Beatrice

第3章

“AndnowImustbeoffuptomybitofafarm;theoldsowisduetolitter,andIwanttoseehowsheisgettingon。PleaseGodshe’llhavethirteenagainanddowell。I’llordertheflytobehereatfive,thoughIshallbebackbeforethen——thatis,ItoldElizabethtodoso。Shehasgoneouttodosomevisitingforme,andtoseeifshecan’tgetintwopoundsfiveoftithethathasbeendueforthreemonths。Ifanybodycangetitit’sElizabeth。Well,good-bye;ifyouaredullandwanttotalktoBeatrice,sheisupandinthere。I

daresayyouwillsuitoneanother。She’saveryqueergirl,Beatrice,quitebeyondmewithherideas,anditwasafunnythingherholdingyousotight,butIsupposeProvidencearrangedthat。Good-byeforthepresent,Mr。Bingham。”andthiscuriousspecimenofaclergymanvanished,leavingGeoffreyquitebreathless。

Itwashalf-pasttwoo’clock,andthedoctorhadtoldhimthathecouldseeMissGrangeratthree。Hewishedthatitwasthree,forhewastiredofhisownthoughtsandcompany,andnaturallyanxioustorenewhisacquaintancewiththestrangegirlwhohadbegunbyimpressinghimsodeeplyandendedbysavinghislife。Therewascompletequietinthehouse;Betty,themaid-of-all-work,wasemployedinthekitchen,boththedoctorshadgone,andElizabethandherfatherwereout。To-daytherewasnowind,ithadblownitselfawayduringthenight,andthesightofthesunbeamsstreamingthroughthewindowsmadeGeoffreylongtobeintheopenair。Hehadnobookathandtoread,andwheneverhetriedtothinkhismindflewbacktothathatefulmatrimonialquarrel。

Itwashardonhim,Geoffreythought,thatheshouldbecalledupontoenduresuchscenes。Hecouldnolongerdisguisethetruthfromhimself——hehadburiedhishappinessonhiswedding-day。Lookingbackacrosstheyears,hewellrememberedhowdifferentalifehehadimaginedforhimself。Inthosedayshewastiredofknockingaboutandofyouthfulescapades;eventhatkindofsocialsuccesswhichmustattendayoungmanwhowashandsome,clever,agoodfellow,andblessedwithlargeexpectations,had,attheageofsix-and-twenty,entirelylostitsattractiveness。Thereforehehadturnednodeafeartohisuncle,SirRobertBingham,whowasthengoingonforseventy,whenhesuggestedthatitmightbewellofGeoffreysettleddown,andintroducedhimtoLadyHonoria。

LadyHonoriawaseighteenthen,andabeautyoftheratherthinbutstatuesquetype,whichattractsmenuptofiveorsixandtwentyandthenfrequentlybores,ifitdoesnotrepelthem。Moreover,shewascleverandwellread,andpretendedtobeintellectuallyandpoeticallyinclined,asladiesnotspeciallyfavouredbyApollosometimesdo——beforetheymarry。Coldshealwayswas;nobodyeverheardofLadyHonoriastretchingtheboundsofpropriety;butGeoffreyputthisdowntoasweetandbecomingmodesty,whichwouldvanishorbetransmutedinitsseason。Alsosheaffectedacharminginnocenceofallvulgarbusinessmatters,whichbothdeceivedandenchantedhim。

Neverbutoncedidshealludetowaysandmeansbeforemarriage,andthenitwastosaythatshewasgladthattheyshouldbesopoortilldearSirRobertdied(hehadpromisedtoallowthemfifteenhundredayear,andtheyhadsevenmorebetweenthem),asthiswouldenablethemtoseesomuchmoreofeachother。

Atlastcamethehappyday,andthiswhitevirginsoulpassedintoGeoffrey’skeeping。Foraweekorsothingswentfairlywell,andthendisenchantmentbegan。Helearnedbyslowbutsuredegreesthathiswifewasvain,selfishandextravagant,and,worstofall,thatshecaredverylittleabouthim。Thefirstshockwaswhenheaccidentallydiscovered,fourorfivedaysaftermarriage,thatHonoriawasintimatelyacquaintedwitheverydetailofSirRobertBingham’sproperty,and,youngasshewas,hadalreadyformedaschemetomakeitmoreproductiveaftertheoldman’sdeath。

TheywenttoliveinLondon,andtherehefoundthatLadyHonoria,althoughbyfartoocoldandprudentawomantodoanythingthatcouldbringabreathofscandaluponhername,wasasfondofadmirationasshewasheartless。ItseemedtoGeoffreythathecouldneverbefreefromthecollectionofyoungmenwhohungaboutherskirts。Someofthemwereverygoodfellowswhomhelikedexceedingly;still,onthewholehewouldhavepreferredtoremainunmarriedandassociatewiththemattheclub。Alsothecontinualroundofsocietyandgoingoutbroughtheavierexpensesonhimthathecouldwellsupport。Andthus,littlebylittle,poorGeoffrey’sdreamofmatrimonialblissfadedintothinair。But,fortunatelyforhimself,hepossessedacertainshareoflogicandsweetreasonableness。Intimehelearnttoseethatthefaultwasnotaltogetherwithhiswife,whowasbynomeansabadsortofwomaninherdegree。Butherdegreedifferedfromhisdegree。

Shehadmarriedforfreedomandwealthandtogainalargerscopewhereintoexercisethosetasteswhichinheriteddispositionandeducationhadgiventoher,asshebelievedthathehadmarriedherbecauseshewasthedaughterofapeer。

LadyHonoria,likemanyanotherwomanofherstamp,wastheoverbred,orsometimestheunderbred,productofatoocivilizedageandclass。

Thoseprimitivepassionsandvirtuesonwhichherhusbandhadreliedtomakethehappinessoftheirmarriedlifesimplydidnotexistforher。Thepassionshadbeenbredandeducatedoutofher;formanygenerationstheyhavebeenfoundinconvenientanddisquietingattributesinwoman。Asfortheoldvirtues,suchasloveofchildrenandtheordinaryroundofdomesticduty,theysimplyboredher。Onthewhole,thoughsharpoftongue,sherarelylosthertemper,forhervices,likehervirtues,wereofasomewhatnegativeorder;butthefurywhichseizedherwhenshelearnedforcertainthatshewastobecomeamotherwasathingthatherunfortunatehusbandneverforgotandneverwishedtoseeagain。Atlengththechildwasborn,afactforwhichGeoffrey,atleast,wasverythankful。

“Takeitaway。Idonotwanttoseeit!“saidLadyHonoriatothescandalisednursewhenthelittlecreaturewasbroughttoher,wrappedinitslongrobes。

“Giveittome,nurse——Ido。”saidherhusband。

FromthatmomentGeoffreygaveallthepent-upaffectionofhisbruisedsoultothislittledaughter,andastheyearswentontheygrewverydeartoeachother。Butanactive-minded,strong-hearted,able-bodiedmancannottakeababeasthesolecompanionofhisexistence。ProbablyGeoffreywouldhavefoundthisoutintime,andmighthavedriftedintosomemodeoflifemoreorlessundesirable,hadnotanaccidentoccurredtopreventit。Inhisdotage,Geoffrey’solduncleSirRobertBinghamfellavictimtothewilesofanadventuressandmarriedher。Thenhepromptlydied,andeightmonthsafterwardsaposthumoussonwasborn。

ToGeoffreythismeantruin。Hisallowancestoppedandhisexpectationsvanishedatonefellswoop。Hepulledhimselftogether,however,asabrave-heartedmandoesundersuchashock,andgoingtohiswifeheexplainedtoherthathemustnowworkforhisliving,begginghertobreakdownthebarrierthatwasbetweenthemandgivehimhersympathyandhelp。Shemethimwithtearsandreproaches。Theonethingthattouchedherkeenly,theonethingwhichshefearedandhatedwaspoverty,andallthatpovertymeanstowomenofherrankandnature。Buttherewasnohelpforit;thecharminghouseinBoltonSteethadtobegivenup,andpurgatorymustbefaced,inaflat,neartheEdgwareRoad。LadyHonoriawasmiserable,indeedhaditnotbeenthatfortunatelyforherselfshepossessedplentyofrelationsmoreorlessgrand,whomshemightcontinuallyvisitforweeksandevenformonthsatastretch,shecouldscarcelyhaveenduredheralteredlife。

ButstrangelyenoughGeoffreysoonfoundthathewashappierthanhehadbeensincehismarriage。Tobeginwith,hesettoworklikeaman,andworkisagreatsourceofhappinesstoallvigorous-mindedfolk。

Itisnot,intruth,aparticularlycheerfuloccupationtopassendlessdaysinhangingaboutlaw-courtsamongstacrowdofunbriefedJuniors,andmanynightsinreadingupthelawonehasforgottenandthreadingthemanyintricaciesoftheJudicatureAct。Butithappenedthathisfather,ayoungerbrotherofSirRobert’s,hadbeenasolicitor,andthoughhewasdead,andalldirectinterestwiththefirmwassevered,yetanotheruncleremainedinit,andthepartnersdidnotforgetGeoffreyinhisdifficulties。

Theysenthimwhatworktheycouldwithoutoffendingtheirstandingcounsel,andhediditwell。Thenbydegreeshebuiltupquitealargegeneralpracticeofthekindknownasdeviling。Nowtherearefewthingsmoreunsatisfactorythandoinganotherman’sworkfornothing,buteverycasefoughtmeansknowledgegained,andwhatismoreitisadvertisement。Soitcametopassthatwithinlessthantwoyearsfromthedateofhismoneymisfortunes,GeoffreyBingham’sdarkhandsomefaceandsquarestrongformbecameverywellknownintheCourts。

“Whatisthatman’sname?”saidonewell-knownQ。C。toanotherstillmorewellknown,astheysatwaitingfortheirchopsintheBarGrillRoom,andsawGeoffrey,hiswigpushedbackfromhisforehead,stridingthroughthedoorwayonthelastdayofthesittingwhichprecededthecommencementofthishistory。

“Bingham。”answeredtheother。“He’sonlybeguntopractiselately,buthe’llbeatthetopofthetreebeforehehasdone。Hemarriedverywell,youknow,oldGarsington’sdaughter,acharmingwoman,andhandsometoo。”

“Helookslikeit。”gruntedthefirst,andasamatteroffactsuchwasthegeneralopinion。

For,asBeatricehadsaid,GeoffreyBinghamwasamanwhohadsuccesswrittenonhisforehead。Itwouldhavebeenalmostimpossibleforhimtofailinwhateverheundertook。

CHAPTERIX

WHATBEATRICEDREAMED

Geoffreylayuponhisback,watchingthestillpatchofsunshineandlisteningtothetickingoftheclock,ashepassedalltheseandmanyothereventsinsolemnreview,tilltheseriesculminatedinhisvividrecollectionofthesceneofthatverymorning。

“Iamsickofit。”hesaidatlastaloud,“sickandtired。Shemakesmylifewretched。Ifitwasn’tforEffieuponmywordI’d……ByJove,itisthreeo’clock;IwillgoandseeMissGranger。She’sawoman,notafemaleghostatanyrate,thoughsheisafreethinker——

which。”headdedasheslowlystruggledoffthecouch,“isaveryfoolishthingtobe。”

Veryshakily,forhewassadlyknockedabout,Geoffreyhobbleddownthelongnarrowroomandthroughthedoor,whichwasajar。Theoppositedoorwasalsosethalfopen。Heknockedsoftly,andgettingnoanswerpusheditwideandlookedin,thinkingthathehad,perhaps,madesomemistakeastotheroom。Onasofaplacedabouttwo-thirdsdownitslength,layBeatriceasleep。Shewaswrappedinakindofdressing-gownofsomesimplebluestuff,andallaboutherbreastandshouldersstreamedherlovelycurlinghair。Hersweetfacewastowardshim,itspallorrelievedonlybythelongshadowofthedarklashesandthebentbowofthelips。Onewhitewristandhandhungdownalmosttothefloor,andbeneaththespreadcurtainofthesunlithairherbosomheavedsoftlyinhersleep。Shelookedsowondrouslybeautifulinherrestthathestoppedalmostawed,andgazed,andgazedagain,feelingasthoughapresentsenseandpowerwerestillinghishearttosilence。Itisdangeroustolookuponsuchquietloveliness,andverydangeroustofeelthatpressureattheheart。A

trulywisemanfeelingitwouldhavefled,knowingthatseedssowninsuchsilencesmaylivetobloomuponabitterday,andshedtheirfruitintothewatersofdesolation。ButGeoffreywasnotwise——whowouldhavebeen?Hestillstoodandgazedtillthesightstampeditselfsodeeplyonthetabletsofhisheartthatthroughalltheyearstocomenoheatsofpassion,nofrostsofdoubt,andnosenseoflosscouldeverdullitsmemory。

Thesilentsunshoneon,thesilentwomanslept,andinsilencethewatchergazed。Andashelookedagreatfear,aprescienceofevilthatshouldcome,enteredintoGeoffreyandtookpossessionofhim。A

cloudwithoutcrossedtherayofsunlightandturnedit。Itwavered,foraseconditrestedonhisbreast,flashedbacktohers,thenwentout;andasitflashedanddied,heseemedtoknowthathenceforth,forlifetilldeath,ay!andbeyond,hisfateandthatsleepingwoman’swereonefate。Itwasbutamomentaryknowledge;thefearshookhim,andwasgonealmostbeforeheunderstooditsfoolishness。

Butithadbeenwithhim,andinafterdaysherememberedit。

JustthenBeatricewoke,openinghergreyeyes。Theirdreamyglancefelluponhim,lookingthroughhimandbeyondhim,ratherthanathim。

Thensheraisedherselfalittleandstretchingoutbothherarmstowardshim,spokealoud。

“Sohaveyouhavecomebacktomeatlast。”shesaid。“IknewthatyouwouldcomeandIhavewaited。”

Hemadenoanswer,hedidnotknowwhattosay;indeedhebegantothinkthathealsomustbedreaming。ForalittlewhileBeatricestilllookedathiminthesameabsentmanner,thensuddenlystartedup,theredbloodstreamingtoherbrow。

“Why,Mr。Bingham。”shesaid,“isitreallyyou?WhatwasitthatI

said?Oh,prayforgiveme,whateveritwas。Ihavebeenasleepdreamingsuchacuriousdream,andtalkinginmysleep。”

“Donotalarmyourself,MissGranger。”heanswered,recoveringhimselfwithajerk;“youdidnotsayanythingdreadful,onlythatyouweregladtoseeme。Whatwereyoudreamingabout?”

Beatricelookedathimdoubtfully;perhapshiswordsdidnotringquitetrue。

“IthinkthatIhadbettertellyouasIhavesaidsomuch。”sheanswered。“Besides,itwasaverycuriousdream,andifIbelievedindreamsitwouldratherfrightenme,onlyfortunatelyIdonot。SitdownandIwilltellittoyoubeforeIforgetit。Itisnotverylong。”

Hetookthechairtowhichshepointed,andshebegan,speakinginthevoiceofoneyetladenwiththememoriesofsleep。

“IdreamedthatIstoodinspace。Fartomyrightwasagreatglobeoflight,andtomyleftwasanotherglobe,andIknewthattheglobeswerenamedLifeandDeath。Fromtheglobeontherighttotheglobeontheleft,andbackagain,agoldenshuttle,inwhichtwoflamingeyeswereset,wasshotcontinually,andIknewalsothatthiswastheshuttleofDestiny,weavingthewebofFate。Presentlytheshuttleflew,leavingbehinditalongsilverthread,andtheeyesintheshuttleweresuchasyoureyes。Againtheshuttlespedthroughspace,andthistimeitseyeswerelikemyeyes,andthethreaditleftbehinditwastwistedfromawoman’shair。HalfwaybetweentheglobesofLifeandDeathmythreadwasbroken,buttheshuttleflewonandvanished。Foramomentthethreadhunginair,thenawindroseandblewit,sothatitfloatedawaylikeaspider’sweb,tillitstruckuponyoursilverthreadoflifeandbegantotwistroundandroundit。

Asittwisteditgrewlargerandheavier,tillatlastitwasthickasagreattressofhair,andthesilverlinebentbeneaththeweightsothatIsawitsoonmustbreak。ThenwhileIwonderedwhatwouldhappen,awhitehandholdingaknifeslidslowlydownthesilverline,andwiththeknifeseveredthewrappingsofwoman’shair,whichfellandfloatedslowlyaway,likealittlecloudtouchedwithsunlight,tilltheywerelostindarkness。Butthethreadofsilverthatwasyourlineoflife,sprangupquiveringandmakingasoundlikesighs,tillatlastitsigheditselftosilence。

“ThenIseemedtosleep,andwhenIwokeIwasfloatinguponsuchamistyseaaswesawlastnight。Ihadlostallsightofland,andI

couldnotrememberwhatthestarswerelike,norhowIhadbeentaughttosteer,norunderstandwhereImustgo。Icalledtothesea,andaskeditofthestars,andtheseaansweredmethus:

“’Hopehasrentherraiment,andthestarsareset。’

“Icalledagain,andaskedofthelandwhereIshouldgo,andthelanddidnotanswer,buttheseaansweredmeasecondtime:

“’Childofthemist,wanderinthemist,andindarknessseekforlight。’

“ThenIweptbecauseHopehadrentherstarrygarmentandindarknessImustseekforlight。AndwhileIstillwept,/you/roseoutoftheseaandsatbeforemeintheboat。Ihadneverseenyoubefore,andstillIfeltthatIhadknownyoualways。Youdidnotspeak,andIdidnotspeak,butyoulookedintomyheartandsawitstrouble。ThenI

lookedintoyourheart,andreadwhatwaswritten。Andthiswaswritten:

“’WomanwhomIknewbeforethePastbegan,andwhomIshallknowwhentheFutureisended,whydoyouweep?’

“Andmyheartanswered,’IweepbecauseIamlostuponthewatersoftheearth,becauseHopehasrentherstarryrobes,andineverlastingdarknessImustseekforlightthatisnot。’Thenyourheartsaid,’/I/willshowyoulight,’andbendingforwardyoutouchedmeonthebreast。

“Andsuddenlyanagonyshookmeliketheagoniesofbirthanddeath,andtheskywasfullofgreat-wingedangelswhorolledupthemistasacloth,anddrewtheveilsfromtheeyesofNight,andthere,herfeetupontheglobe,andherstar-setheadpiercingthefirmamentofheaven,stoodHopebreathingpeaceandbeauty。Shelookednorthandsouthandeastandwest,thenshelookedupwardsthroughthearchingvaultsofheaven,andwherevershesethereyes,brightwithholytears,thedarknessshrivelledandsorrowceased,andfromcorruptionarosetheIncorruptible。Igazedandworshipped,andasIdidso,againtheseaspokeunquestioned:

“’Indarknessthouhastfoundlight,inDeathseekforwisdom。’

“ThenoncemoreHoperentherstarryrobes,andtheangelsdrewdownaveilovertheeyesofNight,andtheseaswallowedme,andIsanktillIreachedthedeepfoundationsofmortaldeath。AndthereintheHallsofDeathIsatforagesuponages,tillatlastIsawyoucome,andonyourlipswasthewordofwisdomthatmakesallthingsclear,butwhatitwasIcannotremember。ThenIstretchedoutmyhandtogreetyou,andwoke,andthatisallmydream。”

Beatriceceased,hergreyeyessetwide,asthoughtheystillstrovetotracetheirspiritualvisionupontheairofearth,herbreastheaving,andherlipsapart。

“Greatheaven!“hesaid,“whatanimaginationyoumusthavetodreamsuchadreamasthat。”

“Imagination。”sheanswered,returningtohernaturalmanner。“Ihavenone,Mr。Bingham。Iusedtohave,butIlostitwhenIlost——

everythingelse。Canyouinterpretmydream?Ofcourseyoucannot;itisnothingbutnonsense——suchstuffasdreamsaremadeof,thatisall。”

“Itmaybenonsense,Idaresayitis,butitisbeautifulnonsense。”

heanswered。“Iwishladieshadmoreofsuchstufftogivetheworld。”

“Ah,well,dreamsmaybewiserthanwakings,andnonsensethanlearnedtalk,forallweknow。Butthere’sanendofit。IdonotknowwhyI

repeatedittoyou。IamsorrythatIdidrepeatit,butitseemedsorealitshookmeoutofmyself。Thisiswhatcomesofbreakinginupontheroutineoflifebybeingthreepartsdrowned。Onefindsqueerthingsatthebottomofthesea,youknow。BythewayIhopethatyouarerecovering。Idonotthinkthatyouwillcaretogocanoeingagainwithme,Mr。Bingham。”

Therewasanopeningforacomplimenthere,butGeoffreyfeltthatitwouldbetoomuchinearnestifspoken,soheresistedthetemptation。

“What,MissGranger。”hesaid,“shouldamansaytoaladywhobutlastnightsavedhislife,attherisk,indeedalmostatthecost,ofherown?”

“Itwasnothing。”sheanswered,colouring;“Iclungtoyou,thatwasall,morebyinstinctthanfromanymotive。IthinkIhadavagueideathatyoumightfloatandsupportme。”

“MissGranger,theoccasionistooseriousforpolitefibs。Iknowhowyousavedmylife。Idonotknowhowtothankyouforit。”

“Thendon’tthankmeatall,Mr。Bingham。Whyshouldyouthankme?I

onlydidwhatIwasboundtodo。Iwouldfarratherdiethandesertacompanionindistress,ofanysort;weallmustdie,butitwouldbedreadfultodieashamed。Youknowwhattheysay,thatifyousaveapersonfromdrowningyouwilldothemaninjuryafterwards。Thatishowtheyputithere;insomepartsthesayingistheotherwayabout,butIamnotlikelyevertodoyouaninjury,soitdoesnotmakemeunhappy。Itwasanawfulexperience:youweresenseless,soyoucannotknowhowstrangeitfeltlyingupontheslipperyrock,andseeingthosegreatwhitewavesrushuponusthroughthegloom,withnothingbutthenightabove,andtheseaaround,anddeathbetweenthetwo。I

havebeenlonelyformanyyears,butIdonotthinkthatIeverquiteunderstoodwhatlonelinessreallymeantbefore。Yousee。”sheaddedbywayofanafterthought,“Ithoughtthatyouweredead,andthereisnotmuchcompanyinacorpse。”

“Well。”hesaid,“onethingis,itwouldhavebeenlonelierifwehadgone。”

“Doyouthinkso?”sheanswered,lookingathiminquiringly。“Idon’tquiteseehowyoumakethatout。Ifyoubelieveinwhatwehavebeentaught,asIthinkyoudo,whereveritwasyoufoundyourselftherewouldbeplentyofcompany,andif,likeme,youdonotbelieveinanything,why,then,youwouldhaveslept,andsleepasksfornothing。”

“Didyoubelieveinnothingwhenyoulayupontherockwaitingtobedrowned,MissGranger?”

“Nothing!“sheanswered;“onlyweakpeoplefindrevelationintheextremitiesoffear。Ifrevelationcomesatall,surelyitmustbebornintheheartandnotinthesenses。Ibelievedinnothing,andI

dreadednothing,excepttheagonyofdeath。WhyshouldIbeafraid?

SupposingthatIammistaken,andthereissomethingbeyond,isitmyfaultthatIcannotbelieve?WhathaveIdonethatIshouldbeafraid?

IhaveneverharmedanybodythatIknowof,andifIcouldbelieveI

would。IwishIhaddied。”shewenton,passionately;“itwouldbeallovernow。Iamtiredoftheworld,tiredofworkandhelplessness,andallthelittleworrieswhichwearoneout。Iamnotwantedhere,I

havenothingtolivefor,andIwishthatIhaddied!“

“Somedayyouwillthinkdifferently,MissGranger。Therearemanythingsthatawomanlikeyourselfcanlivefor——attheleast,thereisyourwork。”

Shelaugheddrearily。“Mywork!Ifyouonlyknewwhatitislikeyouwouldnottalktomeaboutit。EverydayIrollmystoneupthehill,andeverynightitseemstorolldownagain。Butyouhavenevertaughtinavillageschool。Howcanyouknow?Iworkallday,andintheeveningperhapsIhavetomendthetablecloths,or——whatdoyouthink?——

writemyfather’ssermons。Itsoundscurious,doesitnot,thatI

shouldwritesermons?ButIdo。IwrotetheoneheisgoingtopreachnextSunday。Itmakesverylittledifferencetohimwhatitissolongashecanreadit,and,ofcourse,Ineversayanythingwhichcanoffendanybody,andIdonotthinkthattheylistenmuch。VeryfewpeoplegotochurchinBryngelly。”

“Don’tyouevergetanytimetoyourself,then?”

“Oh,yes,sometimesIdo,andthenIgooutinmycanoe,orread,andamalmosthappy。Afterall,Mr。Bingham,itisverywrongandungratefulofmetospeaklikethis。Ihavemoreadvantagesthannine-

tenthsoftheworld,andIoughttomakethebestofthem。Idon’tknowwhyIhavebeenspeakingasIhave,andtoyou,whomIneversawtillyesterday。Ineverdiditbeforetoanylivingsoul,Iassureyou。Itisjustlikethestoryofthemanwhocameherelastyearwiththediviningrod。Thereisacottagedownonthecliff——itbelongstoMr。Davies,wholivesintheCastle。Well,theyhavenodrinkingwaternear,andthenewtenantmadeagreatfussaboutit。SoMr。Davieshiredmen,andtheyduganddugandspentnoendofmoney,butcouldnotcometowater。Atlastthetenantfetchedanoldmanfromsomeparishalongwayoff,whosaidthathecouldfindspringswithadiviningrod。Hewasacuriousoldmanwithacrutch,andhecamewithhisrod,andhobbledabouttillatlasttherodtwitchedjustatthetenant’sbackdoor——atleastthedivinersaiditdid。Atanyrate,theydugthere,andintenminutesstruckaspringofwater,whichbubbledupsostronglythatitrushedintothehouseandfloodedit。

Andwhatdoyouthink?Afterall,thewaterwasbrackish。Youarethemanwiththediviningrod,Mr。Bingham,andyouhavemademetalkagreatdealtoomuch,and,afterall,youseeitisnotnicetalk。Youmustthinkmeaverydisagreeableandwickedyoungwoman,andI

daresayIam。Butsomehowitisarelieftoopenone’smind。Idohope,Mr。Bingham,thatyouwillsee——inshort,thatyouwillnotmisunderstandme。”

“MissGranger。”heanswered,“thereisbetweenusthatwhichwillalwaysentitleustomutualrespectandconfidence——thelinkoflifeanddeath。Haditnotbeenforyou,Ishouldnotsitheretolistentoyourconfidenceto-day。Youmaytellmethatamerenaturalimpulsepromptedyoutodowhatyoudid。Iknowbetter。Itwasyourwillthattriumphedoveryournaturalimpulsetowardsself-preservation。Well,I

willsaynomoreaboutit,exceptthis:Ifeveramanwasboundtoawomanbytiesofgratitudeandrespect,Iamboundtoyou。YouneednotfearthatIshalltakeadvantageoformisinterpretyourconfidence。”Hereheroseandstoodbeforeher,hisdarkhandsomefacebowedinproudhumility。“MissGranger,IlookuponitasanhonourdonetomebyonewhomhenceforthImustreverenceamongallwomen。

Thelifeyougavebacktome,andtheintelligencewhichdirectsit,areindutyboundtoyou,andIshallnotforgetthedebt。”

Beatricelistenedtohiswords,spokeninthatdeepandearnestvoice,whichinafteryearsbecamesofamiliartoHerMajesty’sjudgesandtoParliament——listenedwithanewsenseofpleasurerisinginherheart。

Shewasthisman’sequal;whathecoulddare,shecoulddare;wherehecouldclimb,shecouldfollow——ay,andifneedbe,showthepath,andshefeltthatheacknowledgedit。Inhissightshewassomethingmorethanahandsomegirltobeadmiredanddeferredtoforherbeauty’ssake。Hehadplacedheronanotherlevel——one,perhaps,thatfewwomenwouldhavewishedtooccupy。ButBeatricewasthankfultohim。Itwasthefirsttasteofsupremacythatshehadeverknown。

ItissomethingtostirtheproudheartofsuchawomanasBeatrice,inthatmomentwhenforthefirsttimeshefeelsherselfaconqueror,victorious,notthroughthevulgaradvantageofhersex,notbythesubmissionofman’scoarsersense,butratherbytheoverbalancingweightofmind。

“Doyouknow。”shesaid,suddenlylookingup,“youmakemeveryproud。”andshestretchedoutherhandtohim。

Hetookit,and,bending,toucheditwithhislips。Therewasnopossibilityofmisinterpretingtheaction,andthoughshecolouredalittle——for,tillthen,nomanhadevenkissedthetipofherfinger——

shedidnotmisinterpretit。Itwasanactofhomage,andthatwasall。

Andsotheysealedthecompactoftheirperfectfriendshipforeverandaday。

Thencameamoment’ssilence。ItwasGeoffreywhobrokeit。

“MissGranger。”hesaid,“willyouallowmetopreachyoualecture,averyshortone?”

“Goon。”shesaid。

“Verywell。Donotblamemeifyoudon’tlikeit,anddonotsetmedownasaprig,thoughIamgoingtotellyouyourfaultsasIreadtheminyourownwords。Youareproudandambitious,andthecrampedlinesinwhichyouareforcedtoliveseemtostrangleyou。Youhavesuffered,andhavenotlearnedthelessonofsuffering——humility。YouhavesetyourselfupagainstFate,andFatesweepsyoualonglikesprayuponthegale,yetyougounwilling。Inyourimpatienceyouhaveflowntolearningforrefuge,andithascompletedyouroverthrow,forithasinducedyoutorejectasnon-existentallthatyoucannotunderstand。Becauseyourfinitemindcannotsearchinfinity,becausenoanswerhascometoallyourprayers,becauseyouseemiseryandcannotreaditspurpose,becauseyousufferandhavenotfoundrest,youhavesaidthereisnaughtbutchance,andbecomeanatheist,asmanyhavedonebeforeyou。Isitnottrue?”

“Goon。”sheanswered,bowingherheadtoherbreastsothatthelongripplinghairalmosthidherface。

“Itseemsalittleodd。”Geoffreysaidwithashortlaugh,“thatI,withallmyimperfectionsheapeduponme,shouldpresumetopreachtoyou——butyouwillknowbesthownearorhowfarIamfromthetruth。

SoIwanttosaysomething。Ihavelivedforthirty-fiveyears,andseenagooddealandtriedtolearnfromit,andIknowthis。Inthelongrun,unlessweofourownactputawaytheopportunity,theworldgivesusourdue,whichgenerallyisnotmuch。Somuchforthingstemporal。Ifyouarefittorule,intimeyouwillrule;ifyoudonot,thenbecontentandacknowledgeyourownincapacity。Andasforthingsspiritual,Iamsureofthis——thoughofcourseonedoesnotliketotalkmuchofthesematters——ifyouonlyseekforthemlongenoughinsomeshapeyouwillfindthem,thoughtheshapemaynotbethatwhichisgenerallyrecognisedbyanyparticularreligion。Buttobuildawalldeliberatelybetweenoneselfandtheunseen,andthencomplainthatthewayisbarred,issimplychildish。”

“Andwhatifone’swallisbuilt,Mr。Bingham?”

“Mostofushavedonesomethinginthatlineatdifferenttimes。”heanswered,“andfoundawayroundit。”

“Andifitstretchesfromhorizontohorizon,andishigherthantheclouds,whatthen?”

“Thenyoumustfindwingsandflyoverit。”

“Andwherecananyearthlywomanfindthosespiritualwings?”sheasked,andthensankherheadstilldeeperonherbreasttocoverherconfusion。Forsherememberedthatshehadheardofwanderersintheduskygrovesofhumanpassion,yes,evenM?nadwanderers,whohadsuddenlycomefacetofacewiththeirownsoul;andthatthecruelpathsofearthlylovemayyetleadthefeetwhichtreadthemtotheivorygatesofheaven。

Andrememberingthesebeautifulmyths,thoughshehadnoexperienceoflove,andknewlittleofitsways,Beatricegrewsuddenlysilent。NordidGeoffreygiveherananswer,thoughheneedscarcelyhavefearedtodoso。

Forweretheynotdiscussingapurelyabstractquestion?

CHAPTERX

LADYHONORIAMAKESARRANGEMENTS

Inanothermomentsomebodyenteredtheroom;itwasElizabeth。Shehadreturnedfromhertithecollectingexpedition——withthetithe。Thedoorofthesitting-roomwasstillajar,andGeoffreyhadhisbacktowardsit。SoithappenedthatnobodyheardElizabeth’srathercat-

likestep,andforsomesecondsshestoodinthedoorwaywithoutbeingperceived。Shestoodquitestill,takinginthewholesceneataglance。Shenoticedthathersisterheldherheaddown,sothatherhairshadowedher,andguessedthatshedidsoforsomereason——

probablybecauseshedidnotwishherfacetobeseen。Orwasittoshowoffherlovelyhair?Shenoticedalsothehalfshy,halfamused,andaltogetherinterestedexpressionuponGeoffrey’scountenance——shecouldseethatinthelittlegilt-edgedlooking-glasswhichhungoverthefire-place,nordidsheoverlookthegeneralairofembarrassmentthatpervadedthemboth。

Whenshecamein,ElizabethhadbeenthinkingofOwenDavies,andofwhatmighthavehappenedhadsheneverseenthetideoflifeflowbackintohersister’sveins。Shehaddreamedofitallnightandhadthoughtofitallday;evenintheexcitementofextractingthebacktithefromtherecalcitrantandrathercoarse-mindedWelshfarmer,withstrongviewsonthesubjectoftithe,ithadnotbeenentirelyforgotten。ThefarmerwasatenantofOwenDavies,andwhenhecalledhera“parsoninpetticoats,andwus。”andwenton,indelicatereferencetoherpowersofextractingcash,tolikenhertoa“two-

leggedcorkscrewonlyscrewier。”sheperhapsnotunnaturallyreflected,thatifever——/pace/Beatrice——certainthingsshouldcomeabout,shewouldrememberthatfarmer。ForElizabethwasblessedwithaverylongmemory,assomepeoplehadlearnttotheircost,andgenerally,soonerorlater,shepaidherdebtsinfull,notforgettingtheoverdueinterest。

Andnow,asshestoodinthedoorwayunseenandnotedthesematters,somethingoccurredtoherinconnectionwiththisdominatingidea,which,likeideasingeneral,hadmanysideissues。Atanyratealookofquickintelligenceshoneforamomentinherlighteyes,likeasicklysunbeamonafaintDecembermist;thenshemovedforward,andwhenshewasclosebehindGeoffrey,spokesuddenly。

“Whatareyouboththinkingabout?”shesaidinherclearthinvoice;

“youseemtohaveexhaustedyourconversation。”

Geoffreymadeanexclamationandfairlyjumpedfromhischair,afeatwhichinhisbruisedconditionreallyhurthimverymuch。Beatricetoostartedviolently;sherecoveredherselfalmostinstantly,however。

“Howquietlyyoumove,Elizabeth。”shesaid。

“Notmorequietlythanyousit,Beatrice。Ihavebeenwonderingwhenanybodywasgoingtosayanything,orifyouwerebothasleep。”

ForherpartBeatricespeculatedhowlonghersisterhadbeenintheroom。Theirconversationhadbeeninnocentenough,butitwasnotonethatshewouldwishElizabethtohaveoverheard。AndsomehowElizabethhadaknackofoverhearingthings。

“Yousee,MissGranger。”saidGeoffreycomingtotherescue,“bothourbrainsarestillratherwaterlogged,andthatdoesnottendtoaflowofideas。”

“Quiteso。”saidElizabeth。“MydearBeatrice,whydon’tyoutieupyourhair?YoulooklikeacrazyJane。Notbutwhatyouhaveverynicehair。”sheaddedcritically。“Doyouadmiregoodhair,Mr。Bingham。”

“OfcourseIdo。”heansweredgallantly,“butitisnotcommon。”

OnlyBeatricebitherlipwithvexation。“Ihadalmostforgottenaboutmyhair。”shesaid;“Imustapologiseforappearinginsuchastate。I

wouldhavedoneitupafterdinneronlyIwastoostiff,andwhileI

waswaitingforBetty,Iwenttosleep。”

“Ithinkthereisabitofribboninthatdrawer。Isawyouputitthereyesterday。”answeredthepreciseElizabeth。“Yes,hereitis。Ifyoulike,andMr。Binghamwillexcuseit,Icantieitbackforyou。”

andwithoutwaitingforananswershepassedbehindBeatrice,andgatheringupthedensemassesofhersister’slocks,tiedthemroundinsuchfashionthattheycouldnotfallforward,thoughtheystillrolleddownherback。

JustthenMr。Grangercamebackfromhisvisittothefarm。Hewasinhighgoodhumour。Thepighadevensurpassedherformerefforts,andincreasedinasurprisingmanner,tothenumberoffifteenindeed。

Elizabeththereonproducedthetwopoundsoddshillingswhichshehad“corkscrewed“outoftherecalcitrantdissentingfarmer,andthesightaddedtoMr。Granger’ssatisfaction。

“Wouldyoubelieveit,Mr。Bingham。”hesaid,“inthismiserablypaidparishIhavenearlyahundredpoundsowingtome,ahundredpoundsintithe。ThereisoldJoneswholivesouttowardstheBellRock,heowesthreeyears’tithe——thirty-fourpoundselevenandfourpence。Hecanpayandhewon’tpay——sayshe’saBaptistandisnotgoingtopayparson’sdues——thoughforthematterofthatheisnothingbutanoldbeertubofaheathen。”

“Whydon’tyouproceedagainsthim,then,Mr。Granger?”

“Proceed,Ihaveproceeded。I’vegotjudgment,andImeantoissueexecutioninafewdays。Iwon’tstanditanylonger。”hewenton,workinghimselfupandshakinghisheadashespoketillhisthinwhitehairfellabouthiseyes。“Iwillhavethelawofhimandtheotherstoo。Youarealawyerandyoucanhelpme。Itellyouthere’saspiritabroadwhichjustcomestojust——nomanisn’ttopayhislawfuldebts,exceptofcoursetheparsonandthesquire。Theymustpayorgotothecourt。Butthereislawleft,andI’llhaveit,beforetheyplaytheIrishgameonushere。”Andhebroughtdownhisfistwithabanguponthetable。

Geoffreylistenedwithsomeamusement。Sothiswastheweakoldman’ssorepoint——money。Hewasclearlyverystrongaboutthat——asstrongasLadyHonoriaindeed,butwithmoreexcuse。Elizabethalsolistenedwithevidentapproval,butBeatricelookedpained。

“Don’tgetangry,father。”shesaid;“perhapshewillpayafterall。

Itisbadtotakethelawifyoucanmanageanyotherway——itbreedssomuchillblood。”

“Nonsense,Beatrice。”saidhersistersharply。“Fatherisquiteright。

There’sonlyonewaytodealwiththem,andthatistoseizetheirgoods。Ibelieveyouaresocialistaboutproperty,asyouareabouteverythingelse。Youwanttopulleverythingdown,fromtheQueentothelawsofmarriage,allforthegoodofhumanity,andItellyouthatyourideaswillbeyourruin。Defycustomanditwillcrushyou。

Youarerunningyourheadagainstabrickwall,andonedayyouwillfindwhichistheharder。”

Beatriceflushed,butansweredhersister’sattack,whichwasallthesharperbecauseithadacertainspiceoftruthinit。

“Ineverexpressedanysuchviews,Elizabeth,soIdonotseewhyyoushouldattributethemtome。Ionlysaidthatlegalproceedingsbreedbadbloodinaparish,andthatistrue。”

“Ididnotsayyouexpressedthem。”wentonthevigorousElizabeth;

“youlookthem——theyoozeoutofyourwordslikewaterfromapeatbog。Everybodyknowsyouarearadicalandafreethinkerandeverythingelsethatisbadandmad,andcontrarytothatstateoflifeinwhichithaspleasedGodtocallyou。Theendofitwillbethatyouwilllosethemistresshipoftheschool——andIthinkitisveryhardonfatherandmethatyoushouldbringdisgraceonuswithyourstrangewaysandimmoralviews,andnowyoucanmakewhatyoulikeofit。”

“IwishthatallradicalswerelikeMissBeatrice。”saidGeoffrey,whowasfeelingexceedinglyuncomfortable,withafeebleattemptatpolitejocosity。Butnobodyseemedtohearhim。Elizabeth,whowasnowfairlyinarage,afaintflushuponherpalecheeks,herlighteyesallashine,andherthinfingersclasped,stoodfrontingherbeautifulsister,andbreathingspiteateverypore。ButitwaseasyforGeoffreywhowaswatchinghertoseethatitwasnothersister’sviewsshewasattacking;itwashersister。Itwasthatsoftstronglovelinessandthegloryofthatface;itwasthedeepgentlemind,erringfromitsverygreatness,andthebrightintellectwhichlititlikealamp;itwasthelearningandthepowerthat,givethemplay,wouldsetaworldaflame,aseasilyastheydidtheheartoftheslow-

wittedhermitsquire,whomElizabethcoveted——thesewerethethingsthatElizabethhated,andbitterlyassailed。

Accustomedtoobserve,Geoffreysawthisinstantly,andthenglancedatthefather。Theoldmanwasfrightened;clearlyhewasafraidofElizabeth,anddreadedascene。Hestoodfidgetinghisfeetabout,andtryingtofindsomethingtosay,asheglancedapprehensivelyathiselderdaughter,throughhisthinhanginghair。

Lastly,GeoffreylookedatBeatrice,whowasindeedwellworthlookingat。Herfacewasquitepaleandthecleargreyeyesshoneoutbeneaththeirdarklashes。Shehadrisen,drawingherselftoherfullheight,whichherexquisiteproportionsseemedtoincrease,andwaslookingathersister。Presentlyshesaidonewordandoneonly,butitwasenough。

“/Elizabeth。/“

Hersisteropenedherlipstospeakagain,buthesitated,andchangedhermind。TherewassomethinginBeatrice’smannerthatcheckedher。

“Well。”shesaidatlength,“youshouldnotirritatemeso,Beatrice。”

Beatricemadenoreply。SheonlyturnedtowardsGeoffrey,andwithagracefullittlebow,said:

“Mr。Bingham,Iamsurethatyouwillforgivethisscene。Thefactis,weallsleptbadlylastnight,andithasnotimprovedourtempers。”

Therewasapause,ofwhichMr。Grangertookahurriedandratherundignifiedadvantage。

“Um,ah。”hesaid。“Bytheway,Beatrice,whatwasitIwantedtosay?

Ah,Iknow——haveyouwritten,Imeanwrittenout,thatsermonfornextSunday?Mydaughter。”headded,addressingGeoffreyinexplanation——

“um,copiesmysermonsforme。Shewritesaverygoodhand——“

RememberingBeatrice’sconfidenceastohersermonmanufacturingfunctions,Geoffreyfeltamusedatherfather’s/na?ve/wayofdescribingthem,andBeatricealsosmiledfaintlyassheansweredthatthesermonwasready。Justthentherollofwheelswasheardwithout,andtheonlyflythatBryngellycouldboastpulledupinfrontofthedoor。

“Hereistheflycomeforyou,Mr。Bingham。”saidMr。Granger——“andasIlive,herladyshipwithit。Elizabeth,seeifthereisn’tsometeaready。”andtheoldgentleman,whohadallthetraditionalloveofthelowermiddle-classEnglishmanforatitle,trottedofftowelcome“herladyship。”

PresentlyLadyHonoriaenteredtheroom,asweet,ifratherasetsmileuponherhandsomeface,andwithagracefulmien,thatbecamehertallfigureexceedinglywell。FortodoLadyHonoriajustice,shewasoneofthemostladylikewomeninthecountry,andsofarasherpersonalappearancewent,averyperfecttypeoftheclasstowhichshebelonged。

Geoffreylookedather,sayingtohimselfthatshehadclearlyrecoveredhertemper,andthathewasthankfulforit。Thiswasnotwonderful,foritisobservablethatthemorearistocraticalady’smannersare,themoredisagreeablesheisapttobewhensheiscrossed。

“Well,Geoffreydear。”shesaid,“youseeIhavecometofetchyou。I

wasdeterminedthatyoushouldnotgetyourselfdrownedasecondtimeonyourwayhome。Howareyounow?——butIneednotask,youlookquitewellagain。”

“Itisverykindofyou,Honoria。”saidherhusbandsimply,butitwasdoubtfulifsheheardhim,foratthemomentshewasengagedinsearchingoutthesoulofBeatrice,withoneofthemostpenetratingandcomprehensiveglancesthatyoungladyhadeverenjoyedthehonourofreceiving。Therewasnothingrudeaboutthelook,itwastooquick,butBeatricefeltthatquickasitmightbeitembracedheraltogether。Norwasshewrong。

“Thereisnodoubtaboutit。”LadyHonoriathoughttoherself,“sheislovely——lovelyeverywhere。Itwascleverofhertoleaveherhairdown;itshowstheshapeofherheadsowell,andsheistallenoughtostandit。Thatbluewrappersuitshertoo。Veryfewwomencouldshowsuchafigureashers——likeaGreekstatue。Idon’tlikeher;sheisdifferentfrommostofus;justthesortofgirlmengowildaboutandwomenhate。”

Allthispassedthroughhermindinaflash。ForamomentLadyHonoria’sblueeyesmetBeatrice’sgreyones,andsheknewthatBeatricelikedhernobetterthanshedidBeatrice。Thoseeyeswereatrifletoohonest,and,likethedeepclearwatertheyresembled,apttothrowupshadowsofthepassingthoughtsabove。

“Falseandcoldandheartless。”thoughtBeatrice。“Iwonderhowamanlikethatcouldmarryher;andhowmuchhelovesher。”

Thusthetwowomentookeachother’smeasureataglance,eachfindingtheotherwantingbyherstandard。Nordidtheyeverchangethathastilyformedjudgment。

Itwasalldoneinafewseconds——inthathesitatingmomentbeforethewordswesummonansweronourlips。Thenext,LadyHonoriawassweepingtowardsherwithoutstretchedhand,andhermostgracioussmile。

“MissGranger。”shesaid,“IoweyouadebtInevercanrepay——mydearhusband’slife。Ihaveheardallabouthowyousavedhim;itisthemostwonderfulthing——GraceDarlingbornagain。Ican’tthinkhowyoucoulddoit。IwishIwerehalfasbraveandstrong。”

“Pleasedon’t,LadyHonoria。”saidBeatrice。“Iamsotiredofbeingthankedfordoingnothing,exceptwhatitwasmydutytodo。IfIhadletMr。BinghamgowhileIhadthestrengthtoholdontohimIshouldhavefeltlikeamurderessto-day。Ibegyoutosaynomoreaboutit。”

“Onedoesnotoftenfindsuchmodestyunitedtosomuchcourage,and,ifyouwillallowmetosayit,somuchbeauty。”answeredLadyHonoriagraciously。“Well,Iwilldoasyouwish,butIwarnyouyourfamewillfindyouout。Iheartheyhaveanaccountofthewholeadventureinto-day’spapers,headed,’AWelshHeroine。’“

“Howdidyouhearthat,Honoria?”askedherhusband。

“Oh,IhadatelegramfromGarsington,andhementionsit。”sheansweredcarelessly。

“TelegramfromGarsington!Hencethesesmiles。”thoughthe。“Isupposethatsheisgoingto-morrow。”

“Ihavesomeothernewsforyou,MissGranger。”wentonLadyHonoria。

“Yourcanoehasbeenwashedashore,verylittleinjured。Theoldboatman——Edward,Ithinktheycallhim——hasfoundit;andyourguninittoo,Geoffrey。Ithadstuckundertheseatorsomewhere。ButI

fancythatyoumustbothhavehadenoughcanoeingforthepresent。”

“Idon’tknow,LadyHonoria。”answeredBeatrice。“Onedoesnotoftengetsuchweatheraslastnight’s,andcanoeingisverypleasant。Everysweethasitssalt,youknow;or,inotherwords,onemayalwaysbeupset。”

Atthatmoment,Betty,theawkwardWelshservinglass,withafore-armaboutasshapelyasthehindlegofanelephant,andamostunpleasinghabitofsnortingaudiblyasshemoved,shuffledinwiththetea-tray。

InherwakecametheslimElizabeth,towhomLadyHonoriawasintroduced。

Afterthis,conversationflaggedforawhile,tillLadyHonoria,feelingthatthingsweregettingalittledull,settheballrollingagain。

“Whataprettyviewyouhaveoftheseafromthesewindows。”shesaidinherwell-trainedandmonotonouslymodulatedvoice。“Iamsogladtohaveseenit,for,youknow,Iamgoingawayto-morrow。”

Beatricelookedupquickly。

“Myhusbandisnotgoing。”shewenton,asthoughinanswertoanunspokenquestion。“Iamplayingthepartoftheundutifulwifeandrunningawayfromhim,forexactlythreeweeks。Itisverywickedofme,isn’tit?butIhaveanengagementthatImustkeep。Itismosttiresome。”

Geoffrey,sippinghistea,smiledgrimlybehindtheshelterofhiscup。“Shedoesituncommonlywell。”hethoughttohimself。

“Doesyourlittlegirlgowithyou,LadyHonoria?”askedElizabeth。

“Well,no,Ithinknot。Ican’tbearpartingwithher——youknowhowharditiswhenonehasonlyonechild。ButIthinkshewouldbesoboredwhereIamgoingtostay,fortherearenootherchildrenthere;

andbesides,shepositivelyadoresthesea。SoIshallhavetoleavehertoherfather’stendermercies,poordear。”

“IhopeEffiewillsurviveit,Iamsure。”saidGeoffreylaughing。

“IsupposethatyourhusbandisgoingtostayonatMrs。Jones’s。”

saidtheclergyman。

“Really,Idon’tknow。What/are/yougoingtodo,Geoffrey?Mrs。

Jones’sroomsareratherexpensiveforpeopleinourimpoverishedcondition。Besides,IamsurethatshecannotlookafterEffie。Justthink,shehaseightchildrenofherown,poorolddear。AndImusttakeAnnewithme;sheisEffie’sFrenchnurse,youknow,aperfecttreasure。Iamgoingtostayinabighouse,andmyexperienceofthosebighousesis,thatonenevergetswaitedonatallunlessonetakesamaid。Yousee,whatiseverybody’sbusinessisnobody’sbusiness。I’msureIdon’tknowhowyouwillgetonwiththechild,Geoffrey;shetakessuchalotoflookingafter。”

“Oh,don’ttroubleaboutthat,Honoria。”heanswered。“IdaresaythatEffieandIwillmanagesomehow。”

HereoneofthosepeculiargleamsofintelligencewhichmarkedtheadventofanewideapassedacrossElizabeth’sface。Shewassittingnextherfather,andbending,whisperedtohim。Beatricesawitandmadeamotionasthoughtointerpose,butbeforeshecoulddosoMr。

Grangerspoke。

“Lookhere,Mr。Bingham。”hesaid,“ifyouwanttomove,wouldyoulikearoomhere?Termsstrictlymoderate,butcan’taffordtoputyouupfornothingyouknow,andlivingroughandready。You’dhavetotakeusasyoufindus;butthereisadressing-roomnexttomyroom,whereyourlittlegirlcouldsleep,andmydaughterswouldlookafterherbetweenthem,andbegladofthejob。”

AgainBeatriceopenedherlipsasthoughtospeak,butclosedthemwithoutspeaking。Thusdoouropportunitiespassbeforewerealisethattheyareathand。

InstinctivelyGeoffreyhadglancedtowardsBeatrice。Hedidnotknowifthisideawasagreeabletoher。Heknewthatherworkwashard,andhedidnotwishtoputextratroubleuponher,forheguessedthattheburdenoflookingafterEffiewouldultimatelyfalluponhershoulders。Butherfacetoldhimnothing:itwasquitepassiveandapparentlyindifferent。

“Youareverykind,Mr。Granger。”hesaid,hesitating。“Idon’twanttogoawayfromBryngellyjustatpresent,anditwouldbeagoodplaninsomeways,thatisifthetroubletoyourdaughterswouldnotbetoomuch。”

“Iamsurethatitisanexcellentplan。”brokeinLadyHonoria,whofearedlestdifficultiesshouldariseastoherappropriationofAnne’sservices;“howluckythatIhappenedtomentionit。TherewillbenotroubleaboutourgivinguptheroomsatMrs。Jones’s,becauseI

knowshehasanotherapplicationforthem。”

“Verywell。”saidGeoffrey,notlikingtoraiseobjectionstoaschemethuspubliclyadvocated,althoughhewouldhavepreferredtotaketimetoconsider。SomethingwarnedhimthatBryngellyVicaragewouldproveafatefulabodeforhim。ThenElizabethroseandaskedLadyHonoriaifshewouldliketoseetheroomsherhusbandandEffiewouldoccupy。

Shesaidsheshouldbedelightedandwentoff,followedbyMr。Grangerfussingintherear。

“Don’tyouthinkthatyouwillbealittledullhere,Mr。Bingham?”

saidBeatrice。

“Onthecontrary。”heanswered。“WhyshouldIbedull?IcannotbesodullasIshouldbebymyself。”

Beatricehesitated,andthenspokeagain。“Weareacuriousfamily,Mr。Bingham;youmayhaveseenasmuchthisafternoon。Hadyounotbetterthinkitover?”

“Ifyoumeanthatyoudonotwantmetocome,Iwon’t。”hesaidratherbluntly,andnextsecondfeltthathehadmadeamistake。

“I!“Beatriceanswered,openinghereyes。“Ihavenowishesinthematter。Thefactisthatwearepoor,andletlodgings——thatiswhatitcomesto。Ifyouthinktheywillsuityou,youarequiterighttotakethem。”

Geoffreycoloured。Hewasamanwhocouldnotbeartolayhimselfopentothesmallestrebufffromawoman,andhehadbroughtthisonhimself。Beatricesawitandrelented。

“Ofcourse,Mr。Bingham,sofarasIamconcerned,Ishallbethegainerifyoudocome。IdonotmeetsomanypeoplewithwhomIcaretoassociate,andfromwhomIcanlearn,thatIwishtothrowachanceaway。”

“Ithinkyoumisunderstandmealittle。”hesaid;“IonlymeantthatperhapsyouwouldnotwishtobebotheredwithEffie,MissGranger。”

Shelaughed。“Why,Ilovechildren。ItwillbeagreatpleasuretometolookafterhersofarasIhavetime。”

Justthentheothersreturned,andtheirconversationcametoanend。

“It’squitedelightful,Geoffrey——suchfunnyold-fashionedrooms。I

reallyenvyyou。”(IftherewasonethingintheworldthatLadyHonoriahated,itwasanold-fashionedroom。)“Well,andnowwemustbegoing。Oh!youpoorcreature,Iforgotthatyouweresoknockedabout。IamsureMr。Grangerwillgiveyouhisarm。”

Mr。Grangerambledforward,andGeoffreyhavingmadehisadieus,andborrowedaclericalhat(Mr。Granger’sconcessiontocustom,forinmostotherrespectshedressedlikeanordinaryfarmer),wassafelyconveyedtothefly。

AndsoendedGeoffrey’sfirstdayatBryngellyVicarage。

CHAPTERXI

BEATRICEMAKESANAPPOINTMENT

LadyHonorialeanedbackinthecab,andsighedasighofsatisfaction。

“Thatisacapitalidea。”shesaid。“Iwaswonderingwhatarrangementsyoucouldmakeforthenextthreeweeks。ItisridiculoustopaythreeguineasaweekforroomsjustforyouandEffie。Theoldgentlemanonlywantsthatforboardandlodgingtogether,forIaskedhim。”

“Idaresayitwilldo。”saidGeoffrey。“Whenarewetoshift?”

“To-morrow,intimefordinner,orrathersupper:thesebarbarianseatsupper,youknow。Igobythemorningtrain,yousee,soastoreachGarsingtonbytea-time。Idaresayyouwillfinditratherdull,butyoulikebeingdull。Theoldclergymanisalowstampofman,andabore,andasfortheeldestdaughter,Elizabeth,she’stooawful——sheremindsmeofarat。ButBeatriceishandsomeenough,thoughIthinkherhorridtoo。You’llhavetoconsoleyourselfwithher,andI

daresayyouwillsuiteachother。”

“Whydoyouthinkherhorrid,Honoria?”

“Oh,Idon’tknow;sheiscleverandodd,andIhateoddwomen。Whycan’ttheybelikeotherpeople?Thinkofherbeingstrongenoughtosaveyourlifelikethattoo。ShemusthavethemuscleofanAmazon——

it’sdownrightunwomanly。Butthereisnodoubtaboutherbeauty。SheisasnearlyperfectasanygirlIeversaw,thoughtooindependentlooking。Ifonlyonehadadaughterlikethat,howonemightmarryher。Iwouldnotlookatanythingundertwentythousandayear。SheistoogoodforthatlumberingWelshsquireshe’sengagedtoo——themanwholivesintheCastle——thoughtheysaythatheisfairlyrich。”

“Engaged。”saidGeoffrey,“howdoyouknowthatsheisengaged?”

“Oh,Idon’tknowitatall,butIsupposesheis。Ifsheisn’t,shesoonwillbe,foragirlinthatpositionisnotlikelytothrowsuchachanceaway。Atanyrate,he’sheadoverearsinlovewithher。I

sawthatlastnight。Hewashangingaboutforhoursintherain,outsidethedoor,withafacelikeaghost,tillheknewwhethershewasdeadoralive,andhehasbeentheretwicetoinquirethismorning。Mr。Grangertoldme。Butsheistoogoodforhimfromabusinesspointofview。Shemightmarryanybody,ifonlyshewereputinthewayofit。”

Somehow,Geoffrey’slivelyinterestinBeatricesensiblydeclinedonthereceiptofthisintelligence。Ofcourseitwasnothingtohim;

indeedhewasgladtohearthatshewasinthewayofsuchacomfortablesettlement,butitisunfortunatelyafactthatonecannotbequiteasmuchinterestedinayoungandlovelyladywhoisthepotentialpropertyofa“lumberingWelshsquire。”asinonewhobelongstoherself。

TheoldAdamstillsurvivesinmostmen,howeverright-thinkingtheymaybe,andthisisoneofitsmethodsofself-assertion。

“Well。”hesaid,“Iamgladtohearsheisinsuchagoodway;shedeservesit。IthinktheWelshsquireisinluck;MissGrangerisaremarkablewoman。”

“Tooremarkablebyhalf。”saidLadyHonoriadrily。“Hereweare,andthereisEffie,skippingaboutlikeawildthingasusual。Ithinkthatchildisdemented。”

Onthefollowingmorning——itwasFriday——LadyHonoria,accompaniedbyAnne,departedintheverybestoftempers。Forthenextthreeweeks,atanyrate,shewouldbefreefromthegallingassociationsofstraightenedmeans——freetoenjoytheluxuryandrefinedcomforttowhichshehadbeenaccustomed,andforwhichhersoulyearnedwithafiercelongingthatwouldbeincomprehensibletofolkofasimplermind。EverybodyhashisorheridealHeaven,ifonlyonecouldfathomit。Somewouldchooseasublimatedintellectualleisure,madehappybythebestliteratureofalltheplanets;someamodelstate(withthemselvesaspresidents),inwhich(throughtheirbeneficentefforts)

thelatestradicalnotionscouldactuallybepersuadedtoworktoeverybody’ssatisfaction;othersahappyhuntingground,wherethegameenjoyedthefunasmuchastheydid;andsoon,/adinfinitum/。

LadyHonoriawasevenmoremodest。Giveherawellappointedtownandcountryhouse,afewpowderedfootmen,plentyofcarriages,andotherneedfulthings,includingofcoursethe/entrée/totheuppercelestialten,andshewouldasknomorefromagetoage。Letushopethatshewillgetitoneday。Itwouldhurtnobody,andsheissuretofindplentyofpeopleofherownwayofthinking——thatis,ifthisworldsuppliestherawmaterial。

SheembracedEffiewithenthusiasm,andherhusbandwithachastenedwarmth,andwent,apiousprayeronherlipsthatshemightneveragainseteyesuponBryngelly。

ItwillnotbenecessaryforustofollowLadyHonoriainhertravels。

ThatafternoonEffieandherfatherhadgreatfun。Theypackedup。

Geoffrey,whowasrapidlyrecoveringfromhisstiffness,pushedthethingsintotheportmanteausandEffiejumpedonthem。Thosewhichwouldnotgointheybundledlooseintothefly,tillthatvehiclelookedlikeanoldclothesship。Then,astherewasnoroomleftfortheminside,theywalkeddowntotheVicaragebythebeach,adistanceofaboutthree-quartersofamile,stoppingontheirwaytoadmirethebeautifulcastle,inonecornerofwhichOwenDavieslivedandmoved。

“Oh,daddy。”saidthechild,“Iwishyouwouldbuyahouselikethatforyouandmetolivein。Whydon’tyou,daddy?”

“Haven’tgotthemoney,dear。”heanswered。

“Willyoueverhavethemoney,daddy?”

“Idon’tknow,dear,perhapsoneday——whenIamtoooldtoenjoyit。”

headdedtohimself。

“Itwouldtakeagreatmanypenniestobuyahouselikethat,wouldn’tit,daddy?”saidEffiesagely。

“Yes,dear,morethanyoucouldcount。”heanswered,andtheconversationdropped。

Presentlytheycametoaboat-shed,placedoppositethevillageandclosetohigh-watermark。Hereaman,itwasoldEdward,wasengagedinmendingacanoe。Geoffreyglancedatitandsawthatitwastheidenticalcanoeoutofwhichhehadsonearlybeendrowned。

“Look,Effie。”saidhe,“thatistheboatoutofwhichIwasupset。”

Effieopenedherwideeyes,andstaredatthefrailcraft。

“Itisahorridboat。”shesaid;“Idon’twanttolookatit。”

“You’requiteright,littlemiss。”saidoldEdward,touchinghiscap。

“Itain’tsafe,andsomebodywillbedrownedoutofitoneofthesedays。Iwishithadgonetothebottom,Ido;butMissBeatrice,sheisthatfoolhardythereain’tnodoingnothingwithher。”

“Ifancythatshehaslearntalesson。”saidGeoffrey。

“Maybe,maybe。”grumbledtheoldman,“butwomenfolkarehardtoteach;theyneverlearnnothingtillit’stoolate,theydon’t,andthenwhenthey’vebeenanddoneitthey’resorry,butwhat’sthegoodo’that?”

Meanwhileanotherconversationwasinprogressnotmorethanaquarterofamileaway。OnthebrowofthecliffstoodthevillageofBryngelly,andatthebackofthevillagewasaschool,aplainwhite-

washedbuilding,roofedwithstone,which,thoughamplysufficientandsuitabletothewantsoftheplace,waslittleshortofanabominationintheeyesofHerMajesty’sschoolinspectors,whofromtimetotimedescendeduponBryngellyforpurposesofexaminationandfault-

finding。Theyyearnedtoseeastatelyred-brickedifice,withallthelatestimprovements,erectedattheexpenseoftherate-payers,butasyettheyyearnedinvain。Theschoolwassupportedbyvoluntarycontributions,andthankstoBeatrice’senergyandgoodteaching,thedreadedBoard,withitsfadsandextravagance,hadnotyetclutchedit。

Beatricehadreturnedtoherdutiesthatafternoon,foranight’srestbroughtbackitsvigourtoherstrongyoungframe。Shehadbeengreetedwithenthusiasmbythechildren,wholovedher,aswelltheymight,forshewasverygentleandsweetwiththem,thoughfewdaredtodisobeyher。Besides,herbeautyimpressedthem,thoughtheydidnotknowit。Beautyofacertainsorthasperhapsmoreeffectonchildrenthanonanyotherclass,heedlessandselfishastheyoftenseemtobe。Theyfeelitspower;itisanoutwardexpressionofthethoughtsanddreamsthatbudintheirunknowinghearts,andissomehowmixedupwiththeirideasofGodandHeaven。ThustherewasinBryngellyalittlegirloften,averycleverandhighlyexcitablechild,JaneLlewellynbyname,bornofparentsofstrictCalvinisticviews。Asitchanced,somemonthsbeforetheopeningofthisstory,atubthumper,ofhighrenownandconsiderablerudeoratoricalforce,visitedtheplace,andtreatedhishearerstoalivelydiscourseonthehorrorsofHell。

Intheveryfrontrow,hereyeswidewithfear,satthispoorlittlechildbetweenherparents,wholistenedtotheMinisterwithmuchsatisfaction,andalittlewaybacksatBeatrice,whohadcomeoutofcuriosity。

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