下载辰思小说免费APP
“No,“saidhe,“myfather\'shandsneednotbestrengthened,andFrederick\'sconfessionoffollyneednotbeforestalled。
Hemusttellhisownstory。”
“Buthewilltellonlyhalfofit。”
“Aquarterwouldbeenough。”
AdayortwopassedawayandbroughtnotidingsofCaptainTilney。Hisbrotherandsisterknewnotwhattothink。Sometimesitappearedtothemasifhissilencewouldbethenaturalresultofthesuspectedengagement,andatothersthatitwaswhollyincompatiblewithit。
Thegeneral,meanwhile,thoughoffendedeverymorningbyFrederick\'sremissnessinwriting,wasfreefromanyrealanxietyabouthim,andhadnomorepressingsolicitudethanthatofmakingMissMorland\'stimeatNorthangerpasspleasantly。Heoftenexpressedhisuneasinessonthishead,fearedthesamenessofeveryday\'ssocietyandemploymentswoulddisgustherwiththeplace,wishedtheLadyFrasershadbeeninthecountry,talkedeverynowandthenofhavingalargepartytodinner,andonceortwicebeganeventocalculatethenumberofyoungdancingpeopleintheneighbourhood。
Butthenitwassuchadeadtimeofyear,nowild-fowl,nogame,andtheLadyFraserswerenotinthecountry。
Anditallended,atlast,inhistellingHenryonemorningthatwhenhenextwenttoWoodston,theywouldtakehimbysurprisetheresomedayorother,andeattheirmuttonwithhim。Henrywasgreatlyhonouredandveryhappy,andCatherinewasquitedelightedwiththescheme。
“Andwhendoyouthink,sir,Imaylookforwardtothispleasure?ImustbeatWoodstononMondaytoattendtheparishmeeting,andshallprobablybeobligedtostaytwoorthreedays。”
“Well,well,wewilltakeourchancesomeoneofthosedays。Thereisnoneedtofix。Youarenottoputyourselfatalloutofyourway。Whateveryoumayhappentohaveinthehousewillbeenough。
IthinkIcananswerfortheyoungladiesmakingallowanceforabachelor\'stable。Letmesee;Mondaywillbeabusydaywithyou,wewillnotcomeonMonday;
andTuesdaywillbeabusyonewithme。IexpectmysurveyorfromBrockhamwithhisreportinthemorning;
andafterwardsIcannotindecencyfailattendingtheclub。
IreallycouldnotfacemyacquaintanceifIstayedawaynow;for,asIamknowntobeinthecountry,itwouldbetakenexceedinglyamiss;anditisarulewithme,MissMorland,nevertogiveoffencetoanyofmyneighbours,ifasmallsacrificeoftimeandattentioncanpreventit。Theyareasetofveryworthymen。
TheyhavehalfabuckfromNorthangertwiceayear;
andIdinewiththemwheneverIcan。Tuesday,therefore,wemaysayisoutofthequestion。ButonWednesday,Ithink,Henry,youmayexpectus;andweshallbewithyouearly,thatwemayhavetimetolookaboutus。
TwohoursandthreequarterswillcarryustoWoodston,Isuppose;weshallbeinthecarriagebyten;so,aboutaquarterbeforeoneonWednesday,youmaylookforus。”
AballitselfcouldnothavebeenmorewelcometoCatherinethanthislittleexcursion,sostrongwasherdesiretobeacquaintedwithWoodston;
andherheartwasstillboundingwithjoywhenHenry,aboutanhourafterwards,camebootedandgreatcoatedintotheroomwheresheandEleanorweresitting,andsaid,“Iamcome,youngladies,inaverymoralizingstrain,toobservethatourpleasuresinthisworldarealwaystobepaidfor,andthatweoftenpurchasethematagreatdisadvantage,givingready-moniedactualhappinessforadraftonthefuture,thatmaynotbehonoured。
Witnessmyself,atthispresenthour。BecauseIamtohopeforthesatisfactionofseeingyouatWoodstononWednesday,whichbadweather,ortwentyothercauses,mayprevent,Imustgoawaydirectly,twodaysbeforeI
intendedit。”
“Goaway!“saidCatherine,withaverylongface。
“Andwhy?“
“Why!Howcanyouaskthequestion?Becausenotimeistobelostinfrighteningmyoldhousekeeperoutofherwits,becauseImustgoandprepareadinnerforyou,tobesure。”
“Oh!Notseriously!“
“Aye,andsadlytoo——forIhadmuchratherstay。”
“Buthowcanyouthinkofsuchathing,afterwhatthegeneralsaid?Whenhesoparticularlydesiredyounottogiveyourselfanytrouble,becauseanythingwoulddo。”
Henryonlysmiled。“Iamsureitisquiteunnecessaryuponyoursister\'saccountandmine。
Youmustknowittobeso;andthegeneralmadesuchapointofyourprovidingnothingextraordinary:besides,ifhehadnotsaidhalfsomuchashedid,hehasalwayssuchanexcellentdinnerathome,thatsittingdowntoamiddlingoneforonedaycouldnotsignify。”
“IwishIcouldreasonlikeyou,forhissakeandmyown。
Good-bye。AstomorrowisSunday,Eleanor,Ishallnotreturn。”
Hewent;and,itbeingatanytimeamuchsimpleroperationtoCatherinetodoubtherownjudgmentthanHenry\'s,shewasverysoonobligedtogivehimcreditforbeingright,howeverdisagreeabletoherhisgoing。
Buttheinexplicabilityofthegeneral\'sconductdweltmuchonherthoughts。Thathewasveryparticularinhiseating,shehad,byherownunassistedobservation,alreadydiscovered;butwhyheshouldsayonethingsopositively,andmeananotherallthewhile,wasmostunaccountable!Howwerepeople,atthatrate,tobeunderstood?WhobutHenrycouldhavebeenawareofwhathisfatherwasat?
FromSaturdaytoWednesday,however,theywerenowtobewithoutHenry。Thiswasthesadfinaleofeveryreflection:andCaptainTilney\'sletterwouldcertainlycomeinhisabsence;andWednesdayshewasverysurewouldbewet。
Thepast,present,andfuturewereallequallyingloom。
Herbrothersounhappy,andherlossinIsabellasogreat;
andEleanor\'sspiritsalwaysaffectedbyHenry\'sabsence!
Whatwastheretointerestoramuseher?Shewastiredofthewoodsandtheshrubberies——alwayssosmoothandsodry;
andtheabbeyinitselfwasnomoretohernowthananyotherhouse。Thepainfulremembranceofthefollyithadhelpedtonourishandperfectwastheonlyemotionwhichcouldspringfromaconsiderationofthebuilding。
Whatarevolutioninherideas!She,whohadsolongedtobeinanabbey!Now,therewasnothingsocharmingtoherimaginationastheunpretendingcomfortofawell-connectedparsonage,somethinglikeFullerton,butbetter:Fullertonhaditsfaults,butWoodstonprobablyhadnone。IfWednesdayshouldevercome!
Itdidcome,andexactlywhenitmightbereasonablylookedfor。Itcame——itwasfine——andCatherinetrodonair。Byteno\'clock,thechaiseandfourconveyedthetwofromtheabbey;and,afteranagreeabledriveofalmosttwentymiles,theyenteredWoodston,alargeandpopulousvillage,inasituationnotunpleasant。
Catherinewasashamedtosayhowprettyshethoughtit,asthegeneralseemedtothinkanapologynecessaryfortheflatnessofthecountry,andthesizeofthevillage;
butinherheartshepreferredittoanyplaceshehadeverbeenat,andlookedwithgreatadmirationateveryneathouseabovetherankofacottage,andatallthelittlechandler\'sshopswhichtheypassed。Atthefurtherendofthevillage,andtolerablydisengagedfromtherestofit,stoodtheparsonage,anew-builtsubstantialstonehouse,withitssemicircularsweepandgreengates;and,astheydroveuptothedoor,Henry,withthefriendsofhissolitude,alargeNewfoundlandpuppyandtwoorthreeterriers,wasreadytoreceiveandmakemuchofthem。
Catherine\'smindwastoofull,assheenteredthehouse,forhereithertoobserveortosayagreatdeal;and,tillcalledonbythegeneralforheropinionofit,shehadverylittleideaoftheroominwhichshewassitting。Uponlookingrounditthen,sheperceivedinamomentthatitwasthemostcomfortableroomintheworld;butshewastooguardedtosayso,andthecoldnessofherpraisedisappointedhim。
“Wearenotcallingitagoodhouse,“saidhe。
“WearenotcomparingitwithFullertonandNorthanger——weareconsideringitasamereparsonage,smallandconfined,weallow,butdecent,perhaps,andhabitable;andaltogethernotinferiortothegenerality;or,inotherwords,IbelievetherearefewcountryparsonagesinEnglandhalfsogood。Itmayadmitofimprovement,however。Farbeitfrommetosayotherwise;andanythinginreason——abowthrownout,perhaps——though,betweenourselves,ifthereisonethingmorethananothermyaversion,itisapatched-onbow。”
Catherinedidnothearenoughofthisspeechtounderstandorbepainedbyit;andothersubjectsbeingstudiouslybroughtforwardandsupportedbyHenry,atthesametimethatatrayfullofrefreshmentswasintroducedbyhisservant,thegeneralwasshortlyrestoredtohiscomplacency,andCatherinetoallherusualeaseofspirits。
Theroominquestionwasofacommodious,well-proportionedsize,andhandsomelyfittedupasadining-parlour;andontheirquittingittowalkroundthegrounds,shewasshown,firstintoasmallerapartment,belongingpeculiarlytothemasterofthehouse,andmadeunusuallytidyontheoccasion;andafterwardsintowhatwastobethedrawing-room,withtheappearanceofwhich,thoughunfurnished,Catherinewasdelightedenougheventosatisfythegeneral。Itwasaprettilyshapedroom,thewindowsreachingtotheground,andtheviewfromthempleasant,thoughonlyovergreenmeadows;
andsheexpressedheradmirationatthemomentwithallthehonestsimplicitywithwhichshefeltit。
“Oh!Whydonotyoufitupthisroom,Mr。Tilney?Whatapitynottohaveitfittedup!ItistheprettiestroomIeversaw;itistheprettiestroomintheworld!“
“Itrust,“saidthegeneral,withamostsatisfiedsmile,“thatitwillveryspeedilybefurnished:itwaitsonlyforalady\'staste!“
“Well,ifitwasmyhouse,Ishouldneversitanywhereelse。Oh!Whatasweetlittlecottagethereisamongthetrees——appletrees,too!Itistheprettiestcottage!“
“Youlikeit——youapproveitasanobject——itisenough。
Henry,rememberthatRobinsonisspokentoaboutit。
Thecottageremains。”
SuchacomplimentrecalledallCatherine\'sconsciousness,andsilencedherdirectly;and,thoughpointedlyappliedtobythegeneralforherchoiceoftheprevailingcolourofthepaperandhangings,nothinglikeanopiniononthesubjectcouldbedrawnfromher。Theinfluenceoffreshobjectsandfreshair,however,wasofgreatuseindissipatingtheseembarrassingassociations;
and,havingreachedtheornamentalpartofthepremises,consistingofawalkroundtwosidesofameadow,onwhichHenry\'sgeniushadbeguntoactabouthalfayearago,shewassufficientlyrecoveredtothinkitprettierthananypleasure-groundshehadeverbeeninbefore,thoughtherewasnotashrubinithigherthanthegreenbenchinthecorner。
Asaunterintoothermeadows,andthroughpartofthevillage,withavisittothestablestoexaminesomeimprovements,andacharminggameofplaywithalitterofpuppiesjustabletorollabout,broughtthemtofouro\'clock,whenCatherinescarcelythoughtitcouldbethree。Atfourtheyweretodine,andatsixtosetoffontheirreturn。Neverhadanydaypassedsoquickly!
Shecouldnotbutobservethattheabundanceofthedinnerdidnotseemtocreatethesmallestastonishmentinthegeneral;nay,thathewasevenlookingattheside-tableforcoldmeatwhichwasnotthere。Hissonanddaughter\'sobservationswereofadifferentkind。
Theyhadseldomseenhimeatsoheartilyatanytablebuthisown,andneverbeforeknownhimsolittledisconcertedbythemeltedbutter\'sbeingoiled。
Atsixo\'clock,thegeneralhavingtakenhiscoffee,thecarriageagainreceivedthem;andsogratifyinghadbeenthetenorofhisconductthroughoutthewholevisit,sowellassuredwashermindonthesubjectofhisexpectations,that,couldshehavefeltequallyconfidentofthewishesofhisson,CatherinewouldhavequittedWoodstonwithlittleanxietyastotheHowortheWhenshemightreturntoit。
CHAPTER27
ThenextmorningbroughtthefollowingveryunexpectedletterfromIsabella:
Bath,AprilMydearestCatherine,Ireceivedyourtwokindletterswiththegreatestdelight,andhaveathousandapologiestomakefornotansweringthemsooner。
Ireallyamquiteashamedofmyidleness;butinthishorridplaceonecanfindtimefornothing。
IhavehadmypeninmyhandtobeginalettertoyoualmosteverydaysinceyouleftBath,buthavealwaysbeenpreventedbysomesillytriflerorother。
Praywritetomesoon,anddirecttomyownhome。
ThankGod,weleavethisvileplacetomorrow。Sinceyouwentaway,Ihavehadnopleasureinit——thedustisbeyondanything;andeverybodyonecaresforisgone。IbelieveifIcouldseeyouIshouldnotmindtherest,foryouaredearertomethananybodycanconceive。Iamquiteuneasyaboutyourdearbrother,nothavingheardfromhimsincehewenttoOxford;andamfearfulofsomemisunderstanding。Yourkindofficeswillsetallright:heistheonlymanIeverdidorcouldlove,andItrustyouwillconvincehimofit。Thespringfashionsarepartlydown;andthehatsthemostfrightfulyoucanimagine。Ihopeyouspendyourtimepleasantly,butamafraidyouneverthinkofme。IwillnotsayallthatIcouldofthefamilyyouarewith,becauseIwouldnotbeungenerous,orsetyouagainstthoseyouesteem;butitisverydifficulttoknowwhomtotrust,andyoungmenneverknowtheirmindstwodaystogether。Irejoicetosaythattheyoungmanwhom,ofallothers,I
particularlyabhor,hasleftBath。Youwillknow,fromthisdescription,ImustmeanCaptainTilney,who,asyoumayremember,wasamazinglydisposedtofollowandteaseme,beforeyouwentaway。Afterwardshegotworse,andbecamequitemyshadow。Manygirlsmighthavebeentakenin,forneverweresuchattentions;butIknewtheficklesextoowell。Hewentawaytohisregimenttwodaysago,andItrustIshallneverbeplaguedwithhimagain。HeisthegreatestcoxcombIeversaw,andamazinglydisagreeable。ThelasttwodayshewasalwaysbythesideofCharlotteDavis:Ipitiedhistaste,buttooknonoticeofhim。ThelasttimewemetwasinBathStreet,andIturneddirectlyintoashopthathemightnotspeaktome;Iwouldnotevenlookathim。Hewentintothepump-roomafterwards;
butIwouldnothavefollowedhimforalltheworld。
Suchacontrastbetweenhimandyourbrother!Praysendmesomenewsofthelatter——Iamquiteunhappyabouthim;heseemedsouncomfortablewhenhewentaway,withacold,orsomethingthataffectedhisspirits。Iwouldwritetohimmyself,buthavemislaidhisdirection;and,asIhintedabove,amafraidhetooksomethinginmyconductamiss。Prayexplaineverythingtohissatisfaction;or,ifhestillharboursanydoubt,alinefromhimselftome,oracallatPutneywhennextintown,mightsetalltorights。Ihavenotbeentotheroomsthisage,nortotheplay,exceptgoinginlastnightwiththeHodges,forafrolic,athalfprice:
theyteasedmeintoit;andIwasdeterminedtheyshouldnotsayIshutmyselfupbecauseTilneywasgone。WehappenedtositbytheMitchells,andtheypretendedtobequitesurprisedtoseemeout。I
knewtheirspite:atonetimetheycouldnotbeciviltome,butnowtheyareallfriendship;butIamnotsuchafoolastobetakeninbythem。
YouknowIhaveaprettygoodspiritofmyown。
AnneMitchellhadtriedtoputonaturbanlikemine,asIworeittheweekbeforeattheconcert,butmadewretchedworkofit——ithappenedtobecomemyoddface,Ibelieve,atleastTilneytoldmesoatthetime,andsaideveryeyewasuponme;butheisthelastmanwhosewordIwouldtake。Iwearnothingbutpurplenow:IknowIlookhideousinit,butnomatter——itisyourdearbrother\'sfavouritecolour。Losenotime,mydearest,sweetestCatherine,inwritingtohimandtome,Whoeveram,etc。
SuchastrainofshallowartificecouldnotimposeevenuponCatherine。Itsinconsistencies,contradictions,andfalsehoodstruckherfromtheveryfirst。ShewasashamedofIsabella,andashamedofhavingeverlovedher。
Herprofessionsofattachmentwerenowasdisgustingasherexcuseswereempty,andherdemandsimpudent。
“WritetoJamesonherbehalf!No,JamesshouldneverhearIsabella\'snamementionedbyheragain。”
OnHenry\'sarrivalfromWoodston,shemadeknowntohimandEleanortheirbrother\'ssafety,congratulatingthemwithsincerityonit,andreadingaloudthemostmaterialpassagesofherletterwithstrongindignation。
Whenshehadfinishedit——“SomuchforIsabella,“
shecried,“andforallourintimacy!Shemustthinkmeanidiot,orshecouldnothavewrittenso;butperhapsthishasservedtomakehercharacterbetterknowntomethanmineistoher。Iseewhatshehasbeenabout。
Sheisavaincoquette,andhertrickshavenotanswered。
IdonotbelieveshehadeveranyregardeitherforJamesorforme,andIwishIhadneverknownher。”
“Itwillsoonbeasifyouneverhad,“saidHenry。
“ThereisbutonethingthatIcannotunderstand。
IseethatshehashaddesignsonCaptainTilney,whichhavenotsucceeded;butIdonotunderstandwhatCaptainTilneyhasbeenaboutallthistime。Whyshouldhepayhersuchattentionsastomakeherquarrelwithmybrother,andthenflyoffhimself?“
“IhaveverylittletosayforFrederick\'smotives,suchasIbelievethemtohavebeen。HehashisvanitiesaswellasMissThorpe,andthechiefdifferenceis,that,havingastrongerhead,theyhavenotyetinjuredhimself。
Iftheeffectofhisbehaviourdoesnotjustifyhimwithyou,wehadbetternotseekafterthecause。”
“Thenyoudonotsupposeheeverreallycaredabouther?“
“Iampersuadedthatheneverdid。”
“Andonlymadebelievetodosoformischief\'ssake?“
Henrybowedhisassent。
“Well,then,ImustsaythatIdonotlikehimatall。
Thoughithasturnedoutsowellforus,Idonotlikehimatall。Asithappens,thereisnogreatharmdone,becauseIdonotthinkIsabellahasanyhearttolose。
But,supposehehadmadeherverymuchinlovewithhim?“
“ButwemustfirstsupposeIsabellatohavehadahearttolose——consequentlytohavebeenaverydifferentcreature;
and,inthatcase,shewouldhavemetwithverydifferenttreatment。”
“Itisveryrightthatyoushouldstandbyyourbrother。”
“Andifyouwouldstandbyyours,youwouldnotbemuchdistressedbythedisappointmentofMissThorpe。
Butyourmindiswarpedbyaninnateprincipleofgeneralintegrity,andthereforenotaccessibletothecoolreasoningsoffamilypartiality,oradesireofrevenge。”
Catherinewascomplimentedoutoffurtherbitterness。
Frederickcouldnotbeunpardonablyguilty,whileHenrymadehimselfsoagreeable。SheresolvedonnotansweringIsabella\'sletter,andtriedtothinknomoreofit。
CHAPTER28
Soonafterthis,thegeneralfoundhimselfobligedtogotoLondonforaweek;andheleftNorthangerearnestlyregrettingthatanynecessityshouldrobhimevenforanhourofMissMorland\'scompany,andanxiouslyrecommendingthestudyofhercomfortandamusementtohischildrenastheirchiefobjectinhisabsence。
HisdeparturegaveCatherinethefirstexperimentalconvictionthatalossmaybesometimesagain。Thehappinesswithwhichtheirtimenowpassed,everyemploymentvoluntary,everylaughindulged,everymealasceneofeaseandgoodhumour,walkingwheretheylikedandwhentheyliked,theirhours,pleasures,andfatiguesattheirowncommand,madeherthoroughlysensibleoftherestraintwhichthegeneral\'spresencehadimposed,andmostthankfullyfeeltheirpresentreleasefromit。Sucheaseandsuchdelightsmadeherlovetheplaceandthepeoplemoreandmoreeveryday;andhaditnotbeenforadreadofitssoonbecomingexpedienttoleavetheone,andanapprehensionofnotbeingequallybelovedbytheother,shewouldateachmomentofeachdayhavebeenperfectlyhappy;butshewasnowinthefourthweekofhervisit;beforethegeneralcamehome,thefourthweekwouldbeturned,andperhapsitmightseemanintrusionifshestayedmuchlonger。
Thiswasapainfulconsiderationwheneveritoccurred;
andeagertogetridofsuchaweightonhermind,sheverysoonresolvedtospeaktoEleanoraboutitatonce,proposegoingaway,andbeguidedinherconductbythemannerinwhichherproposalmightbetaken。
Awarethatifshegaveherselfmuchtime,shemightfeelitdifficulttobringforwardsounpleasantasubject,shetookthefirstopportunityofbeingsuddenlyalonewithEleanor,andofEleanor\'sbeinginthemiddleofaspeechaboutsomethingverydifferent,tostartforthherobligationofgoingawayverysoon。
Eleanorlookedanddeclaredherselfmuchconcerned。
Shehad“hopedforthepleasureofhercompanyforamuchlongertime——hadbeenmisled(perhapsbyherwishes)
tosupposethatamuchlongervisithadbeenpromised——andcouldnotbutthinkthatifMr。andMrs。Morlandwereawareofthepleasureitwastohertohaveherthere,theywouldbetoogeneroustohastenherreturn。”
Catherineexplained:“Oh!Astothat,PapaandMammawereinnohurryatall。Aslongasshewashappy,theywouldalwaysbesatisfied。”
“Thenwhy,mightsheask,insuchahurryherselftoleavethem?“
“Oh!Becauseshehadbeentheresolong。”
“Nay,ifyoucanusesuchaword,Icanurgeyounofarther。Ifyouthinkitlong——“
“Oh!No,Idonotindeed。Formyownpleasure,Icouldstaywithyouaslongagain。”Anditwasdirectlysettledthat,tillshehad,herleavingthemwasnoteventobethoughtof。
Inhavingthiscauseofuneasinesssopleasantlyremoved,theforceoftheotherwaslikewiseweakened。Thekindness,theearnestnessofEleanor\'smannerinpressinghertostay,andHenry\'sgratifiedlookonbeingtoldthatherstaywasdetermined,weresuchsweetproofsofherimportancewiththem,asleftheronlyjustsomuchsolicitudeasthehumanmindcanneverdocomfortablywithout。
Shedid——almostalways——believethatHenrylovedher,andquitealwaysthathisfatherandsisterlovedandevenwishedhertobelongtothem;andbelievingsofar,herdoubtsandanxietiesweremerelysportiveirritations。
Henrywasnotabletoobeyhisfather\'sinjunctionofremainingwhollyatNorthangerinattendanceontheladies,duringhisabsenceinLondon,theengagementsofhiscurateatWoodstonobliginghimtoleavethemonSaturdayforacoupleofnights。Hislosswasnotnowwhatithadbeenwhilethegeneralwasathome;itlessenedtheirgaiety,butdidnotruintheircomfort;andthetwogirlsagreeinginoccupation,andimprovinginintimacy,foundthemselvessowellsufficientforthetimetothemselves,thatitwaseleveno\'clock,ratheralatehourattheabbey,beforetheyquittedthesupper-roomonthedayofHenry\'sdeparture。
Theyhadjustreachedtheheadofthestairswhenitseemed,asfarasthethicknessofthewallswouldallowthemtojudge,thatacarriagewasdrivinguptothedoor,andthenextmomentconfirmedtheideabytheloudnoiseofthehouse-bell。Afterthefirstperturbationofsurprisehadpassedaway,ina“Goodheaven!Whatcanbethematter?“
itwasquicklydecidedbyEleanortobehereldestbrother,whosearrivalwasoftenassudden,ifnotquitesounseasonable,andaccordinglyshehurrieddowntowelcomehim。
Catherinewalkedontoherchamber,makinguphermindaswellasshecould,toafurtheracquaintancewithCaptainTilney,andcomfortingherselfundertheunpleasantimpressionhisconducthadgivenher,andthepersuasionofhisbeingbyfartoofineagentlemantoapproveofher,thatatleasttheyshouldnotmeetundersuchcircumstancesaswouldmaketheirmeetingmateriallypainful。
ShetrustedhewouldneverspeakofMissThorpe;
andindeed,ashemustbythistimebeashamedoftheparthehadacted,therecouldbenodangerofit;
andaslongasallmentionofBathsceneswereavoided,shethoughtshecouldbehavetohimverycivilly。
Insuchconsiderationstimepassedaway,anditwascertainlyinhisfavourthatEleanorshouldbesogladtoseehim,andhavesomuchtosay,forhalfanhourwasalmostgonesincehisarrival,andEleanordidnotcomeup。
AtthatmomentCatherinethoughtsheheardherstepinthegallery,andlistenedforitscontinuance;
butallwassilent。Scarcely,however,hadsheconvictedherfancyoferror,whenthenoiseofsomethingmovingclosetoherdoormadeherstart;itseemedasifsomeonewastouchingtheverydoorway——andinanothermomentaslightmotionofthelockprovedthatsomehandmustbeonit。Shetrembledalittleattheideaofanyone\'sapproachingsocautiously;butresolvingnottobeagainovercomebytrivialappearancesofalarm,ormisledbyaraisedimagination,shesteppedquietlyforward,andopenedthedoor。Eleanor,andonlyEleanor,stoodthere。
Catherine\'sspirits,however,weretranquillizedbutforaninstant,forEleanor\'scheekswerepale,andhermannergreatlyagitated。Thoughevidentlyintendingtocomein,itseemedanefforttoentertheroom,andastillgreatertospeakwhenthere。Catherine,supposingsomeuneasinessonCaptainTilney\'saccount,couldonlyexpressherconcernbysilentattention,obligedhertobeseated,rubbedhertempleswithlavender-water,andhungoverherwithaffectionatesolicitude。
“MydearCatherine,youmustnot——youmustnotindeed——“
wereEleanor\'sfirstconnectedwords。“Iamquitewell。
Thiskindnessdistractsme——Icannotbearit——Icometoyouonsuchanerrand!“
“Errand!Tome!“
“HowshallItellyou!Oh!HowshallItellyou!“
AnewideanowdartedintoCatherine\'smind,andturningaspaleasherfriend,sheexclaimed,“\'TisamessengerfromWoodston!“
“Youaremistaken,indeed,“returnedEleanor,lookingathermostcompassionately;“itisnoonefromWoodston。
Itismyfatherhimself。”Hervoicefaltered,andhereyeswereturnedtothegroundasshementionedhisname。
Hisunlooked-forreturnwasenoughinitselftomakeCatherine\'sheartsink,andforafewmomentsshehardlysupposedtherewereanythingworsetobetold。
Shesaidnothing;andEleanor,endeavouringtocollectherselfandspeakwithfirmness,butwitheyesstillcastdown,soonwenton。“Youaretoogood,Iamsure,tothinktheworseofmeforthepartIamobligedtoperform。Iamindeedamostunwillingmessenger。
Afterwhathassolatelypassed,solatelybeensettledbetweenus——howjoyfully,howthankfullyonmyside!——astoyourcontinuinghereasIhopedformany,manyweekslonger,howcanItellyouthatyourkindnessisnottobeaccepted——andthatthehappinessyourcompanyhashithertogivenusistoberepaidby——ButImustnottrustmyselfwithwords。MydearCatherine,wearetopart。MyfatherhasrecollectedanengagementthattakesourwholefamilyawayonMonday。WearegoingtoLordLongtown\'s,nearHereford,forafortnight。
Explanationandapologyareequallyimpossible。Icannotattempteither。”
“MydearEleanor,“criedCatherine,suppressingherfeelingsaswellasshecould,“donotbesodistressed。
Asecondengagementmustgivewaytoafirst。Iamvery,verysorrywearetopart——sosoon,andsosuddenlytoo;
butIamnotoffended,indeedIamnot。Icanfinishmyvisithere,youknow,atanytime;orIhopeyouwillcometome。Canyou,whenyoureturnfromthislord\'s,cometoFullerton?“
“Itwillnotbeinmypower,Catherine。”
“Comewhenyoucan,then。”
Eleanormadenoanswer;andCatherine\'sthoughtsrecurringtosomethingmoredirectlyinteresting,sheadded,thinkngaloud,“Monday——sosoonasMonday;
andyouallgo。Well,Iamcertainof——Ishallbeabletotakeleave,however。Ineednotgotilljustbeforeyoudo,youknow。Donotbedistressed,Eleanor,IcangoonMondayverywell。Myfatherandmother\'shavingnonoticeofitisofverylittleconsequence。
Thegeneralwillsendaservantwithme,Idaresay,halftheway——andthenIshallsoonbeatSalisbury,andthenIamonlyninemilesfromhome。”
“Ah,Catherine!Wereitsettledso,itwouldbesomewhatlessintolerable,thoughinsuchcommonattentionsyouwouldhavereceivedbuthalfwhatyouought。
But——howcanItellyou?——tomorrowmorningisfixedforyourleavingus,andnoteventhehourislefttoyourchoice;
theverycarriageisordered,andwillbehereatseveno\'clock,andnoservantwillbeofferedyou。”
Catherinesatdown,breathlessandspeechless。
“Icouldhardlybelievemysenses,whenIheardit;
andnodispleasure,noresentmentthatyoucanfeelatthismoment,howeverjustlygreat,canbemorethanI
myself——butImustnottalkofwhatIfelt。Oh!ThatI
couldsuggestanythinginextenuation!GoodGod!Whatwillyourfatherandmothersay!Aftercourtingyoufromtheprotectionofrealfriendstothis——almostdoubledistancefromyourhome,tohaveyoudrivenoutofthehouse,withouttheconsiderationsevenofdecentcivility!Dear,dearCatherine,inbeingthebearerofsuchamessage,Iseemguiltymyselfofallitsinsult;yet,Itrustyouwillacquitme,foryoumusthavebeenlongenoughinthishousetoseethatIambutanominalmistressofit,thatmyrealpowerisnothing。”
“HaveIoffendedthegeneral?“saidCatherineinafalteringvoice。
“Alas!Formyfeelingsasadaughter,allthatIknow,allthatIanswerfor,isthatyoucanhavegivenhimnojustcauseofoffence。Hecertainlyisgreatly,verygreatlydiscomposed;Ihaveseldomseenhimmoreso。
Histemperisnothappy,andsomethinghasnowoccurredtoruffleitinanuncommondegree;somedisappointment,somevexation,whichjustatthismomentseemsimportant,butwhichIcanhardlysupposeyoutohaveanyconcernin,forhowisitpossible?“
ItwaswithpainthatCatherinecouldspeakatall;
anditwasonlyforEleanor\'ssakethatsheattemptedit。
“Iamsure,“saidshe,“IamverysorryifIhaveoffendedhim。
ItwasthelastthingIwouldwillinglyhavedone。
Butdonotbeunhappy,Eleanor。Anengagement,youknow,mustbekept。Iamonlysorryitwasnotrecollectedsooner,thatImighthavewrittenhome。Butitisofverylittleconsequence。”
“Ihope,Iearnestlyhope,thattoyourrealsafetyitwillbeofnone;buttoeverythingelseitisofthegreatestconsequence:tocomfort,appearance,propriety,toyourfamily,totheworld。Wereyourfriends,theAllens,stillinBath,youmightgotothemwithcomparativeease;afewhourswouldtakeyouthere;butajourneyofseventymiles,tobetakenpostbyyou,atyourage,alone,unattended!“
“Oh,thejourneyisnothing。Donotthinkaboutthat。
Andifwearetopart,afewhourssoonerorlater,youknow,makesnodifference。Icanbereadybyseven。
Letmebecalledintime。”Eleanorsawthatshewishedtobealone;andbelievingitbetterforeachthattheyshouldavoidanyfurtherconversation,nowleftherwith,“Ishallseeyouinthemorning。”
Catherine\'sswellingheartneededrelief。
InEleanor\'spresencefriendshipandpridehadequallyrestrainedhertears,butnosoonerwasshegonethantheyburstforthintorrents。Turnedfromthehouse,andinsuchaway!Withoutanyreasonthatcouldjustify,anyapologythatcouldatonefortheabruptness,therudeness,nay,theinsolenceofit。Henryatadistance——notableeventobidhimfarewell。Everyhope,everyexpectationfromhimsuspended,atleast,andwhocouldsayhowlong?Whocouldsaywhentheymightmeetagain?
AndallthisbysuchamanasGeneralTilney,sopolite,sowellbred,andheretoforesoparticularlyfondofher!Itwasasincomprehensibleasitwasmortifyingandgrievous。
Fromwhatitcouldarise,andwhereitwouldend,wereconsiderationsofequalperplexityandalarm。
Themannerinwhichitwasdonesogrosslyuncivil,hurryingherawaywithoutanyreferencetoherownconvenience,orallowinghereventheappearanceofchoiceastothetimeormodeofhertravelling;oftwodays,theearliestfixedon,andofthatalmosttheearliesthour,asifresolvedtohavehergonebeforehewasstirringinthemorning,thathemightnotbeobligedeventoseeher。Whatcouldallthismeanbutanintentionalaffront?Bysomemeansorothershemusthavehadthemisfortunetooffendhim。
Eleanorhadwishedtospareherfromsopainfulanotion,butCatherinecouldnotbelieveitpossiblethatanyinjuryoranymisfortunecouldprovokesuchillwillagainstapersonnotconnected,or,atleast,notsupposedtobeconnectedwithit。
Heavilypassedthenight。Sleep,orreposethatdeservedthenameofsleep,wasoutofthequestion。
Thatroom,inwhichherdisturbedimaginationhadtormentedheronherfirstarrival,wasagainthesceneofagitatedspiritsandunquietslumbers。Yethowdifferentnowthesourceofherinquietudefromwhatithadbeenthen——howmournfullysuperiorinrealityandsubstance!Heranxietyhadfoundationinfact,herfearsinprobability;
andwithamindsooccupiedinthecontemplationofactualandnaturalevil,thesolitudeofhersituation,thedarknessofherchamber,theantiquityofthebuilding,werefeltandconsideredwithoutthesmallestemotion;
andthoughthewindwashigh,andoftenproducedstrangeandsuddennoisesthroughoutthehouse,shehearditallasshelayawake,hourafterhour,withoutcuriosityorterror。
SoonaftersixEleanorenteredherroom,eagertoshowattentionorgiveassistancewhereitwaspossible;butverylittleremainedtobedone。Catherinehadnotloitered;
shewasalmostdressed,andherpackingalmostfinished。
Thepossibilityofsomeconciliatorymessagefromthegeneraloccurredtoherashisdaughterappeared。
Whatsonatural,asthatangershouldpassawayandrepentancesucceedit?Andsheonlywantedtoknowhowfar,afterwhathadpassed,anapologymightproperlybereceivedbyher。Buttheknowledgewouldhavebeenuselesshere;
itwasnotcalledfor;neitherclemencynordignitywasputtothetrial——Eleanorbroughtnomessage。
Verylittlepassedbetweenthemonmeeting;eachfoundhergreatestsafetyinsilence,andfewandtrivialwerethesentencesexchangedwhiletheyremainedupstairs,Catherineinbusyagitationcompletingherdress,andEleanorwithmoregoodwillthanexperienceintentuponfillingthetrunk。Wheneverythingwasdonetheylefttheroom,Catherinelingeringonlyhalfaminutebehindherfriendtothrowapartingglanceoneverywell-known,cherishedobject,andwentdowntothebreakfast-parlour,wherebreakfastwasprepared。Shetriedtoeat,aswelltosaveherselffromthepainofbeingurgedastomakeherfriendcomfortable;butshehadnoappetite,andcouldnotswallowmanymouthfuls。Thecontrastbetweenthisandherlastbreakfastinthatroomgaveherfreshmisery,andstrengthenedherdistasteforeverythingbeforeher。
Itwasnotfourandtwentyhoursagosincetheyhadmettheretothesamerepast,butincircumstanceshowdifferent!Withwhatcheerfulease,whathappy,thoughfalse,security,hadshethenlookedaroundher,enjoyingeverythingpresent,andfearinglittleinfuture,beyondHenry\'sgoingtoWoodstonforaday!Happy,happybreakfast!ForHenryhadbeenthere;Henryhadsatbyherandhelpedher。Thesereflectionswerelongindulgedundisturbedbyanyaddressfromhercompanion,whosatasdeepinthoughtasherself;andtheappearanceofthecarriagewasthefirstthingtostartleandrecallthemtothepresentmoment。Catherine\'scolourroseatthesightofit;andtheindignitywithwhichshewastreated,strikingatthatinstantonhermindwithpeculiarforce,madeherforashorttimesensibleonlyofresentment。
Eleanorseemednowimpelledintoresolutionandspeech。
“Youmustwritetome,Catherine,“shecried;
“youmustletmehearfromyouassoonaspossible。
TillIknowyoutobesafeathome,Ishallnothaveanhour\'scomfort。Foroneletter,atallrisks,allhazards,Imustentreat。LetmehavethesatisfactionofknowingthatyouaresafeatFullerton,andhavefoundyourfamilywell,andthen,tillIcanaskforyourcorrespondenceasIoughttodo,Iwillnotexpectmore。
DirecttomeatLordLongtown\'s,and,Imustaskit,undercovertoAlice。”
“No,Eleanor,ifyouarenotallowedtoreceivealetterfromme,IamsureIhadbetternotwrite。
Therecanbenodoubtofmygettinghomesafe。”
Eleanoronlyreplied,“Icannotwonderatyourfeelings。
Iwillnotimportuneyou。IwilltrusttoyourownkindnessofheartwhenIamatadistancefromyou。”Butthis,withthelookofsorrowaccompanyingit,wasenoughtomeltCatherine\'sprideinamoment,andsheinstantlysaid,“Oh,Eleanor,Iwillwritetoyouindeed。”
TherewasyetanotherpointwhichMissTilneywasanxioustosettle,thoughsomewhatembarrassedinspeakingof。
Ithadoccurredtoherthataftersolonganabsencefromhome,Catherinemightnotbeprovidedwithmoneyenoughfortheexpensesofherjourney,and,uponsuggestingittoherwithmostaffectionateoffersofaccommodation,itprovedtobeexactlythecase。Catherinehadneverthoughtonthesubjecttillthatmoment,but,uponexaminingherpurse,wasconvincedthatbutforthiskindnessofherfriend,shemighthavebeenturnedfromthehousewithouteventhemeansofgettinghome;andthedistressinwhichshemusthavebeentherebyinvolvedfillingthemindsofboth,scarcelyanotherwordwassaidbyeitherduringthetimeoftheirremainingtogether。Short,however,wasthattime。
Thecarriagewassoonannouncedtobeready;andCatherine,instantlyrising,alongandaffectionateembracesuppliedtheplaceoflanguageinbiddingeachotheradieu;
and,astheyenteredthehall,unabletoleavethehousewithoutsomementionofonewhosenamehadnotyetbeenspokenbyeither,shepausedamoment,andwithquiveringlipsjustmadeitintelligiblethatsheleft“herkindremembranceforherabsentfriend。”Butwiththisapproachtohisnameendedallpossibilityofrestrainingherfeelings;and,hidingherfaceaswellasshecouldwithherhandkerchief,shedartedacrossthehall,jumpedintothechaise,andinamomentwasdrivenfromthedoor。
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Catherinewastoowretchedtobefearful。Thejourneyinitselfhadnoterrorsforher;andshebeganitwithouteitherdreadingitslengthorfeelingitssolitariness。
Leaningbackinonecomerofthecarriage,inaviolentburstoftears,shewasconveyedsomemilesbeyondthewallsoftheabbeybeforesheraisedherhead;
andthehighestpointofgroundwithintheparkwasalmostclosedfromherviewbeforeshewascapableofturninghereyestowardsit。Unfortunately,theroadshenowtravelledwasthesamewhichonlytendaysagoshehadsohappilypassedalongingoingtoandfromWoodston;
and,forfourteenmiles,everybitterfeelingwasrenderedmoreseverebythereviewofobjectsonwhichshehadfirstlookedunderimpressionssodifferent。Everymile,asitbroughthernearerWoodston,addedtohersufferings,andwhenwithinthedistanceoffive,shepassedtheturningwhichledtoit,andthoughtofHenry,sonear,yetsounconscious,hergriefandagitationwereexcessive。
Thedaywhichshehadspentatthatplacehadbeenoneofthehappiestofherlife。Itwasthere,itwasonthatday,thatthegeneralhadmadeuseofsuchexpressionswithregardtoHenryandherself,hadsospokenandsolookedastogiveherthemostpositiveconvictionofhisactuallywishingtheirmarriage。Yes,onlytendaysagohadheelatedherbyhispointedregard——hadheevenconfusedherbyhistoosignificantreference!Andnow——whathadshedone,orwhathadsheomittedtodo,tomeritsuchachange?
Theonlyoffenceagainsthimofwhichshecouldaccuseherselfhadbeensuchaswasscarcelypossibletoreachhisknowledge。Henryandherownheartonlywereprivytotheshockingsuspicionswhichshehadsoidlyentertained;
andequallysafedidshebelievehersecretwitheach。
Designedly,atleast,Henrycouldnothavebetrayedher。
If,indeed,byanystrangemischancehisfathershouldhavegainedintelligenceofwhatshehaddaredtothinkandlookfor,ofhercauselessfanciesandinjuriousexaminations,shecouldnotwonderatanydegreeofhisindignation。
Ifawareofherhavingviewedhimasamurderer,shecouldnotwonderathiseventurningherfromhishouse。
Butajustificationsofulloftorturetoherself,shetrusted,wouldnotbeinhispower。
Anxiousaswereallherconjecturesonthispoint,itwasnot,however,theoneonwhichshedweltmost。
Therewasathoughtyetnearer,amoreprevailing,moreimpetuousconcern。HowHenrywouldthink,andfeel,andlook,whenhereturnedonthemorrowtoNorthangerandheardofherbeinggone,wasaquestionofforceandinteresttoriseovereveryother,tobeneverceasing,alternatelyirritatingandsoothing;itsometimessuggestedthedreadofhiscalmacquiescence,andatotherswasansweredbythesweetestconfidenceinhisregretandresentment。
Tothegeneral,ofcourse,hewouldnotdaretospeak;
buttoEleanor——whatmighthenotsaytoEleanorabouther?
Inthisunceasingrecurrenceofdoubtsandinquiries,onanyonearticleofwhichhermindwasincapableofmorethanmomentaryrepose,thehourspassedaway,andherjourneyadvancedmuchfasterthanshelookedfor。Thepressinganxietiesofthought,whichpreventedherfromnoticinganythingbeforeher,whenoncebeyondtheneighbourhoodofWoodston,savedheratthesametimefromwatchingherprogress;andthoughnoobjectontheroadcouldengageamoment\'sattention,shefoundnostageofittedious。
Fromthis,shewaspreservedtoobyanothercause,byfeelingnoeagernessforherjourney\'sconclusion;
fortoreturninsuchamannertoFullertonwasalmosttodestroythepleasureofameetingwiththoseshelovedbest,evenafteranabsencesuchashers——anelevenweeks\'absence。Whathadshetosaythatwouldnothumbleherselfandpainherfamily,thatwouldnotincreaseherowngriefbytheconfessionofit,extendanuselessresentment,andperhapsinvolvetheinnocentwiththeguiltyinundistinguishingillwill?ShecouldneverdojusticetoHenryandEleanor\'smerit;shefeltittoostronglyforexpression;andshouldadislikebetakenagainstthem,shouldtheybethoughtofunfavourably,ontheirfather\'saccount,itwouldcuthertotheheart。
Withthesefeelings,sheratherdreadedthansoughtforthefirstviewofthatwell-knownspirewhichwouldannounceherwithintwentymilesofhome。SalisburyshehadknowntobeherpointonleavingNorthanger;butafterthefirststageshehadbeenindebtedtothepost-mastersforthenamesoftheplaceswhichwerethentoconducthertoit;sogreathadbeenherignoranceofherroute。
Shemetwithnothing,however,todistressorfrightenher。
Heryouth,civilmanners,andliberalpayprocuredheralltheattentionthatatravellerlikeherselfcouldrequire;
andstoppingonlytochangehorses,shetravelledonforaboutelevenhourswithoutaccidentoralarm,andbetweensixandseveno\'clockintheeveningfoundherselfenteringFullerton。
Aheroinereturning,atthecloseofhercareer,tohernativevillage,inallthetriumphofrecoveredreputation,andallthedignityofacountess,withalongtrainofnoblerelationsintheirseveralphaetons,andthreewaiting-maidsinatravellingchaiseandfour,behindher,isaneventonwhichthepenofthecontrivermaywelldelighttodwell;itgivescredittoeveryconclusion,andtheauthormustshareinthegloryshesoliberallybestows。Butmyaffairiswidelydifferent;
Ibringbackmyheroinetoherhomeinsolitudeanddisgrace;
andnosweetelationofspiritscanleadmeintominuteness。
Aheroineinahackpost-chaiseissuchablowuponsentiment,asnoattemptatgrandeurorpathoscanwithstand。
Swiftlythereforeshallherpost-boydrivethroughthevillage,amidthegazeofSundaygroups,andspeedyshallbeherdescentfromit。
But,whatevermightbethedistressofCatherine\'smind,asshethusadvancedtowardstheparsonage,andwhateverthehumiliationofherbiographerinrelatingit,shewaspreparingenjoymentofnoeverydaynatureforthosetowhomshewent;first,intheappearanceofhercarriage——andsecondly,inherself。ThechaiseofatravellerbeingararesightinFullerton,thewholefamilywereimmediatelyatthewindow;andtohaveitstopatthesweep-gatewasapleasuretobrighteneveryeyeandoccupyeveryfancy——apleasurequiteunlookedforbyallbutthetwoyoungestchildren,aboyandgirlofsixandfouryearsold,whoexpectedabrotherorsisterineverycarriage。HappytheglancethatfirstdistinguishedCatherine!Happythevoicethatproclaimedthediscovery!ButwhethersuchhappinesswerethelawfulpropertyofGeorgeorHarrietcouldneverbeexactlyunderstood。
Herfather,mother,Sarah,George,andHarriet,allassembledatthedoortowelcomeherwithaffectionateeagerness,wasasighttoawakenthebestfeelingsofCatherine\'sheart;andintheembraceofeach,asshesteppedfromthecarriage,shefoundherselfsoothedbeyondanythingthatshehadbelievedpossible。Sosurrounded,socaressed,shewasevenhappy!Inthejoyfulnessoffamilyloveeverythingforashorttimewassubdued,andthepleasureofseeingher,leavingthematfirstlittleleisureforcalmcuriosity,theywereallseatedroundthetea-table,whichMrs。Morlandhadhurriedforthecomfortofthepoortraveller,whosepaleandjadedlookssooncaughthernotice,beforeanyinquirysodirectastodemandapositiveanswerwasaddressedtoher。
Reluctantly,andwithmuchhesitation,didshethenbeginwhatmightperhaps,attheendofhalfanhour,betermed,bythecourtesyofherhearers,anexplanation;
butscarcely,withinthattime,couldtheyatalldiscoverthecause,orcollecttheparticulars,ofhersuddenreturn。
Theywerefarfrombeinganirritablerace;farfromanyquicknessincatching,orbitternessinresenting,affronts:buthere,whenthewholewasunfolded,wasaninsultnottobeoverlooked,nor,forthefirsthalfhour,tobeeasilypardoned。Withoutsufferinganyromanticalarm,intheconsiderationoftheirdaughter\'slongandlonelyjourney,Mr。andMrs。Morlandcouldnotbutfeelthatitmighthavebeenproductiveofmuchunpleasantnesstoher;thatitwaswhattheycouldneverhavevoluntarilysuffered;andthat,inforcingheronsuchameasure,GeneralTilneyhadactedneitherhonourablynorfeelingly——neitherasagentlemannorasaparent。
Whyhehaddoneit,whatcouldhaveprovokedhimtosuchabreachofhospitality,andsosuddenlyturnedallhispartialregardfortheirdaughterintoactualillwill,wasamatterwhichtheywereatleastasfarfromdiviningasCatherineherself;butitdidnotoppressthembyanymeanssolong;and,afteraduecourseofuselessconjecture,that“itwasastrangebusiness,andthathemustbeaverystrangeman,“grewenoughforalltheirindignationandwonder;thoughSarahindeedstillindulgedinthesweetsofincomprehensibility,exclaimingandconjecturingwithyouthfulardour。“Mydear,yougiveyourselfagreatdealofneedlesstrouble,“
saidhermotheratlast;“dependuponit,itissomethingnotatallworthunderstanding。”
“IcanallowforhiswishingCatherineaway,whenherecollectedthisengagement,“saidSarah,“butwhynotdoitcivilly?“
“Iamsorryfortheyoungpeople,“returnedMrs。Morland;
“theymusthaveasadtimeofit;butasforanythingelse,itisnomatternow;Catherineissafeathome,andourcomfortdoesnotdependuponGeneralTilney。”
Catherinesighed。“Well,“continuedherphilosophicmother,“IamgladIdidnotknowofyourjourneyatthetime;
butnowitisanover,perhapsthereisnogreatharmdone。
Itisalwaysgoodforyoungpeopletobeputuponexertingthemselves;andyouknow,mydearCatherine,youalwayswereasadlittleshatter-brainedcreature;
butnowyoumusthavebeenforcedtohaveyourwitsaboutyou,withsomuchchangingofchaisesandsoforth;andIhopeitwillappearthatyouhavenotleftanythingbehindyouinanyofthepockets。”
Catherinehopedsotoo,andtriedtofeelaninterestinherownamendment,butherspiritswerequiteworndown;
and,tobesilentandalonebecomingsoonheronlywish,shereadilyagreedtohermother\'snextcounselofgoingearlytobed。Herparents,seeingnothinginherilllooksandagitationbutthenaturalconsequenceofmortifiedfeelings,andoftheunusualexertionandfatigueofsuchajourney,partedfromherwithoutanydoubtoftheirbeingsoonsleptaway;andthough,whentheyallmetthenextmorning,herrecoverywasnotequaltotheirhopes,theywerestillperfectlyunsuspiciousoftherebeinganydeeperevil。
Theyneveroncethoughtofherheart,which,fortheparentsofayoungladyofseventeen,justreturnedfromherfirstexcursionfromhome,wasoddenough!
Assoonasbreakfastwasover,shesatdowntofulfilherpromisetoMissTilney,whosetrustintheeffectoftimeanddistanceonherfriend\'sdispositionwasalreadyjustified,foralreadydidCatherinereproachherselfwithhavingpartedfromEleanorcoldly,withhavingneverenoughvaluedhermeritsorkindness,andneverenoughcommiseratedherforwhatshehadbeenyesterdaylefttoendure。Thestrengthofthesefeelings,however,wasfarfromassistingherpen;andneverhaditbeenharderforhertowritethaninaddressingEleanorTilney。
Tocomposealetterwhichmightatoncedojusticetohersentimentsandhersituation,conveygratitudewithoutservileregret,beguardedwithoutcoldness,andhonestwithoutresentment——aletterwhichEleanormightnotbepainedbytheperusalof——and,aboveall,whichshemightnotblushherself,ifHenryshouldchancetosee,wasanundertakingtofrightenawayallherpowersofperformance;and,afterlongthoughtandmuchperplexity,tobeverybriefwasallthatshecoulddetermineonwithanyconfidenceofsafety。ThemoneythereforewhichEleanorhadadvancedwasenclosedwithlittlemorethangratefulthanks,andthethousandgoodwishesofamostaffectionateheart。
“Thishasbeenastrangeacquaintance,“
observedMrs。Morland,astheletterwasfinished;
“soonmadeandsoonended。Iamsorryithappensso,forMrs。Allenthoughtthemveryprettykindofyoungpeople;
andyouweresadlyoutoflucktooinyourIsabella。
Ah!PoorJames!Well,wemustliveandlearn;andthenextnewfriendsyoumakeIhopewillbebetterworthkeeping。”
Catherinecolouredasshewarmlyanswered,“NofriendcanbebetterworthkeepingthanEleanor。”
“Ifso,mydear,Idaresayyouwillmeetagainsometimeorother;donotbeuneasy。Itistentoonebutyouarethrowntogetheragaininthecourseofafewyears;
andthenwhatapleasureitwillbe!“
Mrs。Morlandwasnothappyinherattemptatconsolation。
ThehopeofmeetingagaininthecourseofafewyearscouldonlyputintoCatherine\'sheadwhatmighthappenwithinthattimetomakeameetingdreadfultoher。
ShecouldneverforgetHenryTilney,orthinkofhimwithlesstendernessthanshedidatthatmoment;buthemightforgether;andinthatcase,tomeet——!Hereyesfilledwithtearsasshepicturedheracquaintancesorenewed;
andhermother,perceivinghercomfortablesuggestionstohavehadnogoodeffect,proposed,asanotherexpedientforrestoringherspirits,thattheyshouldcallonMrs。Allen。
Thetwohouseswereonlyaquarterofamileapart;
and,astheywalked,Mrs。MorlandquicklydispatchedallthatshefeltonthescoreofJames\'sdisappointment。
“Wearesorryforhim,“saidshe;“butotherwisethereisnoharmdoneinthematchgoingoff;foritcouldnotbeadesirablethingtohavehimengagedtoagirlwhomwehadnotthesmallestacquaintancewith,andwhowassoentirelywithoutfortune;andnow,aftersuchbehaviour,wecannotthinkatallwellofher。JustatpresentitcomeshardtopoorJames;butthatwillnotlastforever;
andIdaresayhewillbeadiscreetermanallhislife,forthefoolishnessofhisfirstchoice。”
ThiswasjustsuchasummaryviewoftheaffairasCatherinecouldlistento;anothersentencemighthaveendangeredhercomplaisance,andmadeherreplylessrational;
forsoonwereallherthinkingpowersswallowedupinthereflectionofherownchangeoffeelingsandspiritssincelastshehadtroddenthatwell-knownroad。Itwasnotthreemonthsagosince,wildwithjoyfulexpectation,shehadthererunbackwardsandforwardssometentimesaday,withanheartlight,gay,andindependent;
lookingforwardtopleasuresuntastedandunalloyed,andfreefromtheapprehensionofevilasfromtheknowledgeofit。Threemonthsagohadseenherallthis;andnow,howalteredabeingdidshereturn!
ShewasreceivedbytheAllenswithallthekindnesswhichherunlooked-forappearance,actingonasteadyaffection,wouldnaturallycallforth;andgreatwastheirsurprise,andwarmtheirdispleasure,onhearinghowshehadbeentreated——thoughMrs。Morland\'saccountofitwasnoinflatedrepresentation,nostudiedappealtotheirpassions。
“Catherinetookusquitebysurpriseyesterdayevening,“
saidshe。“Shetravelledallthewaypostbyherself,andknewnothingofcomingtillSaturdaynight;forGeneralTilney,fromsomeoddfancyorother,allofasuddengrewtiredofhavingherthere,andalmostturnedheroutofthehouse。
Veryunfriendly,certainly;andhemustbeaveryoddman;
butwearesogladtohaveheramongstusagain!Anditisagreatcomforttofindthatsheisnotapoorhelplesscreature,butcanshiftverywellforherself。”
Mr。Allenexpressedhimselfontheoccasionwiththereasonableresentmentofasensiblefriend;andMrs。Allenthoughthisexpressionsquitegoodenoughtobeimmediatelymadeuseofagainbyherself。Hiswonder,hisconjectures,andhisexplanationsbecameinsuccessionhers,withtheadditionofthissingleremark——“Ireallyhavenotpatiencewiththegeneral“——tofillupeveryaccidentalpause。
And,“Ireallyhavenotpatiencewiththegeneral,“
wasutteredtwiceafterMr。Allenlefttheroom,withoutanyrelaxationofanger,oranymaterialdigressionofthought。Amoreconsiderabledegreeofwanderingattendedthethirdrepetition;and,aftercompletingthefourth,sheimmediatelyadded,“Onlythink,mydear,ofmyhavinggotthatfrightfulgreatrentinmybestMechlinsocharminglymended,beforeIleftBath,thatonecanhardlyseewhereitwas。Imustshowityousomedayorother。Bathisaniceplace,Catherine,afterall。
IassureyouIdidnotabovehalflikecomingaway。
Mrs。Thorpe\'sbeingtherewassuchacomforttous,wasnotit?Youknow,youandIwerequiteforlornatfirst。”
“Yes,butthatdidnotlastlong,“saidCatherine,hereyesbrighteningattherecollectionofwhathadfirstgivenspirittoherexistencethere。
“Verytrue:wesoonmetwithMrs。Thorpe,andthenwewantedfornothing。Mydear,donotyouthinkthesesilkgloveswearverywell?IputthemonnewthefirsttimeofourgoingtotheLowerRooms,youknow,andIhavewornthemagreatdealsince。Doyourememberthatevening?“
“DoI!Oh!Perfectly。”
“Itwasveryagreeable,wasnotit?Mr。Tilneydrankteawithus,andIalwaysthoughthimagreataddition,heissoveryagreeable。Ihaveanotionyoudancedwithhim,butamnotquitesure。IrememberIhadmyfavouritegownon。”
Catherinecouldnotanswer;and,afterashorttrialofothersubjects,Mrs。Allenagainreturnedto——“Ireallyhavenotpatiencewiththegeneral!Suchanagreeable,worthymanasheseemedtobe!Idonotsuppose,Mrs。Morland,youeversawabetter-bredmaninyourlife。
Hislodgingsweretakentheverydayafterheleftthem,Catherine。Butnowonder;MilsomStreet,youknow。”
Astheywalkedhomeagain,Mrs。Morlandendeavouredtoimpressonherdaughter\'smindthehappinessofhavingsuchsteadywell-wishersasMr。andMrs。Allen,andtheverylittleconsiderationwhichtheneglectorunkindnessofslightacquaintanceliketheTilneysoughttohavewithher,whileshecouldpreservethegoodopinionandaffectionofherearliestfriends。
Therewasagreatdealofgoodsenseinallthis;
buttherearesomesituationsofthehumanmindinwhichgoodsensehasverylittlepower;andCatherine\'sfeelingscontradictedalmosteverypositionhermotheradvanced。
Itwasuponthebehaviouroftheseveryslightacquaintancethatallherpresenthappinessdepended;andwhileMrs。Morlandwassuccessfullyconfirmingherownopinionsbythejustnessofherownrepresentations,CatherinewassilentlyreflectingthatnowHenrymusthavearrivedatNorthanger;nowhemusthaveheardofherdeparture;
andnow,perhaps,theywereallsettingoffforHereford。
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Catherine\'sdispositionwasnotnaturallysedentary,norhadherhabitsbeeneververyindustrious;butwhatevermighthithertohavebeenherdefectsofthatsort,hermothercouldnotbutperceivethemnowtobegreatlyincreased。
Shecouldneithersitstillnoremployherselffortenminutestogether,walkingroundthegardenandorchardagainandagain,asifnothingbutmotionwasvoluntary;
anditseemedasifshecouldevenwalkaboutthehouseratherthanremainfixedforanytimeintheparlour。
Herlossofspiritswasayetgreateralteration。Inherramblingandheridlenessshemightonlybeacaricatureofherself;butinhersilenceandsadnessshewastheveryreverseofallthatshehadbeenbefore。
FortwodaysMrs。Morlandallowedittopassevenwithoutahint;butwhenathirdnight\'sresthadneitherrestoredhercheerfulness,improvedherinusefulactivity,norgivenheragreaterinclinationforneedlework,shecouldnolongerrefrainfromthegentlereproofof,“MydearCatherine,Iamafraidyouaregrowingquiteafinelady。IdonotknowwhenpoorRichard\'scravatswouldbedone,ifhehadnofriendbutyou。YourheadrunstoomuchuponBath;butthereisatimeforeverything——atimeforballsandplays,andatimeforwork。
Youhavehadalongrunofamusement,andnowyoumusttrytobeuseful。”
Catherinetookupherworkdirectly,saying,inadejectedvoice,that“herheaddidnotrunuponBath——much。”
“ThenyouarefrettingaboutGeneralTilney,andthatisverysimpleofyou;fortentoonewhetheryoueverseehimagain。Youshouldneverfretabouttrifles。”
Afterashortsilence——“Ihope,myCatherine,youarenotgettingoutofhumourwithhomebecauseitisnotsograndasNorthanger。Thatwouldbeturningyourvisitintoanevilindeed。Whereveryouareyoushouldalwaysbecontented,butespeciallyathome,becausethereyoumustspendthemostofyourtime。Ididnotquitelike,atbreakfast,tohearyoutalksomuchabouttheFrenchbreadatNorthanger。”
“IamsureIdonotcareaboutthebread。
itisallthesametomewhatIeat。”
“Thereisaverycleveressayinoneofthebooksupstairsuponmuchsuchasubject,aboutyounggirlsthathavebeenspoiltforhomebygreatacquaintance——TheMirror,Ithink。Iwilllookitoutforyousomedayorother,becauseIamsureitwilldoyougood。”
Catherinesaidnomore,and,withanendeavourtodoright,appliedtoherwork;but,afterafewminutes,sunkagain,withoutknowingitherself,intolanguorandlistlessness,movingherselfinherchair,fromtheirritationofweariness,muchoftenerthanshemovedherneedle。
Mrs。Morlandwatchedtheprogressofthisrelapse;
andseeing,inherdaughter\'sabsentanddissatisfiedlook,thefullproofofthatrepiningspirittowhichshehadnowbeguntoattributeherwantofcheerfulness,hastilylefttheroomtofetchthebookinquestion,anxioustolosenotimeinattackingsodreadfulamalady。
Itwassometimebeforeshecouldfindwhatshelookedfor;
andotherfamilymattersoccurringtodetainher,aquarterofanhourhadelapsedereshereturneddownstairswiththevolumefromwhichsomuchwashoped。
Heravocationsabovehavingshutoutallnoisebutwhatshecreatedherself,sheknewnotthatavisitorhadarrivedwithinthelastfewminutes,till,onenteringtheroom,thefirstobjectshebeheldwasayoungmanwhomshehadneverseenbefore。Withalookofmuchrespect,heimmediatelyrose,andbeingintroducedtoherbyherconsciousdaughteras“Mr。HenryTilney,“withtheembarrassmentofrealsensibilitybegantoapologizeforhisappearancethere,acknowledgingthatafterwhathadpassedhehadlittlerighttoexpectawelcomeatFullerton,andstatinghisimpatiencetobeassuredofMissMorland\'shavingreachedherhomeinsafety,asthecauseofhisintrusion。Hedidnotaddresshimselftoanuncandidjudgeoraresentfulheart。Farfromcomprehendinghimorhissisterintheirfather\'smisconduct,Mrs。Morlandhadbeenalwayskindlydisposedtowardseach,andinstantly,pleasedbyhisappearance,receivedhimwiththesimpleprofessionsofunaffectedbenevolence;
thankinghimforsuchanattentiontoherdaughter,assuringhimthatthefriendsofherchildrenwerealwayswelcomethere,andentreatinghimtosaynotanotherwordofthepast。
Hewasnotill-inclinedtoobeythisrequest,for,thoughhisheartwasgreatlyrelievedbysuchunlooked-formildness,itwasnotjustatthatmomentinhispowertosayanythingtothepurpose。Returninginsilencetohisseat,therefore,heremainedforsomeminutesmostcivillyansweringallMrs。Morland\'scommonremarksabouttheweatherandroads。Catherinemeanwhile——theanxious,agitated,happy,feverishCatherine——saidnotaword;
butherglowingcheekandbrightenedeyemadehermothertrustthatthisgood-naturedvisitwouldatleastsetherheartateaseforatime,andgladlythereforedidshelayasidethefirstvolumeofTheMirrorforafuturehour。
DesirousofMr。Morland\'sassistance,aswellingivingencouragement,asinfindingconversationforherguest,whoseembarrassmentonhisfather\'saccountsheearnestlypitied,Mrs。Morlandhadveryearlydispatchedoneofthechildrentosummonhim;butMr。Morlandwasfromhome——andbeingthuswithoutanysupport,attheendofaquarterofanhourshehadnothingtosay。Afteracoupleofminutes\'unbrokensilence,Henry,turningtoCatherineforthefirsttimesincehermother\'sentrance,askedher,withsuddenalacrity,ifMr。andMrs。AllenwerenowatFullerton?Andondeveloping,fromamidstallherperplexityofwordsinreply,themeaning,whichoneshortsyllablewouldhavegiven,immediatelyexpressedhisintentionofpayinghisrespectstothem,and,witharisingcolour,askedherifshewouldhavethegoodnesstoshowhimtheway。“Youmayseethehousefromthiswindow,sir,“
wasinformationonSarah\'sside,whichproducedonlyabowofacknowledgmentfromthegentleman,andasilencingnodfromhermother;forMrs。Morland,thinkingitprobable,asasecondaryconsiderationinhiswishofwaitingontheirworthyneighbours,thathemighthavesomeexplanationtogiveofhisfather\'sbehaviour,whichitmustbemorepleasantforhimtocommunicateonlytoCatherine,wouldnotonanyaccountpreventheraccompanyinghim。
Theybegantheirwalk,andMrs。Morlandwasnotentirelymistakeninhisobjectinwishingit。Someexplanationonhisfather\'saccounthehadtogive;buthisfirstpurposewastoexplainhimself,andbeforetheyreachedMr。Allen\'sgroundshehaddoneitsowellthatCatherinedidnotthinkitcouldeverberepeatedtoooften。
Shewasassuredofhisaffection;andthatheartinreturnwassolicited,which,perhaps,theyprettyequallyknewwasalreadyentirelyhisown;for,thoughHenrywasnowsincerelyattachedtoher,thoughhefeltanddelightedinalltheexcellenciesofhercharacterandtrulylovedhersociety,Imustconfessthathisaffectionoriginatedinnothingbetterthangratitude,or,inotherwords,thatapersuasionofherpartialityforhimhadbeentheonlycauseofgivingheraseriousthought。Itisanewcircumstanceinromance,Iacknowledge,anddreadfullyderogatoryofanheroine\'sdignity;butifitbeasnewincommonlife,thecreditofawildimaginationwillatleastbeallmyown。
AveryshortvisittoMrs。Allen,inwhichHenrytalkedatrandom,withoutsenseorconnection,andCatherine,raptinthecontemplationofherownunutterablehappiness,scarcelyopenedherlips,dismissedthemtotheecstasiesofanothertete-a-tete;andbeforeitwassufferedtoclose,shewasenabledtojudgehowfarhewassanctionedbyparentalauthorityinhispresentapplication。
OnhisreturnfromWoodston,twodaysbefore,hehadbeenmetneartheabbeybyhisimpatientfather,hastilyinformedinangrytermsofMissMorland\'sdeparture,andorderedtothinkofhernomore。
Suchwasthepermissionuponwhichhehadnowofferedherhishand。TheaffrightedCatherine,amidstalltheterrorsofexpectation,asshelistenedtothisaccount,couldnotbutrejoiceinthekindcautionwithwhichHenryhadsavedherfromthenecessityofaconscientiousrejection,byengagingherfaithbeforehementionedthesubject;
andasheproceededtogivetheparticulars,andexplainthemotivesofhisfather\'sconduct,herfeelingssoonhardenedintoevenatriumphantdelight。Thegeneralhadhadnothingtoaccuseherof,nothingtolaytohercharge,butherbeingtheinvoluntary,unconsciousobjectofadeceptionwhichhispridecouldnotpardon,andwhichabetterpridewouldhavebeenashamedtoown。
Shewasguiltyonlyofbeinglessrichthanhehadsupposedhertobe。Underamistakenpersuasionofherpossessionsandclaims,hehadcourtedheracquaintanceinBath,solicitedhercompanyatNorthanger,anddesignedherforhisdaughter-in-law。Ondiscoveringhiserror,toturnherfromthehouseseemedthebest,thoughtohisfeelingsaninadequateproofofhisresentmenttowardsherself,andhiscontemptofherfamily。
JohnThorpehadfirstmisledhim。Thegeneral,perceivinghissononenightatthetheatretobepayingconsiderableattentiontoMissMorland,hadaccidentallyinquiredofThorpeifheknewmoreofherthanhername。
Thorpe,mosthappytobeonspeakingtermswithamanofGeneralTilney\'simportance,hadbeenjoyfullyandproudlycommunicative;andbeingatthattimenotonlyindailyexpectationofMorland\'sengagingIsabella,butlikewiseprettywellresolveduponmarryingCatherinehimself,hisvanityinducedhimtorepresentthefamilyasyetmorewealthythanhisvanityandavaricehadmadehimbelievethem。
Withwhomsoeverhewas,orwaslikelytobeconnected,hisownconsequencealwaysrequiredthattheirsshouldbegreat,andashisintimacywithanyacquaintancegrew,soregularlygrewtheirfortune。TheexpectationsofhisfriendMorland,therefore,fromthefirstoverrated,hadeversincehisintroductiontoIsabellabeengraduallyincreasing;andbymerelyaddingtwiceasmuchforthegrandeurofthemoment,bydoublingwhathechosetothinktheamountofMr。Morland\'spreferment,treblinghisprivatefortune,bestowingarichaunt,andsinkinghalfthechildren,hewasabletorepresentthewholefamilytothegeneralinamostrespectablelight。
ForCatherine,however,thepeculiarobjectofthegeneral\'scuriosity,andhisownspeculations,hehadyetsomethingmoreinreserve,andthetenorfifteenthousandpoundswhichherfathercouldgiveherwouldbeaprettyadditiontoMr。Allen\'sestate。Herintimacytherehadmadehimseriouslydetermineonherbeinghandsomelylegaciedhereafter;
andtospeakofherthereforeasthealmostacknowledgedfutureheiressofFullertonnaturallyfollowed。
Uponsuchintelligencethegeneralhadproceeded;
forneverhaditoccurredtohimtodoubtitsauthority。
Thorpe\'sinterestinthefamily,byhissister\'sapproachingconnectionwithoneofitsmembers,andhisownviewsonanother(circumstancesofwhichheboastedwithalmostequalopenness),seemedsufficientvouchersforhistruth;
andtothesewereaddedtheabsolutefactsoftheAllensbeingwealthyandchildless,ofMissMorland\'sbeingundertheircare,and——assoonashisacquaintanceallowedhimtojudge——oftheirtreatingherwithparentalkindness。
Hisresolutionwassoonformed。AlreadyhadhediscernedalikingtowardsMissMorlandinthecountenanceofhisson;
andthankfulforMr。Thorpe\'scommunication,healmostinstantlydeterminedtosparenopainsinweakeninghisboastedinterestandruininghisdearesthopes。
Catherineherselfcouldnotbemoreignorantatthetimeofallthis,thanhisownchildren。HenryandEleanor,perceivingnothinginhersituationlikelytoengagetheirfather\'sparticularrespect,hadseenwithastonishmentthesuddenness,continuance,andextentofhisattention;
andthoughlatterly,fromsomehintswhichhadaccompaniedanalmostpositivecommandtohissonofdoingeverythinginhispowertoattachher,Henrywasconvincedofhisfather\'sbelievingittobeanadvantageousconnection,itwasnottillthelateexplanationatNorthangerthattheyhadthesmallestideaofthefalsecalculationswhichhadhurriedhimon。Thattheywerefalse,thegeneralhadlearntfromtheverypersonwhohadsuggestedthem,fromThorpehimself,whomhehadchancedtomeetagainintown,andwho,undertheinfluenceofexactlyoppositefeelings,irritatedbyCatherine\'srefusal,andyetmorebythefailureofaveryrecentendeavourtoaccomplishareconciliationbetweenMorlandandIsabella,convincedthattheywereseparatedforever,andspurningafriendshipwhichcouldbenolongerserviceable,hastenedtocontradictallthathehadsaidbeforetotheadvantageoftheMorlands——confessedhimselftohavebeentotallymistakeninhisopinionoftheircircumstancesandcharacter,misledbytherhodomontadeofhisfriendtobelievehisfatheramanofsubstanceandcredit,whereasthetransactionsofthetwoorthreelastweeksprovedhimtobeneither;foraftercomingeagerlyforwardonthefirstovertureofamarriagebetweenthefamilies,withthemostliberalproposals,hehad,onbeingbroughttothepointbytheshrewdnessoftherelator,beenconstrainedtoacknowledgehimselfincapableofgivingtheyoungpeopleevenadecentsupport。Theywere,infact,anecessitousfamily;numerous,too,almostbeyondexample;
bynomeansrespectedintheirownneighbourhood,ashehadlatelyhadparticularopportunitiesofdiscovering;
aimingatastyleoflifewhichtheirfortunecouldnotwarrant;
seekingtobetterthemselvesbywealthyconnections;
aforward,bragging,schemingrace。
TheterrifiedgeneralpronouncedthenameofAllenwithaninquiringlook;andheretooThorpehadlearnthiserror。TheAllens,hebelieved,hadlivednearthemtoolong,andheknewtheyoungmanonwhomtheFullertonestatemustdevolve。Thegeneralneedednomore。
Enragedwithalmosteverybodyintheworldbuthimself,hesetoutthenextdayfortheabbey,wherehisperformanceshavebeenseen。
Ileaveittomyreader\'ssagacitytodeterminehowmuchofallthisitwaspossibleforHenrytocommunicateatthistimetoCatherine,howmuchofithecouldhavelearntfromhisfather,inwhatpointshisownconjecturesmightassisthim,andwhatportionmustyetremaintobetoldinaletterfromJames。Ihaveunitedfortheircasewhattheymustdivideformine。Catherine,atanyrate,heardenoughtofeelthatinsuspectingGeneralTilneyofeithermurderingorshuttinguphiswife,shehadscarcelysinnedagainsthischaracter,ormagnifiedhiscruelty。
Henry,inhavingsuchthingstorelateofhisfather,wasalmostaspitiableasintheirfirstavowaltohimself。
Heblushedforthenarrow-mindedcounselwhichhewasobligedtoexpose。TheconversationbetweenthematNorthangerhadbeenofthemostunfriendlykind。
Henry\'sindignationonhearinghowCatherinehadbeentreated,oncomprehendinghisfather\'sviews,andbeingorderedtoacquiesceinthem,hadbeenopenandbold。Thegeneral,accustomedoneveryordinaryoccasiontogivethelawinhisfamily,preparedfornoreluctancebutoffeeling,noopposingdesirethatshoulddaretoclotheitselfinwords,couldinbrooktheoppositionofhisson,steadyasthesanctionofreasonandthedictateofconsciencecouldmakeit。But,insuchacause,hisanger,thoughitmustshock,couldnotintimidateHenry,whowassustainedinhispurposebyaconvictionofitsjustice。
HefelthimselfboundasmuchinhonourasinaffectiontoMissMorland,andbelievingthathearttobehisownwhichhehadbeendirectedtogain,nounworthyretractionofatacitconsent,noreversingdecreeofunjustifiableanger,couldshakehisfidelity,orinfluencetheresolutionsitprompted。
HesteadilyrefusedtoaccompanyhisfatherintoHerefordshire,anengagementformedalmostatthemomenttopromotethedismissalofCatherine,andassteadilydeclaredhisintentionofofferingherhishand。
Thegeneralwasfuriousinhisanger,andtheypartedindreadfuldisagreement。Henry,inanagitationofmindwhichmanysolitaryhourswererequiredtocompose,hadreturnedalmostinstantlytoWoodston,and,ontheafternoonofthefollowingday,hadbegunhisjourneytoFullerton。
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Mr。andMrs。Morland\'ssurpriseonbeingappliedtobyMr。Tilneyfortheirconsenttohismarryingtheirdaughterwas,forafewminutes,considerable,ithavingneverenteredtheirheadstosuspectanattachmentoneitherside;butasnothing,afterall,couldbemorenaturalthanCatherine\'sbeingbeloved,theysoonlearnttoconsideritwithonlythehappyagitationofgratifiedpride,and,asfarastheyalonewereconcerned,hadnotasingleobjectiontostart。Hispleasingmannersandgoodsensewereself-evidentrecommendations;
andhavingneverheardevilofhim,itwasnottheirwaytosupposeanyevilcouldbetold。Goodwillsupplyingtheplaceofexperience,hischaracterneedednoattestation。
“Catherinewouldmakeasad,heedlessyounghousekeepertobesure,“washermother\'sforebodingremark;butquickwastheconsolationoftherebeingnothinglikepractice。
Therewasbutoneobstacle,inshort,tobementioned;
buttillthatonewasremoved,itmustbeimpossibleforthemtosanctiontheengagement。Theirtempersweremild,buttheirprinciplesweresteady,andwhilehisparentsoexpresslyforbadetheconnection,theycouldnotallowthemselvestoencourageit。Thatthegeneralshouldcomeforwardtosolicitthealliance,orthatheshouldevenveryheartilyapproveit,theywerenotrefinedenoughtomakeanyparadingstipulation;butthedecentappearanceofconsentmustbeyielded,andthatonceobtained——andtheirownheartsmadethemtrustthatitcouldnotbeverylongdenied——theirwillingapprobationwasinstantlytofollow。Hisconsentwasallthattheywishedfor。Theywerenomoreinclinedthanentitledtodemandhismoney。Ofaveryconsiderablefortune,hissonwas,bymarriagesettlements,eventuallysecure;
hispresentincomewasanincomeofindependenceandcomfort,andundereverypecuniaryview,itwasamatchbeyondtheclaimsoftheirdaughter。
Theyoungpeoplecouldnotbesurprisedatadecisionlikethis。Theyfeltandtheydeplored——buttheycouldnotresentit;andtheyparted,endeavouringtohopethatsuchachangeinthegeneral,aseachbelievedalmostimpossible,mightspeedilytakeplace,tounitethemagaininthefullnessofprivilegedaffection。
Henryreturnedtowhatwasnowhisonlyhome,towatchoverhisyoungplantations,andextendhisimprovementsforhersake,towhoseshareinthemhelookedanxiouslyforward;andCatherineremainedatFullertontocry。Whetherthetormentsofabsenceweresoftenedbyaclandestinecorrespondence,letusnotinquire。
Mr。andMrs。Morlandneverdid——theyhadbeentookindtoexactanypromise;andwheneverCatherinereceivedaletter,as,atthattime,happenedprettyoften,theyalwayslookedanotherway。
Theanxiety,whichinthisstateoftheirattachmentmustbetheportionofHenryandCatherine,andofallwholovedeither,astoitsfinalevent,canhardlyextend,Ifear,tothebosomofmyreaders,whowillseeinthetell-talecompressionofthepagesbeforethem,thatweareallhasteningtogethertoperfectfelicity。
Themeansbywhichtheirearlymarriagewaseffectedcanbetheonlydoubt:whatprobablecircumstancecouldworkuponatemperlikethegeneral\'s?Thecircumstancewhichchieflyavailedwasthemarriageofhisdaughterwithamanoffortuneandconsequence,whichtookplaceinthecourseofthesummer——anaccessionofdignitythatthrewhimintoafitofgoodhumour,fromwhichhedidnotrecovertillafterEleanorhadobtainedhisforgivenessofHenry,andhispermissionforhim“tobeafoolifhelikedit!“
ThemarriageofEleanorTilney,herremovalfromalltheevilsofsuchahomeasNorthangerhadbeenmadebyHenry\'sbanishment,tothehomeofherchoiceandthemanofherchoice,isaneventwhichIexpecttogivegeneralsatisfactionamongallheracquaintance。
Myownjoyontheoccasionisverysincere。Iknownoonemoreentitled,byunpretendingmerit,orbetterpreparedbyhabitualsuffering,toreceiveandenjoyfelicity。
Herpartialityforthisgentlemanwasnotofrecentorigin;
andhehadbeenlongwithheldonlybyinferiorityofsituationfromaddressingher。Hisunexpectedaccessiontotitleandfortunehadremovedallhisdifficulties;
andneverhadthegenerallovedhisdaughtersowellinallherhoursofcompanionship,utility,andpatientenduranceaswhenhefirsthailedher“YourLadyship!“
Herhusbandwasreallydeservingofher;independentofhispeerage,hiswealth,andhisattachment,beingtoaprecisionthemostcharmingyoungmanintheworld。
Anyfurtherdefinitionofhismeritsmustbeunnecessary;
themostcharmingyoungmanintheworldisinstantlybeforetheimaginationofusall。Concerningtheoneinquestion,therefore,Ihaveonlytoadd——awarethattherulesofcompositionforbidtheintroductionofacharacternotconnectedwithmyfable——thatthiswastheverygentlemanwhosenegligentservantleftbehindhimthatcollectionofwashing-bills,resultingfromalongvisitatNorthanger,bywhichmyheroinewasinvolvedinoneofhermostalarmingadventures。
Theinfluenceoftheviscountandviscountessintheirbrother\'sbehalfwasassistedbythatrightunderstandingofMr。Morland\'scircumstanceswhich,assoonasthegeneralwouldallowhimselftobeinformed,theywerequalifiedtogive。IttaughthimthathehadbeenscarcelymoremisledbyThorpe\'sfirstboastofthefamilywealththanbyhissubsequentmaliciousoverthrowofit;
thatinnosenseofthewordweretheynecessitousorpoor,andthatCatherinewouldhavethreethousandpounds。
Thiswassomaterialanamendmentofhislateexpectationsthatitgreatlycontributedtosmooththedescentofhispride;andbynomeanswithoutitseffectwastheprivateintelligence,whichhewasatsomepainstoprocure,thattheFullertonestate,beingentirelyatthedisposalofitspresentproprietor,wasconsequentlyopentoeverygreedyspeculation。
Onthestrengthofthis,thegeneral,soonafterEleanor\'smarriage,permittedhissontoreturntoNorthanger,andthencemadehimthebearerofhisconsent,verycourteouslywordedinapagefullofemptyprofessionstoMr。Morland。Theeventwhichitauthorizedsoonfollowed:HenryandCatherineweremarried,thebellsrang,andeverybodysmiled;and,asthistookplacewithinatwelvemonthfromthefirstdayoftheirmeeting,itwillnotappear,afterallthedreadfuldelaysoccasionedbythegeneral\'scruelty,thattheywereessentiallyhurtbyit。Tobeginperfecthappinessattherespectiveagesoftwenty-sixandeighteenistodoprettywell;
andprofessingmyselfmoreoverconvincedthatthegeneral\'sunjustinterference,sofarfrombeingreallyinjurioustotheirfelicity,wasperhapsratherconducivetoit,byimprovingtheirknowledgeofeachother,andaddingstrengthtotheirattachment,Ileaveittobesettled,bywhomsoeveritmayconcern,whetherthetendencyofthisworkbealtogethertorecommendparentaltyranny,orrewardfilialdisobedience。
*VidealetterfromMr。Richardson,No。97,Vol。II,Rambler。
ANOTEONTHETEXT
NorthangerAbbeywaswrittenin1797-98underadifferenttitle。
Themanuscriptwasrevisedaround1803andsoldtoaLondonpublisher,Crosbie&Co。,whosolditbackin1816。
TheSignetClassictextisbasedonthefirstedition,publishedbyJohnMurray,London,in1818——theyearfollowingMissAusten\'sdeath。SpellingandpunctuationhavebeenlargelybroughtintoconformitywithmodernBritishusage。
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