THE PASSIONATE PILGRI

第3章

BecauseIhadafancyforlookingoutovertheplain,Iwishedtogodownthere-whereIcouldn’tlookoutoveritanylonger。Wasnotthatfinereasoning?Dear,dear,iftheyonlythoughtofit,alltheworldwoulddolikeme。andyouwouldletyourflowersalone,justasIstayuphereinthemountains。’Suddenlyhebrokeoffsharp。’BytheLord!’hecried。Andwhensheaskedhimwhatwaswrong,heturnedthequestionoffandwalkedawayintothehousewithratherahumorousexpressionofface。

Hewassilentattable。andafterthenighthidfallenandthestarshadcomeoutoverhead,hewalkedupanddownforhoursinthecourtyardandgardenwithanunevenpace。TherewasstillalightinthewindowofMarjory’sroom:onelittleoblongpatchoforangeinaworldofdarkbluehillsandsilverstarlight。Will’smindranagreatdealonthewindow。buthisthoughtswerenotverylover-like。’Theresheisinherroom,’hethought,’andtherearethestarsoverhead:-ablessinguponboth!’Bothweregoodinfluencesinhislife。bothsoothedandbracedhiminhisprofoundcontentmentwiththeworld。Andwhatmoreshouldhedesirewitheither?Thefatyoungmanandhiscouncilsweresopresenttohismind,thathethrewbackhishead,and,puttinghishandsbeforehismouth,shoutedaloudtothepopulousheavens。Whetherfromthepositionofhisheadorthesuddenstrainoftheexertion,heseemedtoseeamomentaryshockamongthestars,andadiffusionoffrostylightpassfromonetoanotheralongthesky。Atthesameinstant,acorneroftheblindwasliftedandloweredagainatonce。Helaughedaloudho-ho!’Oneandanother!’thoughtWill。

’Thestarstremble,andtheblindgoesup。Why,beforeHeaven,whatagreatmagicianImustbe!NowifIwereonlyafool,shouldnotIbeinaprettyway?’Andhewentofftobed,chucklingtohimself:’IfIwereonlyafool!’

Thenextmorning,prettyearly,hesawheroncemoreinthegarden,andsoughtherout。

’Ihavebeenthinkingaboutgettingmarried,’hebeganabruptly。

’andafterhavingturneditallover,Ihavemadeupmymindit’snotworthwhile。’

Sheturneduponhimforasinglemoment。buthisradiant,kindlyappearancewould,underthecircumstances,havedisconcertedanangel,andshelookeddownagainuponthegroundinsilence。Hecouldseehertremble。

’Ihopeyoudon’tmind,’hewenton,alittletakenaback。’Yououghtnot。Ihaveturneditallover,anduponmysoulthere’snothinginit。Weshouldneverbeonewhitnearerthanwearejustnow,and,ifIamawiseman,nothinglikesohappy。’

’Itisunnecessarytogoroundaboutwithme,’shesaid。’Iverywellrememberthatyourefusedtocommityourself。andnowthatI

seeyouweremistaken,andinrealityhavenevercaredforme,I

canonlyfeelsadthatIhavebeensofarmisled。’

’Iaskyourpardon,’saidWillstoutly。’youdonotunderstandmymeaning。AstowhetherIhaveeverlovedyouornot,Imustleavethattoothers。Butforonething,myfeelingisnotchanged。andforanother,youmaymakeityourboastthatyouhavemademywholelifeandcharactersomethingdifferentfromwhattheywere。ImeanwhatIsay。noless。Idonotthinkgettingmarriedisworthwhile。Iwouldratheryouwentonlivingwithyourfather,sothatIcouldwalkoverandseeyouonce,ormaybetwiceaweek,aspeoplegotochurch,andthenweshouldbothbeallthehappierbetweenwhiles。That’smynotion。ButI’llmarryyouifyouwill,’headded。

’Doyouknowthatyouareinsultingme?’shebrokeout。

’NotI,Marjory,’saidhe。’ifthereisanythinginaclearconscience,notI。Iofferallmyheart’sbestaffection。youcantakeitorwantit,thoughIsuspectit’sbeyondeitheryourpowerorminetochangewhathasoncebeendone,andsetmefancy-free。

I’llmarryyou,ifyoulike。butItellyouagainandagain,it’snotworthwhile,andwehadbeststayfriends。ThoughIamaquietmanIhavenoticedaheapofthingsinmylife。Trustinme,andtakethingsasIpropose。or,ifyoudon’tlikethat,saytheword,andI’llmarryyououtofhand。’

Therewasaconsiderablepause,andWill,whobegantofeeluneasy,begantogrowangryinconsequence。

’Itseemsyouaretooproudtosayyourmind,’hesaid。’Believemethat’sapity。Acleanshriftmakessimpleliving。Canamanbemoredownrightorhonourable,toawomanthanIhavebeen?I

havesaidmysay,andgivenyouyourchoice。Doyouwantmetomarryyou?orwillyoutakemyfriendship,asIthinkbest?orhaveyouhadenoughofmeforgood?SpeakoutforthedearGod’ssake!

Youknowyourfathertoldyouagirlshouldspeakhermindintheseaffairs。’

Sheseemedtorecoverherselfatthat,turnedwithoutaword,walkedrapidlythroughthegarden,anddisappearedintothehouse,leavingWillinsomeconfusionastotheresult。Hewalkedupanddownthegarden,whistlingsoftlytohimself。Sometimeshestoppedandcontemplatedtheskyandhill-tops。sometimeshewentdowntothetailoftheweirandsatthere,lookingfoolishlyinthewater。

Allthisdubietyandperturbationwassoforeigntohisnatureandthelifewhichhehadresolutelychosenforhimself,thathebegantoregretMarjory’sarrival。’Afterall,’hethought,’Iwasashappyasamanneedbe。IcouldcomedownhereandwatchmyfishesalldaylongifIwanted:Iwasassettledandcontentedasmyoldmill。’

Marjorycamedowntodinner,lookingverytrimandquiet。andnosoonerwereallthreeattablethanshemadeherfatheraspeech,withhereyesfixeduponherplate,butshowingnoothersignofembarrassmentordistress。

’Father,’shebegan,’Mr。WillandIhavebeentalkingthingsover。

Weseethatwehaveeachmadeamistakeaboutourfeelings,andhehasagreed,atmyrequest,togiveupallideaofmarriage,andbenomorethanmyverygoodfriend,asinthepast。Yousee,thereisnoshadowofaquarrel,andindeedIhopeweshallseeagreatdealofhiminthefuture,forhisvisitswillalwaysbewelcomeinourhouse。Ofcourse,father,youwillknowbest,butperhapsweshoulddobettertoleaveMr。Will’shouseforthepresent。I

believe,afterwhathaspassed,weshouldhardlybeagreeableinmatesforsomedays。’

Will,whohadcommandedhimselfwithdifficultyfromthefirst,brokeoutuponthisintoaninarticulatenoise,andraisedonehandwithanappearanceofrealdismay,asifhewereabouttointerfereandcontradict。Butshecheckedhimatoncelookingupathimwithaswiftglanceandanangryflushuponhercheek。

’Youwillperhapshavethegoodgrace,’shesaid,’toletmeexplainthesemattersformyself。’

Willwasputentirelyoutofcountenancebyherexpressionandtheringofhervoice。Heheldhispeace,concludingthatthereweresomethingsaboutthisgirlbeyondhiscomprehension,inwhichhewasexactlyright。

Thepoorparsonwasquitecrestfallen。Hetriedtoprovethatthiswasnomorethanatruelovers’tiff,whichwouldpassoffbeforenight。andwhenhewasdislodgedfromthatposition,hewentontoarguethatwheretherewasnoquarreltherecouldbenocallforaseparation。forthegoodmanlikedbothhisentertainmentandhishost。Itwascurioustoseehowthegirlmanagedthem,sayinglittleallthetime,andthatveryquietly,andyettwistingthemroundherfingerandinsensiblyleadingthemwherevershewouldbyfemininetactandgeneralship。Itscarcelyseemedtohavebeenherdoing-itseemedasifthingshadmerelysofallenout-thatsheandherfathertooktheirdeparturethatsameafternooninafarm-

cart,andwentfartherdownthevalley,towait,untiltheirownhousewasreadyforthem,inanotherhamlet。ButWillhadbeenobservingclosely,andwaswellawareofherdexterityandresolution。Whenhefoundhimselfalonehehadagreatmanycuriousmatterstoturnoverinhismind。Hewasverysadandsolitary,tobeginwith。Alltheinteresthadgoneoutofhislife,andhemightlookupatthestarsaslongashepleased,hesomehowfailedtofindsupportorconsolation。AndthenhewasinsuchaturmoilofspiritaboutMarjory。Hehadbeenpuzzledandirritatedatherbehaviour,andyethecouldnotkeephimselffromadmiringit。Hethoughtherecognisedafine,perverseangelinthatstillsoulwhichhehadneverhithertosuspected。andthoughhesawitwasaninfluencethatwouldfitbutillwithhisownlifeofartificialcalm,hecouldnotkeephimselffromardentlydesiringtopossessit。Likeamanwhohaslivedamongshadowsandnowmeetsthesun,hewasbothpainedanddelighted。

Asthedayswentforwardhepassedfromoneextremetoanother。nowpluminghimselfonthestrengthofhisdetermination,nowdespisinghistimidandsillycaution。Theformerwas,perhaps,thetruethoughtofhisheart,andrepresentedtheregulartenoroftheman’sreflections。butthelatterburstforthfromtimetotimewithanunrulyviolence,andthenhewouldforgetallconsideration,andgoupanddownhishouseandgardenorwalkamongthefir-woodslikeonewhoisbesidehimselfwithremorse。

Toequable,steady-mindedWillthisstateofmatterswasintolerable。andhedetermined,atwhatevercost,tobringittoanend。So,onewarmsummerafternoonheputonhisbestclothes,tookathornswitchinhishand,andsetoutdownthevalleybytheriver。Assoonashehadtakenhisdetermination,hehadregainedataboundhiscustomarypeaceofheart,andheenjoyedthebrightweatherandthevarietyofthescenewithoutanyadmixtureofalarmorunpleasanteagerness。Itwasnearlythesametohimhowthematterturnedout。Ifsheacceptedhimhewouldhavetomarryherthistime,whichperhapswas,allforthebest。Ifsherefusedhim,hewouldhavedonehisutmost,andmightfollowhisownwayinthefuturewithanuntroubledconscience。Hehoped,onthewhole,shewouldrefusehim。andthen,again,ashesawthebrownroofwhichshelteredher,peepingthroughsomewillowsatanangleofthestream,hewashalfinclinedtoreversethewish,andmorethanhalfashamedofhimselfforthisinfirmityofpurpose。

Marjoryseemedgladtoseehim,andgavehimherhandwithoutaffectationordelay。

’Ihavebeenthinkingaboutthismarriage,’hebegan。

’SohaveI,’sheanswered。’AndIrespectyoumoreandmoreforaverywiseman。YouunderstoodmebetterthanIunderstoodmyself。

andIamnowquitecertainthatthingsareallforthebestastheyare。’

’Atthesametime-,’venturedWill。

’Youmustbetired,’sheinterrupted。’Takeaseatandletmefetchyouaglassofwine。Theafternoonissowarm。andIwishyounottobedispleasedwithyourvisit。Youmustcomequiteoften。onceaweek,ifyoucansparethetime。Iamalwayssogladtoseemyfriends。’

’O,verywell,’thoughtWilltohimself。’ItappearsIwasrightafterall。’Andhepaidaveryagreeablevisit,walkedhomeagainincapitalspirits,andgavehimselfnofurtherconcernaboutthematter。

FornearlythreeyearsWillandMarjorycontinuedontheseterms,seeingeachotheronceortwiceaweekwithoutanywordoflovebetweenthem。andforallthattimeIbelieveWillwasnearlyashappyasamancanbe。Heratherstintedhimselfthepleasureofseeingher。andhewouldoftenwalkhalf-wayovertotheparsonage,andthenbackagain,asiftowhethisappetite。Indeedtherewasonecorneroftheroad,whencehecouldseethechurch-spirewedgedintoacreviceofthevalleybetweenslopingfirwoods,withatriangularsnatchofplainbywayofbackground,whichhegreatlyaffectedasaplacetositandmoraliseinbeforereturninghomewards。andthepeasantsgotsomuchintothehabitoffindinghimthereinthetwilightthattheygaveitthenameof’Willo’

theMill’sCorner。’

AttheendofthethreeyearsMarjoryplayedhimasadtrickbysuddenlymarryingsomebodyelse。Willkepthiscountenancebravely,andmerelyremarkedthat,foraslittleasheknewofwomen,hehadactedveryprudentlyinnotmarryingherhimselfthreeyearsbefore。Sheplainlyknewverylittleofherownmind,and,inspiteofadeceptivemanner,wasasfickleandflightyastherestofthem。Hehadtocongratulatehimselfonanescape,hesaid,andwouldtakeahigheropinionofhisownwisdominconsequence。Butatheart,hewasreasonablydispleased,mopedagooddealforamonthortwo,andfellawayinflesh,totheastonishmentofhisserving-lads。

ItwasperhapsayearafterthismarriagethatWillwasawakenedlateonenightbythesoundofahorsegallopingontheroad,followedbyprecipitateknockingattheinn-door。Heopenedhiswindowandsawafarmservant,mountedandholdingaledhorsebythebridle,whotoldhimtomakewhathastehecouldandgoalongwithhim。forMarjorywasdying,andhadsenturgentlytofetchhimtoherbedside。Willwasnohorseman,andmadesolittlespeeduponthewaythatthepooryoungwifewasverynearherendbeforehearrived。Buttheyhadsomeminutes’talkinprivate,andhewaspresentandweptverybitterlywhileshebreathedherlast。

CHAPTERIII。DEATH

Yearafteryearwentawayintonothing,withgreatexplosionsandoutcriesinthecitiesontheplain:redrevoltspringingupandbeingsuppressedinblood,battleswayinghitherandthither,patientastronomersinobservatorytowerspickingoutandchristeningnewstars,playsbeingperformedinlightedtheatres,peoplebeingcarriedintohospitalonstretchers,andalltheusualturmoilandagitationofmen’slivesincrowdedcentres。UpinWill’svalleyonlythewindsandseasonsmadeanepoch。thefishhungintheswiftstream,thebirdscircledoverhead,thepine-topsrustledunderneaththestars,thetallhillsstoodoverall。andWillwenttoandfro,mindinghiswaysideinn,untilthesnowbegantothickenonhishead。Hisheartwasyoungandvigorous。andifhispulseskeptasobertime,theystillbeatstrongandsteadyinhiswrists。Hecarriedaruddystainoneithercheek,likearipeapple。hestoopedalittle,buthisstepwasstillfirm。andhissinewyhandswerereachedouttoallmenwithafriendlypressure。

Hisfacewascoveredwiththosewrinkleswhicharegotinopenair,andwhichrightlylookedat,arenomorethanasortofpermanentsunburning。suchwrinklesheightenthestupidityofstupidfaces。

buttoapersonlikeWill,withhiscleareyesandsmilingmouth,onlygiveanothercharmbytestifyingtoasimpleandeasylife。

Histalkwasfullofwisesayings。Hehadatasteforotherpeople。andotherpeoplehadatasteforhim。Whenthevalleywasfulloftouristsintheseason,thereweremerrynightsinWill’sarbour。andhisviews,whichseemedwhimsicaltohisneighbours,wereoftenenoughadmiredbylearnedpeopleoutoftownsandcolleges。Indeed,hehadaverynobleoldage,andgrewdailybetterknown。sothathisfamewasheardofinthecitiesoftheplain。andyoungmenwhohadbeensummertravellersspoketogetherinCAFESofWillo’theMillandhisroughphilosophy。Manyandmanyaninvitation,youmaybesure,hehad。butnothingcouldtempthimfromhisuplandvalley。Hewouldshakehisheadandsmileoverhistobacco-pipewithadealofmeaning。’Youcometoolate,’hewouldanswer。’Iamadeadmannow:Ihavelivedanddiedalready。Fiftyyearsagoyouwouldhavebroughtmyheartintomymouth。andnowyoudonoteventemptme。Butthatistheobjectoflongliving,thatmanshouldceasetocareaboutlife。’Andagain:’Thereisonlyonedifferencebetweenalonglifeandagooddinner:that,inthedinner,thesweetscomelast。’Oroncemore:

’WhenIwasaboy,Iwasabitpuzzled,andhardlyknewwhetheritwasmyselfortheworldthatwascuriousandworthlookinginto。

Now,Iknowitismyself,andsticktothat。’

Henevershowedanysymptomoffrailty,butkeptstalwartandfirmtothelast。buttheysayhegrewlesstalkativetowardstheend,andwouldlistentootherpeoplebythehourinanamusedandsympatheticsilence。Only,whenhedidspeak,itwasmoretothepointandmorechargedwitholdexperience。Hedrankabottleofwinegladly。aboveall,atsunsetonthehill-toporquitelateatnightunderthestarsinthearbour。Thesightofsomethingattractiveandunatttainableseasonedhisenjoyment,hewouldsay。

andheprofessedhehadlivedlongenoughtoadmireacandleallthemorewhenhecouldcompareitwithaplanet。

Onenight,inhisseventy-secondyear,heawokeinbedinsuchuneasinessofbodyandmindthathearoseanddressedhimselfandwentouttomeditateinthearbour。Itwaspitchdark,withoutastar。theriverwasswollen,andthewetwoodsandmeadowsloadedtheairwithperfume。Ithadthunderedduringtheday,anditpromisedmorethunderforthemorrow。Amurky,stiflingnightforamanofseventy-two!Whetheritwastheweatherorthewakefulness,orsomelittletouchoffeverinhisoldlimbs,Will’smindwasbesiegedbytumultuousandcryingmemories。Hisboyhood,thenightwiththefatyoungman,thedeathofhisadoptedparents,thesummerdayswithMarjory,andmanyofthosesmallcircumstances,whichseemnothingtoanother,andareyettheverygistofaman’sownlifetohimself-thingsseen,wordsheard,looksmisconstrued-arosefromtheirforgottencornersandusurpedhisattention。Thedeadthemselveswerewithhim,notmerelytakingpartinthisthinshowofmemorythatdefiledbeforehisbrain,butrevisitinghisbodilysensesastheydoinprofoundandvividdreams。Thefatyoungmanleanedhiselbowsonthetableopposite。Marjorycameandwentwithanapronfulofflowersbetweenthegardenandthearbour。hecouldheartheoldparsonknockingouthispipeorblowinghisresonantnose。Thetideofhisconsciousnessebbedandflowed:hewassometimeshalf-asleepanddrownedinhisrecollectionsofthepast。andsometimeshewasbroadawake,wonderingathimself。Butaboutthemiddleofthenighthewasstartledbythevoiceofthedeadmillercallingtohimoutofthehouseasheusedtodoonthearrivalofcustom。

ThehallucinationwassoperfectthatWillsprangfromhisseatandstoodlisteningforthesummonstoberepeated。andashelistenedhebecameconsciousofanothernoisebesidesthebrawlingoftheriverandtheringinginhisfeverishears。Itwaslikethestirofhorsesandthecreakingofharness,asthoughacarriagewithanimpatientteamhadbeenbroughtupupontheroadbeforethecourtyardgate。Atsuchanhour,uponthisroughanddangerouspass,thesuppositionwasnobetterthanabsurd。andWilldismisseditfromhismind,andresumedhisseatuponthearbourchair。andsleepclosedoverhimagainlikerunningwater。Hewasonceagainawakenedbythedeadmiller’scall,thinnerandmorespectralthanbefore。andonceagainheheardthenoiseofanequipageupontheroad。Andsothriceandfourtimes,thesamedream,orthesamefancy,presenteditselftohissenses:untilatlength,smilingtohimselfaswhenonehumoursanervouschild,heproceededtowardsthegatetosethisuncertaintyatrest。

Fromthearbourtothegatewasnogreatdistance,andyetittookWillsometime。itseemedasifthedeadthickenedaroundhiminthecourt,andcrossedhispathateverystep。For,first,hewassuddenlysurprisedbyanoverpoweringsweetnessofheliotropes。itwasasifhisgardenhadbeenplantedwiththisflowerfromendtoend,andthehot,dampnighthaddrawnforthalltheirperfumesinabreath。NowtheheliotropehadbeenMarjory’sfavouriteflower,andsinceherdeathnotoneofthemhadeverbeenplantedinWill’sground。

’Imustbegoingcrazy,’hethought。’PoorMarjoryandherheliotropes!’

Andwiththatheraisedhiseyestowardsthewindowthathadoncebeenhers。Ifhehadbeenbewilderedbefore,hewasnowalmostterrified。fortherewasalightintheroom。thewindowwasanorangeoblongasofyore。andthecorneroftheblindwasliftedandletfallasonthenightwhenhestoodandshoutedtothestarsinhisperplexity。Theillusiononlyenduredaninstant。butitlefthimsomewhatunmanned,rubbinghiseyesandstaringattheoutlineofthehouseandtheblacknightbehindit。Whilehethusstood,anditseemedasifhemusthavestoodtherequitealongtime,therecamearenewalofthenoisesontheroad:andheturnedintimetomeetastranger,whowasadvancingtomeethimacrossthecourt。Therewassomethingliketheoutlineofagreatcarriagediscernibleontheroadbehindthestranger,and,abovethat,afewblackpine-tops,likesomanyplumes。

’MasterWill?’askedthenew-comer,inbriefmilitaryfashion。

’Thatsame,sir,’answeredWill。’CanIdoanythingtoserveyou?’

’Ihaveheardyoumuchspokenof,MasterWill,’returnedtheother。

’muchspokenof,andwell。AndthoughIhavebothhandsfullofbusiness,Iwishtodrinkabottleofwinewithyouinyourarbour。

BeforeIgo,Ishallintroducemyself。’

Willledthewaytothetrellis,andgotalamplightedandabottleuncorked。Hewasnotaltogetherunusedtosuchcomplimentaryinterviews,andhopedlittleenoughfromthisone,beingschooledbymanydisappointments。Asortofcloudhadsettledonhiswitsandpreventedhimfromrememberingthestrangenessofthehour。Hemovedlikeapersoninhissleep。anditseemedasifthelampcaughtfireandthebottlecameuncorkedwiththefacilityofthought。Still,hehadsomecuriosityabouttheappearanceofhisvisitor,andtriedinvaintoturnthelightintohisface。eitherhehandledthelampclumsily,ortherewasadimnessoverhiseyes。buthecouldmakeoutlittlemorethanashadowattablewithhim。Hestaredandstaredatthisshadow,ashewipedouttheglasses,andbegantofeelcoldandstrangeabouttheheart。Thesilenceweigheduponhim,forhecouldhearnothingnow,noteventheriver,butthedrummingofhisownarteriesinhisears。

’Here’stoyou,’saidthestranger,roughly。

’Hereismyservice,sir,’repliedWill,sippinghiswine,whichsomehowtastedoddly。

’Iunderstandyouareaverypositivefellow,’pursuedthestranger。

Willmadeanswerwithasmileofsomesatisfactionandalittlenod。

’SoamI,’continuedtheother。’anditisthedelightofmyhearttotramponpeople’scorns。Iwillhavenobodypositivebutmyself。notone。Ihavecrossedthewhims,inmytime,ofkingsandgeneralsandgreatartists。Andwhatwouldyousay,’hewenton,’ifIhadcomeuphereonpurposetocrossyours?’

Willhaditonhistonguetomakeasharprejoinder。butthepolitenessofanoldinnkeeperprevailed。andheheldhispeaceandmadeanswerwithacivilgestureofthehand。

’Ihave,’saidthestranger。’AndifIdidnotholdyouinaparticularesteem,Ishouldmakenowordsaboutthematter。Itappearsyouprideyourselfonstayingwhereyouare。Youmeantostickbyyourinn。NowImeanyoushallcomeforaturnwithmeinmybarouche。andbeforethisbottle’sempty,soyoushall。’

’Thatwouldbeanoddthing,tobesure,’repliedWill,withachuckle。’Why,sir,Ihavegrownherelikeanoldoak-tree。theDevilhimselfcouldhardlyrootmeup:andforallIperceiveyouareaveryentertainingoldgentleman,Iwouldwageryouanotherbottleyouloseyourpainswithme。’

ThedimnessofWill’seyesighthadbeenincreasingallthiswhile。

buthewassomehowconsciousofasharpandchillingscrutinywhichirritatedandyetovermasteredhim。

’Youneednotthink,’hebrokeoutsuddenly,inanexplosive,febrilemannerthatstartledandalarmedhimself,’thatIamastay-at-home,becauseIfearanythingunderGod。GodknowsIamtiredenoughofitall。andwhenthetimecomesforalongerjourneythaneveryoudreamof,IreckonIshallfindmyselfprepared。’

Thestrangeremptiedhisglassandpusheditawayfromhim。Helookeddownforalittle,andthen,leaningoverthetable,tappedWillthreetimesupontheforearmwithasinglefinger。’Thetimehascome!’hesaidsolemnly。

Anuglythrillspreadfromthespothetouched。Thetonesofhisvoiceweredullandstartling,andechoedstrangelyinWill’sheart。

’Ibegyourpardon,’hesaid,withsomediscomposure。’Whatdoyoumean?’

’Lookatme,andyouwillfindyoureyesightswim。Raiseyourhand。itisdead-heavy。Thisisyourlastbottleofwine,MasterWill,andyourlastnightupontheearth。’

’Youareadoctor?’quaveredWill。

’Thebestthateverwas,’repliedtheother。’forIcurebothmindandbodywiththesameprescription。ItakeawayallplainandI

forgiveallsins。andwheremypatientshavegonewronginlife,I

smoothoutallcomplicationsandsetthemfreeagainupontheirfeet。’

’Ihavenoneedofyou,’saidWill。

’Atimecomesforallmen,MasterWill,’repliedthedoctor,’whenthehelmistakenoutoftheirhands。Foryou,becauseyouwereprudentandquiet,ithasbeenlongofcoming,andyouhavehadlongtodisciplineyourselfforitsreception。Youhaveseenwhatistobeseenaboutyourmill。youhavesatcloseallyourdayslikeahareinitsform。butnowthatisatanend。and,’addedthedoctor,gettingonhisfeet,’youmustariseandcomewithme。’

’Youareastrangephysician,’saidWill,lookingsteadfastlyuponhisguest。

’Iamanaturallaw,’hereplied,’andpeoplecallmeDeath。’

’Whydidyounottellmesoatfirst?’criedWill。’Ihavebeenwaitingforyouthesemanyyears。Givemeyourhand,andwelcome。’

’Leanuponmyarm,’saidthestranger,’foralreadyyourstrengthabates。Leanonmeasheavilyasyouneed。forthoughIamold,I

amverystrong。Itisbutthreestepstomycarriage,andthereallyourtroubleends。Why,Will,’headded,’Ihavebeenyearningforyouasifyouweremyownson。andofallthementhateverI

cameforinmylongdays,Ihavecomeforyoumostgladly。Iamcaustic,andsometimesoffendpeopleatfirstsight。butIamagoodfriendathearttosuchasyou。’

’SinceMarjorywastaken,’returnedWill,’IdeclarebeforeGodyouweretheonlyfriendIhadtolookfor。’Sothepairwentarm-in-

armacrossthecourtyard。

Oneoftheservantsawokeaboutthistimeandheardthenoiseofhorsespawingbeforehedroppedasleepagain。alldownthevalleythatnighttherewasarushingasofasmoothandsteadywinddescendingtowardstheplain。andwhentheworldrosenextmorning,sureenoughWillo’theMillhadgoneatlastuponhistravels。

MARKHEIM

’YES,’saidthedealer,’ourwindfallsareofvariouskinds。Somecustomersareignorant,andthenItouchadividendonmysuperiorknowledge。Somearedishonest,’andhereheheldupthecandle,sothatthelightfellstronglyonhisvisitor,’andinthatcase,’hecontinued,’Iprofitbymyvirtue。’

Markheimhadbutjustenteredfromthedaylightstreets,andhiseyeshadnotyetgrownfamiliarwiththemingledshineanddarknessintheshop。Atthesepointedwords,andbeforethenearpresenceoftheflame,heblinkedpainfullyandlookedaside。

Thedealerchuckled。’YoucometomeonChristmasDay,’heresumed,’whenyouknowthatIamaloneinmyhouse,putupmyshutters,andmakeapointofrefusingbusiness。Well,youwillhavetopayforthat。youwillhavetopayformylossoftime,whenIshouldbebalancingmybooks。youwillhavetopay,besides,forakindofmannerthatIremarkinyouto-dayverystrongly。I

amtheessenceofdiscretion,andasknoawkwardquestions。butwhenacustomercannotlookmeintheeye,hehastopayforit。’

Thedealeroncemorechuckled。andthen,changingtohisusualbusinessvoice,thoughstillwithanoteofirony,’Youcangive,asusual,aclearaccountofhowyoucameintothepossessionoftheobject?’hecontinued。’Stillyouruncle’scabinet?A

remarkablecollector,sir!’

Andthelittlepale,round-shouldereddealerstoodalmostontip-

toe,lookingoverthetopofhisgoldspectacles,andnoddinghisheadwitheverymarkofdisbelief。Markheimreturnedhisgazewithoneofinfinitepity,andatouchofhorror。

’Thistime,’saidhe,’youareinerror。Ihavenotcometosell,buttobuy。Ihavenocuriostodisposeof。myuncle’scabinetisbaretothewainscot。evenwereitstillintact,IhavedonewellontheStockExchange,andshouldmorelikelyaddtoitthanotherwise,andmyerrandto-dayissimplicityitself。IseekaChristmaspresentforalady,’hecontinued,waxingmorefluentashestruckintothespeechhehadprepared。’andcertainlyIoweyoueveryexcuseforthusdisturbingyouuponsosmallamatter。Butthethingwasneglectedyesterday。Imustproducemylittlecomplimentatdinner。and,asyouverywellknow,arichmarriageisnotathingtobeneglected。’

Therefollowedapause,duringwhichthedealerseemedtoweighthisstatementincredulously。Thetickingofmanyclocksamongthecuriouslumberoftheshop,andthefaintrushingofthecabsinanearthoroughfare,filleduptheintervalofsilence。

’Well,sir,’saidthedealer,’beitso。Youareanoldcustomerafterall。andif,asyousay,youhavethechanceofagoodmarriage,farbeitfrommetobeanobstacle。Hereisanicethingforaladynow,’hewenton,’thishandglass-fifteenthcentury,warranted。comesfromagoodcollection,too。butI

reservethename,intheinterestsofmycustomer,whowasjustlikeyourself,mydearsir,thenephewandsoleheirofaremarkablecollector。’

Thedealer,whilehethusranoninhisdryandbitingvoice,hadstoopedtotaketheobjectfromitsplace。and,ashehaddoneso,ashockhadpassedthroughMarkheim,astartbothofhandandfoot,asuddenleapofmanytumultuouspassionstotheface。Itpassedasswiftlyasitcame,andleftnotracebeyondacertaintremblingofthehandthatnowreceivedtheglass。

’Aglass,’hesaidhoarsely,andthenpaused,andrepeateditmoreclearly。’Aglass?ForChristmas?Surelynot?’

’Andwhynot?’criedthedealer。’Whynotaglass?’

Markheimwaslookinguponhimwithanindefinableexpression。’Youaskmewhynot?’hesaid。’Why,lookhere-lookinit-lookatyourself!Doyouliketoseeit?No!norI-noranyman。’

ThelittlemanhadjumpedbackwhenMarkheimhadsosuddenlyconfrontedhimwiththemirror。butnow,perceivingtherewasnothingworseonhand,hechuckled。’Yourfuturelady,sir,mustbeprettyhardfavoured,’saidhe。

’Iaskyou,’saidMarkheim,’foraChristmaspresent,andyougivemethis-thisdamnedreminderofyears,andsinsandfollies-

thishand-conscience!Didyoumeanit?Hadyouathoughtinyourmind?Tellme。Itwillbebetterforyouifyoudo。Come,tellmeaboutyourself。Ihazardaguessnow,thatyouareinsecretaverycharitableman?’

Thedealerlookedcloselyathiscompanion。Itwasveryodd,Markheimdidnotappeartobelaughing。therewassomethinginhisfacelikeaneagersparkleofhope,butnothingofmirth。

’Whatareyoudrivingat?’thedealerasked。

’Notcharitable?’returnedtheother,gloomily。Notcharitable。

notpious。notscrupulous。unloving,unbeloved。ahandtogetmoney,asafetokeepit。Isthatall?DearGod,man,isthatall?’

’Iwilltellyouwhatitis,’beganthedealer,withsomesharpness,andthenbrokeoffagainintoachuckle。’ButIseethisisalovematchofyours,andyouhavebeendrinkingthelady’shealth。’

’Ah!’criedMarkheim,withastrangecuriosity。’Ah,haveyoubeeninlove?Tellmeaboutthat。’

’I,’criedthedealer。’Iinlove!Ineverhadthetime,norhaveIthetimeto-dayforallthisnonsense。Willyoutaketheglass?’

’Whereisthehurry?’returnedMarkheim。’Itisverypleasanttostandheretalking。andlifeissoshortandinsecurethatIwouldnothurryawayfromanypleasure-no,notevenfromsomildaoneasthis。Weshouldrathercling,clingtowhatlittlewecanget,likeamanatacliff’sedge。Everysecondisacliff,ifyouthinkuponit-acliffamilehigh-highenough,ifwefall,todashusoutofeveryfeatureofhumanity。Henceitisbesttotalkpleasantly。Letustalkofeachother:whyshouldwewearthismask?Letusbeconfidential。Whoknows,wemightbecomefriends?’

’Ihavejustonewordtosaytoyou,’saidthedealer。’Eithermakeyourpurchase,orwalkoutofmyshop!’

’Truetrue,’saidMarkheim。’Enough,fooling。Tobusiness。Showmesomethingelse。’

Thedealerstoopedoncemore,thistimetoreplacetheglassupontheshelf,histhinblondhairfallingoverhiseyesashedidso。

Markheimmovedalittlenearer,withonehandinthepocketofhisgreatcoat。hedrewhimselfupandfilledhislungs。atthesametimemanydifferentemotionsweredepictedtogetheronhisface-

terror,horror,andresolve,fascinationandaphysicalrepulsion。

andthroughahaggardliftofhisupperlip,histeethlookedout。

’This,perhaps,maysuit,’observedthedealer:andthen,ashebegantore-arise,Markheimboundedfrombehinduponhisvictim。

Thelong,skewerlikedaggerflashedandfell。Thedealerstruggledlikeahen,strikinghistempleontheshelf,andthentumbledonthefloorinaheap。

Timehadsomescoreofsmallvoicesinthatshop,somestatelyandslowaswasbecomingtotheirgreatage。othersgarrulousandhurried。Allthesetoldoutthesecondsinanintricate,chorusoftickings。Thenthepassageofalad’sfeet,heavilyrunningonthepavement,brokeinuponthesesmallervoicesandstartledMarkheimintotheconsciousnessofhissurroundings。Helookedabouthimawfully。Thecandlestoodonthecounter,itsflamesolemnlywagginginadraught。andbythatinconsiderablemovement,thewholeroomwasfilledwithnoiselessbustleandkeptheavinglikeasea:thetallshadowsnodding,thegrossblotsofdarknessswellinganddwindlingaswithrespiration,thefacesoftheportraitsandthechinagodschangingandwaveringlikeimagesinwater。Theinnerdoorstoodajar,andpeeredintothatleaguerofshadowswithalongslitofdaylightlikeapointingfinger。

Fromthesefear-strickenrovings,Markheim’seyesreturnedtothebodyofhisvictim,whereitlaybothhumpedandsprawling,incrediblysmallandstrangelymeanerthaninlife。Inthesepoor,miserlyclothes,inthatungainlyattitude,thedealerlaylikesomuchsawdust。Markheimhadfearedtoseeit,and,lo!itwasnothing。Andyet,ashegazed,thisbundleofoldclothesandpoolofbloodbegantofindeloquentvoices。Thereitmustlie。therewasnonetoworkthecunninghingesordirectthemiracleoflocomotion-thereitmustlietillitwasfound。Found!ay,andthen?ThenwouldthisdeadfleshliftupacrythatwouldringoverEngland,andfilltheworldwiththeechoesofpursuit。Ay,deadornot,thiswasstilltheenemy。’Timewasthatwhenthebrainswereout,’hethought。andthefirstwordstruckintohismind。Time,nowthatthedeedwasaccomplished-time,whichhadclosedforthevictim,hadbecomeinstantandmomentousfortheslayer。

Thethoughtwasyetinhismind,when,firstoneandthenanother,witheveryvarietyofpaceandvoice-onedeepasthebellfromacathedralturret,anotherringingonitstreblenotesthepreludeofawaltz-theclocksbegantostrikethehourofthreeintheafternoon。

Thesuddenoutbreakofsomanytonguesinthatdumbchamberstaggeredhim。Hebegantobestirhimself,goingtoandfrowiththecandle,beleagueredbymovingshadows,andstartledtothesoulbychancereflections。Inmanyrichmirrors,someofhomedesign,somefromVeniceorAmsterdam,hesawhisfacerepeatedandrepeated,asitwereanarmyofspies。hisowneyesmetanddetectedhim。andthesoundofhisownsteps,lightlyastheyfell,vexedthesurroundingquiet。Andstill,ashecontinuedtofillhispockets,hismindaccusedhimwithasickeningiteration,ofthethousandfaultsofhisdesign。Heshouldhavechosenamorequiethour。heshouldhavepreparedanalibi。heshouldnothaveusedaknife。heshouldhavebeenmorecautious,andonlyboundandgaggedthedealer,andnotkilledhim。heshouldhavebeenmorebold,andkilledtheservantalso。heshouldhavedoneallthingsotherwise:poignantregrets,weary,incessanttoilingofthemindtochangewhatwasunchangeable,toplanwhatwasnowuseless,tobethearchitectoftheirrevocablepast。Meanwhile,andbehindallthisactivity,bruteterrors,likethescurryingofratsinadesertedattic,filledthemoreremotechambersofhisbrainwithriot。thehandoftheconstablewouldfallheavyonhisshoulder,andhisnerveswouldjerklikeahookedfish。orhebeheld,ingallopingdefile,thedock,theprison,thegallows,andtheblackcoffin。

Terrorofthepeopleinthestreetsatdownbeforehismindlikeabesiegingarmy。Itwasimpossible,hethought,butthatsomerumourofthestrugglemusthavereachedtheirearsandsetonedgetheircuriosity。andnow,inalltheneighbouringhouses,hedivinedthemsittingmotionlessandwithupliftedear-solitarypeople,condemnedtospendChristmasdwellingaloneonmemoriesofthepast,andnowstartinglyrecalledfromthattenderexercise。

happyfamilypartiesstruckintosilenceroundthetable,themotherstillwithraisedfinger:everydegreeandageandhumour,butall,bytheirownhearths,pryingandhearkeningandweavingtheropethatwastohanghim。Sometimesitseemedtohimhecouldnotmovetoosoftly。theclinkofthetallBohemiangobletsrangoutloudlylikeabell。andalarmedbythebignessoftheticking,hewastemptedtostoptheclocks。Andthen,again,withaswifttransitionofhisterrors,theverysilenceoftheplaceappearedasourceofperil,andathingtostrikeandfreezethepasser-by。

andhewouldstepmoreboldly,andbustlealoudamongthecontentsoftheshop,andimitate,withelaboratebravado,themovementsofabusymanateaseinhisownhouse。

Buthewasnowsopulledaboutbydifferentalarmsthat,whileoneportionofhismindwasstillalertandcunning,anothertrembledonthebrinkoflunacy。Onehallucinationinparticulartookastrongholdonhiscredulity。Theneighbourhearkeningwithwhitefacebesidehiswindow,thepasser-byarrestedbyahorriblesurmiseonthepavement-thesecouldatworstsuspect,theycouldnotknow。throughthebrickwallsandshutteredwindowsonlysoundscouldpenetrate。Buthere,withinthehouse,washealone?Heknewhewas。hehadwatchedtheservantsetforthsweet-hearting,inherpoorbest,’outfortheday’writtenineveryribbonandsmile。Yes,hewasalone,ofcourse。andyet,inthebulkofemptyhouseabovehim,hecouldsurelyhearastirofdelicatefooting-

hewassurelyconscious,inexplicablyconsciousofsomepresence。

Ay,surely。toeveryroomandcornerofthehousehisimaginationfollowedit。andnowitwasafacelessthing,andyethadeyestoseewith。andagainitwasashadowofhimself。andyetagainbeholdtheimageofthedeaddealer,reinspiredwithcunningandhatred。

Attimes,withastrongeffort,hewouldglanceattheopendoorwhichstillseemedtorepelhiseyes。Thehousewastall,theskylightsmallanddirty,thedayblindwithfog。andthelightthatfiltereddowntothegroundstorywasexceedinglyfaint,andshoweddimlyonthethresholdoftheshop。Andyet,inthatstripofdoubtfulbrightness,didtherenothangwaveringashadow?

Suddenly,fromthestreetoutside,averyjovialgentlemanbegantobeatwithastaffontheshop-door,accompanyinghisblowswithshoutsandrailleriesinwhichthedealerwascontinuallycalleduponbyname。Markheim,smittenintoice,glancedatthedeadman。

Butno!helayquitestill。hewasfledawayfarbeyondearshotoftheseblowsandshoutings。hewassunkbeneathseasofsilence。andhisname,whichwouldoncehavecaughthisnoticeabovethehowlingofastorm,hadbecomeanemptysound。Andpresentlythejovialgentlemandesistedfromhisknocking,anddeparted。

Herewasabroadhinttohurrywhatremainedtobedone,togetforthfromthisaccusingneighbourhood,toplungeintoabathofLondonmultitudes,andtoreach,ontheothersideofday,thathavenofsafetyandapparentinnocence-hisbed。Onevisitorhadcome:atanymomentanothermightfollowandbemoreobstinate。Tohavedonethedeed,andyetnottoreaptheprofit,wouldbetooabhorrentafailure。Themoney,thatwasnowMarkheim’sconcern。

andasameanstothat,thekeys。

Heglancedoverhisshoulderattheopendoor,wheretheshadowwasstilllingeringandshivering。andwithnoconsciousrepugnanceofthemind,yetwithatremorofthebelly,hedrewnearthebodyofhisvictim。Thehumancharacterhadquitedeparted。Likeasuithalf-stuffedwithbran,thelimbslayscattered,thetrunkdoubled,onthefloor。andyetthethingrepelledhim。Althoughsodingyandinconsiderabletotheeye,hefeareditmighthavemoresignificancetothetouch。Hetookthebodybytheshoulders,andturneditonitsback。Itwasstrangelylightandsupple,andthelimbs,asiftheyhadbeenbroken,fellintotheoddestpostures。

Thefacewasrobbedofallexpression。butitwasaspaleaswax,andshockinglysmearedwithbloodaboutonetemple。Thatwas,forMarkheim,theonedispleasingcircumstance。Itcarriedhimback,upontheinstant,toacertainfair-dayinafishers’village:agrayday,apipingwind,acrowduponthestreet,theblareofbrasses,theboomingofdrums,thenasalvoiceofaballadsinger。

andaboygoingtoandfro,buriedoverheadinthecrowdanddividedbetweeninterestandfear,until,comingoutuponthechiefplaceofconcourse,hebeheldaboothandagreatscreenwithpictures,dismallydesigned,garishlycoloured:Brown-riggwithherapprentice。theManningswiththeirmurderedguest。Weareinthedeath-gripofThurtell。andascorebesidesoffamouscrimes。Thethingwasasclearasanillusion。hewasonceagainthatlittleboy。hewaslookingonceagain,andwiththesamesenseofphysicalrevolt,atthesevilepictures。hewasstillstunnedbythethumpingofthedrums。Abarofthatday’smusicreturneduponhismemory。andatthat,forthefirsttime,aqualmcameoverhim,abreathofnausea,asuddenweaknessofthejoints,whichhemustinstantlyresistandconquer。

Hejudgeditmoreprudenttoconfrontthantofleefromtheseconsiderations。lookingthemorehardilyinthedeadface,bendinghismindtorealisethenatureandgreatnessofhiscrime。Solittleawhileagothatfacehadmovedwitheverychangeofsentiment,thatpalemouthhadspoken,thatbodyhadbeenallonfirewithgovernableenergies。andnow,andbyhisact,thatpieceoflifehadbeenarrested,asthehorologist,withinterjectedfinger,arreststhebeatingoftheclock。Sohereasonedinvain。

hecouldrisetonomoreremorsefulconsciousness。thesameheartwhichhadshudderedbeforethepaintedeffigiesofcrime,lookedonitsrealityunmoved。Atbest,hefeltagleamofpityforonewhohadbeenendowedinvainwithallthosefacultiesthatcanmaketheworldagardenofenchantment,onewhohadneverlivedandwhowasnowdead。Butofpenitence,no,notatremor。

Withthat,shakinghimselfclearoftheseconsiderations,hefoundthekeysandadvancedtowardstheopendooroftheshop。Outside,ithadbeguntorainsmartly。andthesoundoftheshowerupontheroofhadbanishedsilence。Likesomedrippingcavern,thechambersofthehousewerehauntedbyanincessantechoing,whichfilledtheearandmingledwiththetickingoftheclocks。And,asMarkheimapproachedthedoor,heseemedtohear,inanswertohisowncautioustread,thestepsofanotherfootwithdrawingupthestair。

Theshadowstillpalpitatedlooselyonthethreshold。Hethrewaton’sweightofresolveuponhismuscles,anddrewbackthedoor。

Thefaint,foggydaylightglimmereddimlyonthebarefloorandstairs。onthebrightsuitofarmourposted,halbertinhand,uponthelanding。andonthedarkwood-carvings,andframedpicturesthathungagainsttheyellowpanelsofthewainscot。Soloudwasthebeatingoftherainthroughallthehousethat,inMarkheim’sears,itbegantobedistinguishedintomanydifferentsounds。

Footstepsandsighs,thetreadofregimentsmarchinginthedistance,thechinkofmoneyinthecounting,andthecreakingofdoorsheldstealthilyajar,appearedtominglewiththepatterofthedropsuponthecupolaandthegushingofthewaterinthepipes。Thesensethathewasnotalonegrewuponhimtothevergeofmadness。Oneverysidehewashauntedandbegirtbypresences。

Heheardthemmovingintheupperchambers。fromtheshop,heheardthedeadmangettingtohislegs。andashebeganwithagreatefforttomountthestairs,feetfledquietlybeforehimandfollowedstealthilybehind。Ifhewerebutdeaf,hethought,howtranquillyhewouldpossesshissoul!Andthenagain,andhearkeningwitheverfreshattention,heblessedhimselfforthatunrestingsensewhichheldtheoutpostsandstoodatrustysentineluponhislife。Hisheadturnedcontinuallyonhisneck。hiseyes,whichseemedstartingfromtheirorbits,scoutedoneveryside,andoneverysidewerehalf-rewardedaswiththetailofsomethingnamelessvanishing。Thefour-and-twentystepstothefirstfloorwerefour-and-twentyagonies。

Onthatfirststorey,thedoorsstoodajar,threeofthemlikethreeambushes,shakinghisnerveslikethethroatsofcannon。Hecouldneveragain,hefelt,besufficientlyimmuredandfortifiedfrommen’sobservingeyes,helongedtobehome,girtinbywalls,buriedamongbedclothes,andinvisibletoallbutGod。Andatthatthoughthewonderedalittle,recollectingtalesofothermurderersandthefeartheyweresaidtoentertainofheavenlyavengers。Itwasnotso,atleast,withhim。Hefearedthelawsofnature,lest,intheircallousandimmutableprocedure,theyshouldpreservesomedamningevidenceofhiscrime。Hefearedtenfoldmore,withaslavish,superstitionsterror,somescissioninthecontinuityofman’sexperience,somewilfulillegalityofnature。

Heplayedagameofskill,dependingontherules,calculatingconsequencefromcause。andwhatifnature,asthedefeatedtyrantoverthrewthechess-board,shouldbreakthemouldoftheirsuccession?ThelikehadbefallenNapoleon(sowriterssaid)whenthewinterchangedthetimeofitsappearance。ThelikemightbefallMarkheim:thesolidwallsmightbecometransparentandrevealhisdoingslikethoseofbeesinaglasshive。thestoutplanksmightyieldunderhisfootlikequicksandsanddetainhimintheirclutch。ay,andthereweresobereraccidentsthatmightdestroyhim:if,forinstance,thehouseshouldfallandimprisonhimbesidethebodyofhisvictim。orthehousenextdoorshouldflyonfire,andthefiremeninvadehimfromallsides。Thesethingshefeared。and,inasense,thesethingsmightbecalledthehandsofGodreachedforthagainstsin。ButaboutGodhimselfhewasatease。hisactwasdoubtlessexceptional,butsowerehisexcuses,whichGodknew。itwasthere,andnotamongmen,thathefeltsureofjustice。

Whenhehadgotsafeintothedrawing-room,andshutthedoorbehindhim,hewasawareofarespitefromalarms。Theroomwasquitedismantled,uncarpetedbesides,andstrewnwithpackingcasesandincongruousfurniture。severalgreatpier-glasses,inwhichhebeheldhimselfatvariousangles,likeanactoronastage。manypictures,framedandunframed,standing,withtheirfacestothewall。afineSheratonsideboard,acabinetofmarquetry,andagreatoldbed,withtapestryhangings。Thewindowsopenedtothefloor。butbygreatgoodfortunethelowerpartoftheshuttershadbeenclosed,andthisconcealedhimfromtheneighbours。Here,then,Markheimdrewinapackingcasebeforethecabinet,andbegantosearchamongthekeys。Itwasalongbusiness,forthereweremany。anditwasirksome,besides。for,afterall,theremightbenothinginthecabinet,andtimewasonthewing。Buttheclosenessoftheoccupationsoberedhim。Withthetailofhiseyehesawthedoor-evenglancedatitfromtimetotimedirectly,likeabesiegedcommanderpleasedtoverifythegoodestateofhisdefences。Butintruthhewasatpeace。Therainfallinginthestreetsoundednaturalandpleasant。Presently,ontheotherside,thenotesofapianowerewakenedtothemusicofahymn,andthevoicesofmanychildrentookuptheairandwords。Howstately,howcomfortablewasthemelody!Howfreshtheyouthfulvoices!

Markheimgaveeartoitsmilingly,ashesortedoutthekeys。andhismindwasthrongedwithanswerableideasandimages。church-

goingchildrenandthepealingofthehighorgan。childrenafield,bathersbythebrookside,ramblersonthebramblycommon,kite-

flyersinthewindyandcloud-navigatedsky。andthen,atanothercadenceofthehymn,backagaintochurch,andthesomnolenceofsummerSundays,andthehighgenteelvoiceoftheparson(whichhesmiledalittletorecall)andthepaintedJacobeantombs,andthedimletteringoftheTenCommandmentsinthechancel。

Andashesatthus,atoncebusyandabsent,hewasstartledtohisfeet。Aflashofice,aflashoffire,aburstinggushofblood,wentoverhim,andthenhestoodtransfixedandthrilling。Astepmountedthestairslowlyandsteadily,andpresentlyahandwaslaidupontheknob,andthelockclicked,andthedooropened。

FearheldMarkheiminavice。Whattoexpectheknewnot,whetherthedeadmanwalking,ortheofficialministersofhumanjustice,orsomechancewitnessblindlystumblingintoconsignhimtothegallows。Butwhenafacewasthrustintotheaperture,glancedroundtheroom,lookedathim,noddedandsmiledasifinfriendlyrecognition,andthenwithdrewagain,andthedoorclosedbehindit,hisfearbrokeloosefromhiscontrolinahoarsecry。Atthesoundofthisthevisitantreturned。

’Didyoucallme?’heasked,pleasantly,andwiththatheenteredtheroomandclosedthedoorbehindhim。

Markheimstoodandgazedathimwithallhiseyes。Perhapstherewasafilmuponhissight,buttheoutlinesofthenewcomerseemedtochangeandwaverlikethoseoftheidolsinthewaveringcandle-

lightoftheshop。andattimeshethoughtheknewhim。andattimeshethoughtheborealikenesstohimself。andalways,likealumpoflivingterror,therelayinhisbosomtheconvictionthatthisthingwasnotoftheearthandnotofGod。

Andyetthecreaturehadastrangeairofthecommonplace,ashestoodlookingonMarkheimwithasmile。andwhenheadded:’Youarelookingforthemoney,Ibelieve?’itwasinthetonesofeverydaypoliteness。

Markheimmadenoanswer。

’Ishouldwarnyou,’resumedtheother,’thatthemaidhaslefthersweetheartearlierthanusualandwillsoonbehere。IfMr。

Markheimbefoundinthishouse,Ineednotdescribetohimtheconsequences。’

’Youknowme?’criedthemurderer。

Thevisitorsmiled。’Youhavelongbeenafavouriteofmine,’hesaid。’andIhavelongobservedandoftensoughttohelpyou。’

’Whatareyou?’criedMarkheim:’thedevil?’

’WhatImaybe,’returnedtheother,’cannotaffecttheserviceI

proposetorenderyou。’

’Itcan,’criedMarkheim。’itdoes!Behelpedbyyou?No,never。

notbyyou!Youdonotknowmeyet。thankGod,youdonotknowme!’

’Iknowyou,’repliedthevisitant,withasortofkindseverityorratherfirmness。’Iknowyoutothesoul。’

’Knowme!’criedMarkheim。’Whocandoso?Mylifeisbutatravestyandslanderonmyself。Ihavelivedtobeliemynature。

Allmendo。allmenarebetterthanthisdisguisethatgrowsaboutandstiflesthem。Youseeeachdraggedawaybylife,likeonewhombravoshaveseizedandmuffledinacloak。Iftheyhadtheirowncontrol-ifyoucouldseetheirfaces,theywouldbealtogetherdifferent,theywouldshineoutforheroesandsaints!Iamworsethanmost。myselfismoreoverlaid。myexcuseisknowntomeandGod。But,hadIthetime,Icoulddisclosemyself。’

’Tome?’inquiredthevisitant。

’Toyoubeforeall,’returnedthemurderer。’Isupposedyouwereintelligent。Ithought-sinceyouexist-youwouldproveareaderoftheheart。Andyetyouwouldproposetojudgemebymyacts!Thinkofit。myacts!IwasbornandIhavelivedinalandofgiants。giantshavedraggedmebythewristssinceIwasbornoutofmymother-thegiantsofcircumstance。Andyouwouldjudgemebymyacts!Butcanyounotlookwithin?Canyounotunderstandthatevilishatefultome?Canyounotseewithinmetheclearwritingofconscience,neverblurredbyanywilfulsophistry,althoughtoooftendisregarded?Canyounotreadmeforathingthatsurelymustbecommonashumanity-theunwillingsinner?’

’Allthisisveryfeelinglyexpressed,’wasthereply,’butitregardsmenot。Thesepointsofconsistencyarebeyondmyprovince,andIcarenotintheleastbywhatcompulsionyoumayhavebeendraggedaway,soasyouarebutcarriedintherightdirection。Buttimeflies。theservantdelays,lookinginthefacesofthecrowdandatthepicturesonthehoardings,butstillshekeepsmovingnearer。andremember,itisasifthegallowsitselfwasstridingtowardsyouthroughtheChristmasstreets!

ShallIhelpyou。I,whoknowall?ShallItellyouwheretofindthemoney?’

’Forwhatprice?’askedMarkheim。

’IofferyoutheserviceforaChristmasgift,’returnedtheother。

Markheimcouldnotrefrainfromsmilingwithakindofbittertriumph。’No,’saidhe,’Iwilltakenothingatyourhands。ifI

weredyingofthirst,anditwasyourhandthatputthepitchertomylips,Ishouldfindthecouragetorefuse。Itmaybecredulous,butIwilldonothingtocommitmyselftoevil。’

’Ihavenoobjectiontoadeath-bedrepentance,’observedthevisitant。

’Becauseyoudisbelievetheirefficacy!’Markheimcried。

’Idonotsayso,’returnedtheother。’butIlookonthesethingsfromadifferentside,andwhenthelifeisdonemyinterestfalls。

Themanhaslivedtoserveme,tospreadblacklooksundercolourofreligion,ortosowtaresinthewheat-field,asyoudo,inacourseofweakcompliancewithdesire。Nowthathedrawssoneartohisdeliverance,hecanaddbutoneactofservice-torepent,todiesmiling,andthustobuildupinconfidenceandhopethemoretimorousofmysurvivingfollowers。Iamnotsohardamaster。Tryme。Acceptmyhelp。Pleaseyourselfinlifeasyouhavedonehitherto。pleaseyourselfmoreamply,spreadyourelbowsattheboard。andwhenthenightbeginstofallandthecurtainstobedrawn,Itellyou,foryourgreatercomfort,thatyouwillfinditeveneasytocompoundyourquarrelwithyourconscience,andtomakeatrucklingpeacewithGod。Icamebutnowfromsuchadeathbed,andtheroomwasfullofsinceremourners,listeningtotheman’slastwords:andwhenIlookedintothatface,whichhadbeensetasaflintagainstmercy,Ifounditsmilingwithhope。’

’Anddoyou,then,supposemesuchacreature?’askedMarkheim。

’DoyouthinkIhavenomoregenerousaspirationsthantosin,andsin,andsin,and,atthelast,sneakintoheaven?Myheartrisesatthethought。Isthis,then,yourexperienceofmankind?orisitbecauseyoufindmewithredhandsthatyoupresumesuchbaseness?andisthiscrimeofmurderindeedsoimpiousastodryuptheveryspringsofgood?’

’Murderistomenospecialcategory,’repliedtheother。’Allsinsaremurder,evenasalllifeiswar。Ibeholdyourrace,likestarvingmarinersonaraft,pluckingcrustsoutofthehandsoffamineandfeedingoneachother’slives。Ifollowsinsbeyondthemomentoftheiracting。Ifindinallthatthelastconsequenceisdeath。andtomyeyes,theprettymaidwhothwartshermotherwithsuchtakinggracesonaquestionofaball,dripsnolessvisiblywithhumangorethansuchamurdererasyourself。DoIsaythatI

followsins?Ifollowvirtuesalso。theydiffernotbythethicknessofanail,theyarebothscythesforthereapingangelofDeath。Evil,forwhichIlive,consistsnotinactionbutincharacter。Thebadmanisdeartome。notthebadact,whosefruits,ifwecouldfollowthemfarenoughdownthehurtlingcataractoftheages,mightyetbefoundmoreblessedthanthoseoftherarestvirtues。Anditisnotbecauseyouhavekilledadealer,butbecauseyouareMarkheim,thatIoffertoforwardyourescape。’

’Iwilllaymyheartopentoyou,’answeredMarkheim。’Thiscrimeonwhichyoufindmeismylast。OnmywaytoitIhavelearnedmanylessons。itselfisalesson,amomentouslesson。HithertoI

havebeendrivenwithrevolttowhatIwouldnot。Iwasabond-

slavetopoverty,drivenandscourged。Therearerobustvirtuesthatcanstandinthesetemptations。minewasnotso:Ihadathirstofpleasure。Butto-day,andoutofthisdeed,Ipluckbothwarningandriches-boththepowerandafreshresolvetobemyself。Ibecomeinallthingsafreeactorintheworld。Ibegintoseemyselfallchanged,thesehandstheagentsofgood,thisheartatpeace。Somethingcomesovermeoutofthepast。somethingofwhatIhavedreamedonSabbatheveningstothesoundofthechurchorgan,ofwhatIforecastwhenIshedtearsovernoblebooks,ortalked,aninnocentchild,withmymother。Thereliesmylife。Ihavewanderedafewyears,butnowIseeoncemoremycityofdestination。’

’YouaretousethismoneyontheStockExchange,Ithink?’

remarkedthevisitor。’andthere,ifImistakenot,youhavealreadylostsomethousands?’

’Ah,’saidMarkheim,’butthistimeIhaveasurething。’

’Thistime,again,youwilllose,’repliedthevisitorquietly。

’Ah,butIkeepbackthehalf!’criedMarkheim。

’Thatalsoyouwilllose,’saidtheother。

ThesweatstarteduponMarkheim’sbrow。’Well,then,whatmatter?’

heexclaimed。’Sayitbelost,sayIamplungedagaininpoverty,shallonepartofme,andthattheworse,continueuntiltheendtooverridethebetter?Evilandgoodrunstronginme,halingmebothways。Idonotlovetheonething,Iloveall。Icanconceivegreatdeeds,renunciations,martyrdoms。andthoughIbefallentosuchacrimeasmurder,pityisnostrangertomythoughts。Ipitythepoor。whoknowstheirtrialsbetterthanmyself?Ipityandhelpthem。Iprizelove,Ilovehonestlaughter。thereisnogoodthingnortruethingonearthbutIloveitfrommyheart。Andaremyvicesonlytodirectmylife,andmyvirtuestoliewithouteffect,likesomepassivelumberofthemind?Notso。good,also,isaspringofacts。’

Butthevisitantraisedhisfinger。’Forsix-and-thirtyyearsthatyouhavebeeninthisworld,’saidbe,’throughmanychangesoffortuneandvarietiesofhumour,Ihavewatchedyousteadilyfall。

Fifteenyearsagoyouwouldhavestartedatatheft。Threeyearsbackyouwouldhaveblenchedatthenameofmurder。Isthereanycrime,isthereanycrueltyormeanness,fromwhichyoustillrecoil?-fiveyearsfromnowIshalldetectyouinthefact!

Downward,downward,liesyourway。norcananythingbutdeathavailtostopyou。’

’Itistrue,’Markheimsaidhuskily,’Ihaveinsomedegreecompliedwithevil。Butitissowithall:theverysaints,inthemereexerciseofliving,growlessdainty,andtakeonthetoneoftheirsurroundings。’

’Iwillpropoundtoyouonesimplequestion,’saidtheother。’andasyouanswer,Ishallreadtoyouyourmoralhoroscope。Youhavegrowninmanythingsmorelax。possiblyyoudorighttobeso-andatanyaccount,itisthesamewithallmen。Butgrantingthat,areyouinanyoneparticular,howevertrifling,moredifficulttopleasewithyourownconduct,ordoyougoinallthingswithalooserrein?’

’Inanyone?’repeatedMarkheim,withananguishofconsideration。

’No,’headded,withdespair,’innone!Ihavegonedowninall。’

’Then,’saidthevisitor,’contentyourselfwithwhatyouare,foryouwillneverchange。andthewordsofyourpartonthisstageareirrevocablywrittendown。’

Markheimstoodforalongwhilesilent,andindeeditwasthevisitorwhofirstbrokethesilence。’Thatbeingso,’hesaid,’shallIshowyouthemoney?’

’Andgrace?’criedMarkheim。

’Haveyounottriedit?’returnedtheother。’Twoorthreeyearsago,didInotseeyouontheplatformofrevivalmeetings,andwasnotyourvoicetheloudestinthehymn?’

’Itistrue,’saidMarkheim。’andIseeclearlywhatremainsformebywayofduty。Ithankyoufortheselessonsfrommysoul。myeyesareopened,andIbeholdmyselfatlastforwhatIam。’

Atthismoment,thesharpnoteofthedoor-bellrangthroughthehouse。andthevisitant,asthoughthisweresomeconcertedsignalforwhichhehadbeenwaiting,changedatonceinhisdemeanour。

’Themaid!’hecried。’Shehasreturned,asIforewarnedyou,andthereisnowbeforeyouonemoredifficultpassage。Hermaster,youmustsay,isill。youmustletherin,withanassuredbutratherseriouscountenance-nosmiles,nooveracting,andI

promiseyousuccess!Oncethegirlwithin,andthedoorclosed,thesamedexteritythathasalreadyridyouofthedealerwillrelieveyouofthislastdangerinyourpath。Thenceforwardyouhavethewholeevening-thewholenight,ifneedful-toransackthetreasuresofthehouseandtomakegoodyoursafety。Thisishelpthatcomestoyouwiththemaskofdanger。Up!’hecried。

’up,friend。yourlifehangstremblinginthescales:up,andact!’

Markheimsteadilyregardedhiscounsellor。’IfIbecondemnedtoevilacts,’hesaid,’thereisstillonedooroffreedomopen-I

canceasefromaction。Ifmylifebeanillthing,Icanlayitdown。ThoughIbe,asyousaytruly,atthebeckofeverysmalltemptation,Icanyet,byonedecisivegesture,placemyselfbeyondthereachofall。Myloveofgoodisdamnedtobarrenness。itmay,andletitbe!ButIhavestillmyhatredofevil。andfromthat,toyourgallingdisappointment,youshallseethatIcandrawbothenergyandcourage。’

Thefeaturesofthevisitorbegantoundergoawonderfulandlovelychange:theybrightenedandsoftenedwithatendertriumph,and,evenastheybrightened,fadedanddislimned。ButMarkheimdidnotpausetowatchorunderstandthetransformation。Heopenedthedoorandwentdownstairsveryslowly,thinkingtohimself。Hispastwentsoberlybeforehim。hebehelditasitwas,uglyandstrenuouslikeadream,randomaschance-medley-asceneofdefeat。Life,ashethusreviewedit,temptedhimnolonger。butonthefurthersideheperceivedaquiethavenforhisbark。Hepausedinthepassage,andlookedintotheshop,wherethecandlestillburnedbythedeadbody。Itwasstrangelysilent。Thoughtsofthedealerswarmedintohismind,ashestoodgazing。Andthenthebelloncemorebrokeoutintoimpatientclamour。

Heconfrontedthemaiduponthethresholdwithsomethinglikeasmile。

’Youhadbettergoforthepolice,’saidhe:’Ihavekilledyourmaster。’

THRAWNJANET

THEReverendMurdochSouliswaslongministerofthemoorlandparishofBalweary,inthevaleofDule。Asevere,bleak-facedoldman,dreadfultohishearers,hedweltinthelastyearsofhislife,withoutrelativeorservantoranyhumancompany,inthesmallandlonelymanseundertheHangingShaw。Inspiteoftheironcomposureofhisfeatures,hiseyewaswild,scared,anduncertain。andwhenhedwelt,inprivateadmonitions,onthefutureoftheimpenitent,itseemedasifhiseyepiercedthroughthestormsoftimetotheterrorsofeternity。Manyyoungpersons,comingtopreparethemselvesagainsttheseasonoftheHolyCommunion,weredreadfullyaffectedbyhistalk。HehadasermononlstPeter,v。and8th,’Thedevilasaroaringlion,’ontheSundayaftereveryseventeenthofAugust,andhewasaccustomedtosurpasshimselfuponthattextbothbytheappallingnatureofthematterandtheterrorofhisbearinginthepulpit。Thechildrenwerefrightenedintofits,andtheoldlookedmorethanusuallyoracular,andwere,allthatday,fullofthosehintsthatHamletdeprecated。Themanseitself,whereitstoodbythewaterofDuleamongsomethicktrees,withtheShawoverhangingitontheoneside,andontheothermanycold,moorishhilltopsrisingtowardsthesky,hadbegun,ataveryearlyperiodofMr。Soulis’sministry,tobeavoidedintheduskhoursbyallwhovaluedthemselvesupontheirprudence。andguidmensittingattheclachanalehouseshooktheirheadstogetheratthethoughtofpassinglatebythatuncannyneighbourhood。Therewasonespot,tobemoreparticular,whichwasregardedwithespecialawe。ThemansestoodbetweenthehighroadandthewaterofDule,withagabletoeach。

itsbackwastowardsthekirk-townofBalweary,nearlyhalfamileaway。infrontofit,abaregarden,hedgedwiththorn,occupiedthelandbetweentheriverandtheroad。Thehousewastwostorieshigh,withtwolargeroomsoneach。Itopenednotdirectlyonthegarden,butonacausewayedpath,orpassage,givingontheroadontheonehand,andclosedontheotherbythetallwillowsandeldersthatborderedonthestream。AnditwasthisstripofcausewaythatenjoyedamongtheyoungparishionersofBalwearysoinfamousareputation。Theministerwalkedthereoftenafterdark,sometimesgroaningaloudintheinstancyofhisunspokenprayers。

andwhenhewasfromhome,andthemansedoorwaslocked,themoredaringschoolboysventured,withbeatinghearts,to’followmyleader’acrossthatlegendaryspot。

Thisatmosphereofterror,surrounding,asitdid,amanofGodofspotlesscharacterandorthodoxy,wasacommoncauseofwonderandsubjectofinquiryamongthefewstrangerswhowereledbychanceorbusinessintothatunknown,outlyingcountry。ButmanyevenofthepeopleoftheparishwereignorantofthestrangeeventswhichhadmarkedthefirstyearofMr。Soulis’sministrations。andamongthosewhowerebetterinformed,somewerenaturallyreticent,andothersshyofthatparticulartopic。Nowandagain,only,oneoftheolderfolkwouldwarmintocourageoverhisthirdtumbler,andrecountthecauseoftheminister’sstrangelooksandsolitarylife。

Fiftyyearssyne,whenMr。SouliscamfirstintoBa’weary,hewasstillayoungman-acallant,thefolksaid-fu’o’booklearnin’

andgrandattheexposition,but,aswasnaturalinsaeyoungaman,wi’naeleevin’experienceinreligion。Theyoungersortweregreatlytakenwi’hisgiftsandhisgab。butauld,concerned,seriousmenandwomenweremovedeventoprayerfortheyoungman,whomtheytooktobeaself-deceiver,andtheparishthatwasliketobesaeill-supplied。Itwasbeforethedayso’themoderates-

wearyfa’them。butillthingsarelikeguid-theybaithcomebitbybit,apickleatatime。andtherewerefolkeventhenthatsaidtheLordhadleftthecollegeprofessorstotheiraindevices,an’

theladsthatwenttostudywi’themwadhaedonemairandbettersittin’inapeat-bog,liketheirforbearsofthepersecution,wi’

aBibleundertheiroxterandaspeerito’prayerintheirheart。

Therewasnaedoubt,onyway,butthatMr。Soulishadbeenowerlangatthecollege。Hewascarefulandtroubledformonythingsbesidestheaethingneedful。Hehadafecko’bookswi’him-

mairthanhadeverbeenseenbeforeina’thatpresbytery。andasairwarkthecarrierhadwi’them,fortheywerea’liketohavesmooredintheDeil’sHagbetweenthisandKilmackerlie。Theywerebookso’divinity,tobesure,orsotheyca’dthem。buttheseriouswereo’opiniontherewaslittleserviceforsaemony,whenthehailo’God’sWordwouldgangintheneukofaplaid。Thenhewadsithalfthedayandhalfthenichtforbye,whichwasscantdecent-writin’,naeless。andfirst,theywerefearedhewadreadhissermons。andsyneitprovedhewaswritin’abookhimsel’,whichwassurelynofittin’foraneofhisyearsan’sma’

experience。

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