Winesburg, Ohio

第8章

Yougetoutofhere!"

Thetravelingmanleft。Rakingthesamplesofcol-

larfastenersoffthecounterintoablackleatherbag,heran。Hewasasmallmanandverybow-leggedandheranawkwardly。Theblackbagcaughtagainstthedoorandhestumbledandfell。"Crazy,that\'swhatheis——crazy!"hesputteredashearosefromthesidewalkandhurriedaway。

InthestoreElmerCowleyandhisfatherstaredateachother。Nowthattheimmediateobjectofhiswrathhadfled,theyoungermanwasembarrassed。

"Well,Imeantit。Ithinkwe\'vebeenqueerlongenough,"hedeclared,goingtotheshowcaseandreplacingtherevolver。Sittingonabarrelhepulledonandfastenedtheshoehehadbeenholdinginhishand。Hewaswaitingforsomewordofunder-

standingfromhisfatherbutwhenEbenezerspokehiswordsonlyservedtoreawakenthewrathinthesonandtheyoungmanranoutofthestorewithoutreplying。Scratchinghisgreybeardwithhislongdirtyfingers,themerchantlookedathissonwiththesamewaveringuncertainstarewithwhichhehadconfrontedthetravelingman。"I\'llbestarched,"

hesaidsoftly。"Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched!"

ElmerCowleywentoutofWinesburgandalongacountryroadthatparalleledtherailroadtrack。Hedidnotknowwherehewasgoingorwhathewasgoingtodo。Intheshelterofadeepcutwheretheroad,afterturningsharplytotheright,dippedunderthetrackshestoppedandthepassionthathadbeenthecauseofhisoutburstinthestorebegantoagainfindexpression。"Iwillnotbequeer——onetobelookedatandlistenedto,"hedeclaredaloud。

"I\'llbelikeotherpeople。I\'llshowthatGeorgeWil-

lard。He\'llfindout。I\'llshowhim!"

Thedistraughtyoungmanstoodinthemiddleoftheroadandglaredbackatthetown。HedidnotknowthereporterGeorgeWillardandhadnospe-

cialfeelingconcerningthetallboywhoranabouttowngatheringthetownnews。Thereporterhadmerelycome,byhispresenceintheofficeandintheprintshopoftheWinesburgEagle,tostandforsomethingintheyoungmerchant\'smind。HethoughttheboywhopassedandrepassedCowley&Son\'sstoreandwhostoppedtotalktopeopleinthestreetmustbethinkingofhimandperhapslaughingathim。GeorgeWillard,hefelt,belongedtothetown,typifiedthetown,representedinhispersonthespiritofthetown。ElmerCowleycouldnothavebelievedthatGeorgeWillardhadalsohisdaysofunhappiness,thatvaguehungersandsecretunnam-

abledesiresvisitedalsohismind。Didhenotrepre-

sentpublicopinionandhadnotthepublicopinionofWinesburgcondemnedtheCowleystoqueerness?

DidhenotwalkwhistlingandlaughingthroughMainStreet?Mightnotonebystrikinghispersonstrikealsothegreaterenemy——thethingthatsmiledandwentitsownway——thejudgmentofWinesburg?

ElmerCowleywasextraordinarilytallandhisarmswerelongandpowerful。Hishair,hiseye-

brows,andthedownybeardthathadbeguntogrowuponhischin,werepalealmosttowhiteness。

Histeethprotrudedfrombetweenhislipsandhiseyeswerebluewiththecolorlessbluenessofthemarblescalled"aggies"thattheboysofWinesburgcarriedintheirpockets。ElmerhadlivedinWines-

burgforayearandhadmadenofriends。Hewas,hefelt,onecondemnedtogothroughlifewithoutfriendsandhehatedthethought。

Sullenlythetallyoungmantrampedalongtheroadwithhishandsstuffedintohistrouserpockets。

Thedaywascoldwitharawwind,butpresentlythesunbegantoshineandtheroadbecamesoftandmuddy。ThetopsoftheridgesoffrozenmudthatformedtheroadbegantomeltandthemudclungtoElmer\'sshoes。Hisfeetbecamecold。Whenhehadgoneseveralmilesheturnedofftheroad,crossedafieldandenteredawood。Inthewoodhegatheredstickstobuildafire,bywhichhesattryingtowarmhimself,miserableinbodyandinmind。

Fortwohourshesatonthelogbythefireandthen,arisingandcreepingcautiouslythroughamassofunderbrush,hewenttoafenceandlookedacrossfieldstoasmallfarmhousesurroundedbylowsheds。Asmilecametohislipsandhebeganmakingmotionswithhislongarmstoamanwhowashuskingcorninoneofthefields。

Inhishourofmiserytheyoungmerchanthadreturnedtothefarmwherehehadlivedthroughboyhoodandwheretherewasanotherhumanbeingtowhomhefelthecouldexplainhimself。Themanonthefarmwasahalf-wittedoldfellownamedMook。HehadoncebeenemployedbyEbenezerCowleyandhadstayedonthefarmwhenitwassold。Theoldmanlivedinoneoftheunpaintedshedsbackofthefarmhouseandputteredaboutalldayinthefields。

Mookthehalf-witlivedhappily。Withchildlikefaithhebelievedintheintelligenceoftheanimalsthatlivedintheshedswithhim,andwhenhewaslonelyheldlongconversationswiththecows,thepigs,andevenwiththechickensthatranaboutthebarnyard。Heitwaswhohadputtheexpressionregardingbeing"laundered"intothemouthofhisformeremployer。Whenexcitedorsurprisedbyany-

thinghesmiledvaguelyandmuttered:"I\'llbewashedandironed。Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched。"

Whenthehalf-wittedoldmanlefthishuskingofcornandcameintothewoodtomeetElmerCowley,hewasneithersurprisednorespeciallyinterestedinthesuddenappearanceoftheyoungman。Hisfeetalsowerecoldandhesatonthelogbythefire,gratefulforthewarmthandapparentlyindifferenttowhatElmerhadtosay。

Elmertalkedearnestlyandwithgreatfreedom,walkingupanddownandwavinghisarmsabout。

"Youdon\'tunderstandwhat\'sthematterwithmesoofcourseyoudon\'tcare,"hedeclared。"Withmeit\'sdifferent。Lookhowithasalwaysbeenwithme。

Fatherisqueerandmotherwasqueer,too。Eventheclothesmotherusedtowearwerenotlikeotherpeople\'sclothes,andlookatthatcoatinwhichfa-

thergoesaboutthereintown,thinkinghe\'sdressedup,too。Whydon\'thegetanewone?Itwouldn\'tcostmuch。I\'lltellyouwhy。Fatherdoesn\'tknowandwhenmotherwasaliveshedidn\'tknoweither。

Mabelisdifferent。Sheknowsbutshewon\'tsayanything。Iwill,though。I\'mnotgoingtobestaredatanylonger。Whylookhere,Mook,fatherdoesn\'tknowthathisstorethereintownisjustaqueerjumble,thathe\'llneversellthestuffhebuys。Heknowsnothingaboutit。Sometimeshe\'salittlewor-

riedthattradedoesn\'tcomeandthenhegoesandbuyssomethingelse。Intheeveningshesitsbythefireupstairsandsaystradewillcomeafterawhile。

Heisn\'tworried。He\'squeer。Hedoesn\'tknowenoughtobeworried。"

Theexcitedyoungmanbecamemoreexcited。"Hedon\'tknowbutIknow,"heshouted,stoppingtogazedownintothedumb,unresponsivefaceofthehalf-wit。"Iknowtoowell。Ican\'tstandit。Whenwelivedouthereitwasdifferent。IworkedandatnightIwenttobedandslept。Iwasn\'talwaysseeingpeopleandthinkingasIamnow。Intheevening,thereintown,Igotothepostofficeortothedepottoseethetraincomein,andnoonesaysanythingtome。Everyonestandsaroundandlaughsandtheytalkbuttheysaynothingtome。ThenIfeelsoqueerthatIcan\'ttalkeither。Igoaway。Idon\'tsayany-

thing。Ican\'t。"

Thefuryoftheyoungmanbecameuncontrollable。

"Iwon\'tstandit,"heyelled,lookingupatthebarebranchesofthetrees。"I\'mnotmadetostandit。"

Maddenedbythedullfaceofthemanonthelogbythefire,ElmerturnedandglaredathimashehadglaredbackalongtheroadatthetownofWinesburg。"Goonbacktowork,"hescreamed。

"Whatgooddoesitdometotalktoyou?"A

thoughtcametohimandhisvoicedropped。"I\'macowardtoo,eh?"hemuttered。"DoyouknowwhyIcameclearouthereafoot?IhadtotellsomeoneandyouweretheonlyoneIcouldtell。Ihuntedoutanotherqueerone,yousee。Iranaway,that\'swhatI

did。Icouldn\'tstanduptosomeonelikethatGeorgeWillard。Ihadtocometoyou。IoughttotellhimandIwill。"

Againhisvoicearosetoashoutandhisarmsflewabout。"Iwilltellhim。Iwon\'tbequeer。Idon\'tcarewhattheythink。Iwon\'tstandit。"

ElmerCowleyranoutofthewoodsleavingthehalf-witsittingonthelogbeforethefire。Presentlytheoldmanaroseandclimbingoverthefencewentbacktohisworkinthecorn。"I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched,"hedeclared。"Well,well,I\'llbewashedandironed。"Mookwasinterested。Hewentalongalanetoafieldwheretwocowsstoodnibblingatastrawstack。"Elmerwashere,"hesaidtothecows。"Elmeriscrazy。Youbettergetbehindthestackwherehedon\'tseeyou。He\'llhurtsome-

oneyet,Elmerwill。"

Ateighto\'clockthateveningElmerCowleyputhisheadinatthefrontdooroftheofficeoftheWinesburgEaglewhereGeorgeWillardsatwriting。

Hiscapwaspulleddownoverhiseyesandasullendeterminedlookwasonhisface。"Youcomeonout-

sidewithme,"hesaid,steppinginandclosingthedoor。Hekepthishandontheknobasthoughpre-

paredtoresistanyoneelsecomingin。"Youjustcomealongoutside。Iwanttoseeyou。"

GeorgeWillardandElmerCowleywalkedthroughthemainstreetofWinesburg。ThenightwascoldandGeorgeWillardhadonanewovercoatandlookedveryspruceanddressedup。Hethrusthishandsintotheovercoatpocketsandlookedinquir-

inglyathiscompanion。Hehadlongbeenwantingtomakefriendswiththeyoungmerchantandfindoutwhatwasinhismind。Nowhethoughthesawachanceandwasdelighted。"Iwonderwhathe\'supto?Perhapshethinkshehasapieceofnewsforthepaper。Itcan\'tbeafirebecauseIhaven\'theardthefirebellandthereisn\'tanyonerunning,"hethought。

InthemainstreetofWinesburg,onthecoldNo-

vemberevening,butfewcitizensappearedandthesehurriedalongbentongettingtothestoveatthebackofsomestore。ThewindowsofthestoreswerefrostedandthewindrattledthetinsignthathungovertheentrancetothestairwayleadingtoDoctorWelling\'soffice。BeforeHern\'sGroceryabas-

ketofapplesandarackfilledwithnewbroomsstoodonthesidewalk。ElmerCowleystoppedandstoodfacingGeorgeWillard。Hetriedtotalkandhisarmsbegantopumpupanddown。Hisfaceworkedspasmodically。Heseemedabouttoshout。"Oh,yougoonback,"hecried。"Don\'tstayoutherewithme。Iain\'tgotanythingtotellyou。Idon\'twanttoseeyouatall。"

ForthreehoursthedistractedyoungmerchantwanderedthroughtheresidentstreetsofWinesburgblindwithanger,broughtonbyhisfailuretodeclarehisdeterminationnottobequeer。Bitterlythesenseofdefeatsettleduponhimandhewantedtoweep。

Afterthehoursoffutilesputteringatnothingnessthathadoccupiedtheafternoonandhisfailureinthepresenceoftheyoungreporter,hethoughthecouldseenohopeofafutureforhimself。

Andthenanewideadawnedforhim。Inthedark-

nessthatsurroundedhimhebegantoseealight。

Goingtothenowdarkenedstore,whereCowley&

Sonhadforoverayearwaitedvainlyfortradetocome,hecreptstealthilyinandfeltaboutinabarrelthatstoodbythestoveattherear。InthebarrelbeneathshavingslayatinboxcontainingCowley&

Son\'scash。EveryeveningEbenezerCowleyputtheboxinthebarrelwhenheclosedthestoreandwentupstairstobed。"Theywouldn\'tneverthinkofacarelessplacelikethat,"hetoldhimself,thinkingofrobbers。

Elmertooktwentydollars,twoten-dollarbills,fromthelittlerollcontainingperhapsfourhundreddollars,thecashleftfromthesaleofthefarm。Thenreplacingtheboxbeneaththeshavingshewentqui-

etlyoutatthefrontdoorandwalkedagaininthestreets。

Theideathathethoughtmightputanendtoallofhisunhappinesswasverysimple。"Iwillgetoutofhere,runawayfromhome,"hetoldhimself。HeknewthatalocalfreighttrainpassedthroughWinesburgatmidnightandwentontoCleveland,whereitarrivedatdawn。HewouldstealarideonthelocalandwhenhegottoClevelandwouldlosehimselfinthecrowdsthere。Hewouldgetworkinsomeshopandbecomefriendswiththeotherworkmenandwouldbeindistinguishable。Thenhecouldtalkandlaugh。Hewouldnolongerbequeerandwouldmakefriends。Lifewouldbegintohavewarmthandmeaningforhimasithadforothers。

Thetallawkwardyoungman,stridingthroughthestreets,laughedathimselfbecausehehadbeenangryandhadbeenhalfafraidofGeorgeWillard。

Hedecidedhewouldhavehistalkwiththeyoungreporterbeforehelefttown,thathewouldtellhimaboutthings,perhapschallengehim,challengeallofWinesburgthroughhim。

AglowwithnewconfidenceElmerwenttotheofficeoftheNewWillardHouseandpoundedonthedoor。Asleep-eyedboysleptonacotintheoffice。Hereceivednosalarybutwasfedatthehoteltableandborewithpridethetitleof"nightclerk。"

BeforetheboyElmerwasbold,insistent。"You\'wakehimup,"hecommanded。"Youtellhimtocomedownbythedepot。IgottoseehimandI\'mgoingawayonthelocal。Tellhimtodressandcomeondown。Iain\'tgotmuchtime。"

ThemidnightlocalhadfinisheditsworkinWines-

burgandthetrainsmenwerecouplingcars,swing-

inglanternsandpreparingtoresumetheirflighteast。GeorgeWillard,rubbinghiseyesandagainwearingthenewovercoat,randowntothestationplatformafirewithcuriosity。"Well,hereIam。Whatdoyouwant?You\'vegotsomethingtotellme,eh?"

hesaid。

Elmertriedtoexplain。Hewethislipswithhistongueandlookedatthetrainthathadbeguntogroanandgetunderway。"Well,yousee,"hebegan,andthenlostcontrolofhistongue。"I\'llbewashedandironed。I\'llbewashedandironedandstarched,"hemutteredhalfincoherently。

ElmerCowleydancedwithfurybesidethegroan-

ingtraininthedarknessonthestationplatform。

Lightsleapedintotheairandbobbedupanddownbeforehiseyes。Takingthetwoten-dollarbillsfromhispockethethrustthemintoGeorgeWillard\'shand。"Takethem,"hecried。"Idon\'twantthem。

Givethemtofather。Istolethem。"Withasnarlofrageheturnedandhislongarmsbegantoflaytheair。Likeonestrugglingforreleasefromhandsthatheldhimhestruckout,hittingGeorgeWillardblowafterblowonthebreast,theneck,themouth。Theyoungreporterrolledoverontheplatformhalfun-

conscious,stunnedbytheterrificforceoftheblows。

Springingaboardthepassingtrainandrunningoverthetopsofcars,Elmersprangdowntoaflatcarandlyingonhisfacelookedback,tryingtoseethefallenmaninthedarkness。Pridesurgedupinhim。"I

showedhim,"hecried。"IguessIshowedhim。I

ain\'tsoqueer。IguessIshowedhimIain\'tsoqueer。"

THEUNTOLDLIE

RAYPEARSONandHalWinterswerefarmhandsem-

ployedonafarmthreemilesnorthofWinesburg。

OnSaturdayafternoonstheycameintotownandwanderedaboutthroughthestreetswithotherfel-

lowsfromthecountry。

Raywasaquiet,rathernervousmanofperhapsfiftywithabrownbeardandshouldersroundedbytoomuchandtoohardlabor。InhisnaturehewasasunlikeHalWintersastwomencanbeunlike。

Raywasanaltogetherseriousmanandhadalittlesharp-featuredwifewhohadalsoasharpvoice。Thetwo,withhalfadozenthin-leggedchildren,livedinatumble-downframehousebesideacreekatthebackendoftheWillsfarmwhereRaywasemployed。

HalWinters,hisfellowemployee,wasayoungfellow。HewasnotoftheNedWintersfamily,whowereveryrespectablepeopleinWinesburg,butwasoneofthethreesonsoftheoldmancalledWind-

peterWinterswhohadasawmillnearUnionville,sixmilesaway,andwhowaslookeduponbyevery-

oneinWinesburgasaconfirmedoldreprobate。

PeoplefromthepartofNorthernOhioinwhichWinesburglieswillrememberoldWindpeterbyhisunusualandtragicdeath。HegotdrunkoneeveningintownandstartedtodrivehometoUnionvillealongtherailroadtracks。HenryBrattenburg,thebutcher,wholivedoutthatway,stoppedhimattheedgeofthetownandtoldhimhewassuretomeetthedowntrainbutWindpeterslashedathimwithhiswhipanddroveon。Whenthetrainstruckandkilledhimandhistwohorsesafarmerandhiswifewhoweredrivinghomealonganearbyroadsawtheaccident。TheysaidthatoldWindpeterstoodupontheseatofhiswagon,ravingandswearingattheonrushinglocomotive,andthathefairlyscreamedwithdelightwhentheteam,maddenedbyhisinces-

santslashingatthem,rushedstraightaheadtocer-

taindeath。BoyslikeyoungGeorgeWillardandSethRichmondwillremembertheincidentquitevividlybecause,althougheveryoneinourtownsaidthattheoldmanwouldgostraighttohellandthatthecommunitywasbetteroffwithouthim,theyhadasecretconvictionthatheknewwhathewasdoingandadmiredhisfoolishcourage。Mostboyshaveseasonsofwishingtheycoulddiegloriouslyinsteadofjustbeinggroceryclerksandgoingonwiththeirhumdrumlives。

ButthisisnotthestoryofWindpeterWintersnoryetofhissonHalwhoworkedontheWillsfarmwithRayPearson。ItisRay\'sstory。Itwill,however,benecessarytotalkalittleofyoungHalsothatyouwillgetintothespiritofit。

Halwasabadone。Everyonesaidthat。TherewerethreeoftheWintersboysinthatfamily,John,Hal,andEdward,allbroad-shoulderedbigfellowslikeoldWindpeterhimselfandallfightersandwoman-chasersandgenerallyall-aroundbadones。

Halwastheworstofthelotandalwaysuptosomedevilment。Heoncestolealoadofboardsfromhisfather\'smillandsoldtheminWinesburg。Withthemoneyheboughthimselfasuitofcheap,flashyclothes。Thenhegotdrunkandwhenhisfathercameravingintotowntofindhim,theymetandfoughtwiththeirfistsonMainStreetandwerear-

restedandputintojailtogether。

HalwenttoworkontheWillsfarmbecausetherewasacountryschoolteacheroutthatwaywhohadtakenhisfancy。Hewasonlytwenty-twothenbuthadalreadybeenintwoorthreeofwhatwerespo-

kenofinWinesburgas"womenscrapes。"Everyonewhoheardofhisinfatuationfortheschoolteacherwassureitwouldturnoutbadly。"He\'llonlygetherintotrouble,you\'llsee,"wasthewordthatwentaround。

Andsothesetwomen,RayandHal,wereatworkinafieldonadayinthelateOctober。Theywerehuskingcornandoccasionallysomethingwassaidandtheylaughed。Thencamesilence。Ray,whowasthemoresensitiveandalwaysmindedthingsmore,hadchappedhandsandtheyhurt。Heputthemintohiscoatpocketsandlookedawayacrossthefields。

Hewasinasad,distractedmoodandwasaffectedbythebeautyofthecountry。IfyouknewtheWinesburgcountryinthefallandhowthelowhillsareallsplashedwithyellowsandredsyouwouldunderstandhisfeeling。Hebegantothinkofthetime,longagowhenhewasayoungfellowlivingwithhisfather,thenabakerinWinesburg,andhowonsuchdayshehadwanderedawayintothewoodstogathernuts,huntrabbits,orjusttoloafaboutandsmokehispipe。Hismarriagehadcomeaboutthroughoneofhisdaysofwandering。Hehadin-

ducedagirlwhowaitedontradeinhisfather\'sshoptogowithhimandsomethinghadhappened。Hewasthinkingofthatafternoonandhowithadaf-

fectedhiswholelifewhenaspiritofprotestawokeinhim。HehadforgottenaboutHalandmutteredwords。"TrickedbyGad,that\'swhatIwas,trickedbylifeandmadeafoolof,"hesaidinalowvoice。

Asthoughunderstandinghisthoughts,HalWin-

tersspokeup。"Well,hasitbeenworthwhile?Whataboutit,eh?Whataboutmarriageandallthat?"heaskedandthenlaughed。Haltriedtokeeponlaugh-

ingbuthetoowasinanearnestmood。Hebegantotalkearnestly。"Hasafellowgottodoit?"heasked。"Hashegottobeharnessedupanddriventhroughlifelikeahorse?"

Haldidn\'twaitforananswerbutsprangtohisfeetandbegantowalkbackandforthbetweenthecornshocks。Hewasgettingmoreandmoreexcited。

Bendingdownsuddenlyhepickedupanearoftheyellowcornandthrewitatthefence。"I\'vegotNellGuntherintrouble,"hesaid。"I\'mtellingyou,butyoukeepyourmouthshut。"

RayPearsonaroseandstoodstaring。Hewasal-

mostafootshorterthanHal,andwhentheyoungermancameandputhistwohandsontheolderman\'sshoulderstheymadeapicture。Theretheystoodinthebigemptyfieldwiththequietcornshocksstand-

inginrowsbehindthemandtheredandyellowhillsinthedistance,andfrombeingjusttwoindif-

ferentworkmentheyhadbecomeallalivetoeachother。Halsenseditandbecausethatwashiswayhelaughed。"Well,olddaddy,"hesaidawkwardly,"comeon,adviseme。I\'vegotNellintrouble。Per-

hapsyou\'vebeeninthesamefixyourself。Iknowwhateveryonewouldsayistherightthingtodo,butwhatdoyousay?ShallImarryandsettledown?

ShallIputmyselfintotheharnesstobewornoutlikeanoldhorse?Youknowme,Ray。Therecan\'tanyonebreakmebutIcanbreakmyself。ShallIdoitorshallItellNelltogotothedevil?Comeon,youtellme。Whateveryousay,Ray,I\'lldo。"

Raycouldn\'tanswer。HeshookHal\'shandslooseandturningwalkedstraightawaytowardthebarn。

Hewasasensitivemanandthereweretearsinhiseyes。HeknewtherewasonlyonethingtosaytoHalWinters,sonofoldWindpeterWinters,onlyonethingthatallhisowntrainingandallthebeliefsofthepeopleheknewwouldapprove,butforhislifehecouldn\'tsaywhatheknewheshouldsay。

Athalf-pastfourthatafternoonRaywasputteringaboutthebarnyardwhenhiswifecameupthelanealongthecreekandcalledhim。AfterthetalkwithHalhehadn\'treturnedtothecornfieldbutworkedaboutthebarn。HehadalreadydonetheeveningchoresandhadseenHal,dressedandreadyforaroisteringnightintown,comeoutofthefarmhouseandgointotheroad。Alongthepathtohisownhousehetrudgedbehindhiswife,lookingatthegroundandthinking。Hecouldn\'tmakeoutwhatwaswrong。Everytimeheraisedhiseyesandsawthebeautyofthecountryinthefailinglighthewantedtodosomethinghehadneverdonebefore,shoutorscreamorhithiswifewithhisfistsorsomethingequallyunexpectedandterrifying。Alongthepathhewentscratchinghisheadandtryingtomakeitout。Helookedhardathiswife\'sbackbutsheseemedallright。

Sheonlywantedhimtogointotownforgroceriesandassoonasshehadtoldhimwhatshewantedbegantoscold。"You\'realwaysputtering,"shesaid。

"NowIwantyoutohustle。Thereisn\'tanythinginthehouseforsupperandyou\'vegottogettotownandbackinahurry。"

Raywentintohisownhouseandtookanovercoatfromahookbackofthedoor。Itwastornaboutthepocketsandthecollarwasshiny。Hiswifewentintothebedroomandpresentlycameoutwithasoiledclothinonehandandthreesilverdollarsintheother。Somewhereinthehouseachildweptbitterlyandadogthathadbeensleepingbythestovearoseandyawned。Againthewifescolded。"Thechildrenwillcryandcry。Whyareyoualwaysputtering?"

sheasked。

Raywentoutofthehouseandclimbedthefenceintoafield。Itwasjustgrowingdarkandthescenethatlaybeforehimwaslovely。Allthelowhillswerewashedwithcolorandeventhelittleclustersofbushesinthecornersofthefenceswerealivewithbeauty。ThewholeworldseemedtoRayPearsontohavebecomealivewithsomethingjustasheandHalhadsuddenlybecomealivewhentheystoodinthecornfieldstatingintoeachother\'seyes。

ThebeautyofthecountryaboutWinesburgwastoomuchforRayonthatfallevening。Thatisalltherewastoit。Hecouldnotstandit。Ofasuddenheforgotallaboutbeingaquietoldfarmhandandthrowingoffthetornovercoatbegantorunacrossthefield。Asheranheshoutedaprotestagainsthislife,againstalllife,againsteverythingthatmakeslifeugly。"Therewasnopromisemade,"hecriedintotheemptyspacesthatlayabouthim。"Ididn\'tpromisemyMinnieanythingandHalhasn\'tmadeanypromisetoNell。Iknowhehasn\'t。Shewentintothewoodswithhimbecauseshewantedtogo。

Whathewantedshewanted。WhyshouldIpay?

WhyshouldHalpay?Whyshouldanyonepay?I

don\'twantHaltobecomeoldandwornout。I\'lltellhim。Iwon\'tletitgoon。I\'llcatchHalbeforehegetstotownandI\'lltellhim。"

Rayranclumsilyandoncehestumbledandfelldown。"ImustcatchHalandtellhim,"hekeptthinking,andalthoughhisbreathcameingaspshekeptrunningharderandharder。Asheranhethoughtofthingsthathadn\'tcomeintohismindforyears——howatthetimehemarriedhehadplannedtogowesttohisuncleinPortland,Oregon——howhehadn\'twantedtobeafarmhand,buthadthoughtwhenhegotoutWesthewouldgotoseaandbeasailororgetajobonaranchandrideahorseintoWesterntowns,shoutingandlaughingandwakingthepeopleinthehouseswithhiswildcries。Thenasheranherememberedhischildrenandinfancyfelttheirhandsclutchingathim。AllofhisthoughtsofhimselfwereinvolvedwiththethoughtsofHalandhethoughtthechildrenwereclutchingattheyoungermanalso。"Theyaretheaccidentsoflife,Hal,"hecried。"Theyarenotmineoryours。Ihadnothingtodowiththem。"

DarknessbegantospreadoverthefieldsasRayPearsonranonandon。Hisbreathcameinlittlesobs。WhenhecametothefenceattheedgeoftheroadandconfrontedHalWinters,alldressedupandsmokingapipeashewalkedjauntilyalong,hecouldnothavetoldwhathethoughtorwhathewanted。

RayPearsonlosthisnerveandthisisreallytheendofthestoryofwhathappenedtohim。Itwasalmostdarkwhenhegottothefenceandheputhishandsonthetopbarandstoodstaring。HalWintersjumpedaditchandcomingupclosetoRayputhishandsintohispocketsandlaughed。HeseemedtohavelosthisownsenseofwhathadhappenedinthecornfieldandwhenheputupastronghandandtookholdofthelapelofRay\'scoatheshooktheoldmanashemighthaveshakenadogthathadmisbehaved。

"Youcametotellme,eh?"hesaid。"Well,nevermindtellingmeanything。I\'mnotacowardandI\'vealreadymadeupmymind。"Helaughedagainandjumpedbackacrosstheditch。"Nellain\'tnofool,"

hesaid。"Shedidn\'taskmetomarryher。Iwanttomarryher。Iwanttosettledownandhavekids。"

RayPearsonalsolaughed。Hefeltlikelaughingathimselfandalltheworld。

AstheformofHalWintersdisappearedintheduskthatlayovertheroadthatledtoWinesburg,heturnedandwalkedslowlybackacrossthefieldstowherehehadlefthistornovercoat。Ashewentsomememoryofpleasanteveningsspentwiththethin-leggedchildreninthetumble-downhousebythecreekmusthavecomeintohismind,forhemut-

teredwords。"It\'sjustaswell。WhateverItoldhimwouldhavebeenalie,"hesaidsoftly,andthenhisformalsodisappearedintothedarknessofthefields。

DRINK

TOMFOSTERcametoWinesburgfromCincinnatiwhenhewasstillyoungandcouldgetmanynewimpressions。HisgrandmotherhadbeenraisedonafarmnearthetownandasayounggirlhadgonetoschooltherewhenWinesburgwasavillageoftwelveorfifteenhousesclusteredaboutageneralstoreontheTrunionPike。

Whatalifetheoldwomanhadledsinceshewentawayfromthefrontiersettlementandwhatastrong,capablelittleoldthingshewas!ShehadbeeninKansas,inCanada,andinNewYorkCity,travelingaboutwithherhusband,amechanic,be-

forehedied。Latershewenttostaywithherdaughter,whohadalsomarriedamechanicandlivedinCovington,Kentucky,acrosstheriverfromCincinnati。

ThenbeganthehardyearsforTomFoster\'sgrandmother。Firstherson-in-lawwaskilledbyapolicemanduringastrikeandthenTom\'smotherbecameaninvalidanddiedalso。Thegrandmotherhadsavedalittlemoney,butitwassweptawaybytheillnessofthedaughterandbythecostofthetwofunerals。Shebecameahalfworn-outoldwomanworkerandlivedwiththegrandsonaboveajunkshoponasidestreetinCincinnati。Forfiveyearsshescrubbedthefloorsinanofficebuildingandthengotaplaceasdishwasherinarestaurant。

Herhandswerealltwistedoutofshape。Whenshetookholdofamoporabroomhandlethehandslookedlikethedriedstemsofanoldcreepingvineclingingtoatree。

TheoldwomancamebacktoWinesburgassoonasshegotthechance。Oneeveningasshewascom-

inghomefromworkshefoundapocket-bookcon-

tainingthirty-sevendollars,andthatopenedtheway。Thetripwasagreatadventurefortheboy。Itwaspastseveno\'clockatnightwhenthegrand-

mothercamehomewiththepocket-bookheldtightlyinheroldhandsandshewassoexcitedshecouldscarcelyspeak。SheinsistedonleavingCincinnatithatnight,sayingthatiftheystayeduntilmorningtheownerofthemoneywouldbesuretofindthemoutandmaketrouble。Tom,whowasthensixteenyearsold,hadtogotrudgingofftothestationwiththeoldwoman,bearingalloftheirearthlybelong-

ingsdoneupinaworn-outblanketandslungacrosshisback。Byhissidewalkedthegrandmotherurginghimforward。Hertoothlessoldmouthtwitchedner-

vously,andwhenTomgrewwearyandwantedtoputthepackdownatastreetcrossing,shesnatcheditupandifhehadnotpreventedwouldhaveslungitacrossherownback。Whentheygotintothetrainandithadrunoutofthecityshewasasdelightedasagirlandtalkedastheboyhadneverheardhertalkbefore。

Allthroughthenightasthetrainrattledalong,thegrandmothertoldTomtalesofWinesburgandofhowhewouldenjoyhislifeworkinginthefieldsandshootingwildthingsinthewoodsthere。Shecouldnotbelievethatthetinyvillageoffiftyyearsbeforehadgrownintoathrivingtowninherab-

sence,andinthemorningwhenthetraincametoWinesburgdidnotwanttogetoff。"Itisn\'twhatI

thought。Itmaybehardforyouhere,"shesaid,andthenthetrainwentonitswayandthetwostoodconfused,notknowingwheretoturn,inthepres-

enceofAlbertLongworth,theWinesburgbaggagemaster。

ButTomFosterdidgetalongallright。Hewasonetogetalonganywhere。Mrs。White,thebanker\'swife,employedhisgrandmothertoworkinthekitchenandhegotaplaceasstableboyinthebank-

er\'snewbrickbarn。

InWinesburgservantswerehardtoget。Thewomanwhowantedhelpinherhouseworkem-

ployeda"hiredgirl"whoinsistedonsittingatthetablewiththefamily。Mrs。Whitewassickofhiredgirlsandsnatchedatthechancetogetholdoftheoldcitywoman。ShefurnishedaroomfortheboyTomupstairsinthebarn。"Hecanmowthelawnandrunerrandswhenthehorsesdonotneedatten-

tion,"sheexplainedtoherhusband。

TomFosterwasrathersmallforhisageandhadalargeheadcoveredwithstiffblackhairthatstoodstraightup。Thehairemphasizedthebignessofhishead。Hisvoicewasthesoftestthingimaginable,andhewashimselfsogentleandquietthatheslippedintothelifeofthetownwithoutattractingtheleastbitofattention。

OnecouldnothelpwonderingwhereTomFostergothisgentleness。InCincinnatihehadlivedinaneighborhoodwheregangsoftoughboysprowledthroughthestreets,andallthroughhisearlyforma-

tiveyearsheranaboutwithtoughboys。Forawhilehewasamessengerforatelegraphcompanyanddeliveredmessagesinaneighborhoodsprinkledwithhousesofprostitution。ThewomeninthehousesknewandlovedTomFosterandthetoughboysinthegangslovedhimalso。

Heneverassertedhimself。Thatwasonethingthathelpedhimescape。Inanoddwayhestoodintheshadowofthewalloflife,wasmeanttostandintheshadow。Hesawthemenandwomeninthehousesoflust,sensedtheircasualandhorribleloveaffairs,sawboysfightingandlistenedtotheirtalesofthievinganddrunkenness,unmovedandstrangelyunaffected。

OnceTomdidsteal。Thatwaswhilehestilllivedinthecity。Thegrandmotherwasillatthetimeandhehimselfwasoutofwork。Therewasnothingtoeatinthehouse,andsohewentintoaharnessshoponasidestreetandstoleadollarandseventy-fivecentsoutofthecashdrawer。

Theharnessshopwasrunbyanoldmanwithalongmustache。Hesawtheboylurkingaboutandthoughtnothingofit。WhenhewentoutintothestreettotalktoateamsterTomopenedthecashdrawerandtakingthemoneywalkedaway。Laterhewascaughtandhisgrandmothersettledthemat-

terbyofferingtocometwiceaweekforamonthandscrubtheshop。Theboywasashamed,buthewasratherglad,too。"Itisallrighttobeashamedandmakesmeunderstandnewthings,"hesaidtothegrandmother,whodidn\'tknowwhattheboywastalkingaboutbutlovedhimsomuchthatitdidn\'tmatterwhethersheunderstoodornot。

ForayearTomFosterlivedinthebanker\'sstableandthenlosthisplacethere。Hedidn\'ttakeverygoodcareofthehorsesandhewasaconstantsourceofirritationtothebanker\'swife。Shetoldhimtomowthelawnandheforgot。Thenshesenthimtothestoreortothepostofficeandhedidnotcomebackbutjoinedagroupofmenandboysandspentthewholeafternoonwiththem,standingabout,lis-

teningandoccasionally,whenaddressed,sayingafewwords。Asinthecityinthehousesofprostitu-

tionandwiththerowdyboysrunningthroughthestreetsatnight,soinWinesburgamongitscitizenshehadalwaysthepowertobeapartofandyetdistinctlyapartfromthelifeabouthim。

AfterTomlosthisplaceatBankerWhite\'shedidnotlivewithhisgrandmother,althoughoftenintheeveningshecametovisithim。HerentedaroomattherearofalittleframebuildingbelongingtooldRufusWhiting。ThebuildingwasonDuaneStreet,justoffMainStreet,andhadbeenusedforyearsasalawofficebytheoldman,whohadbecometoofeebleandforgetfulforthepracticeofhisprofessionbutdidnotrealizehisinefficiency。HelikedTomandlethimhavetheroomforadollaramonth。Inthelateafternoonwhenthelawyerhadgonehometheboyhadtheplacetohimselfandspenthourslyingonthefloorbythestoveandthinkingofthings。Intheeveningthegrandmothercameandsatinthelawyer\'schairtosmokeapipewhileTomremainedsilent,ashealways,didinthepresenceofeveryone。

Oftentheoldwomantalkedwithgreatvigor。

Sometimesshewasangryaboutsomehappeningatthebanker\'shouseandscoldedawayforhours。Outofherownearningssheboughtamopandregularlyscrubbedthelawyer\'soffice。ThenwhentheplacewasspotlesslycleanandsmelledcleanshelightedherclaypipeandsheandTomhadasmoketo-

gether。"WhenyougetreadytodiethenIwilldiealso,"shesaidtotheboylyingonthefloorbesideherchair。

TomFosterenjoyedlifeinWinesburg。Hedidoddjobs,suchascuttingwoodforkitchenstovesandmowingthegrassbeforehouses。InlateMayandearlyJunehepickedstrawberriesinthefields。Hehadtimetoloafandheenjoyedloafing。BankerWhitehadgivenhimacast-offcoatwhichwastoolargeforhim,buthisgrandmothercutitdown,andhehadalsoanovercoat,gotatthesameplace,thatwaslinedwithfur。Thefurwaswornawayinspots,butthecoatwaswarmandinthewinterTomsleptinit。HethoughthismethodofgettingalonggoodenoughandwashappyandsatisfiedwiththewayfifeinWinesburghadturnedoutforhim。

ThemostabsurdlittlethingsmadeTomFosterhappy。That,Isuppose,waswhypeoplelovedhim。

InHern\'sGrocerytheywouldberoastingcoffeeonFridayafternoon,preparatorytotheSaturdayrushoftrade,andtherichodorinvadedlowerMainStreet。TomFosterappearedandsatonaboxattherearofthestore。Foranhourhedidnotmovebutsatperfectlystill,fillinghisbeingwiththespicyodorthatmadehimhalfdrunkwithhappiness。"I

likeit,"hesaidgently。"Itmakesmethinkofthingsfaraway,placesandthingslikethat。"

OnenightTomFostergotdrunk。Thatcameaboutinacuriousway。Heneverhadbeendrunkbefore,andindeedinallhisfifehadnevertakenadrinkofanythingintoxicating,buthefeltheneededtobedrunkthatonetimeandsowentanddidit。

InCincinnati,whenhelivedthere,Tomhadfoundoutmanythings,thingsaboutuglinessandcrimeandlust。Indeed,heknewmoreofthesethingsthananyoneelseinWinesburg。Thematterofsexinparticularhadpresenteditselftohiminaquitehorriblewayandhadmadeadeepimpressiononhismind。Hethought,afterwhathehadseenofthewomenstandingbeforethesqualidhousesoncoldnightsandthelookhehadseenintheeyesofthemenwhostoppedtotalktothem,thathewouldputsexaltogetheroutofhisownlife。Oneofthewomenoftheneighborhoodtemptedhimonceandhewentintoaroomwithher。Heneverforgotthesmelloftheroomnorthegreedylookthatcameintotheeyesofthewoman。Itsickenedhimandinaveryterriblewayleftascaronhissoul。Hehadalwaysbeforethoughtofwomenasquiteinnocentthings,muchlikehisgrandmother,butafterthatoneexperienceintheroomhedismissedwomenfromhismind。Sogentlewashisnaturethathecouldnothateanythingandnotbeingabletounder-

standhedecidedtoforget。

AndTomdidforgetuntilhecametoWinesburg。

Afterhehadlivedtherefortwoyearssomethingbegantostirinhim。Onallsideshesawyouthmak-

ingloveandhewashimselfayouth。Beforeheknewwhathadhappenedhewasinlovealso。HefellinlovewithHelenWhite,daughterofthemanforwhomhehadworked,andfoundhimselfthink-

ingofheratnight。

ThatwasaproblemforTomandhesettleditinhisownway。HelethimselfthinkofHelenWhitewheneverherfigurecameintohismindandonlyconcernedhimselfwiththemannerofhisthoughts。

Hehadafight,aquietdeterminedlittlefightofhisown,tokeephisdesiresinthechannelwherehethoughttheybelonged,butonthewholehewasvictorious。

Andthencamethespringnightwhenhegotdrunk。Tomwaswildonthatnight。Hewaslikeaninnocentyoungbuckoftheforestthathaseatenofsomemaddeningweed。Thethingbegan,ranitscourse,andwasendedinonenight,andyoumaybesurethatnooneinWinesburgwasanytheworseforTom\'soutbreak。

Inthefirstplace,thenightwasonetomakeasensitivenaturedrunk。Thetreesalongtheresi-

dencestreetsofthetownwereallnewlyclothedinsoftgreenleaves,inthegardensbehindthehousesmenwereputteringaboutinvegetablegardens,andintheairtherewasahush,awaitingkindofsilenceverystirringtotheblood。

TomlefthisroomonDuaneStreetjustastheyoungnightbegantomakeitselffelt。Firsthewalkedthroughthestreets,goingsoftlyandquietlyalong,thinkingthoughtsthathetriedtoputintowords。HesaidthatHelenWhitewasaflamedanc-

ingintheairandthathewasalittletreewithoutleavesstandingoutsharplyagainstthesky。Thenhesaidthatshewasawind,astrongterriblewind,comingoutofthedarknessofastormyseaandthathewasaboatleftontheshoreoftheseabyafisherman。

Thatideapleasedtheboyandhesaunteredalongplayingwithit。HewentintoMainStreetandsatonthecurbingbeforeWacker\'stobaccostore。Foranhourhelingeredaboutlisteningtothetalkofmen,butitdidnotinteresthimmuchandheslippedaway。ThenhedecidedtogetdrunkandwentintoWilly\'ssaloonandboughtabottleofwhiskey。Put-

tingthebottleintohispocket,hewalkedoutoftown,wantingtobealonetothinkmorethoughtsandtodrinkthewhiskey。

Tomgotdrunksittingonabankofnewgrassbesidetheroadaboutamilenorthoftown。Beforehimwasawhiteroadandathisbackanappleor-

chardinfullbloom。Hetookadrinkoutofthebottleandthenlaydownonthegrass。HethoughtofmorningsinWinesburgandofhowthestonesinthegraveleddrivewaybyBankerWhite\'shousewerewetwithdewandglistenedinthemorninglight。Hethoughtofthenightsinthebarnwhenitrainedandhelayawakehearingthedrummingoftheraindropsandsmellingthewarmsmellofhorsesandofhay。ThenhethoughtofastormthathadgoneroaringthroughWinesburgseveraldaysbeforeand,hismindgoingback,herelivedthenighthehadspentonthetrainwithhisgrandmotherwhenthetwowerecomingfromCincinnati。Sharplyherememberedhowstrangeithadseemedtositqui-

etlyinthecoachandtofeelthepoweroftheenginehurlingthetrainalongthroughthenight。

Tomgotdrunkinaveryshorttime。Hekepttak-

ingdrinksfromthebottleasthethoughtsvisitedhimandwhenhisheadbegantoreelgotupandwalkedalongtheroadgoingawayfromWinesburg。

TherewasabridgeontheroadthatranoutofWinesburgnorthtoLakeErieandthedrunkenboymadehiswayalongtheroadtothebridge。Therehesatdown。Hetriedtodrinkagain,butwhenhehadtakenthecorkoutofthebottlehebecameillandputitquicklyback。Hisheadwasrockingbackandforthandsohesatonthestoneapproachtothebridgeandsighed。Hisheadseemedtobeflyingaboutlikeapinwheelandthenprojectingitselfoffintospaceandhisarmsandlegsfloppedhelplesslyabout。

Ateleveno\'clockTomgotbackintotown。GeorgeWillardfoundhimwanderingaboutandtookhimintotheEagleprintshop。Thenhebecameafraidthatthedrunkenboywouldmakeamessonthefloorandhelpedhimintothealleyway。

ThereporterwasconfusedbyTomFoster。ThedrunkenboytalkedofHelenWhiteandsaidhehadbeenwithherontheshoreofaseaandhadmadelovetoher。GeorgehadseenHelenWhitewalkinginthestreetwithherfatherduringtheeveninganddecidedthatTomwasoutofhishead。AsentimentconcerningHelenWhitethatlurkedinhisownheartflamedupandhebecameangry。"Nowyouquitthat,"hesaid。"Iwon\'tletHelenWhite\'snamebedraggedintothis。Iwon\'tletthathappen。"HebeganshakingTom\'sshoulder,tryingtomakehimunderstand。"Youquitit,"hesaidagain。

Forthreehoursthetwoyoungmen,thusstrangelythrowntogether,stayedintheprintshop。WhenhehadalittlerecoveredGeorgetookTomforawalk。

Theywentintothecountryandsatonalogneartheedgeofawood。Somethinginthestillnightdrewthemtogetherandwhenthedrunkenboy\'sheadbegantocleartheytalked。

"Itwasgoodtobedrunk,"TomFostersaid。"Ittaughtmesomething。Iwon\'thavetodoitagain。I

willthinkmoredearlyafterthis。Youseehowitis。"

GeorgeWillarddidnotsee,buthisangerconcern-

ingHelenWhitepassedandhefeltdrawntowardthepale,shakenboyashehadneverbeforebeendrawntowardanyone。Withmotherlysolicitude,heinsistedthatTomgettohisfeetandwalkabout。

Againtheywentbacktotheprintshopandsatinsilenceinthedarkness。

ThereportercouldnotgetthepurposeofTomFoster\'sactionstraightenedoutinhismind。WhenTomspokeagainofHelenWhiteheagaingrewangryandbegantoscold。"Youquitthat,"hesaidsharply。"Youhaven\'tbeenwithher。Whatmakesyousayyouhave?Whatmakesyoukeepsayingsuchthings?Nowyouquitit,doyouhear?"

Tomwashurt。Hecouldn\'tquarrelwithGeorgeWillardbecausehewasincapableofquarreling,sohegotuptogoaway。WhenGeorgeWillardwasinsistentheputouthishand,layingitontheolderboy\'sarm,andtriedtoexplain。

"Well,"hesaidsoftly,"Idon\'tknowhowitwas。

Iwashappy。Youseehowthatwas。HelenWhitemademehappyandthenightdidtoo。Iwantedtosuffer,tobehurtsomehow。IthoughtthatwaswhatIshoulddo。Iwantedtosuffer,yousee,becauseeveryonesuffersanddoeswrong。Ithoughtofalotofthingstodo,buttheywouldn\'twork。Theyallhurtsomeoneelse。"

TomFoster\'svoicearose,andforonceinhislifehebecamealmostexcited。"Itwaslikemakinglove,that\'swhatImean,"heexplained。"Don\'tyouseehowitis?IthurtmetodowhatIdidandmadeeverythingstrange。That\'swhyIdidit。I\'mglad,too。Ittaughtmesomething,that\'sit,that\'swhatI

wanted。Don\'tyouunderstand?Iwantedtolearnthings,yousee。That\'swhyIdidit。"

DEATH

THESTAIRWAYLEADINGuptoDoctorReefy\'soffice,intheHeffnerBlockabovetheParisDryGoodsstore,wasbutdimlylighted。Attheheadofthestairwayhungalampwithadirtychimneythatwasfastenedbyabrackettothewall。Thelamphadatinreflector,brownwithrustandcoveredwithdust。

Thepeoplewhowentupthestairwayfollowedwiththeirfeetthefeetofmanywhohadgonebefore。

Thesoftboardsofthestairshadyieldedunderthepressureoffeetanddeephollowsmarkedtheway。

Atthetopofthestairwayaturntotherightbroughtyoutothedoctor\'sdoor。Totheleftwasadarkhallwayfilledwithrubbish。Oldchairs,carpen-

ter\'shorses,stepladdersandemptyboxeslayinthedarknesswaitingforshinstobebarked。ThepileofrubbishbelongedtotheParisDryGoodsCompany。

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