow。\'

\'Yes。Ithinkheis,exceptthat——\'

\'IthappenedjusttothepurposethatIshouldmeethimthere,didn\'tit?AndwhenIreachedthestationandlearntthatIcouldnotgetonbytrainmyfootseemedbetter。Istartedofftowalkhome,andwentaboutfivemilesalongapathbesidetherailway。ItthenstruckmethatImightnotbefitforanythingtodayifI

walkedandaggravatedthebotheringfoot,soIlookedforaplacetosleepat。Therewasnoavailablevillageorinn,andIeventuallygotthekeeperofagate-house,wherealanecrossedtheline,totakemein。\'

Theyproceededwiththeirbreakfast。Owenyawned。

\'Youdidn\'tgetmuchsleepatthegate-houselastnight,I\'mafraid,Owen,\'saidhissister。

\'Totellthetruth,Ididn\'t。Iwasinsuchverycloseandnarrowquarters。Thosegate-housesaresuchsmallplaces,andthemanhadonlyhisownbedtoofferme。Ah,by-the-bye,Cythie,Ihavesuchanextraordinarythingtotellyouinconnectionwiththisman!——byJove,Ihadnearlyforgottenit!ButI\'llgostraighton。AsIwassaying,hehadonlyhisownbedtoofferme,butIcouldnotaffordtobefastidious,andashehadaheartymanner,thoughaveryqueerone,Iagreedtoacceptit,andhemadearoughpalletforhimselfonthefloorclosebesideme。Well,Icouldnotsleepformylife,andIwishedIhadnotstayedthere,thoughIwassotired。Foronething,thereweretheluggagetrainsrattlingbyatmyelbowtheearlypartofthenight。Butworsethanthis,hetalkedcontinuallyinhissleep,andoccasionallystruckoutwithhislimbsatsomethingoranother,knockingagainstthepostofthebedsteadandmakingittremble。MyconditionwasaltogethersounsatisfactorythatatlastIawokehim,andaskedhimwhathehadbeendreamingaboutfortheprevioushour,forIcouldgetnosleepatall。Hebeggedmypardonfordisturbingme,butanameIhadcasuallyletfallthateveninghadledhimtothinkofanotherstrangerhehadoncehadvisithim,whohadalsoaccidentallymentionedthesamename,andsomeverystrangeincidentsconnectedwiththatmeeting。

Theaffairhadoccurredyearsandyearsago;butwhatIhadsaidhadmadehimthinkanddreamaboutitasifitwerebutyesterday。Whatwastheword?Isaid。“Cytherea,“hesaid。Whatwasthestory?I

askedthen。HethentoldmethatwhenhewasayoungmaninLondonheborrowedafewpoundstoaddtoafewhehadsavedup,andopenedalittleinnatHammersmith。Oneevening,aftertheinnhadbeenopenaboutacoupleofmonths,everyidlerintheneighbourhoodranofftoWestminster。TheHousesofParliamentwereonfire。

\'Notasoulremainedinhisparlourbesideshimself,andhebeganpickingupthepipesandglasseshiscustomershadhastilyrelinquished。Atlengthayoungladyaboutseventeenoreighteencamein。Sheaskedifawomanwastherewaitingforherself——MissJaneTaylor。Hesaidno;askedtheyoungladyifshewouldwait,andshowedherintothesmallinnerroom。Therewasaglass-paneinthepartitiondividingthisroomfromthebartoenablethelandlordtoseeifhisvisitors,whosatthere,wantedanything。Acuriousawkwardnessandmelancholyaboutthebehaviourofthegirlwhocalled,causedmyinformanttolookfrequentlyatherthroughthepartition。Sheseemedwearyofherlife,andsatwithherfaceburiedinherhands,evidentlyquiteoutofherelementinsuchahouse。ThenawomanmucholdercameinandgreetedMissTaylorbyname。Themandistinctlyheardthefollowingwordspassbetweenthem:——

\'“Whyhaveyounotbroughthim?”

\'“Heisill;heisnotlikelytolivethroughthenight。“

\'Atthisannouncementfromtheelderlywoman,theyoungladyfelltothefloorinaswoon,apparentlyovercomebythenews。Thelandlordraninandliftedherup。Well,dowhattheywouldtheycouldnotforalongtimebringherbacktoconsciousness,andbegantobemuchalarmed。“Whoisshe?”theinnkeepersaidtotheotherwoman。

“Iknowher,“theothersaid,withdeepmeaninginhertone。Theelderlyandyoungwomanseemedallied,andyetstrangers。

\'Shenowshowedsignsoflife,anditstruckhim(hewasplainlyofaninquisitiveturn),thatinherhalf-bewilderedstatehemightgetsomeinformationfromher。Hestoopedoverher,puthismouthtoherear,andsaidsharply,“What\'syourname?”“Tocatchawomannappingisdifficult,evenwhenshe\'shalfdead;butIdidit,“saysthegatekeeper。Whenheaskedherhername,shesaidimmediately——

\'“Cytherea“——andstoppedsuddenly。\'

\'Myownname!\'saidCytherea。

\'Yes——yourname。Well,thegatemanthoughtatthetimeitmightbeequallywithJaneanameshehadinventedfortheoccasion,thattheymightnottraceher;butIthinkitwastruthunconsciouslyuttered,forsheaddeddirectlyafterwards:“O,whathaveIsaid!”

andwasquiteovercomeagain——thistimewithfright。Hervexationthatthewomannowdoubtedthegenuinenessofherothernamewasverymuchgreaterthanthattheinnkeeperdid,anditisevidentthattoblindthewomanwashermainobject。Healsolearntfromwordstheelderlywomancasuallydropped,thatmeetingsofthesamekindhadbeenheldbefore,andthatthefalsenessofthesoi-disantMissJaneTaylor\'snamehadneverbeensuspectedbythisdependentorconfederatetillthen。

\'Sherecovered,restedthereforanhour,andfirstsendingoffhercompanionperemptorily(whichwasanotheroddthing),sheleftthehouse,offeringthelandlordallthemoneyshehadtosaynothingaboutthecircumstance。Hehasneverseenhersince,accordingtohisownaccount。Isaidtohimagainandagain,“Didyoufindanymoreparticularsafterwards?”“Notasyllable,“hesaid。O,heshouldneverhearanymoreofthat!toomanyyearshadpassedsinceithappened。“Atanyrate,youfoundouthersurname?”Isaid。

“Well,well,that\'smysecret,“hewenton。“PerhapsIshouldneverhavebeeninthispartoftheworldifithadn\'tbeenforthat。I

failedasapublican,youknow。“Iimaginethesituationofgatemanwasgivenhimandhisdebtspaidoffasabribetosilence;butI

can\'tsay。“Ah,yes!”hesaid,withalongbreath。“Ihaveneverheardthatnamementionedsincethattimetillto-night,andthenthereinstantlyrosetomyeyesthevisionofthatyoungladylyinginafaintingfit。“Hethenstoppedtalkingandfellasleep。

TellingthestorymusthaverelievedhimasitdidtheAncientMariner,forhedidnotmoveamuscleormakeanothersoundfortheremainderofthenight。Nowisn\'tthatanoddstory?\'

\'Itisindeed,\'Cythereamurmured。\'Very,verystrange。\'

\'Whyshouldshehavesaidyourmostuncommonname?\'continuedOwen。

\'Themanwasevidentlytruthful,fortherewasnotmotivesufficientforhisinventionofsuchatale,andhecouldnothavedoneiteither。\'

Cytherealookedlongatherbrother。\'Don\'tyourecognizeanythingelseinconnectionwiththestory?\'shesaid。

\'What?\'heasked。

\'Doyourememberwhatpoorpapaonceletdrop——thatCythereawasthenameofhisfirstsweetheartinBloomsbury,whosomysteriouslyrenouncedhim?Asortofintuitiontellsmethatthiswasthesamewoman。\'

\'Ono——notlikely,\'saidherbrothersceptically。

\'Hownotlikely,Owen?There\'snotanotherwomanofthenameinEngland。Inwhatyearusedpapatosaytheeventtookplace?\'

\'Eighteenhundredandthirty-five。\'

\'AndwhenweretheHousesofParliamentburnt?——stop,Icantellyou。\'Shesearchedtheirlittlestockofbooksforalistofdates,andfoundoneinanoldschoolhistory。

\'TheHousesofParliamentwereburntdownintheeveningofthesixteenthofOctober,eighteenhundredandthirty-four。\'

\'Nearlyayearandaquarterbeforeshemetfather,\'remarkedOwen。

Theyweresilent。\'Ifpapahadbeenalive,whatawonderfulabsorbinginterestthisstorywouldhavehadforhim,\'saidCythereaby-and-by。\'Andhowstrangelyknowledgecomestous。Wemighthavesearchedforacluetohersecrethalftheworldover,andneverfoundone。Ifwehadreallyhadanymotivefortryingtodiscovermoreofthesadhistorythanpapatoldus,weshouldhavegonetoBloomsbury;butnotcaringtodoso,wegotwohundredmilesintheoppositedirection,andtherefindinformationwaitingtobetoldus。Whatcouldhavebeenthesecret,Owen?\'

\'Heavenknows。Butourhavingheardalittlemoreofherinthisway(ifsheisthesamewoman)isamerecoincidenceafterall——afamilystorytotellourfriendsifweeverhaveany。Butweshallneverknowanymoreoftheepisodenow——trustourfatesforthat。\'

Cythereasatsilentlythinking。

\'Therewasnoanswerthismorningtoyouradvertisement,Cytherea?\'

hecontinued。

\'None。\'

\'IcouldseethatbyyourlookswhenIcamein。\'

\'Fancynotgettingasingleone,\'shesaidsadly。\'Surelytheremustbepeoplesomewherewhowantgovernesses?\'

\'Yes;butthosewhowantthem,andcanaffordtohavethem,getthemmostlybyfriends\'recommendations;whilstthosewhowantthem,andcan\'taffordtohavethem,makeuseoftheirpoorrelations。\'

\'WhatshallIdo?\'

\'Nevermindit。Goonlivingwithme。Don\'tletthedifficultytroubleyourmindso;youthinkaboutitallday。Icankeepyou,Cythie,inaplainwayofliving。Twenty-fiveshillingsaweekdonotamounttomuchtruly;butthenmanymechanicshavenomore,andwelivequiteassparinglyasjourneymenmechanics……Itisameagrenarrowlifewearedriftinginto,\'headdedgloomily,\'butitisadegreemoretolerablethantheworryingsensationofalltheworldbeingashamedofyou,whichweexperiencedatHocbridge。\'

\'Icouldn\'tgobackthereagain,\'shesaid。

\'NorI。O,Idon\'tregretourcourseforamoment。Wedidquiterightindroppingoutoftheworld。\'Thesneeringtonesoftheremarkwerealmosttoolabouredtobereal。\'Besides,\'hecontinued,\'somethingbetterformeissuretoturnupsoon。Iwishmyengagementherewasapermanentoneinsteadofforonlytwomonths。Itmay,certainly,beforalongertime,butallisuncertain。\'

\'IwishIcouldgetsomethingtodo;andImusttoo,\'shesaidfirmly。\'Suppose,asisveryprobable,youarenotwantedafterthebeginningofOctober——thetimeMr。Gradfieldmentioned——whatshouldwedoifIweredependentonyouonlythroughoutthewinter?\'

Theyponderedonnumerousschemesbywhichayoungladymightbesupposedtoearnadecentlivelihood——moreorlessconvenientandfeasibleinimagination,butrelinquishedthemalluntiladvertisinghadbeenoncemoretried,thistimetakinglowerground。Cythereawasvexedathertemerityinhavingrepresentedtotheworldthatsoinexperiencedabeingasherselfwasaqualifiedgoverness;andhadafancythatthispresumptionofhersmightbeonereasonwhynoladiesapplied。Thenewandhumblerattemptappearedinthefollowingform:——

\'NURSERYGOVERNESSORUSEFULCOMPANION。Ayoungpersonwishestohearofasituationineitheroftheabovecapacities。Salaryverymoderate。Sheisagoodneedle-woman——AddressG。,3CrossStreet,Budmouth。\'

Intheeveningtheywenttoposttheletter,andthenwalkedupanddowntheParadeforawhile。SoontheymetSpringrove,saidafewwordstohim,andpassedon。Owennoticedthathissister\'sfacehadbecomecrimson。RatheroddlytheymetSpringroveagaininafewminutes。Thistimethethreewalkedalittlewaytogether,EdwardostensiblytalkingtoOwen,thoughwithasinglethoughttothereceptionofhiswordsbythemaidenatthefartherside,uponwhomhisgazewasmostlyresting,andwhowasattentivelylistening——

lookingfixedlyuponthepavementthewhile。Ithasbeensaidthatmenlovewiththeireyes;womenwiththeirears。

AsOwenandhimselfwerelittlemorethanacquaintancesasyet,andasSpringrovewaswantingintheassuranceofmanymenofhisage,itnowbecamenecessarytowishhisfriendsgood-evening,ortofindareasonforcontinuingnearCythereabysayingsomenicenewthing。

Hethoughtofanewthing;heproposedapullacrossthebay。Thiswasassentedto。Theywenttothepier;steppedintooneofthegailypaintedboatsmooredalongsideandsheeredoff。Cythereasatinthesternsteering。

Theyrowedthatevening;thenextcame,andwithitthenecessityofrowingagain。Thenthenext,andthenext,Cythereaalwayssittinginthesternwiththetillerropesinherhand。Thecurvesofherfigureweldedwiththoseofthefragileboatinperfectcontinuation,asshegirlishlyyieldedherselftoitsheavingandsinking,seemingtoformwithitanorganicwhole。

ThenOwenwasinclinedtotesthisskillinpaddlingacanoe。

Edwarddidnotlikecanoes,andtheissuewas,that,havingseenOwenonboard,Springroveproposedtopulloffafterhimwithapairofsculls;butnotconsideringhimselfsufficientlyaccomplishedtodofinishedrowingbeforeaparadefullofpromenaderswhentherewasalittleswellon,andwiththerudderunshippedinaddition,hebeggedthatCythereamightcomewithhimandsteerasbefore。Shesteppedin,andtheyfloatedalonginthewakeofherbrother。Thuspassedthefiftheveningonthewater。

Butthesympatheticpairwerethrownintostillclosercompanionship,andmuchmoreexclusiveconnection。

2。JULYTHETWENTY-NINTH

ItwasasadtimeforCytherea——thelastdayofSpringrove\'smanagementatGradfield\'s,andthelasteveningbeforehisreturnfromBudmouthtohisfather\'shouse,previoustohisdepartureforLondon。

Grayehadbeenrequestedbythearchitecttosurveyaplotoflandnearlytwentymilesoff,which,withthejourneytoandfro,wouldoccupyhimthewholeday,andpreventhisreturningtilllateintheevening。Cythereamadeacompanionofherlandladytotheextentofsharingmealsandsittingwithherduringthemorningofherbrother\'sabsence。Mid-dayfoundherrestlessandmiserableunderthisarrangement。Alltheafternoonshesatalone,lookingoutofthewindowforshescarcelyknewwhom,andhopingshescarcelyknewwhat。Half-pastfiveo\'clockcame——theendofSpringrove\'sofficialday。TwominuteslaterSpringrovewalkedby。

Sheenduredhersolitudeforanotherhalf-hour,andthencouldendurenolonger。Shehadhoped——whileaffectingtofear——thatEdwardwouldhavefoundsomereasonorotherforcalling,butitseemedthathehadnot。Hastilydressingherselfshewentout,whenthefarceofanaccidentalmeetingwasrepeated。Edwardcameuponherinthestreetatthefirstturning,and,liketheGreatDukeFerdinandin\'TheStatueandtheBust\'——

\'Helookedatherasalovercan;

Shelookedathimasonewhoawakes——

Thepastwasasleep,andherlifebegan。\'

\'Shallwehaveaboat?\'hesaidimpulsively。

Howblissfulitallisatfirst。Perhaps,indeed,theonlyblissinthecourseoflovewhichcantrulybecalledEden-likeisthatwhichprevailsimmediatelyafterdoubthasendedandbeforereflectionhassetin——atthedawnoftheemotion,whenitisnotrecognizedbyname,andbeforetheconsiderationofwhatthisloveis,hasgivenbirthtotheconsiderationofwhatdifficultiesittendstocreate;

whenontheman\'spart,themistressappearstothemind\'seyeinpicturesque,hazy,andfreshmorninglights,andsoftmorningshadows;when,asyet,sheisknownonlyasthewearerofonedress,whichsharesherownpersonality;asthestanderinonespecialposition,thegiverofonebrightparticularglance,andthespeakerofonetendersentence;when,onherpart,sheistimidlycarefuloverwhatshesaysanddoes,lestsheshouldbemisconstruedorunder-ratedtothebreadthofashadowofahair。

\'Shallwehaveaboat?\'hesaidagain,moresoftly,seeingthattohisfirstquestionshehadnotanswered,butlookeduncertainlyattheground,thenalmost,butnotquite,inhisface,blushedaseriesofminuteblushes,leftoffinthemidstofthem,andshowedtheusualsignsofperplexityinamatteroftheemotions。

Owenhadalwaysbeenwithherbefore,buttherewasnowaforceofhabitintheproceeding,andwithArcadianinnocencesheassumedthatarowonthewaterwas,underanycircumstances,anaturalthing。Withoutanotherwordbeingspokenoneitherside,theywentdownthesteps。Hecarefullyhandedherin,tookhisseat,slidnoiselesslyoffthesand,andawayfromtheshore。

Theythussatfacingeachotherinthegracefulyellowcockle-shell,andhiseyesfrequentlyfoundaresting-placeinthedepthsofhers。

Theboatwassosmallthatateachreturnofthesculls,whenhishandscameforwardtobeginthepull,theyapproachedsoneartoherthathervividimaginationbegantothrillherwithafancythathewasgoingtoclasphisarmsroundher。Thesensationgrewsostrongthatshecouldnotruntheriskofagainmeetinghiseyesatthosecriticalmoments,andturnedasidetoinspectthedistanthorizon;

thenshegrewwearyoflookingsideways,andwasdriventoreturntohernaturalpositionagain。Atthisinstantheagainleantforwardtobegin,andmetherglancebyanardentfixedgaze。Aninvoluntaryimpulseofgirlishembarrassmentcausedhertogiveavehementpullatthetiller-rope,whichbroughttheboat\'sheadroundtilltheystooddirectlyforshore。

Hiseyes,whichhaddweltuponherformduringthewholetimeofherlookaskance,nowlefther;heperceivedthedirectioninwhichtheyweregoing。

\'Why,youhavecompletelyturnedtheboat,MissGraye?\'hesaid,lookingoverhisshoulder。\'Lookatourtrackonthewater——agreatsemicircle,precededbyaseriesofzigzagsasfaraswecansee。\'

Shelookedattentively。\'Isitmyfaultoryours?\'sheinquired。

\'Mine,Isuppose?\'

\'Ican\'thelpsayingthatitisyours。\'

Shedroppedtheropesdecisively,feelingtheslightesttwingeofvexationattheanswer。

\'Whydoyouletgo?\'

\'Idoitsobadly。\'

\'Ono;youturnedaboutforshoreinamasterlyway。Doyouwishtoreturn?\'

\'Yes,ifyouplease。\'

\'Ofcourse,then,Iwillatonce。\'

\'Ifearwhatthepeoplewillthinkofus——goinginsuchabsurddirections,andallthroughmywretchedsteering。\'

\'Nevermindwhatthepeoplethink。\'Apause。\'Yousurelyarenotsoweakastomindwhatthepeoplethinkonsuchamatterasthat?\'

Thosewordsmightalmostbecalledtoofirmandhardtobegivenbyhimtoher;butnevermind。Foralmostthefirsttimeinherlifeshefeltthecharmingsensation,althoughonsuchaninsignificantsubject,ofbeingcompelledintoanopinionbyamansheloved。

Owen,thoughlessyieldingphysically,andmorepractical,wouldnothavehadtheintellectualindependencetoanswerawomanthus。Sherepliedquietlyandhonestly——ashonestlyaswhenshehadstatedthecontraryfactaminuteearlier——

\'Idon\'tmind。\'

\'I\'llunshipthetillerthatyoumayhavenothingtodogoingbackbuttoholdyourparasol,\'hecontinued,andarosetoperformtheoperation,necessarilyleaningcloselyagainsther,toguardagainsttheriskofcapsizingtheboatashereachedhishandsastern。Hiswarmbreathtouchedandcreptroundherfacelikeacaress;buthewasapparentlyonlyconcernedwithhistask。Shelookedguiltyofsomethingwhenheseatedhimself。Hereadinherfacewhatthatsomethingwas——shehadexperiencedapleasurefromhistouch。Butheflungapracticalglanceoverhisshoulder,seizedtheoars,andtheyspedinastraightlinetowardstheshore。

Cythereasawthathenotedinherfacewhathadpassedinherheart,andthatnotingit,hecontinuedasdecidedasbefore。Shewasinwardlydistressed。Shehadnotmeanthimtotranslateherwordsaboutreturninghomesoliterallyatthefirst;shehadnotintendedhimtolearnhersecret;butmorethanallshewasnotabletoenduretheperceptionofhislearningitandcontinuingunmoved。

Therewasnothingbutmiserytocomenow。Theywouldstepashore;

hewouldsaygood-night,gotoLondonto-morrow,andthemiserableShewouldlosehimforever。Shedidnotquitesupposewhatwasthefact,thataparallelthoughtwassimultaneouslypassingthroughhismind。

Theywerenowwithintenyards,nowwithinfive;hewasonlynowwaitingfora\'smooth\'tobringtheboatin。Sweet,sweetLovemustnotbeslainthus,wasthefairmaid\'sreasoning。Shewasequaltotheoccasion——ladiesare——anddeliveredthegod——

\'Doyouwantverymuchtoland,Mr。Springrove?\'shesaid,lettingheryoungvioleteyespineathimavery,verylittle。

\'I?Notatall,\'saidhe,lookinganastonishmentatherinquirywhichaslighttwinkleofhiseyehalfbelied。\'Butyoudo?\'

\'Ithinkthatnowwehavecomeout,anditissuchapleasantevening,\'shesaidgentlyandsweetly,\'Ishouldlikealittlelongerrowifyoudon\'tmind?I\'lltrytosteerbetterthanbeforeifitmakesiteasierforyou。I\'lltryveryhard。\'

Itwastheturnofhisfacetotellatalenow。Helooked,\'Weunderstandeachother——ah,wedo,darling!\'turnedtheboat,andpulledbackintotheBayoncemore。

\'Nowsteerwhereveryouwill,\'hesaid,inalowvoice。\'Nevermindthedirectnessofthecourse——whereveryouwill。\'

\'ShallitbeCrestonShore?\'shesaid,pointingtoastretchofbeachnorthwardfromBudmouthEsplanade。

\'CrestonShorecertainly,\'heresponded,graspingthesculls。Shetookthestringsdaintily,andtheywoundawaytotheleft。

Foralongtimenothingwasaudibleintheboatbuttheregulardipoftheoars,andtheirmovementintherowlocks。Springroveatlengthspoke。

\'Imustgoawayto-morrow,\'hesaidtentatively。

\'Yes,\'sherepliedfaintly。

\'ToendeavourtoadvancealittleinmyprofessioninLondon。\'

\'Yes,\'shesaidagain,withthesamepreoccupiedsoftness。

\'ButIshan\'tadvance。\'

\'Whynot?Architectureisabewitchingprofession。Theysaythatanarchitect\'sworkisanotherman\'splay。\'

\'Yes。Butworldlyadvantagefromanartdoesn\'tdependuponmasteringit。Iusedtothinkitdid;butitdoesn\'t。Thosewhogetrichneedhavenoskillatallasartists。\'

\'Whatneedtheyhave?\'

\'Acertainkindofenergywhichmenwithanyfondnessforartpossessveryseldomindeed——anearnestnessinmakingacquaintances,andaloveforusingthem。Theygivetheirwholeattentiontotheartofdiningout,aftermasteringafewrudimentaryfactstoserveupinconversation。Nowaftersayingthat,doIseemamanlikelytomakeaname?\'

\'Youseemamanlikelytomakeamistake。\'

\'What\'sthat?\'

\'Togivetoomuchroomtothelatentfeelingwhichisrathercommoninthesedaysamongtheunappreciated,thatbecausesomeremarkablysuccessfulmenarefools,allremarkablyunsuccessfulmenaregeniuses。\'

\'Prettysubtleforayounglady,\'hesaidslowly。\'FromthatremarkIshouldfancyyouhadboughtexperience。\'

Shepassedovertheidea。\'Dotrytosucceed,\'shesaid,withwistfulthoughtfulness,leavinghereyesonhim。

Springroveflushedalittleattheearnestnessofherwords,andmused。\'Then,likeCatotheCensor,IshalldowhatIdespise,tobeinthefashion,\'hesaidatlast……\'Well,whenIfoundallthisoutthatIwasspeakingof,whateverdoyouthinkIdid?Fromhavingalreadylovedversepassionately,Iwentontoreaditcontinually;thenIwentrhymingmyself。Ifanythingonearthruinsamanforusefuloccupation,andforcontentwithreasonablesuccessinaprofessionortrade,itisthehabitofwritingversesonemotionalsubjects,whichhadmuchbetterbelefttodiefromwantofnourishment。\'

\'Doyouwritepoemsnow?\'shesaid。

\'None。Poeticaldaysaregettingpastwithme,accordingtotheusualrule。Writingrhymesisastagepeopleofmysortpassthrough,astheypassthroughthestageofshavingforabeard,orthinkingtheyareill-used,orsayingthere\'snothingintheworldworthlivingfor。\'

\'Thenthedifferencebetweenacommonmanandarecognizedpoetis,thatonehasbeendeluded,andcuredofhisdelusion,andtheothercontinuesdeludedallhisdays。\'

\'Well,there\'sjustenoughtruthinwhatyousay,tomaketheremarkunbearable。However,itdoesn\'tmattertomenowthatI“meditatethethanklessMuse“nolonger,but……\'Hepaused,asifendeavouringtothinkwhatbetterthinghedid。

Cytherea\'smindranontothesucceedinglinesofthepoem,andtheirstartlingharmonywiththepresentsituationsuggestedthefancythathewas\'sporting\'withher,andbroughtanawkwardcontemplativenesstoherface。

Springroveguessedherthoughts,andinanswertothemsimplysaid\'Yes。\'Thentheyweresilentagain。

\'IfIhadknownanAmarylliswascominghere,Ishouldnothavemadearrangementsforleaving,\'heresumed。

Suchlevity,superimposedonthenotionof\'sport\',wasintolerabletoCytherea;forawomanseemsnevertoseeanybuttheserioussideofherattachment,thoughthemostdevotedloverhasallthetimeavagueanddimperceptionthatheislosinghisolddignityandfritteringawayhistime。

\'Butwillyounottryagaintogetoninyourprofession?Tryoncemore;dotryoncemore,\'shemurmured。\'Iamgoingtotryagain。I

haveadvertisedforsomethingtodo。\'

\'OfcourseIwill,\'hesaid,withaneagergestureandsmile。\'ButwemustrememberthatthefameofChristopherWrenhimselfdependedupontheaccidentofafireinPuddingLane。Mysuccessesseemtocomeveryslowly。Ioftenthink,thatbeforeIamreadytolive,itwillbetimeformetodie。However,Iamtrying——notforfamenow,butforaneasylifeofreasonablecomfort。\'

Itisamelancholytruthforthemiddleclasses,thatinproportionastheydevelop,bythestudyofpoetryandart,theircapacityforconjugalloveofthehighestandpurestkind,theylimitthepossibilityoftheirbeingabletoexerciseit——theveryactputtingoutoftheirpowertheattainmentofmeanssufficientformarriage。

Themanwhoworksupagoodincomehashadnotimetolearnlovetoitssolemnextreme;themanwhohaslearntthathashadnotimetogetrich。

\'Andifyoushouldfail——utterlyfailtogetthatreasonablewealth,\'shesaidearnestly,\'don\'tbeperturbed。Thetrulygreatstanduponnomiddleledge;theyareeitherfamousorunknown。\'

\'Unknown,\'hesaid,\'iftheirideashavebeenallowedtoflowwithasympatheticbreadth。Famousonlyiftheyhavebeenconvergentandexclusive。\'

\'Yes;andIamafraidfromthat,thatmyremarkwasbutdiscouragement,wearingthedressofcomfort。PerhapsIwasnotquiterightin——\'

\'Itdependsentirelyuponwhatismeantbybeingtrulygreat。Butthelongandtheshortofthematteris,thatmenmuststicktoathingiftheywanttosucceedinit——notgivingwaytoover-muchadmirationfortheflowerstheyseegrowinginotherpeople\'sborders;whichIamafraidhasbeenmycase。\'Helookedintothefardistanceandpaused。

Adherencetoacoursewithpersistencesufficienttoensuresuccessispossibletowidelyappreciativemindsonlywhenthereisalsofoundinthemapower——commonplaceinitsnature,butrareinsuchcombination——thepowerofassumingtoconvictionthatintheoutlyingpathswhichappearsomuchmorebrilliantthantheirown,therearebitternessesequallygreat——unperceivedsimplyonaccountoftheirremoteness。

TheywereoppositeRingsworthShore。ThecliffsherewereformedofstratacompletelycontrastingwiththoseofthefurthersideoftheBay,whilstinandbeneaththewaterhardbouldershadtakentheplaceofsandandshingle,betweenwhich,however,theseaglidednoiselessly,withoutbreakingthecrestofasinglewave,sostrikinglycalmwastheair。Thebreezehadentirelydiedaway,leavingthewaterofthatrareglassysmoothnesswhichisunmarkedevenbythesmalldimplesoftheleastaerialmovement。Purplesandbluesofdiversshadeswerereflectedfromthismirroraccordinglyaseachundulationslopedeastorwest。Theycouldseetherockybottomsometwentyfeetbeneaththem,luxuriantwithweedsofvariousgrowths,anddottedwithpulpycreaturesreflectingasilveryandspangledradianceupwardstotheireyes。

Atlengthshelookedathimtolearntheeffectofherwordsofencouragement。Hehadlettheoarsdriftalongside,andtheboathadcometoastandstill。Everythingonearthseemedtakingacontemplativerest,asifwaitingtoheartheavowalofsomethingfromhislips。Atthatinstantheappearedtobreakaresolutionhithertozealouslykept。Leavinghisseatamidshipshecameandgentlyedgedhimselfdownbesideheruponthenarrowseatatthestern。

Shebreathedmorequicklyandwarmly:hetookherrighthandinhisownright:itwasnotwithdrawn。Heputhislefthandbehindhernecktillitcamerounduponherleftcheek:itwasnotthrustaway。Lightlypressingher,hebroughtherfaceandmouthtowardshisown;when,atthistheverybrink,someunaccountablethoughtorspellwithinhimsuddenlymadehimhalt——evennow,andasitseemedasmuchtohimselfastoher,hetimidlywhispered\'MayI?\'

HerendeavourwastosayNo,sodenudedofitsfleshandsinewsthatitsnaturewouldhardlyberecognized,orinotherwordsaNofromsoneartheaffirmativefrontierastobeaffectedwiththeYesaccent。ItwasthusawhisperedNo,drawnouttonearlyaquarterofaminute\'slength,theOmakingitselfaudibleasasoundlikethespringcooofapigeononunusuallyfriendlytermswithitsmate。Thoughconsciousofhersuccessinproducingthekindofwordshehadwishedtoproduce,sheatthesametimetrembledinsuspenseastohowitwouldbetaken。Butthetimeavailablefordoubtwassoshortastoadmitofscarcelymorethanhalfapulsation:

pressingcloserhekissedher。Thenhekissedheragainwithalongerkiss。

Itwasthesupremelyhappymomentoftheirexperience。The\'bloom\'

andthe\'purplelight\'werestrongonthelineamentsofboth。Theirheartscouldhardlybelievetheevidenceoftheirlips。

\'Iloveyou,andyouloveme,Cytherea!\'hewhispered。

Shedidnotdenyit;andallseemedwell。Thegentlesoundsaroundthemfromthehills,theplains,thedistanttown,theadjacentshore,thewaterheavingattheirside,thekiss,andthelongkiss,wereall\'manyavoiceofonedelight,\'andinunisonwitheachother。

Buthismindflewbacktothesameunpleasantthoughtwhichhadbeenconnectedwiththeresolutionhehadbrokenaminuteortwoearlier。

\'Icouldbeaslaveatmyprofessiontowinyou,Cytherea;Iwouldworkatthemeanest,honesttradetobenearyou——muchlessclaimyouasmine;Iwould——anything。ButIhavenottoldyouall;itisnotthis;youdon\'tknowwhatthereisyettotell。Couldyouforgiveasyoucanlove?\'Shewasalarmedtoseethathehadbecomepalewiththequestion。

\'No——donotspeak,\'hesaid。\'Ihavekeptsomethingfromyou,whichhasnowbecomethecauseofagreatuneasiness。Ihadnoright——toloveyou;butIdidit。Somethingforbade——\'

\'What?\'sheexclaimed。

\'Somethingforbademe——tillthekiss——yes,tillthekisscame;andnownothingshallforbidit!We\'llhopeinspiteofall……I

must,however,speakofthisloveofourstoyourbrother。Dearest,youhadbettergoindoorswhilstImeethimatthestation,andexplaineverything。\'

Cytherea\'sshort-livedblisswasdeadandgone。O,ifshehadknownofthissequelwouldshehaveallowedhimtobreakdownthebarrierofmereacquaintanceship——never,never!

\'Willyounotexplaintome?\'shefaintlyurged。Doubt——indefinite,carkingdoubthadtakenpossessionofher。

\'Notnow。Youalarmyourselfunnecessarily,\'hesaidtenderly。\'MyonlyreasonforkeepingsilenceisthatwithmypresentknowledgeI

maytellanuntruestory。Itmaybethatthereisnothingtotell。

Iamtoblameforhasteinalludingtoanysuchthing。Forgiveme,sweet——forgiveme。\'Herheartwasreadytoburst,andshecouldnotanswerhim。Hereturnedtohisplaceandtooktotheoars。

TheyagainmadeforthedistantEsplanade,now,withitslineofhouses,lyinglikeadarkgreybandagainstthelightwesternsky。

Thesunhadset,andastarortwobegantopeepout。Theydrewnearertheirdestination,Edwardashepulledtracinglistlesslywithhiseyestheredstripesuponherscarf,whichgrewtoappearasblackonesintheincreasingduskofevening。Shesurveyedthelonglineoflampsonthesea-wallofthetown,nowlookingsmallandyellow,andseemingtosendlongtap-rootsoffirequiveringdowndeepintothesea。By-and-bytheyreachedthelanding-steps。

Hetookherhandasbefore,andfounditascoldasthewateraboutthem。Itwasnotrelinquishedtillhereachedherdoor。Hisassurancehadnotremovedtheconstraintofhermanner:hesawthatsheblamedhimmutelyandwithhereyes,likeacapturedsparrow。

Leftalone,hewentandseatedhimselfinachairontheEsplanade。

Neithercouldshegoindoorstohersolitaryroom,feelingasshedidinsuchastateofdesperateheaviness。WhenSpringrovewasoutofsightsheturnedback,andarrivedatthecornerjustintimetoseehimsitdown。Thensheglidedpensivelyalongthepavementbehindhim,forgettingherselftomarblelikeMelancholyherselfasshemusedinhisneighbourhoodunseen。Sheheard,withoutheeding,thenotesofpianosandsingingvoicesfromthefashionablehousesatherback,fromtheopenwindowsofwhichthelamp-lightstreamedtojointhatoftheorange-huedfullmoon,newlyrisenovertheBayinfront。ThenEdwardbegantopaceupanddown,andCytherea,fearingthathewouldnoticeher,hastenedhomeward,flinginghimalastlookasshepassedoutofsight。Nopromisefromhimtowrite:

norequestthatsheherselfwoulddoso——nothingbutanindefiniteexpressionofhopeinthefaceofsomefearunknowntoher。Alas,alas!

WhenOwenreturnedhefoundshewasnotinthesmallsitting-room,andcreepingupstairsintoherbedroomwithalight,hediscoveredhertherelyingasleepuponthecoverletofthebed,stillwithherhatandjacketon。Shehadflungherselfdownonentering,andsuccumbedtotheunwontedoppressivenessthateverattendsfull-

blownlove。Thewettracesoftearswereyetvisibleuponherlongdroopinglashes。

\'Loveisasowredelight,andsugredgriefe,Alivingdeath,andever-dyinglife。\'

\'Cytherea,\'hewhispered,kissingher。Sheawokewithastart,andventedanexclamationbeforerecoveringherjudgment。\'He\'sgone!\'

shesaid。

\'Hehastoldmeall,\'saidGrayesoothingly。\'Heisgoingoffearlyto-morrowmorning。\'Twasashameofhimtowinyouawayfromme,andcruelofyoutokeepthegrowthofthisattachmentasecret。\'

\'Wecouldn\'thelpit,\'shesaid,andthenjumpingup——\'Owen,hashetoldyouALL?\'

\'Allofyourlovefrombeginningtoend,\'hesaidsimply。

Edwardthenhadnottoldmore——asheoughttohavedone:yetshecouldnotconvicthim。Butshewouldstruggleagainsthisfetters。

Shetingledtotheverysolesofherfeetattheverypossibilitythathemightbedeludingher。

\'Owen,\'shecontinued,withdignity,\'whatishetome?Nothing。I

mustdismisssuchweaknessasthis——believeme,Iwill。Somethingfarmorepressingmustdriveitaway。Ihavebeenlookingmypositionsteadilyintheface,andImustgetalivingsomehow。I

meantoadvertiseoncemore。\'

\'Advertisingisnouse。\'

\'Thisonewillbe。\'Helookedsurprisedatthesanguinetoneofheranswer,tillshetookapieceofpaperfromthetableandshowedithim。\'SeewhatIamgoingtodo,\'shesaidsadly,almostbitterly。

Thiswasherthirdeffort:——

\'LADY\'S-MAID。Inexperienced。Ageeighteen——G。,3CrossStreet,Budmouth。\'

Owen——Owentherespectable——lookedblankastonishment。Herepeatedinanameless,varyingtone,thetwowords——

\'Lady\'s-maid!\'

\'Yes;lady\'s-maid。\'Tisanhonestprofession,\'saidCythereabravely。

\'ButYOU,Cytherea?\'

\'Yes,I——whoamI?\'

\'Youwillneverbealady\'s-maid——never,Iamquitesure。\'

\'Ishalltrytobe,atanyrate。\'

\'Suchadisgrace——\'

\'Nonsense!Imaintainthatitisnodisgrace!\'shesaid,ratherwarmly。\'Youknowverywell——\'

\'Well,sinceyouwill,youmust,\'heinterrupted。\'Whydoyouput“inexperienced?”\'

\'BecauseIam。\'

\'Nevermindthat——scratchout“inexperienced。“Wearepoor,Cytherea,aren\'twe?\'hemurmured,afterasilence,\'anditseemsthatthetwomonthswillclosemyengagementhere。\'

\'Wecanputupwithbeingpoor,\'shesaid,\'iftheyonlygiveusworktodo……Yes,wedesireasablessingwhatwasgivenusasacurse,andeventhatisdenied。However,becheerful,Owen,andnevermind!\'

Injusticetodespondingmen,itisaswelltorememberthatthebrighterenduranceofwomenattheseepochs——invaluable,sweet,angelic,asitis——owesmoreofitsorigintoanarrowervisionthatshutsoutmanyoftheleaden-eyeddespairsinthevan,thantoahopefulnessintenseenoughtoquellthem。

IV。THEEVENTSOFONEDAY

1。AUGUSTTHEFOURTH。TILLFOURO\'CLOCK

TheearlypartofthenextweekbroughtananswertoCytherea\'slastnoteofhopeinthewayofadvertisement——notfromadistanceofhundredsofmiles,London,Scotland,Ireland,theContinent——asCythereaseemedtothinkitmust,tobeinkeepingwiththemeansadoptedforobtainingit,butfromaplaceintheneighbourhoodofthatinwhichshewasliving——acountrymansionnottwentymilesoff。Thereplyranthus:——

KNAPWATERHOUSE,August3,1864。

\'MissAldclyffeisinwantofayoungpersonaslady\'s-maid。Thedutiesoftheplacearelight。MissAldclyffewillbeinBudmouthonThursday,when(shouldG。stillnothaveheardofaplace)shewouldliketoseeherattheBelvedereHotel,Esplanade,atfouro\'clock。Noanswerneedbereturnedtothisnote。\'

Alittleearlierthanthetimenamed,Cytherea,clothedinamodestbonnet,andablacksilkjacket,turneddowntothehotel。

Expectation,thefreshairfromthewater,thebright,far-extendingoutlook,raisedthemostdelicateofpinkcolourstohercheeks,andrestoredtohertreadaportionofthatelasticitywhichherpasttroubles,andthoughtsofEdward,hadwell-nightakenaway。

Sheenteredthevestibule,andwenttothewindowofthebar。

\'IsMissAldclyffehere?\'shesaidtoanicely-dressedbarmaidintheforeground,whowastalkingtoalandladycoveredwithchains,knobs,andclampsofgold,inthebackground。

\'No,sheisn\'t,\'saidthebarmaid,notverycivilly。Cytherealookedashadetooprettyforaplaindresser。

\'MissAldclyffeisexpectedhere,\'thelandladysaidtoathirdperson,outofsight,inthetoneofonewhohadknownforseveraldaysthefactnewlydiscoveredfromCytherea。\'Getreadyherroom——

bequick。\'Fromthealacritywithwhichtheorderwasgivenandtaken,itseemedtoCythereathatMissAldclyffemustbeawomanofconsiderableimportance。

\'YouaretohaveaninterviewwithMissAldclyffehere?\'thelandladyinquired。

\'Yes。\'

\'Theyoungpersonhadbetterwait,\'continuedthelandlady。Withamoney-taker\'sintuitionshehadrightlydivinedthatCythereawouldbringnoprofittothehouse。

Cythereawasshownintoanondescriptchamber,ontheshadysideofthebuilding,whichappearedtobeeitherbedroomordayroom,asoccasionnecessitated,andwasoneofasuiteattheendofthefirst-floorcorridor。Theprevailingcolourofthewalls,curtains,carpet,andcoveringsoffurniture,wasmoreorlessblue,towhichthecoldlightcomingfromthenortheasterlysky,andfallingonawideroofofnewslates——theonlyobjectthesmallwindowcommanded——

impartedamorestrikingpaleness。Butunderneaththedoor,communicatingwiththenextroomofthesuite,gleamedaninfinitesimallysmall,yetverypowerful,fractionofcontrast——averythinlineofruddylight,showingthatthesunbeamedstronglyintothisroomadjoining。Thelineofradiancewastheonlycheeringthingvisibleintheplace。

Peoplegivewaytoveryinfantinethoughtsandactionswhentheywait;thebattle-fieldoflifeistemporarilyfencedoffbyahardandfastline——theinterview。Cythereafixedhereyesidlyuponthestreak,andbeganpicturingawonderfulparadiseontheothersideasthesourceofsuchabeam——remindingherofthewell-knowngooddeedinanaughtyworld。

Whilstshewatchedtheparticlesofdustfloatingbeforethebrilliantchinksheheardacarriageandhorsesstopoppositethefrontofthehouse。Afterwardscametherustleofalady\'sskirtsdownthecorridor,andintotheroomcommunicatingwiththeoneCythereaoccupied。

Thegoldenlinevanishedinpartslikethephosphorescentstreakcausedbythestrikingofamatch;therewasthefallofalightfootsteponthefloorjustbehindit:thenapause。Thenthefoottappedimpatiently,and\'There\'snoonehere!\'wasspokenimperiouslybyalady\'stongue。

\'No,madam;inthenextroom。Iamgoingtofetchher,\'saidtheattendant。

\'Thatwilldo——oryouneedn\'tgoin;Iwillcallher。\'

Cythereahadrisen,andsheadvancedtothemiddledoorwiththechinkunderitastheservantretired。Shehadjustlaidherhandontheknob,whenitslippedroundwithinherfingers,andthedoorwaspulledopenfromtheotherside。

2。FOURO\'CLOCK

Thedirectblazeoftheafternoonsun,partlyrefractedthroughthecrimsoncurtainsofthewindow,andheightenedbyreflectionsfromthecrimson-flockpaperwhichcoveredthewalls,andacarpetonthefloorofthesametint,shonewithaburningglowroundtheformofaladystandingclosetoCytherea\'sfrontwiththedoorinherhand。

Thestrangerappearedtothemaiden\'seyes——freshfromthebluegloom,andassistedbyanimaginationfreshfromnature——likeatallblackfigurestandinginthemidstoffire。Itwasthefigureofafinely-builtwoman,ofsparethoughnotangularproportions。

Cythereainvoluntarilyshadedhereyeswithherhand,retreatedasteportwo,andthenshecouldforthefirsttimeseeMissAldclyffe\'sfaceinadditiontoheroutline,litupbythesecondaryandsofterlightthatwasreflectedfromthevarnishedpanelsofthedoor。Shewasnotaveryyoungwoman,butcouldboastofmuchbeautyofthemajesticautumnalphase。

\'O,\'saidthelady,\'comethisway。\'Cythereafollowedhertotheembrasureofthewindow。

Boththewomenshowedoffthemselvestoadvantageastheywalkedforwardintheorangelight;andeachshowedtooinherfacethatshehadbeenstruckwithhercompanion\'sappearance。ThewarmtintaddedtoCytherea\'sfaceavoluptuousnesswhichyouthandasimplelifehadnotyetallowedtoexpressitselfthereordinarily;whilstintheelderlady\'sfaceitreducedthecustomaryexpression,whichmighthavebeencalledsternness,ifnotharshness,tograndeur,andwarmedherdecayingcomplexionwithmuchoftheyouthfulrichnessitplainlyhadoncepossessed。

Sheappearednownomorethanfive-and-thirty,thoughshemighteasilyhavebeentenoradozenyearsolder。Shehadclearsteadyeyes,aRomannoseinitspurestform,andalsotheroundprominentchinwithwhichtheCaesarsarerepresentedinancientmarbles;amouthexpressingacapabilityforandtendencytostrongemotion,habituallycontrolledbypride。Therewasaseverityabouttheloweroutlinesofthefacewhichgaveamasculinecasttothisportionofhercountenance。Womanlyweaknesswasnowherevisiblesaveinonepart——thecurveofherforeheadandbrows——thereitwasclearandemphatic。Sheworealaceshawloverabrownsilkdress,andanetbonnetsetwithafewbluecornflowers。

\'Youinsertedtheadvertisementforasituationaslady\'s-maidgivingtheaddress,G。,CrossStreet?\'

\'Yes,madam。Graye。\'

\'Yes。Ihaveheardyourname——Mrs。Morris,myhousekeeper,mentionedyou,andpointedoutyouradvertisement。\'

Thiswaspuzzlingintelligence,buttherewasnottimeenoughtoconsiderit。

\'Wheredidyoulivelast?\'continuedMissAldclyffe。

\'Ihaveneverbeenaservantbefore。Ilivedathome。\'

\'Neverbeenout?Ithoughttooatsightofyouthatyouweretoogirlish-lookingtohavedonemuch。Butwhydidyouadvertisewithsuchassurance?Itmisleadspeople。\'

\'Iamverysorry:Iput“inexperienced“atfirst,butmybrothersaiditisabsurdtotrumpetyourownweaknesstotheworld,andwouldnotletitremain。\'

\'Butyourmotherknewwhatwasright,Isuppose?\'

\'Ihavenomother,madam。\'

\'Yourfather,then?\'

\'Ihavenofather。\'

\'Well,\'shesaid,moresoftly,\'yoursisters,aunts,orcousins。\'

\'Theydidn\'tthinkanythingaboutit。\'

\'Youdidn\'taskthem,Isuppose。\'

\'No。\'

\'Youshouldhavedoneso,then。Whydidn\'tyou?\'

\'BecauseIhaven\'tanyofthem,either。\'

MissAldclyffeshowedhersurprise。\'Youdeserveforgivenessthenatanyrate,child,\'shesaid,inasortofdrily-kindtone。

\'However,Iamafraidyoudonotsuitme,asIamlookingforanelderlyperson。Yousee,Iwantanexperiencedmaidwhoknowsalltheusualdutiesoftheoffice。\'Shewasgoingtoadd,\'ThoughI

likeyourappearance,\'butthewordsseemedoffensivetoapplytotheladylikegirlbeforeher,andshemodifiedthemto,\'thoughI

likeyoumuch。\'

\'IamsorryImisledyou,madam,\'saidCytherea。

MissAldclyffestoodinareverie,withoutreplying。

\'Goodafternoon,\'continuedCytherea。

\'Good-bye,MissGraye——Ihopeyouwillsucceed。\'

Cythereaturnedawaytowardsthedoor。Themovementchancedtobeoneofhermasterpieces。Itwasprecise:ithadasmuchbeautyaswascompatiblewithprecision,andaslittlecoquettishnessaswascompatiblewithbeauty。

Andshehadinturninglookedoverhershoulderattheotherladywithafaintaccentofreproachinherface。ThosewhorememberGreuze\'s\'HeadofaGirl,\'haveanideaofCytherea\'slookaskanceattheturning。Itisnotforamantotellfishersofmenhowtosetouttheirfascinationssoastobringaboutthehighestpossibleaverageoftakeswithintheyear:buttheactionthattugsthehardestofallatanemotionalbeholderisthissweetmethodofturningwhichstealsthebosomawayandleavestheeyesbehind。

NowMissAldclyffeherselfwasnotyroatwheeling。WhenCythereahadclosedthedooruponher,sheremainedforsometimeinhermotionlessattitude,listeningtothegraduallydyingsoundofthemaiden\'sretreatingfootsteps。Shemurmuredtoherself,\'Itisalmostworthwhiletobeboredwithinstructingherinordertohaveacreaturewhocouldglideroundmyluxuriousindolentbodyinthatmanner,andlookatmeinthatway——Iwarranthowlightherfingersareuponone\'sheadandneck……Whatasillymodestyoungthingsheis,togoawaysosuddenlyasthat!\'Sherangthebell。

\'Asktheyoungladywhohasjustleftmetostepbackagain,\'shesaidtotheattendant。\'Quick!orshewillbegone。\'

Cythereawasnowinthevestibule,thinkingthatifshehadtoldherhistory,MissAldclyffemightperhapshavetakenherintothehousehold;yetherhistorysheparticularlywishedtoconcealfromastranger。Whenshewasrecalledsheturnedbackwithoutfeelingmuchsurprise。Something,sheknewnotwhat,toldhershehadnotseenthelastofMissAldclyffe。

\'Youhavesomebodytorefermeto,ofcourse,\'theladysaid,whenCythereahadre-enteredtheroom。

\'Yes:Mr。Thorn,asolicitoratAldbrickham。\'

\'Andareyouacleverneedlewoman?\'

\'Iamconsideredtobe。\'

\'ThenIthinkthatatanyrateIwillwritetoMr。Thorn,\'saidMissAldclyffe,withalittlesmile。\'Itistrue,thewholeproceedingisveryirregular;butmypresentmaidleavesnextMonday,andneitherofthefiveIhavealreadyseenseemtodoforme……

Well,IwillwritetoMr。Thorn,andifhisreplyissatisfactory,youshallhearfromme。ItwillbeaswelltosetyourselfinreadinesstocomeonMonday。\'

WhenCythereahadagainbeenwatchedoutoftheroom,MissAldclyffeaskedforwritingmaterials,thatshemightatoncecommunicatewithMr。Thorn。Sheindecisivelyplayedwiththepen。\'SupposeMr。

Thorn\'sreplytobeinanywaydisheartening——andevenifsofromhisownimperfectacquaintancewiththeyoungcreaturemorethanfromcircumstantialknowledge——Ishallfeelobligedtogiveherup。

ThenIshallregretthatIdidnotgiveheronetrialinspiteofotherpeople\'sprejudices。Allheraccountofherselfisreliableenough——yes,Icanseethatbyherface。Ilikethatfaceofhers。\'

MissAldclyffeputdownthepenandleftthehotelwithoutwritingtoMr。Thorn。

V。THEEVENTSOFONEDAY

1。AUGUSTTHEEIGHTH。MORNINGANDAFTERNOON

Atpost-timeonthatfollowingMondaymorning,Cythereawatchedsoanxiouslyforthepostman,thatasthetimewhichmustbringhimnarrowedlessandlesshervividexpectationhadonlyadegreelesstangibilitythanhispresenceitself。Inanothersecondhisformcameintoview。HebroughttwolettersforCytherea。

OnefromMissAldclyffe,simplystatingthatshewishedCythereatocomeontrial:thatshewouldrequirehertobeatKnapwaterHousebyMondayevening。

TheotherwasfromEdwardSpringrove。Hetoldherthatshewasthebrightspotofhislife:thatherexistencewasfardearertohimthanhisown:thathehadneverknownwhatitwastolovetillhehadmether。True,hehadfeltpassingattachmentstootherfacesfromtimetotime;buttheyallhadbeenweakinclinationstowardsthosefacesastheythenappeared。Helovedherpastandfuture,aswellasherpresent。Hepicturedherasachild:helovedher。Hepicturedherofsageyears:helovedher。Hepicturedherintrouble;helovedher。Homelyfriendshipenteredintohisloveforher,withoutwhichalllovewasevanescent。

Hewouldmakeonedepressingstatement。Uncontrollablecircumstances(alonghistory,withwhichitwasimpossibletoacquaintheratpresent)operatedtoacertainextentasadraguponhiswishes。Hehadfeltthismorestronglyatthetimeoftheirpartingthanhedidnow——anditwasthecauseofhisabruptbehaviour,forwhichhebeggedhertoforgivehim。Hesawnowanhonourablewayoffreeinghimself,andtheperceptionhadpromptedhimtowrite。Inthemeantimemightheindulgeinthehopeofpossessingheronsomebrightfutureday,whenbyhardlabourgeneratedfromherownencouragingwords,hehadplacedhimselfinapositionshewouldthinkworthytobesharedwithhim?

Dearlittleletter;shehuddleditup。Somuchmoreimportantalove-letterseemstoagirlthantoaman。Springrovewasunconsciouslycleverinhisletters,andamanwithatalentofthatkindmaywritehimselfuptoaherointhemindofayoungwomanwholoveshimwithoutknowingmuchabouthim。Springrovealreadystoodacubithigherinherimaginationthanhedidinhisshoes。

Duringthedaysheflittedabouttheroominanecstasyofpleasure,packingthethingsandthinkingofananswerwhichshouldbeworthyofthetendertoneofthequestion,herlovebubblingfromherinvoluntarily,likeprophesyingsfromaprophet。

IntheafternoonOwenwentwithhertotherailway-station,andputherinthetrainforCarrifordRoad,thestationnearesttoKnapwaterHouse。

Half-an-hourlatershesteppedoutupontheplatform,andfoundnobodytheretoreceiveher——thoughapony-carriagewaswaitingoutside。Intwominutesshesawamelancholymanincheerfulliveryrunningtowardsherfromapublic-housecloseadjoining,whoprovedtobetheservantsenttofetchher。Therearetwowaysofgettingridofsorrows:onebylivingthemdown,theotherbydrowningthem。Thecoachmandrownedhis。

Heinformedherthatherluggagewouldbefetchedbyaspring-waggoninabouthalf-an-hour;thenhelpedherintothechaiseanddroveoff。

Herlover\'sletter,lyingcloseagainstherneck,fortifiedheragainsttherestlesstimidityshehadpreviouslyfeltconcerningthisnewundertaking,andcompletelyfurnishedherwiththeconfidenteaseofmindwhichisrequiredforthecriticalobservationofsurroundingobjects。Itwasjustthatstageintheslowdeclineofthesummerdays,whenthedeep,dark,andvacuoushot-weathershadowsarebeginningtobereplacedbyblueonesthathaveasurfaceandsubstancetotheeye。Theytrottedalongtheturnpikeroadforadistanceofaboutamile,whichbroughtthemjustoutsidethevillageofCarriford,andthenturnedthroughlargelodge-gates,ontheheavystonepiersofwhichstoodapairofbitternscastinbronze。Theythenenteredtheparkandwoundalongadriveshadedbyoldanddroopinglime-trees,notarrangedintheformofanavenue,butstandingirregularly,sometimesleavingthetrackcompletelyexposedtothesky,atothertimescastingashadeoverit,whichalmostapproachedgloom——theundersurfaceofthelowestboughshangingatauniformlevelofsixfeetabovethegrass——theextremeheighttowhichthenibblingmouthsofthecattlecouldreach。

\'Isthatthehouse?\'saidCythereaexpectantly,catchingsightofagreygablebetweenthetrees,andlosingitagain。

\'No;that\'stheoldmanor-house——orratherallthat\'sleftofit。

TheAldycliffesusedtoletitsometimes,butitwasoftenerempty。

\'Tisnowdividedintothreecottages。Respectablepeopledidn\'tcaretolivethere。\'

\'Whydidn\'tthey?\'

\'Well,\'tissoawkwardandunhandy。Youseesomuchofithasbeenpulleddown,andtheroomsthatareleftwon\'tdoverywellforasmallresidence。\'Tissodismal,too,andlikemostoldhousesstandstoolowdowninthehollowtobehealthy。\'

\'Dotheytellanyhorridstoriesaboutit?\'

\'No,notasingleone。\'

\'Ah,that\'sapity。\'

\'Yes,that\'swhatIsay。\'Tisjestthehouseforaniceghastlyhair-on-endstory,thatwouldmaketheparishreligious。Perhapsitwillhaveonesomedaytomakeitcomplete;butthere\'snotawordofthekindnow。There,Iwouldn\'tlivethereforallthat。Infact,Icouldn\'t。Ono,Icouldn\'t。\'

\'Whycouldn\'tyou?\'

\'Thesounds。\'

\'Whatarethey?\'

\'Oneisthewaterfall,whichstandssoclosebythatyoucanhearthattherewaterfallineveryroomofthehouse,nightorday,illorwell。\'Tisenoughtodriveanybodymad:nowhark。\'

Hestoppedthehorse。Abovetheslightcommonsoundsintheaircametheunvaryingsteadyrushoffallingwaterfromsomespotunseenonaccountofthethickfoliageofthegrove。

\'There\'ssomethingawfulinthetimingo\'thatsound,ain\'tthere,miss?\'

\'Whenyousaythereis,therereallyseemstobe。Yousaidthereweretwo——whatistheotherhorridsound?\'

\'Thepumping-engine。That\'sclosebytheOldHouse,andsendswaterupthehillandallovertheGreatHouse。Weshallhearthatdirectly……There,nowharkagain。\'

Fromthesamedirectiondownthedelltheycouldnowhearthewhistlingcreakofcranks,repeatedatintervalsofhalf-a-minute,withasousingnoisebetweeneach:acreak,asouse,thenanothercreak,andsooncontinually。

\'Nowifanybodycouldmakeshifttolivethroughtheothersounds,thesewouldfinishhimoff,don\'tyouthinkso,miss?Thatmachinegoesonnightandday,summerandwinter,andishardlyevergreasedorvisited。Ah,ittriesthenervesatnight,especiallyifyouarenotverywell;thoughwedon\'toftenhearitattheGreatHouse。\'

\'Thatsoundiscertainlyverydismal。Theymighthavethewheelgreased。DoesMissAldclyffetakeanyinterestinthesethings?\'

\'Well,scarcely;youseeherfatherdoesn\'tattendtothatsortofthingasheusedto。Theenginewasoncequitehishobby。Butnowhe\'sgettenoldandveryseldomgoesthere。\'

\'Howmanyarethereinfamily?\'

\'Onlyherfatherandherself。He\'sa\'oldmanofseventy。\'

\'IhadthoughtthatMissAldclyffewassolemistressoftheproperty,andlivedherealone。\'

\'No,m——\'Thecoachmanwascontinuallycheckinghimselfthus,beingabouttostylehermissinvoluntarily,andthenrecollectingthathewasonlyspeakingtothenewlady\'s-maid。

\'Shewillsoonbemistress,however,Iamafraid,\'hecontinued,asifspeakingbyaspiritofprophecydeniedtoordinaryhumanity。

\'Thepooroldgentlemanhasdecayedveryfastlately。\'Themanthendrewalongbreath。

\'Whydidyoubreathesadlylikethat?\'saidCytherea。

\'Ah!……Whenhe\'sdeadpeacewillbealloverwithusoldservants。Iexpecttoseetheoldhouseturnedinsideout。\'

\'Shewillmarry,doyoumean?\'

\'Marry——notshe!Iwishshewould。No,inhersoulshe\'sassolitaryasRobinsonCrusoe,thoughshehasacquaintancesinplenty,ifnotrelations。There\'stherector,Mr。Raunham——he\'sarelationbymarriage——yetshe\'squitedistanttowardshim。AndpeoplesaythatifshekeepssingletherewillbehardlyalifebetweenMr。

Raunhamandtheheirshipoftheestate。Dangit,shedon\'tcare。

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