Awakening and To Let

第21章

"TheysayTimothy’ssinking;"hesaidglumly。

"Wherewillyouputhim,Soames?"

"Highgate。"Hecountedonhisfingers。"It’llmaketwelveofthemthere,includingwives。HowdoyouthinkFleurlooks?"

"Remarkablywell。"

Soamesnodded。Hehadneverseenherlookprettier,yethecouldnotridhimselfoftheimpressionthatthisbusinesswasunnatural——

rememberingstillthatcrushedfigureburrowingintothecornerofthesofa。Fromthatnighttothisdayhehadreceivedfromhernoconfidences。HeknewfromhischauffeurthatshehadmadeonemoreattemptonRobinHillanddrawnblank——anemptyhouse,nooneathome。Heknewthatshehadreceivedaletter,butnotwhatwasinit,exceptthatithadmadeherhideherselfandcry。Hehadremarkedthatshelookedathimsometimeswhenshethoughthewasn’tnoticing,asifshewerewonderingstillwhathehaddone——forsooth——

tomakethosepeoplehatehimso。Well,thereitwas!Annettehadcomeback,andthingshadwornonthroughthesummer——verymiserable,tillsuddenlyFleurhadsaidshewasgoingtomarryyoungMont。Shehadshownhimalittlemoreaffectionwhenshetoldhimthat。Andhehadyielded——whatwasthegoodofopposingit?Godknewthathehadneverwishedtothwartherinanything!Andtheyoungmanseemedquitedeliriousabouther。Nodoubtshewasinarecklessmood,andshewasyoung,absurdlyyoung。Butifheopposedher,hedidn’tknowwhatshewoulddo;forallhecouldtellshemightwanttotakeupaprofession,becomeadoctororsolicitor,somenonsense。Shehadnoaptitudeforpainting,writing,music,inhisviewthelegitimateoccupationsofunmarriedwomen,iftheymustdosomethinginthesedays。Onthewhole,shewassafermarried,forhecouldseetoowellhowfeverishandrestlessshewasathome。Annette,too,hadbeeninfavourofit——Annette,frombehindtheveilofhisrefusaltoknowwhatshewasabout,ifshewasaboutanything。Annettehadsaid:

"Lethermarrythisyoungman。Heisaniceboy——notsohighty—

flightyasheseems。"Whereshegotherexpressions,hedidn’tknow—

—butheropinionsoothedhisdoubts。Hiswife,whateverherconduct,hadcleareyesandanalmostdepressingamountofcommonsense。HehadsettledfiftythousandonFleur,takingcarethattherewasnocrosssettlementincaseitdidn’tturnoutwell。Coulditturnoutwell?Shehadnotgotoverthatotherboy——heknew。TheyweretogotoSpainforthehoneymoon。Hewouldbeevenlonelierwhenshewasgone。Butlater,perhaps,shewouldforget,andturntohimagain!

Winifred’svoicebrokeonhisreverie。

"Why!Ofallwonders—June!"

There,inadjibbah——whatthingsshewore!——withherhairstrayingfromunderafillet,Soamessawhiscousin,andFleurgoingforwardtogreether。Thetwopassedfromtheirviewoutontothestairway。

"Really,"saidWinifred,"shedoesthemostimpossiblethings!Fancyhercoming!"

"Whatmadeyouaskher?"mutteredSoames。

"BecauseIthoughtshewouldn’taccept,ofcourse。"

Winifredhadforgottenthatbehindconductliesthemaintrendofcharacter;or,inotherwords,omittedtorememberthatFleurwasnowa"lameduck。"

Onreceivingherinvitation,Junehadfirstthought,’Iwouldn’tgonearthemfortheworld!’andthen,onemorning,hadawakenedfromadreamofFleurwavingtoherfromaboatwithawildunhappygesture。

Andshehadchangedhermind。

WhenFleurcameforwardandsaidtoher,"DocomeupwhileI’mchangingmydress,"shehadfollowedupthestairs。ThegirlledthewayintoImogen’soldbedroom,setreadyforhertoilet。

Junesatdownonthebed,thinandupright,likealittlespiritinthesearandyellow。Fleurlockedthedoor。

Thegirlstoodbeforeherdivestedofherweddingdress。Whataprettythingshewas"Isupposeyouthinkmeafool,"shesaid,withquiveringlips,"whenitwastohavebeenJon。Butwhatdoesitmatter?Michaelwantsme,andIdon’tcare。It’llgetmeawayfromhome。"Divingherhandintothefrillsonherbreast,shebroughtoutaletter。"Jonwrotemethis。"

Juneread:"LakeOkanagen,BritishColumbia。I’mnotcomingbacktoEngland。Blessyoualways。Jon。"

"She’smadesafe,yousee,"saidFleur。

Junehandedbacktheletter。

"That’snotfairtoIrene,"shesaid,"shealwaystoldJonhecoulddoashewished。"

Fleursmiledbitterly。"Tellme,didn’tshespoilyourlifetoo?"

Junelookedup。"Nobodycanspoilalife,mydear。That’snonsense。

Thingshappen,butwebobup。"

Withasortofterrorshesawthegirlsinkonherkneesandburyherfaceinthedjibbah。AstrangledsobmountedtoJune’sears。

"It’sallright——allright,"shemurmured,"Don’t!There,there!"

Butthepointofthegirl’schinwaspressedevercloserintoherthigh,andthesoundwasdreadfulofhersobbing。

Well,well!Ithadtocome。Shewouldfeelbetterafterward!Junestrokedtheshorthairofthatshapelyhead;andallthescatteredmother—senseinherfocusseditselfandpassedthroughthetipsofherfingersintothegirl’sbrain。

"Don’tsitdownunderit,mydear,"shesaidatlast。"Wecan’tcontrollife,butwecanfightit。Makethebestofthings。I’vehadto。Iheldon,likeyou;andIcried,asyou’recryingnow。Andlookatme!"

Fleurraisedherhead;asobmergedsuddenlyintoalittlechokedlaugh。Intruthitwasathinandratherwildandwastedspiritshewaslookingat,butithadbraveeyes。

"Allright!"shesaid。"I’msorry。Ishallforgethim,Isuppose,ifIflyfastandfarenough。"

And,scramblingtoherfeet,shewentovertothewash—stand。

Junewatchedherremovingwithcoldwaterthetracesofemotion。

Saveforalittlebecomingpinknesstherewasnothingleftwhenshestoodbeforethemirror。Junegotoffthebedandtookapin—cushioninherhand。Toputtwopinsintothewrongplaceswasalltheventshefoundforsympathy。

"Givemeakiss,"shesaidwhenFleurwasready,anddugherchinintothegirl’swarmcheek。

"Iwantawhiff,"saidFleur;"don’twait。"

Junelefther,sittingonthebedwithacigarettebetweenherlipsandhereyeshalfclosed,andwentdown—stairs。Inthedoorwayofthedrawing—roomstoodSoamesasifunquietathisdaughter’stardiness。Junetossedherheadandpasseddownontothehalf—

landing。HercousinFranciewasstandingthere。

"Look!"saidJune,pointingwithherchinatSoames。"Thatman’sfatal!"

"Howdoyoumean,"saidFrancie,"fatal?"

Junedidnotanswerher。"Ishan’twaittoseethemoff,"shesaid。

"Good—bye!"

"Good—bye!"saidFrancie,andhereyes,ofaCelticgrey,goggled。

Thatoldfeud!Really,itwasquiteromantic!

Soames,movingtothewellofthestaircase,sawJunego,anddrewabreathofsatisfaction。Whydidn’tFleurcome?Theywouldmisstheirtrain。Thattrainwouldbearherawayfromhim,yethecouldnothelpfidgetingatthethoughtthattheywouldloseit。Andthenshedidcome,runningdowninhertan—colouredfrockandblackvelvetcap,andpassedhimintothedrawing—room。Hesawherkisshermother,heraunt,Val’swife,Imogen,andthencomeforth,quickandprettyasever。Howwouldshetreathimatthislastmomentofhergirlhood?Hecouldn’thopeformuch!

Herlipspressedthemiddleofhischeek。

"Daddy!"shesaid,andwaspastandgone!Daddy!Shehadn’tcalledhimthatforyears。Hedrewalongbreathandfollowedslowlydown。

Therewasallthefollywiththatconfettistuffandtherestofittogothroughwithyet。Buthewouldlikejusttocatchhersmile,ifsheleanedout,thoughtheywouldhitherintheeyewiththeshoe,iftheydidn’ttakecare。YoungMont’svoicesaidferventlyinhisear:

"Good—bye,sir;andthankyou!I’msofearfullybucked。"

"Good—bye,"hesaid;"don’tmissyourtrain。"

Hestoodonthebottomstepbutthree,whencehecouldseeabovetheheads——thesillyhatsandheads。Theywereinthecarnow;andtherewasthatstuff,showering,andtherewenttheshoe。AfloodofsomethingwelledupinSoames,and——hedidn’tknow——hecouldn’tsee!

XI

THELASTOFTHEOLDFORSYTES

WhentheycametopreparethatterrificsymbolTimothyForsyte——theonepureindividualistleft,theonlymanwhohadn’theardoftheGreatWar——theyfoundhimwonderful——notevendeathhadunderminedhissoundness。

ToSmitherandCookthatpreparationcamelikefinalevidenceofwhattheyhadneverbelievedpossible——theendoftheoldForsytefamilyonearth。PoorMr。TimothymustnowtakeaharpandsinginthecompanyofMissForsyte,Mrs。Julia,MissHester;withMr。Jolyon,Mr。Swithin,Mr。James,Mr。Roger,andMr。Nicholasoftheparty。

WhetherMrs。Haymanwouldbetherewasmoredoubtful,seeingthatshehadbeencremated。SecretlyCookthoughtthatMr。Timothywouldbeupset——hehadalwaysbeensosetagainstbarrelorgans。Howmanytimeshadshenotsaid:"Dratthething!Thereitisagain!

Smither,you’dbetterrunupandseewhatyoucando。"Andinherheartshewouldsohaveenjoyedthetunes,ifshehadn’tknownthatMr。Timothywouldringthebellinaminuteandsay:"Here,takehimahalfpennyandtellhimtomoveon。"Oftentheyhadbeenobligedtoaddthreepenceoftheirownbeforethemanwouldgo——Timothyhadeverunderratedthevalueofemotion。Luckilyhehadtakentheorgansforblue—bottlesinhislastyears,whichhadbeenacomfort,andtheyhadbeenabletoenjoythetunes。Butaharp!Cookwondered。Itwasachange!AndMr。Timothyhadneverlikedchange。ButshedidnotspeakofthistoSmither,whodidsotakealineofherowninregardtoheaventhatitquiteputoneaboutsometimes。

ShecriedwhileTimothywasbeingprepared,andtheyallhadsherryafterwardoutoftheyearlyChristmasbottle,whichwouldnotbeneedednow。Ah!dear!Shehadbeentherefive—and—fortyyearsandSmitherthree—and—forty!AndnowtheywouldbegoingtoatinyhouseinTooting,toliveontheirsavingsandwhatMissHesterhadsokindlyleftthem——fortotakefreshserviceafterthegloriouspast——

No!ButtheywouldlikejusttoseeMr。Soamesagain,andMrs。

Dartie,andMissFrancie,an

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