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“Idon’tmeansechthings,Doctor;Imeanfevers。Isthereanyketchin’fevers——bilious,ornervous,ortypus,orwhateveryoucall’em——nowgoin’roundthisvillage?That’swhatIwanttoascertain,ifthere’snoimpropriety。”
TheoldDoctorlookedatSilasthroughhisspectacles。
“Hardandsourasagreencider-apple。”hethoughttohimself。
“No。”;hesaid,——“Idon’tknowanysuchcases。”
“What’sthematterwithElsieVenner?“askedSilas,sharply,asifheexpectedtohavehimthistime。
“Amildfeverishattack,Ishouldcallitinanybodyelse;butshehasapeculiarconstitution,andIneverfeelsosafeaboutherasI
shouldaboutmostpeople。”
“Anythingketchin’aboutit?“Silasasked,cunningly。
“No,indeed!“saidtheDoctor,——“catching?no,——whatputthatintoyourhead,Mr。Peckham?“
“Well,Doctor。”theconscientiousPrincipalanswered,“Inaterallyfeelagraatresponsibility,averygmaaatresponsibility,forthenoomerousandlovelyyoungladiescommittedtomycharge。Ithasbeenaquestion,whetheroneofmyassistantsshouldgo,accordin’torequest,tostopwithMissVennerforaseason。Nothin’restrainsmygivin’myfullandfreeconsenttohergoin’butthefearlestcontagiousmaladiesshouldbeintrodoocedamongthoselovelyfemaleyouth。Ishallabidebyyouropinion,——Iunderstan’youtosaydistinc’ly,hercomplaintisnotketchin’?——andurgeuponMissDarleytofulfilherdootiestoasufferin’fellow-creatureatanycosttomyselfandmyestablishment。Weshallmissherverymuch;
butitisagoodcause,andsheshallgo,——andIshalltrustthatProvidencewillenableustospareherwithoutpermanentdemagetotheinterestsoftheInstitootion。”
Sayingthis,theexcellentPrincipaldeparted,withhisrustynarrow-
brimmedhatleaningover,asifithadasix-knotbreezeabeam,anditsgunwale(sotospeak)wasdippingintohiscoat-collar。HeannouncedtheresultofhisinquiriestoHelen,whohadreceivedabriefnoteinthemeantimefromapoorrelationofElsie’smother,thenatthemansion-house,informingherofthecriticalsituationofElsieandofherurgentdesirethatHelenshouldbewithher。Shecouldnothesitate。Sheblushedasshethoughtofthecommentsthatmightbemade;butwhatweresuchconsiderationsinamatteroflifeanddeath?ShecouldnotstoptomaketermswithSilasPeckham。Shemustgo。Hemightfleeceher,ifhewould;shewouldnotcomplain,——
noteventoBernard,who,sheknew,wouldbringthePrincipaltoterms,ifshegavetheleasthintofhisintendedextortions。
SoHelenmadeupherbundleofclothestobesentafterher,tookabookortwowithhertohelpherpassthetime,anddepartedfortheDudleymansion。Itwaswithagreatinwardeffortthatsheundertookthesisterlytaskwhichwasthusforceduponher。ShehadakindofterrorofElsie;andthethoughtofhavingchargeofher,ofbeingalonewithher,ofcomingunderthefullinfluenceofthosediamondeyes,——if,indeed,theirlightwerenotdimmedbysufferingandweariness,——wasonesheshrankfrom。Butwhatcouldshedo?Itmightbeaturning-pointinthelifeofthepoorgirl;andshemustovercomeallherfears,allherrepugnance,andgotoherrescue。
“IsHelencome?“saidElsie,whensheheard,withherfinesensequickenedbytheirritabilityofsickness,alightfootfallonthestair,withacadenceunlikethatofanyinmateofthehouse。
“It’sastrangewoman’sstep。”saidOldSophy,who,withherexclusiveloveforElsie,wasnaturallydisposedtojealousyofanew-comer。“LetOl’Sophysetat’th’footo’th’bed,ifth’youngmississetsbyth’piller,——won’y’,darlin’?The’’snobodythat’swhitecanlovey’asth’ofblackwomandoes;——don’sen’heraway,now,there’sadearsoul!“
Elsiemotionedhertositintheplaceshehadpointedto,andHelenatthatmomententeredtheroom。DudleyVennerfollowedher。
“Sheisyourpatient。”hesaid,“exceptwhiletheDoctorishere。
Shehasbeenlongingtohaveyouwithher,andweshallexpectyoutomakeherwellinafewdays。”
SoHelenDarleyfoundherselfestablishedinthemostunexpectedmannerasaninmateoftheDudleymansion。ShesatwithElsiemostofthetime,bydayandbynight,soothingher,andtryingtoenterintoherconfidenceandaffections,ifitshouldprovethatthisstrangecreaturewasreallycapableoftrulysympatheticemotions。
Whatwasthisunexplainedsomethingwhichcamebetweenhersoulandthatofeveryotherhumanbeingwithwhomshewasinrelations?
Helenperceived,orratherfelt,thatshehad,foldedupinthedepthsofherbeing,atruewomanlynature。Throughthecloudthatdarkenedheraspect,nowandthenaraywouldstealforth,which,likethesmileofsternandsolemnpeople,wasallthemoreimpressivefromitscontrastwiththeexpressionsheworehabitually。
Itmightwellbethatpainandfatiguehadchangedheraspect;but,atanyrate,Helenlookedintohereyeswithoutthatnervousagitationwhichtheircoldglitterhadproducedonherwhentheywerefulloftheirnaturallight。Shefeltsurethathermothermusthavebeenalovely,gentlewoman。Thereweregleamsofabeautifulnatureshiningthroughsomeill-definedmediumwhichdisturbedandmadethemflickerandwaver,asdistantimagesdowhenseenthroughtheripplingupwardcurrentsofheatedair。Sheloved,inherownway,theoldblackwoman,andseemedtokeepupakindofsilentcommunicationwithher,asiftheydidnotrequiretheuseofspeech。
SheappearedtobetranquillizedbythepresenceofHelen,andlovedtohaveherseatedatthebedside。Yetsomething,whateveritwas,preventedherfromopeningherhearttoherkindcompanion;andevennowthereweretimeswhenshewouldlielookingather,withsuchastill,watchful,almostdangerousexpression,thatHelenwouldsigh,andchangeherplace,aspersonsdowhosebreathsomecunningoratorhadbeensuckingoutofthemwithhisspongyeloquence,sothat,whenhestops,theymustgetsomeairandstirabout,ortheyfeelasiftheyshouldbehalfsmotheredandpalsied。
Itwastoomuchtokeepguessingwhatwasthemeaningofallthis。
HelendeterminedtoaskOldSophysomequestionswhichmightprobablythrowlightuponherdoubts。ShetooktheopportunityoneeveningwhenElsiewaslyingasleepandtheywerebothsittingatsomedistancefromherbed。
“Tellme,Sophy。”shesaid,“wasElsiealwaysasshyassheseemstobenow,intalkingwiththosetowhomsheisfriendly?“
“Alwayjes’so,MissDarlin’,eversenseshewaslittlechil’。Whenshewasfive,sixyearold,shelispsome,——callmeThophy;thatmakeherkin’o’’shamed,perhaps:aftershegrowup,sheneverlisp,butshekin’o’gotthewayo’nottalkin’much。Fac’is,shedon’liketalkin’ascommongalsdo,’xcep’jes’onceinawhilewi’somepartic’larfolks,——’n’thennotmuch。”
“HowoldisElsie?“
“Eighteenyearthislas’September。”
“Howlongagodidhermotherdie?“Helenasked,withalittletremblinginhervoice。
“EighteenyearagothisOctober。”saidOldSophy。
Helenwassilentforamoment。Thenshewhispered,almostinaudibly,——forhervoiceappearedtofailher,“Whatdidhermotherdieof,Sophy?“
Theoldwoman’ssmalleyesdilateduntilaringofwhiteshowedroundtheirbeadycentres。ShecaughtHelenbythehandandclungtoit,asifinfear。ShelookedroundatElsie,wholaysleeping,asofshemightbelistening。ThenshedrewHelentowardsherandledhersoftlyoutoftheroom。
“’Sh!——’sh!“shesaid,assoonastheywereoutsidethedoor。
“Don’neverspeakinthishouse’boutwhatElsie’smotherdiedof!“
shesaid。“Nobodyneversaysnothin’’boutit。Oh,GodhasmadeUglyThingswi’deathintheirmouths,MissDarlin’,an’Heknowswhatthey’refor;butmypoorElsie!——tohaveherbloodchangedinherbefore——ItwasinJulyMistressgotherdeath,butsheliv’tillthreeweekaftermypoorElsiewasborn。”
Shecouldspeaknomore。Shehadsaidenough。Helenrememberedthestoriesshehadheardoncomingtothevillage,andamongthemonereferredtoinanearlychapterofthisnarrative。AlltheunaccountablelooksandtastesandwaysofElsiecamebacktoherinthelightofanante-natalimpressionwhichhadmingledanalienelementinhernature。Sheknewthesecretofthefascinationwhichlookedoutofhercold,glitteringeyes。Sheknewthesignificanceofthestrangerepulsionwhichshefeltinherownintimateconsciousnessunderlyingtheinexplicableattractionwhichdrewhertowardstheyounggirlinspiteofthisrepugnance。Shebegantolookwithnewfeelingsonthecontradictionsinhermoralnature,——
thelongingforsympathy,asshownbyherwishingforHelen’scompany,andtheimpossibilityofpassingbeyondthecoldcircleofisolationwithinwhichshehadherbeing。Thefearfultruthofthatinstinctivefeelingofhers,thattherewassomethingnothumanlookingoutofElsie’seyes,cameuponherwithasuddenflashofpenetratingconviction。Thereweretwowarringprinciplesinthatsuperborganizationandproudsoul。Onemadeherawoman,withallawoman’spowersandlongings。Theotherchilledallthecurrentsofoutletforheremotions。Itmadehertearlessandmute,whenanotherwomanwouldhaveweptandpleaded。Anditinfusedintohersoulsomething——itwascruelnowtocallitmalice——whichwasstillandwatchfulanddangerous,whichwaiteditsopportunity,andthenshotlikeanarrowfromitsbowoutofthecoilofbroodingpremeditation。
EventhosewhohadneverseenthewhitescarsonDickVenner’swrist,orheardthehalf-toldstoryofhersupposedattempttodoagravermischief,knewwellenoughbylookingatherthatshewasoneofthecreaturesnottobetamperedwith,——silentinangerandswiftinvengeance。
Helencouldnotreturntothebedsideatonceafterthiscommunication。Itwaswithalteredeyesthatshemustlookonthepoorgirl,thevictimofsuchanunheard-offatality。Allwasexplainedtohernow。Butitopenedsuchdepthsofsolemnthoughtinherawakenedconsciousness,thatitseemedasifthewholemysteryofhumanlifewerecomingupagainbeforeherfortrialandjudgment。
“Oh。”shethought,“if,whilethewillliessealedinitsfountain,itmaybepoisonedatitsverysource,sothatitshallflowdarkanddeadlythroughitswholecourse,whoarewethatweshouldjudgeourfellow-creaturesbyourselves?“Thencametheterriblequestion,howfartheelementsthemselvesarecapableofpervertingthemoralnature:ifvalor,andjustice,andtruth,thestrengthofmanandthevirtueofwoman,maynotbepoisonedoutofaracebythefoodoftheAustralianinhisforest,bythefoulairanddarknessoftheChristianscoopedupinthe“tenement-houses“closebythosewholiveinthepalacesofthegreatcities?
Shewalkedoutintothegarden,lostinthoughtuponthesedarkanddeepmatters。Presentlysheheardastepbehindher,andElsie’sfathercameupandjoinedher。SincehisintroductiontoHelenatthedistinguishedtea-partygivenbytheWidowRowens,andbeforehercomingtositwithElsie,Mr。DudleyVennerhadinthemostaccidentalwayintheworldmetheronseveraloccasions:onceafterchurch,whenshehappenedtobecaughtinaslightshowerandheinsistedonholdinghisumbrellaoverheronherwayhome;——onceatasmallpartyatoneofthemansion-houses,wherethequick-eyedladyofthehousehadawonderfulknackofbringingpeopletogetherwholikedtoseeeachother;——perhapsatothertimesandplaces;butofthisthereisnocertainevidence。
TheynaturallyspokeofElsie,herillness,andtheaspectithadtaken。ButHelennoticedinallthatDudleyVennersaidabouthisdaughteramorbidsensitiveness,asitseemedtoher,anaversiontosayingmuchaboutherphysicalconditionorherpeculiarities,——awishtofeelandspeakasaparentshould,andyetashrinking,asifthereweresomethingaboutElsiewhichhecouldnotbeartodwellupon。Shethoughtshesawthroughallthis,andshecouldinterpretitallcharitably。Therewerecircumstancesabouthisdaughterwhichrecalledthegreatsorrowofhislife;itwasnotstrangethatthisperpetualremindershouldinsomedegreehavemodifiedhisfeelingsasafather。Butwhatalifehemusthavebeenleadingforsomanyyears,withthisperpetualsourceofdistresswhichhecouldnotname!Helenknewwellenough,now,themeaningofthesadnesswhichhadleftsuchtracesinhisfeaturesandtones,anditmadeherfeelverykindlyandcompassionatetowardshim。
Sotheywalkedoverthecracklingleavesinthegarden,betweenthelinesofboxbreathingitsfragranceofeternity;——forthisisoneoftheodorswhichcarryusoutoftimeintotheabyssesoftheunbeginningpast;ifweeverlivedonanotherballofstonethanthis,itmustbethattherewasboxgrowingonit。Sotheywalked,findingtheirwaysoftlytoeachother’ssorrowsandsympathies,eachmatchingsomecounterparttotheother’sexperienceoflife,andstartledtoseehowthedifferent,yetparallel,lessonstheyhadbeentaughtbysufferinghadledthemstepbysteptothesamesereneacquiescenceintheorderingsofthatSupremeWisdomwhichtheybothdevoutlyrecognized。
OldSophywasatthewindowandsawthemwalkingupanddownthegarden-alleys。Shewatchedthemashergrandfatherthesavagewatchedthefiguresthatmovedamongthetreeswhenahostiletribewaslurkingabouthismountain。
“There’llbeaweddin’intheolhouse。”shesaid,“beforethere’srosesonthembushesag’in。Butitwon’bemypoorElsie’sweddin’,’n’ol’Sophywon’bethere。”
WhenHelenprayedinthesilenceofhersoulthatevening,itwasnotthatElsie’slifemightbespared。ShedarednotaskthatasafavorofHeaven。Whatcouldlifebetoherbutaperpetualanguish,andtothoseaboutherbutanever-presentterror?Mightshebutbesoinfluencedbydivinegrace,thatwhatinherwasmosttrulyhuman,mostpurelywoman-like,shouldovercomethedark,cold,unmentionableinstinctwhichhadpervadedherbeinglikeasubtilepoisonthatwasallshecouldask,andtherestshelefttoahigherwisdomandtendererlovethanherown。
CHAPTERXXIX。
THEWHITEASH。
WhenHelenreturnedtoElsie’sbedside,itwaswithanewandstilldeeperfeelingofsympathy,suchasthestorytoldbyOldSophymightwellawaken。Sheunderstood,asneverbefore,thesingularfascinationandassingularrepulsionwhichshehadlongfeltinElsie’spresence。Ithadnotbeenwithoutagreateffortthatshehadforcedherselftobecomethealmostconstantattendantofthesickgirl;andnowshewaslearning,butnotforthefirsttime,theblessedtruthwhichsomanygoodwomenhavefoundoutforthemselves,thatthehardestdutybravelyperformedsoonbecomesahabit,andtendsinduetimetotransformitselfintoapleasure。
TheoldDoctorwasbeginningtolookgraver,inspiteofhimself。
Thefever,ifsuchitwas,wentgentlyforward,wastingtheyounggirl’spowersofresistancefromdaytoday;yetsheshowednodispositiontotakenourishment,andseemedliterallytobelivingonair。Itwasremarkablethatwithallthisherlookwasalmostnatural,andherfeatureswerehardlysharpenedsoastosuggestthatherlifewasburningaway。Hedidnotlikethis,norvariousotherunobtrusivesignsofdangerwhichhispractisedeyedetected。Averysmallmattermightturnthebalancewhichheldlifeanddeathpoisedagainsteachother。Hesurroundedherwithprecautions,thatNaturemighthaveeveryopportunityofcunninglyshiftingtheweightsfromthescaleofdeathtothescaleoflife,asshewilloftendoifnotrudelydisturbedorinterferedwith。
Littletokensofgood-willandkindremembrancewereconstantlycomingtoherfromthegirlsintheschoolandthegoodpeopleinthevillage。Someofthemansion-housepeopleobtainedrareflowerswhichtheysenther,andhertablewascoveredwithfruitswhichtemptedherinvain。Severaloftheschool-girlswishedtomakeherabasketoftheirownhandiwork,and,fillingitwithautumnalflowers,tosenditasajointoffering。Mr。Bernardfoundouttheirprojectaccidentally,and,wishingtohavehisshareinit,broughthomefromoneofhislongwalkssomeboughsfullofvariouslytintedleaves,suchaswerestillclingingtothestrickentrees。Withthesehebroughtalsosomeofthealreadyfallenleafletsofthewhiteash,remarkablefortheirricholive-purplecolor,formingabeautifulcontrastwithsomeofthelighter-huedleaves。Itsohappenedthatthisparticulartree,thewhiteash,didnotgrowuponTheMountain,andtheleafletsweremorewelcomefortheircomparativerarity。Sothegirlsmadetheirbasket,andthefloorofittheycoveredwiththericholive-purpleleaflets。Suchlateflowersastheycouldlaytheirhandsuponservedtofillit,andwithmanykindlymessagestheysentittoMissElsieVennerattheDudleymansion-house。
Elsiewassittingupinherbedwhenitcame,languid,buttranquil,andHelenwasbyher,asusual,holdingherhand,whichwasstrangelycold,Helenthought,foronewhowassaidtohavesomekindoffever。
Theschool-girls’basketwasbroughtinwithitsmessagesofloveandhopesforspeedyrecovery。OldSophywasdelightedtoseethatitpleasedElsie,andlaiditonthebedbeforeher。Elsiebeganlookingattheflowers,andtakingthemfromthebasket,thatshemightseetheleaves。Allatoncesheappearedtobeagitated;shelookedatthebasket,thenaround,asifthereweresomefearfulpresenceaboutherwhichshewassearchingforwithhereagerglances。Shetookouttheflowers,onebyone,herbreathinggrowinghurried,hereyesstaring,herhandstrembling,——till,asshecamenearthebottomofthebasket,sheflungoutalltherestwithahastymovement,lookedupontheolive-purpleleafletsasifparalyzedforamoment,shrunkup,asitwere,intoherselfinacurdlingterror,dashedthebasketfromher,andfellbacksenseless,withafaintcrywhichchilledthebloodofthestartledlistenersatherbedside。
“Takeitaway!——takeitaway!——quick!“saidOldSophy,asshehastenedtohermistress’spillow。“It’stheleavesofthetreethatwasalwaysdeathtoher,——takeitaway!Shecan’tlivewi’itintheroom!“
ThepooroldwomanbeganchafingElsie’shands,andHelentotrytorouseherwithhartshorn,whileathirdfrightenedattendantgathereduptheflowersandthebasketandcarriedthemoutoftheapartment,Shecametoherselfafteratime,butexhaustedandthenwandering。
Inherdeliriumshetalkedconstantlyasifshewereinacave,withsuchexactnessofcircumstancethatHelencouldnotdoubtatallthatshehadsomesuchretreatamongtherocksofTheMountain,probablyfittedupinherownfantasticway,whereshesometimeshidherselffromallhumaneyes,andoftheentrancetowhichshealonepossessedthesecret。
Allthispassedaway,andlefther,ofcourse,weakerthanbefore。
Butthiswasnottheonlyinfluencetheunexplainedparoxysmhadleftbehindit。Fromthistimeforwardtherewasachangeinherwholeexpressionandhermanner。Theshadowsceasedflittingoverherfeatures,andtheoldwoman,whowatchedherfromdaytodayandfromhourtohourasamotherwatchesherchild,sawthelikenesssheboretohermothercomingforthmoreandmore,asthecoldglitterdiedoutofthediamondeyes,andthestormyscowldisappearedfromthedarkbrowsandlowforehead。
Withallthekindnessandindulgenceherfatherhadbestoweduponher,Elsiehadneverfeltthathelovedher。Thereaderknowswellenoughwhatfatalrecollectionsandassociationshadfrozenupthespringsofnaturalaffectioninhisbreast。TherewasnothingintheworldhewouldnotdoforElsie。Hehadsacrificedhiswholelifetoher。Hisveryseemingcarelessnessaboutrestrainingherwasallcalculated;heknewthatrestraintwouldproducenothingbututteralienation。Justsofarassheallowedhim,hesharedherstudies,herfewpleasures,herthoughts;butshewasessentiallysolitaryanduncommunicative。Noperson,aswassaidlongago,couldjudgehim,becausehistaskwasnotmerelydifficult,butsimplyimpracticabletohumanpowers。AnaturelikeElsie’shadnecessarilytobestudiedbyitself,andtobefollowedinitslawswhereitcouldnotbeled。
Everyday,atdifferenthours,duringthewholeofhisdaughter’sillness,DudleyVennerhadsatbyher,doingallhecouldtosootheandpleaseher。Alwaysthesamethinfilmofsomeemotionalnon-
conductorbetweenthem;alwaysthatkindofhabitualregardandfamily-interest,mingledwiththedeepestpityononesideandasortofrespectontheother,whichneverwarmedintooutwardevidencesofaffection。
Itwasafterthisoccasion,whenshehadbeensoprofoundlyagitatedbyaseeminglyinsignificantcause,thatherfatherandOldSophyweresitting,oneatonesideofherbedandoneattheother。Shehadfallenintoalightslumber。Astheywerelookingather,thesamethoughtcameintoboththeirmindsatthesamemoment。OldSophyspokeforboth,asshesaid,inalowvoice,“It’shermother’slook,——it’shermother’sownfacerightoveragain,——sheneverlook’sobefore,theLord’shandisonher!Hiswillbedone!“
WhenElsiewokeandliftedherlanguideyesuponherfather’sface,shesawinitatenderness,adepthofaffection,suchassherememberedatraremomentsofherchildhood,whenshehadwonhimtoherbysomeunusualgleamofsunshineinherfitfultemper。
“Elsie,dear。”hesaid,“wewerethinkinghowmuchyourexpressionwassometimeslikethatofyoursweetmother。Ifyoucouldbuthaveseenher,soastorememberher!“
Thetenderlookandtone,theyearningofthedaughter’sheartforthemothershehadneverseen,saveonlywiththeunfixed,undistinguishingeyesofearliestinfancy,perhapstheunder-thoughtthatshemightsoonrejoinherinanotherstateofbeing,——allcameuponherwithasuddenoverflowoffeelingwhichbrokethroughallthebarriersbetweenherheartandhereyes,andElsiewept。Itseemedtoherfatherasifthemaligninfluence——evilspirititmightalmostbecalled——whichhadpervadedherbeing,hadatlastbeendrivenforthorexorcised,andthatthesetearswereatoncethesignandthepledgeofherredeemednature。Butnowshewastobesoothed,andnotexcited。Afterhertearsshesleptagain,andthelookherfaceworewaspeacefulasneverbefore。
OldSophymettheDoctoratthedoorandtoldhimallthecircumstancesconnectedwiththeextraordinaryattackfromwhichElsiehadsuffered。Itwasthepurpleleaves,shesaid。SherememberedthatDickoncebroughthomeabranchofatreewithsomeofthesameleavesonit,andElsiescreamedandalmostfaintedthen。
She,Sophy,hadaskedher,aftershehadgotquiet,whatitwasintheleavesthatmadeherfeelsobad。Elsiecouldn’ttellher,——didn’tliketospeakaboutit,——shudderedwheneverSophymentionedit。
ThisdidnotsoundsostrangelytotheoldDoctorasitdoestosomewholistentohisnarrative。Hehadknownsomecuriousexamplesofantipathies,andrememberedreadingofothersstillmoresingular。
Hehadknownthosewhocouldnotbearthepresenceofacat,andrecollectedthestory,oftentold,ofaperson’shidingoneinachestwhenoneofthesesensitiveindividualscameintotheroom,soasnottodisturbhim;buthepresentlybegantosweatandturnpale,andcriedoutthattheremustbeacathidsomewhere。Heknewpeoplewhowerepoisonedbystrawberries,byhoney,bydifferentmeats,manywhocouldnotendurecheese,——somewhocouldnotbearthesmellofroses。Ifhehadknownallthestoriesintheoldbooks,hewouldhavefoundthatsomehaveswoonedandbecomeasdeadmenatthesmellofarose,——thatastoutsoldierhasbeenknowntoturnandrunatthesightorsmellofrue,——thatcassiaandevenolive-oilhaveproduceddeadlyfaintingsincertain。individuals,——inshort,thatalmosteverythinghasseemedtobeapoisontosomebody。
“Bringmethatbasket,Sophy。”saidtheoldDoctor,“ifyoucanfindit。”
Sophybroughtittohim,——forhehadnotyetenteredElsie’sapartment。
“Thesepurpleleavesarefromthewhiteash。”hesaid。“Youdon’tknowthenotionthatpeoplecommonlyhaveaboutthattree,Sophy?“
“IknowtheysaytheUglyThingsnevergowherethewhiteashgrows。”
Sophyanswered。“Oh,Doctordear,whatI’mthinkin’ofa’n’ttrue,isit?“
TheDoctorsmiledsadly,butdidnotanswer。HewentdirectlytoElsie’sroom。Nobodywouldhaveknownbyhismannerthathesawanyspecialchangeinhispatient。Hespokewithherasusual,madesomeslightalterationinhisprescriptions,andlefttheroomwithakind,cheerfullook。Hemetherfatheronthestairs。
“IsitasIthought?“saidDudleyVeneer。
“Thereiseverythingtofear。”theDoctorsaid,“andnotmuch,Iamafraid,tohope。Doesnotherfacerecalltoyouonethatyouremember,asneverbefore?“
“Yes。”herfatheranswered,——“oh,yes!Whatisthemeaningofthischangewhichhascomeoverherfeatures,andhervoice,hertemper,herwholebeing?Tellme,oh,tellme,whatisit?Canitbethatthecurseispassingaway,andmydaughteristoberestoredtome,——
suchashermotherwouldhavehadher,——suchashermotherwas?“
“Walkoutwithmeintothegarden。”theDoctorsaid,“andIwilltellyouallIknowandallIthinkaboutthisgreatmysteryofElsie’slife。”
Theywalkedouttogether,andtheDoctorbegan:“Shehaslivedadoublebeing,asitwere,——theconsequenceoftheblightwhichfelluponherinthedimperiodbeforeconsciousness。Youcanseewhatshemighthavebeenbutforthis。Youknowthatfortheseeighteenyearsherwholeexistencehastakenitscharacterfromthatinfluencewhichweneednotname。Butyouwillrememberthatfewofthelowerformsoflifelastashumanbeingsdo;andthusitmighthavebeenhopedandtrustedwithsomeshowofreason,asIhavealwayssuspectedyouhopedandtrusted,perhapsmoreconfidentlythanmyself,thatthelowernaturewhichhadbecomeengraftedonthehigherwoulddieoutandleavetherealwoman’slifesheinheritedtooutlivethisaccidentalprinciplewhichhadsopoisonedherchildhoodandyouth。Ibelieveitissodyingout;butIamafraid,——yes,I
mustsayit,Ifearithasinvolvedthecentresoflifeinitsowndecay。ThereishardlyanypulseatElsie’swrist;nostimulantsseemtorouseher;anditlooksasiflifewereslowlyretreatinginwards,sothatby-and-byshewillsleepasthosewholiedowninthecoldandneverwake。”
Strangeasitmayseem,herfatherheardallthisnotwithoutdeepsorrow,andsuchmarksofitashisthoughtfulandtranquilnature,longschooledbysuffering,claimedorpermitted,butwitharesignationitselfthemeasureofhispasttrials。Dearashisdaughtermightbecometohim,allhedaredtoaskofHeavenwasthatshemightberestoredtothattruerselfwhichlaybeneathherfalseandadventitiousbeing。Ifhecouldonceseethattheicylustreinhereyeshadbecomeasoft,calmlight,——thathersoulwasatpeacewithallaboutherandwithHim;above,——thiscrumbfromthechildren’stablewasenoughforhim,asitwasfortheSyro-
Phoenicianwomanwhoaskedthatthedarkspiritmightgooutfromherdaughter。
Therewaslittlechangethenextday,untilallatonceshesaidinaclearvoicethatsheshouldliketoseehermasterattheschool,Mr。
Langdon。Hecameaccordingly,andtooktheplaceofHelenatherbedside。ItseemedasifElsiehadforgottenthelastscenewithhim。Mightitbethatpridehadcomein,andshehadsentforhimonlytoshowhowsuperiorshehadgrowntotheweaknesswhichhadbetrayedherintothatextraordinaryrequest,socontrarytotheinstinctsandusagesofhersex?Orwasitthatthesingularchangewhichhadcomeoverherhadinvolvedherpassionatefancyforhimandsweptitawaywithherotherhabitsofthoughtandfeeling?Orcoulditbethatshefeltthatallearthlyinterestswerebecomingoflittleaccounttoher,andwishedtoplaceherselfrightwithonetowhomshehaddisplayedawaywardmovementofherunbalancedimagination?ShewelcomedMr。BernardasquietlyasshehadreceivedHelenDarley。Hecoloredattherecollectionofthatlastscene,whenhecameintoherpresence;butshesmiledwithperfecttranquillity。Shedidnotspeaktohimofanyapprehension;buthesawthatshelookeduponherselfasdoomed。Sofriendly,yetsocalmdidsheseemthroughalltheirinterview,thatMr。Bernardcouldonlylookbackuponhermanifestationoffeelingtowardshimontheirwalkfromtheschoolasavagaryofamindlaboringundersomeunnaturalexcitement,andwhollyatvariancewiththetruecharacterofElsieVennerashesawherbeforehiminhersubdued,yetsingularbeauty。
Helookedwithalmostscientificclosenessofobservationintothediamondeyes;butthatpeculiarlightwhichheknewsowellwasnotthere。Shewasthesameinonesenseasonthatfirstdaywhenhehadseenhercoilinganduncoilinghergoldenchain;yethowdifferentineveryaspectwhichrevealedherstateofmindandemotion!Somethingoftendernesstherewas,perhaps,inhertonetowardshim;shewouldnothavesentforhim,hadshenotfeltmorethananordinaryinterestinhim。Butthroughthewholeofhisvisitsheneverlosthergraciousself-possession。TheDudleyracemightwellbeproudofthelastofitsdaughters,asshelaydying,butunconqueredbythefeelingofthepresentorthefearofthefuture。
AsforMr。Bernard,hefounditveryhardtolookuponher,andlistentoherunmoved。Therewasnothingthatremindedhimofthestormy——browed,almostsavagegirlherememberedinherfierceloveliness,——nothingofallhersingularitiesofairandofcostume。
Nothing?Yes,onething。Weakandsufferingasshewas,shehadneverpartedwithoneparticularornament,suchasasickpersonwouldnaturally,asitmightbesupposed,getridofatonce。Thegoldencordwhichsheworeroundherneckatthegreatpartywasstillthere。Abraceletwaslyingbyherpillow;shehadunclaspeditfromherwrist。
BeforeMr。Bernardlefther,shesaid,“Ishallneverseeyouagain。Sometimeorother,perhaps,youwillmentionmynametoonewhomyoulove。GiveherthisfromyourscholarandfriendElsie。”
Hetookthebracelet,raisedherhandtohislips,thenturnedhisfaceaway;inthatmomenthewastheweakerofthetwo。
“Good-bye。”shesaid;“thankyouforcoming。”
Hisvoicediedawayinhisthroat,ashetriedtoanswerher。Shefollowedhimwithhereyesashepassedfromhersightthroughthedoor,andwhenitclosedafterhimsobbedtremulouslyonceortwice,butstilledherself,andmetHelen,assheentered,withacomposedcountenance。
“IhavehadaverypleasantvisitfromMr。Langdon。”Elsiesaid。
“Sitbyme,Helen,awhilewithoutspeaking;Ishouldliketosleep,ifIcan,——andtodream。”
CHAPTERXXX。
THEGOLDENCORDISLOOSED。
TheReverendChauncyFairweather,hearingthathisparishioner’sdaughter,Elsie,wasveryill,coulddonothinglessthancometothemansion-houseandtendersuchconsolationsashewasmasterof。ItwasratherremarkablethattheoldDoctordidnotexactlyapproveofhisvisit。Hethoughtthatcompanyofeverysortmightbeinjuriousinherweakstate。HewasofopinionthatMr。Fairweather,thoughgreatlyinterestedinreligiousmatters,wasnotthemostsympatheticpersonthatcouldbefound;infact,theoldDoctorthoughthewastoomuchtakenupwithhisowninterestsforeternitytogivehimselfquite’soheartilytotheneedofotherpeopleassomepersonsgotuponarathermoregenerousscale(ourgoodneighborDr。Honeywood,forinstance)coulddo。However,allthesethingshadbetterbearrangedtosuitherwants;ifshewouldliketotalkwithaclergyman,shehadagreatdealbetterseeoneasoftenassheliked,andruntheriskoftheexcitement,thanhaveahiddenwishforsuchavisitandperhapsfindherselftooweaktoseehimby-and-by。
TheoldDoctorknewbysadexperiencethatdreadfulmistakeagainstwhichallmedicalpractitionersshouldbewarned。Hisexperiencemaywellbeaguideforothers。Donotoverlookthedesireforspiritualadviceandconsolationwhichpatientssometimesfeel,and,withthefrightfulmauvaisehontepeculiartoProtestantism,aloneamongallhumanbeliefs,areashamedtotell。Asapartofmedicaltreatment,itisthephysician’sbusinesstodetectthehiddenlongingforthefoodofthesoul,asmuchasforanyformofbodilynourishment。
Especiallyinthehigherwalksofsociety,wherethisunutterablymiserablefalseshameofProtestantismactsinproportiontothegeneralacutenessofthecultivatedsensibilities,letnounwillingnesstosuggestthesickperson’srealneedsufferhimtolanguishbetweenhiswantandhismorbidsensitiveness。WhataninfiniteadvantagetheMussulmansandtheCatholicshaveovermanyofourmoreexclusivelyspiritualsectsinthewaytheykeeptheirreligionalwaysbythemandneverblushforit!Andbesidesthisspirituallonging,weshouldneverforgetthat“Onsomefondbreastthepartingsoulrelies。”
andtheministerofreligion,inadditiontothesympatheticnaturewhichwehavearighttodemandinhim,hastrainedhimselftotheartofenteringintothefeelingsofothers。
Thereadermustpardonthisdigression,whichintroducesthevisitoftheReverendChauncyFairweathertoElsieVeneer。Itwasmentionedtoherthathewouldliketocallandseehowshewas,andsheconsented,——notwithmuchapparentinterest,forshehadreasonsofherownfornotfeelinganyverydeepconvictionofhissympathyforpersonsinsorrow。Buthecame,andworkedtheconversationroundtoreligion,andconfusedherwithhishybridnotions,halfmadeupofwhathehadbeenbelievingandteachingallhislife,andhalfofthenewdoctrineswhichhehadveneereduponthesurfaceofhisoldbelief。Hegotsofarastomakeaprayerwithher,——acool,well-
guardedprayer,whichcompromisedhisfaithaslittleaspossible,andwhich,ifdevotionwereagameplayedagainstProvidence,mighthavebeenconsideredacautiousandsagaciousmove。
Whenhehadgone,ElsiecalledOldSophytoher。
“Sophy。”shesaid,“don’tletthemsendthatcoldheartedmantomeanymore。Ifyouroldministercomes——toseeyou,Ishouldliketohearhimtalk。Helooksasifhecaredforeverybody,andwouldcareforme。And,Sophy,ifIshoulddieoneofthesedays,Ishouldliketohavethatoldministercomeandsaywhateveristobesaidoverme。ItwouldcomfortDudleymore,Iknow,thantohavethathardmanhere,whenyou’reintrouble,forsomeofyouwillbesorrywhenI’mgone,——won’tyou,Sophy?“
Thepooroldblack。womancouldnotstandthisquestion。ThecoldministerhadfrozenElsieuntilshefeltasifnobodycaredforherorwouldregrether,——andherquestionhadbetrayedthismomentaryfeeling。
“Don’talkso!don’talkso,darlin’!“shecried,passionately。
“Whenyougo,Ol’Sophy’llgo;’n’whereyougo,Ol’Sophy’llgo:’n’
we’llbothgot’th’placewhereth’Lordtakescareofallhischildren,whethertheirfacesarewhiteorblack。Oh,darlin’,darlin’!ifth’Lordshouldletmediefirs’,youshallfin’allreadyforyouwhenyoucomeafterme。On’ydon’go’n’leavepoorOl’Sophyall’loneinth’world!“
Helencameinatthismomentandquietedtheoldwomanwithalook。
Suchsceneswerejustwhatweremostdangerous,inthestateinwhichElsiewaslying:butthatisoneofthewaysinwhichanaffectionatefriendsometimesunconsciouslywearsoutthelifewhichahirednurse,thinkingofnothingbutherregulardutiesandherwages,wouldhavesparedfromallemotionalfatigue。
ThechangewhichhadcomeoverElsie’sdispositionwasitselfthecauseofnewexcitements。Howwasitpossiblethatherfathercouldkeepawayfromher,nowthatshewascomingbacktothenatureandtheverylookofhermother,thebrideofhisyouth?Howwasitpossibletorefuseher,whenshesaidtoOldSophy,thatsheshouldliketohaveherministercomeinandsitbyher,eventhoughhispresencemightperhapsproveanewsourceofexcitement?
ButtheReverendDoctordidcomeandsitbyher,andspokesuchsoothingwordstoher,wordsofsuchpeaceandconsolation,thatfromthathourshewastranquilasneverbefore。Alltrueheartsarealikeinthehourofneed;theCatholichasareservedfundoffaithforhisfellow-creature’stryingmoment,andtheCalvinistrevealsthosespringsofhumanbrotherhoodandcharityinhissoulwhichareonlycoveredoverbytheirontablesinscribedwiththeharderdogmasofhiscreed。ItwasenoughthattheReverendDoctorknewallElsie’shistory。Hecouldnotjudgeherbyanyformula,likethosewhichhavebeenmouldedbypastagesoutoftheirignorance。Hedidnottalkwithherasifshewereanoutsidesinnerworsethanhimself。Hefoundabruisedandlanguishingsoul,andboundupitswounds。Ablessedoffice,——onewhichisconfinedtonosectorcreed,butwhichgoodmeninalltimes,undervariousnamesandwithvaryingministries,tosuittheneedofeachage,ofeachrace,ofeachindividualsoul,havecomeforwardtodischargefortheirsufferingfellow-creatures。
AfterthistherewaslittlechangeinElsie,exceptthatherheartbeatmorefeeblyeveryday,——sothattheoldDoctorhimself,withallhisexperience,couldseenothingtoaccountforthegradualfailingofthepowersoflife,andyetcouldfindnoremedywhichseemedtoarrestitsprogressinthesmallestdegree。
“Beverycareful。”hesaid,“thatsheisnotallowedtomakeanymuscularexertion。Anysucheffort,whenapersonissoenfeebled,maystoptheheartinamoment;andifitstops,itwillnevermoveagain。”
Helenenforcedthisrulewiththegreatestcare。Elsiewashardlyallowedtomoveherhandortospeakaboveawhisper。Itseemedtobemainlythequestionnow,whetherthistremblingflameoflifewouldbeblownoutbysomelightbreathofair,orwhetheritcouldbesonursedandshelteredbythehollowofthesewatchfulhandsthatitwouldhaveachancetokindletoitsnaturalbrightness——
Herfathercameintositwithherintheevening。Hehadnevertalkedsofreelywithherasduringthehourhehadpassedatherbedside,tellingherlittlecircumstancesofhermother’slife,livingoverwithherallthatwaspleasantinthepast,andtryingtoencourageherwithsomecheerfulgleamsofhopeforthefuture。A
faintsmileplayedoverherface,butshedidnotanswerhisencouragingsuggestions。Thehourcameforhimtoleaveherwiththosewhowatchedbyher。
“Good-night,mydearchild。”hesaid,andstoopingdown,kissedhercheek。
Elsierosebyasuddeneffort,threwherarmsroundhisneck,kissedhim,andsaid,“Good-night,mydearfather!“
Thesuddennessofhermovementhadtakenhimbysurprise,orhewouldhavecheckedsodangerousaneffort。Itwastoolatenow。Herarmsslidawayfromhimlikelifelessweights,——herheadfellbackuponherpillow,——alongsighbreathedthroughherlips。
“Sheisfaint。”saidHelen,doubtfully;“bringmethehartshorn,Sophy。”
Theoldwomanhadstartedfromherplace,andwasnowleaningoverher,lookinginherface,andlisteningforthesoundofherbreathing。
“She’sdead!Elsie’sdead!Mydarlin’sdead!“shecriedaloud,fillingtheroomwithherutteranceofanguish。
DudleyVennerdrewherawayandsilencedherwithavoiceofauthority,whileHelenandanassistantpliedtheirrestoratives。Itwasallinvain。
Thesolemntidingspassedfromthechamberofdeaththroughthefamily。Thedaughter,thehopeofthatoldandhonoredhouse,wasdeadinthefreshnessofheryouth,andthehomeofitssolitaryrepresentativewashereafterdoublydesolate。
Amessengerrodehastilyoutoftheavenue。Alittleafterthisthepeopleofthevillageandtheoutlyingfarm-houseswerestartledbythesoundofabell。
One,——two,——three,——four,Theystoppedineveryhouse,asfarasthewaveringvibrationsreached,andlistenedfive,——six,——seven,——
Itwasnotthelittlechildwhichhadbeenlyingsolongatthepointofdeath;thatcouldnotbemorethanthreeorfouryearsoldeight,——nine,——ten,——andsoontofifteen,sixteen,——seventeen,——
eighteenThepulsationsseemedtokeepon,——butitwasthebrain,andnotthebell,thatwasthrobbingnow。
“Elsie’sdead!“wastheexclamationatahundredfiresides。
“Eighteenyearold。”saidoldWidowPeake,risingfromherchair。
“EighteenyearagoIlaidtwogoldeaglesonhermother’seyes,——hewouldn’thaveanythingbutgoldtouchhereyelids,——andnowElsie’stobestraightened,——theLordhavemercyonherpoorsinfulsoul!“
DudleyVennerprayedthatnightthathemightbeforgiven,ifhehadfailedinanyactofdutyorkindnesstothisunfortunatechildofhis,nowfreedfromallthewoesbornwithherandsolongpoisoninghersoul。HethankedGodforthebriefintervalofpeacewhichhadbeengrantedher,forthesweetcommuniontheyhadenjoyedintheselastdays,andforthehopeofmeetingherwiththatotherlostfriendinabetterworld。
Helenmingledafewbrokenthanksandpetitionswithhertears:
thanksthatshehadbeenpermittedtosharethelastdaysandhoursofthispoorsisterinsorrow;petitionsthatthegriefofbereavementmightbelightenedtothelonelyparentandthefaithfuloldservant。
OldSophysaidalmostnothing,butsatdayandnightbyherdeaddarling。Butsometimesheranguishwouldfindanoutletinstrangesounds,somethingbetweenacryandamusicalnote,——suchasnoisehadeverheardherutterbefore。Thesewereoldremembrancessurgingupfromherchildishdays,comingthroughhermotherfromthecannibalchief,hergrandfather,——death-wails,suchastheysinginthemountainsofWesternAfrica,whentheyseethefiresondistanthill-sidesandknowthattheirownwivesandchildrenareundergoingthefateofcaptives。
ThetimecamewhenElsiewastobelaidbyhermotherinthesmallsquaremarkedbythewhitestone。
ItwasnotunwillinglythattheReverendChauncyFairweatherhadrelinquishedthedutyofconductingtheservicetotheReverendDoctorHoneywood,inaccordancewithElsie’srequest。Hecouldnot,byanyreasoning,reconcilehispresentwayofthinkingwithahopeforthefutureofhisunfortunateparishioner。AnygoodoldRomanCatholicpriest,bornandbredtohisfaithandhisbusiness,wouldhavefoundaloopholeintosomekindofheavenforher,byvirtueofhisdoctrineof“invincibleignorance。”orotherspecialproviso;butarecentconvertcannotenterintotheworkingconditionsofhisnewcreed。Beliefsmustbelivedinforagoodwhile,beforetheyaccommodatethemselvestothesoul’swants,andwearlooseenoughtobecomfortable。
TheReverendDoctorhadnosuchscruples。Likethousandsofthosewhoareclassednominallywiththedespairingbelievers,hehadneverprayedoveradepartedbrotherorsisterwithoutfeelingandexpressingaguardedhopethattherewasmercyinstoreforthepoorsinner,whomparents,wives,children,brothersandsisterscouldnotbeartogiveuptoutterruinwithoutaword,——andwouldnot,asheknewfullwell,invirtueofthathumanloveandsympathywhichnothingcaneverextinguish。AndinthispoorElsie’shistoryhecouldreadnothingwhichthetearsoftherecordingangelmightnotwashaway。Asthegoodphysicianoftheplaceknewthediseasesthatassailedthebodiesofmenandwomen,sohehadlearnedthemysteriesofthesicknessofthesoul。
SomanywishedtolookuponElsie’sfaceoncemore,thatherfatherwouldnotdenythem;nay,hewaspleasedthatthosewhorememberedherlivingshouldseeherinthestillbeautyofdeath。Helenandthosewithherarrayedherforthisfarewell-view。Allwasreadyforthesadorcuriouseyeswhichweretolookuponher。There’wasnopainfulchangetobeconcealedbyanyartifice。Evenherroundneckwasleftuncovered,thatshemightbemorelikeonewhoslept。Onlythegoldencordwasleftinitsplace:somesearchingeyemightdetectatraceofthatbirthmarkwhichitwaswhisperedshehadalwayswornanecklacetoconceal。
Atthelastmoment,whenallthepreparationswerecompleted,OldSophystoopedoverher,and,withtremblinghand,loosedthegoldencord。Shelookedintently;forsomelittlespace:therewasnoshadenorblemishwheretheringofgoldhadencircledherthroat。Shetookitgentlyawayandlaiditinthecasketwhichheldherornaments。
“TheLordbepraised!“theoldwomancried,aloud。“Hehastakenawaythemarkthatwasonher;she’sfittomeethisholyangelsnow!“
SoElsielayforhoursinthegreatroom,inakindofstate,withflowersallabouther,——herblackhairbraidedasinlife,——herbrowssmooth,asiftheyhadneverknownthescowlofpassion,——andonherlipsthefaintsmilewithwhichshehadutteredherlast“Good——
night。”Theyounggirlsfromtheschoollookedather,oneafteranother,andpassedon,sobbing,carryingintheirheartsthepicturethatwouldbewiththemalltheirdays。Thegreatpeopleoftheplacewerealltherewiththeirsilentsympathy。Thelesserkindofgentry,andmanyoftheplainerfolkofthevillage,half-pleasedtofindthemselvespassingbeneaththestatelyporticooftheancientmansion-house,crowdedin,untiltheampleroomswereoverflowing。
Allthefriendswhoseacquaintancewehavemadewerethere,andmanyfromremotervillagesandtowns。
Therewasadeepsilenceatlast。Thehourhadcomeforthepartingwordstobespokenoverthedead。Thegoodoldminister’svoiceroseoutofthestillness,subduedandtremulousatfirst,butgrowingfirmerandclearerashewenton,untilitreachedtheearsofthevisitorswhowereinthefar,desolatechambers,lookingatthepicturedhangingsandtheolddustyportraits。Hedidnottellherstoryinhisprayer。HeonlyspokeofourdeardepartedsisterasoneofmanywhomProvidenceinitswisdomhasseenfittobringunderbondagefromtheircradles。Itwasnotforustojudgethembyanystandardofourown。Hewhomadetheheartaloneknewtheinfirmitiesitinheritedoracquired。Forallthatourdearsisterhadpresentedthatwasinterestingandattractiveinhercharacterweweretobegrateful;forwhateverwasdarkorinexplicablewemusttrustthatthedeepshadowwhichrestedonthetwilightdawnofherbeingmightrenderareasonbeforethebarofOmniscience;forthegracewhichhadlightenedherlastdaysweshouldpouroutourheartsinthankfulacknowledgment。Fromthelifeandthedeathofthisourdearsisterweshouldlearnalessonofpatiencewithourfellow-
creaturesintheirinbornpeculiarities,ofcharityinjudgingwhatseemtouswilfulfaultsofcharacter,ofhopeandtrust,that,bysicknessoraffliction,orsuchinevitabledisciplineaslifemustalwaysbringwithit,ifbynogentlermeans,thesoulwhichhadbeenleftbyNaturetowanderintothepathoferrorandofsufferingmightbereclaimedandrestoredtoitstrueaim,andsoledonbydivinegracetoitseternalwelfare。Heclosedhisprayerbycommendingeachmemberoftheafflictedfamilytothedivineblessing。
Thenallatoncerosetheclearsoundofthegirls’voices,inthesweet,sadmelodyofafuneralhymn,——oneofthosewhichElsiehadmarked,asifprophetically,amongherownfavorites。
Andsotheylaidherintheearth,andshowereddownflowersuponher,andfilledhergrave,andcovereditwithgreensods。Bythesideofitwasanotheroblongridge,withawhitestonestandingatitshead。Mr。Bernardlookeduponit,ashecameclosetotheplacewhereElsiewaslaid,andreadtheinscription,CATALINA
WIFETODUDLEYVENNER
DIED
OCTOBER13TH1840
AGEDXXYEARS
Agentlerainfellontheturfafteritwaslaid。Thiswasthebeginningofalonganddrearyautumnalstorm,adeferred“equinoctial。”asmanyconsideredit。Themountainstreamswereallswollenandturbulent,andthesteepdeclivitieswerefurrowedineverydirectionbynewchannels。Itmadethehouseseemdoublydesolatetohearthewindhowlingandtherainbeatingupontheroofs。ThepoorrelationwhowasstayingatthehousewouldinsistonHelen’sremainingafewdays:OldSophywasinsuchacondition,thatitkeptherincontinualanxiety,andthereweremanycareswhichHelencouldtakeofffromher。
Theoldblackwoman’slifewasburiedinherdarling’sgrave。Shedidnothingbutmoanandlamentforher。Atnightshewasrestless,andwouldgetupandwandertoElsie’sapartmentandlookforherandcallherbyname。Atothertimesshewouldlieawakeandlistentothewindandtherain,——sometimeswithsuchawildlookuponherface,andwithsuchsuddenstartsandexclamations,thatitseemedasifsheheardspirit-voicesandwereansweringthewhispersofunseenvisitants。Withallthisweremingledhintsofheroldsuperstition,——forebodingsofsomethingfearfulabouttohappen,——
perhapsthegreatfinalcatastropheofallthings,accordingtothepredictioncurrentinthekitchensofRockland。
“Hark!“OldSophywouldsay,——“don’youhearth’crackin’’n’th’
snappin’upinTh’Mountain,’n’th’rollin’o’th’bigstones?The’
’ssomethin’stirrin’amongth’rocks;Ihearth’soun’ofitinth’
night,whenth’windhasstoppedblowin’。Oh,staybymealittlewhile,MissDarlin’!staybyme!forit’sth’Las’Day,maybe,that’scloseonus,’n’IfeelasifIcouldn’meetth’Lordallalone!“
Itwascurious,——butHelendidcertainlyrecognizesounds,duringthelullofthestorm,whichwerenotoffallingrainorrunningstreams,——shortsnappingsounds,asoftensecordsbreaking,——longunevensounds,asofmassesrollingdownsteepdeclivities。Butthemorningcameasusual;andastheotherssaidnothingofthesesingularnoises,Helendidnotthinkitnecessarytospeakofthem。
AlldaylongsheandthehumblerelativeofElsie’smother,whohadappearedaspoorrelationsarewonttointhegreatprisesoflife,werebusyinarrangingthedisorderedhouse,andlookingoverthevariousobjectswhichElsie’ssingulartasteshadbroughttogether,todisposeofthemasherfathermightdirect。Theyallmettogetherattheusualhourfortea。Oneoftheservantscamein,lookingveryblank,andsaidtothepoorrelation,“Thewellisgonedry;wehavenothingbutrainwater。”
DudleyVenner’scountenancechanged;hesprangto,hisfeetandwentto——assurehimselfofthefact,and,ifhecould,ofthereasonofit。Forawelltodryupduringsucharain-stormwasextraordinary,——itwasominous。
Hecameback,lookingveryanxious。
“Didanyofyounoticeanyremarkablesoundslastnight。”hesaid,——
“orthismorning?Hark!doyouhearanythingnow?“
Theylistenedinperfectsilenceforafewmoments。Thentherecameashortcrackingsound,andtwoorthreesnaps,asofpartingcords。
DudleyVennercalledallhishouseholdtogether。
“Weareindangerhere,asIthink,to-night。”hesaid,——“notverygreatdanger,perhaps,butitisariskIdonotwishyoutorun。
Theseheavyrainshaveloosedsomeoftherocksabove,andtheymaycomedownandendangerthehouse。Harnessthehorses,Elbridge,andtakeallthefamilyaway。MissDarleywillgototheInstitute;theotherswillpassthenightattheMountainHouse。Ishallstayhere,myself:itisnotatalllikelythatanythingwillcomeofthesewarnings;butifthereshould,Ichoosetobethereandtakemychance。”
Itneedslittle,generally,tofrightenservants,andtheywereallreadyenoughtogo。Thepoorrelationwasoneofthetimidsort,andwasterriblyuneasytobegotoutofthehouse。Thisleftnoalternative,ofcourse,forHelen,buttogoalso。TheyallurgeduponDudleyVeneertogowiththem:iftherewasdanger,whyshouldheremaintoriskit,whenhesentawaytheothers?
OldSophysaidnothinguntilthetimecameforhertogowiththesecondofElbridge’scarriage-loads。
“Come,Sophy。”saidDudleyVeneer,“getyourthingsandgo。TheywilltakegoodcareofyouattheMountainHouse;andwhenwehavemadesurethatthereisnorealdanger,youshallcomebackatonce。”
“No,Masse!“Sophyanswered。“I’veseenElsieintoth’ground,’n’
Ia’n’tgoin’awaytocomeback’n’fin’MasseVeneerburiedunderth’rocks。Mydarlin’’sgone;’n’now,ifMassegoes,’n’th’ofplacegoes,it’stimeforOl’Sophytogo,too。No,MasseVeneer,we’llbothstayinth’ofmansion’n’waitforth’Lord!“
Nothingcouldchangetheoldwoman’sdetermination;andhermaster,whoonlyfeared,butdidnotreallyexpectthelong-deferredcatastrophe,wasobligedtoconsenttoherstaying。Thesuddendryingofthewellatsuchatimewasthemostalarmingsign;forherememberedthatthesamethinghadbeenobservedjustbeforegreatmountain-slides。Thislongrain,too,wasjustthekindofcausewhichwaslikelytoloosenthestrataofrockpiledupintheledges;
ifthedreadedeventshouldevercometopass,itwouldbeatsuchatime。
Hepacedhischamberuneasilyuntillongpastmidnight。Ifthemorningcamewithoutaccident,hemeanttohaveacarefulexaminationmadeofalltherentsandfissuresabove,oftheirdirectionandextent,andespeciallywhether,incaseofamountain-slide,thehugemasseswouldbeliketoreachsofartotheeastandsolowdownthedeclivityasthemansion。
Attwoo’clockinthemorninghewasdozinginhischair。OldSophyhadlaindownonherbed,andwasmutteringintroubleddreams。
Allatoncealoudcrashseemedtorendtheveryheavensabovethem:
acrackasofthethunderthatfollowscloseuponthebolt,——arendingandcrashingasofaforestsnappedthroughallitsstems,torn,twisted,splintered,draggedwithallitsraggedboughsintoonechaoticruin。Thegroundtrembledunderthemasinanearthquake;theoldmansionshudderedsothatallitswindowschatteredintheircasements;thegreatchimneyshookoffitsheavycap-stones,whichcamedownontheroofwithresoundingconcussions;
andtheechoesofTheMountainroaredandbellowedinlongreduplication,asifitswholefoundationswererent,andthisweretheterriblevoiceofitsdissolution。
DudleyVennerrosefromhischair,foldedhisarms,andawaitedhisfate。Therewasnoknowingwheretolookforsafety;andherememberedtoowellthestoryofthefamilythatwaslostbyrushingoutofthehouse,andsohurryingintotheveryjawsofdeath。
Hehadstoodthusbutforamoment,whenheheardthevoiceofOldSophyinawildcryofterror:
“It’sth’Las’Day!It’sth’Las’Day!TheLordiscomin’totakeusall!“
“Sophy!“hecalled;butshedidnothearhimorheedhim,andrushedoutofthehouse。
Theworstdangerwasover。Iftheyweretobedestroyed,itwouldnecessarilybeinafewsecondsfromthefirstthrilloftheterribleconvulsion。Hewaitedinawfulsuspense,butcalm。Notmorethanoneortwominutescouldhavepassedbeforethefrightfultumultandallitssoundingechoeshadceased。HecalledOldSophy;butshedidnotanswer。Hewenttothewesternwindowandlookedforthintothedarkness。Hecouldnotdistinguishtheoutlinesofthelandscape,butthewhitestonewasclearlyvisible,andbyitssidethenew-mademound。Nay,whatwasthatwhichobscureditsoutline,inshapelikeahumanfigure?Heflungopenthewindowandsprangthrough。ItwasallthattherewasleftofpoorOldSophy,stretchedoutlifeless,uponherdarling’sgrave。
Hehadscarcelycomposedherlimbsanddrawnthesheetoverher,whentheneighborsbegantoarrivefromalldirections。Eachwasexpectingtohearofhousesoverwhelmedandfamiliesdestroyed;buteachcamewiththestorythathisownhouseholdwassafe。Itwasnotuntilthemorningdawnedthatthetruenatureandextentofthesuddenmovementwasascertained。Agreatseamhadopenedabovethelongcliff,andtheterribleRattlesnakeLedge,withallitsenvenomedreptiles,itsdarkfissuresandblackcaverns,wasburiedforeverbeneathamightyincumbentmassofruin。
CHAPTERXXXI。
MR。SILASPECKHAMRENDERSHISACCOUNT。
Themorningroseclearandbright。Thelongstormwasover,andthecalmautumnalsunshinewasnowtoreturn,withallitsinfinitereposeandsweetness。WiththeearliestdawnexploringpartieswereoutineverydirectionalongthesouthernslopeofTheMountain,tracingtheravagesofthegreatslideandthetrackithadfollowed。
Itprovedtobenotsomuchaslideasthebreakingoffandfallingofavastlineofcliff,includingthedreadedLedge。Ithadfoldedoverliketheleavesofahalf-openedbookwhentheyclose,crushingthetreesbelow,pilingitsruinsinaglacisatthefootofwhathadbeentheoverhangingwallofthecliff,andfillingupthatdeepcavityabovethemansion-housewhichboretheill-omenednameofDeadMan’sHollow。ThisitwaswhichhadsavedtheDudleymansion。Thefallingmasses,orhugefragmentsbreakingofffromthem,wouldhavesweptthehouseandallaroundittodestructionbutforthisdeepshelvingdell,intowhichthestreamofruinwashappilydirected。
Itwas,indeed,oneofNature’sconservativerevolutions;forthefallenmassesmadeakindozshelf,whichinterposedalevelbreakbetweentheinclinedplanesaboveandbelowit,sothatthenightmare-fanciesofthedwellersintheDudleymansion,andinmanyotherresidencesundertheshadowofTheMountain,neednotkeepthemlyingawakehereaftertolistenforthesnappingofrootsandthesplittingoftherocksabovethem。
Twenty-fourhoursafterthefallingofthecliff,itseemedasifithadhappenedagesago。Thenewfacthadfitteditselfinwithalltheoldpredictions,forebodings,fears,andacquiredthesolidaritybelongingtoalleventswhichhaveslippedoutofthefingersofTimeanddissolvedintheantecedenteternity。
OldSophywaslyingdeadintheDudleymansion。Ifthereweretearsshedforher,theycouldnotbebitterones;forshehadlivedoutherfullmeasureofdays,andgone——whocouldhelpfondlybelievingit?——torejoinherbelovedmistress。Theymadeaplaceforheratthefootofthetwomounds。Itwasthusshewouldhavechosentosleep,andnottohavewrongedherhumbledevotioninlifebyaskingtolieatthesideofthosewhomshehadservedsolongandfaithfully。Therewereveryfewpresentatthesimpleceremony。
HelenDarleywasoneofthesefew。TheoldblackwomanhadbeenhercompanioninallthekindofficesofwhichshehadbeentheministeringangeltoElsie。
Afteritwasallover,Helenwasleavingwiththerest,whenDudleyVeneerbeggedhertostayalittle,andhewouldsendherback:itwasalongwalk;besides,hewishedtosaysomethingstoher,whichhehadnothadtheopportunityofspeaking。OfcourseHelencouldnotrefusehim;theremustbemanythoughtscomingintohismindwhichhewouldwishtosharewithherwhohadknownhisdaughtersolongandbeenwithfilerinherlastdays。
Shereturnedintothegreatparlorwiththewroughtcornicesandthemedallion-portraitsontheceiling。
“Iamnowaloneintheworld。”DudleyVeneersaid。
Helenmusthaveknownthatbeforehespoke。Butthetoneinwhichhesaidithadsomuchmeaning,thatshecouldnotfindawordtoanswerhimwith。Theysatinsilence,whichtheoldtallclockcountedoutinlongseconds;butitwassilencewhichmeantmorethananywordstheyhadeverspoken。
“Aloneintheworld。Helen,thefreshnessofmylifeisgone,andthereislittleleftofthefewgraceswhichinmyyoungerdaysmighthavefittedmetowintheloveofwomen。Listentome,——kindly,ifyoucan;forgiveme,atleast。Halfmylifehasbeenpassedinconstantfearandanguish,withoutanynearfriendtosharemytrials。Mytaskisdonenow;myfearshaveceasedtopreyuponme;
thesharpnessofearlysorrowshasyieldedsomethingofitsedgetotime。Youhaveboundmetoyoubygratitudeinthetendercareyouhavetakenofmypoorchild。Morethanthis。Imusttellyouallnow,outofthedepthofthistroublethroughwhichIampassing。I
havelovedyoufromthemomentwefirstmet;andifmylifehasanythingleftworthaccepting,itisyours。Willyoutaketheofferedgift?“
Helenlookedinhisface,surprised,bewildered。
“Thisisnotforme,——notforme。”shesaid。“Iambutapoorfadedflower,notworththegathering,ofsuchaoneasyou。No,no,——I
havebeenbredtohumbletoilallmydays,andIcouldnotbetoyouwhatyououghttoask。Iamaccustomedtoakindoflonelinessandself-dependence。Ihaveseennothing,almost,oftheworld,suchasyouwereborntomovein。Leavemetomyobscureplaceandduties;I
shallatleasthavepeace;——andyou——youwillsurelyfindinduetimesomeonebetterfittedbyNatureandtrainingtomakeyouhappy。”
“No,MissDarley!“DudleyVennersaid,almoststernly。“Youmustnotspeaktoaman,whohaslivedthroughmyexperiences,oflookingaboutforanewchoiceafterhishearthasoncechosen。Saythatyoucanneverloveme;saythatIhavelivedtoolongtoshareyouryounglife;saythatsorrowhasleftnothinginmeforLovetofindhispleasurein;butdonotmockmewiththehopeofanewaffectionforsomeunknownobject。Thefirstlookofyoursbroughtmetoyourside。Thefirsttoneofyourvoicesunkintomyheart。Fromthismomentmylifemustwitheroutorbloomanew。Myhomeisdesolate。
Comeundermyroofandmakeitbrightoncemore,——sharemylifewithme,——orIshallgivethehallsoftheoldmansiontothebatsandtheowls,andwanderforthalonewithoutahopeorafriend!“
Tofindherselfwithaman’sfutureatthedisposalofasinglewordofhers!——amanlikethis,too,withafascinationforheragainstwhichshehadtriedtoshutherheart,feelingthathelivedinanotherspherethanhers,workingasshewasforherbreadapooroperativeinthefactoryofahardmasterandjealousoverseer,thesalarieddrudgeofMr。SilasPeckham!Why,shehadthoughthewasgratefultoherasafriendofhisdaughter;shehadevenpleasedherselfwiththefeelingthathelikedher,inherhumbleplace,asawomanofsomecultivationandmanysympatheticpointsofrelationwithhimself;butthathelovedher,——thatthisdeep,finenature,inamansofarremovedfromherinoutwardcircumstance,shouldhavefounditscounterpartinonewhomlifehadtreatedsocoldlyasherself,——thatDudleyVennershouldstakehishappinessonabreathofhers,——poorHelenDarley’s,——itwasallasurprise,aconfusion,akindoffearnotwhollyfearful。Ah,me!womenknowwhatitis,thatmistovertheeyes,thattremblinginthelimbs,thatfalteringofthevoice,thatsweet,shame-faced,unspokenconfessionofweaknesswhichdoesnotwishtobestrong,thatsuddenoverflowinthesoulwherethoughtsloosetheirholdoneachotherandswimsingleandhelplessinthefloodofemotion,——womenknowwhatitis!
Nodoubtshewasalittlefrightenedandagooddealbewildered,andthathersympathieswerewarmlyexcitedforafriendtowhomshehadbeenbroughtsonear,andwhoselonelinessshesawandpitied。Shelostthatcalmself-possessionshehadhopedtomaintain。
“IfIthoughtthatIcouldmakeyouhappy,——ifIshouldspeakfrommyheart,andnotmyreason,——Iambutaweakwoman,——yetifIcanbetoyou——WhatcanIsay?“
Whatmorecouldthispoor,dearHelensay?
“Elbridge,harnessthehorsesandtakeMissDarleybacktotheschool。”
WhatconversationhadtakenplacesinceHelen’srhetoricalfailureisnotrecordedintheminutesfromwhichthisnarrativeisconstructed。
Butwhenthemanwhohadbeensummonedhadgonetogetthecarriageready,Helenresumedsomethingshehadbeenspeakingof。
“Notfortheworld。Everythingmustgoonjustasithasgoneon,forthepresent。Thereareproprietiestobeconsulted。Icannotbehardwithyou,thatoutofyourveryafflictionhassprungthis——thiswell——youmustnameitforme,——buttheworldwillneverlistentoexplanations。IamtobeHelenDarley,ladyassistantinMr。SilasPeckham’sschool,aslongasIseefittoholdmyoffice。AndImeantoattendtomyscholarsjustasbefore;sothatIshallhaveverylittletimeforvisitingorseeingcompany。Ibelieve,though,youareoneoftheTrusteesandaMemberoftheExaminingCommittee;sothat,ifyoushouldhappentovisittheschool,Ishalltrytobeciviltoyou。”
Everyladysees,ofcourse,thatHelenwasquiteright;butperhapshereandthereonewillthinkthatDudleyVennerwasallwrong,——thathewastoohasty,——thatheshouldhavebeentoofullofhisrecentgriefforsuchaconfessionashehasjustmade,andthepassionfromwhichitsprung。Perhapstheydonotunderstandthesuddenrecoilofastrongnaturelongcompressed。Perhapstheyhavenotstudiedthemysteryofallotropismintheemotionsofthehumanheart。Gotothenearestchemistandaskhimtoshowyousomeofthedark-redphosphoruswhichwillnotburnwithoutfierceheating,butat500deg。Fahrenheit,changesbackagaintotheinflammablesubstanceweknowsowell。Griefseemsmorelikeashesthanlikefire;butasgriefhasbeenloveonce,soitmaybecomeloveagain。Thisisemotionalallotropism。
HelenrodebacktotheInstituteandinquiredforMr。Peckham。Shehadnotseenhimduringthebriefintervalbetweenherdeparturefromthemansion-houseandherreturntoOldSophy’sfuneral。Therewerevariousquestionsabouttheschoolshewishedtoask。
“Oh,how’syourhaalth,MissDarley?“Silasbegan。“We’vemissedyouconsid’able。Gladtoseeyoubackatthepostofdooty。HopetheSquiretreatedyouhahnsomely,——liberalpecooniarycompensation,——hey?A’n’tmuchofaloser,Iguess,byacceptin’hispropositions?“
Helenblushedatthislastquestion,asifSilashadmeantsomethingbyitbeyondaskingwhatmoneyshehadreceived;buthisowndouble-meaningexpressionandherblushweretoonicepointsforhimtohavetakencognizanceof。Hewasengagedinamentalcalculationastotheamountofthedeductionheshouldmakeundertheheadof“demagetotheinstitootion。”——thisdependingsomewhatonthatofthe“pecooniarycompensation“shemighthavereceivedforherservicesasthefriendofElsieVenner。
SoHelenslidbackatonceintoherroutine,thesamefaithful,patientcreatureshehadalwaysbeen。Butwhatwasthisnewlightwhichseemedtohavekindledinhereyes?Whatwasthislookofpeace,whichnothingcoulddisturb,whichsmiledserenelythroughallthelittlemeannesseswithwhichthedailylifeoftheeducationalfactorysurroundedher,whichnotonlymadeherseemresigned,butoverflowedallherfeatureswithathoughtful,subduedhappiness?Mr。
Bernarddidnotknow,——perhapshedidnotguess。TheinmatesoftheDudleymansionwerenotscandalizedbyanymysteriousvisitsofaveiledorunveiledlady。Thevibratingtonguesofthe“femaleyouth“
oftheInstitutewerenotsetinmotionbythestandingofanequipageatthegate,waitingfortheirlady-teacher。Theservantsatthemansiondidnotconveynumerousletterswithsuperscriptionsinabold,manlyhand,sealedwiththearmsofawell-knownhouse,anddirectedtoMissHelenDarley;nor,ontheotherhand,didHiram,themanfromtheleanstreakinNewHampshire,carrysweet-smelling,rose-hued,many-layered,criss-crossed,fine-stitch-letteredpackagesofnote-paperdirectedtoDudleyVenner,Esq。,andalltooscantytoholdthatincredibleexpansionofthefamousthreewordswhichawomanwasborntosay,——thatperpetualmiraclewhichastonishesallthego-betweenswhoweartheirshoesoutincarryingawoman’sinfinitevariationsonthetheme“Iloveyou。”
Butthereadermustrememberthattherearewalksincountry-townswherepeopleareliabletomeetbyaccident,andthatthehollowofanoldtreehasservedthepurposeofapost-officesometimes;sothathehasherchoice(todividethepronounsimpartially)ofvarioushypothesestoaccountforthenewgloryofhappinesswhichseemedtohaveirradiatedourpoorHelen’sfeatures,asifherdrearylifewereawakeninginthedawnofablessedfuture。
Withallthealleviationswhichhavebeenhintedat,Mr。DudleyVennerthoughtthatthedaysandtheweekshadnevermovedsoslowlyasthroughthelastperiodoftheautumnthatwaspassing。Elsiehadbeenaperpetualsourceofanxietytohim,butstillshehadbeenacompanion。Hecouldnotmournforher;forhefeltthatshewassaferwithhermother,inthatworldwheretherearenomoresorrowsanddangers,thanshecouldhavebeenwithhim。Butashesatathiswindowandlookedatthethreemounds,thelonelinessofthegreathousemadeitseemmorelikethesepulchrethanthesenarrowdwellingswherehisbelovedandherdaughterlayclosetoeachother,sidebyside,——Catalina,thebrideofhisyouth,andElsie,thechildwhomhehadnurtured,withpoorOldSophy,whohadfollowedthemlikeablackshadow,attheirfeet,underthesamesoftturf,sprinkledwiththebrownautumnalleaves。Itwasnotgoodforhimtobethusalone。HowshouldheeverlivethroughthelongmonthsofNovemberandDecember?
ThemonthsofNovemberandDecemberdid,insomewayorother,getridofthemselvesatlast,bringingwiththemtheusualeventsofvillage-lifeandafewunusualones。Someofthegeologistshadbeenuptolookatthegreatslide,ofwhichtheygavethoseprolixaccountswhicheverybodyrememberswhoreadthescientificjournalsofthetime。Theengineersreportedthattherewaslittleprobabilityofanyfurtherconvulsionalongthelineofrockswhichoverhungthemorethicklysettledpartofthetown。Thenaturalistsdrewupapaperonthe“ProbableExtinctionoftheCrotalusDurissusintheTownshipofRockland。”TheengagementoftheWidowRowenstoaLittleMillionvillemerchantwasannounced,——“Sudding’n’
onexpected。”WidowLeechsaid,——“waalthy,orshewouldn’tha’lookedathim,——fiftyyearold,ifheisaday,’n’hu’n’tgotawhitehairinhishead。”TheReverendChauncyFairweatherhadpubliclyannouncedthathewasgoingtojointheRomanCatholiccommunion,——
notsomuchtothesurpriseorconsternationofthereligiousworldashehadsupposed。Severaloldladiesforthwithproclaimedtheirintentionoffollowinghim;but,asoneortwoofthemweredeaf,andanotherhadbeenthreatenedwithanattackofthatmild,butobstinatecomplaint,dementiasenilis,manythoughtitwasnotsomuchtheforceofhisargumentsasakindoftendencytojumpasthebellwetherjumps,wellknowninflocksnotincludedintheChristianfold。Hisbereavedcongregationimmediatelybeganpullingcandidatesonandoff,likenewboots,ontrial。Somepinchedintenderplaces;
someweretooloose;someweretoosquare-toed;someweretoocoarse,anddidn’tplease;someweretoothin,andwouldn’tlast;——inshort,theycouldn’tpossiblyfindafit。Atlast,peoplebegantodropintohearoldDoctorHoneywood。Theywerequitesurprisedtofindwhatahumanoldgentlemanhewas,andwentbackandtoldtheothers,that,insteadofbeingacaseofconfluentsectarianism,astheysupposed,thegoodoldministerhadbeensowellvaccinatedwithcharitablevirusthathewasnowatrue,open-souledChristianofthemildesttype。Theendofallwhichwas,thattheliberalpeoplewentovertotheoldministeralmostinabody,justatthetimethatDeaconShearerandthe“Vinegar-Bible“partysplitoff,andthatnotlongafterwardstheysoldtheirownmeeting-housetothemalecontents,sothatDeaconSoperusedoftentoremindColonelSprowleofhiswishthat“ourlittlemanandhim[theReverendDoctorwouldswoppulpits。”andtellhimithad“pootynighcometrew。”——
Butthisisanticipatingthecourseofevents,whichweremuchlongerincomingabout;forwehavebutjustgotthroughthatterriblelongmonth,asMr。DudleyVennerfoundit,ofDecember。
OnthefirstofJanuary,Mr。SilasPeckhamwasinthehabitofsettlinghisquarterlyaccounts,andmakingsuchnewarrangementsashisconvenienceorinterestdictated。NewYearwasaholidayattheInstitute。NodoubtthisaccountedforHelen’sbeingdressedsocharmingly,——always,tobesurein,herownsimpleway,butyetwithsuchatruelady’sair,thatshelookedfittobethemistressofanymansionintheland。
Shewasintheparloralone,alittlebeforenoon,whenMr。Peckhamcamein。
“I’mreadytosettlemyaccaountwithyounow,MissDarley。”saidSilas。
“Asyouplease,Mr。Peckham。”Helenanswered,verygraciously。
“Beforepayin’youyourselary。”thePrincipalcontinued,“Iwishtocometoanunderstandin’astothefutur’。IconsiderthatI’vebeenpayin’high,veryhigh,fortheworkyoudo。Women’swagescan’tbeexpectedtodomorethanfeedandclothe’em,asagineralthing,withalittlesavin’,incaseofsickness,andtobury’em,iftheybreakdaown,asallof’emareliabletodoatanytime。IfIa’n’tmisinformed,younotonlysupportyourselfoutofmyestablishment,butlikewiserelativesofyours,whoIdon’tknowthatI’mcalledupontofeedandclothe。Thereisayoungwoman,notburdenedwithdestituterelatives,hassignifiedthatshewouldbegladtotakeyourdootiesforlesspecooniarycompensation,byaconsid’ableamaount,thanyounowreceive。Ishallbewillin’,however,toretainyourservicesatsechredoocedrateasweshallfixupon,——
providedsechredoocedratebeasloworlowerthanthesameservicescanbeobtainedelsewhere。”
“Asyouplease,Mr。Peckham。”Helenanswered,withasmilesosweetthatthePrincipal(whoofcoursehadtrumpedupthisopposition-
teacherfortheoccasion)saidtohimselfshewouldstandbeingcutdownaquarter,perhapsahalf,ofhersalary。
“Hereisyouraccaount,MissDarley,andthebalancedooyou。”saidSilasPeckham,handingherapaperandasmallrollofinfectious-
flavoredbillswrappingsixpoisonouscoppersoftheoldcoinage。
Shetookthepaperandbeganlookingatit。Shecouldnotquitemakeuphermindtotouchthefeverishbillswiththecankeringcoppersinthem,andleftthemairingthemselvesonthetable。
Thedocumentsheheldranasfollows:
SilasPeckham,Esq。,PrincipaloftheApollineanInstitute,InAccountwithHelenDarley,Assist。Teacher。
Dr。Cr。
TosalaryforquarterByDeductionforabsenceendingJan1st@$75per1week3days……$10。00
quarter……$75。00
“Board,lodging,etcfor10days@75ctsperday……7。50
“DamagetoInstitutionbyabsenceofteacherfromduties,say……25。00
“Stationaryfurnished……43
“Postage-stamp……01
“BalancedueHelenDarley。32。06——
$75。00$75。00
ROCKLAND,Jan。1st,1859。
NowHelenhadherownprivatereasonsforwishingtoreceivethesmallsumwhichwasdueheratthistimewithoutanyunfairdeduction,——reasonswhichweneednotinquireintotooparticularly,aswemaybeverysurethattheywererightandwomanly。So,whenshelookedoverthisaccountofMr。SilasPeckham’s,andsawthathehadcontrivedtoparedownhersalarytosomethinglessthanhalfitsstipulatedamount,thelookwhichhercountenanceworewasasneartothatofrighteousindignationashergentlefeaturesandsoftblueeyeswouldadmitofitsbeing。
“Why,Mr。Peckham。”shesaid,“doyoumeanthis?IfIamofsomuchvaluetoyouthatyoumusttakeofftwenty-fivedollarsfortendays’
absence,howisitthatmysalaryistobecutdowntolessthanseventy-fivedollarsaquarter,ifIremainhere?“
“Igaveyoufairnotice。”saidSilas。“IhaveaminuteofitItookdownimmed’atelyaftertheintervoo。”
Heluggedouthislargepocket-bookwiththestrapgoingallroundit,andtookfromitaslipofpaperwhichconfirmedhisstatement。
“Besides。”headded,slyly,“IpresoomyouhavereceivedaliberalpecooniarycompensationfromSquireVennerfornussin’hisdaughter。”
Helenwaslookingoverthebillwhilehewasspeaking。
“Boardandlodgingfortendays,Mr。Peckham,——whoseboardandlodging,pray?“
ThedooropenedbeforeSilasPeckhamcouldanswer,andMr。Bernardwalkedintotheparlor。Helenwasholdingthebillinherhand,lookingasanywomanoughttolookwhohasbeenatoncewrongedandinsulted。
“Thelastturnofthethumbscrew!“saidMr。Bernardtohimself。
“Whatisit,Helen?Youlooktroubled。”
Shehandedhimtheaccount。
Helookedatthefootingofit。Thenhelookedattheitems。ThenhelookedatSilasPeckham。
AtthismomentSilaswassublime。HewassotranscendentlyunconsciousoftheemotionsgoingoninMr。Bernard’smindatthemoment,thathehadonlyasinglethought。
“Theaccaount’scorrec’lycast,Ipresoom;——ifthe’’sanymistakeoffiggersoraddin’’emup,it’llbemadeallright。Everything’saccordin’toagreement。Theminutewrittenimmed’atelyaftertheintervooishereinmypossession。”
Mr。BernardlookedatHelen。JustwhatwouldhavehappenedtoSilasPeckham,ashestoodthenandthere,butfortheinterpositionofamercifulProvidence,nobodyknowsoreverwillknow;foratthatmomentstepswerehearduponthestairs,andHiramthrewopentheparlor-doorforMr。DudleyVennertoenter。
Hesalutedthemallgracefullywiththegood-wishesoftheseason,andeachofthemreturnedhiscompliment,——Helenblushingfearfully,ofcourse,butnotparticularlynoticedinherembarrassmentbymorethanone。
SilasPeckhamreckonedwithperfectconfidenceonhisTrustees,whohadalwayssaidwhathetoldthemto,anddonewhathewanted。Itwasagoodchancenowtoshowoffhispower,and,bylettinghisinstructorsknowtheunstabletenureoftheiroffices,makeiteasiertosettlehisaccountsandarrangehissalaries。TherewasnothingverystrangeinMr。Venner’scalling;hewasoneoftheTrustees,andthiswasNewYear’sDay。ButhehadcalledjustattheluckymomentforMr。Peckham’sobject。
“Ihavethoughtsomeofmakin’changesinthedepartmentofinstruction。”hebegan。“Severalaccomplishedteachershaveappliedtome,whowouldbegladofsitooations。Iunderstandthatthereneverhavebeensomanyfust-rateteachers,maleandfemale,outofemploymentasdoorin’thepresentseason。IfIcanmakesahtisfahctoryarrangementswithmypresentcorpseofteachers,I
shallbegladtodoso;otherwiseIshell,withthepermissionoftheTrustees,makesechnooarrangementsascircumstahncescompel。”
“Youmaymakearrangementsforanewassistantinmydepartment,Mr。
Peckham。”saidMr。Bernard,“atonce,——thisday,——thishour。Iamnotsafetobetrustedwithyourpersonfiveminutesoutofthislady’spresence,——ofwhomIbegpardonforthisstronglanguage。Mr。
Venner,Imustbegyou,asoneoftheTrusteesofthisInstitution,tolookatthemannerinwhichitsPrincipalhasattemptedtoswindlethisfaithfulteacherwhosetoilsandsacrificesandself-devotiontotheschoolhavemadeitallthatitis,inspiteofthismiserabletrader’sincompetence。WillyoulookatthepaperIhold?“
DudleyVennertooktheaccountandreaditthrough,withoutchangingafeature。ThenheturnedtoSilasPeckham。
“Youmaymakearrangementsforanewassistantinthebranchesthisladyhastaught。MissHelenDarleyistobemywife。Ihadhopedtohaveannouncedthisnewsinalessabruptandungracefulmanner。ButIcametotellyouwithmyownlipswhatyouwouldhavelearnedbeforeeveningfrommyfriendsinthevillage。”
Mr。BernardwenttoHelen,whostoodsilent,withdowncasteyes,andtookherhandwarmly,hopingshemightfindallthehappinessshedeserved。ThenheturnedtoDudleyVenner,andsaid,“Sheisaqueen,buthasneverfounditout。Theworldhasnothingnoblerthanthisdearwoman,whomyouhavediscoveredinthedisguiseofateacher。Godblessherandyou!“
DudleyVennerreturnedhisfriendlygrasp,withoutansweringawordinarticulatespeech。
Silasremaineddumbandaghastforabriefspace。Comingtohimselfalittle,hethoughttheremighthavebeensomemistakeabouttheitems,——wouldliketohaveMissbarley’sbillreturned,——wouldmakeitallright,——hadnoideethatSquireVennerhadaspecialint’restinMissbarley,——wassorryhehadgivenoffence,——ifhemighttakethatbillandlookitover——
“No。Mr。Peckham,“saidMr。DudleyVenner,“therewillbeafullmeetingoftheBoardnextweek,andthebill,andsuchevidencewithreferencetothemanagementoftheInstitutionandthetreatmentofitsinstructorsasMr。Langdonseesfittobringforwardwillbelaidbeforethem。”
MissHelenDarleybecamethatverydaytheguestofMissArabellaThornton,theJudge’sdaughter。Mr。BernardmadehisappearanceaweekortwolaterattheLectures,wheretheProfessorfirstintroducedhimtothereader。
Hestayedaftertheclasshadlefttheroom。
“Ah,Mr。Langdon!howdoyoudo?Verygladtoseeyoubackagain。
HowhaveyoubeensinceourcorrespondenceonFascinationandothercuriousscientificquestions?“
ItwastheProfessorwhospoke,——whomthereaderwillrecognizeasmyself,thetellerofthisstory。
“Ihavebeenwell。”Mr。Bernardanswered,withaseriouslookwhichinvitedafurtherquestion。
“Ihopeyouhavehadnoneofthosepainfulordangerousexperiencesyouseemedtobethinkingofwhenyouwrote;atanyrate,youhaveescapedhavingyourobituarywritten。”
“Ihaveseensomethingsworthremembering。ShallIcallonyouthiseveningandtellyouaboutthem?“
“Ishallbemosthappytoseeyou。”
ThiswasthewayinwhichI,theProfessor,becameacquaintedwithsomeoftheleadingeventsofthisstory。Theyinterestedmesufficientlytoleadmetoavailmyselfofallthoseotherextraordinarymethodsofobtaininginformationwellknowntowritersofnarrative。
Mr。Langdonseemedtometohavegainedinseriousnessandstrengthofcharacterbyhislateexperiences。Hethrewhiswholeenergiesintohisstudieswithaneffectwhichdistancedallhispreviousefforts。Rememberingmyformerhint,heemployedhissparehoursinwritingfortheannualprizes,bothofwhichhetookbyaunanimousvoteofthejudges。ThosewhoheardhimreadhisThesisattheMedicalCommencementwillnotsoonforgettheimpressionmadebyhisfinepersonalappearanceandmanners,northeuniversalinterestexcitedintheaudience,asheread,withhisbeautifulenunciation,thatstrikingpaperentitled“UnresolvedNebulaeinVitalScience。”
ItwasageneralremarkoftheFaculty,——andoldDoctorKittredge,whohadcomedownonpurposetohearMr。Langdon,heartilyagreedtoit,——thattherehadneverbeenadiplomafilledup,sincetheinstitutionwhichconferreduponhimthedegreeofDoctorMedicdncewasfounded,whichcarriedwithitmoreofpromisetotheprofessionthanthatwhichborethenameofBERNARDUSCARYLLANGDON
CHAPTERXXXII。
CONCLUSION。
Mr。BernardLangdonhadnosoonertakenhisdegree,than,inaccordancewiththeadviceofoneofhisteacherswhomhefrequentlyconsulted,hetookanofficeintheheartofthecitywherehehadstudied。Hehadthoughtofbeginninginasuburborsomeremoterdistrictofthecityproper。
“No。”saidhisteacher,——towit,myself,——“don’tdoanysuchthing。
Youaremadeforthebestkindofpractice;don’thamperyourselfwithanoutsideconstituency,suchasbelongstoapractitionerofthesecondclass。Whenafellowlikeyouchooseshisbeat,hemustlookaheadalittle。Takecareofallthepoorthatapplytoyou,butleavethehalf-payclassestoadifferentstyleofdoctor,——thepeoplewhospendonehalftheirtimeintakingcareoftheirpatients,andtheotherhalfinsqueezingouttheirmoney。Gofortheswell-frontsandsouth-exposurehouses;thefolksinsidearejustasgoodasotherpeople,andthepleasantest,onthewhole,totakecareof。Theymusthavesomebody,andtheylikeagentlemanbest。
Don’tthrowyourselfaway。Youhaveagoodpresenceandpleasingmanners。Youwearwhitelinenbyinheritedinstinct。Youcanpronouncethewordview。Youhavealltheelementsofsuccess;goandtakeit。Bepoliteandgenerous,butdon’tundervalueyourself。
Youwillbeuseful,atanyrate;youmayjustaswellbehappy,whileyouareaboutit。Thehighestsocialclassfurnishesincomparablythebestpatients,takingthembyandlarge。Besides,whentheywon’tgetwellandboreyoutodeath,youcansend’emofftotravel。
Mindmenow,andtakethetopsofyoursparrowgrass。Somebodymusthave’em,——whyshouldn’tyou?Ifyoudon’ttakeyourchance,you’llgetthebutt-endsasamatterofcourse。”
Mr。Bernardtalkedlikeayoungmanfullofnoblesentiments。Hewantedtobeusefultohisfellow-beings。Theirsocialdifferenceswerenothingtohim。Hewouldnevercourttherich,——hewouldgowherehewascalled。Hewouldrathersavethelifeofapoormotherofafamilythanthatofhalfadozenoldgoutymillionnaireswhoseheirshadbeenyawningandstretchingthesetenyearstogetridofthem。
“Generousemotions!“Iexclaimed。“Cherish’em;clingto’emtillyouarefifty,tillyouareseventy,tillyouareninety!ButdoasItellyou,——strikeforthebestcircleofpractice,andyou’llbesuretogetit!“
Mr。LangdondidasItoldhim,——tookagenteeloffice,furnisheditneatly,dressedwithacertainelegance,soonmadeapleasantcircleofacquaintances,andbegantoworkhiswayintotherightkindofbusiness。Imissedhim,however,forsomedays,notlongafterhehadopenedhisoffice。Onhisreturn,hetoldmehehadbeenupatRockland,byspecialinvitation,toattendtheweddingofMr。DudleyVennerandMissHelenDarley。Hegavemeafullaccountoftheceremony,whichIregretthatIcannotrelateinfull。“Helenlookedlikeanangel。”——that,Iamsure,wasoneofhisexpressions。Asforherdress,Ishouldliketogivethedetails,butamafraidofcommittingblunders,asmenalwaysdo,whentheyundertaketodescribesuchmatters。Whitedress,anyhow,——thatIamsureof,——
withorange-flowers,andthemostwonderfullaceveilthatwaseverseenorheardof。TheReverendDoctorHoneywoodperformedtheceremony,ofcourse。Thegoodpeopleseemedtohaveforgottentheyeverhadhadanyotherminister,exceptDeaconShearerandhissetofmalcontents,whoweredoingadullbusinessinthemeeting-houselatelyoccupiedbytheReverendMr。Fairweather。
“Whowasatthewedding?“
“Everybody,prettymuch。Theywantedtokeepitquiet,butitwasofnouse。Marriedatchurch。Frontpews,oldDr。Kittredgeandallthemansionhousepeopleanddistinguishedstrangers,——ColonelSprowleandfamily,includingMatilda’syounggentleman,agraduateofoneofthefresh-watercolleges,——Mrs。Pickins(lateWidowRowens)andhusband,——DeaconSoperandnumerousparishioners。Alittlenearerthedoor,Abel,theDoctor’sman,andElbridge,whodrovethemtochurchinthefamily-coach。FatherFairweather,astheyallcallhimnow,cameinlatewithFatherMcShane。”
“AndSilasPeckham?“
“Oh,SilashadleftTheSchoolandRockland。CutupaltogethertoobadlyintheexaminationinstitutedbytheTrustees。HadremovedovertoTamarack,andthoughtofrentingalargehouseand“’farming’
thetown-poor。”
Sometimeafterthis,asIwaswalkingwithayoungfriendalongbytheswell-frontsandsouth-exposures,whomshouldIseebutMr。
BernardLangdon,lookingremarkablyhappy,andkeepingstepbythesideofaveryhandsomeandsingularlywell-dressedyounglady?Hebowedandliftedhishataswepassed。
“Whoisthatprettygirlmyyoungdoctorhasgotthere?“Isaidtomycompanion。
“Whoisthat?“heanswered。“Youdon’tknow?Why,thatisneithermorenorlessthanMissLetitiaForrester,daughterof——of——why,thegreatbankingfirm,youknow,BilyunsBrothers&Forrester。Gotacquaintedwithherinthecountry,theysay。There’sastorythatthey’reengaged,orliketobe,ifthefirmconsents。”
“Oh“Isaid。
Ididnotlikethelookofitintheleast。Tooyoung,——tooyoung。
Hasnottakenanypositionyet。NorighttoaskforthehandofBilyunsBrothers&Co。’sdaughter。Besides,itwillspoilhimforpractice,ifhemarriesarichgirlbeforehehasformedhabitsofwork。
Ilookedinathisofficetheotherday。Aboxofwhitekidswaslyingopenonthetable。Athree-cornerednote,directedinaverydelicatelady’s-hand,wasdistinguishableamongaheapofpapers。I
wasjustgoingtocallhimtoaccountforhisproceedings,whenhepushedthethree-cornerednoteasideandtookupaletterwithagreatcorporation-sealuponit。Hehadreceivedtheofferofaprofessor’schairinanancientanddistinguishedinstitution。
“Prettywellforthree-and-twenty,myboy。”Isaid。“Isupposeyou’llthinkyoumustbemarriedoneofthesedays,ifyouacceptthisoffice。”
Mr。Langdonblushed——Therehadbeenstoriesabouthim,heknew。
Hisnamehadbeenmentionedinconnectionwiththatofaverycharmingyounglady。Thecurrentreportswerenottrue。Hehadmetthisyounglady,andbeenmuchpleasedwithher,inthecountry,atthehouseofhergrandfather,theReverendDoctorHoneywood,——yourememberMissLetitiaForrester,whomIhavementionedrepeatedly?
Oncomingtotown,hefoundhiscountry-acquaintanceinasocialpositionwhichseemedtodiscouragehiscontinuedintimacy。Hehaddiscovered,however;thathewasanotunwelcomevisitor,andhadkeptupfriendlyrelationswithher。Buttherewasnotruthinthecurrentreports,——noneatall。’
Somemonthshadpassed,afterthisvisit,whenIhappenedoneeveningtostrollintoaboxinoneoftheprincipaltheatresofthecity。A
smallpartysatontheseatsbeforeme:amiddle-agedgentlemanandhislady,infront,anddirectlybehindthemmyyoungdoctorandthesameveryhandsomeyoungladyIhadseenhimwalkingwithonthesidewalkbeforetheswell-frontsandsouth-exposures。AsProfessorLangdonseemedtobeverymuchtakenupwithhiscompanion,andbothofthemlookedasiftheywereenjoyingthemselves,Ideterminednottomakemypresenceknowntomyyoungfriend,andtowithdrawquietlyafterfeastingmyeyeswiththesightofthemforafewminutes。
“Itlooksasifsomethingmightcomeofit。”Isaidtomyself。Atthatmomenttheyoungladyliftedherarmaccidentallyinsuchawaythatthelightfellupontheclaspofachainwhichencircledherwrist。MyeyesfilledwithtearsasIreadupontheclasp,insharp-
cutItalicletters,E。Y。Theyweretearsatonceofsadremembranceandofjoyousanticipation;fortheornamentonwhichIlookedwasthedoublepledgeofadeadsorrowandalivingaffection。Itwasthegoldenbracelet,——theparting-giftofElsieVenner。
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