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Itwaspastmidnightwhenthepriestwasawakenedfromhissleepbyaknockonthedoor。Hewrappedhisgreatbuffalo-coatabouthim,andansweredthesummons。
WithoutinthedampdarknessstoodPierre。
"Father,"hecried,"Ninonhassentforyou。Sincesheleftyou,shehasbeenveryill。IhavedonewhatIcould;butnowshehardlyspeaks,butImakeoutthatshewantsyou。”Tenminuteslater,theywereinNinon\'scabin。WhenFatherdeSmetlookedatherheknewshewasdying。HehadseentheIndianslikethatmanytimesduringthewinter。Itwastheplague,butdrivenintopreyuponthesystembytheexposure。TheParisienne\'steethwereset,butshemanagedtosmileuponhervisitorashethrewoffhiscoatandbentoverher。
Hepouredsomewhiskeyforher;butshecouldnotgettheliquidoverherthroat。
"Donot,"shesaidfiercelybetweenthosesetwhiteteeth,"donotforgetthelilies。”Shesankbackandfixedherglazingeyesontheantlers,andkeptthemtherewatchingthosedanglingsilkenscarves,whilethepriest,inhaste,spokethewordsforthedepartingsoul。
Thenextmorningshelaydeadamongthosehalfbarbaricrelicsofhercoquetry,andtwowhitelilieswithheartsofgoldshedperfumefromanaltarinawilderness。
UptheGulch"GOWest?"sighedKate。"Why,yes!I\'dliketogoWest。”
Shelookedatthebabies,whowereplay-
ingonthefloorwiththeirfather,andsighedagain。
"You\'vegottogosomewhere,youknow,Kate。Itmightaswellbewestasinanyotherdirection。Andthisissuchachance!
Wecan\'thavemammalyingaroundonsofaswithoutanyrosesinhercheeks,canwe?"Heputthislasttothechildren,who,beingyetattheagewhentheytalkedin"EarlyEnglish,"astheirfathercalledit,madeaclamorousbutinarticulatereply。
MajorShelly,thegrandfatheroftheseveryyoungpersons,strokedhismustacheandlookedindulgent。
"Showalmosthumanintelligence,don\'tthey?"saidtheirfather,ashelayflatonhisbackandpermittedthebabiestoclimboverhim。
"Ya-as,"drawledthemajor。"Theydo。
Don\'tseehowyouaccountforit,Jack。”
Jackroared,andthelipsofthebabiestrembledwithfear。
Theirmothersaidnothing。Shewasonthesofa,herhandslyinginert,hereyesfixedonherrosybabieswithanexpressionwhichherfather-in-lawandherhusbandtriedhardnottonotice。
ItwasnoteasytotellwhyKatewasailing。Ofcourse,thebabieswereyoung,buttherewereotherreasons。
"Ibelieveyou\'retoohappy,"Jacksome-
timessaidtoher。"Trynottobequitesohappy,Kate。Atleast,trynottotakeyourhappinesssoseriously。Pleasedon\'tadoremeso;I\'monlyacommonplacefellow。Andthebabies——they\'renotgoingtoblowaway。”
ButKatecontinuedtolookwithintenseeyesatherlittleworld,andtodrawintoitwithlovingandgeneroushandsallwhowerewillingtocome。
"Kateisjustlikeakite,"Jackexplainedtohisfather,themajor;"shecan\'tkeepafloatwithoutjustsomanybobs。”
Kate\'s"bobs"weretheunfortunatesshecollectedaroundher。Theseabsorbedherstrength。Shefelttheirmiserywithsym-
pathiesthatwereabnormal。Theverylaborerinthestreetsfelthistoillesskeenlythanshe,asshewatchedthedropsgatheronhisbrow。
"Islifeworthkeepingatthecostofalotlikethat?"shewouldask。Shefeltashamedofherownease。Sheapologizedforherownsereneandperfecthappiness。
Sheevenfeltsorryforthosemotherswhohadnotchildrenasradiantlybeautifulasherown。
"Katemusthaveachange,"themajorhadgivenout。HewasgoingWestonbusinessandinsistedontakingherwithhim。Jacklookeddoubtful。Hewasn\'tsurehowhewouldgetalongwithoutKatetolookaftereverything。Secretly,hehadanideathatservantswereakindofwildanimalthathadtobefedbyanexperiencedkeeper。Butwhenthetimecame,hekissedhergood-byinasjocularamannerashecouldsummon,andrefusedtoseethetearsthatgatheredinhereyes。
UntilChicagowasreached,therewasnothingverydifferentfromthatwhichKatehadbeeninthehabitofseeing。
Afterthat,shesetherselftowatchforWesterncharacteristics。Shefeltthatshewouldknowthemassoonasshesawthem。
"Iexpectedtobestirredupandshocked,"
sheexplainedtothemajor。Butsomehow,theWesterntypedidnotappear。Common-
placewomenwithwornfaces——brownedandseamed,thoughnotaged——wereatthestations,waitingforsomethingorsomeone。Menwithahurried,nervousairwereeverywhere。KatelookedinvainforthegayetyandheartinesswhichshehadalwaysassociatedwiththeWest。
Aftertheygotbeyondthetimbercountryandrodehourafterhouronatractsmoothasabecalmedocean,shegaveherselfuptothefeelingofimmeasurablevastnesswhichtookpossessionofher。Thesunrolledoutoftheskyintooblivionwithafrantic,head-
longhaste。Nothingsoftenedtheaspectofitswrath。Near,red,familiar,itseemedtovisiblybowlalongtheheavens。Inthemorningitroseasbaldlyasithadset。
Andbackandforthovertheawfulplainblewthewinds,——blewfromeasttowestandbackagain,strongasiffreshfromthechambersoftheirbirth,fullofelementalscentsandofmightymurmurings。
"ThisistheWest!"Katecried,againandagain。
Themajorlistenedtoherunsmilingly。
Italwaysseemedtohimawasteofmuscu-
larenergytosmile。Hedidnottalkmuch。
Conversationhadneverappealedtohiminthelightofanart。Hespokewhentherewasadirectionoracommandtobegiven,oraninquirytobemade。Themajor,ifthetruthmustbeknown,wasmaterial。
Thingsthathecouldtaste,touch,see,appealedtohim。Hehadbeenavolunteerinthecivilwar,——avolunteerwithagoodrecord,——whichhenevermentioned;and,havingacquittedhimselfdecently,letthemattergowithoutaskingreprisalorpay-
mentforwhathehadfreelygiven。Hewentintobusinessandsoldcerealfoods。
"Ibelieveinusefulthings,"themajorexpressedhimself。"Oatmeal,wheat,——
menhavetohavethem。Godintendedtheyshould。There\'sJack——myson——
JackShelly——lawyer。What\'stheuseoflitigation?Goddidn\'tdesignlitigation。
Itdoesn\'tdoanybodyanygood。Itisn\'tjusticeyouget。It\'ssomethingentirelydifferent,——averdictaccordingtolaw。
TheysayJack\'sclever。ButI\'mmightygladIsellwheat。”
Hedidn\'tsellitasaspeculator,how-
ever。Thatwasn\'thisway。
"IearnwhatImake,"heoftensaid;andhehadgrownrichinthesellingofhiswholesomefoods……
Helenaliesamonground,brownhills。
Aboveitisaskyofdeepandillimitableblue。Inthestreetsarecrumbsofgold,butitnolongerpaystomineforthese;
because,asrealestate,thepropertyismorevaluable。Itisaplaceoffictitiousvalues。
Thereisexcitementintheair。Menhavethefacesofspeculators。Everylaborerispatientathistaskbecausehecherishesahopethatsomedayhewillbeamillion-
naire。Thereishospitality,andcordialityandgoodfellowship,andanundeniabledemocracy。Thereiswealthandluxuriousliving。Thereisevenculture,——butitisobtrudedasasortofnovelty;itisnotacceptedasamatterofcourse。
Kateandthemajorweredrivenovertwoorthreemilesofdusty,hardroadtoadis-
tanthotel,whichstandsinthemidstofgreenness,——inanoasis。Immediatelyabovethegreenswardthatsurroundsitthebrownhillsrise,thegrassscorchedbythesun。
Kateyieldedherselftothealmostabsurdluxuryoftheplacewitheaseandcompla-
cency。Shetookkindlytothegreatveran-
das。Sheadaptedherselftotheelaborateandill-assortedmeals。Shebathedinthemarvellouspool,warmwiththeheatofeternalfiresinmid-earth。ThispoolwascoveredwithapicturesqueMoorishstruct-
ure,andatoneendacascadetumbled,overwhichthesun,comingthroughcoloredwin-
dows,madeamimicprisminthewhitespray。Thelifewasnotunendurable。Themajorwasseldomwithher,beingobligedtogoabouthisbusiness;andKateamusedherselfbydrivingoverthehills,bywatch-
ingtheinhabitants,bywonderingaboutthelivesinthegreat,pretentious,unhomelikehouseswiththeirtreelessyardsandtheirclosedshutters。Thesunlight,whiteastheglareonArabiansands,penetratedeverywhere。Itseemedtofairlyscorchtheeye-balls。
"Oh,we\'reWest,now,"Katesaid,exult-
antly。"I\'veseenathousandtypes。Butyet——notquiteTHEtype——nottheimper-
sonationofsimplicityanddaringthatIwaslookingfor。”
Themajordidn\'tknowquitewhatshewastalkingabout。Butheacquiesced。
Allhecaredaboutwastoseehergrowstronger;andthatshewasdoingeveryday。
Shewasgrowingamazinglylovely,too,——
atleastthemajorthoughtso。Everyonelookedather;butthatwas,perhaps,be-
causeshewassuchasylphofawoman。
Besidethestalwartmajor,shelookedlikeafairyprincess。
Onedayshesuddenlyrealizedthefactthatshehadhadacompanionontheverandaforseveralmornings。Ofcourse,therewereagreatmanypersons——invalids,largely——sittingabout,butoneofthemhadbeenobtrudinghimselfpersistentlyintoherconsciousness。Itwasnotthathewasrude;itwasonlythathewasthinkingabouther。ApersonwithatemperamentlikeKate\'scouldnotlongbeoblivioustoathinglikethat;andshefurtivelyobservedtheoffenderwiththatgeniusforpsycho-
logicalperceptionwhichwasatoncehergreatestdangerandhercharm。
Themanwasdressedwithachildishattemptatdisplay。Hisshirt-frontwasdecoratedwithadiamond,andhiscuff-
buttonswereofonyxwithdiamondsettings。
Hisclotheswereexpensiveandperceptiblynew,andheoftenchangedhiscostumes,butwithanoticeabledisregardforpro-
priety。Hewasveryconsciousofhissilkhat,andfrequentlywipeditwithahandker-
chiefonwhichhismonogramwasworkedinblue。
Whenthe\'bussesbroughtuptheirloads,hewasalwaysonhandtowatchthenew-
comers。Hetookalongtimeathisdin-
ners,andappearedtoorderagreatdealandeatverylittle。Therewerecard-roomsandabilliard-hall,nottomentionabowling-
alleyandatennis-court,wheretheotherguestsofthehotelspentmuchtime。Butthismannevervisitedthem。Hesatoftenwithoneofthelatereviewsinhishand,lookingasifheintendedgivinghisatten-
tiontoitatanymoment。Butafterhehadscrupulouslycuttheleaveswithalittlecarvedivorypaper-cutter,hesatstaringstraightbeforehimwiththebookopen,butunread,inhishand。
Katetookmoreinterestinthismelan-
choly,middle-agedmanthanshewouldhavedoneifshehadnotbeenontheout-
lookforherWesterntype,——themanwhowastocombineallthequalitiesofchivalry,daring,bombast,andgenerosity,seasonedwithpiquantgrammar,whichshefirmlybelievedtobetherealthing。Butnotwith-
standingthiskindlyandsomewhatcuriousinterest,shemightneverhavemadehisacquaintanceifithadnotbeenforaratherunpleasantadventure。
Themajorwas"closingupadeal"andhadhurriedawayafterbreakfast,andKate,intheluxuryofconvalescence,half-reclinedinagreatchairontheverandaandwatchedtheduskybluemisttwiningitselfaroundthebrownhills。Shewasnotthinkingofthebabies;shewasnotworryingabouthome;shewasnotlongingforanything,orevenindulginginadream。Thatvacuouscontentwhichengrossesthebodyafterlongindisposition,heldherimperatively。Sud-
denlyshewasarousedfromthishappycon-
ditionofnothingnessbythespectacleofanenormousbull-dogapproachingherwiththreateningteeth。Shehadnoticedthemonsterofteninhiskennelnearthesta-
bles,anditwaswellunderstoodthathewasnevertobepermittedhisfreedom。Nowhewalkedtowardherwithasolidstepandanalarmingdeliberateness。Katesatstillandtriedtoassureherselfthathemeantnomis-
chief,butbythetimethegreatbodyhadmadeitselffeltontheskirtofhergownshecouldrestrainherfearnolonger,andgaveanervouscryofalarm。Thebruteansweredwithagrowl。Ifhehadlackedprovocationbefore,heconsideredthathehaditnow。
Heshowedhisteethandflunghisdetestablebodyuponher;andKatefeltherselfgrow-
ingdizzywithfear。Butjustthenanarmwasinterposedandthedogwasflungback。
Therewasamomentarystruggle。Somegentlemencamehurryingoutoftheoffice;
andastheybeatthedogbacktoitsretreat,Katesummonedwordsfromherparchedthroattothankherbenefactor。
Itwasthemelancholymanwiththenewclothes。Thismorninghewasdressedinasuitofthelightestgray,withawhitemarseilleswaistcoat,overwhichhisglitter-
ingchainshoneostentatiously。Whitetennis-shoes,awhiteroseinhisbutton-
hole,andawhitestrawhatinhishandcom-
pletedatoiletoverwhichmuchtimehadevidentlybeenspent。Katenotedthesedetailsassheheldoutherhand。
"Imayhavebeenalarmedwithoutcause,"
shesaid;"butIwashorriblyfrightened。
Thankyousomuchforcomingtomyres-
cue。AndIthink,ifyouwouldaddtoyourkindnessbygettingmeaglassofwater——"
Whenhecameback,hishandwastrem-
blingalittle;andasKatelookeduptolearnthecause,shesawthathisfacewasflushed。Hewasembarrassed。Shedecidedthathewasnotaccustomedtothesocietyofladies。"Bruteslikethatdogain\'tnoplaceinth\'world——that\'smyopinion。
Therearesomebadthingswecan\'thelphavin\'aroun\';butabull-dogain\'toneof\'em。”
"Iquiteagreewithyou,"Kateacqui-
esced,asshedrankthewater。"ButasthisisthefirstunpleasantexperienceofanykindthatIhavehadsinceIcamehere,Idon\'tfeelthatIhaveanyrighttocomplain。”
"You\'reherefuryurhealth?"
"Yes。AndIamgettingit。You\'renotaninvalid,Iimagine?"
"No——no-op。I\'mherebe——well,I\'vethoughtfuralongtimeI\'dliket\'stayatthisherehotel。”
"Indeed!"
"Yes。I\'vebeenupth\'gulchthesefif-
teenyears。Binlivin\'onashelfofblackrock。
Th\'sungot\'round\'boutten。Couldn\'tmakeathinggrow。”Themanwaslook-
ingofftowardthehills,withanexpressionofdeepsadnessinhiseyes。"Didn\'tneverliveinaplacewherenothin\'\'dgrow,didyou?Itookgeraniumsupthartimean\'timeagin。Redones。Mademethinkofmother;she\'sinGermany。Watered\'emmornin\'an\'night。Th\'damnedthingsdied。”
Theoathslippedoutwithanartlessun-
consciousness,andtherewasalittlemoist-
ureinhiseyes。Katefeltsheoughttobringtheconversationtoaclose。ShewonderedwhatJackwouldsayifhesawhertalkingwithaperfectstrangerwhousedoaths!Shewouldhavegoneintothehousebutforsomethingthatcaughthereye。Itwasthehandoftheman;thathandwasabludgeon。Allgraceandflexibilityhadgoneoutofit,andithadbecomeamereinstrumentoftoil。Itwasseamedandmisshapen;yetithadbeencarefullymani-
cured,andthepointednailslookedfantasticandanimal-like。Agreatseal-ringboreanelaboratemonogram,whilethelittlefingerdisplayedacollectionofdiamondsandemeraldstrulydazzlingtobehold。Animpulseofhumanityandasortofartisticcuriosity,muchstrongerthanherdiscretion,urgedKatetocontinueherconversation。
"Whatwereyoudoingupthegulch?"
shesaid。
Themanleanedbackinhischairandregardedheramomentbeforeanswering。
Herealizedthesignificanceofherquestion。
Hetookitasasignthatshewaswillingtobefriendly。Alookofgratitude,almosttender,sprangintohiseyes,——dullgrayeyes,theywere,withakindlinessfortheironlyrecommendation。
"Makin\'mypile,"hereplied。"I\'vebeeninthesepartstwentyyears。WhenI
comehere,IthoughtIwasgoin\'tomakeafortunerightoff。Ihadallth\'moneythatmothercouldgiveme,andIlosteverythingI
hadinthreemonths。Iwentupth\'gulch。”
Hepaused,andwipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief。
TherewassomethinginhisremarkandtheintonationwhichmadeKatesaysoftly:
"Isupposeyou\'vehadahardtimeofit。”
"Tharyouwere!"hecried。"Tharwasth\'rock——risin\',risin\',black!Atth\'
bottomwusth\'creek,howlin\'dayan\'
night!Lonesome!Gee!Noonet\'talkto。Ofcourse,th\'men。Hadsomewithmealways。Theydidn\'ttalk。It\'stoo——
tooquiett\'talkmuch。Theyplayedcards。
Curious,butIneverplayedcards。Don\'tthinkI\'dfinditamusin\'。No,Iworked。
Camedownhereonceinsixmonthsorthreemonths。Hadt\'come——grub-stakedth\'men,youknow。Didyouevereatsaltpork?"HeturnedtoKatesuddenlywiththisquestion。
"Why,yes;afewtimes。Didyouhaveit?"
"Nothin\'else,much。Iusedt\'thinkofth\'thingsmothercooked。Motherunder-
stoodcookin\',ifeverawomandid。I\'llneverforgetth\'dinnershegavemeth\'dayIcameaway。Awomanoughtt\'cook。I
hearAmericanwomendon\'tgoinmuchforcookin\'。”
"Oh,Ithinkthat\'samistake,"Katehastenedtointerrupt。"AllthatIknowun-
derstandhowtoserveexcellentdinners。Ofcourse,theymaynotcookthemthemselves,butIthinktheycouldifitwerenecessary。”
"Hum!"HepickedupalongglovethathadfallenfromKate\'slapandfingereditbeforereturningit。
"Is\'poseyoucook?"
"Imakeaspecialtyofsaladsandsor-
bets,"smiledKate。"IguessIcouldroastmeatandmakebread;butcircumstanceshavenotyetcompelledmetodoit。ButI\'veatheorythatanAmericanwomancandoanythingsheputshermindto。”
Themanlaughedoutloud,——alaughquiteoutofproportiontothemildgoodhumoroftheremark;butitwasevidentthathecouldnolongerconcealhisdelightatthiscompanionship。
"Howaboutraisin\'flowers?"heasked。
"Areyoustrongonthat?"
"I\'veonlytolookataplanttomakeitgrow,"Katecried,withenthusiasm。
"Whenmyfriendsareindespairoveraplant,theybringittome,andIjustpetitalittle,anditbrightensup。I\'vethemostwonderfulferneryyoueversaw。It\'sgreen,summerandwinter。Hundredsofpeoplestopandlookupatit,itissogreenandenticing,thereabovethecitystreets。”
"Whatcity?"
"Philadelphia。”
"Mother\'sjestthatway。Shehasagar-
denofroses。Andthemignonette——"
Buthebrokeoffsuddenly,andsatoncemorestaringbeforehim。
"Butnotadamnedthing,"headded,withpoeticpensiveness,"wouldgrowinthatgulch。”
"Whydidyoustaytheresolong?"askedKate,afteralittlepauseinwhichsheman-
agedtoregainherwaningcourage。
"Badluck。Youneverseeaplacewithsomanyfalseleads。To-dayyou\'dgetastreakthatlookedbig。To-morrowyou\'dfinditapocket。OnenightI\'dgot\'bedwithmyheartgoin\'likearace-horse。
Nextnightitwouldbeploddin\'alonglikeawindedburro。Don\'tknowwhatmademestickt\'it。Itwashotthere,too!Andcold!Alwaysroastin\'urfreezin\'。It\'dbeendifferentifI\'dhadanyonet\'helpmestandit。Butth\'menwerealwaysfindin\'
fault。Theyblamedmefureverythin\'。I
usedt\'lieawakeatnightan\'hear\'emtalkin\'meover。Itmademelonesome,I
tellyou!Tharwasn\'tnoone!Motherusedt\'write。ButInevertoldherth\'
truth。Sheain\'tasuspicionofwhatI\'vebeena-goin\'through。”
Katesatandlookedathiminsilence。
Hisfacewasseamed,thoughfarfromold。
Hisbodywasawkward,butimpressedherwithasenseofmagnificentstrength。
"Icouldn\'tasknowomant\'sharemyhardtimes,"heresumedafteratime。"I
alwayssaidwhenIgotawoman,itwasgoin\'t\'bet\'makeherhappy。Itwer\'n\'tt\'bet\'askhert\'drudge。”
Therewasanothersilence。Thismanoutofthesolitudeseemedtobeelatedpastexpressionathisnewcompanionship。HelookedwithappreciationatthelittlepointedtoesofKate\'sslippers,astheyglancedfrombelowtheskirtofherdaintyorgandie。Henotedthebandofpearlsonherfinger。Hiseyesrestedlongonthedaisiesatherwaist。
Thewindtosseduplittlecurlsofherwarmbrownhair。Hereyessuffusedwithinter-
est,hertendermouthseemedreadytolenditselftoanyemotion,andwithalshewassosmall,socompact,soexquisite。Themanwipedhisforeheadagain,inmereexuberance。
"Here\'smycard,"hesaid,verysolemnly,ashedrewanengravedbitofpasteboardfromitsleathercase。Katebowedandtookit。
"Mr。PeterRoeder,"sheread。
"I\'venocard,"shesaid。"MynameisShelly。I\'mhereformyhealth,asItoldyou。”Sheroseatthispoint,andheldoutherhand。"Imustthankyouoncemoreforyourkindness,"shesaid。
Hiseyesfastenedonherswithanappealforalessformalword。Therewassomethingalmostterribleintheirsilenteloquence。
"Ihopewemaymeetagain,"shesaid。
Mr。PeterRoedermadeaverylowandawkwardbow,andopenedthedoorintothecorridorforher。
ThateveningthemajorannouncedthathewasobligedtogotoSeattle。Thejourneywasnotaninvitingone;Katewaswellplacedwhereshewas,andhedecidedtoleaveher。
Shewaswellenoughnowtotakelongerdrives;andshefoundstrange,lonelycan-
yons,wildandbeautiful,whereyellowwatersburstthroughrockybarrierswithroarandfury,——tortuous,terribleplaces,suchasshehadneverdreamedof。Comingbackfromoneofthesedrives,twodaysafterherconversationonthepiazzawithPeterRoeder,shemethimridingamassiveroan。
HesattheanimalwiththatairofperfectunconsciousnesswhichistheattributeoftheWesternman,andhisattire,eventohisEnglishstock,wasfaultless,——faultilyfaultless。
"Ihopeyouwon\'tobjecttohavin\'meridebesideyou,"hesaid,wheelinghishorse。Totellthetruth,Katedidnotobject。Shewasalittledull,andhadbeenconsciousallthemorningofthatpeculiarphysicaldepressionwhichmarksthebegin-
ningofafitofhomesickness。
"Thewindgitsafinesweep,"saidRoeder,afterhavingobtainedthepermis-
sionhedesired。"Nowinthegulchweeitherhadadeadstagnation,orelsethewindwastearin\'upanddownlikeawildbeast。”
Katedidnotreply,andtheywentontogether,facingtheriotouswind。
"Youcan\'tguesshowqueeritseemst\'
behere,"hesaid,confidentially。"Itseemst\'measifIhadcomefromsomeotherplanet。Thardon\'trightlyseemt\'benoplacefurme。Itellyouwhatit\'slike。
It\'sasifI\'dcomedownt\'enlistinth\'
ranks,an\'found\'emfull,——everymanmarchin\'alonginhisplace,an\'noplaceleftfurme。”
Katecouldnotfindareply。
"Iain\'tafriend,——notafriend!Iain\'tcomplainin\'。Itain\'tth\'faultofanyone——butmyself。Youdon\'knowwhatadurnedfoolI\'vebin。Someway,uptharinth\'gulchIgott\'seemin\'sosortofimpor-
tantt\'myself,andmymakin\'mystakeseemedsuchabigthing,thatIthoughtI
hadonlyt\'comedownheret\'Helenat\'
havefolkswantt\'knowme。Ididn\'tparticularwantth\'moneybecauseitwusmoney。Butouthereyouworkfurit,jestasyouworkfurotherthingsinotherplaces,——jestbecauseeveryoneisworkin\'furit,andit\'sthemanwhogetsth\'mostthatbeats。Itain\'tthattheyareanymoregreedythanmenanywhereelse。Mypile\'saprettygood-sizedone。An\'it\'slikelytobebigger;butnooneelseseemst\'care。
Th\'paperprintedsomepiecesaboutit。
Someofth\'mencameroundt\'seeme;
butIsawtheirgame。IsaidIguessedI\'dlookfurtherfurmyacquaintances。I
ain\'tspokentoalady,——notareallady,youknow,——t\'talkwith,friendlylike,butyou,fur——years。”
Hisfaceflushedinthatsuddenwayagain。
Theywerepassingsomeofthosepreten-
tioushouseswhichriseinthemidstofHelena\'sraggedstreetswithsuchanextra-
neousair,andKateleanedforwardtolookatthem。Thedriver,seeingherinterest,drewupthehorsesforamoment。
"Fine,fine!"ejaculatedRoeder。"Buttheyain\'tgotnogarden。Ahousedon\'tseemanythin\'t\'mewithoutagarden。
DoyouknowwhatIthinkwouldbeth\'
mostbeautifulthinginth\'world?A
babyinarose-garden!Doyouknow,I
ain\'thadababyinmyhands,excep\'NedRamsey\'slittlekid,once,fortenyear!"
Kate\'sfaceshonewithsympathy。
"Howdreadful!"shecried。"Icouldn\'tlivewithoutababyabout。”
"Likebabies,doyou?Well,well。
Boys?Likeboys?"
"Notabitbetterthangirls,"saidKate,stoutly。
"Ilikeboys,"respondedRoeder,withconviction。"Mymotherlikedboys。Shehadthreegirls,butshelikedmeadamnedsightthebest。”
Katelaughedoutright。
"Whydoyouswear?"shesaid。"I
neverheardamanswearbefore,——atleast,notonewithwhomIwastalking。That\'soneofyourgulchhabits。Youmustgetoverit。”
Roeder\'sblondfaceturnedscarlet。
"Youmustexcuseme,"hepleaded。
"I\'llcuremyselfofit!Jestgivemeachance。”
ThiswasalittlemorepersonalthanKateapprovedof,andsheraisedherparasoltoconcealherannoyance。Itwasabrilliantlittlefluffofathingwhichlookedasifitweremadeofbutterflies\'wings。Roedertoucheditwithawe。
"Youhavesechbeautifulthings,"hesaid。"Ididn\'tknowwomenworesechnicethings。Nowthatdress——it\'slike——Idon\'tknowwhatit\'slike。”Itwasasimplelittletaffeta,withwarpandwoofofazureandofcream,andgayknotsofribbonaboutit。
"Wehavetheadvantageofmen,"shesaid。"Ioftenthinkoneofthegreatestdrawbackstobeingamanwouldbethesombreclothes。Iliketoweartheprettiestthingsthatcanbefound。”
"Lace?"queriedRoeder。"Doyoulikelace?"
"Ishouldsayso!Didyoueverseeawomanwhodidn\'t?"
"Hu——um!ThesewomenI\'veknowndon\'tknowlace,——thesewivesofth\'menouthere。They\'reth\'onlykindI\'veseenthislongtime。”
"Oh,ofcourse,butImean——"
"Iknowwhatyoumean。Mymotherhasachestfulloflinenan\'lace。Sheshoweditt\'meth\'dayIleft。\'Peter,\'shesaid,\'somedayyoubringawifehomewithyou,an\'I\'llgiveyouthatlacean\'thatlinen。\'
An\'I\'mgoin\'t\'doit,too,"hesaidquietly。
"Ihopeso,"saidKate,withhereyesmoist。"Ihopeyouwill,andthatyourmotherwillbeveryhappy。”……
Therewasahopatthehotelthatnight,anditwasalmostamatterofcourtesyforKatetogo。Ladieswereindemand,fortherewerenotverymanyofthematthehotel。Everyonewasexpectedtodohisbesttomakeitasuccess;andKate,notatallaversetoawaltzortwo,dressedherselffortheoccasionwithherhabitualstrivingafterartisticeffect。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhomakeapictureofthemselvesasnaturallyasabirdsings。ShehadanopalnecklacewhichJackhadgivenherbecause,hesaid,shehadasmanymoodsasanopalhadcolors;andsheworethiswithacré;pegown,thetintofthegreenlightsinhernecklace。Aboxofflowerscameforherasshewasdressing;theywerePuritanroses,andPeterRoeder\'scardwasinthemidstofthem。Shewasusedtohavingflowersgivenher。Itwouldhaveseemedremark-
ableifsomeonehadnotsentherabouquetwhenshewasgoingtoaball。
"Ishalldancebuttwice,"shesaidtothosewhosoughtherforapartner。
"Neithermorenorless。”
"Ain\'tyougoin\'t\'dancewithmeatall?"Roedermanagedtosaytoherinthemidstofherlaughingaltercationwiththegentlemen。
"Dancewithyou!"criedKate。"Howdomenlearntodancewhentheyareupagulch?"
"Ikendance,"hesaidstubbornly。Hewasmortifiedatherchaffing。
"Thenyoumayhavethesecondwaltz,"
shesaid,inquickcontrition。"Nowyouothergentlemenhavebeendancinganynumberoftimestheselastfifteenyears。
ButMr。Roederisjustbackfromahardcampaign,——acampaignagainstfate。Mysecondwaltzishis。AndIshalldancemybest。”
Ithappenedtobejusttherightsortofspeech。Thewomentriedgood-naturedlytomakeRoeder\'seveningapleasantone。
Theywerefilledwithcompassionforamanwhohadnotenjoyedthesocietyoftheirsexforfifteenyears。Theyfoundmuchamuse-
mentinleadinghimthroughthesquaredances,theformsofwhichwereutterlyunknowntohim。Buthewaltzedwithasortofseriousalertnessthatwasnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。
Katedancedwell。Herslightbodyseemedasfullofthespiritofthewaltzasathrush\'sbodyisofsong。PeterRoedermovedalongwithherinamaze,onlyhalf-
answeringherquestions,hisgrayeyesfullofmystery。
Oncetheystoppedforamoment,andhelookeddownather,aswithflushedfaceshestoodsmilingandwavinghergossamerfan,eachmotionstirringthefrailleavesoftheroseshehadsenther。
"It\'scur\'ous,"hesaidsoftly,"butIkeepthinkin\'aboutthatblackgulch。”
"Forgetit,"shesaid。"Whydoyouthinkofagulchwhen——"Shestoppedwithasuddenrecollectionthathewasnotusedtopersiflage。Butheanticipatedwhatshewasabouttosay。
"Whythinkofthegulchwhenyouarehere?"hesaid。"Why,becauseitisonlyth\'gulchthatseemsreal。Allthis,——thesepleasant,politepeople,thisbeautifulroom,th\'flowerseverywhere,andyou,andmeasIam,seemasifIwasdreamin\'。Tharain\'tanythinginitallthatislikewhatI
thoughtitwouldbe。”
"Notasyouthoughtitwouldbe?"
"No。Different。Ithoughtitwouldbe——well,Ithoughtth\'peoplewouldnotbequitesohigh-toned。Ihopeyoudon\'tmindthatword。”
"Notintheleast,"shesaid。"It\'samu-
sicalterm。Itappliesverywelltopeople。”
Theytookupthedanceagainandwaltzedbreathlesslytilltheclose。Katewastired;
theexertionhadbeenalittlemorethanshehadbargainedfor。Shesatverystillontheverandaunderthewhiteglareofanelectricball,andletRoederdothetalking。Herthoughts,inspiteoftheentertainmentshewasderivingfromherpresentexperiences,wouldgobacktothebabies。Shesawthemtuckedwellinbed,eachinalittleironcrib,withthemuslincurtainsshieldingtheirrosyfacesfromthelight。ShewonderedifJackwerereadingaloneinthelibraryorwasattheclub,orperhapsatthesummercon-
cert,withtheswelloftheviolinsinhisears。Jackdidsolovemusic。Asshethoughthowdelicatehisperceptionswere,howherespondedtoeverythingmostsubtleinnatureandinart,ofhowlifeitselfwasafineartwithhim,andjoyathingtobecultivated,sheturnedwithasenseofdeepcompassiontothesimplemanbyherside。
Hisroughfacelookedalittlemoreunat-
tractivethanusual。Hiseveningclotheswerealmostgrotesque。Hisfaceworealookofsolitude,ofhunger。
"Whatwereyousaying?"shesaid,dreamily。"Ibegyourpardon。”
"Iwassayin\'howIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'onthestepsofahotellikethis,andnothavin\'athingt\'do。WhenIusedt\'
comedownhereoutofthegulch,andseemenwhohadhadgooddinners,an\'goodbaths,sittin\'aroundsmokin\',withmoneyt\'goovertheret\'th\'bookstan\'an\'getany-
thin\'they\'dwant,itusedt\'seemt\'meaboutallasinglemancouldwishfur。”
"Well,you\'vegotitallnow。”
"ButIdidn\'tanyofth\'timesupposethatwouldsatisfyamanlong。OnlyIwassodarnedtiredIcouldn\'thelpwantin\'t\'
rest。ButI\'mnotsoselfishurs\'narrowastobesatisfiedwithTHAT。No,I\'mnotgoin\'t\'spendm\'pilethatway——quite!"
Helaughedoutloud,andthensatinsilencewatchingKateasshelaybackwearilyinherchair。
"I\'vegott\'havethattheregarden,"hesaid,laughingly。"Gott\'getthemroses。
An\'I\'llhaveabigbath-house,——plentyofspringsinthiscountry。Youkenhaveabathherethatwon\'tfreezesummerNOR
winter。An\'ababy!I\'vegott\'haveababy。He\'llgowithth\'rosesan\'th\'
bath。”Helaughedagainheartily。
"It\'saqueerjoke,isn\'tit?"Roederasked。"Talkin\'aboutmybaby,an\'I
haven\'tevenawife。”Hisfaceflushedandheturnedhiseyesaway。
"HaveIshownyouthepicturesofmybabies?"Kateinquired。"You\'dlikemyboy,Iknow。Andmygirlisjustlikeme,——inminiature。”
Therewasasilence。Shelookedupafteramoment。Roederappearedtobeexaminingthemonogramonhisringasifhehadneverseenitbefore。
"Ididn\'tunderstandthatyouweremar-
ried,"hesaidgently。
"Didn\'tyou?Idon\'tthinkyouevercalledmebyanynameatall,orIshouldhavenoticedyourmistakeandsetyouright。
Yes,I\'mmarried。Icameoutheretogetstrongforthebabies。”
"Gotaboyan\'agirl,eh?"
"Yes。”
"Howold\'sth\'boy?"
"Five。”
"An\'th\'girl?"
"She\'llsoonbefour。”
"An\'yerhusband——he\'slivin\'?"
"Ishouldsayso!I\'maveryhappywoman,Mr。Roeder。IfonlyIwerestronger!"
"Yerlookin\'muchbetter,"hesaid,gravely,"thanwhenyoucome。You\'llbeallright。”
Themoonbegantocomeupscarletbeyondtheeasternhills。Thetwowatcheditinsilence。Katehadafeelingofguilt,asifshehadbeenhurtingsomehelplessthing。
"Iwasinhopes,"hesaid,suddenly,inavoicethatseemedabruptandshrill,"thetyou\'dseefitt\'stayhere。”
"HereinHelena?Oh,no!"
"Iwasthinkin\'I\'dofferyouthattwohundredthousanddollars,ifyou\'dstay。”
"Mr。Roeder!Youdon\'tmean——
surely——"
"Why,yes。Whynot?"Hespokeratherdoggedly。"I\'llneverseenootherwomanlikeyou。You\'redifferentfromothers。Howgoodyou\'vebeent\'me!"
"Good!I\'mafraidI\'vebeenverybad——atleast,verystupid。”
"Isay,now——yourhusband\'sgoodt\'
you,ain\'the?"
"Heisthekindestmanthateverlived。”
"Oh,well,Ididn\'tknow。”
AratherawkwardpausefollowedwhichwasbrokenbyRoeder。
"Idon\'tseejestwhatI\'mgoin\'t\'dowiththatthartwohundredthousanddol-
lars,"hesaid,mournfully。
"Dowithit?Why,livewithit!Sendsometoyourmother。”
"Oh,I\'vedonethat。Fivethousanddollars。Itdon\'tseemmuchhere;butit\'llseemalott\'her。I\'dsendhermore,onlyitwould\'vebotheredher。”
"Thenthereisyourhouse,——thehousewiththebath-room。ButIsupposeyou\'llhaveotherrooms?"
Peterlaughedalittleinspiteofhimself。
"IguessIwon\'thaveahouse,"hesaid。
"An\'Icouldn\'tmakeagardenalone。”
"Hireamantohelpyou。”Katewastrembling,butshekepttalkinggayly。Shewasprayingthatnothingveryseriouswouldhappen。Therewasanundercurrentofsom-
brenessintheman\'smannerthatfrightenedher。
"IguessI\'lljesthavet\'keepondreamin\'ofthatboyplayin\'withth\'roses。”
"No,no,"criedKate;"hewillcometruesomeday!Iknowhe\'llcometrue。”
Petergotupandstoodbyherchair。
"Youdon\'tknownothin\'aboutit,"hesaid。"Youdon\'tknow,an\'youcan\'tknowwhatit\'sbint\'met\'talkwithyou。HereIcomeoutofaplacewherethereain\'tnosoundbutthewaterandthepines。Yearscomean\'go。Stillnosound。Onlythinkin\',thinkin\',thinkin\'!Missin\'allth\'thingsmencarefur!Dreamin\'ofatimewhenIsh\'dstriketh\'pile。ThenI
seedhome,wife,aboy,flowers,everythin\'。
You\'resobeautiful,an\'you\'resogood。
You\'veawayofpickin\'aman\'sheartrightoutofhim。FirsttimeIsetmyeyesonyouIthoughtyouwereth\'nicestthingI
eversee!Andhowlittleyouare!Thathandofyours,——lookatit,——it\'slikealeaf!An\'howeasyyousmile。Upth\'
gulchwedidn\'tsmile;welaughed,butgen\'lybecausesomeonegotinafix。Thenyourvoice!Ah,I\'vethoughtfuryearsthatsomedayImighthearavoicelikethat!Don\'tyougo!Sitstill!I\'mnotblamin\'youfuranythin\';butImaynever,\'slong\'sIlive,findanyonewhowillunderstandthingsth\'wayyouunder-
stand\'em。Here!Itellyouaboutthatgulchan\'youseethatgulch。Youknowhowth\'rainsoundedthar,an\'howth\'
shacklooked,an\'th\'lifeIled,an\'allth\'
thoughtsIhad,an\'th\'longnights,an\'
th\'timeswhen——butnevermind。Iknowyouknowitall。Isawitinyereyes。I
tellyouofmother,an\'yousee\'er。Youknow\'eroldGermanface,an\'\'erproudways,an\'herprideinme,an\'howshewouldthinkIwuzawfullyrich。An\'youseehowshewouldgiveoutthemlinens,allmarkedfurmywife,an\'howIwouldsitan\'watchherdoin\'it,an\'——youseeevery-
thing。Iknowyoudo。Icouldfeelyoudoin\'it。ThenIsaytomyself:\'Hereisth\'onewomaninth\'worldmadefurme。
WhateverIhave,sheshallhave。I\'llspendmylifewaitin\'onher。She\'lltellmeallth\'thingsIoughtt\'know,an\'hevmissedknowin\';she\'llreadt\'me;she\'llbepatientwhenshefindshowdullI\'vegrown。Andthar\'llbeth\'boy——\'"
Heseizedherhandandwrungit,andwasgone。Katesawhimnomorethatnight。
Thenextmorningthemajorreturned。
Katethrewherarmsaroundhisneckandwept。
"Iwantthebabies,"sheexplainedwhenthemajorshowedhisconsternation。"Don\'tmindmycrying。Yououghttobeusedtoseeingmecrybythistime。Imustgethome,that\'sall。ImustseeJack。”
Sothatnighttheystarted。
AtthedoorofthecarriagestoodPeterRoeder,waiting。
"I\'mgoingt\'ridedownwithyou,"hesaid。Themajorlookednonplussed。
Kategotinandthemajorfollowed。
"Come,"shesaidtoRoeder。Hesatoppositeandlookedatherasifhewouldfastenherimageonhismind。
"Youremember,"hesaidafteratime,"thatItoldyouIusedt\'dreamofsittin\'ontheverandaofth\'hotelandhavin\'nothin\'
t\'do?"
"Yes。”
"Well,Idon\'tthinkIcarefurit。I\'vehadamonthofit。I\'mgoin\'backupth\'gulch。”
"No!"criedKate,instinctivelyreachingoutherhandstowardhim。
"Whynot?Iguessyoudon\'tknowme。
IknewthatsomewhereI\'dfindafriend。I
foundthatfriend;an\'nowI\'maloneagain。It\'sprettyquietuptharinthegulch;butI\'lltryit。”
"No,no。GotoEurope;gotoseeyourmother。”
"Ithoughtaboutthatagooddeal,awhileago。ButIdon\'tseemt\'havenoheartfuritnow。IfeelasifI\'dbesaferinth\'gulch。”
"Safer?"