A Mountain Woman

第6章

Itwaspastmidnightwhenthepriestwasawakenedfromhissleepbyaknockonthedoor。Hewrappedhisgreatbuffalo-coatabouthim,andansweredthesummons。

WithoutinthedampdarknessstoodPierre。

"Father,"hecried,"Ninonhassentforyou。Sincesheleftyou,shehasbeenveryill。IhavedonewhatIcould;butnowshehardlyspeaks,butImakeoutthatshewantsyou。”Tenminuteslater,theywereinNinon\'scabin。WhenFatherdeSmetlookedatherheknewshewasdying。HehadseentheIndianslikethatmanytimesduringthewinter。Itwastheplague,butdrivenintopreyuponthesystembytheexposure。TheParisienne\'steethwereset,butshemanagedtosmileuponhervisitorashethrewoffhiscoatandbentoverher。

Hepouredsomewhiskeyforher;butshecouldnotgettheliquidoverherthroat。

"Donot,"shesaidfiercelybetweenthosesetwhiteteeth,"donotforgetthelilies。”Shesankbackandfixedherglazingeyesontheantlers,andkeptthemtherewatchingthosedanglingsilkenscarves,whilethepriest,inhaste,spokethewordsforthedepartingsoul。

Thenextmorningshelaydeadamongthosehalfbarbaricrelicsofhercoquetry,andtwowhitelilieswithheartsofgoldshedperfumefromanaltarinawilderness。

UptheGulch"GOWest?"sighedKate。"Why,yes!I\'dliketogoWest。”

Shelookedatthebabies,whowereplay-

ingonthefloorwiththeirfather,andsighedagain。

"You\'vegottogosomewhere,youknow,Kate。Itmightaswellbewestasinanyotherdirection。Andthisissuchachance!

Wecan\'thavemammalyingaroundonsofaswithoutanyrosesinhercheeks,canwe?"Heputthislasttothechildren,who,beingyetattheagewhentheytalkedin"EarlyEnglish,"astheirfathercalledit,madeaclamorousbutinarticulatereply。

MajorShelly,thegrandfatheroftheseveryyoungpersons,strokedhismustacheandlookedindulgent。

"Showalmosthumanintelligence,don\'tthey?"saidtheirfather,ashelayflatonhisbackandpermittedthebabiestoclimboverhim。

"Ya-as,"drawledthemajor。"Theydo。

Don\'tseehowyouaccountforit,Jack。”

Jackroared,andthelipsofthebabiestrembledwithfear。

Theirmothersaidnothing。Shewasonthesofa,herhandslyinginert,hereyesfixedonherrosybabieswithanexpressionwhichherfather-in-lawandherhusbandtriedhardnottonotice。

ItwasnoteasytotellwhyKatewasailing。Ofcourse,thebabieswereyoung,buttherewereotherreasons。

"Ibelieveyou\'retoohappy,"Jacksome-

timessaidtoher。"Trynottobequitesohappy,Kate。Atleast,trynottotakeyourhappinesssoseriously。Pleasedon\'tadoremeso;I\'monlyacommonplacefellow。Andthebabies——they\'renotgoingtoblowaway。”

ButKatecontinuedtolookwithintenseeyesatherlittleworld,andtodrawintoitwithlovingandgeneroushandsallwhowerewillingtocome。

"Kateisjustlikeakite,"Jackexplainedtohisfather,themajor;"shecan\'tkeepafloatwithoutjustsomanybobs。”

Kate\'s"bobs"weretheunfortunatesshecollectedaroundher。Theseabsorbedherstrength。Shefelttheirmiserywithsym-

pathiesthatwereabnormal。Theverylaborerinthestreetsfelthistoillesskeenlythanshe,asshewatchedthedropsgatheronhisbrow。

"Islifeworthkeepingatthecostofalotlikethat?"shewouldask。Shefeltashamedofherownease。Sheapologizedforherownsereneandperfecthappiness。

Sheevenfeltsorryforthosemotherswhohadnotchildrenasradiantlybeautifulasherown。

"Katemusthaveachange,"themajorhadgivenout。HewasgoingWestonbusinessandinsistedontakingherwithhim。Jacklookeddoubtful。Hewasn\'tsurehowhewouldgetalongwithoutKatetolookaftereverything。Secretly,hehadanideathatservantswereakindofwildanimalthathadtobefedbyanexperiencedkeeper。Butwhenthetimecame,hekissedhergood-byinasjocularamannerashecouldsummon,andrefusedtoseethetearsthatgatheredinhereyes。

UntilChicagowasreached,therewasnothingverydifferentfromthatwhichKatehadbeeninthehabitofseeing。

Afterthat,shesetherselftowatchforWesterncharacteristics。Shefeltthatshewouldknowthemassoonasshesawthem。

"Iexpectedtobestirredupandshocked,"

sheexplainedtothemajor。Butsomehow,theWesterntypedidnotappear。Common-

placewomenwithwornfaces——brownedandseamed,thoughnotaged——wereatthestations,waitingforsomethingorsomeone。Menwithahurried,nervousairwereeverywhere。KatelookedinvainforthegayetyandheartinesswhichshehadalwaysassociatedwiththeWest。

Aftertheygotbeyondthetimbercountryandrodehourafterhouronatractsmoothasabecalmedocean,shegaveherselfuptothefeelingofimmeasurablevastnesswhichtookpossessionofher。Thesunrolledoutoftheskyintooblivionwithafrantic,head-

longhaste。Nothingsoftenedtheaspectofitswrath。Near,red,familiar,itseemedtovisiblybowlalongtheheavens。Inthemorningitroseasbaldlyasithadset。

Andbackandforthovertheawfulplainblewthewinds,——blewfromeasttowestandbackagain,strongasiffreshfromthechambersoftheirbirth,fullofelementalscentsandofmightymurmurings。

"ThisistheWest!"Katecried,againandagain。

Themajorlistenedtoherunsmilingly。

Italwaysseemedtohimawasteofmuscu-

larenergytosmile。Hedidnottalkmuch。

Conversationhadneverappealedtohiminthelightofanart。Hespokewhentherewasadirectionoracommandtobegiven,oraninquirytobemade。Themajor,ifthetruthmustbeknown,wasmaterial。

Thingsthathecouldtaste,touch,see,appealedtohim。Hehadbeenavolunteerinthecivilwar,——avolunteerwithagoodrecord,——whichhenevermentioned;and,havingacquittedhimselfdecently,letthemattergowithoutaskingreprisalorpay-

mentforwhathehadfreelygiven。Hewentintobusinessandsoldcerealfoods。

"Ibelieveinusefulthings,"themajorexpressedhimself。"Oatmeal,wheat,——

menhavetohavethem。Godintendedtheyshould。There\'sJack——myson——

JackShelly——lawyer。What\'stheuseoflitigation?Goddidn\'tdesignlitigation。

Itdoesn\'tdoanybodyanygood。Itisn\'tjusticeyouget。It\'ssomethingentirelydifferent,——averdictaccordingtolaw。

TheysayJack\'sclever。ButI\'mmightygladIsellwheat。”

Hedidn\'tsellitasaspeculator,how-

ever。Thatwasn\'thisway。

"IearnwhatImake,"heoftensaid;andhehadgrownrichinthesellingofhiswholesomefoods……

Helenaliesamonground,brownhills。

Aboveitisaskyofdeepandillimitableblue。Inthestreetsarecrumbsofgold,butitnolongerpaystomineforthese;

because,asrealestate,thepropertyismorevaluable。Itisaplaceoffictitiousvalues。

Thereisexcitementintheair。Menhavethefacesofspeculators。Everylaborerispatientathistaskbecausehecherishesahopethatsomedayhewillbeamillion-

naire。Thereishospitality,andcordialityandgoodfellowship,andanundeniabledemocracy。Thereiswealthandluxuriousliving。Thereisevenculture,——butitisobtrudedasasortofnovelty;itisnotacceptedasamatterofcourse。

Kateandthemajorweredrivenovertwoorthreemilesofdusty,hardroadtoadis-

tanthotel,whichstandsinthemidstofgreenness,——inanoasis。Immediatelyabovethegreenswardthatsurroundsitthebrownhillsrise,thegrassscorchedbythesun。

Kateyieldedherselftothealmostabsurdluxuryoftheplacewitheaseandcompla-

cency。Shetookkindlytothegreatveran-

das。Sheadaptedherselftotheelaborateandill-assortedmeals。Shebathedinthemarvellouspool,warmwiththeheatofeternalfiresinmid-earth。ThispoolwascoveredwithapicturesqueMoorishstruct-

ure,andatoneendacascadetumbled,overwhichthesun,comingthroughcoloredwin-

dows,madeamimicprisminthewhitespray。Thelifewasnotunendurable。Themajorwasseldomwithher,beingobligedtogoabouthisbusiness;andKateamusedherselfbydrivingoverthehills,bywatch-

ingtheinhabitants,bywonderingaboutthelivesinthegreat,pretentious,unhomelikehouseswiththeirtreelessyardsandtheirclosedshutters。Thesunlight,whiteastheglareonArabiansands,penetratedeverywhere。Itseemedtofairlyscorchtheeye-balls。

"Oh,we\'reWest,now,"Katesaid,exult-

antly。"I\'veseenathousandtypes。Butyet——notquiteTHEtype——nottheimper-

sonationofsimplicityanddaringthatIwaslookingfor。”

Themajordidn\'tknowquitewhatshewastalkingabout。Butheacquiesced。

Allhecaredaboutwastoseehergrowstronger;andthatshewasdoingeveryday。

Shewasgrowingamazinglylovely,too,——

atleastthemajorthoughtso。Everyonelookedather;butthatwas,perhaps,be-

causeshewassuchasylphofawoman。

Besidethestalwartmajor,shelookedlikeafairyprincess。

Onedayshesuddenlyrealizedthefactthatshehadhadacompanionontheverandaforseveralmornings。Ofcourse,therewereagreatmanypersons——invalids,largely——sittingabout,butoneofthemhadbeenobtrudinghimselfpersistentlyintoherconsciousness。Itwasnotthathewasrude;itwasonlythathewasthinkingabouther。ApersonwithatemperamentlikeKate\'scouldnotlongbeoblivioustoathinglikethat;andshefurtivelyobservedtheoffenderwiththatgeniusforpsycho-

logicalperceptionwhichwasatoncehergreatestdangerandhercharm。

Themanwasdressedwithachildishattemptatdisplay。Hisshirt-frontwasdecoratedwithadiamond,andhiscuff-

buttonswereofonyxwithdiamondsettings。

Hisclotheswereexpensiveandperceptiblynew,andheoftenchangedhiscostumes,butwithanoticeabledisregardforpro-

priety。Hewasveryconsciousofhissilkhat,andfrequentlywipeditwithahandker-

chiefonwhichhismonogramwasworkedinblue。

Whenthe\'bussesbroughtuptheirloads,hewasalwaysonhandtowatchthenew-

comers。Hetookalongtimeathisdin-

ners,andappearedtoorderagreatdealandeatverylittle。Therewerecard-roomsandabilliard-hall,nottomentionabowling-

alleyandatennis-court,wheretheotherguestsofthehotelspentmuchtime。Butthismannevervisitedthem。Hesatoftenwithoneofthelatereviewsinhishand,lookingasifheintendedgivinghisatten-

tiontoitatanymoment。Butafterhehadscrupulouslycuttheleaveswithalittlecarvedivorypaper-cutter,hesatstaringstraightbeforehimwiththebookopen,butunread,inhishand。

Katetookmoreinterestinthismelan-

choly,middle-agedmanthanshewouldhavedoneifshehadnotbeenontheout-

lookforherWesterntype,——themanwhowastocombineallthequalitiesofchivalry,daring,bombast,andgenerosity,seasonedwithpiquantgrammar,whichshefirmlybelievedtobetherealthing。Butnotwith-

standingthiskindlyandsomewhatcuriousinterest,shemightneverhavemadehisacquaintanceifithadnotbeenforaratherunpleasantadventure。

Themajorwas"closingupadeal"andhadhurriedawayafterbreakfast,andKate,intheluxuryofconvalescence,half-reclinedinagreatchairontheverandaandwatchedtheduskybluemisttwiningitselfaroundthebrownhills。Shewasnotthinkingofthebabies;shewasnotworryingabouthome;shewasnotlongingforanything,orevenindulginginadream。Thatvacuouscontentwhichengrossesthebodyafterlongindisposition,heldherimperatively。Sud-

denlyshewasarousedfromthishappycon-

ditionofnothingnessbythespectacleofanenormousbull-dogapproachingherwiththreateningteeth。Shehadnoticedthemonsterofteninhiskennelnearthesta-

bles,anditwaswellunderstoodthathewasnevertobepermittedhisfreedom。Nowhewalkedtowardherwithasolidstepandanalarmingdeliberateness。Katesatstillandtriedtoassureherselfthathemeantnomis-

chief,butbythetimethegreatbodyhadmadeitselffeltontheskirtofhergownshecouldrestrainherfearnolonger,andgaveanervouscryofalarm。Thebruteansweredwithagrowl。Ifhehadlackedprovocationbefore,heconsideredthathehaditnow。

Heshowedhisteethandflunghisdetestablebodyuponher;andKatefeltherselfgrow-

ingdizzywithfear。Butjustthenanarmwasinterposedandthedogwasflungback。

Therewasamomentarystruggle。Somegentlemencamehurryingoutoftheoffice;

andastheybeatthedogbacktoitsretreat,Katesummonedwordsfromherparchedthroattothankherbenefactor。

Itwasthemelancholymanwiththenewclothes。Thismorninghewasdressedinasuitofthelightestgray,withawhitemarseilleswaistcoat,overwhichhisglitter-

ingchainshoneostentatiously。Whitetennis-shoes,awhiteroseinhisbutton-

hole,andawhitestrawhatinhishandcom-

pletedatoiletoverwhichmuchtimehadevidentlybeenspent。Katenotedthesedetailsassheheldoutherhand。

"Imayhavebeenalarmedwithoutcause,"

shesaid;"butIwashorriblyfrightened。

Thankyousomuchforcomingtomyres-

cue。AndIthink,ifyouwouldaddtoyourkindnessbygettingmeaglassofwater——"

Whenhecameback,hishandwastrem-

blingalittle;andasKatelookeduptolearnthecause,shesawthathisfacewasflushed。Hewasembarrassed。Shedecidedthathewasnotaccustomedtothesocietyofladies。"Bruteslikethatdogain\'tnoplaceinth\'world——that\'smyopinion。

Therearesomebadthingswecan\'thelphavin\'aroun\';butabull-dogain\'toneof\'em。”

"Iquiteagreewithyou,"Kateacqui-

esced,asshedrankthewater。"ButasthisisthefirstunpleasantexperienceofanykindthatIhavehadsinceIcamehere,Idon\'tfeelthatIhaveanyrighttocomplain。”

"You\'reherefuryurhealth?"

"Yes。AndIamgettingit。You\'renotaninvalid,Iimagine?"

"No——no-op。I\'mherebe——well,I\'vethoughtfuralongtimeI\'dliket\'stayatthisherehotel。”

"Indeed!"

"Yes。I\'vebeenupth\'gulchthesefif-

teenyears。Binlivin\'onashelfofblackrock。

Th\'sungot\'round\'boutten。Couldn\'tmakeathinggrow。”Themanwaslook-

ingofftowardthehills,withanexpressionofdeepsadnessinhiseyes。"Didn\'tneverliveinaplacewherenothin\'\'dgrow,didyou?Itookgeraniumsupthartimean\'timeagin。Redones。Mademethinkofmother;she\'sinGermany。Watered\'emmornin\'an\'night。Th\'damnedthingsdied。”

Theoathslippedoutwithanartlessun-

consciousness,andtherewasalittlemoist-

ureinhiseyes。Katefeltsheoughttobringtheconversationtoaclose。ShewonderedwhatJackwouldsayifhesawhertalkingwithaperfectstrangerwhousedoaths!Shewouldhavegoneintothehousebutforsomethingthatcaughthereye。Itwasthehandoftheman;thathandwasabludgeon。Allgraceandflexibilityhadgoneoutofit,andithadbecomeamereinstrumentoftoil。Itwasseamedandmisshapen;yetithadbeencarefullymani-

cured,andthepointednailslookedfantasticandanimal-like。Agreatseal-ringboreanelaboratemonogram,whilethelittlefingerdisplayedacollectionofdiamondsandemeraldstrulydazzlingtobehold。Animpulseofhumanityandasortofartisticcuriosity,muchstrongerthanherdiscretion,urgedKatetocontinueherconversation。

"Whatwereyoudoingupthegulch?"

shesaid。

Themanleanedbackinhischairandregardedheramomentbeforeanswering。

Herealizedthesignificanceofherquestion。

Hetookitasasignthatshewaswillingtobefriendly。Alookofgratitude,almosttender,sprangintohiseyes,——dullgrayeyes,theywere,withakindlinessfortheironlyrecommendation。

"Makin\'mypile,"hereplied。"I\'vebeeninthesepartstwentyyears。WhenI

comehere,IthoughtIwasgoin\'tomakeafortunerightoff。Ihadallth\'moneythatmothercouldgiveme,andIlosteverythingI

hadinthreemonths。Iwentupth\'gulch。”

Hepaused,andwipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief。

TherewassomethinginhisremarkandtheintonationwhichmadeKatesaysoftly:

"Isupposeyou\'vehadahardtimeofit。”

"Tharyouwere!"hecried。"Tharwasth\'rock——risin\',risin\',black!Atth\'

bottomwusth\'creek,howlin\'dayan\'

night!Lonesome!Gee!Noonet\'talkto。Ofcourse,th\'men。Hadsomewithmealways。Theydidn\'ttalk。It\'stoo——

tooquiett\'talkmuch。Theyplayedcards。

Curious,butIneverplayedcards。Don\'tthinkI\'dfinditamusin\'。No,Iworked。

Camedownhereonceinsixmonthsorthreemonths。Hadt\'come——grub-stakedth\'men,youknow。Didyouevereatsaltpork?"HeturnedtoKatesuddenlywiththisquestion。

"Why,yes;afewtimes。Didyouhaveit?"

"Nothin\'else,much。Iusedt\'thinkofth\'thingsmothercooked。Motherunder-

stoodcookin\',ifeverawomandid。I\'llneverforgetth\'dinnershegavemeth\'dayIcameaway。Awomanoughtt\'cook。I

hearAmericanwomendon\'tgoinmuchforcookin\'。”

"Oh,Ithinkthat\'samistake,"Katehastenedtointerrupt。"AllthatIknowun-

derstandhowtoserveexcellentdinners。Ofcourse,theymaynotcookthemthemselves,butIthinktheycouldifitwerenecessary。”

"Hum!"HepickedupalongglovethathadfallenfromKate\'slapandfingereditbeforereturningit。

"Is\'poseyoucook?"

"Imakeaspecialtyofsaladsandsor-

bets,"smiledKate。"IguessIcouldroastmeatandmakebread;butcircumstanceshavenotyetcompelledmetodoit。ButI\'veatheorythatanAmericanwomancandoanythingsheputshermindto。”

Themanlaughedoutloud,——alaughquiteoutofproportiontothemildgoodhumoroftheremark;butitwasevidentthathecouldnolongerconcealhisdelightatthiscompanionship。

"Howaboutraisin\'flowers?"heasked。

"Areyoustrongonthat?"

"I\'veonlytolookataplanttomakeitgrow,"Katecried,withenthusiasm。

"Whenmyfriendsareindespairoveraplant,theybringittome,andIjustpetitalittle,anditbrightensup。I\'vethemostwonderfulferneryyoueversaw。It\'sgreen,summerandwinter。Hundredsofpeoplestopandlookupatit,itissogreenandenticing,thereabovethecitystreets。”

"Whatcity?"

"Philadelphia。”

"Mother\'sjestthatway。Shehasagar-

denofroses。Andthemignonette——"

Buthebrokeoffsuddenly,andsatoncemorestaringbeforehim。

"Butnotadamnedthing,"headded,withpoeticpensiveness,"wouldgrowinthatgulch。”

"Whydidyoustaytheresolong?"askedKate,afteralittlepauseinwhichsheman-

agedtoregainherwaningcourage。

"Badluck。Youneverseeaplacewithsomanyfalseleads。To-dayyou\'dgetastreakthatlookedbig。To-morrowyou\'dfinditapocket。OnenightI\'dgot\'bedwithmyheartgoin\'likearace-horse。

Nextnightitwouldbeploddin\'alonglikeawindedburro。Don\'tknowwhatmademestickt\'it。Itwashotthere,too!Andcold!Alwaysroastin\'urfreezin\'。It\'dbeendifferentifI\'dhadanyonet\'helpmestandit。Butth\'menwerealwaysfindin\'

fault。Theyblamedmefureverythin\'。I

usedt\'lieawakeatnightan\'hear\'emtalkin\'meover。Itmademelonesome,I

tellyou!Tharwasn\'tnoone!Motherusedt\'write。ButInevertoldherth\'

truth。Sheain\'tasuspicionofwhatI\'vebeena-goin\'through。”

Katesatandlookedathiminsilence。

Hisfacewasseamed,thoughfarfromold。

Hisbodywasawkward,butimpressedherwithasenseofmagnificentstrength。

"Icouldn\'tasknowomant\'sharemyhardtimes,"heresumedafteratime。"I

alwayssaidwhenIgotawoman,itwasgoin\'t\'bet\'makeherhappy。Itwer\'n\'tt\'bet\'askhert\'drudge。”

Therewasanothersilence。Thismanoutofthesolitudeseemedtobeelatedpastexpressionathisnewcompanionship。HelookedwithappreciationatthelittlepointedtoesofKate\'sslippers,astheyglancedfrombelowtheskirtofherdaintyorgandie。Henotedthebandofpearlsonherfinger。Hiseyesrestedlongonthedaisiesatherwaist。

Thewindtosseduplittlecurlsofherwarmbrownhair。Hereyessuffusedwithinter-

est,hertendermouthseemedreadytolenditselftoanyemotion,andwithalshewassosmall,socompact,soexquisite。Themanwipedhisforeheadagain,inmereexuberance。

"Here\'smycard,"hesaid,verysolemnly,ashedrewanengravedbitofpasteboardfromitsleathercase。Katebowedandtookit。

"Mr。PeterRoeder,"sheread。

"I\'venocard,"shesaid。"MynameisShelly。I\'mhereformyhealth,asItoldyou。”Sheroseatthispoint,andheldoutherhand。"Imustthankyouoncemoreforyourkindness,"shesaid。

Hiseyesfastenedonherswithanappealforalessformalword。Therewassomethingalmostterribleintheirsilenteloquence。

"Ihopewemaymeetagain,"shesaid。

Mr。PeterRoedermadeaverylowandawkwardbow,andopenedthedoorintothecorridorforher。

ThateveningthemajorannouncedthathewasobligedtogotoSeattle。Thejourneywasnotaninvitingone;Katewaswellplacedwhereshewas,andhedecidedtoleaveher。

Shewaswellenoughnowtotakelongerdrives;andshefoundstrange,lonelycan-

yons,wildandbeautiful,whereyellowwatersburstthroughrockybarrierswithroarandfury,——tortuous,terribleplaces,suchasshehadneverdreamedof。Comingbackfromoneofthesedrives,twodaysafterherconversationonthepiazzawithPeterRoeder,shemethimridingamassiveroan。

HesattheanimalwiththatairofperfectunconsciousnesswhichistheattributeoftheWesternman,andhisattire,eventohisEnglishstock,wasfaultless,——faultilyfaultless。

"Ihopeyouwon\'tobjecttohavin\'meridebesideyou,"hesaid,wheelinghishorse。Totellthetruth,Katedidnotobject。Shewasalittledull,andhadbeenconsciousallthemorningofthatpeculiarphysicaldepressionwhichmarksthebegin-

ningofafitofhomesickness。

"Thewindgitsafinesweep,"saidRoeder,afterhavingobtainedthepermis-

sionhedesired。"Nowinthegulchweeitherhadadeadstagnation,orelsethewindwastearin\'upanddownlikeawildbeast。”

Katedidnotreply,andtheywentontogether,facingtheriotouswind。

"Youcan\'tguesshowqueeritseemst\'

behere,"hesaid,confidentially。"Itseemst\'measifIhadcomefromsomeotherplanet。Thardon\'trightlyseemt\'benoplacefurme。Itellyouwhatit\'slike。

It\'sasifI\'dcomedownt\'enlistinth\'

ranks,an\'found\'emfull,——everymanmarchin\'alonginhisplace,an\'noplaceleftfurme。”

Katecouldnotfindareply。

"Iain\'tafriend,——notafriend!Iain\'tcomplainin\'。Itain\'tth\'faultofanyone——butmyself。Youdon\'knowwhatadurnedfoolI\'vebin。Someway,uptharinth\'gulchIgott\'seemin\'sosortofimpor-

tantt\'myself,andmymakin\'mystakeseemedsuchabigthing,thatIthoughtI

hadonlyt\'comedownheret\'Helenat\'

havefolkswantt\'knowme。Ididn\'tparticularwantth\'moneybecauseitwusmoney。Butouthereyouworkfurit,jestasyouworkfurotherthingsinotherplaces,——jestbecauseeveryoneisworkin\'furit,andit\'sthemanwhogetsth\'mostthatbeats。Itain\'tthattheyareanymoregreedythanmenanywhereelse。Mypile\'saprettygood-sizedone。An\'it\'slikelytobebigger;butnooneelseseemst\'care。

Th\'paperprintedsomepiecesaboutit。

Someofth\'mencameroundt\'seeme;

butIsawtheirgame。IsaidIguessedI\'dlookfurtherfurmyacquaintances。I

ain\'tspokentoalady,——notareallady,youknow,——t\'talkwith,friendlylike,butyou,fur——years。”

Hisfaceflushedinthatsuddenwayagain。

Theywerepassingsomeofthosepreten-

tioushouseswhichriseinthemidstofHelena\'sraggedstreetswithsuchanextra-

neousair,andKateleanedforwardtolookatthem。Thedriver,seeingherinterest,drewupthehorsesforamoment。

"Fine,fine!"ejaculatedRoeder。"Buttheyain\'tgotnogarden。Ahousedon\'tseemanythin\'t\'mewithoutagarden。

DoyouknowwhatIthinkwouldbeth\'

mostbeautifulthinginth\'world?A

babyinarose-garden!Doyouknow,I

ain\'thadababyinmyhands,excep\'NedRamsey\'slittlekid,once,fortenyear!"

Kate\'sfaceshonewithsympathy。

"Howdreadful!"shecried。"Icouldn\'tlivewithoutababyabout。”

"Likebabies,doyou?Well,well。

Boys?Likeboys?"

"Notabitbetterthangirls,"saidKate,stoutly。

"Ilikeboys,"respondedRoeder,withconviction。"Mymotherlikedboys。Shehadthreegirls,butshelikedmeadamnedsightthebest。”

Katelaughedoutright。

"Whydoyouswear?"shesaid。"I

neverheardamanswearbefore,——atleast,notonewithwhomIwastalking。That\'soneofyourgulchhabits。Youmustgetoverit。”

Roeder\'sblondfaceturnedscarlet。

"Youmustexcuseme,"hepleaded。

"I\'llcuremyselfofit!Jestgivemeachance。”

ThiswasalittlemorepersonalthanKateapprovedof,andsheraisedherparasoltoconcealherannoyance。Itwasabrilliantlittlefluffofathingwhichlookedasifitweremadeofbutterflies\'wings。Roedertoucheditwithawe。

"Youhavesechbeautifulthings,"hesaid。"Ididn\'tknowwomenworesechnicethings。Nowthatdress——it\'slike——Idon\'tknowwhatit\'slike。”Itwasasimplelittletaffeta,withwarpandwoofofazureandofcream,andgayknotsofribbonaboutit。

"Wehavetheadvantageofmen,"shesaid。"Ioftenthinkoneofthegreatestdrawbackstobeingamanwouldbethesombreclothes。Iliketoweartheprettiestthingsthatcanbefound。”

"Lace?"queriedRoeder。"Doyoulikelace?"

"Ishouldsayso!Didyoueverseeawomanwhodidn\'t?"

"Hu——um!ThesewomenI\'veknowndon\'tknowlace,——thesewivesofth\'menouthere。They\'reth\'onlykindI\'veseenthislongtime。”

"Oh,ofcourse,butImean——"

"Iknowwhatyoumean。Mymotherhasachestfulloflinenan\'lace。Sheshoweditt\'meth\'dayIleft。\'Peter,\'shesaid,\'somedayyoubringawifehomewithyou,an\'I\'llgiveyouthatlacean\'thatlinen。\'

An\'I\'mgoin\'t\'doit,too,"hesaidquietly。

"Ihopeso,"saidKate,withhereyesmoist。"Ihopeyouwill,andthatyourmotherwillbeveryhappy。”……

Therewasahopatthehotelthatnight,anditwasalmostamatterofcourtesyforKatetogo。Ladieswereindemand,fortherewerenotverymanyofthematthehotel。Everyonewasexpectedtodohisbesttomakeitasuccess;andKate,notatallaversetoawaltzortwo,dressedherselffortheoccasionwithherhabitualstrivingafterartisticeffect。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhomakeapictureofthemselvesasnaturallyasabirdsings。ShehadanopalnecklacewhichJackhadgivenherbecause,hesaid,shehadasmanymoodsasanopalhadcolors;andsheworethiswithacré;pegown,thetintofthegreenlightsinhernecklace。Aboxofflowerscameforherasshewasdressing;theywerePuritanroses,andPeterRoeder\'scardwasinthemidstofthem。Shewasusedtohavingflowersgivenher。Itwouldhaveseemedremark-

ableifsomeonehadnotsentherabouquetwhenshewasgoingtoaball。

"Ishalldancebuttwice,"shesaidtothosewhosoughtherforapartner。

"Neithermorenorless。”

"Ain\'tyougoin\'t\'dancewithmeatall?"Roedermanagedtosaytoherinthemidstofherlaughingaltercationwiththegentlemen。

"Dancewithyou!"criedKate。"Howdomenlearntodancewhentheyareupagulch?"

"Ikendance,"hesaidstubbornly。Hewasmortifiedatherchaffing。

"Thenyoumayhavethesecondwaltz,"

shesaid,inquickcontrition。"Nowyouothergentlemenhavebeendancinganynumberoftimestheselastfifteenyears。

ButMr。Roederisjustbackfromahardcampaign,——acampaignagainstfate。Mysecondwaltzishis。AndIshalldancemybest。”

Ithappenedtobejusttherightsortofspeech。Thewomentriedgood-naturedlytomakeRoeder\'seveningapleasantone。

Theywerefilledwithcompassionforamanwhohadnotenjoyedthesocietyoftheirsexforfifteenyears。Theyfoundmuchamuse-

mentinleadinghimthroughthesquaredances,theformsofwhichwereutterlyunknowntohim。Buthewaltzedwithasortofseriousalertnessthatwasnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。

Katedancedwell。Herslightbodyseemedasfullofthespiritofthewaltzasathrush\'sbodyisofsong。PeterRoedermovedalongwithherinamaze,onlyhalf-

answeringherquestions,hisgrayeyesfullofmystery。

Oncetheystoppedforamoment,andhelookeddownather,aswithflushedfaceshestoodsmilingandwavinghergossamerfan,eachmotionstirringthefrailleavesoftheroseshehadsenther。

"It\'scur\'ous,"hesaidsoftly,"butIkeepthinkin\'aboutthatblackgulch。”

"Forgetit,"shesaid。"Whydoyouthinkofagulchwhen——"Shestoppedwithasuddenrecollectionthathewasnotusedtopersiflage。Butheanticipatedwhatshewasabouttosay。

"Whythinkofthegulchwhenyouarehere?"hesaid。"Why,becauseitisonlyth\'gulchthatseemsreal。Allthis,——thesepleasant,politepeople,thisbeautifulroom,th\'flowerseverywhere,andyou,andmeasIam,seemasifIwasdreamin\'。Tharain\'tanythinginitallthatislikewhatI

thoughtitwouldbe。”

"Notasyouthoughtitwouldbe?"

"No。Different。Ithoughtitwouldbe——well,Ithoughtth\'peoplewouldnotbequitesohigh-toned。Ihopeyoudon\'tmindthatword。”

"Notintheleast,"shesaid。"It\'samu-

sicalterm。Itappliesverywelltopeople。”

Theytookupthedanceagainandwaltzedbreathlesslytilltheclose。Katewastired;

theexertionhadbeenalittlemorethanshehadbargainedfor。Shesatverystillontheverandaunderthewhiteglareofanelectricball,andletRoederdothetalking。Herthoughts,inspiteoftheentertainmentshewasderivingfromherpresentexperiences,wouldgobacktothebabies。Shesawthemtuckedwellinbed,eachinalittleironcrib,withthemuslincurtainsshieldingtheirrosyfacesfromthelight。ShewonderedifJackwerereadingaloneinthelibraryorwasattheclub,orperhapsatthesummercon-

cert,withtheswelloftheviolinsinhisears。Jackdidsolovemusic。Asshethoughthowdelicatehisperceptionswere,howherespondedtoeverythingmostsubtleinnatureandinart,ofhowlifeitselfwasafineartwithhim,andjoyathingtobecultivated,sheturnedwithasenseofdeepcompassiontothesimplemanbyherside。

Hisroughfacelookedalittlemoreunat-

tractivethanusual。Hiseveningclotheswerealmostgrotesque。Hisfaceworealookofsolitude,ofhunger。

"Whatwereyousaying?"shesaid,dreamily。"Ibegyourpardon。”

"Iwassayin\'howIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'onthestepsofahotellikethis,andnothavin\'athingt\'do。WhenIusedt\'

comedownhereoutofthegulch,andseemenwhohadhadgooddinners,an\'goodbaths,sittin\'aroundsmokin\',withmoneyt\'goovertheret\'th\'bookstan\'an\'getany-

thin\'they\'dwant,itusedt\'seemt\'meaboutallasinglemancouldwishfur。”

"Well,you\'vegotitallnow。”

"ButIdidn\'tanyofth\'timesupposethatwouldsatisfyamanlong。OnlyIwassodarnedtiredIcouldn\'thelpwantin\'t\'

rest。ButI\'mnotsoselfishurs\'narrowastobesatisfiedwithTHAT。No,I\'mnotgoin\'t\'spendm\'pilethatway——quite!"

Helaughedoutloud,andthensatinsilencewatchingKateasshelaybackwearilyinherchair。

"I\'vegott\'havethattheregarden,"hesaid,laughingly。"Gott\'getthemroses。

An\'I\'llhaveabigbath-house,——plentyofspringsinthiscountry。Youkenhaveabathherethatwon\'tfreezesummerNOR

winter。An\'ababy!I\'vegott\'haveababy。He\'llgowithth\'rosesan\'th\'

bath。”Helaughedagainheartily。

"It\'saqueerjoke,isn\'tit?"Roederasked。"Talkin\'aboutmybaby,an\'I

haven\'tevenawife。”Hisfaceflushedandheturnedhiseyesaway。

"HaveIshownyouthepicturesofmybabies?"Kateinquired。"You\'dlikemyboy,Iknow。Andmygirlisjustlikeme,——inminiature。”

Therewasasilence。Shelookedupafteramoment。Roederappearedtobeexaminingthemonogramonhisringasifhehadneverseenitbefore。

"Ididn\'tunderstandthatyouweremar-

ried,"hesaidgently。

"Didn\'tyou?Idon\'tthinkyouevercalledmebyanynameatall,orIshouldhavenoticedyourmistakeandsetyouright。

Yes,I\'mmarried。Icameoutheretogetstrongforthebabies。”

"Gotaboyan\'agirl,eh?"

"Yes。”

"Howold\'sth\'boy?"

"Five。”

"An\'th\'girl?"

"She\'llsoonbefour。”

"An\'yerhusband——he\'slivin\'?"

"Ishouldsayso!I\'maveryhappywoman,Mr。Roeder。IfonlyIwerestronger!"

"Yerlookin\'muchbetter,"hesaid,gravely,"thanwhenyoucome。You\'llbeallright。”

Themoonbegantocomeupscarletbeyondtheeasternhills。Thetwowatcheditinsilence。Katehadafeelingofguilt,asifshehadbeenhurtingsomehelplessthing。

"Iwasinhopes,"hesaid,suddenly,inavoicethatseemedabruptandshrill,"thetyou\'dseefitt\'stayhere。”

"HereinHelena?Oh,no!"

"Iwasthinkin\'I\'dofferyouthattwohundredthousanddollars,ifyou\'dstay。”

"Mr。Roeder!Youdon\'tmean——

surely——"

"Why,yes。Whynot?"Hespokeratherdoggedly。"I\'llneverseenootherwomanlikeyou。You\'redifferentfromothers。Howgoodyou\'vebeent\'me!"

"Good!I\'mafraidI\'vebeenverybad——atleast,verystupid。”

"Isay,now——yourhusband\'sgoodt\'

you,ain\'the?"

"Heisthekindestmanthateverlived。”

"Oh,well,Ididn\'tknow。”

AratherawkwardpausefollowedwhichwasbrokenbyRoeder。

"Idon\'tseejestwhatI\'mgoin\'t\'dowiththatthartwohundredthousanddol-

lars,"hesaid,mournfully。

"Dowithit?Why,livewithit!Sendsometoyourmother。”

"Oh,I\'vedonethat。Fivethousanddollars。Itdon\'tseemmuchhere;butit\'llseemalott\'her。I\'dsendhermore,onlyitwould\'vebotheredher。”

"Thenthereisyourhouse,——thehousewiththebath-room。ButIsupposeyou\'llhaveotherrooms?"

Peterlaughedalittleinspiteofhimself。

"IguessIwon\'thaveahouse,"hesaid。

"An\'Icouldn\'tmakeagardenalone。”

"Hireamantohelpyou。”Katewastrembling,butshekepttalkinggayly。Shewasprayingthatnothingveryseriouswouldhappen。Therewasanundercurrentofsom-

brenessintheman\'smannerthatfrightenedher。

"IguessI\'lljesthavet\'keepondreamin\'ofthatboyplayin\'withth\'roses。”

"No,no,"criedKate;"hewillcometruesomeday!Iknowhe\'llcometrue。”

Petergotupandstoodbyherchair。

"Youdon\'tknownothin\'aboutit,"hesaid。"Youdon\'tknow,an\'youcan\'tknowwhatit\'sbint\'met\'talkwithyou。HereIcomeoutofaplacewherethereain\'tnosoundbutthewaterandthepines。Yearscomean\'go。Stillnosound。Onlythinkin\',thinkin\',thinkin\'!Missin\'allth\'thingsmencarefur!Dreamin\'ofatimewhenIsh\'dstriketh\'pile。ThenI

seedhome,wife,aboy,flowers,everythin\'。

You\'resobeautiful,an\'you\'resogood。

You\'veawayofpickin\'aman\'sheartrightoutofhim。FirsttimeIsetmyeyesonyouIthoughtyouwereth\'nicestthingI

eversee!Andhowlittleyouare!Thathandofyours,——lookatit,——it\'slikealeaf!An\'howeasyyousmile。Upth\'

gulchwedidn\'tsmile;welaughed,butgen\'lybecausesomeonegotinafix。Thenyourvoice!Ah,I\'vethoughtfuryearsthatsomedayImighthearavoicelikethat!Don\'tyougo!Sitstill!I\'mnotblamin\'youfuranythin\';butImaynever,\'slong\'sIlive,findanyonewhowillunderstandthingsth\'wayyouunder-

stand\'em。Here!Itellyouaboutthatgulchan\'youseethatgulch。Youknowhowth\'rainsoundedthar,an\'howth\'

shacklooked,an\'th\'lifeIled,an\'allth\'

thoughtsIhad,an\'th\'longnights,an\'

th\'timeswhen——butnevermind。Iknowyouknowitall。Isawitinyereyes。I

tellyouofmother,an\'yousee\'er。Youknow\'eroldGermanface,an\'\'erproudways,an\'herprideinme,an\'howshewouldthinkIwuzawfullyrich。An\'youseehowshewouldgiveoutthemlinens,allmarkedfurmywife,an\'howIwouldsitan\'watchherdoin\'it,an\'——youseeevery-

thing。Iknowyoudo。Icouldfeelyoudoin\'it。ThenIsaytomyself:\'Hereisth\'onewomaninth\'worldmadefurme。

WhateverIhave,sheshallhave。I\'llspendmylifewaitin\'onher。She\'lltellmeallth\'thingsIoughtt\'know,an\'hevmissedknowin\';she\'llreadt\'me;she\'llbepatientwhenshefindshowdullI\'vegrown。Andthar\'llbeth\'boy——\'"

Heseizedherhandandwrungit,andwasgone。Katesawhimnomorethatnight。

Thenextmorningthemajorreturned。

Katethrewherarmsaroundhisneckandwept。

"Iwantthebabies,"sheexplainedwhenthemajorshowedhisconsternation。"Don\'tmindmycrying。Yououghttobeusedtoseeingmecrybythistime。Imustgethome,that\'sall。ImustseeJack。”

Sothatnighttheystarted。

AtthedoorofthecarriagestoodPeterRoeder,waiting。

"I\'mgoingt\'ridedownwithyou,"hesaid。Themajorlookednonplussed。

Kategotinandthemajorfollowed。

"Come,"shesaidtoRoeder。Hesatoppositeandlookedatherasifhewouldfastenherimageonhismind。

"Youremember,"hesaidafteratime,"thatItoldyouIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'ontheverandaofth\'hotelandhavin\'nothin\'

t\'do?"

"Yes。”

"Well,Idon\'tthinkIcarefurit。I\'vehadamonthofit。I\'mgoin\'backupth\'gulch。”

"No!"criedKate,instinctivelyreachingoutherhandstowardhim。

"Whynot?Iguessyoudon\'tknowme。

IknewthatsomewhereI\'dfindafriend。I

foundthatfriend;an\'nowI\'maloneagain。It\'sprettyquietuptharinthegulch;butI\'lltryit。”

"No,no。GotoEurope;gotoseeyourmother。”

"Ithoughtaboutthatagooddeal,awhileago。ButIdon\'tseemt\'havenoheartfuritnow。IfeelasifI\'dbesaferinth\'gulch。”

"Safer?"

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