The Virginian

第45章

AtthisIlookedathimblankly。“Itisn’tpossiblethat——“

Againhecutmeshortwithalaughalmostsavage。“Youneedn’ttoworryaboutSteve。Hestayedgame。“

WhatthenhadbeenthematterthatheshouldkeepseeingSteve——thathisvisionshouldsoobliteratefromhimwhatIstillshiveredat,andsoshakehimnow?ForheseemedtobegrowingmorestirredasIgrewless。Iaskedhimnofurtherquestions,however,andwewentonforseveralminutes,hebroodingalwaysinthesamefashion,untilheresumedwiththehardindifferencethathadbeforesurprisedme:-“SoEdgaveyoufeelings!Dumbagueandsoforth。“

“Nodoubtwe’renotmadethesameway,“Iretorted。

Hetooknonoticeofthis。“Andyou’dhavebeenmorecomfortableifhe’dactedsameasStevedid。Itcert’nlywasbadseeingEdtakeitthatway,Ireckon。Andyoudidn’tseehimwhenthetimecameforbusiness。Well,here’swhatitis:amanmaybesuchaconfirrnedmiscreantthatkilling’stheonlycureforhim;butstillhe’syourownspecies,andyoudon’twanttohavehimfallaroundandgrabyourlaigsandshowyouhisfearnaked。Itmakesyoufeelashamed。SoEdgaveyoufeelings,andStevemadeeverythingrighteasyforyou!“Therewasironyinhisvoiceashesurveyedme,butitfellawayatonceintosadness。“Bothwasmiscreants。ButifStevehadplayedthecoward,too,itwouldhavebeenawholeheapeasierforme。“Hepausedbeforeadding,“AndStevewasnotamiscreantonce。“

Hisvoicehadtrembled,andIfeltthedeepemotionthatseemedtogainuponhimnowthatactionwasoverandhehadnothingtodobutthink。Andhisviewwassimpleenough:youmustdiebrave。

Failureisasortoftreasontothebrotherhood,andforfeitspity。ItwasSteve’sperfectbearingthathadcaughthisheartsothatheforgotevenhisscornoftheotherman。

Butthiswasbynomeansallthatwastocome。Heharkedbacktothatnotionofaprisonerhelpingtomakeiteasyforhisexecutioner。“Easyplumbtotheend,“hepursued,hismindreviewingtheactsofthemorning。“Why,hetriedtogivemeyournewspaper。Ididn’t——“

“Oh,no,“Isaidhastily。“Ihadfinishedwithit。“

“Well,hetookdyingasnaturallyashetookliving。Likeamanshould。LikeIhopeto。“Againhelookedatthepicturesinhismind。“Noplay-actingnorlastwords。Hejusttoldgood-bytotheboysasweledhishorseunderthelimb——youneedn’ttolooksodainty,“hebrokeoff。“Youain’tgoingtogetanymoreshockingparticulars。“

“IknowI’mwhite-livered,“Isaidwithaspeciesoflaugh。“I

nevercrowdandstarewhensomebodyishurtinthestreet。Igetaway。“

Hethoughtthisover。“Youdon’tmeanallofthat。You’dnothavespokejustthatwayaboutcrowdingandstaringifyouthoughtwellofthemthatstare。Staringain’tcourage;it’strashycuriosity。Nowyoudidnothavethisthing——“

Hehadstretchedouthishandtopoint,butitfell,andhisutterancestopped,andhejerkedhishorsetoastand。Mynervesspranglikeawireathissuddenness,andIlookedwherehewaslooking。Therewerethecottonwoods,closeinfrontofus。Aswehadtravelledandtalkedwehadforgottenthem。Nowtheywereloomingwithinahundredyards;andourtraillaystraightthroughthem。

“Let’sgoaroundthem,“saidtheVirginian。

Whenwehadcomebackfromourcircuitintothetrailhecontinued:“Youdidnothavethatthingtodo。Butamangoesthroughwithhisresponsibilities——andIreckonyoucould。“

“Ihopeso,“Ianswered。“HowaboutEd?“

“Hewasnotaman,thoughwethoughthewastillthis。SteveandIstartedpunchingcattletogetherattheBordeauxoutfit,northofCheyenne。Wedideverythingtogetherinthosedays——

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