Notes on Life and Letters

第4章

Alreadythereareinnuendoes,threats,hintsthrownout,andevenawfulinstancesfabricatedoutofinadequatematerials,butitishistoricallyunthinkablethatthePolandofthefuture,withitssacredtraditionoffreedomanditshereditarysenseofrespectfortherightsofindividualsandStates,shouldseekitsprosperityinaggressiveactionorinmoralviolenceagainstthatpartofitsoncefellow-citizenswhoareRutheniansorLithuanians。Theonlyinfluencethatcannotberestrainedissimplytheinfluenceoftime,whichdisengagestruthfromallfactswithamercilesslogicandprevailsoverthepassingopinions,thechangingimpulsesofmen。Therecanbenodoubtthatthemoralimpulsesandthematerialinterestsofthenewnationalities,whichseemtoplaynowthegameofdisintegrationforthebenefitoftheworld\'senemies,willintheendbringthemnearertothePolandofthiswar\'screation,willunitethemsoonerorlaterbyaspontaneousmovementtowardstheStatewhichhadadoptedandbroughtthemupinthedevelopmentofitsownhumaneculture——theoffspringoftheWest。

ANOTEONTHEPOLISHPROBLEM——1916

Wemuststartfromtheassumptionthatpromisesmadebyproclamationatthebeginningofthiswarmaybebindingontheindividualswhomadethemunderthestressofcomingevents,butcannotberegardedasbindingtheGovernmentsaftertheendofthewar。

Polandhasbeenpresentedwiththreeproclamations。Twoofthemwereinsuchcontrastwiththeavowedprinciplesandthehistoricactionforthelasthundredyears(sincetheCongressofVienna)ofthePowersconcerned,thattheyweremorelikecynicalinsultstothenation\'sdeepestfeelings,itsmemoryanditsintelligence,thanstatepapersofaconciliatorynature。

TheGermanpromisesawokenothingbutindignantcontempt;theRussianabitterincredulityofthemostcompletekind。TheAustrianproclamation,whichmadenopromisesandcontenteditselfwithpointingouttheAustro-Polishrelationsforthelastforty-

fiveyears,wasreceivedinsilence。ForitisafactthatinAustrianPolandalonePolishnationalitywasrecognisedasanelementoftheEmpire,andindividualscouldbreathetheairoffreedom,ofcivillife,ifnotofpoliticalindependence。

ButforPolestobeGermanophileisunthinkable。TobeRussophileorAustrophileisatbestacounselofdespairinviewofaEuropeansituationwhich,becauseofthegroupingofthepowers,seemstoshutfromthemeveryhope,expressedorunexpressed,ofanationalfuturenursedthroughmorethanahundredyearsofsufferingandoppression。

Throughmostoftheseyears,andespeciallysince1830,Poland(I

usethisexpressionsincePolandexistsasaspiritualentitytodayasdefinitelyasiteverexistedinherpast)hasputherfaithintheWesternPowers。Politicallyitmayhavebeennothingmorethanaconsolingillusion,andthenationhadahalf-consciousnessofthis。ButwhatPolandwaslookingforfromtheWesternPowerswithoutdiscouragementandwithunbrokenconfidencewasmoralsupport。

Thisisafactofthesentimentalorder。Butsuchfactshavetheirpositivevalue,fortheiridealismderivesfromperhapsthehighestkindofreality。Asentimentassertsitsclaimbyitsforce,persistenceanduniversality。InPolandthatsentimentalattitudetowardstheWesternPowersisuniversal。Itextendstoallclasses。Theverychildrenareaffectedbyitassoonastheybegintothink。

Thepoliticalvalueofsuchasentimentconsistsinthis,thatitisbasedonprofoundresemblances。Thereforeonecanbuildonitasifitwereamaterialfact。Forthesamereasonitwouldbeunsafetodisregarditifoneproposedtobuildsolidly。ThePoles,whomsuperficialorill-informedtheoristsaretryingtoforceintothesocialandpsychologicalformulaofSlavonism,areintruthnotSlavonicatall。Intemperament,infeeling,inmind,andeveninunreason,theyareWestern,withanabsolutecomprehensionofallWesternmodesofthought,evenofthosewhichareremotefromtheirhistoricalexperience。

ThatelementofracialunitywhichmaybecalledPolonism,remainedcompressedbetweenPrussianGermanismononesideandtheRussianSlavonismontheother。ForGermanismitfeelsnothingbuthatred。

ButbetweenPolonismandSlavonismthereisnotsomuchhatredasacompleteandineradicableincompatibility。

NopoliticalworkofreconstructingPolandeitherasamatterofjusticeorexpediencycouldbesoundwhichwouldleavethenewcreationindependencetoGermanismortoSlavonism。

Thefirstneednotbeconsidered。Thesecondmustbe——unlessthePowerselecttodropthePolishquestioneitherunderthecoverofvagueassurancesorwithoutanydisguisewhatever。

ButifitisconsidereditwillbeseenatoncethattheSlavonicsolutionofthePolishQuestioncanoffernoguaranteesofdurationorholdthepromiseofsecurityforthepeaceofEurope。

TheonlybasisforitwouldbetheGrandDuke\'sManifesto。ButthatManifesto,signedbyapersonagenowremovedfromEuropetoAsia,andbyaman,moreover,whoiftruetohimself,tohisconceptionofpatriotismandtohisfamilytraditioncouldnothaveputhishandtoitwithanysincerityofpurpose,isnowdivestedofallauthority。Theforciblevaguenessofitspromises,itsstartlinginconsistencywiththehundredyearsofruthlesslydenationalisingoppressionpermitonetodoubtwhetheritwasevermeanttohaveanyauthority。

Butinanycaseitcouldhavehadnoeffect。Theverynatureofthingswouldhavebroughttonoughtitsprofessedintentions。

ItisimpossibletosupposethataStateofRussia\'spowerandantecedentswouldtolerateaprivilegedcommunity(of,toRussia,unnationalcomplexion)withinthebodyoftheEmpire。Allhistoryshowsthatsuchanarrangement,howeverhedgedinbythemostsolemntreatiesanddeclarations,cannotlast。Inthiscaseitwouldleadtoatragicissue。TheabsorptionofPolonismisunthinkable。ThelasthundredyearsofEuropeanHistoryprovesitundeniably。Thereremainsthenextirpation,aprocessofbloodandiron;andthelastactofthePolishdramawouldbeplayedthenbeforeaEuropetoowearytointerfere,andtotheapplauseofGermany。

ItwouldnotbejusttosaythatthedisappearanceofPolonismwouldaddanystrengthtotheSlavonicpowerofexpansion。Itwouldaddnostrength,butitwouldremoveapossiblyeffectivebarrieragainstthesurprisesthefutureofEuropemayholdinstorefortheWesternPowers。

ThusthequestionwhetherPolonismisworthsavingpresentsitselfasaproblemofpoliticswithapracticalbearingonthestabilityofEuropeanpeace——asabarrierorperhapsbetter(inviewofitsdetachedposition)asanoutpostoftheWesternPowersplacedbetweenthegreatmightofSlavonismwhichhasnotyetmadeupitsmindtoanything,andtheorganisedGermanismwhichhasspokenitsmindwithnouncertainvoice,beforetheworld。

LookedatinthatlightalonePolonismseemsworthsaving。ThatithaslivedsolongonitstrustinthemoralsupportoftheWesternPowersmaygiveitanotherandevenstrongerclaim,basedonatruthofamoreprofoundkind。PolonismhadresistedtheutmosteffortsofGermanismandSlavonismformorethanahundredyears。

Why?BecauseofthestrengthofitsidealsconsciousoftheirkinshipwiththeWest。Suchapowerofresistancecreatesamoralobligationwhichitwouldbeunsafetoneglect。Thereisalwaysariskinthrowingawayatoolofprovedtemper。

InthisprofoundconvictionofthepracticalandidealworthofPolonismoneapproachestheproblemofitspreservationwithaveryvividsenseofthepracticaldifficultiesderivedfromthegroupingofthePowers。TheuncertaintyoftheextentandoftheactualformofvictoryfortheAllieswillincreasethedifficultyofformulatingaplanofPolishregenerationatthepresentmoment。

Poland,tostrikeitsrootsagainintothesoilofpoliticalEurope,willrequireaguaranteeofsecurityforthehealthydevelopmentandfortheuntrammelledplayofsuchinstitutionsasshemaybeenabledtogivetoherself。

ThoseinstitutionswillbeanimatedbythespiritofPolonism,which,havingbeenafactorinthehistoryofEuropeandhavingproveditsvitalityunderoppression,hasestablisheditsrighttolive。Thatspirit,despisedandhatedbyGermanyandincompatiblewithSlavonismbecauseofmoraldifferences,cannotavoidbeing(initsrenewedassertion)anobjectofdislikeandmistrust。

AsanunavoidableconsequenceofthepastPolandwillhavetobeginitsexistenceinanatmosphereofenmitiesandsuspicions。ThatadvancedoutpostofWesterncivilisationwillhavetoholditsgroundinthemidstofhostilecamps:alwaysitshistoricalfate。

AgainstthemenaceofsuchaspeciallydangeroussituationthepaperandinkofpublicTreatiescannotbeaneffectivedefence。

Nothingbuttheactual,living,activeparticipationofthetwoWesternPowersintheestablishmentofthenewPolishcommonwealth,andinthefirsttwentyyearsofitsexistence,willgivethePolesasufficientguaranteeofsecurityintheworkofrestoringtheirnationallife。

AnAnglo-Frenchprotectoratewouldbetheidealformofmoralandmaterialsupport。ButRussia,asanally,musttakeherplaceinitonsuchafootingaswillallaytothefullestextentherpossibleapprehensionsandsatisfyhernationalsentiment。Thatnecessitywillhavetobeformallyrecognised。

InrealityRussiahasceasedtocaremuchforherPolishpossessions。PublicrecognitionofamistakeinpoliticalmoralityandavoluntarysurrenderofterritoryinthecauseofEuropeanconcord,cannotdamagetheprestigeofapowerfulState。Thenewspheresofexpansioninregionsmoreeasilyassimilable,willmorethancompensateRussiaforthelossofterritoryontheWesternfrontieroftheEmpire。

TheexperienceofDualControlsandsimilarcombinationshasbeensounfortunateinthepastthatthesuggestionofaTripleProtectoratemaywellappearatfirstsightmonstrouseventounprejudicedminds。Butitmustberememberedthatthisisauniquecaseandaproblemaltogetherexceptional,justifyingtheemploymentofexceptionalmeansforitssolution。Tothosewhowoulddoubtthepossibilityofevenbringingsuchaschemeintoexistencetheanswermaybemadethattherearepsychologicalmomentswhenanymeasuretendingtowardstheendsofconcordandjusticemaybebroughtintobeing。Anditseemsthattheendofthewarwouldbethemomentforbringingintobeingthepoliticalschemeadvocatedinthisnote。

ItssuccessmustdependonthesinglenessofpurposeinthecontractingPowers,andonthewisdom,thetact,theabilities,thegood-willofmenentrustedwithitsinitiationanditsfurthercontrol。Finallyitmaybepointedoutthatthisplanistheonlyoneofferingseriousguaranteestoallthepartiesoccupyingtheirrespectivepositionswithinthescheme。

Ifherexistenceasastateisadmittedasjust,expedientandnecessary,Polandhasthemoralrighttoreceiveherconstitutionnotfromthehandofanoldenemy,butfromtheWesternPowersalone,thoughofcoursewiththefullestconcurrenceofRussia。

Thisconstitution,elaboratedbyacommitteeofPolesnominatedbythethreeGovernments,will(afterduediscussionandamendmentbytheHighCommissionersoftheProtectingPowers)bepresentedtoPolandastheinitialdocument,thecharterofhernewlife,freelyofferedandunreservedlyaccepted。

Itshouldbeassimpleandshortasawrittenconstitutioncanbe——

establishingthePolishCommonwealth,settlingthelinesofrepresentativeinstitutions,theformofjudicature,andleavingthegreatestmeasurepossibleofself-governmenttotheprovincesformingpartofthere-createdPoland。

ThisconstitutionwillbepromulgatedimmediatelyafterthethreePowershadsettledthefrontiersofthenewState,includingthetownofDanzic(freeport)andaproportionofseaboard。ThelegislaturewillthenbecalledtogetherandageneraltreatywillregulatePoland\'sinternationalportionasaprotectedstate,thestatusoftheHighCommissionersandsuch-likematters。Thelegislaturewillratify,thusmakingPoland,asitwere,apartyintheestablishmentoftheprotectorate。Apointofimportance。

OthergeneraltreatieswilldefinePoland\'spositionintheAnglo-

Franco-Russianalliance,fixthenumbersofthearmy,andsettletheparticipationofthePowersinitsorganisationandtraining。

POLANDREVISITED——1915

Ihaveneverbelievedinpoliticalassassinationasameanstoanend,andleastofallinassassinationofthedynasticorder。I

don\'tknowhowfarmurdercaneverapproachtheperfectionofafineart,butlookeduponwiththecoldeyeofreasonitseemsbutacrudeexpedientofimpatienthopeorhurrieddespair。Therearefewmenwhoseprematuredeathcouldinfluencehumanaffairsmorethanonthesurface。Thedeeperstreamofcausesdependsnotonindividualswho,likethemassofmankind,arecarriedonbyadestinywhichnomurderhaseverbeenabletoplacate,divert,orarrest。

InJulyoflastyearIwasastrangerinastrangecityintheMidlandsandparticularlyoutoftouchwiththeworld\'spolitics。

Neveraverydiligentreaderofnewspapers,therewereatthattimereasonsofaprivateorderwhichcausedmetobeevenlessinformedthanusualonpublicaffairsaspresentedfromdaytodayinthatnecessarilyatmosphereless,perspectivelessmannerofthedailypapers,whichsomehow,foramanpossessedofsomehistoricsense,robsthemofallrealinterest。Idon\'tthinkIhadlookedatadailyforamonthpast。

ButthoughastrangerinastrangecityIwasnotlonely,thankstoafriendwhohadtravelledthereoutofpurekindnesstobearmecompanyinaconjuncturewhich,inamostprivatesense,wassomewhattrying。

Itwasthisfriendwho,onemorningatbreakfast,informedmeofthemurderoftheArchdukeFerdinand。

Theimpressionwasmediocre。Iwasbarelyawarethatsuchamanexisted。IrememberedonlythatnotlongbeforehehadvisitedLondon。Therecollectionwasratherofacloudofinsignificantprintedwordshispresenceinthiscountryprovoked。

Variousopinionshadbeenexpressedofhim,buthisimportancewasArchducal,dynastic,purelyaccidental。CantherebeintheworldofrealmenanythingmoreshadowythananArchduke?Andnowhewasnomore;removedwithanatrocityofcircumstanceswhichmadeonemoresensibleofhishumanitythanwhenhewasinlife。I

connectedthatcrimewithBalkanicplotsandaspirationssolittlethatIhadactuallytoaskwhereithadhappened。MyfriendtoldmeitwasinSerajevo,andwonderedwhatwouldbetheconsequencesofthatgraveevent。HeaskedmewhatIthoughtwouldhappennext。

ItwaswithperfectsinceritythatIanswered“Nothing,“andhavingagreatrepugnancetoconsidermurderasafactorofpolitics,I

dismissedthesubject。Itfittedwithmyethicalsensethatanactcruelandabsurdshouldbealsouseless。IhadalsothevisionofacrowdofshadowyArchdukesinthebackground,outofwhichonewouldstepforwardtotaketheplaceofthatdeadmaninthelightoftheEuropeanstage。Andthen,tospeakthewholetruth,therewasnomancapableofformingajudgmentwhoattendedsolittletothemarchofeventsasIdidatthattime。WhatforwantofamoredefinitetermImustcallmymindwasfixeduponmyownaffairs,notbecausetheywereinabadposture,butbecauseoftheirfascinatingholiday-promisingaspect。IhadbeenobtainingmyinformationastoEuropeatsecondhand,fromfriendsgoodenoughtocomedownnowandthentoseeus。Theyarrivedwiththeirpocketsfullofcrumplednewspapers,andansweredmyqueriescasually,withgentlesmilesofscepticismastotherealityofmyinterest。AndyetIwasnotindifferent;butthetensionintheBalkanshadbecomechronicaftertheacutecrisis,andonecouldnothelpbeinglessconsciousofit。Ithadweariedoutone\'sattention。Whocouldhaveguessedthatonthatwildstagewehadjustbeenlookingataminiaturerehearsalofthegreatworld-

drama,thereducedmodeloftheverypassionsandviolencesofwhatthefutureheldinstoreforthePowersoftheOldWorld?Hereandthere,perhaps,raremindshadasuspicionofthatpossibility,whiletheywatchedOldEuropestage-managingfussilybymeansofnotesandconferences,thepropheticreproductionofitsawaitingfate。Itwaswonderfullyexactinthespirit;sameroarofguns,sameprotestationsofsuperiority,samewordsintheair;race,liberation,justice——andthesamemoodoftrivialdemonstrations。

Onecouldnottaketo-dayaticketforPetersburg。“YoumeanPetrograd,“wouldsaythebookingclerk。ShortlyafterthefallofAdrianopleafriendofminepassingthroughSophiaaskedforsomeCAFETURCattheendofhislunch。

“MonsieurveutdireCafebalkanique,“thepatrioticwaitercorrectedhimausterely。

IwillnotsaythatIhadnotobservedsomethingofthatinstructiveaspectofthewaroftheBalkansbothinitsfirstandinitssecondphase。ButthosewithwhomItoucheduponthatvisionwerepleasedtoseeinittheevidenceofmyalarmistcynicism。Astoalarm,Ipointedoutthatfearisnaturaltoman,andevensalutary。Ithasdoneasmuchascourageforthepreservationofracesandinstitutions。ButfromachargeofcynicismIhavealwaysshrunkinstinctively。Itislikeachargeofbeingblindinoneeye,amoraldisablement,asortofdisgracefulcalamitythatmusthecarriedoffwithajauntybearing——asortofthingIamnotcapableof。RatherthanbethoughtamerejauntycrippleIallowedmyselftobeblindedbythegrossobviousnessoftheusualarguments。ItwaspointedouttomethattheseEasternnationswerenotfarremovedfromasavagestate。Theireconomicswereyetatthestageofscratchingtheearthandfeedingthepigs。Thehighly-developedmaterialcivilisationofEuropecouldnotallowitselftobedisturbedbyawar。Theindustryandthefinancecouldnotallowthemselvestobedisorganisedbytheambitionsofanidleclass,oreventheaspirations,whatevertheymightbe,ofthemasses。

Veryplausibleallthissounded。Wardoesnotpay。Therehadbeenabookwrittenonthattheme——anattempttoputpacificismonamaterialbasis。Nothingmoresolidinthewayofargumentcouldhavebeenadvancedonthistradingandmanufacturingglobe。Warwas“badbusiness!“Thiswasfinal。

But,truthtosay,onthisJulydayIreflectedbutlittleontheconditionofthecivilisedworld。Whateversinisterpassionswereheavingunderitssplendidandcomplexsurface,Iwastooagitatedbyasimpleandinnocentdesireofmyown,tonoticethesignsorinterpretthemcorrectly。Themostinnocentofpassionswilltaketheedgeoffone\'sjudgment。Thedesirewhichpossessedmewassimplythedesiretotravel。AndthatbeingsoitwouldhavetakensomethingveryplaininthewayofsymptomstoshakemysimpletrustinthestabilityofthingsontheContinent。Mysentimentandnotmyreasonwasengagedthere。Myeyeswereturnedtothepast,nottothefuture;thepastthatonecannotsuspectandmistrust,theshadowyandunquestionablemoralpossessionthedarkeststrugglesofwhichwearahaloofgloryandpeace。

IntheprecedingmonthofMaywehadreceivedaninvitationtospendsomeweeksinPolandinacountryhouseintheneighbourhoodofCracow,butwithintheRussianfrontier。Theenterpriseatfirstseemedtomeconsiderable。Sinceleavingthesea,towhichI

havebeenfaithfulforsomanyyears,Ihavediscoveredthatthereisinmycompositionverylittlestufffromwhichtravellersaremade。Iconfessthatmyfirstimpulseaboutaprojectedjourneyistoleaveitalone。Buttheinvitationreceivedatfirstwithasortofdismayendedbyrousingthedormantenergyofmyfeelings。

CracowisthetownwhereIspentwithmyfatherthelasteighteenmonthsofhislife。ItwasinthatoldroyalandacademicalcitythatIceasedtobeachild,becameaboy,hadknownthefriendships,theadmirations,thethoughtsandtheindignationsofthatage。ItwaswithinthosehistoricalwallsthatIbegantounderstandthings,formaffections,layupastoreofmemoriesandafundofsensationswithwhichIwastobreakviolentlybythrowingmyselfintoanunrelatedexistence。Itwasliketheexperienceofanotherworld。Thewingsoftimemadeagreatduskoverallthis,andIfearedatfirstthatifIventuredbodilyinthereIwoulddiscoverthatIwhohavehadtodowithagoodmanyimaginaryliveshavebeenembracingmereshadowsinmyyouth。I

feared。Butfearinitselfmaybecomeafascination。Menhavegone,aloneandtrembling,intograveyardsatmidnight——justtoseewhatwouldhappen。Andthisadventurewastobepursuedinsunshine。Neitherwoulditbepursuedalone。Theinvitationwasextendedtousall。Thisjourneywouldhavesomethingofamigratorycharacter,theinvasionofatribe。Mypresent,allthatgavesolidityandvaluetoit,atanyrate,wouldstandbymeinthistestoftherealityofmypast。IwaspleasedwiththeideaofshowingmycompanionswhatPolishcountrylifewaslike;tovisitthetownwhereIwasatschoolbeforetheboysbymysideshouldgrowtooold,andgaininganindividualpastoftheirown,shouldlosetheirunsophisticatedinterestinmine。Itisonlyintheshortinstantsofearlyyouththatwehavethefacultyofcomingoutofourselvestoseedimlythevisionsandsharetheemotionsofanothersoul。Foryouthallisrealityinthisworld,andwithjustice,sinceitapprehendssovividlyitsimagesbehindwhichalongerlifemakesonedoubtwhetherthereisanysubstance。

Itrustedtothefreshreceptivityoftheseyoungbeingsinwhom,unlessHeredityisanemptyword,thereshouldhavebeenafibrewhichwouldanswertothesight,totheatmosphere,tothememoriesofthatcorneroftheearthwheremyownboyhoodhadreceiveditsearliestindependentimpressions。

ThefirstdaysofthethirdweekinJuly,whilethetelegraphwireshummedwiththewordsofenormousimportwhichweretofillbluebooks,yellowbooks,whitebooks,andtoarousethewonderofmankind,passedforusinlight-heartedpreparationsforthejourney。WhatwasitbutjustarushthroughGermany,togetacrossasquicklyaspossible?

Germanyisthepartoftheearth\'ssolidsurfaceofwhichIknowtheleast。InallmylifeIhadbeenacrossitonlytwice。ImaywellsayofitVIDITANTUM;andtheverylittleIsawwasthroughthewindowofarailwaycarriageatexpressspeed。Thosejourneysofminehadbeenmorelikepilgrimageswhenonehurriesontowardsthegoalforthesatisfactionofadeeperneedthancuriosity。Inthislastinstance,too,IwassoincuriousthatIwouldhavelikedtohavefallenasleepontheshoresofEnglandandopenedmyeyes,ifitwerepossible,onlyontheothersideoftheSilesianfrontier。Yet,intruth,asmanyothershavedone,Ihad“sensedit“——thatpromisedlandofsteel,ofchemicaldyes,ofmethod,ofefficiency;thatraceplantedinthemiddleofEurope,assumingingrotesquevanitytheattitudeofEuropeansamongsteffeteAsiaticsorbarbarousniggers;and,withaconsciousnessofsuperiorityfreeingtheirhandsfromallmoralbonds,anxioustotakeup,ifI

mayexpressmyselfso,the“perfectman\'sburden。”Meantime,inaclearingoftheTeutonicforest,theirsageswererearingaTreeofCynicalWisdom,asortofUpastree,whoseshademaybeseennowlyingovertheprostratebodyofBelgium。Itmustbesaidthattheylabouredopenlyenough,wateringitwiththemostauthenticsourcesofallmadness,andwatchingwiththeirbe-spectacledeyestheslowripeningofthegloriousblood-redfruit。Thesincerestwordsofpeace,wordsofmenace,andIverilybelievewordsofabasement,eveniftherehadbeenavoicevileenoughtoutterthem,wouldhavebeenwastedontheirecstasy。Forwhenthefruitripensonabranchitmustfall。Thereisnothingonearththatcanpreventit。

II。

Forreasonswhichatfirstseemedtomesomewhatobscure,thatoneofmycompanionswhosewishesarelawdecidedthatourtravelsshouldbegininanunusualwaybythecrossingoftheNorthSea。

WeshouldproceedfromHarwichtoHamburg。Besidesbeingthirty-

sixtimeslongerthantheDover-CalaispassagethisratherunusualroutehadanairofadventureinbetterkeepingwiththeromanticfeelingofthisPolishjourneywhichforsomanyyearshadbeenbeforeusinastateofaprojectfullofcolourandpromise,butalwaysretreating,elusivelikeanenticingmirage。

And,afterall,ithadturnedouttobenomirage。Nowondertheywereexcited。It\'snomeanexperiencetolayyourhandsonamirage。Thedayofdeparturehadcome,theveryhourhadstruck。

Theluggagewascomingdownstairs。Itwasmostconvincing。Polandthen,iferasedfromthemap,yetexistedinreality;itwasnotamerePAYSDUREVE,whereyoucantravelonlyinimagination。Fornoman,theyargued,notevenfather,anhabitualpursuerofdreams,wouldpushtheloveofthenovelist\'sartofmake-believetothepointofburdeninghimselfwithrealtrunksforavoyageAU

PAYSDUREVE。

Asweleftthedoorofourhouse,nestlingin,perhaps,themostpeacefulnookinKent,thesky,afterweeksofperfectlybrazenserenity,veileditsbluedepthsandstartedtoweepfinetearsfortherefreshmentoftheparchedfields。Apearlyblursettledoverthem,andalightsiftedofallglare,ofeverythingunkindlyandsearchingthatdwellsinthesplendourofunveiledskies。Allunconsciousofgoingtowardstheveryscenesofwar,Icarriedoffinmyeye,thistinyfragmentofGreatBritain;afewfields,awoodedrise;aclumpoftreesortwo,withashortstretchofroad,andhereandthereagleamofredwallandtiledroofabovethedarkeninghedgeswrappedupinsoftmistandpeace。AndIfeltthatallthishadaverystrongholdonmeastheembodimentofabeneficentandgentlespirit;thatitwasdeartomenotasaninheritance,butasanacquisition,asaconquestinthesenseinwhichawomanisconquered——bylove,whichisasortofsurrender。

Thesewerestrange,asifdisproportionatethoughtstothematterinhand,whichwasthesimplestsortofaContinentalholiday。AndIamcertainthatmycompanions,nearastheyaretome,feltnoothertroublebutthesuppressedexcitementofpleasurableanticipation。Theformsandthespiritofthelandbeforetheireyesweretheirinheritance,nottheirconquest——whichisathingprecarious,and,therefore,themostprecious,possessingyouifonlybythefearofunworthinessratherthanpossessedbyyou。

Moreover,aswesattogetherinthesamerailwaycarriage,theywerelookingforwardtoavoyageinspace,whereasIfeltmoreandmoreplainly,thatwhatIhadstartedonwasajourneyintime,intothepast;afearfulenoughprospectforthemostconsistent,buttohimwhohadnotknownhowtopreserveagainsthisimpulsestheorderandcontinuityofhislife——sothatattimesitpresenteditselftohisconscienceasaseriesofbetrayals——stillmoredreadful。

Idownherethesethoughtssoexclusivelypersonal,toexplainwhytherewasnoroominmyconsciousnessfortheapprehensionofaEuropeanwar。Idon\'tmeantosaythatIignoredthepossibility;

Isimplydidnotthinkofit。Anditmadenodifference;forifI

hadthoughtofit,itcouldonlyhavebeeninthelameandinconclusivewayofthecommonuninitiatedmortals;andIamsurethatnothingshortofintellectualcertitude——obviouslyunattainablebythemaninthestreet——couldhavestayedmeonthatjourneywhichnowthatIhadstartedonitseemedanirrevocablething,anecessityofmyself-respect。

London,theLondonbeforethewar,flauntingitsenormousglare,asofamonstrousconflagrationupintotheblacksky——withitsbestVenice-likeaspectofrainyevenings,thewetasphaltedstreetslyingwiththesheenofsleepingwaterinwindingcanals,andthegreathousesofthecitytoweringalldark,likeemptypalaces,abovethereflectedlightsoftheglisteningroadway。

Everythinginthesubduedincompletenight-lifearoundtheMansionHousewentonnormallywithitsfascinatingairofadeadcommercialcityofsombrewallsthroughwhichtheinextinguishableactivityofitsmillionsstreamedEastandWestinabrilliantflowoflightedvehicles。

InLiverpoolStreet,asusualtoo,throughthedoublegates,acontinuouslineoftaxi-cabsglideddowntheinclinedapproachandupagain,likeanendlesschainofdredger-buckets,pouringinthepassengers,anddippingthemoutofthegreatrailwaystationundertheinexorablepallidfaceoftheclocktellingoffthediminishingminutesofpeace。Itwasthehouroftheboat-trainstoHolland,toHamburg,andthereseemedtobenolackofpeople,fearless,reckless,orignorant,whowantedtogototheseplaces。Thestationwasnormallycrowded,andiftherewasagreatflutterofeveningpapersinthemultitudeofhandstherewerenosignsofextraordinaryemotiononthatmultitudeoffaces。TherewasnothinginthemtodistractmefromthethoughtthatitwassingularlyappropriatethatIshouldstartfromthisstationontheretracedwayofmyexistence。Forthiswasthestationatwhich,thirty-sevenyearsbefore,IarrivedonmyfirstvisittoLondon。

Notthesamebuilding,butthesamespot。Atnineteenyearsofage,afteraperiodofprobationandtrainingIhadimposeduponmyselfasordinaryseamanonboardaNorthSeacoaster,IhadcomeupfromLowestoft——myfirstlongrailwayjourneyinEngland——to“signon“foranAntipodeanvoyageinadeep-watership。StraightfromarailwaycarriageIhadwalkedintothegreatcitywithsomethingofthefeelingofatravellerpenetratingintoavastandunexploredwilderness。Noexplorercouldhavebeenmorelonely。I

didnotknowasinglesoulofallthesemillionsthatallaroundmepeopledthemysteriousdistancesofthestreets。IcannotsayI

wasfreefromalittleyouthfulawe,butatthatageone\'sfeelingsaresimple。Iwaselated。Iwaspursuingaclearaim,Iwascarryingoutadeliberateplanofmakingoutofmyself,inthefirstplace,aseamanworthyoftheservice,goodenoughtoworkbythesideofthemenwithwhomIwastolive;andinthesecondplace,Ihadtojustifymyexistencetomyself,toredeematacitmoralpledge。Boththeseaimsweretobeattainedbythesameeffort。Howsimpleseemedtheproblemoflifethen,onthathazydayofearlySeptemberintheyear1878,whenIenteredLondonforthefirsttime。

Fromthatpointofview——Youthandastraight-forwardschemeofconduct——itwascertainlyayearofgrace。AllthehelpIhadtogetintouchwiththeworldIwasinvadingwasapieceofpapernotmuchbiggerthanthepalmofmyhand——inwhichIheldit——tornoutofalargerplanofLondonforthegreaterfacilityofreference。

Ithadbeentheobjectofcarefulstudyforsomedayspast。ThefactthatIcouldtakeaconveyanceatthestationneveroccurredtomymind,no,notevenwhenIgotoutintothestreet,andstood,takingmyanxiousbearings,inthemidst,sotospeak,oftwentythousandhansoms。Astrangeabsenceofmindorunconsciousconvictionthatonecannotapproachanimportantmomentofone\'slifebymeansofahiredcarriage?Yes,itwouldhavebeenapreposterousproceeding。AndindeedIwastomakeanAustralianvoyageandencircletheglobebeforeeverenteringaLondonhansom。

Anotherdocument,acuttingfromanewspaper,containingtheaddressofanobscureshippingagent,wasinmypocket。AndI

needednottotakeitout。Thataddresswasasifgravendeepinmybrain。ImuttereditswordstomyselfasIwalkedon,navigatingtheseaofLondonbythechartconcealedinthepalmofmyhand;forIhadvowedtomyselfnottoinquiremywayfromanyone。Youthisthetimeofrashpledges。HadItakenawrongturningIwouldhavebeenlost;andiffaithfultomypledgeI

mighthaveremainedlostfordays,forweeks,haveleftperhapsmybonestobediscoveredbleachinginsomeblindalleyoftheWhitechapeldistrict,asithadhappenedtolonelytravellerslostinthebush。ButIwalkedontomydestinationwithouthesitationormistake,showingthere,forthefirsttime,someofthatfacultytoabsorbandmakemyowntheimagedtopographyofachart,whichinlateryearswastohelpmeinregionsofintricatenavigationtokeeptheshipsentrustedtomeofftheground。TheplaceIwasboundtowasnoteasytofind。Itwasoneofthosecourtshiddenawayfromthechartedandnavigablestreets,lostamongthethickgrowthofhouseslikeadarkpoolinthedepthsofaforest,approachedbyaninconspicuousarchwayasifbysecretpath;aDickensiannookofLondon,thatwondercity,thegrowthofwhichbearsnosignofintelligentdesign,butmanytracesoffreakishlysombrephantasytheGreatMasterknewsowellhowtobringoutbythemagicofhisunderstandinglove。AndtheofficeIenteredwasDickensiantoo。ThedustoftheWaterlooyearlayonthepanesandframesofitswindows;earlyGeorgiangrimeclungtoitssombrewainscoting。

Itwasoneo\'clockintheafternoon,butthedaywasgloomy。Bythelightofasinglegas-jetdependingfromthesmokedceilingI

sawanelderlyman,inalongcoatofblackbroadcloth。Hehadagreybeard,abignose,thicklips,andheavyshoulders。HiscurlywhitehairandthegeneralcharacterofhisheadrecalledvaguelyaburlyapostleintheBAROCCOstyleofItalianart。Standingupatatall,shabby,slantingdesk,hissilver-rimmedspectaclespusheduphighonhisforehead,hewaseatingamutton-chop,whichhadbeenjustbroughttohimfromsomeDickensianeating-houseroundthecorner。

Withoutceasingtoeatheturnedtomehisflorid,BAROCCO

apostle\'sfacewithanexpressionofinquiry。

IproducedelaboratelyaseriesofvocalsoundswhichmusthavebornesufficientresemblancetothephoneticsofEnglishspeech,forhisfacebrokeintoasmileofcomprehensionalmostatonce——

“Oh,it\'syouwhowrotealettertometheotherdayfromLowestoftaboutgettingaship。”

IhadwrittentohimfromLowestoft。Ican\'trememberasinglewordofthatletternow。ItwasmyveryfirstcompositionintheEnglishlanguage。Andhehadunderstoodit,evidently,forhespoketothepointatonce,explainingthathisbusiness,mainly,wastofindgoodshipsforyounggentlemenwhowantedtogotoseaaspremiumapprenticeswithaviewofbeingtrainedforofficers。

Buthegatheredthatthiswasnotmyobject。Ididnotdesiretobeapprenticed。Wasthatthecase?

Itwas。Hewasgoodenoughtosaythen,“OfcourseIseethatyouareagentleman。ButyourwishistogetaberthbeforethemastasanAbleSeamanifpossible。Isthatit?“

Itwascertainlymywish;buthestateddoubtfullythathefearedhecouldnothelpmemuchinthis。TherewasanActofParliamentwhichmadeitpenaltoprocureshipsforsailors。“AnAct-of-

Parliament。Alaw,“hetookpainstoimpressitagainandagainonmyforeignunderstanding,whileIlookedathiminconsternation。

IhadnotbeenhalfanhourinLondonbeforeIhadrunmyheadagainstanActofParliament!Whatahopelessadventure!However,theBAROCCOapostlewasaresourcefulpersoninhisway,andwemanagedtogetroundthehardletterofitwithoutdamagetoitsfinespirit。Yet,strictlyspeaking,itwasnottheconductofagoodcitizen;andinretrospectthereisanunfilialflavouraboutthatearlysinofmine。ForthisActofParliament,theMerchantShippingActoftheVictorianera,hadbeeninamannerofspeakingafatherandmothertome。Formanyyearsithadregulatedanddisciplinedmylife,prescribedmyfoodandtheamountofmybreathingspace,hadlookedaftermyhealthandtriedasmuchaspossibletosecuremypersonalsafetyinariskycalling。Itisn\'tsuchabadthingtoleadalifeofhardtoilandplaindutywithinthefourcornersofanhonestActofParliament。AndIamgladtosaythatitsseventieshaveneverbeenappliedtome。

Intheyear1878,theyearof“PeacewithHonour,“IhadwalkedasloneasanyhumanbeinginthestreetsofLondon,outofLiverpoolStreetStation,tosurrendermyselftoitscare。Andnow,intheyearofthewarwagedforhonourandconsciencemorethanforanyothercause,Iwasthereagain,nolongeralone,butamanofinfinitelydearandclosetiesgrownsincethattime,ofworkdone,ofwordswritten,offriendshipssecured。Itwasliketheclosingofathirty-six-yearcycle。

AllunawareoftheWarAngelalreadyawaiting,withthetrumpetathislips,thestrokeofthefatalhour,Isatthere,thinkingthatthislifeofoursisneitherlongnorshort,butthatitcanappearverywonderful,entertaining,andpathetic,withsymbolicimagesandbizarreassociationscrowdedintoonehalf-hourofretrospectivemusing。

Ifelt,too,thatthisjourney,sosuddenlyenteredupon,wasboundtotakemeawayfromdailylife\'sactualitiesateverystep。I

feltitmorethaneverwhenpresentlywesteamedoutintotheNorthSea,onadarknightfitfulwithgustsofwind,andIlingeredondeck,aloneofallthetaleoftheship\'spassengers。Thatseawastomesomethingunforgettable,somethingmuchmorethananame。Ithadbeenforsometimetheschool-roomofmytrade。Onit,Imaysafelysay,Ihadlearned,too,myfirstwordsofEnglish。Awildandstormyabode,sometimes,wasthatconfined,shallow-wateracademyofseamanshipfromwhichIlaunchedmyselfonthewideoceans。MyteachershadbeenthesailorsoftheNorfolkshore;

coastmen,withsteadyeyes,mightylimbs,andgentlevoice;menofveryfewwords,whichatleastwereneverbareofmeaning。Honest,strong,steadymen,soberedbydomesticties,oneandall,asfarasIcanremember。

ThatiswhatyearsagotheNorthSeaIcouldheargrowlinginthedarkallroundtheshiphadbeenforme。AndIfanciedthatImusthavebeencarryingitsvoiceinmyeareversince,fornothingcouldbemorefamiliarthanthoseshort,angrysoundsIwaslisteningtowithasmileofaffectionaterecognition。

Icouldnotguessthatbeforemanydaysmyoldschoolroomwouldbedesecratedbyviolence,litteredwithwrecks,withdeathwalkingitswaves,hidingunderitswaters。PerhapswhileIamwritingthesewordsthechildren,ormaybethegrandchildren,ofmypacificteachersareoutintrawlers,undertheNavalflag,dredgingforGermansubmarinemines。

III。

IhavesaidthattheNorthSeawasmyfinishingschoolofseamanshipbeforeIlaunchedmyselfonthewideroceans。Confinedasitisincomparisonwiththevaststageofthiswater-girtglobe,Ididnotknowitinallitsparts。Myclass-roomwastheregionoftheEnglishEastCoastwhich,intheyearofPeacewithHonour,hadlongforgottenthewarepisodesbelongingtoitsmaritimehistory。Itwasapeacefulcoast,agricultural,industrial,thehomeoffishermen。Atnightthelightsofitsmanytownsplayedontheclouds,orinclearweatherlaystill,hereandthere,inbrilliantpoolsabovetheink-blackoutlineoftheland。

OnmanyanightIhavehauledatthebracesundertheshadowofthatcoast,envying,assailorswill,thepeopleonshoresleepingquietlyintheirbedswithinsoundofthesea。Iimaginethatnotoneheadonthoseenviedpillowswasmadeuneasybytheslightestpremonitionoftherealitiesofnavalwartheshortlifetimeofonegenerationwastobringsoclosetotheirhomes。

ThoughfarawayfromthatregionofkindlymemoriesandtraversingapartoftheNorthSeamuchlessknowntome,Iwasdeeplyconsciousofthefamiliarityofmysurroundings。Itwasacloudy,nastyday:andtheaspectsofNaturedon\'tchange,unlessinthecourseofthousandsofyears——or,perhaps,centuries。ThePhoenicians,itsfirstdiscoverers,theRomans,thefirstimperialrulersofthatsea,hadexperienceddayslikethis,sodifferentinthewintryqualityofthelight,evenonaJulyafternoon,fromanythingtheyhadeverknownintheirnativeMediterranean。Formyself,averylatecomerintothatsea,anditsformerpupil,I

accordedamusedrecognitiontothecharacteristicaspectsowellrememberedfrommydaysoftraining。Thesameoldthing。Agrey-

greenexpanseofsmudgywatersgrinningangrilyatonewithwhitefoam-ridges,andoverallacheerless,unglowingcanopy,apparentlymadeofwetblotting-paper。Fromtimetotimeaflurryoffinerainblewalonglikeapuffofsmokeacrossthedotsofdistantfishingboats,veryfew,veryscattered,andtossingrestlesslyonaneverdissolving,everre-formingsky-line。

Thoseflurries,andthesteadyrollingoftheship,accountedfortheemptinessofthedecks,favouringmyreminiscentmood。Itmighthavebeenadayoffiveandthirtyyearsago,whentherewereonthisandeveryotherseamoresailsandlesssmoke-stackstobeseen。Yet,thankstotheunchangeableseaIcouldhavegivenmyselfuptotheillusionofarevisedpast,haditnotbeenfortheperiodicaltransitacrossmygazeofaGermanpassenger。Hewasmarchingroundandroundtheboatdeckwithcharacteristicdetermination。Twosturdyboysgambolledroundhiminhisprogressliketwodisorderlysatellitesroundtheirparentplanet。Hewasbringingthemhome,fromtheirschoolinEngland,fortheirholiday。WhatcouldhaveinducedsuchasoundTeutontoentrusthisoffspringtotheunhealthyinfluencesofthateffete,corrupt,rottenandcriminalcountryIcannotimagine。Itcouldhardlyhavebeenfrommotivesofeconomy。Ididnotspeaktohim。HetrodthedeckofthatdecadentBritishshipwithascornfulfootwhilehisbreast(andtoalargeextenthisstomach,too)appearedexpandedbytheconsciousnessofasuperiordestiny。LaterIcouldobservethesametruculentbearing,touchedwiththeracialgrotesqueness,inthemenoftheLANDWEHRcorps,thatpassedthroughCracowtoreinforcetheAustrianarmyinEasternGalicia。Indeed,thehaughtypassengermightverywellhavebeen,mostprobablywas,anofficeroftheLANDWEHR;andperhapsthosetwofineactiveboysareorphansbynow。Thusthingsacquiresignificancebythelapseoftime。Acitizen,afather,awarrior,amoteinthedust-cloudofsixmillionfightingparticles,anunconsideredtrifleforthejawsofwar,hishumanitywasnotconsciouslyimpressedonmymindatthetime。Mainly,forme,hewasasharptappingofheelsroundthecornerofthedeck-house,awhiteyachtingcapandagreenovercoatgettingperiodicallybetweenmyeyesandtheshiftingcloud-horizonoftheashy-greyNorthSea。Hewasbutashadowyintrusionandadisregardedone,for,farawaytheretotheWest,inthedirectionoftheDoggerBank,wherefishermengoseekingtheirdailybreadandsometimesfindtheirgraves,Icouldbeholdanexperienceofmyowninthewinterof\'81,notofwar,truly,butofafairlylivelycontestwiththeelementswhichwereveryangryindeed。

Therehadbeenatroublesomeweekofit,includingonehatefulnight——oranightofhate(itisn\'tfornothingthattheNorthSeaisalsocalledtheGermanOcean)——whenallthefurystoredinitsheartseemedconcentratedononeshipwhichcoulddonobetterthanfloatonhersideinanunnatural,disagreeable,precarious,andaltogetherintolerablemanner。Therewereonboard,besidesmyself,seventeenmenallgoodandtrue,includingaroundenormousDutchmanwho,inthosehoursbetweensunsetandsunrise,managedtolosehisblown-outappearancesomehow,becameasitweredeflated,andthereafterforagoodlongtimemovedinourmidstwrinkledandslackalloverlikeahalf-collapsedballoon。Thewhimperingofourdeck-boy,askinny,impressionablelittlescarecrowoutofatraining-ship,forwhom,becauseofthetenderimmaturityofhisnerves,thisdisplayofGermanOceanfrightfulnesswastoomuch(beforetheyearwasouthedevelopedintoasufficientlycheekyyoungruffian),hisdesolatewhimpering,Isay,heardbetweenthegustsofthatblack,savagenight,wasmuchmorepresenttomymindandindeedtomysensesthanthegreenovercoatandthewhitecapoftheGermanpassengercirclingthedeckindefatigably,attendedbyhistwogyratingchildren。

“That\'saverynicegentleman。”Thisinformation,togetherwiththefactthathewasawidowerandaregularpassengertwiceayearbytheship,wascommunicatedtomesuddenlybyourcaptain。Atintervalsthroughthedayhewouldpopoutofthechart-roomandoffermeshortsnatchesofconversation。Heownedasimplesoulandanotveryentertainingmind,andhewaswithoutmaliceand,I

believe,quiteunconsciously,awarmGermanophil。Andnowonder!

Ashetoldmehimself,hehadbeenfifteenyearsonthatrun,andspentalmostasmuchofhislifeinHamburgasinHarwich。

“Wonderfulpeopletheyare,“herepeatedfromtimetotime,withoutenteringintoparticulars,butwithmanynodsofsagaciousobstinacy。Whatheknewofthem,Isuppose,wereafewcommercialtravellersandsmallmerchants,mostlikely。ButIhadobservedlongbeforethatGermangeniushasahypnotisingpoweroverhalf-

bakedsoulsandhalf-lightedminds。Thereisanimmenseforceofsuggestioninhighlyorganisedmediocrity。HaditnothypnotisedhalfEurope?MymanwasverymuchunderthespellofGermanexcellence。Ontheotherhand,hiscontemptforFrancewasequallygeneralandunbounded。Itriedtoadvancesomeargumentsagainstthisposition,butIonlysucceededinmakinghimhostile。“I

believeyouareaFrenchmanyourself,“hesnarledatlast,givingmeanintenselysuspiciouslook;andforthwithbrokeoffcommunicationswithamanofsuchunsoundsympathies。

Hourbyhourtheblotting-paperskyandthegreatflatgreenishsmudgeoftheseahadbeentakingonadarkertone,withoutanychangeintheircolouringandtexture。EveningwascomingonovertheNorthSea。Blackuninterestinghummocksoflandappeared,dottingtheduskinessofwaterandcloudsintheEasternboard:

topsofislandsfringingtheGermanshore。WhileIwaslookingattheiranticsamongstthewaves——andforalltheirsoliditytheywereveryelusivethingsinthefailinglight——anotherpassengercameoutondeck。Thisoneworeadarkovercoatandagreycap。

Theyellowleatherstrapofhisbinocularcasecrossedhischest。

Hiselderlyredcheeksnourishedbutaverythincropofshortwhitehairs,andtheendofhisnosewassoperfectlyroundthatitdeterminedthewholecharacterofhisphysiognomy。Indeednothingelseinithadtheslightestchancetoassertitself。Hisdisposition,unlikethewidower\'s,appearedtobemildandhumane。

Heofferedmetheloanofhisglasses。Hehadawifeandsomesmallchildrenconcealedinthedepthsoftheship,andhethoughttheywereverywellwheretheywere。Hiseldestsonwasaboutthedeckssomewhere。

“WeareAmericans,“heremarkedweightily,butinaratherpeculiartone。HespokeEnglishwiththeaccentofourcaptain\'s“wonderfulpeople,“andproceededtogivemethehistoryofthefamily\'scrossingtheAtlanticinaWhiteStarliner。TheyremainedinEnglandjustthetimenecessaryforarailwayjourneyfromLiverpooltoHarwich。Hispeople(thoseinthedepthsoftheship)

werenaturallyalittletired。

Atthatmomentayoungmanofabouttwenty,hisson,rusheduptousfromthefore-deckinastateofintenseelation。“Hurrah,“hecriedunderhisbreath。“ThefirstGermanlight!Hurrah!“

AndthosetwoAmericancitizensshookhandsonitwiththegreatestfervour,whileIturnedawayandreceivedfullintheeyesthebrilliantwinkoftheBorkumlighthousesquattinglowdowninthedarkness。TheshadeofthenighthadsettledontheNorthSea。

IdonotthinkIhaveeverseenbeforeanightsofulloflights。

Thegreatchangeofsealifesincemytimewasbroughthometome。

Ihadbeenconsciousalldayofaninterminableprocessionofsteamers。Theywentonandonasifinchaseofeachother,theBaltictrade,thetradeofScandinavia,ofDenmark,ofGermany,pitchingheavilyintoaheadseaandboundforthegatewayofDoverStraits。Singly,andinsmallcompaniesoftwoandthree,theyemergedfromthedull,colourless,sunlessdistancesaheadasifthesupplyofratherroughlyfinishedmechanicaltoyswereinexhaustibleinsomemysteriouscheapstoreawaythere,belowthegreycurveoftheearth。Cargosteamvesselshavereachedbythistimeaheightofutilitarianuglinesswhich,whenonereflectsthatitistheproductofhumaningenuity,strikeshopelessaweintoone。Thesedismalcreationslookstilluglieratseathaninport,andwithanaddedtouchoftheridiculous。Theirrollingwaddlewhenseenatacertainangle,theirabruptclockworknoddinginasea-way,sounlikethesoaringliftandswingofacraftundersail,haveinthemsomethingcaricatural,asuggestionofalowparodydirectedatnoblepredecessorsbyanimprovedgenerationofdull,mechanicaltoilers,conceitedandwithoutgrace。

Whentheyswitchedon(eachoftheseunlovelycargotankscarriedtamelightningwithinitsslab-sidedbody),whentheyswitchedontheirlampstheyspangledthenightwiththecheap,electric,shop-

glitter,here,there,andeverywhere,asofsomeHighStreet,brokenupandwashedouttosea。Later,Heligolandcutintotheoverheaddarknesswithitspowerfulbeam,infinitelyprolongedoutofunfathomablenightundertheclouds。

Iremainedondeckuntilwestoppedandasteampilot-boat,sooverlightedamidshipsthatonecouldnotmakeouthercompleteshape,glidedacrossourbowsandsentapilotonboard。Ifearthattheoar,asaworkingimplement,willbecomepresentlyasobsoleteasthesail。Thepilotboardedusinamotor-dinghy。

Moreandmoreismankindreducingitsphysicalactivitiestopullingleversandtwirlinglittlewheels。Progress!Yettheoldermethodsofmeetingnaturalforcesdemandedintelligencetoo;

anequallyfinereadinessofwits。Andreadinessofwitsworkingincombinationwiththestrengthofmusclesmadeamorecompleteman。

Itwasreallyasurprisinglysmalldinghyanditrantoandfrolikeawater-insectfussingnoisilydowntherewithimmenseself-

importance。WithinhailofusthehulloftheElbelightshipfloatedalldarkandsilentunderitsenormousround,servicelantern;afaithfulblackshadowwatchingthebroadestuaryfulloflights。

SuchwasmyfirstviewoftheElbeapproachedunderthewingsofpeacereadyforflightawayfromthelucklessshoresofEurope。

OurvisualimpressionsremainwithussopersistentlythatIfinditextremelydifficulttoholdfasttotherationalbeliefthatnoweverythingisdarkoverthere,thattheElbelightshiphasbeentowedawayfromitspostofduty,thetriumphantbeamofHeligolandextinguished,andthepilot-boatlaidup,orturnedtowarlikeusesforlackofitsproperworktodo。Andobviouslyitmustbeso。

Anytrickleofoverseatradethatpassesyetthatwaymustbecreepingalongcautiouslywiththeunlighted,war-blightedblackcoastcloseononehand,andsuddendeathontheother。ForallthespacewesteamedthroughthatSundayeveningmustnowbeonegreatminefield,sownthicklywiththeseedsofhate;whilesubmarinesstealouttosea,overtheveryspotperhapswheretheinsect-dinghyputapilotonboardofuswithsomuchfussyimportance。Mines;Submarines。Thelastwordinsea-warfare!

Progress——impressivelydisclosedbythiswar。

Therehavebeenotherwars!Warsnotinferiorinthegreatnessofthestakeandinthefierceanimosityoffeelings。DuringthatonewhichwasfinishedahundredyearsagoithappenedthatwhiletheEnglishFleetwaskeepingwatchonBrest,anAmerican,perhapsFultonhimself,offeredtotheMaritimePrefectoftheportandtotheFrenchAdmiral,aninventionwhichwouldsinkalltheunsuspectingEnglishshipsoneafteranother——or,atanyratemostofthem。Theofferwasnoteventakenintoconsideration;andthePrefectendshisreporttotheMinisterinPariswithafinephraseofindignation:“Itisnotthesortofdeathonewoulddealtobravemen。”

Andbehold,beforehistoryhadtimetohatchanotherwarofthelikeproportionsintheintensityofarousedpassionsandthegreatnessofissues,thedeadflavourofarchaismdescendedonthemanlysentimentofthoseself-denyingwords。Mankindhasbeendemoralisedsincebyitsownmasteryofmechanicalappliances。Itsspiritisapparentlysoweaknow,anditsfleshhasgrownsostrong,thatitwillfaceanydeadlyhorrorofdestructionandcannotresistthetemptationtouseanystealthy,murderouscontrivance。Ithasbecometheintoxicatedslaveofitsowndetestableingenuity。Itistrue,too,thatsincetheNapoleonictimeanothersortofwar-doctrinehasbeeninculcatedinanation,andheldouttotheworld。

IV

Onthisjourneyofours,whichformewasessentiallynotaprogress,butaretracingoffootstepsontheroadoflife,IhadnobeaconstolookforinGermany。Ihadneverlingeredinthatlandwhich,onthewhole,issosingularlybarrenofmemorablemanifestationsofgeneroussympathiesandmagnanimousimpulses。Anineradicable,invincible,provincialismofenvyandvanityclingstotheformsofitsthoughtlikeafrowsygarment。EvenwhileyetveryyoungIturnedmyeyesawayfromitinstinctivelyasfromathreateningphantom。Ibelievethatchildrenanddogshave,intheirinnocence,aspecialpowerofperceptionasfarasspectralapparitionsandcomingmisfortunesareconcerned。

IletmyselfbecarriedthroughGermanyasifitwerepurespace,withoutsights,withoutsounds。Nowhispersofthewarreachedmyvoluntaryabstraction。Andperhapsnotsoveryvoluntaryafterall!Eachofusisafascinatingspectacletohimself,andIhadtowatchmyownpersonalityreturningfromanotherworld,asitwere,torevisittheglimpsesofoldmoons。Consideringtheconditionofhumanity,Iam,perhaps,notsomuchtoblameforgivingmyselfuptothatoccupation。Weprizethesensationofourcontinuity,andwecanonlycaptureitinthatway。Bywatching。

WearrivedinCracowlateatnight。Afterascramblysupper,I

saidtomyeldestboy,“Ican\'tgotobed。Iamgoingoutforalookround。Coming?“

Hewasreadyenough。Forhim,allthiswaspartoftheinterestingadventureofthewholejourney。Westeppedoutoftheportalofthehotelintoanemptystreet,verysilentandbrightwithmoonlight。Iwas,indeed,revisitingtheglimpsesofthemoon。I

feltsomuchlikeaghostthatthediscoverythatIcouldremembersuchmaterialthingsastherightturntotakeandthegeneraldirectionofthestreetgavemeamomentofwistfulsurprise。

Thestreet,straightandnarrow,ranintothegreatMarketSquareofthetown,thecentreofitsaffairsandofthelightersideofitslife。Wecouldseeatthefarendofthestreetapromisingwideningofspace。Atthecorneranunassuming(butarmed)

policeman,wearingceremoniouslyatmidnightapairofwhitegloveswhichmadehisbighandsextremelynoticeable,turnedhisheadtolookatthegrizzledforeignerholdingforthinastrangetonguetoayouthonwhosearmheleaned。

TheSquare,immenseinitssolitude,wasfulltothebrimofmoonlight。Thegarlandoflightsatthefootofthehousesseemedtoburnatthebottomofabluishpool。InoticedwithinfinitesatisfactionthattheunnecessarytreestheMunicipalityinsisteduponstickingbetweenthestoneshadbeensteadilyrefusingtogrow。TheywerenotabitbiggerthanthepoorvictimsIcouldremember。Also,thepavingoperationsseemedtobeexactlyatthesamepointatwhichIleftthemfortyyearsbefore。Therewerethedull,torn-uppatchesonthatbrightexpanse,thepilesofpavingmateriallookingominouslyblack,likeheadsofrocksonasilverysea。WhowasitthatsaidthatTimeworkswonders?Whatanexplodedsuperstition!Asfarasthesetreesandthesepavingstoneswereconcerned,ithadworkednothing。Thesuspicionoftheunchangeablenessofthingsalreadyvaguelysuggestedtomysensesbyourrapiddrivefromtherailwaystationwasagreeablystrengthenedwithinme。

“WearenowonthelineA。B。,“Isaidtomycompanion,importantly。

ItwasthenamebestowedinmytimeononeofthesidesoftheSquarebytheseniorstudentsofthattownofclassicallearningandhistoricalrelics。Thecommoncitizensknewnothingofit,and,eveniftheyhad,wouldnothavedreamedoftakingitseriously。Hewhouseditwasoftheinitiated,belongedtotheSchools。Weyoungstersregardedthatnameasafinejest,theinventionofamostexcellentfancy。EvenasIutteredittomyboyIexperiencedagainthatsenseofmyprivilegedinitiation。

Andthen,happeningtolookupatthewall,Isawinthelightofthecornerlamp,awhite,cast-irontabletfixedthereon,bearinganinscriptioninraisedblackletters,thus:“LineA。B。”

Heavens!Thenamehadbeenadoptedofficially!Anytownurchin,anyguttersnipe,anyherb-sellingwomanofthemarket-place,anywanderingBoeotian,wasfreetotalkofthelineA。B。,towalkonthelineA。B。,toappointtomeethisfriendsonthelineA。B。Ithadbecomeamerenameinadirectory。Iwasstunnedbytheextrememutabilityofthings。Timecouldworkwonders,andnomistake。AMunicipalityhadstolenaninventionofexcellentfancy,andafinejesthadturnedintoahorridpieceofcast-iron。

Iproposedthatweshouldwalktotheotherendoftheline,usingtheprofanedname,notonlywithoutgusto,butwithpositivedistaste。Andthis,too,wasoneofthewondersofTime,forabareminutehadworkedthatchange。TherewasattheendofthelineacertainstreetIwantedtolookat,Iexplainedtomycompanion。

ToourrighttheunequalmassivetowersofSt。Mary\'sChurchsoaredaloftintotheetherealradianceoftheair,veryblackontheirshadedsides,glowingwithasoftphosphorescentsheenontheothers。InthedistancetheFlorianGate,thickandsquatunderitspointedroof,barredthestreetwiththesquareshouldersoftheoldcitywall。Inthenarrow,brilliantlypalevistaofbluishflagstonesandsilveryfrontsofhouses,itsblackarchwaystoodoutsmallandverydistinct。

Therewasnotasoulinsight,andnoteventheechoofafootstepforourears。Intothiscoldlyilluminatedanddumbemptinessthereissuedoutofmyarousedmemory,asmallboyofeleven,wendinghisway,notveryfast,toapreparatoryschoolforday-

pupilsonthesecondfloorofthethirdhousedownfromtheFlorianGate。Itwasinthewintermonthsof1868。Ateighto\'clockofeverymorningthatGodmade,sleetorshine,IwalkedupFlorianStreet。Butofthat,myfirstschool,Irememberverylittle。I

believethatoneofmyco-suffererstherehasbecomeamuchappreciatededitorofhistoricaldocuments。ButIdidn\'tsuffermuchfromthevariousimperfectionsofmyfirstschool。Iwasratherindifferenttoschooltroubles。Ihadaprivategnawingwormofmyown。Thiswasthetimeofmyfather\'slastillness。

Everyeveningatseven,turningmybackontheFlorianGate,I

walkedallthewaytoabigoldhouseinaquietnarrowstreetagooddistancebeyondtheGreatSquare。There,inalargedrawing-

room,panelledandbare,withheavycornicesandaloftyceiling,inalittleoasisoflightmadebytwocandlesinadesertofdusk,Isatatalittletabletoworryandinkmyselfallovertillthetaskofmypreparationwasdone。Thetableofmytoilfacedatallwhitedoor,whichwaskeptclosed;nowandthenitwouldcomeajarandanuninawhitecoifwouldsqueezeherselfthroughthecrack,glideacrosstheroom,anddisappear。Thereweretwoofthesenoiselessnursingnuns。Theirvoiceswereseldomheard。For,indeed,whatcouldtheyhavehadtosay?Whentheydidspeaktomeitwaswiththeirlipshardlymoving,inaclaustral,clearwhisper。Ourdomesticmatterswereorderedbytheelderlyhousekeeperofourneighbouronthesecondfloor,aCanonoftheCathedral,lentfortheemergency。She,too,spokebutseldom。

Sheworeablackdresswithacrosshangingbyachainonheramplebosom。Andthoughwhenshespokeshemovedherlipsmorethanthenuns,sheneverlethervoiceriseaboveapeacefullymurmuringnote。Theairaroundmewasallpiety,resignation,andsilence。

Idon\'tknowwhatwouldhavebecomeofmeifIhadnotbeenareadingboy。Myprep。finishedIwouldhavehadnothingtodobutsitandwatchtheawfulstillnessofthesickroomflowoutthroughthecloseddoorandcoldlyenfoldmyscaredheart。IsupposethatinafutilechildishwayIwouldhavegonecrazy。ButIwasareadingboy。Thereweremanybooksabout,lyingonconsoles,ontables,andevenonthefloor,forwehadnothadtimetosettledown。Iread!WhatdidInotread!Sometimestheeldernun,glidingupandcastingamistrustfullookontheopenpages,wouldlayherhandlightlyonmyheadandsuggestinadoubtfulwhisper,“Perhapsitisnotverygoodforyoutoreadthesebooks。”Iwouldraisemyeyestoherfacemutely,andwithavaguegestureofgivingitupshewouldglideaway。

Laterintheevening,butnotalways,Iwouldbepermittedtotip-

toeintothesickroomtosaygood-nighttothefigureproneonthebed,whichoftencouldnotacknowledgemypresencebutbyaslowmovementoftheeyes,putmylipsdutifullytothenervelesshandlyingonthecoverlet,andtip-toeoutagain。ThenIwouldgotobed,inaroomattheendofthecorridor,andoften,notalways,crymyselfintoagoodsoundsleep。

Ilookedforwardtowhatwascomingwithanincredulousterror。I

turnedmyeyesfromitsometimeswithsuccess,andyetallthetimeIhadanawfulsensationoftheinevitable。Ihadalsomomentsofrevoltwhichstrippedoffmesomeofmysimpletrustinthegovernmentoftheuniverse。Butwhentheinevitableenteredthesickroomandthewhitedoorwasthrownwideopen,Idon\'tthinkI

foundasingleteartoshed。IhaveasuspicionthattheCanon\'shousekeeperlookedonmeasthemostcallouslittlewretchonearth。

Thedayofthefuneralcameinduecourseandallthegenerous“YouthoftheSchools,“thegraveSenateoftheUniversity,thedelegationsoftheTrade-guilds,mighthaveobtained(iftheycared)DEVISUevidenceofthecallousnessofthelittlewretch。

Therewasnothinginmyachingheadbutafewwords,somesuchstupidsentencesas,“It\'sdone,“or,“It\'saccomplished“(inPolishitismuchshorter),orsomethingofthesort,repeatingitselfendlessly。Thelongprocessionmovedoutofthenarrowstreet,downalongstreet,pasttheGothicfrontofSt。Mary\'sunderitsunequaltowers,towardstheFlorianGate。

Inthemoonlight-floodedsilenceoftheoldtownofglorioustombsandtragicmemories,Icouldseeagainthesmallboyofthatdayfollowingahearse;aspacekeptclearinwhichIwalkedalone,consciousofanenormousfollowing,theclumsyswayingofthetallblackmachine,thechantingofthesurplicedclergyatthehead,theflamesoftaperspassingunderthelowarchwayofthegate,therowsofbaredheadsonthepavementswithfixed,seriouseyes。

HalfthepopulationhadturnedoutonthatfineMayafternoon。

Theyhadnotcometohonouragreatachievement,orevensomesplendidfailure。Thedeadandtheywerevictimsalikeofanunrelentingdestinywhichcutthemofffromeverypathofmeritandglory。Theyhadcomeonlytorenderhomagetotheardentfidelityofthemanwhoselifehadbeenafearlessconfessioninwordanddeedofacreedwhichthesimplestheartinthatcrowdcouldfeelandunderstand。

ItseemedtomethatifIremainedlongerthereinthatnarrowstreetIshouldbecomethehelplesspreyoftheShadowsIhadcalledup。Theywerecrowdinguponme,enigmaticandinsistentintheirclingingairofthegravethattastedofdustandofthebittervanityofoldhopes。

“Let\'sgobacktothehotel,myboy,“Isaid。“It\'sgettinglate。”

ItwillbeeasilyunderstoodthatIneitherthoughtnordreamtthatnightofapossiblewar。ForthenexttwodaysIwentaboutamongstmyfellowmen,whowelcomedmewiththeutmostconsiderationandfriendliness,butunanimouslyderidedmyfearsofawar。Theywouldnotbelieveinit。Itwasimpossible。OntheeveningoftheseconddayIwasinthehotel\'ssmokingroom,anirrationallyprivateapartment,asanctuaryforafewchoicemindsofthetown,alwayspervadedbyadimreligiouslight,andmorehushedthananyclubreading-roomIhaveeverbeenin。Gatheredintoasmallknot,wewerediscussingthesituationinsubduedtonessuitabletothegeniusoftheplace。

Agentlemanwithafineheadofwhitehairsuddenlypointedanimpatientfingerinmydirectionandapostrophisedme。

“WhatIwanttoknowiswhether,shouldtherebewar,Englandwouldcomein。”

Thetimetodrawabreath,andIspokeoutfortheCabinetwithoutfaltering。

“Mostassuredly。IshouldthinkallEuropeknowsthatbythistime。”

Hetookholdofthelapelofmycoat,and,givingitaslightjerkforgreateremphasis,saidforcibly:

“Then,ifEnglandwill,asyousay,andalltheworldknowsit,therecanbenowar。Germanywon\'tbesomadasthat。”

OnthemorrowbynoonwereadoftheGermanultimatum。Thedayaftercamethedeclarationofwar,andtheAustrianmobilisationorder。Wewerefairlycaught。Allthatremainedformetodowastogetmypartyoutofthewayofeventualshells。ThebestmovewhichoccurredtomewastosnatchthemupinstantlyintothemountainstoaPolishhealthresortofgreatrepute——whichIdid(attherateofonehundredmilesinelevenhours)bythelastciviliantrainpermittedtoleaveCracowforthenextthreeweeks。

AndthereweremainedamongstthePolesfromallpartsofPoland,notofficiallyinterned,butsimplyunabletoobtainthepermissiontotravelbytrain,orroad。Itwasawonderful,apoignanttwomonths。Thisisnotthetime,and,perhaps,nottheplace,toenlargeuponthetragiccharacterofthesituation;awholepeopleseeingtheculminationofitsmisfortunesinafinalcatastrophe,unabletotrustanyone,toappealtoanyone,tolookforhelpfromanyquarter;deprivedofallhopeandevenofitslastillusions,andunable,inthetroubleofmindsandtheunrestofconsciences,totakerefugeinstoicalacceptance。Ihaveseenallthis。AndI

amgladIhavenotsomanyyearsleftmetorememberthatappallingfeelingofinexorablefate,tangible,palpable,comeaftersomanycruelyears,afigureofdread,murmuringwithironlipsthefinalwords:Ruin——andExtinction。

Butenoughofthis。ForourlittlebandtherewastheawfulanguishofincertitudeastotherealnatureofeventsintheWest。

Itisdifficulttogiveanideahowuglyanddangerousthingslookedtousoverthere。Belgiumknockeddownandtrampledoutofexistence,Francegivinginunderrepeatedblows,amilitarycollapselikethatof1870,andEnglandinvolvedinthatdisastrousalliance,herarmysacrificed,herpeopleinapanic!Polishpapers,ofcourse,hadnootherbutGermansourcesofinformation。

Naturally,wedidnotbelieveallweread,butitwassometimesexcessivelydifficulttoreactwithsufficientfirmness。

Weusedtoshutourdoor,andthere,awayfromeverybody,wesatweighingthenews,huntingupdiscrepancies,scentinglies,findingreasonsforhopefulness,andgenerallycheeringeachotherup。Butitwasabeastlytime。Peopleusedtocometomewithveryseriousnewsandask,“Whatdoyouthinkofit?“Andmyinvariableanswerwas:“Whateverhashappened,orisgoingtohappen,whoeverwantstomakepeace,youmaybecertainthatEnglandwillnotmakeit,notfortenyears,ifnecessary。”\'

Butenoughofthis,too。ThroughtheunremittingeffortsofPolishfriendsweobtainedatlastthepermissiontotraveltoVienna。

Oncethere,thewingoftheAmericanEaglewasextendedoverouruneasyheads。WecannotbesufficientlygratefultotheAmericanAmbassador(who,allalong,interestedhimselfinourfate)forhisexertionsonourbehalf,hisinvaluableassistanceandtherealfriendlinessofhisreceptioninVienna。OwingtoMr。Penfield\'sactionweobtainedthepermissiontoleaveAustria。Anditwasanearthing,forhisExcellencyhasinformedmyAmericanpublisherssincethataweeklaterorderswereissuedtohaveusdetainedtilltheendofthewar。However,weeffectedourhair\'s-breadthescapeintoItaly;and,reachingGenoa,tookpassageinaDutchmailsteamer,homeward-boundfromJavawithLondonasaportofcall。

Onthatsea-routeImighthavepickedupamemoryateverymileifthepasthadnotbeeneclipsedbythetremendousactuality。WesawthesignsofitintheemptinessoftheMediterranean,theaspectofGibraltar,themistyglimpseintheBayofBiscayofanoutward-

boundconvoyoftransports,inthepresenceofBritishsubmarinesintheChannel。InnumerabledriftersflyingtheNavalflagdottedthenarrowwaters,andtwoNavalofficerscomingonboardofftheSouthForeland,pilotedtheshipthroughtheDowns。

TheDowns!Theretheywere,thickwiththememoriesofmysea-

life。Butwhatweretomenowthefutilitiesofanindividualpast?Asourship\'sheadswungintotheestuaryoftheThames,adeep,yetfaint,concussionpassedthroughtheair,ashockratherthanasound,whichmissingmyearfounditswaystraightintomyheart。Turninginstinctivelytolookatmyboys,Ihappenedtomeetmywife\'seyes。Shealsohadfeltprofoundly,comingfromfarawayacrossthegreydistancesofthesea,thefaintboomofthebiggunsatworkonthecoastofFlanders——shapingthefuture。

FIRSTNEWS——1918

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