The Price She Paid

第1章

HENRYGOWERwasdeadatsixty-one——theendofalifelongfraudwhichneverhadbeensuspected,andneverwouldbe。Withtheworld,withhisacquaintancesandneighbors,withhiswifeandsonanddaughter,hepassedasagenerous,warm-hearted,good-naturedman,readyatalltimestodoanythingtohelpanybody,incapableofenvyorhatredormeanness。Infact,notonceinallhisdayshadheeverthoughtordoneasinglethingexceptforhisowncomfort。Likeallintenselyselfishpeoplewhoarewise,hewascheerfulandamiable,becausethatwasthewaytobehealthyandhappyandtohavethosearoundoneagreeableandinthemoodtodowhatonewishedthemtodo。Hetoldpeople,notthetruth,nottheunpleasantthingthatmighthelpthem,butwhattheywishedtohear。Hisfamilylivedinluxuriouscomfortonlybecausehehimselfwasfondofluxuriouscomfort。

Hiswifeandhisdaughterdressedfashionablyandwentaboutandentertainedinthefashionable,expensivewayonlybecausethatwasthesortoflifethatgratifiedhisvanity。Helivedtogetwhathewanted。hegotiteverydayandeveryhourofalifeintowhichnoraineverfell。hedied,honored,respected,beloved,andlamented。

Theclevertrickhehadplayeduponhisfellowbeingscameveryneartodiscoveryafewdaysafterhisdeath。Hiswidowandhersonanddaughter-in-lawanddaughterwereintheliving-roomofthecharminghouseatHangingRock,nearNewYork,alternatingbetweensorrowingsoverthedeadmanandplanningsforthefuture。Saidthewidow:

``IfHenryhadonlythoughtwhatwouldbecomeofusifheweretakenaway!’’

``Ifhehadsavedevenasmallpartofwhathemadeeveryyearfromthetimehewastwenty-six——forhealwaysmadeabigincome,’’saidhisson,Frank。

``Buthewassogenerous,sosoft-hearted!’’

exclaimedthewidow。``Hecoulddenyusnothing。’’

``Hecouldn’tbearseeinguswiththeslightestwishungratified,’’saidFrank。

``Hewasthebestfatherthateverlived!’’criedthedaughter,Mildred。

AndMrs。GowertheelderandMrs。Gowertheyoungerwept。andMildredturnedawaytohidetheemotiondistortingherface。andFrankstaredgloomilyatthecarpetandsighed。Thehideoussecretofthelifeofduplicitywassafe,safeforever。

Infact,HenryGowerhadoftenthoughtofthefateofhisfamilyifheshoulddie。Inthefirstyearofhismarriedlife,atatimewhenpassionforabeautifulbridewasalmostsweepinghimintogenerousthought,hehadlistenedforupwardofanhourtotheeloquenceofalifeinsuranceagent。Thentheagent,misledbyGower’seffusivelygenerousandunselfishexpressions,hadtakenafalsetack。Hehaddescanteduponthesupremesatisfactionthatwouldbefeltbyadyingmanashereflectedhowhisyoungwidowwouldbeleftinaffluence。Hemadeavividpicture。Gowersaw——

sawhisbridehappierafterhisdeaththanshehadbeenduringhislife,andattractingaswarmofadmirersbyherbeauty,wellsetoffinbecomingblack,andbyherindependentincome。Thegenerousimpulsethenandthereshriveledtoitsweakandshallowroots。Withtearsinhiskind,cleareyeshethankedtheagentandsaid:

``Youhaveconvincedme。Youneedsaynomore。

I’llsendforyouinafewdays。’’

Theagentnevergotintohispresenceagain。

Gowerliveduptohisincome,secureintheknowledgethathisabilityasalawyermadehimcertainofplentyofmoneyaslongasheshouldlive。Butitwouldshowanutterlackofcomprehensionofhispeculiarspeciesofcharactertoimaginethathelethimselfintothesecretofhisownicy-heartednessbyceasingtothinkoftheproblemofhiswifeandtwochildrenwithouthimtotakecareofthem。Onthecontrary,hethoughtofiteveryday,andplannedwhathewoulddoaboutit——to-morrow。Andforhisdelayhehadexcellentconvincingexcuses。Didhenottakecareofhisnaturallyrobusthealth?Wouldhenotcertainlyout-

livehiswife,whowasalwaysdoctoringmoreorless?

Frankwouldbeabletotakecareofhimself。anyhow,itwasnotwelltobringaboyuptoexpectations,becauseeverymanshouldbeself-supportingandself-

reliant。AsforMildred,why,withherbeautyandherclevernessshecouldnotbutmakeabrilliantmarriage。

Really,therewasforhimnoproblemofanorphanedfamily’sfuture。therewasnoreasonwhyheshoulddenyhimselfanycomfortorluxury,orhisvanityanyofthetitillationsthatcomefromsocialdisplay。

Thatoneofhiscalculationswhichwasthemostvitalandseemedthesurestprovedtobeworthless。Itisnottheweaklingswhodie,afterinfancyandyouth,butthestrong,healthymenandwomen。Theweaklingshavetolookoutforthemselves,receiveamplewarninginthedisastrousobviouseffectsoftheslightestimprudence。Therobust,eventhewariestofthem,eventheHenryGowers,overestimateandovertaxtheirstrength。Gower’sdownfallwaschampagne。Hecouldnotresistabottleofitfordinnereverynight。

Assooftenhappens,thecollapseofthekidneyscamewithoutanywarningthatamanofpowerfulconstitutionwoulddeemworthyofnotice。Bythetimethedoctorbegantosuspectthegravityofhistroublehewastoofargone。

Frank,candidlygreedyandselfish——``Suchacontrasttohisfather!’’everyonesaid——wasmarriedtotheprettiestgirlinHangingRockandhadasatisfactorylawpracticeinNewYork。Hisincomewasaboutfifteenthousandayear。Buthiswifehadtastesasextravagantashisown。andHangingRockisoneofthosesuburbsofNewYorkwheregatherwell-to-domiddle-classpeopletoliveluxuriouslyandtodeludeeachotherandthemselveswiththenotionthattheyarefashionable,richNewYorkerswhoprefertoliveinthecountry``liketheEnglish。’’Thus,HenryGower’swidowanddaughtercouldcountonlittlehelpfromFrank——andtheyknewit。

``YouandMillywillhavetomovetosomelessexpensiveplacethanHangingRock,’’saidFrank——itwastheliving-roomconferenceafewdaysafterthefuneral。

Mildredflushedandhereyesflashed。Sheopenedherlipstospeak——closedthemagainwiththeangryretortunuttered。Afterall,Frankwashermother’sandhersoledependence。Theycouldhopeforlittlefromhim,butnothingmustbesaidthatwouldgivehimandhismean,selfishwifeachancetobreakwiththemandrefusetodoanythingwhatever。

``AndMildredmustgetmarried,’’saidNatalie。

InHangingRockmostofthegirlsandmanyoftheboyshadgivennamestakenfromBurke’sPeerage,theAlmanacdeGotha,andfashionablenovels。

AgainMildredflushed。buthereyesdidnotflash,neitherdidsheopenherlipstospeak。Thelittleremarkofhersister-in-law,apparentlysoharmlessandsensible,wasinfactapoisonedarrow。ForMildredwastwenty-three,hadbeen``out’’fiveyears,andwasnoteveninthewaytobecomeengaged。Sheandeveryonehadassumedfromherlovelybabyhoodthatshewouldmarrysplendidly,wouldmarrywealthandsocialposition。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Hadshenotbeauty?Hadshenotfamilyandposition?Hadshenotstyleandcleverness?Yet——fiveyearsoutandnota``serious’’proposal。Animpudentpoorfellowwithnoprospectshadaskedher。AnimpudentrichmanfromfashionableNewYorkhadhungafterher——andhadpresentlyabandonedwhateverdarkprojectshemayhavebeenconcealingandhadmarriedinhisownset,``astheyalwaysdo,themiserablesnobs,’’

ravedMrs。Gower,whohadbeenbuildinghighuponthoselavishoutpouringsofcandy,flowers,andautomobilerides。Mildred,however,hadacceptedthedefectionmorephilosophically。ShehadhadenoughvanitytoliketheattentionsoftherichandfashionableNewYorker,enoughgoodsensetosuspect,perhapsnotdefinitely,whatthoseattentionsmeant,butcertainlywhattheydidnotmean。Also,inthebackofherheadhadbeenanintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,ifbychanceheshouldaskher。Wasthereanysubstancetothisintention,sprungfromherdislikingtheconceited,self-assuredsnobasmuchasshelikedhiswealthandstation?Perhapsnot。Whocansay?Atanyrate,maywenotclaimcreditforourgoodintentions——solongas,eventhroughlackofopportunity,wehavenotstultifiedthem?

Witheverynaturaladvantageapparently,Mildred’sfailuretocatchahusbandseemedtobesomehowherownfault。Othergirls,lessendowedthanshe,weremarrying,weremarryingfairlywell。Why,then,wasMildredlagginginthemarket?

Theremayhavebeenotherreasons,reasonsofaccident——for,inthehigherclassmatrimonialmarket,fewarecalledandfewerchosen。Therewasonereasonnotaccidental。HangingRockwasnoplaceforagirlsosuperioraswasMildredGowertofindafittinghusband。Ashasbeenhinted,HangingRockwasoneofthoseupper-middle-classcolonieswheresplurgeandsocialambitiondominatethecommunitylife。Insuchcoloniestheyoungmenareoftwoclasses——thosebeneathsuchagirlasMildred,andthosewhohadthelooks,themanners,theintelligence,andtheprospectstojustifytheminlookinghighersocially——inlookingamongtheveryrichandreallyfashionable。IntheHangingRocksortofcommunity,havingallthesnobbishnessofFifthAvenue,BackBay,andRittenhouseSquare,withtheaddedtormentofthesnobbishnessbeingperpetuallyungratified——insuchcommunities,beneathasurfacereekingcultureandidealisticfolderol,thereisacoarseandbrutalmaterialism,apassionformoney,forluxury,fordisplay,thatequalsaristocraticsocietiesattheirworst。Noonecanliveforawinter,muchlessgrowup,insuchaplacewithoutbecomingsaturatedwithsycophantry。Thus,onlybysomeimpossiblecombinationofchancescouldtherehavebeenatHangingRockayoungmanwhowouldhaveappreciatedMildredandhavehadthecourageofhisappreciation。Thiscombinationdidnothappen。

InMildred’sgenerationandsettherewereonlythetwoclassesofmennotedabove。Themenoftheoneofthemwhichcouldnothaveattractedheracceptedtheirfateofmatingwithsecond-choicefemalestowhomtheywerethemselvessecondchoice。ThemenoftheotherclassrarelyappearedatHangingRockfunctions,hungabouttherichpeopleinNewYork,Newport,andonLongIsland,andwouldassoonhavethoughtoftakingaHangingRocksocietygirltowifeasofexchanginghundred-dollarbillsfortwenty-five-centpieces。Havingattractionsacceptableinthebestmarkets,theytookthemthere。HangingRockdenouncedthemassnobs,forHangingRockwasvirtuouslyeloquentonthesubjectofsnobbishness——wehumancreaturesbeingneversoeffectiveaswhenassailinginotherstheviceorweaknessweknowfromlifelong,intimate,internalassociationwithit。Butsecretlythesuccessfullyambitiousspurnersofthatsuburbansocietywereapproved,wereenvied。AndHangingRockwasmostgracioustothemwheneveritgotthechance。

InherfiveyearsofsociallifeMildredhadgoneonlywiththevariousclassesoffashionablepeople,hadthereforeknownonlythemenwhoarefullofthepoisonofsnobbishness。Shehadbeenbornandbredinanenvironmentasimpregnatedwiththatpoisonastheairofakitchen-gardenwithonions。Sheknewnothingelse。ThesecretintentiontorefuseStanleyBaird,shouldhepropose,wasthereforethemoreastonishing——andthemoresignificant。Fromtimetotimeinanygivenenvironmentyouwillfindsomeisolatedperson,somepersonality,withatraitwhollyforeignandoutofplacethere。Nowitisasoftvoiceandcourteousmannersinaslum。againitisalongingforalifeoffreedomandequalityinamemberofaroyalfamilythathasknownnothingbutsordidslaveryforcenturies。Or,inthepettyconventionalityofaprosperousmiddle-orupper-classcommunityyoucomeupononewhodreams——perhapsvaguelybutstilllongingly——ofanexistencewhereloveandideasshallelevateandglorifylife。Inspiteofhertraining,inspiteoftheteachingandexampleofallaboutherfromthemomentofheropeninghereyesupontheworld,MildredGowerattwenty-threestillretainedsomethingofthesedreamflowerssowninthesoilofhernaturallygoodmindbysomebookorplayorperhapsbysomecasuallyreadandsoonforgottenarticleinmagazineornewspaper。Wehavethehabitofthinkingonlyweedsproduceseedsthatpenetrateandprospereverywhereandanywhere。Thetruthisthatfineplantsofallkinds,vegetable,fruit,andflowerofrarestcolorandperfume,havethissamehardinessandfecundity。Pullawayattheweedsinyourgardenforawhile,andseeifthisisnotso。Thoughyoumayplantnothing,youwillbeamazedattheresultsifyoubutclearalittlespaceofitsweeds——whichyouhavebeenplantingandcultivating。

Mildred——womanfashion——regardeditasareproachuponherthatshehadnotyetsucceededinmakingthemarriageeveryone,includingherself,predictedforherandexpectedofher。Onthecontrary,itwasthemostsavageindictmentpossibleofthemarriageableandmarryingmenwhohadmether——oftheirstupidity,oftheirshort-sightedandmean-souledcalculation,oftheirlackofcourage——thecouragetotakewhatthey,asmenoffleshandbloodwanted,insteadofwhattheirsnobbishnessordered。AndifStanleyBaird,thenearesttoaflesh-and-bloodmanofanywhohadknownher,hadnotbeensoprofoundlyafraidofhisfashionablemotherandofhissister,theCountessofWaring——Buthewasprofoundlyafraidofthem。so,itisidletospeculateabouthim。

WhatdidmenseewhentheylookedatMildredGower?Usually,whenmenlookatawoman,theyhaveahazy,eitherpleasantorunpleasant,senseofsomethingfeminine。That,andnothingmore。Afterward,throughsomewhimorsomethrustfromchancetheymayseeinher,orfancytheyseeinher,thethingfemininethattheirsouls——itisalways``soul’’——mostyearnsafter。Butjustatfirstglance,socolorlessorconventionallycoloredistheusualhumanbeing,theaveragewoman——indeedeverywomanbutshewhoisexceptional——createsuponmanthemereimpressionofpleasantorunpleasantpetticoats。Intheexceptionalwomansomethingobtrudes。Shehasastonishinghair,orextraordinaryeyes,oramouththatseemstodrawamanlikeamagnet。oritistheallureofapeculiarsmileorofafigurewhosesinuositiesasshemovesseemtocauseacorrespondingwave-disturbanceinmasculinenerves。Further,thepossessionofoneofthesesignalcharmsusuallycausesallhercharmstohavemorethanordinarypotency。Thesightofthemanissobewitchedbytheonepotentcharmthatheseesthewholewomanunderaspell。

MildredGower,ofthemediumheightandofaslenderandwell-formedfigure,hadafaceofthekindthatiscalledlovely。andhersmile,sweet,dreamy,revealingwhiteandeventeeth,gaveherlovelinessdelicateanimation。Shehadanabundanceofhair,neitherlightnordark。shehadafineclearskin。Hereyes,grayandratherseriousandwellsetunderlongstraightbrows,gaveheralookofhonestyandintelligence。

Butthecharmthatwonmen,hercharmofcharms,washermouth——mobile,slightlypouted,nottoonarrow,ofawonderful,vividlyhealthyandvitalred。Shehadbeauty,shehadintelligence。Butitwasimpossibleforamantothinkofeither,oncehisglancehadbeencaughtbythoseexpressive,invitinglipsofhers,soyoung,sofresh,withtheirever-changing,ever-

fascinatinglineexpressinginathousandwaysthepassionandpoetryofthekiss。

Ofallthemenwhohadadmiredherandhadedgedawaybecausetheyfearedshewouldbewitchthemintoforgettingwhattheworldcalls``goodcommonsense’’——

ofallthosemenonlyonehadsuspectedtherealreasonforherphysicalpowerovermen。AllbutStanleyBairdhadthoughtthemselvesattractedbecauseshewassoprettyorsostylishorsocleverandamusingtotalkwith。Bairdhadlivedintelligentlyenoughtolearnthatfemininecharmisnevergeneral,isalwaysspecific。HeknewitwasMildredGower’slipsthathaunted,thatfrightenedambitiousmenaway,thatsentmenwhoknewtheyhadn’taghostofachancewithherdiscontentedlybacktothesecond-choicewomenwhoalonewereavailableforthem。FortunatelyforMildred,StanleyBaird,toowisetoflatterawomandiscriminatingly,didnottellherthesecretofherfascination。Ifhehadtoldher,shewouldnodoubthavetriedtotrainandtouseit——andsowouldinevitablyhavelostit。

Togoonwiththatimportantconferenceinthesitting-roominthehandsome,roomyhouseoftheGowersatHangingRock,FrankGowereagerlyseizeduponhiswife’ssubtlynastyremark。``Idon’tseewhyinthunderyouhaven’tmarried,Milly,’’saidhe。``You’vehadeverychance,theselastfourorfiveyears。’’

``Andit’llbehardernow,’’moanedhermother。

``Foritlooksasthoughweweregoingtobewretchedlypoor。Andpovertyissorepulsive。’’

``Doyouthink,’’saidMildred,``thatgivingmetheideathatImustmarryrightawaywillmakeiteasierformetomarry?Everyonewhoknowsusknowsourcircumstances。’’ShelookedsignificantlyatFrank’swife,whohadbeenwailingthroughHangingRockthewoefulplightofherdeadfather-in-law’sfamily。

TheyoungMrs。Gowerblushedandglancedaway。

``And,’’Mildredwenton,``everyoneissayingthatI

mustmarryatonce——thatthere’snothingelseformetodo。’’Shesmiledbitterly。``WhenIgointothestreetagainIshallseenothingbutflyingmen。Andnomanwouldcometocallunlesshebroughtachaperonandawitnesswithhim。’’

``Howcanyoubesofrivolous?’’reproachedhermother。

Mildredwasusedtobeingmisunderstoodbyhermother,whohadlongsincebeenmadehopelesslydullbythesuffocatinglifesheledandbypainfromherfeet,whichneverleftherateaseforamomentexceptwhenshehadthemsoakingincoldwater。Mrs。Gowerhadbeenbornwithordinaryfeet,neitheruglynorprettyandentirelyfitfortheusesforwhichnatureintendedfeet。Shehadspoiledthembywearingshoestomakethemlooksmallerandslimmerthantheywere。

Insteadyweathershewasplaintive。inchangeableweathershevariedbetweenirritableandviolent。

SaidMildredtoherbrother:``Howmuch——JUSThowmuchisthere?’’

``Ican’tsayexactly,’’repliedherbrother,whohadnotyetsolvedtohissatisfactionthemoralproblemofhowmuchoftheestateheoughttoallowhismotherandsisterandhowmuchheoughttoclaimforhimself——insuchawaythattheclaimcouldnotbedisputed。

Mildredlookedfixedlyathim。Heshowedhisuneasinessnotbyglancingaway,butbytheappearanceofacertainharddefianceinhiseyes。Saidshe:

``Whatistheverymostwecanhopefor?’’

Asilence。Hermotherbrokeit。``Mildred,howCANyoutalkofthosethings——already?’’

``Idon’tknow,’’repliedMildred。``Perhapsbecauseit’sgottobedone。’’

Thisseemedtothemall——andtoherself——alameexcuseforsuchapparenthardnessofheart。HerfatherhadalwaysbeenSENDER-HEARTED——HADNEVER

SPOKENOFMONEY,ORENCOURAGEDHISFAMILYINSPEAKINGOFIT。

ALONGANDPAINFULSILENCE。THEN,THEWIDOW

ABRUPTLY:

``YOU’RESURE,Frank,there’sNOinsurance?’’

``Fatheralwayssaidthatyoudislikedtheidea,’’

repliedherson。``thatyouthoughtinsurancelookedlikeyourcalculatingonhisdeath。’’

Underherhusband’sadroitpromptingMrs。Gowerhaddiscoveredsuchaviewofinsuranceinherbrain。

Shenowrecalledexpressingit——andregretted。Butshewassilenced。Shetriedtotakehermindofthesub-

jectofmoney。But,likeMildred,shecouldnot。Thethoughtofimminentpovertywasnaggingatthemliketoothache。``There’llbeenoughforayearorso?’’

shesaid,timidlyinterrogative。

``Ihopeso,’’saidFrank。

Mildredwaseyinghimfixedlyagain。Saidshe:

``Haveyoufoundanythingatall?’’

``Hehadabouteightthousanddollarsinbank,’’

saidFrank。``Butmostofitwillgoforthepressingdebts。’’

``ButhowdidHEexpecttolive?’’urgedMildred。

``Yes,theremusthavebeenSOMETHING,’’saidhermother。

``Ofcourse,there’shisshareoftheunsettledandunfinishedbusinessofthefirm,’’admittedFrank。

``Howmuchwillthatbe?’’persistedMildred。

``Ican’ttell,offhand,’’saidFrank,withvirtuousreproach。``Mymind’sbeenon——otherthings。’’

HenryGower’swidowwasnotwithouthershareofinstinctiveshrewdness。Neitherhadshe,unobservantthoughshewas,beenwithinsightofherson’scharacterfortwenty-eightyearswithouthavingunconfessed,unformedmisgivingsconcerningit。

``Youmustn’tbotheraboutthesethingsnow,Frankdear,’’saidshe。``I’llgetmybrothertolookintoit。’’

``Thatwon’tbenecessary,’’hastilysaidFrank。``I

don’twantanyrivallawyerpeepingintoourfirm’saffairs。’’

``MybrotherWhartonisthesoulofhonor,’’saidMrs。Gower,theelder,withdignity。``Youaretooyoungtotakealltheresponsibilityofsettlingtheestate。Yes,I’llsendforWhartonto-morrow。’’

``It’lllookasthoughyoudidn’ttrustme,’’saidFranksourly。

``Wemustn’tdoanythingtostartthegossipsinthistown,’’saidhiswife,assisting。

``Thensendforhimyourself,Frank,’’saidMildred,``andgivehimchargeofthewholematter。’’

Frankeyedherfuriously。``Howashamedfatherwouldbe!’’exclaimedhe。

Butthissolemninvokingofthedeadman’sspiritwasuneffectual。Thespecterofpovertywastooinsistent,tooterrible。Saidthewidow:

``I’msure,inthecircumstances,mydeardeadhusbandwouldwantmetogethelpfromsomeoneolderandmoreexperienced。’’

AndFrank,guiltyofconscienceandanexpertinthewaysofconventionalandhighlymoralrascality,ceasedtoresist。Hiswife,scentingdangertotheirgettingthesharethat``rightfullybelongstotheson,especiallywhenhehasbeenthebrainsofthefirmforseveralyears,’’madeangryandindiscreetbattlefornooutsideinterference。Thelongershetalkedthefirmerthewidowandthedaughterbecame,notonlybecausesheclarifiedsuspicionsthathadbeentoohazytotakeform,butalsobecausetheydislikedherintensely。

ThefollowingdayWhartonConoverbecameunofficialadministrator。HehadnodifficultyinbafflingFrankGower’shalf-heartedandclumsyeffortstohidetwolargefeesduethedeadman’sestate。Hediscoveredclearassetsamountinginalltosixty-

threethousanddollars,mostofitavailablewithinafewmonths。

``Asyouhavethegood-willofthefirmandasyourmotherandsisterhaveonlywhatcanberealizedincash,’’saidhetoFrank,``nodoubtyouwon’tinsistonyourthird。’’

``I’vegottoconsidermywife,’’saidFrank。``I

can’tdoasI’dlike。’’

``Youaregoingtoinsistonyourthird?’’saidConover,withanaccentthatmadeFrankquiver。

``Ican’tdootherwise,’’saidheinadogged,shamedway。

``Um,’’saidConover。``Then,onbehalfofmysisterandherdaughterI’llhavetoinsistonamoredetailedaccountingthanyouhavebeenwillingtogive——andontheproductionofthatsmallbookboundinredleatherwhichdisappearedfrommybrother-in-law’sdesktheafternoonofhisdeath。’’

AwaveofrageandfearsurgedupwithinFrankGowerandcrashedagainsttheseatofhislife。Fordaysthereafterhewasfromtimetotimeseizedwithviolentspasmsoftrembling。yearsafterwardhewasattributingprematureweaknessesofoldagetotheeffectsofthatmomentofhorror。Hisuncle’swordscameasasudden,highshotclimaxtoweeksofexasperatingpeepingandpryingandquestioning,ofsneerandinsinuation。Conoverhadbeenonlymoderatelysuccessfulatthelaw,hadlostclientstoFrank’sfather,hadbeenbeatenwhentheywereonoppositesides。Hehatedthefatherwiththesecret,hypocriticalhatredofthehighlymoralandreligiousman。Hede-

spisedtheson。ItisnotoftenthataChristiangentlemanhassuchanopportunitytocombinejusticeandrevenge,tofeedtoburstinganancientgrudge,thewhileconsciousthatheisbutdoinghisduty。

SaidFrank,whenhewasabletospeak:``Youhavebeenlisteningtotheliesofsometreacherousclerkhere。’’

``Don’tdestroythatlittlebook,’’proceededConovertranquilly。``Wecanprovethatyoutookit。’’

YoungGowerrose。``Imustdeclinetohaveanythingfurthertosaytoyou,sir,’’saidhe。``Youwillleavethisoffice,andyouwillnotbeadmittedhereagainunlessyoucomewithproperpapersasadministrator。’’

Conoversmiledwithcoldsatisfactionanddeparted。

Therefollowedaseriesofquarrels——betweenFrankandhissister,betweenFrankandhismother,betweenFrank’swifeandhismother,betweenMildredandhermother,betweenthemotherandConover。Mrs。Gowerwassuspiciousofherson。butsheknewherbrotherforapinchpenny,exactingthelastdropofwhatheregardedashisown。Andshediscoveredthat,ifsheauthorizedhimtoactasadministratorforher,hecould——andbeyondquestionwould——takealargeshareoftheestate。TheupshotwasthatFrankpaidovertohismotherandsisterforty-seventhousanddollars,andhismotherandherbrotherstoppedspeakingtoeachother。

``Iseethatyouhaveturnedoverallyourmoneytomother,’’saidFranktoMildredafewdaysafterthesettlement。

``Ofcourse,’’saidMildred。Shewasinamoodofhighscornforsordidness——amoodinducedbythespectacleoftheshamefulmannersofConover,Frank,andhiswife。

``Doyouthinkthat’swise?’’suggestedFrank。

``Ithinkit’sdecent,’’saidMildred。

``Well,Ihopeyou’llnotlivetoregretit,’’saidherbrother。

NeitherMrs。Gowernorherdaughterhadeverhadanyexperienceinthecareofmoney。Tobothforty-

seventhousanddollarsseemedafortune——forty-seventhousanddollarsincashinthebank,readytoissueforthanddotheirbiddingatthemerewritingofafewfiguresandasignatureonapieceofpaper。Inasensetheyknewthatformanyyearsthefamily’sannualexpenseshadrangedbetweenfortyandfiftythousand,butinthesenseofactualitytheyknewnothingaboutit——astateofaffairscommonenoughinfamilieswherethemanisinabsolutecontrolandspendsallhemakes。Moneyalwayshadbeenforthcomcoming。{sic}

thereforemoneyalwayswouldbeforthcoming。

Themourningandthelossofthepersonwhohadfilledandemployedtheirlivescausedthewidowandthedaughtertoliveveryquietlyduringthesucceedingyear。Theyspentonlyhalfoftheircapital。Forreasonsofselfishandfar-sightedprudencewhichneednodetailingFrankmovedawaytoNewYorkwithinsixmonthsofhisfather’sdeathandreducedcommunicationbetweenhimselfandwifeandhismotherandsistertoafrigidandrapidlycongealingminimum。

Hecalculatedthatbythetimetheircapitalwascon-

sumedtheywouldhaveleftnofeelingofclaimuponhimorhefeelingofdutytowardthem。

Itwasnotuntileighteenmonthsafterherfather’sdeath,whenthetotalcapitalwassunktolessthanfifteenthousanddollars,thatMildredawakenedtothetruthoftheirplight。Afewmonthsatmost,andtheywouldhavetogiveupthatbeautifulhousewhichhadbeenherhomeallherlife。Shetriedtograspthemeaningofthefactsasherintelligencepresentedthemtoher,butshecouldnot。Shehadnopracticaltrainingwhatever。Shehadbeenbroughtupasarichman’schild,tobemarriedtoarichman,andnevertoknowanythingofthematerialdetailsoflifebeyondwhatwasnecessaryinmanagingservantsaftertheindifferentfashionoftheusualAmericanwomanofthecomfortableclasses。Shehadalwayshadamaid。shecouldnotevendressherselfproperlywithoutthemaid’sassistance。Lifewithoutamaidwasinconceivable。

lifewithoutservantswasimpossible。

Shewanderedthroughthehouse,throughthegrounds。Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Wehavegottogiveupallthis,andbemiserablypoor——

withnotaservant,withlessthanthetenementpeoplehave。’’Butthewordsconveyednomeaningtoher。

Shesaidtoherselfagainandagain:``Imustrousemyself。Imustdosomething。Imust——must——

must!’’Butshedidnotrouse,becausetherewasnothingtorouse。Sofaraspracticallifewasconcernedshewasasdevoidofideasasanew-bornbaby。

Therewasbuttheonehope——marriage,arichmarriage。Itisthehabitofmenwhocantakecareofthemselvesandofwomenwhoaresecurelywelltakencareoftoscornthewomanorthehelpless-bredmanwhomarriesformoneyorevenentertainsthatidea。

Howlittleimaginationthesescornershave!Tomarryforamereliving,hardlybetterthanonecouldmakeforoneself,assuredlydoesshowapitifullackofself-

reliance,amelancholylackofself-respect。Butformenorwomenalltheirlivesusedtoluxuryandwithnoabilitywhateveratearningmoney——forsuchpersonstomarrymoneyinordertosavethemselvesfromthemiseryandshamethatpovertymeanstothemisthemostnatural,themosthumanactionconceivable。Themanorthewomanwhosaysheorshewouldnotdoit,eitherisahypocriteoristalkingwithoutthinking。

Youmayinhonestycriticizeandcondemnasocialsystemthatsuffersmenandwomentobesocrudelyandcriminallymiseducatedbybeinggivenluxurytheydidnotearn。Buttocondemnthevictimsofthatsystemforactingasitslogiccompelsissheerfollyorsheerphariseeism。

WouldMildredGowerhavemarriedformoney?Astheweeksfled,asthebankaccountdwindled,shewouldhavegraspedeagerlyatanyrichmanwhomighthaveofferedhimself——nomatterhowrepellenthemighthavebeen。Shedidnotwantabareliving。shedidnotwantwhatpasseswiththemassofmiddle-classpeopleforcomfort。Shewantedwhatshehad——thebeautifulandspacioushouse,thecostlyandfashionableclothing,theservants,thecarriagesandmotors,thethousandandonecomforts,luxuries,andvanitiestowhichshehadalwaysbeenused。InthebrainofayoungwomanofpoororonlycomfortablyofffamilythethoughtsthatseethedinMildredGower’sbrainwouldhavebeensomanyindicationsofdepravity。InMildredGower’sbraintheywerethenatural,theinevitable,thoughts。

Theyindicatedeverythingastohertraining,nothingastohercharacter。So,whenshe,thinkingonlyofarichmarriagewithnomatterwhom,andcontrastingherselfwiththefinewomenportrayedinthenovelsandplays,condemnedherselfasshamelessanddegraded,shedidherselfgraveinjustice。

Butnorichman,whetherattractiveorrepulsive,offered。Indeed,nomanofanykindoffered。Instead,itwashermotherwhomarried。

AwidowernamedJamesPresbury,elderly,withanincomeoffivetosixthousandayearfrominheritedwealth,stumbledintoHangingRocktolive,wasimpressedbythestylethewidowGowermaintained,believedtherumorthatherhusbandhadleftherbetteroffthanwasgenerallythought,proposed,andwasaccepted。AndtwoyearsandamonthafterHenryGower’sdeathhiswidowbecameMrs。JamesPresbury——andceasedtoveilfromhernewhusbandthetruthastoheraffairs。

Mildredhadthoughtthat,thanthefamilyquarrelsincidenttosettlingherfather’sestate,humannaturecouldnolowerdescend。Shewasnowtobedisillusioned。

Whenayoungmanorayoungwomanblundersintoapoormarriageintryingtomakearichone,heorsheisusuallywithheldfromimmediateandfrankexpressionbythetimidityofyouth。Notsotheelderlymanorwoman。Aswegrowolder,nomat-

terhowtimidlyconventionalwearebynature,webecome,throughselfishnessorthroughindifferencetotheopinionofothersorthroughimpatienceofpettyrestraint,moreandmoreoutspoken。OldPresburydiscoveredhowhehadtrickedhimselffourdaysafterthewedding。HeandhisbridewereattheWaldorfinNewYork,a-honeymooning。

Thebridehadneverprofessedtoberich。Shehadsimplycontinuedinherlifelongway,hadsimplyactedrich。Shewellknewthegaudydelusionsheradmirerwasentertaining,andshesawtoitthatnothingwassaidordonetodisturbhim。Sheinquiredintohisaffairs,madesureofthesubstantialityofthecomparativelysmallincomehepossessed,decidedtoaccepthimasherbestavailablechancetoescapebecomingachargeuponheranythingbuteagerandgenerousrelatives。Sheawaitedtheexplosionwithserenity。

ShecarednotaflipforPresbury,whowasasoftandsillyoldfool,fullofantiquatedcomplimentsandsodrearilytheinferiorofHenryGower,physicallyandmentally,thatevenshecouldappreciatethedifference,thedescent。Sheratherenjoyedtheprospectofacombatwithhim,oftheendofdissimulatinghercontempt。Shehadthoughtoutandhadputinarsenalreadyforuseavarietyofsneers,jeers,andinsultsthatsuggestedthemselvestoherasshelistenedandsimperedandrespondedwhilehewascourting。

Hadtheopportunityofferedearlierthanthefourthdayshewouldhaveseizedit,butnotuntilthatfourthmorningwassheinjusttherightmood。Shehadeatentoomuchdinnerthenightbefore,andhadfolloweditaftertwohoursinastuffytheaterwithanindigestiblesupper。Helikedthebedroomwindowsopenatnight。shelikedthemclosed。Aftershefellintoaheavysleep,heslippedoutofbedandopenedthewindowswide——toteachherbythenight’shappyexperiencethatshewasentirelymistakenastotheharmfulnessoffreshwinterair。Theresultwasthatsheawakenedwithafrightfulcoldandasplittingheadache。Andastheweatherwasabouttochangeshehadshootingpainsliketoothachethroughhertoestheinstantshethrustthemintohershoes。

Theelderlygroom,believinghehadarichbride,wasallsolicitudeandinfuriatingattention。Shewaiteduntilhehadwroughthertotheproperpitchoffury。Thenshesaid——inreplytosomeremarkofhis:

``Yes,Ishallrelyuponyouentirely。Iwantyoutotakeabsolutechargeofmyaffairs。’’

Thetearssprangtohiseyes。Hisweakoldmouth,rapidlyfallingtopieces,twistedandtwitchedwithemotion。``I’lltrytodeserveyourconfidence,darling,’’saidhe。``I’vehadlargebusinessexperience——

inthewayofinvestingcarefully,Imean。Idon’tthinkyouraffairswillsufferinmyhands。’’

``Oh,I’msurethey’llnottroubleyou,’’saidsheinasweet,suretoneasthepainsshotthroughherfeetandherhead。``You’llhardlynoticemylittlemiteinyourproperty。’’Shepretendedtoreflect。``Letmesee——there’sseventhousandleft,butofcoursehalfofthatisMillie’s。’’

``Itmustbeverywellinvested,’’saidhe。``Thoseseventhousandsharesmustbeoftheverybest。’’

``Shares?’’saidshe,withagentlelittlelaugh。``I

meandollars。’’

Presburywasabouttoliftacupofcafeaulaittohislips。Instead,heturneditoverintotheplatterofeggsandbacon。

``We——MildredandI,’’pursuedhisbride,``wereleftwithonlyforty-oddthousandbetweenus。Ofcourse,wehadtolive。So,naturally,there’sverylittleleft。’’

Presburywasshakingsoviolentlythathisheadandarmswaggledlikeajumping-jack’s。Hewrappedhiselegantwhitefingersaboutthearmsofhischairtosteadyhimself。Inasuffocatedvoicehesaid:``Doyoumeantosaythatyouhaveonlyseventhousanddollarsintheworld?’’

``Onlyhalfthat,’’correctedshe。``Oh,dear,howmyheadaches!Lessthanhalfthat,fortherearesomedebts。’’

Shewasimpatientfortheexplosion。theagonyofherfeetandheadneededoutletandrelief。Buthedisappointedher。Thatwasoneofthesituationsinwhichoneappealsinvaintotheresourcesoflanguage。Heshrankandsankbackinhischair,hisjawdropped,andheventedastrange,imbecilecacklinglaugh。Itwasnotanexpressionofphilosophicmirth,ofsenseofthegrotesquenessofananti-climax。Itwasnotanexpressionofanyemotionwhatever。Itwassimplyasignalfromamindtemporarilydethroned。

``Whatareyoulaughingat?’’shesaidsharply。

Hisanswerwasarepetitionoftheidioticsound。

``What’sthematterwithyou?’’demandedshe。

``Pleasecloseyourmouth。’’

Itwasatimelypieceofadvice。forhisupperandfalseteethhadbecomepartiallydislodgedandthreatenedtodropupontheshirt-bosomgaylyshowingbetweenthelapelsofhisdark-bluesilkhouse-coat。Heslowlyclosedhismouth,movinghisteethbackintoplacewithhistongue——agesturethatmadeherfacetwitchwithrageanddisgust。

``Seventhousanddollars,’’hemumbleddazedly。

``Isaidlessthanhalfthat,’’retortedshesharply。

``AndI——thoughtyouwere——rich。’’

Apeculiarrollingoftheeyesandtwistingofthelipsgavehertheideathathewasabouttoventthatrepulsivesoundagain。``Don’tyoulaugh!’’shecried。

``Ican’tbearyourlaugh——evenatitsbest。’’

Suddenlyhegalvanizedintofury。``Thisisanoutrage!’’hecried,wavinghisuseless-lookingwhitefists。

``Youhaveswindledme——SWINDLEDme!’’

Herheadstoppedaching。Thepainsinherfeeteitherceasedorsheforgotthem。Inasuspiciouslycalmvoiceshesaid:``Whatdoyoumean?’’

``Imeanthatyouareaswindler!’’heshouted,bangingonefistonthetableandwavingtheother。

Sheactedasthoughhismeaningwerejustdawninguponher。``Doyoumean,’’saidshetranquilly,``thatyoumarriedmeformoney?’’

``ImeanthatIthoughtyouasubstantialwoman,andthatIfindyouareanadventuress。’’

``Didyouthink,’’inquiredshe,``thatanywomanwhohadmoneywouldmarryYOU?’’Shelaughedveryquietly。``YouAREafool!’’

Hesatbacktolookather。Thismodeofcombatinsuchcircumstancespuzzledhim。

``Iknewthatyouwererich,’’shewenton,``oryouwouldnothavedaredofferyourselftome。Allmyfriendswereamazedatmystoopingtoacceptyou。

YourfatherwasanIrishTammanycontractor,wasn’the?——asortofcriminal?ButIsimplyhadtomarry。

SoIgaveyoumyfamilyandpositionandnameinexchangeforyourwealth——agoodbargainforyou,butapooroneforme。’’

ThesereferencestoHISwealthweremostdisconcerting,especiallyastheywereaccompaniedbyremarksabouthisorigin,ofwhichhewassoashamedthathehadchangedthespellingofhisnameintheefforttoclearhimselfofit。However,someretortwasimperative。

Helookedatherandsaid:

``Swindlerandadventuress!’’

``Don’trepeatthatlie,’’saidshe。``Youaretheadventurer——despitethefactthatyouareveryrich。’’

``Don’tsaythatagain,’’criedhe。``IneversaidorpretendedIwasrich。Ihaveaboutfivethousandayear——andyou’llnotgetacentofit,madam!’’

Sheknewhisincome,butnoonewouldhavesuspecteditfromherexpressionofhorror。``What!’’shegasped。``YoudaredtomarryMEwhenyouwerea——

beggar!Me——thewidowofHenryGower!Youimpudentoldwreck!Why,youhaven’tenoughtopaymyservants。Whatarewetoliveon,pray?’’

``Idon’tknowwhatYOU’LLliveon,’’repliedhe。

``_I_shallliveasIalwayshave。’’

``Abeggar!’’sheexclaimed。``I——marriedtoabeggar。’’Sheburstintotears。``Howmentakeadvantageofawomanalone!Ifmysonhadbeennearme!Butthere’ssurelysomelawtoprotectme。Yes,I’msurethereis。Oh,I’llpunishyouforhavingdeceivedme。’’Hereyesdriedasshelookedathim。

``Howdareyousitthere?Howdareyoufaceme,youmiserablefraud!’’

Earlyinheracquaintancewithhimshehaddiscoveredthatdeterminingfactorsinhischaracterweresensitivenessabouthisoriginandsensitivenessabouthissocialposition。Onthisknowledgeofhisweaknesseswassecurelybasedherconfidencethatshecouldactasshepleasedtowardhim。Toeaseherpainssheproceededtopouroutherprivateopinionofhim——allthedisagreeablethings,alltheinsultsshehadbeenstoringup。

Shewatchedhimasonlyawomancanwatchaman。

Shesawthathisragewasnotdangerous,thatshewasforcinghimintoapositionwherefearofherrevengingherselfbydisgracinghimwouldovercomeangeratthecollapseofhisfatuousdreamsofwealth。Shedidnotdespisehimthemoredeeplyforsittingthere,fornotflyingfromtheroomortryingtokillherorsomehowcompellinghertocheckthatflowofinsult。Shealreadydespisedhimutterly。also,sheattachedsmallimportancetoself-respect,havingnoknowledgeofwhatthatqualityreallyis。

Whenshegrewtired,shebecamequiet。Theysattherealongtimeinsilence。Atlastheranupthewhiteflagofabjectsurrenderbysaying:

``What’llweliveon——that’swhatI’dliketoknow?’’

Aneavesdropperupontheprecedingviolenceofupwardofanhourwouldhaveassumedthatatitsendthispairmustseparate,nevertoseeeachotheragainvoluntarily。Butthatidea,evenasapossibility,hadnotenteredthemindofeither。Theyhadlivedalongtime。

theywerepracticalpeople。Theyknewfromtheoutsetthatsomehowtheymustarrangetogoontogether。

Thealternativemeantamerepittanceofalimonyforher。meantforhimsocialostracismandthesmallincomecutinhalf。meantforbothscandalandconfusion。

Saidshefretfully:``Oh,Isupposewe’llgetalong,somehow。Idon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings。

I’vealwaysbeenlookedafter——keptfromcontactwiththesordidsideoflife。’’

``Thathouseyoulivein,’’hewenton,``doesitbelongtoyou?’’

Shegavehimacontemptuousglance。``Ofcourse,’’

saidshe。``Whatlowpeopleyoumusthavebeenusedto!’’

``Ithoughtperhapsyouhadrenteditforyourbuncogame,’’retortedhe。``Thefurniture,thehorses,themotor——allthosethings——dotheybelongtoyou?’’

``Ishallleavetheroomifyouinsultme,’’saidshe。

``Didyouincludethemintheseventhousanddollars?’’

``Themoneyisinthebank。Ithasnothingtodowithourhouseandourproperty。’’

Hereflected,presentlysaid:``Thehorsesandcarriagesmustbesoldatonce——andallthoseservantsdismissedexceptperhapstwo。Wecanliveinthehouse。’’

Shegrewpurplewithrage。``SellMYcarriages!

DischargeMYservants!I’dliketoseeyoutry!’’

``Who’stopayforkeepingupthatestablishment?’’

demandedhe。

Shewassilent。Shesawwhathehadinmind。

``Ifyouwanttokeepthathouseandlivecomfortably,’’

hewenton,``you’vegottocutexpensestothebone。Youseethat,don’tyou?’’

``Ican’tliveanywaybutthewayI’vebeenusedtoallmylife,’’wailedshe。

Heeyedherdisgustedly。Wasthereanythingequaltoawomanforfolly?

``We’vegottomakethemostofwhatlittlewehave,’’saidhe。

``ItellyouIdon’tknowanythingaboutthosethings,’’repeatedshe。``You’llhavetolookafterthem。

MildredandIaren’tlikethewomenyou’vebeenusedto。

Weareladies。’’

Presbury’srageboiledoveragainatthementionofMildred。``Thatdaughterofyours!’’hecried。

``What’stobedoneabouther?I’vegotnomoneytowasteonher。’’

``YoumiserableTammanyTHING!’’exclaimedshe。

``Don’tyoudareSPEAKofmydaughterexceptinthemostrespectfulway。’’

Andoncemoresheopenedoutuponhim,wreakinguponhimallherwrathagainstfate,allthepent-upfuryoftwoyears——furywhichhadbeendeniedsuchfury’susualandnaturalexpressionindenunciationsofthedeadbread-winner。Thegenerousandever-kindHenryGowercouldnotbetoblameforherwretchedplight。and,ofcourse,sheherselfcouldnotbetoblameforit。So,untilnowtherehadbeennoscapegoat。

Presburythereforereceivedthewholeburden。He,alarmedlestacreatureapparentlysoirrational,shouldinwildragedrivehimaway,ruinhimsocially,perhapsinduceasympatheticcourttoawardheralargepartofhisincomeasalimony,saidnotawordinreply。Hebadehiswrathwait。Lateron,whentheperilwasover,whenhehadafirmgripuponthesituation——thenhewouldtakehisrevenge。

TheygaveuptheexpensivesuiteattheWaldorfthatverydayandreturnedtoHangingRock。Theyalternatedbetweensilenceandthecoarsest,crudestquarrelings,forneitherhadtheintelligencetoquarrelwittilyortherefinementtoquarrelartistically。AssoonastheyarrivedattheGowerhouse,Mildredwasdraggedintothewrangle。

``Imarriedthisterriblemanforyoursake,’’wastheburdenofhermother’swail。``Andheisabeggar——

wantstoselloffeverythinganddismisstheservants。’’

``Youareapairofpaupers,’’criedtheoldman。

``Youareshamelesstricksters。Becarefulhowyougoadme!’’

Mildredhadanticipatedanunhappyendingtohermother’smarriage,butshehadnotknowledgeenoughoflifeorofhumannaturetoanticipateanysuchhorrorsasnowbegan。Everyday,alldaylongthevulgarfightraged。Hermotherandherstepfatherwithdrewfromeachother’spresenceonlytothinkupfreshinsultstoflingateachother。Assoonastheywerearmedtheyhastenedtogivebattleagain。SheavoidedPresbury。Hermothershecouldnotavoid。andwhenhermotherwasnotincombatwithhim,shewasweepingorwailingorrailingtoMildred。

ItwasatMildred’surgingthathermotheracquiescedinPresbury’splansforreducingexpenseswithinincome。Atfirstthegirl,evenmoreignorantthanhermotherofpracticalaffairs,didnotappreciatethewisdom,nottosaythenecessity,ofwhathewishedtodo,butsoonshesawthathewasright,thattheservantsmustgo,thatthehorsesandcarriagesandthemotorsmustbesold。Whenshewasconvincedandhadconvincedhermother,shestilldidnotrealizewhatthethingreallymeant。Notuntilshenolongerhadamaiddidshecomprehend。Toawomanwhohasneverhadamaid,orwhohastakenonamaidasaluxury,itwillseemanexaggerationtosaythatMildredfeltashelplessasababylyingaloneinacribbeforeithaslearnedtocrawl。Yetthatisratheranunderstatementofherplight。Themaidleftintheafternoon。

Mildred,notwithoutinconveniencesthathadinthenoveltytheiramusingside,contrivedtodressthateveningfordinnerandtogettobed。butwhensheawakenedinthemorningandwasreadytodress,thelossofTheresebecameatragedy。Ittookthegirlnearlyfourhourstogetherselftogetherpresentably——andthen,neverhadshelookedsounkempt。Withherhair,thickandsoft,shecoulddonothing。

``WhatawonderfulpersonTheresewas!’’thoughtshe。``AndIalwaysregardedherasratherstupid。’’

Hermother,whohadnothadamaiduntilshewasaboutthirtyandhadneverbecomecompletelydependent,faredsomewhatbetter,though,hearinghermoans,youwouldhavethoughtshewasfaringworse。

Mildred’sunhappinessincreasedfromdaytoday,asherwardrobefellintoconfusionanddisrepair。Shefeltthatshemustrisetothesituation,mustteachherself,mustsaveherselffromimpendingdowdinessandslovenliness。Butherbrainseemedtobeparalyzed。

Shedidnotknowhoworwheretobegintolearn。Sheofteninsecretgavewaytothefutilityoftears。

Therewerenowonlyacookandonehousemaidandamanofallwork——allthreenewcomers,forPresburyinsisted——mostwisely——thatnoneoftheservantsoftheluxurious,wastefuldayswouldbeusefulinthenewcircumstances。Hewasoneofthosesmall,orderlymenwhohaveageniusforjustsuchsituationsastheonehenowproceededtograpplewithandsolve。Inhispleasureatmanagingeverythingaboutthathouse,indistributingtheworkamongthethreeservants,inmarketing,and,ininspectingpurchasesandnosingintothegarbage-barrel,inlookingfordustonpicture-

framesandtable-topsandforneglectedweedsinthegardenwalks——inthismultitudeofengrossingdelightsheforgothisangeroverthetrickthathadbeenplayeduponhim。Hestillfoughtwithhiswifeanddenouncedherandmetinsultwithinsult。Butthat,too,wasoneofhispleasures。Also,hefeltthatonthewholehehaddonewellinmarrying。Hehadbeenlonelyasabachelor,hadhadnoonetotalkwith,ortoquarrelwith,nothingtodo。Themarriagewasnotsoexpensive,ashiswifehadbroughthimahouse——anditsuchaoneashehadalwaysregardedastheapogeeofelegance。LivingwasnotdearinHangingRock,ifoneunderstoodmanagingandgavetimetoit。Andsociallyhewasatlastestablished。

Soonhiswifewasaboutascontentedasshehadeverbeeninherlife。Shehatedanddespisedherhusband,butquarrelingwithhimandrailingagainsthimgaveheroccupationandaim——twovaluableassetstowardhappinessthatshehadtheretoforelacked。Herliving——shelter,food,clothingenough——wasnowsecure。

Butthemostimportantfactorofallinhercontentwastheoneapparentlytootrivialtobeworthyofrecord。

Fromgirlhoodshecouldnotrecallasingledayinwhichshehadnotsufferedfromherfeet。Andshehadbeenashamedtosayanythingaboutit——hadneverletanyone,evenhermaid,seeherfeet,whichwereabouttheonlyunsightlypartofher。Nonehadguessedthecauseofherchronicill-temperuntilPresbury,thatgeniusforthelittle,saidwithinaweekoftheirmarriage:

``Youtalkandactlikeawomanwithchroniccorns。’’

Hedidnotdreamoftheeffectthischancethrusthaduponhiswife。Forthefirsttimehehadreally``landed。’’Sheconcealedherfrightandhershameasbestshecouldandwentonquarrelingmoreviciouslythanever。Buthepresentlyreturnedtotheattack。

Saidhe:

``Yourfeethurtyou。I’msuretheydo。NowthatIthinkofit,youwalkthatway。’’

``IsupposeIdeservemyfate,’’saidshe。``Whenawomanmarriesbeneathhershemustexpectinsultandlowconversation。’’

``Youmustcureyourfeet,’’saidhe。``I’llnotliveinthehousewithapersonwhoismadefiendishbycorns。

Ithinkit’sonlycorns。Iseenosignsofbunions。’’

``Youbrute!’’criedhiswife,rushingfromtheroom。

Butwhentheymetagain,heatonceresumedthesubject,tellingherjusthowshecouldcureherself——andhekeptontellingher,sheapparentlyignoringbutsecretlyactingonhisadvice。Heknewwhathewasabout,andherfeetgrewbetter,grewwell——andshewashappierthanshehadbeensincegirlhoodwhenshebeganruiningherfeetwithtightshoes。

Sixmonthsafterthemarriage,Presburyandhiswifeweregettingonaboutascomfortablyasitisgiventoaveragehumanitytogetoninthisworldofincessantstrugglebetweenuncomfortablemanandhisuncomfortableenvironment。ButMildredhadbecomemoreandmoreunhappy。Hermother,sometimesangrily,againreproachfully——andthatwasfarhardertobear——blamedherfor``mymiserablemarriagetothislow,quarrelsomebrute。’’Presburyletnodaypasswithouttellingheropenlythatshewasabeggarlivingoffhim,thatshewouldbettermarrysoonorhewouldtakedrasticstepstoreleasehimselfoftheburden。Whenheattackedherbeforehermother,therewasaviolentquarrelfromwhichMildredfledtohideinherroomorintheremotestpartofthegarden。Whenhehuntedherouttoinsultheralone,shesatorstoodwitheyesdownandfaceghastlypale,mute,quivering。Shedidnotinter-

rupt,didnottrytoescape。Shewaslikethechainedandspiritlessdogthatcrouchesandtakestheshowerofblowsfromitscruelmaster。

Wherecouldshego?Nowhere。Whatcouldshedo?Nothing。Inthedaysofprosperityshehadregardedherselfasproudandhighspirited。Shenowwonderedatherself!Whathadbecomeofthepride?

Whatofthespirit?Sheavoidedlookingatherimageintheglass——thatthin,pallidface,thosecircledeyes,thedrawn,sickexpressionaboutthemouthandnose。

``I’mstunned,’’shesaidtoherself。``I’vebeenstunnedeversincefather’sdeath。I’veneverrecovered——norhasmother。’’Andshegavewaytotears——forherfather,shefancied。infact,fromshameatherweaknessandhelplessness。Shethought——hoped——thatshewouldnotbethusfeebleandcowardly,ifshewerenotlivingathome,inthehousesheloved,thehousewhereshehadspentherwholelife。Andsuchahouse!Comfortandluxuryandtaste。everyroom,everycornerofthegrounds,fullofthetenderestandmostbeautifulassociations。Also,therewasherpositioninHangingRock。Everywhereelseshewouldbeastrangerandwouldhaveeithernopositionatalloroneworsethanthatoftheutteroutsider。There,shewasofthefewlookeduptobythewholecommunity。Nooneknew,orevensuspected,howshewasdegradedbyherstep-

father。Beforetheworldhewascourteousandconsideratetowardherastowardeverybody。Indeed,Presbury’snaturalinstinctsweregentleandkindly。HishatredofMildredandhispassionforhumiliatingherweretheresultofhisconvictionthathehadbeentrickedintothemarriageandhisinabilitytogratifyhisresentmentuponhiswife。Hecouldnotmakethemothersuffer。buthecouldmakethedaughtersuffer——andhedid。Besides,shewasofnousetohimandwouldpresentlybeanexpense。

``Yourmoneywillsoonbegone,’’hesaidtoher。

``Ifyoupaidyourjustshareoftheexpensesitwouldbegonenow。Whenitisgone,whatwillyoudo?’’

Shewassilent。

``Yourmotherhaswrittentoyourbrotheraboutyou。’’

Mildredliftedherhead,agleamofherformerspiritinhereyes。Thensheremembered,andbenthergazeupontheground。

``Buthe,likethecurthatheis,answeredthroughasecretarythathewishedtohavenothingtodowitheitherofyou。’’

MildredguessedthatFrankhadmadethemarriageanexcuse。

``Surelysomeofyourrelativeswilldosomethingforyou。Ihavemyhandsfull,supportingyourmother。

Idon’tproposetohavetwostrapping,worthlesswomenhangingfrommyneck。’’

Shebentherheadlower,andremainedsilent。

``Iwarnyoutobestiryourself,’’hewenton。``I

giveyoufourmonths。Afterthefirstoftheyearyoucan’tstayhereunlessyoupayyourshare——yourthird。’’

Noanswer。

``YouhearwhatIsay,miss?’’hedemanded。

``Yes,’’repliedshe。

``Ifyouhadanysenseyouwouldn’twaituntilyourlastcentwasgone。You’dgotoNewYorknowandgetsomethingtodo。’’

``What?’’sheasked——allshecouldtrustherselftospeak。

``Howshould_I_know?’’retortedhefuriously。

``youareastrangertome。You’vebeeneducated,I

assume。Surelythere’ssomethingyoucando。You’vebeenoutsixyearsnow,andhavehadnosuccess,foryou’reneithermarriednorengaged。Youcan’tcallitsuccesstobeflatteredandsoughtbypeoplewhowantedinvitationstothishousewhenitwasasocialcenter。’’

Hepausedforresponsefromher。Nonecame。

``Youadmityouareafailure?’’hesaidsharply。

``Yes,’’saidshe。

``Youmusthaverealizeditseveralyearsago,’’hewenton。``Insteadofallowingyourmothertokeeponwastingmoneyinentertaininglavishlyheretogiveyouachancetomarry,youshouldhavebeenpreparingyourselftoearnaliving。’’Apause。``Isn’tthattrue,miss?’’

Hehadawayofpronouncingtheword``miss’’thatmadeitanepithet,asneeratherunmarriedandun-

marriageablestate。Shecolored,paled,murmured:

``Yes。’’

``Then,betterlatethannever。You’lldowelltofollowmyadviceandgotoNewYorkandlookaboutyou。’’

``I’ll——I’llthinkofit,’’stammeredshe。

Andshedidthinkofit。Butinallherlifeshehadneverconsideredtheideaofmoney-making。Thatwassomethingformen,andforthemiddleandlowerclasses——whileHangingRockwasregardedasmostnoisomelymiddleclassbyfashionablepeople,itdidnotsoregarditself。Money-makingwasnotforladies。Likeallherclass,shewasaconstantandaseverecriticofthewomenofthelowerorderswhoworkedforherasmilliners,dressmakers,shop-attendants,cooks,maids。But,asshenowrealized,itisonethingtopassupontheworkofothers。itisanotherthingtodoworkoneself。

She——Therewasliterallynothingthatshecoulddo。

Anyoccupation,eventhemostmenial,waseitherbeyondherskillorbeyondherstrength,orbeyondboth。

Suddenlysherecalledthatshecouldsing。Herprostratespiritsuddenlyleapederect。Yes,shecouldsing!

Hervoicehadbeenpraisedbyexperts。Hersinginghadbeenindemandatcharityentertainmentswhereamateurshadtocompetewithprofessionals。Thendownshedroppedagain。Shesangwellenoughtoknowhowbadlyshesang——thelongandtoilsomeandexpensivetrainingthatlaybetweenherandoperaticorconcertorevenmusic-hallstage。Hervoicewasfineattimes。Again——mostofthetime——itwasunreliable。

No,shecouldnothopetogetpayingemploymentevenasachurchchoir-singer。MissDresserwhosanginthechoiroftheGoodShepherdfortendollarsaSunday,hadnotnearlysogoodavoiceasshe,butitwasreliable。

``ThereisnothingIcando——nothing!’’

Allatonce,withnoapparentbridgeacrossthevastchasm,herheartwentout,notinpitybutinhumanunderstandingandsisterlysympathy,tothewomenofthepariahclassatwhom,duringherstopsinNewYork,shehadsometimesgazedinwonderandhorror。``Why,weandtheyareonlyastepapart,’’shesaidtoherselfinamazement。``Weandtheyaremuchnearerthanmymaidorthecookandthey!’’

Andthenherheartskippedabeatandherskingrewcoldandafogswirledoverherbrain。Ifsheshouldbecastout——ifshecouldfindnoworkandnoonetosupporther——wouldshe——``OmyGod!’’shemoaned。

``Imustbecrazy,tothinksuchthoughts。Inevercould!I’ddiefirst——DIE!’’Butifanyonehadpicturedtoherthekindoflifeshewasnowleading——thehumiliationanddegradationshewasmeeklyenduringwithnothoughtofflight,withaneverstrongerdesiretostayon,regardlessofprideandself-respect——ifanyonehadpicturedthistoheraswhatshewouldendure,whatwouldshehavesaid?Shecouldseeherselfflashingscornfuldenial,sayingthatshewouldratherkillherself。Yetshewasliving——andwasnotevencontemplatingsuicideasawayout!

AfewdaysafterPresburygaveherwarning,hermothertookadvantageofhisabsenceforhisreligiouslyobserveddailyconstitutionaltosaytoher:

``Ihopeyoudidn’tthinkIwasbehindhiminwhathesaidtoyouaboutgoingaway?’’

Mildredhadnotthoughtso,butinhermother’sguiltytoneandguiltiereyesshenowreadthathermotherwishedhertogo。

``It’dbeawfulformetobeleftherealonewithhim,’’

wailedhermotherinsincerely。``Ofcoursewe’vegotnomoney,andbeggarscan’tbechoosers。Butit’djustaboutkillmetohaveyougo。’’

Mildredcouldnotspeak。

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